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Alina L. Part 1. | An unmedicated, vaginal delivery in hospital of a 10lbs, 6oz baby.

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In today’s episode of Moony Birth Stories, we welcome Alina as she shares the pregnancy and birth story of her son. Alina is a social worker that delivered at Regina General Hospital. Her water broke spontaneously and she went on to have a pretty quick labour. She delivered her son, 10lbs 6oz, vaginally and unmedicated. Alina also shares more about her mental health during her pregnancy and postpartum and shares a valuable resource that every parent should know.

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 Hi everyone and welcome back to Moony Birth Stories. It is officially the new year, and I wanna say a big thank you to everyone who continues to listen to the show, support and share the podcast. I have big plans for 2026, so I hope you all stick around in this episode. We are joined by Alina. She delivered at the Regina General Hospital.

This is a two part episode. Today she's going to be sharing about her son's delivery. She had a unmedicated vaginal delivery in the hospital. Her son was 10 pounds six ounces. And then she also goes on to share more about her own perinatal mental health journey. Let's start by telling everyone a little bit about yourself.

Okay. So my name's Alina. I'm originally from Southeast Saskatchewan, but I am currently living in Wynyard for another. Two more weeks, or no, another week, I guess now we're moving back to my home area of cola next week. Yeah, we're coming down this way to farm with my parents, so it's an exciting new venture for us.

I'm a social worker though, by trade. So my previous job here, I worked. As a full-time clinical counselor for a local community-based organization. I've done that the last five years. And then I also run my own private practice. I'm a CERT or Canadian certified mental health practitioner, so that's what my sole focus on is with prenatal clients.

So it's cool, but I'm in that world, but also working with clients that way. Yeah. And I'm married. I have two kids. I have a 3-year-old and a seven and a half month old. I've always been. Fascinated with pregnancy and birth and all those things. I'm definitely a birth nerd. Can remember I was a kid watching a birth story on CCI dunno if anybody else remembers that, but we always watched that, my sisters and I.

Oh, I definitely remember that. Yeah. My, that was like our afterschool thing is watching birth stories. Yeah. So I'm excited to be here today. Awesome. We're excited to have you and to hear your story, let's. Go into how you got pregnant with your first. So yeah, probably about 18 months before it would've been shortly after I, like my husband and I moved in together.

I went off birth control 'cause I was concerned that it would take us a while to get pregnant. Like both of our parents, sets of parents took four years before they had. And I and like lots of issues. So I was just fully prepared that it was gonna take a long time. So I went on birth control 18 months before, and then I worked with a naturopath outta Regina, Dr.

Brittany Wolf at Price Sky Integrated Health. She's fantastic. So I worked with her to to get things in, checked and make sure I was gonna use. Prepped as when, for when we were ready. So we got married in November of 2021 and then started trying in January and it took us two tries and then fortunately we got pregnant.

So second try. So I was actually shocked. I didn't like, I just did not expect it would take like such a short amount of time and we were very fortunate. I had a hard time believing that I was pregnant and that that it was gonna be okay. I was very much nervous those first few months, but we Yeah, it's a nice surprise.

Yeah. And just like expecting like it was gonna take forever and it didn't, so that was definitely a nice surprise. Yeah. We yeah, I got pregnant. The first trimester was terrible. I was very sick all day, every day. That was a challenge by like week 50 and it definitely started to die off a little bit and then the rest was okay.

But yeah, those. First trimester was rough. Once I figured out like that I need to snack basically every hour and a half, then it helped manage it a bit more. So that was something I wish I would've learned early on because that made a big difference. It was like snacking. Yeah. And like protein snacks really helped even though I did not wanna eat protein.

Yeah. And then when did you get. Your first ultrasound with that pregnancy? That would've been right around the eight week mark. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And who were you choosing for your care provider for this pregnancy? So we doctored on a Regina, and as I did care or shared care between my provider in Wynyard, which she was.

Phenomenal. But she's now gone. Okay. So between my family doctor and then Dr. Dorian Christensen and Regina, and she's amazing. So she was actually the provider for both of my pregnancies. Okay. Awesome. And then, yeah. How did the rest of that pregnancy go outside of the first trimester? Overall it was pretty good.

I like around the 11 week mark, like I definitely have a history of anxiety, depression, like disordered eating. I have a longstanding history with that. Yeah. And around the 11 week mark I started experiencing like extreme anxiety, a lot of intrusive thoughts about the pregnancy, about something happening to me, to my husband.

