{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":59.354,"endTime":61.495000000000005,"body":"Well, well, well, we made it back."},{"startTime":61.767,"endTime":66.34100000000001,"body":"I mean, we've been like in every other week podcasts for a while now, haven't we?"},{"startTime":66.34100000000001,"endTime":76.48,"body":"I know it's like slowly turning into a bi-monthly or a semi-monthly, whatever the twice a"},{"startTime":66.34100000000001,"endTime":76.48,"body":"month sort of term is, but that's what it's kind of becoming, huh?"},{"startTime":77.061,"endTime":85.321,"body":"you know I am doing an episode with Stephanie another like a one with Stephanie and Kelly"},{"startTime":77.061,"endTime":85.321,"body":"Yeah So be good."},{"startTime":85.321,"endTime":86.321,"body":"We'll throw that one in there, too."},{"startTime":86.321,"endTime":87.141,"body":"That's gonna be a good one."},{"startTime":87.141,"endTime":89.65100000000001,"body":"I forgot that the top It's a good topic whatever 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conditioner?"},{"startTime":241.76800000000003,"endTime":243.058,"body":"What do you put product wise?"},{"startTime":243.058,"endTime":244.38799999999998,"body":"What are you putting in it?"},{"startTime":244.38799999999998,"endTime":246.548,"body":"What's the in-betweens, like phases?"},{"startTime":246.548,"endTime":247.348,"body":"What are you doing?"},{"startTime":247.348,"endTime":248.56799999999998,"body":"Tell me everything."},{"startTime":248.56799999999998,"endTime":251.361,"body":"This is Welcome to Haircare with Mike and Doug."},{"startTime":251.361,"endTime":256.782,"body":"so I've spread out my washings a lot more."},{"startTime":256.882,"endTime":259.303,"body":"I'll wash it now like once a week."},{"startTime":260.083,"endTime":269.18,"body":"And in the days when I don't wash it, I still get in the shower and scrub it with my hands"},{"startTime":260.083,"endTime":269.18,"body":"really good, like my scalp, so it doesn't get all 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yourself."},{"startTime":625.066,"endTime":638.09,"body":"Because you look the same to me, you look the same to the world around you, but also"},{"startTime":625.066,"endTime":638.09,"body":"people can pick up on that energetic air, like that aura that you bring with you."},{"startTime":638.09,"endTime":639.46,"body":"You know what I mean?"},{"startTime":639.46,"endTime":641.2710000000001,"body":"And that's the difference we're talking about."},{"startTime":641.2710000000001,"endTime":642.5210000000001,"body":"And it's noticeable."},{"startTime":643.634,"endTime":646.1800000000001,"body":"And it's been noticeable for you."},{"startTime":647.123,"endTime":648.013,"body":"thank you."},{"startTime":648.153,"endTime":657.356,"body":"Well, and I felt that ever since I had that like experience, I've been carrying myself"},{"startTime":648.153,"endTime":657.356,"body":"with that energy and cool shit's been happening, man."},{"startTime":657.356,"endTime":659.0360000000001,"body":"Really cool 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show."},{"startTime":793.3280000000001,"endTime":794.4390000000001,"body":"all the time, baby."},{"startTime":794.4390000000001,"endTime":796.1890000000001,"body":"Come on, give me what I want."},{"startTime":796.1890000000001,"endTime":797.109,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":797.1890000000001,"endTime":806.952,"body":"So I think, so I guess the point is this, Mike, like a lot of the stuff that you and I"},{"startTime":797.1890000000001,"endTime":806.952,"body":"talk about is just like, maybe everyone else out there in the world knows all this shit"},{"startTime":806.952,"endTime":809.4920000000001,"body":"and is like, yeah, duh."},{"startTime":809.672,"endTime":820.7800000000001,"body":"But it's like, wow, we still are these two, like wide eyed adventurers who are just sort"},{"startTime":809.672,"endTime":820.7800000000001,"body":"of holding hands and skipping through."},{"startTime":820.7800000000001,"endTime":823.3000000000001,"body":"cosmic fields of 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maybe just fucking end it."},{"startTime":848.595,"endTime":852.596,"body":"I mean, we're doing a short one today, so it's gonna be short and sweet, by the way, if"},{"startTime":848.595,"endTime":852.596,"body":"you're listening, but like..."