Let's talk transparent. Are you projecting something to those who don't know you very well differently than you do to those who do? Is it different than the truth you are actually protecting within yourself? Discovering that truth, the real root of an issue, can only help to expedite the process of you being able to fix it that much faster. Why play the guessing game with your own progress forward?
If you know where it hurts, tell somebody your exact problem. Choose someone who can give you constructive criticism and offer a true solution to your situation. Surround yourself with people you can trust to be free of judgment and burden when you ask them for help or guidance. Pursue the people you trust the words of and the comfort or expertise they can provide to you personally. Present solutions and connections to others in reciprocation as they need them and you know how to provide it to them.