Mind of Snaps - Positivity Podcast | Ep. 51 - "Are You Committed"

Welcome to "Are You Committed" - the 51st Episode of the Mind of Snaps Positivity Podcast!

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Good morning friends. Happy Wednesday. Whoops these. Uh, well, if you're new to the Patreon, let's start there. Welcome. I'm really happy to have you here. And I super, super, super appreciate you choosing to support everything that I'm in that the community is working on through the Patreon. Thank you a ton. If you've been around for a while, you're fucking awesome. And I appreciate you a ton. I really enjoy recording these podcasts for y'all. And I really enjoy all of our live video chats to like what a What a great addition that really has turned out to be the last stoner chat was this past Saturday and it was mega fun. Our next mindful chat will be this upcoming Saturday. And I hope to see you all there. And don't forget this Saturday is also the next open mic night for stream. That's not a Patreon thing. That's an every one thing. But it's going to be super cool. And if you want an idea of what the open mic nights are all about, you can see examples on my YouTube on the mind of snaps YouTube. So if you have not been able to attend one yet, that's how you can get a glimpse. As you are probably aware, these typically go out on Monday mornings. But yeah, I almost said yesterday, but it's Wednesday. So this this week has disappeared already. Well, half of it. Anyway, Monday morning was silly. I woke up early again, which I really love. And I was so proud of myself for that alone. Because last week, after the first two days, I stopped getting up on time, and I wound up just kicking my own bought for it way more than was necessary. And I don't think any self butt kicker is necessary. But you know, that kind of leads us right into our topic for today's podcast. This week, I would like to talk to you about commitment and beginning again. Each of us has goals we're working towards. And if you don't, it's time for you to sit down and do some deliberate and conscious goal setting. It can be so easy to feel like we fucked up. And now we're past the point of actually achieving those goals we have. Whatever the goal is, though, as soon as you have fallen off, the new task is to simply begin again, after restating your commitment to getting shit done. Now I realized that using the word simple, can make this sound like it is supposed to be easy. But please remember that a lot of what we talked about here really is simple. It really is. But that does not mean it is easy to do simple and easy are not the same. We are looking for ways to create mindful reminders for ourselves. So we can catch ourselves earlier in our processes and get back on track sooner. We do not need to beat ourselves up or create any judgments about what our actions say about us as people. Remember, again, that much of what mindful practice is about is simply noticing, noticing everything without applying judgments. So let's go back to my own example, which kind of resurfaced on Monday morning, I have been struggling to regulate my own schedule again, which is something that typically leads me to feeling really frustrated pretty quickly. It can be so hard to know to really know what needs to be done. And then struggle to follow through. An example I use frequently is the idea of all of us kind of knowing that eating right and exercising is the primary way to lose weight. It's such a simple idea, but how fucking easy is it to actually eat right and exercise and lose that weight. simple idea challenging to execute. For me shades, you know, sleep hydration, air, diet, exercise, and stillness has become something that I use to keep myself on track constantly. If I'm feeling a bit bled, or if I'm not getting as much done as I know I'm capable of, I check in with shades and usually whatever I'm missing becomes apparent very quickly. Last week, I was doing pretty well with shades at the beginning of the week. I went to bed on time, woke up early, got some exercise and got some work done. I was reading I was meditating. I was doing all of it and it felt great. Unfortunately, I managed to maintain the schedule for only about two days I think before making the mistake of Staying up too late. And then as a result, not getting up on time the next day. I was so disappointed in myself because I had just recognized that sitting out on the balcony in the morning is a huge source of joy for me. To feel connected to the neighborhood, I get to watch the sunrise, I get to be outside, the pups and the cat get to be out. All in all, I fucking love it. So that first morning that I woke up and didn't get out of bed right away to make coffee, I felt super frustrated, I felt like I had cheated myself out of a bunch of valuable work time. And I had missed out on some good mindful and relaxing time to Looking back, I think this exact thing is what wound up sending me back to old patterns again. And you might laugh when you hear this because I talk about it often. But I swear one of the first clues for me that I'm fucking up and I'm missing something is when I read download Reddit and or Twitter onto my phone or iPad, I probably delete those apps multiple times each month. So I had what I think was two good mornings. And then on the third, when I missed the sunrise, it sent me down a path of being less productive and less kind to myself. I read download the apps and told myself I'd use them for motivation, which you're right, I told myself that I was just gonna give myself a little treat a little treat of scrolling