},{"startTime":852.596,"endTime":854.4970000000001,"body":"Because we're gonna watch."},{"startTime":854.8290000000001,"endTime":856.644,"body":"I gotta go watch the vice president debate."},{"startTime":856.644,"endTime":858.9390000000001,"body":"Like, I'm just like a little bitch about it, you know?"},{"startTime":858.947,"endTime":863.611,"body":"hey, it's an important debate for our country."},{"startTime":865.053,"endTime":874.702,"body":"Plus it's gonna be, plus I wanna see how weird, I just forgot his name is, JD Vance."},{"startTime":875.484,"endTime":879.053,"body":"And how much dad energy Tim Walz brings to the whole thing."},{"startTime":879.053,"endTime":881.154,"body":"Well, it's pretty 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that."},{"startTime":2138.365,"endTime":2140.326,"body":"Allowing yourself to catch up to yourself."},{"startTime":2141.567,"endTime":2142.768,"body":"Yeah, man."},{"startTime":2143.649,"endTime":2144.4289999999996,"body":"That's what I'm feeling."},{"startTime":2144.4289999999996,"endTime":2152.1749999999997,"body":"I know we're about, the bait's about to start, so I think we should wrap this up soon, but"},{"startTime":2144.4289999999996,"endTime":2152.1749999999997,"body":"like, that's just kind of, I did wanna, I'm loving chatting about this."},{"startTime":2152.1749999999997,"endTime":2157.058,"body":"It's been a little chat."},{"startTime":2157.058,"endTime":2157.9089999999997,"body":"What?"},{"startTime":2157.9089999999997,"endTime":2158.6589999999997,"body":"What?"},{"startTime":2159.647,"endTime":2161.923,"body":"Okay, hold on a second here."},{"startTime":2161.923,"endTime":2165.361,"body":"Are we just wrapping 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band."},{"startTime":2371.6229999999996,"endTime":2376.397,"body":"Like you were updating me as your night was happening, as your day was happening."},{"startTime":2376.397,"endTime":2381.1499999999996,"body":"And it was just like, dude, you were going through a literal conversion."},{"startTime":2381.1499999999996,"endTime":2384.8509999999997,"body":"You were going through like a reclamation."},{"startTime":2385.044,"endTime":2390.143,"body":"I mean when I was on Ketamine I actually baptized myself in the ocean because it just felt"},{"startTime":2385.044,"endTime":2390.143,"body":"like the right thing to do."},{"startTime":2390.625,"endTime":2392.874,"body":"It felt like a rebirth in a way."},{"startTime":2393.439,"endTime":2397.02,"body":"I don't think anyone has described ketamine better than you just did."},{"startTime":2397.02,"endTime":2401.611,"body":"When I was on ketamine, I baptized myself in the ocean because it felt like the right"},{"startTime":2397.02,"endTime":2401.611,"body":"thing to do."},{"startTime":2401.611,"endTime":2405.662,"body":"Okay, somebody wants to know what it's like to do ketamine?"},{"startTime":2405.662,"endTime":2407.6029999999996,"body":"That's the description from here on out."},{"startTime":2407.6029999999996,"endTime":2409.683,"body":"I'm going to put that in the bio."},{"startTime":2410.144,"endTime":2415.2149999999997,"body":"you know how every medicine has like a little, it's like, the little bio for ketamine."},{"startTime":2415.2149999999997,"endTime":2422.357,"body":"That's what I'm going to put in the bio for ketamine is one time I was on ketamine and I"},{"startTime":2415.2149999999997,"endTime":2422.357,"body":"felt like"},{"startTime":2422.357,"endTime":2425.698,"body":"And I baptized myself in the ocean because it felt like the right thing to do."},{"startTime":2425.698,"endTime":2426.6,"body":"That's it."},{"startTime":2427.562,"endTime":2430.3039999999996,"body":"By the way, I do want to add a disclaimer though."},{"startTime":2430.3039999999996,"endTime":2439.39,"body":"It was a very small amount because I do not- I'm not endorsing doing ketamine and going"},{"startTime":2430.3039999999996,"endTime":2439.39,"body":"near any body of water."},{"startTime":2439.39,"endTime":2444.133,"body":"Hot tub, pool, ocean, do not do that."},{"startTime":2444.133,"endTime":2445.5739999999996,"body":"We are not endorsing."},{"startTime":2445.5739999999996,"endTime":2451.297,"body":"We are not- do not do as I did- I mean, even though it was a small amount, I would just"},{"startTime":2445.5739999999996,"endTime":2451.297,"body":"say don't fucking do it."