It was very overwhelming. So I, that was my first time. I'm like, okay, I need to. Connect with somebody to help work through this. I connected with her name's Kristen Reinhardt and she's great. I saw her through, I dunno if you've ever heard of Mom. It's like a perinatal mental health mom, mental health organizations across Canada.

So it is private practice. I found them on Instagram and they had Chris working for them out of. Saskatchewan. So I connected with her through that. But she also works for Breland Counseling outta Saskatoon. Yes. Yeah, she's phenomenal. So worked with her and she helped a lot, to navigate that.

And even as a counselor myself, I know all these tools, but it's just different when you're on the other end of it. I was really struggling. Yeah. So yeah, once we got to about the 20 week mark, the anxiety really lessened and I did okay. The rest, and yeah, the rest of the pregnancy honestly was overall pretty good.

My, around the 30 week mark my blood pressure started creeping up a little bit because I was not sleeping like at all. So I talked to my employer at that time and I was still working like a full caseload and so we like reduced my caseload and then I started sleeping a little better and then my blood PE pressure went back and checked and all was good.

Yeah, we knew so both my husband and I were big babies, like I was nine pounds. 11 ounces and 23 and a quarter inches long. And my husband was pretty much the same. Okay. So we were expecting a big baby. We just knew. So my whole pregnancy I was working to like, prepare my body to help to likely have a big baby.

Yeah. So I did the Body Ready Method program just for like exercise and making sure to move my body to like prep for that and yeah, I was honestly smooth sailing the rest of the way, awesome. And then what were your thoughts and feelings about birth? I was excited. I, my goal all along was to do an unmedicated birth.

I just I don't know. I've had this fascination with it. I just think it would be amazing to feel the power of a woman's body, which everybody's girl, you're insane. But I'm like, no, I wanna do that. So my goal was to do that. I did a lot of like birth prep around that. A lot of that kinda like the mental game and, yeah.

Learning positions and breath techniques, labor techniques. I wasn't set on that. Like I knew that there would be a chance that I wouldn't be able to do that, and I was open to the epidural, quite honestly, an epidural, just the idea that terrifies me. I just, yeah, I just don't have different complications and stuff that from friends and family have had, so I just, yeah, that actually scared me more than the idea of a me unmedicated birth.

So I did a lot of that prep work and yeah, that was the focus. I was excited for it. I'm very much a planner, so I think I struggled most with just not knowing when it was gonna happen, which I think everybody's like that. Yes. I just, I had a hard time of letting go of it will be when it will be.

That's so every like little twinge and oh, is this happening? But yeah, I think overall I did an okay job of managing that. I guess one thing to know, I actually ended up with COVID at 36 weeks pregnant. Oh, okay. So that was rough. Yeah, so I was like supposed to work up to 37 weeks. Just over 37 weeks.

I got sick with COVID 36 weeks, so I had a week off and then went back for four days to work and then was off. So it worked out well because I was off, but that was not a good time. No. Being that sick. Luckily my mom like came up and both my husband and I were sick, so she came up and took care of us.

So that kind of like probably helped just get through those final weeks because, I was. Super sick, but I was just focusing on getting better first before going into labor. Yeah. But yeah, so no got through that. And then because we were expecting a big baby, my provider asked if I wanted to like, start doing checks around that 38 week mark.

She did a cervical check at 30 eight weeks, and I was totally open to it. I was so uncomfortable I could hardly walk. Like I was like, this baby's gotta be massive because I can barely walk. Did you have a third trimester ultrasound? I did. And he and baby was measuring really big at that point. We didn't know what we were having either, oh, okay. Refer to baby. Yeah, he was measuring like, I can't remember the. 36 week ultrasound. I think the measurements were like close to eight pounds at that point, so it was like seven and a half, almost eight pounds. We, and like I said, just because we were expecting that, I was like, oh yeah, that makes sense.

Especially with the way I was feeling. Yeah. So yeah, the 38 week mark, we did a check and I was already like two to three centimeters, like 25% of face. So my provider's do you wanna do sweep? I'm like, yep, go for it. So she did and she was like, honestly, I don't know if I'll see you at your 39 week appointments.

Like just kinda the way things are. So I was like, okay, cool. Didn't think too much of it. Yeah. And. That would've been, so that was, yeah, like right around that 38 week, like pretty much spot on for 38 weeks. And then it was like two nights later I woke up with like severe nausea and like cramping. So I was like, okay, maybe this is it.