through the apps. Whenever I did something good, like cleaning or meditating or exercising or whatever. I did not treat myself with those apps, I just got sucked into them. And realistically, they're not even a fucking treat. I don't feel any butter after reading through either of those apps or any social media. Also, I had an interesting revelation this past week during my sheduled pool time. I have lots of moments where I end up noticing really helpful or creative thoughts. Like I have shower thoughts, pool thoughts, walk thoughts, thoughts that come up during yoga, during cooking, etc. You know, when I tend to notice a complete lack of helpful thinking, during social media scrolling and TV binge watching, I seriously get nothing, nothing out of those moments other than a distraction, a distraction. I've said it before. And I will say it again. Now, I do not want to be distracted from my life anymore. I don't want to escape this. I love living. And I know that the challenges I face and the discomfort I experience that all of it is helping me to learn and grow all of it. Anyway, I digress. So I missed my sunrise moment on that third day and then essentially watched as the rest of the week became even more challenging to continue on with it fucked up my momentum. Or at least I told myself, it did. I kept telling myself tomorrow will be better. I'll make sure I get up on time and that'll fix everything. But then the next morning when I didn't get up on time because I stayed up even as little as 10 minutes later than I wanted. I just felt like shit again. I would quickly blame it on not waking up and then basically allow myself to do almost nothing for the day, because I believe the day was pretty much lost and I just had to wait for the next one. I don't think I fully acknowledged how bummed I was to miss the sunrise until I took a shower on one of the days. So where I was I was listening to some jack Johnson. And there was a part in one of his songs where he sings I know she loves the sunrise no longer sees it with her sleeping eyes. And I fucking cried. I cried. Not kidding. brains are wild. On Friday, I managed to get myself back on track somewhat because I knew I was committed to recording every Friday for YouTube, regardless of whether I felt like it or not. I did not feel like it. I recorded but I wouldn't describe myself as feeling thrilled about it as I went about it. Plus, Capone was being ultra sensitive and was following me around whining for a lot of the day. It's which tends to drive me a little bit crazy, especially when I'm a little irritable. I pushed myself to record though because of that internal commitment. But when I was done even though I felt better because I was proud of myself, I wanted to stop there. I had bars, you know becoming an anti racist society scheduled for Friday night. And because that's something I've committed to doing with friends for the community. I stuck to my Commitment there too. I am so glad I did. Friday was a great reminder that I am perfectly capable of getting shit done even when the circumstances aren't perfect. I am perfectly capable of getting shit done even when I don't feel like it. I like many of you, I'm just very well practiced at making excuses for not doing what is right for me. I'm very practiced at putting shit off until tomorrow, when I believe I will have the perfect circumstances I need. What I need to remember though, what we need to remember is there are no perfect circumstances there is only doing or not doing. I think we are so great at creating these like really disempowering narratives for ourselves, that we don't even see ourselves doing it when it's happening. If I had met someone today, who told me my story as theirs in terms of what happened last week, I'm pretty sure I know what I tell them. It's okay. Simply begin again. Do what you can to make today good to take care of your body in your mind and to set yourself up for a good morning tomorrow. Nothing is beyond repair, you haven't failed shit. This was just an attempt. And after caring for yourself today, you'll have time for another attempt in the morning. commit to it. Because I managed to actually stick to what I committed to on Friday. My weekend went great. I got some good rest. I had some really nice moments with the folks who showed up for the Patreon stoner chat. And I got to have a really great Sunday with my siblings having like a little artsy zoom call. When I was done with that, I was able to try a second time at making pizza from scratch. And this time my man helped out and that was really nice getting to make pizza with Alex. It was really it was just wonderful. So on Sunday, I managed to avoid getting too caught up in social media. I got some work done, I hung out with my critters, and I did a lot of my favorite mindful habits. There was even a point on Saturday where I was laying in bed reading with the dogs with the balcony door open. Just feeling nearly overwhelmed with gratitude that I wrote in my journal, I think this is bliss, bliss Bros. lists the me of years ago would have had a hard time even trying to connect to the notion of bliss. I did not think it existed. I didn't. Yet there I was on Saturday, not tripping balls or anything. It's an important distinction to make. Just sitting and reading and knowing that I didn't have anywhere to go or anything I had to do in those moments. And I felt blissful. I hope you all have some simple and blissful moment moments soon, by the way. You deserve it. You really do. As an added note, I don't think the blissful feeling would have emerged. Had I not also been spending