You could have also done it differently . Yeah , you could have stayed , but done it differently , yeah . So it's interesting what I'm hearing and this is great . I'm glad you're sharing this with me . What I'm hearing is that , number one , you're aware of your frequency , right , you're aware of how you're showing up energetically , which is really cool . What I'm hearing is that you were charged and you went in and you were ready and you were all in and that you started to peter out a little bit , right . And you know , energy , as you said , attracts energy to a certain extent . When we create our own adrenaline , right . So when we're feeling like oh , yeah , and then you're meeting the people , it starts to feel like , yeah , this feels really really good people , it starts to feel like , yeah , this feels really really good .
Speaker 1And what I'm hearing you saying is then there was a point where the reality was A it was tiring . B you've sort of were circling around a lot . C it was unsustainable , right . So it begs the question of
I have so many questions for you . One is because you started to say before I said don't go off on that tangent , because you said I could have , and then you stopped and then you said but it was , you immediately went , but it was good to see . Your brain came in to say , no , it was good to see your friends . Both are true , and I think what happened there is you went immediately into the binary . No , no , but I stayed and it was good because and these are the reasons why it was good what you're not considering is how you were , what you were , how you were being and what was available to you when you were there . You may have begun the conference the way you had , full of energy and all of that , but you know it's not
required that you stay there . I mean , it's , it's like what I call shading right .
Speaker 1You know , when I , when I was learning how to dance , I was really good at being pow , pow , pow , like , really strong and dynamic , and people always complimented me for it . And , oh , you're fabulous . And I had a mentor , the only guy ever that stood in front of me and just said too strong I was like . Excuse me , I didn't say that , but in my head I was devastated . I mean , I really
respected that in front of everybody , in front of , like , all the New York City professionals . Too strong , I was like . But it was such an invaluable lesson because now I'm known in dance , but also in life , because it definitely applies to life to understand how important shading is , to have that , to use that strength when I want to , but to be able to juxtapose it against other nuances and shades .
Speaker 1I mean , like my painting , right ? Like you know , if it was all red it might be cool for a minute if you like red , but how long can you look at it , etc . You know . So , when you're at an event and we'll just use this as your example I heard you saying but I can tell now just by the look in your eye that you've totally you're not seeing it that way anymore , was it ? Oh , my energy dropped , like as if that's a problem . Yeah , your energy dropped , but did it drop by default because you were exhausted , because you weren't consciously ?
Speaker 1You , yeah , your energy dropped , but did it drop by default because you were exhausted , because you weren't consciously , you know , using your energy , which is kind of the goal , right , is to sort of say like , like now I could come here and go no , I'm going to speak very quietly , you know . Or I could say no , I want you to understand , and this could be exhausting . Maybe , maybe not , not . These are choices , right , these are
. We have choices and this idea of joy . What are the nuances of joy ? I mean joy doesn't mean always going out with all million friends and and traveling all over the world on cruises , and you know . Joy in small moments , joy in big moments , joy , joy in the mundane , yes , you know , et cetera . So that was a bit of a rant , but that's what you gave me just from sharing that with me .