I had lost my mucus plug, so thought I was maybe going into labor and then I went and had a shower and within an hour I died off. Okay. So went back to bed and had a little bit cramping here and there after that. And then we went. But for my 39 week appointment, and that would've been like 39 and one.

Yeah. And I was like four centimeters dilated and 50% of face. Okay. So nervous. Yeah, definitely. So she was like, okay, because like we live mind you, we live two hours outta the city. So she was like, okay, if I do a sweep now, because this was like four o'clock in the afternoon, she's if I do a sweep now, you cannot go home.

She's I just have a feeling you're. Like you're gonna be turning around, coming back. So she's at least if you like, just later in the city for a few hours. So I was like, okay, sounds good. So we did the sweep and then we had made plans to go to my friend's place. That was the plan where I was gonna birth anyways before we went into the hospital.

So made plans to go there and we hung out there for a few hours, had supper, and then I was like, ah, yeah, like I think we just need to stay. Nothing was like, I wasn't really feeling anything and I just had this like gut feeling that we needed to stay. So my sister-in-law came over and like we visited with her and it was just like a really nice evening and went to bed, I don't know, probably around 10 o'clock or so, and then by one, like 1:00 AM I woke up and was like, oh, I think that was a contraction.

Okay. It wasn't intense, but it was just like, okay, there's that. So I laid there for a little while later and then like probably 15 minutes later had another one. And then same thing, another like 15 minutes. There's another one. I'm like, okay, there's like actually some rhythm to this. So of course like first time mom, I was just like so excited to get up.

I'm like, Hey, I'm gonna go have a snack and sit here. And so I did. And yeah, they were like, were slowly progressing. So by 6:00 AM they were, it was like at the 5 1 1, which was what my provider said to go in especially 'cause we were would've thought we would've been two hours outta the city, but we were in the city.

So I was excited. I'm like, okay, let's go. For everyone. The 5 1 1 rule is your contractions are five minutes apart, lasting for a minute. And that pattern's been going on for about an hour. Yes. Yeah. So that was when she told us to go in. So we went in, it would've been like probably seven ish by the time we got to the general.

And went upstairs and they, yeah, checked me and I was still like four centimeters dilated, but fully face at that point. And they were trying to decide whether they should keep me or not. They knew we were from out of the city, but the doctor and the resident that were, yeah, med student that we're working with her, they decided that.

Probably would just be best if I went back to my friend's place to labor because she's oh, I just don't know how long it would take. And she's you're gonna be more comfortable there. So I was definitely, I was fine with that. I really didn't wanna hang out in the hospital. Yeah. So we went back to my friend's place and I was able to get a little rest in and woke up and my contractions just fully stopped and then I was just mad.

Yes. I was like, no, this can't be happening. I was like, okay, I am like gonna get this going again. So yeah, it would've been like round. Probably 1231 when I woke up. So I decided to go for a walk and I'm outside walking, it's cold. It's like end of October 27th. It's cold. We just had a big snowstorm a few days before, so there's ice and snow everywhere and I'm trying to curb walk.

It just was not a, I'm sure anybody like that drove by. Probably thought it was quite the scene, but so it was curb walking and like nothing. So it was like 15 minutes later and mind you, I mentioned earlier, like I could hardly walk at this point. So that's not working. I went back inside and I said to my husband I'm just gonna do a couple squats just to see if that helps.

So I did one squat and I came back up and then I did the second and I felt the pop and I stood up and it was just, gosh so I just sat there oh my God, it worked. Wow. It worked. Yeah so at that time my friend, she had actually been at work, so she walks in the door probably five minutes later and there's just me standing over this massive pile of water and she's oh wow.

Okay. Hi. Yeah. So yeah, so she was an angel and cleaned it up for us and washed my pants and all those things. And at that point, contractions still hadn't started up yet but probably about 15, 20 minutes later. So when we were heading back to the hospital, because they said, what come back either when your water breaks or contractions are unmanageable.

We gather stuff up again, we're heading to the hospital and within those 15 minutes, they just went from like nothing to full on, like back to back. No break. So that drive back to the hospital was terrible. It was a 15 minute drive, but it was. Actually horrible. Yeah, so just like zero to 100.

Yeah. Yeah. So fast went from nothing to right in. Yeah. So yeah, so we, the drive to hospital, we got there went up to labor and delivery and I was like, good. Pulling it together. And then we walked, we I was wheel wheeled in and there. Another lady there that was obviously in very active labor as well that had, yeah, it was.

