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What’s keeping me up? Perspective. Point of view.  I try to look at things from all angles. It’s the photographer in me. I wish people would stop and take a moment to hear another person’s point of view? To understand it’s our differences that make this country so amazing. There are many ways to solve a problem. It’s fascinating how people choose to do so. 
I also discuss how being different is great. However, we need to understand, being different doesn’t mean we’re special or more important. That being a certain religion or race doesn’t make us more deserving. 
I talk about Spencer Pratt running for mayor of Los Angeles. I am in full support of that. Anyone that’s still undecided or wants more of the same crap, deserves what they get. You made your beds. Better lay comfortably in them…. 

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Hello everybody and welcome to another episode of the Ramblings of an Insomniac. I am Courtney. Good morning, good afternoon, and good evening to everybody out there. Hey, happy Mother's Day. It is Sunday, May 10th, and it is Mother's Day. So happy Mother's Day. I should have posted this a lot sooner so people would get it. Um, but you know something weird? I honestly didn't realize it was Mother's Day until my son called me and told me Happy Mother's Day. And I know that sounds terrible, but my mom passed away four years ago. And um I don't know. I guess I just kind of block it out. Not that I don't want to remember my mom. Of course, I do. I want to remember my mom. It has nothing to do with that. It's not out of disrespect or anything, because I remember my mom every day. It doesn't have to be Mother's Day or her birthday or the day she passed. I remember her every single day. So I don't know. Um I'm kind of it's hard for me to keep track of my days right now because with the job I have, it's like, yes, I have to know my days kind of, but but not really. So um so I'm just all backwards. And so happy Mother's Day is what I'm trying to say to everybody out there, whether you are a biological mom or a stepmom or someone that is like um is like a mom to somebody, um, whatever it is, a mom figure in your life, if you you're a mom figure to somebody, whatever. Happy Mother's Day. Um and thank you, by the way. If you were listening to my podcast, if you decided to tune me in and check out what I have to say, bless you. Thank you so much. I genuinely, genuinely appreciate it. It means the world to me when I get people checking out my podcast, um, especially if they're new. Um, well, I shouldn't say especially because I appreciate everybody the same, but I mean it's nice when new people come because I'm like, wow, someone else has heard about me. It's good to know that the word is getting out. Um, so thank you. Thank you to everybody, whether this is your very first time or you've been with me since the beginning, I can't tell you how much it means to me. I am grateful. Sorry, my dog is in the background panting again. I apologize. Um, but it means the world to me. So thank you. It's a lovely day out, and I hope that wherever you are today, you're able to get out and enjoy it, get some fresh air. If you were having to work today, thank you so much for working. There's a lot of people out there who choose not to work and try to mooch off the system. Um, they're perfectly capable of working and they don't want to, and either do I, either do most people. I'm not talking about the stay-at-home moms, the stay-at-home dads. That's a job. That is a job that is working. I'm not talking about caregivers that are home caring for family members. That's a job. That's that's working. I'm talking about the people that are abusing the system. You know who you are. Rude. So to everybody out there that's getting up and working on the days that they are tired and stressed and maybe they're grieving, um, and they just have a lot on their plate, you know. Thank you for getting up and doing it anyways, because Lord knows none of us usually I mean, I shouldn't speak for there's a lot of people that absolutely love their job, so maybe they want to go to work, but um, but still, even if you love your job, um, sometimes you can love your job and you have days where you just don't feel like getting out of bed and going, you know. So shout out to every single person out there who is faking it until they make it, who is putting on a smile when they're hurting, when they're stressed. Shout out to everybody out there that is still um kind and patient and respectful and give grace even when they're going through their own struggles. Um, thank you. And like I said, you have a lot of options. So many people have podcasts now. So the fact that there have been people tuning into mine is just awesome. Um, thank you, thank you, thank you. It means the absolute world to me. I'm sitting here doing my podcast, laying in a huge bed of like clovers, like a whole bunch of clovers, getting my grounding on, like a little bohemian that I am. I don't want to say hippie because I am not a hippie. I don't stand for anything hippie. I don't agree with most of the things the hippie era did. I mean, except for peace, of course. Peace and love. That's always a great message. Um, but I'm laying here with my feet touching the grass, laying in the grass, and