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In advanced grief"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":23.13,"endTime":26.64,"body":"recovery methods specialist, I"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":26.64,"endTime":30.0,"body":"know how badly the conversation"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":26.64,"endTime":30.0,"body":"around grief needs to change."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":30.63,"endTime":34.35,"body":"Through this podcast, I aim to"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":30.63,"endTime":34.35,"body":"educate gravers and non Grievers"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":34.35,"endTime":38.82,"body":"alike, spread hope and inspire"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":34.35,"endTime":38.82,"body":"compassion toward those hurting."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":39.33,"endTime":43.08,"body":"Lastly, by providing my heart"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":39.33,"endTime":43.08,"body":"with yours and this platform,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":43.44,"endTime":47.1,"body":"Grievers had the opportunity to"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":43.44,"endTime":47.1,"body":"share their wisdom and stories"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":47.25,"endTime":51.54,"body":"of loss and resiliency. How"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":47.25,"endTime":51.54,"body":"about we talk about grief, like"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":51.54,"endTime":58.41,"body":"we talked about the weather?"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":51.54,"endTime":58.41,"body":"Let's get started. Hello, hello."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":58.5,"endTime":63.21,"body":"Thank you for joining me today."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":58.5,"endTime":63.21,"body":"If this is your first episode,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":63.21,"endTime":68.61,"body":"listening to grieving voices,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":63.21,"endTime":68.61,"body":"welcome. I thank you for joining"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":68.79,"endTime":74.67,"body":"in and listening today. And if"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":68.79,"endTime":74.67,"body":"you've been following me since"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":74.67,"endTime":79.47,"body":"the beginning, this is episode"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":74.67,"endTime":79.47,"body":"eight. And if you've listened"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":79.47,"endTime":83.64,"body":"from the beginning, thank you,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":79.47,"endTime":83.64,"body":"thank you, thank you so much. If"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":83.64,"endTime":87.75,"body":"you find this helpful,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":83.64,"endTime":87.75,"body":"beneficial. If it resonates with"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":87.75,"endTime":92.22,"body":"you, I would absolutely"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":87.75,"endTime":92.22,"body":"appreciate and love if you would"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":92.22,"endTime":97.38,"body":"take a moment to share a review,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":92.22,"endTime":97.38,"body":"or share it with someone you"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":97.38,"endTime":103.32,"body":"know or love who is grieving."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":97.38,"endTime":103.32,"body":"Today I'm talking about the"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":103.32,"endTime":109.11,"body":"search for meaning. 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I felt like I"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":159.39,"endTime":165.6,"body":"needed to do something with my"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":165.6,"endTime":170.88,"body":"suffering. And I believe we find"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":165.6,"endTime":170.88,"body":"our passions alongside our"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":170.88,"endTime":175.14,"body":"trauma and our grief. 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Am I trying to busy"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":236.4,"endTime":242.01,"body":"myself from what I'm feeling?"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":236.4,"endTime":242.01,"body":"Because if that is the case,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":242.46,"endTime":249.39,"body":"then it may be time to really"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":242.46,"endTime":249.39,"body":"address the story, address the"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":249.39,"endTime":254.73,"body":"feelings behind the story. 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And because no"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":319.62,"endTime":324.0,"body":"matter what you think or feel or"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":324.0,"endTime":329.25,"body":"say, the griever wishes their"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":324.0,"endTime":329.25,"body":"loved one was here with them in"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":329.25,"endTime":334.5,"body":"the flesh. People may also to"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":329.25,"endTime":334.5,"body":"say, it is what it is they have"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":334.5,"endTime":339.81,"body":"this attitude of, well, you"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":334.5,"endTime":339.81,"body":"know, it is what it is, it's"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":339.84,"endTime":344.19,"body":"they passed away. Again, that's"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":339.84,"endTime":344.19,"body":"kind of saying it was their"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":344.19,"endTime":348.27,"body":"time, things like that. So"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":344.19,"endTime":348.27,"body":"that's one camp of people and"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":348.3,"endTime":354.0,"body":"the other camp of people feel"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":348.3,"endTime":354.0,"body":"like there must be a reason why"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":354.0,"endTime":361.53,"body":"I'm experiencing this. And what"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":354.0,"endTime":361.53,"body":"is it? Why me? Why them? 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Grief makes us"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":623.11,"endTime":627.31,"body":"feel like we don't have a"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":623.11,"endTime":627.31,"body":"choice, or a say in our lives."