She was looking pretty rough than me and by this point, labor and delivery was like pure chaos. Like every room was full, triage was full. There's me and this other lady like waiting to get in. And the nurse that had been there that morning when I froze first there, she looks at me, she's did your water break?

I'm like, I was bawling. I'm like, yes. And she's okay, come on in. So they like just had us in like a waiting area first. And we were standing there and my husband's do you want me to rub your back? I'm like, yes, please. So he like starts rubbing my back. I'm like no, do not touch me. Like it just was instant, like pins and needles.

I couldn't handle it. Yeah. So I don't know how long we were there. It wasn't that long, Nick. Maybe 20 minutes, half hour tops. We were just in like the waiting area. And then we got a bed in the triage. And yeah, like by this time it was just like, there was maybe 30 seconds to 40 seconds between contractions, like there was constant back to back.

I honestly was in another world by this point, like I just it's very foggy to me what was going on. So there was two nurses there. The one was an older one and she was just. Absolutely a gem. She was so sweet. And the other one that, she was the one that had been there that morning, she was a little more brash.

And not my favorite, but she was okay. But she was just a little more brash. And so I'd asked, or the older nurse, she said do you wanna get in the tub? I'm like, yes, please. So I went and labored in the tub for for, I don't know how long. It felt like forever, but it wasn't that long.

Yeah. When we ran there. My husband, just like he laughs about this part because I had prepped all these bags or different things. Like I had like my bag with the labor tools and all that sort of thing. So I was like, I wanted the lights off in there because it's just the fluorescent were so bright.

I was like, go get the string lights. So he couldn't find them and he could hear me just yelling from this bathtub. Like echoing? Yeah, like it was quite the like sound. But anyway, so he like came back and couldn't find them. I didn't really care. I'm like, whatever. So now keep in mind like I am a tall and like.

Larger body, woman. I'm not small, so this little four foot tub with my leg up, propped up over the side and yeah. That was like comfortable, like I was able to at least like com get comfortable and manage in there. And yeah, then they were like, were just checking heart rate, like intermittently checking heart rate for baby and all was good.

And then all of a sudden I just had this urge, I guess I should go back here for a second. Like, when I got to the hospital again, I was still only four centimeters. Okay. They did check. Yeah, they did check me and I was still, this was four centimeters, but was like, yeah, like water clearly broke. And so then I was, all of a sudden I'm like, okay, like I need to poop.

I like this baby's coming. Like I just feel the baby, like moving down. It was wild. And so I was like, can I need to get back to this triage bed? And I just, I couldn't even lay in it. It was driving me nuts. And so they checked me and I was at a six and they kept saying do you want an epidural?

I'm like, Nope. Do not want that. I was a like. Felt like I was in a world, another world that was managing. Yeah. And then they offered if I wanted like gas, I was like, okay, yeah, that's fine. But because it was COVID at that point, if you like, wanted gas, you had to test, like test for COVID. And my provider told me, they're like, if they. Say they're gonna test you, like you're gonna test positive because you just had it. So then I was like, no, I don't want that. Oh, okay. Oh man. Yeah. That was the last thing I wanted was that. So I was like, Nope, no, I don't need it. And so that by this point I was like, I couldn't even keep my legs together.

Like I was so uncomfortable trying I was trying to lay on my side on the bed and I just wanted to jump off that bed. It was horrible. This is still in triage, like we are not even in a labor and delivery room yet. And I was like, can I get a peanut ball or something? I just, I cannot hold my legs together.

Like I cannot get comfortable. So they went and found me a peanut ball. And then like within 10 minutes I was like, I have to push, like I have to push now. And the nurse, that wasn't really my favorite, she's you're a first time mom. There's no way. I'm like, no. Like I have to push like this feels terrible.

And I, my husband says, he's you were feral. I was just like, in another world. And yeah. And I definitely that's what my, that the memory of just honestly feeling so wild. Like I felt insane. Yeah. So by that point, the OB comes in and she's we actually have a bed ready for you. So she's I'll check you when we get in there.

I was like, absolutely not. Check me now. Like you have to check me now. She's okay. So she texted me, she's oh my gosh, baby is coming. Wow. Yeah. So I went from a six to a 10 in 10 minutes. So yeah. Progress very fast. Yeah. Yeah, so no, we, like, all I remember was being like rolled into the labor and delivery room and my husband says it was like quite the scene because they're expecting they have time and they did not like they were not ready.