},{"startTime":2451.384,"endTime":2453.4539999999997,"body":"Yeah, I agree with that."},{"startTime":2453.4539999999997,"endTime":2455.3439999999996,"body":"Don't fuck with these things."},{"startTime":2457.024,"endTime":2459.544,"body":"yeah, tiny little bit of ketamine, don't go into the ocean."},{"startTime":2459.544,"endTime":2468.564,"body":"But like, you you're a strong swimmer and if you have just a tiny little bit, like we're"},{"startTime":2459.544,"endTime":2468.564,"body":"not talking about the amounts that you want to talk about the amounts that certain people"},{"startTime":2468.564,"endTime":2471.049,"body":"have been on to die in their hot tubs, right?"},{"startTime":2471.049,"endTime":2476.017,"body":"by the way, it was like 45 minutes to an hour after I had taken the ketamine."},{"startTime":2476.017,"endTime":2478.1189999999997,"body":"So I was not in it anymore."},{"startTime":2478.1189999999997,"endTime":2478.671,"body":"You know what I mean?"},{"startTime":2478.671,"endTime":2481.3239999999996,"body":"It was like I was in the light period afterwards."},{"startTime":2481.3239999999996,"endTime":2484.8199999999997,"body":"I wasn't, you know, ever going to K-hole in the ocean."},{"startTime":2484.8199999999997,"endTime":2486.491,"body":"I just wanted to clarify."},{"startTime":2487.18,"endTime":2488.711,"body":"Look, in fact, you know what?"},{"startTime":2488.711,"endTime":2490.6459999999997,"body":"You kids out there, you stay away from drugs."},{"startTime":2490.6459999999997,"endTime":2492.564,"body":"You stay in school and you stay off drugs."},{"startTime":2492.564,"endTime":2494.625,"body":"And Mike didn't even do ketamine that day."},{"startTime":2494.625,"endTime":2501.68,"body":"We were just making up a story so that Mike could talk about the baptism and the jazz"},{"startTime":2494.625,"endTime":2501.68,"body":"organist."},{"startTime":2501.68,"endTime":2509.055,"body":"Dude, went to a, you baptized yourself and then went to a jazz organist and it has not"},{"startTime":2501.68,"endTime":2509.055,"body":"lost on me the value of an organ in music."},{"startTime":2509.055,"endTime":2509.665,"body":"You know what I mean?"},{"startTime":2509.665,"endTime":2511.076,"body":"There's a religious."},{"startTime":2511.6989999999996,"endTime":2512.6299999999997,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":2513.7569999999996,"endTime":2514.982,"body":"Yeah, fuck yeah."},{"startTime":2514.982,"endTime":2516.167,"body":"And cool story."},{"startTime":2516.167,"endTime":2517.288,"body":"Cool story, bro."},{"startTime":2517.66,"endTime":2520.4669999999996,"body":"Cool story, and don't do drugs."},{"startTime":2520.4669999999996,"endTime":2527.3199999999997,"body":"Well, I just might try on horny Santa Claus for a little bit and see how it suits me."},{"startTime":2528.0119999999997,"endTime":2540.9429999999998,"body":"think that you could also give horny Santa Claus a try because there's something, like the"},{"startTime":2528.0119999999997,"endTime":2540.9429999999998,"body":"little girl in me, the little boy in me is like, huh, okay."},{"startTime":2541.9649999999997,"endTime":2543.2259999999997,"body":"God, I gotta stop saying that."},{"startTime":2543.2259999999997,"endTime":2548.6699999999996,"body":"Like, I'm not trying to, just end it before I said that."},{"startTime":2548.7309999999998,"endTime":2550.836,"body":"Or don't, I don't fucking care."},{"startTime":2550.836,"endTime":2551.854,"body":"real good."},{"startTime":2553.5449999999996,"endTime":2556.95,"body":"No one thinks that only everyone listening but"},{"startTime":2556.95,"endTime":2557.249,"body":"know."},{"startTime":2557.249,"endTime":2564.881,"body":"I know nobody thinks that, but I, know, if we live in a world where it's like, I got to"},{"startTime":2557.249,"endTime":2564.881,"body":"like, I got to like self like edit, you know what I mean?"},{"startTime":2564.982,"endTime":2568.6769999999997,"body":"But every single person on earth knows that I'm talking like that."},{"startTime":2568.6769999999997,"endTime":2572.913,"body":"I'm talking shit when I'm saying, dude, try out the horny Santa Claus and see what's up."},{"startTime":2574.078,"endTime":2575.098,"body":"Ho ho ho."},{"startTime":2578.39,"endTime":2580.335,"body":"We'll stop it there."}]}