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":628.24,"endTime":633.28,"body":"And by doing those activities"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":628.24,"endTime":633.28,"body":"that make us feel purposeful,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":633.34,"endTime":639.7,"body":"that make us feel good, that"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":633.34,"endTime":639.7,"body":"give our pain a purpose, they"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":639.7,"endTime":643.42,"body":"make us feel like we are given a"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":639.7,"endTime":643.42,"body":"choice. And we are making a"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":643.42,"endTime":651.25,"body":"choice by our own agency that it"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":643.42,"endTime":651.25,"body":"is of our own doing and that we"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":651.25,"endTime":656.77,"body":"are creating something out of"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":651.25,"endTime":656.77,"body":"what we are feeling emotionally,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":657.28,"endTime":662.98,"body":"and putting it to work. However,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":657.28,"endTime":662.98,"body":"wouldn't it be a better choice"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":663.55,"endTime":670.48,"body":"to really dig into the feelings"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":663.55,"endTime":670.48,"body":"around the loss itself. And when"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":670.48,"endTime":675.67,"body":"you go to bed at night, actually"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":670.48,"endTime":675.67,"body":"feeling like it's not keeping"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":675.67,"endTime":679.96,"body":"you stuck in every other area of"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":675.67,"endTime":679.96,"body":"your life. Because even while"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":679.96,"endTime":684.55,"body":"we're doing those amazing things"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":679.96,"endTime":684.55,"body":"and these projects that are"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":684.61,"endTime":688.69,"body":"keeping us busy and making us"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":684.61,"endTime":688.69,"body":"feel like we have a purpose,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":689.32,"endTime":695.32,"body":"what doesn't change is that in"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":689.32,"endTime":695.32,"body":"everyday experiences that our"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":695.32,"endTime":701.95,"body":"loved one is not there with us,"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":695.32,"endTime":701.95,"body":"right? And so how do we go about"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":701.95,"endTime":707.59,"body":"addressing those feelings?"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":701.95,"endTime":707.59,"body":"There's a book by Viktor Frankl"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":707.59,"endTime":712.0,"body":"called Man's Search for Meaning."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":707.59,"endTime":712.0,"body":"And it's his story and an"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":712.0,"endTime":717.91,"body":"expression of his experience as"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":712.0,"endTime":717.91,"body":"a prisoner in the Nazi camp. And"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":717.91,"endTime":723.22,"body":"so it's been on my reading list"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":717.91,"endTime":723.22,"body":"for quite some time. But I"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":723.28,"endTime":728.62,"body":"really wish to dig into this"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":723.28,"endTime":728.62,"body":"topic even more maybe down the"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":728.62,"endTime":734.14,"body":"road after I've read that book"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":728.62,"endTime":734.14,"body":"because I do feel like it is"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":734.14,"endTime":740.8,"body":"just an inclination that we have"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":734.14,"endTime":740.8,"body":"in grief, to find meaning for"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":740.8,"endTime":746.53,"body":"our suffering. So that's today's"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":740.8,"endTime":746.53,"body":"episode. I hope you enjoy him"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":746.53,"endTime":752.26,"body":"that you found something that"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":746.53,"endTime":752.26,"body":"resonated with you. I hope to"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":752.26,"endTime":757.99,"body":"see you back here next week for"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":752.26,"endTime":757.99,"body":"another episode. And again, if"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":758.05,"endTime":762.49,"body":"you are enjoying this, please"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":758.05,"endTime":762.49,"body":"share it. 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So"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":780.19,"endTime":785.65,"body":"thank you very much. I wish you"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":785.65,"endTime":790.57,"body":"a beautiful day and rest of your"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":785.65,"endTime":790.57,"body":"week. Bye for now. Much love."},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":795.72,"endTime":799.38,"body":"From my heart to yours. Thank"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":795.72,"endTime":799.38,"body":"you for listening. If you liked"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":799.38,"endTime":804.0,"body":"this episode, please share it"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":799.38,"endTime":804.0,"body":"because Sharing is caring. And"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":804.0,"endTime":807.54,"body":"until next time, give and share"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":804.0,"endTime":807.54,"body":"compassion by being hurt with"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":807.54,"endTime":811.68,"body":"yours. And if you're hurting"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":807.54,"endTime":811.68,"body":"know that what you're feeling is"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":811.68,"endTime":815.04,"body":"normal and natural. Much love my"},{"speaker":"Victoria Volk","startTime":811.68,"endTime":815.04,"body":"friend"}]}