Yeah, I'm sure. Yeah. The nurses were just trying to get everything ready and Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So I was like facing I was like. On the hands and knees, like up over the bed, like facing the wall. So I don't see any of this, but he is yeah, everybody's like running around, running into each other.

He's it was just pure chaos. So yeah, I pushed for like that for not very long, just a little bit. And like things were progressing fast. And so the ob it was a different OB 'cause labor and delivery was so busy that day. They had 13 births by that point, and this is five 30 in the afternoon and three of them being C-sections.

Oh wow. It was crazy there. So yeah, the OB was like, okay, like she's you're at risk for tearing and this position, so would you want to try on your side? I was like, yeah, no problem. So got down on my side and. Pushed like another few pushes and he was out. I pushed for 15 minutes and we had a boy.

And he was 10 pounds and six ounces. Wow. Yeah. Yeah. So fast and yeah big baby. Yes. Yeah, he flew out. Yeah. And it was funny when he was born and like they weighed him, they're like, oh my gosh, 10 pounds, six ounces. This is they're like, oh, there was another 10 pound baby board today, but this.

He beats this other boy. Yeah. And so we found out that evening, it was actually a friend of mine Okay. That had the 10 pound two ounce baby, I think it was. Yeah. So it was, we're like, yeah, we had these big boys that day. And then we found out later that night there was like an 11 pound baby boy. So we were apparently the talk of the hospital for a little while, but it was a big baby boy day.

Yeah. Oh, that's funny. Yeah. Yeah. But no, it was yeah and I got my unmedicated birth. Like it, I was so excited about that. I, my husband laughed. He is because I just kept saying I did it. I did it. Aw, the best feeling. Oh, after birth, just on a high. Yep. Yeah. And then, yeah, when I because my whole pregnancy, I had terrible heartburn, so when I was pushing, I'm like, okay, I need tongues.

So my husband gave me tongues, and then after he was born, I looked at him, I was like, do you wanna gimme a kiss? And he is he's he looks a rabid raccoon because my eyes were just black and I was like crossing from the mouth with my tongue, and he was just slightly get you cleaned up first.

I'm like, okay, sounds good. Just so sweet. Completely oblivious. Sweet. Yeah. Yeah. So that's his favorite story of it. Oh, I love that. Yeah. And yeah, so I, and I guess the only thing I should know, like I did have a second degree tear, and then with also a labial. Scrape, which that was probably worse than the tear.

Yeah, they were, that was horrible. And then, yeah. What were your feelings like immediately postpartum and in the hospital? How were you feeling? I was honestly on such a high I was just like wired couldn't I was just Yeah. Vibrating, like with excitement. Yeah. Yeah. I really, I couldn't I couldn't sleep like I was just.

An absolute awe. And I, yeah. Could not stop staring at him. Yeah. He was born October 27th and then I actually turned 30 on the 29th of October and we gotta take him home that day. Aw, that's so sweet. Yeah. So that was like pretty special. Yeah. So I was just like, truly like the best birthday guess you could ever have.

Yeah. I like one thing in the hospital was he really was struggling to latch, he was so mucusy after that fast of a birth. Like he just, every time he tried to latch, he was coughing. And so we just, we really struggled. We're struggling with feeding in the hospital, but at that point I would think I was on such a high skill that I just was like, oh we'll get it figured out.

Like I met with a lactation consultant and I didn't really find it overly helpful in the hospital. They were more so just focusing on trying to get into Latch, but not really teaching me how to do it. So yeah, I felt frustrated with that, but I just was like, oh, it's fine. We'll figure it out.

I just was honestly thinking it was because he was mucusy, like I was naive to there being hottest things going on. Yeah. But yeah, no, in the hospital like that immediate postpartum was pretty good. Like we had family come up and visit and I was Yeah, feeling good in the hospital. Yeah, like nothing major then, awesome. And then how did feeding end up going? It was not good. Okay. Yeah. So he, like now, so now we know there was like more going on. Like he ended up having this was actually just diagnosed here like with, in the last few months, but he did, he had a lift tie that we knew about that time, but he actually had an undiagnosed tongue tie.

Okay. And yeah, like latching was. Super painful. We started doing some body work when he was about 10 weeks old, or sorry, 10 weeks 10 days old. And that definitely helped with like tension and stuff like that. But he was also, he was a big boy, so like he was hungry and because his latch of poor, like I just, my, my supply didn't op it at all.