a lot of my time thinking thoughts of gratitude prior gratitude is some seriously powerful shit. Seriously. Yeah. Anyway, the weekend went well. I went to bed at a somewhat reasonable time on Sunday night. And again, I committed I committed mentally to getting my ass up and out of bed The next morning, because I fucking love watching the sunrise. Monday showed up. The alarm went off and I very quickly got my buns in gear even though I still felt a little tired. I made my coffee and I went right outside, like 70 something outside and it was dark when I first made it out. I felt perfect. I read my book, I chatted briefly with a few neighbors. I watched the sunrise. I listened to some chill music and I was just feeling great. I was working on the positivity podcast in my head before thinking Oh, I should meditate. I'm going to give my brain a little space to kind of solidify these ideas. So I went into the bedroom again, sat on the bed to meditate. I this time I didn't want to go into the meditation room because I was really enjoying the fresh air coming in from the outside. So I sat down on the bed instead. Well, while sitting I started to get a little uncomfortable. My back has been kind of acting up lately. So I figured why not just lay down and meditate that way. Sometimes I'll do that on my yoga mat in the other room but rarely on the bed. I don't typically fall asleep easily for naps. So it seemed like a safe bet I was wrong i was wrong i was having a dope meditation i was feeling good i got to kind of watch from a distance as my brain started putting together ideas for the positivity podcast which is always cool and then boom i woke up a couple hours later and i had completely forgotten the good shit i was noticing during my meditation i realized i was going to be late for stream too i immediately began to feel frustrated with myself and then right away the unkind and straight up fucking unnecessary narratives begin i went on twitter to let folks know i'd be late and then i just got fucking lost i got lost in social media i wound up barely moving faster than a snail's pace and like i love moving slowly and deliberately throughout my day but there's definitely a mindful way to go about it and this wasn't it so i moved slow as fuck was a little grumpy took my shower got ready went to stream after stream i didn't want to do anything i was tired again i felt a bit bummed about having a shorter stream and not getting the podcast out on time so my urges were pulling me towards reddit and chill yikes instead though instead i remembered how it felt on friday getting shit done even when i didn't feel like it so i made another mental commitment and decided that if i was going to go on social media i was actually going to do shit first so i went to work in my kitchen put on a good podcast episode made some yummy dinner plus some roasted garlic with some of the fresh baked bread from sunday oh it was so good when i was done i felt the urge yet again to just binge watch a show or to scroll through some bullshit but i was determined to not go that route so i ended up putting on a documentary about the dalai lama i'm really glad i did it was a good documentary i forget the name of it but it was something to do with him in science he likes science scientist i don't know i thought again as the night was winding down about how much i love mornings out on the balcony so once again i made that mental commitment to i am getting up tomorrow when my alarm goes off no matter what i don't care how tired i feel i will drink water i will exercise i will do all the things i need to do in order to build up that energy again but i will i will start outside and guess what i got up i remembered that mental commitment i remembered the moments i didn't enjoy i remembered the moments i did and i got my ass out of bed that morning yesterday morning and i had an awesome morning watching the sunrise meditated twice got some reading done got some work done and had a really great stream yesterday even though i was feeling a little bit like kind of poopy about gaming i was a little in a weird kind of mood it was still a good day a good stream i had some good dinner after but that as i was writing this this podcast and kind of pondering what i was going to talk about in it a quote from someone whose name i cannot remember popped into my head was from an impact theory episode are you interested in achieving your goals or are you committed are you interested in achieving your goals or are you committed there's a big difference interested in achieving your goals means when things don't feel perfect or you don't feel like doing it you'll probably pass and fuck around like i did on reddit but being committed to your goals though that's a different story so this week my challenge to you is to cut the shit cut the language of try and maybe and make some fucking commitments to yourself write them down put them on your mirror stand out loud to yourself whatever it takes to get that message through your head and if and when you fall short simply reaffirm your commitment and begin again we are capable of so much but we definitely got to get more practiced at giving ourselves the right breaks when it's appropriate and being straightforward with ourselves when it's time to stop with the excuses and just commit think about some of your most important goals right now things you're most invested in the things that matter to you most now ask yourself am i interested in achieving these goals or am i committed commit my friends commit ben take some deep breaths and get out there so you can manifest dope shit