{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":104.30600000000001,"endTime":114.43,"body":"because I like really I woke up and I'm like, wait, I woke up really refreshed for being"},{"startTime":104.30600000000001,"endTime":114.43,"body":"daylight savings because then I was like looking at the the clock and I was like, I saw"},{"startTime":114.43,"endTime":115.55000000000001,"body":"like a whole other hour."},{"startTime":115.55000000000001,"endTime":117.821,"body":"I because I came out and looked at like the oven."},{"startTime":117.821,"endTime":119.601,"body":"But I'm like, but wait, this is not working."},{"startTime":119.601,"endTime":126.464,"body":"And then I came to that fucking daylight savings realization that happens around this time"},{"startTime":119.601,"endTime":126.464,"body":"each year."},{"startTime":127.019,"endTime":128.299,"body":"around this."},{"startTime":128.32,"endTime":137.17700000000002,"body":"It's funny how because like it used to be that daylight savings was 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nevermind."},{"startTime":779.009,"endTime":780.32,"body":"Let's, let's talk about some of it."},{"startTime":780.32,"endTime":782.201,"body":"And like there's other ways."},{"startTime":782.461,"endTime":788.359,"body":"And then like that, that's, shit gets, that Hey, you can get steamy, man."},{"startTime":788.359,"endTime":793.159,"body":"You can, you can feel like you're like, let's do this, you know, but then it's all, yeah."},{"startTime":793.159,"endTime":793.4720000000001,"body":"Sorry."},{"startTime":793.4720000000001,"endTime":798.452,"body":"whole, well sorry, just had a whole, when you told me that, I was like, okay."},{"startTime":798.452,"endTime":800.2320000000001,"body":"One night I was like, all right, let me do this."},{"startTime":800.2320000000001,"endTime":807.672,"body":"Because what I was realizing, one night I was trying to flirt with her, but there was a"},{"startTime":800.2320000000001,"endTime":807.672,"body":"setting in the bottom, I think now that has like 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time."},{"startTime":2321.374,"endTime":2325.4379999999996,"body":"And it's like, I'm, it's like a good, it's like a good thing for me to learn."},{"startTime":2325.4379999999996,"endTime":2326.258,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":2326.258,"endTime":2332.714,"body":"I know this sounds like, I know that this sounds like welcome to day one of being a, adult"},{"startTime":2326.258,"endTime":2332.714,"body":"human being to a lot of people out there."},{"startTime":2332.714,"endTime":2336.107,"body":"And so if you're listening and you're hearing that and you're like, no, no shit, Doug."},{"startTime":2336.107,"endTime":2337.669,"body":"Well, fair enough, but I'm learning."},{"startTime":2337.669,"endTime":2338.83,"body":"I'm, I'm still learning."},{"startTime":2338.83,"endTime":2342.6209999999996,"body":"Like this is how I'm trying to like, like grow."},{"startTime":2342.6209999999996,"endTime":2345.6929999999998,"body":"this is what happens when we start drinking when we're 34 years 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thing."},{"startTime":3044.1699999999996,"endTime":3052.8709999999996,"body":"It's so cool, man, because it goes where you want it to go, and it becomes like this"},{"startTime":3044.1699999999996,"endTime":3052.8709999999996,"body":"symbiotic story that you're telling where you're the main character."},{"startTime":3052.8709999999996,"endTime":3054.173,"body":"It's so fun."},{"startTime":3054.173,"endTime":3055.013,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":3055.205,"endTime":3060.707,"body":"Which look, that's maybe that's all we're doing here too."},{"startTime":3060.707,"endTime":3062.118,"body":"Really choosing our own adventure."},{"startTime":3062.118,"endTime":3072.511,"body":"And so the more we lean into, you know, choosing your own adventure in, in other words,"},{"startTime":3062.118,"endTime":3072.511,"body":"helps us choose our own adventure here right now."},{"startTime":3072.511,"endTime":3073.462,"body":"Yeah, that's right."},{"startTime":3073.462,"endTime":3074.263,"body":"That's 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way."},{"startTime":3193.884,"endTime":3206.004,"body":"I mean, I don't always say we found it, but like, I think that's part of this whole deal"},{"startTime":3193.884,"endTime":3206.004,"body":"is to learn to dance with the one who's like, it's co-creating with the universe."},{"startTime":3206.004,"endTime":3208.1079999999997,"body":"I guess it comes back to that."},{"startTime":3209.62,"endTime":3213.7799999999997,"body":"And we have a tool, we have these tools at our fingertips and I guess AI is one of them."},{"startTime":3213.7799999999997,"endTime":3224.48,"body":"I think it can help launch humanity into a new future because like what a, what a crazy"},{"startTime":3213.7799999999997,"endTime":3224.48,"body":"mirror to have at your fingertips."},{"startTime":3224.5,"endTime":3228.12,"body":"That's a lot of power to have at your fingertips to do."},{"startTime":3228.7799999999997,"endTime":3235.432,"body":"And if it's mirroring back, mean, both a tool for exploration or you can 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