Yeah. And so by five weeks I was trying to like combo feed, I was trying to pump and I was going absolutely insane. I ended up. I think he was about two weeks old when I booked a lactation consultant, like privately through with Sarah from Seed to Sprout in Regina. She's phenomenal.

She gave me so many great things like just over Zoom. And she definitely helped me get through those few weeks that I was trying to pump or feed, but then I had five weeks. I was just like, I can't do this. So we switched to formula, like full formula at five weeks. Yeah. Yeah, which was okay.

Like I, by that point I was just like, I want to be able to enjoy feeding my baby and this is not enjoyable. So I was okay with that. Yeah, that's fair. It's tough to keep up with pumping and it's a lot of work and sometimes just the best thing to do is to go to formula. Absolutely. Yeah. Yeah.

There was no way. So I was like, I think if I would've tried like to, if I would've just switched to formula, but like after the first week or two, I wouldn't, I don't think I would've been ready at that point. Like I was like, I have to try everything. Yeah. So I gave myself the time and then yeah, five, five weeks.

I'm like, this isn't enjoyable. So I was glad I did. Yeah. So how was your mental health during this time? Were you still seeing your c. Yeah, I was still seeing my counselor. At that point it was honestly like I did fairly well those first three months. Like I was just in that, like for me it was honestly newborn bliss.

Like I truly do love the newborn phase. I know that's not for everybody, but I loved just like the snuggles and taking it in and I was really lucky, like my mom was up and helped us a lot. Yeah, different friends and family came up yeah, I like, I really did those first three months. But then around that three month mark my sons sleep just got like worse and worse, which I guess you expect that coming into like the four months mark, but it just was progressive getting worse.

And then he actually got started having really bad eczema months. Oh, okay. Around that month mark. So he was just constantly like awake and scratching and uncomfortable and we were trying everything to try to manage that. And yeah, by around like the four month mark is when my mental health started to take that's when the anxiety came back so forth.

Postpartum rage was very much a real thing for me. A lot of intrusive thoughts. And then pretty like passive suicidal ideation, which was something I had never experienced before. So that was like a new thing for me. So that was like, okay, I need to get some help. So I was seeing my like counselor regular at that point.

Yeah. And for me it was just like, I can. I've always been unable to function. I'm pretty minimal sleep. But by that point, basically from four months till he was about 10 months, I was getting max an hour and a half to two hours of sleep a night. Oh, broken. Gosh. Yeah. So I was not Okay.

Yeah. No one can function on that. No. No. And like I didn't realize how bad it was until I was like, outta that stage and I'm like, oh yeah, that was not, it was not good. Yeah. And thankfully my husband is very supportive and, yeah, I have very supportive family, but he, yeah, he took on a lot and he took, had to take a lot of it too.

So yeah, he was very supportive and I honestly don't know, I wouldn't have been able to make it through without him because yeah, he was my rock. Yeah. So just counseling and then just supportive your husband is what you found Yeah. Was helpful. Yeah, like I definitely had some conversations with my provider about.

Like exploring medication? Yeah. At that point I felt like I was able to manage with tools. And I was, and so I decided not to explore the medication further. But I definitely, looking back, that probably should have been something that I went on. I just wasn't, yeah, I thought I could do it on my own at that time, which I did, but I made it through.

But I think medication probably would've helped make it a little bit more enjoyable and manageable at that time. Yeah, for sure. Yeah. But yeah, around like 10 months things did turn around. I completely gave up on the crib and we switched to a floor bed and the first night he slept a four hour stretch.

Oh my. Which he had never done. Yeah. And I was like, are you okay? Yeah, you must. It felt like a new person. Yeah. Yeah. And then like from there it got better. He's three now and his sleep is still terrible. Like he's just not a great sleeper, but we yeah, know now with the tongue time, there's some other like oral health issues that are happening.

So it all makes sense now. It's just we didn't know that at the time. But yeah, the floor bed definitely was. Like, I honestly saved my life. So yeah, we switched to the floor bed. His sleep slowly got better. Yeah, we just like co-slept in there. And then as he got older, I just would roll out and go back to my own bed.

And he still doesn't always sleep through the night. Yeah. But at least one of us can just go on with him now. So yeah, that was like the whole first year. He was very busy. I should have known that from the time he was a baby. He was like very chill, but just he.