everyone's like, how can you do that? Like, aren't you worried about bugs? And I don't know. I've never I've always done this since I was a kid. I just lay in the ground, no blanket, no blanket. I love big old fields. God, I love it when grass is like super duper tall. Plus, as a photographer, um, I doing the macro photography. I love all the bugs and the critters and stuff. So I like going out and like really tall grass and finding things to explore and take pictures of. Again, it's all about angles and it's all about our perception, it's about our the angle, it's about our point of view. Everybody's got one, right? We all have a point of view, we all have a different angle that we look at things, we all have, you know, um, our perceptions, how we perceive things. And that's why I like photography is I can take a picture of, you know, a spider, and there could be 10 of us that take a picture of a spider, and we could all have a different picture. And I like to take things, you know, I used to take pictures of things like I was at a fair once and there was this corn on the cob on the ground that was like half dried up. And I don't know why, but I got in there and I took a really close-up picture of it, and people loved it. And I did a picture one time of like this um windowsill that had these shadows of the blinds on it. And the way I took it, people are like, oh my god, I can't tell what that is. And I was like, Oh, it's a windowsill. And I took a picture of like a silhouette of a cat on a wall once that I thought was really cool, and it was just their like silhouette of my cat. And so I don't know, it's like what I think is cool and interesting. Someone else may think is ridiculous and dumb, or may think is also cool and interesting, but just didn't see it that way. And they were like, Oh, cool, okay. You know, like some people take a picture of a flower from underneath the flower, from the side, from on top, you know. Some people take a picture of the entire flower and some take a picture of the pollen on the flower, you know. And so I love that. And humans are like that, you know, we all experience things differently, and we can all see something happen and remember things differently, and maybe see different things that someone else didn't notice things that someone else didn't notice, you know, or maybe we picked up on a body language or a shirt or you know, what color someone um someone's hair was and someone else didn't see those things, but they saw maybe their mannerisms or something. And so it's good because when you have someone that pays attention or notices mannerisms, and someone else that notices maybe, you know, um how someone looks or something, you put the two of those together and bam, you know you can solve a crime. Sorry, my dog is panting so much in the background. Um okay, last one, Pucky. Last one. But when you put those together, it's magic, you know, and it takes different people to get things done sometimes, you know, to solve problems. There was this video that someone sent me, and well, no, I stumbled upon it and I ended up sharing it to everybody because I thought it was one of the coolest videos on the internet because of the title of it. And well, even if it didn't have the title, it was still a cool video. It was a bunch of llamas that were in this little, um, you could tell they were in the mountains, and they were down this cobblestone, very, very, very um narrow little street. And there was this rope that was preventing them from going straight. And you could get up on this wall that they could jump up on and take and use the wall to um, because the wall was very short, so they could and wide, and it was like made of rock, so they had enough room. They could jump up on it and go around the rope, they could go under the rope, they could jump over the rope, or they could pick up the rope in their mouth and move it. Well, it was funny because the first couple of llamas um jumped up on the wall, and it was like the first llama you could see was kind of assessing. You could see he was like, hmm, intriguing. What is this? How do I get around it? And he finally decided he was going to jump up on the wall and go around it. So I think the second llama was like, okay, that's cool. And the third one's like, all right, I'll do what he's doing. It seems to work. And then like the fourth llama is kind of like, hmm, I'm not sure. And he decides to jump over it. And so again, I think like the next llama in line was like, All right, jumping over it. Okay, works for me. But then they get to another llama, and I don't know if he's like, I don't know if I can make it. He goes under it, like a little limbo guy. It was hilarious. And then the next llama was like, I don't know that I can do that. That's pretty bendy there, Steve. Steve, you're pretty, uh, you're pretty bendy. So he decides he's gonna pick up this rope because it's just kind of latched on, like you could see, like maybe a little nail hanging out. It's not really fastened tightly or anything. He decides he's just gonna use his mouth and move the rope out of the way and go through. And there was only one other llama left that was behind him, and you could see he was like, Oh, nicely done, Ted. Okay, I like your style, Ted. All right. I don't know why, you know, said Stan and Steve or Ted or whatever, but anyway. Um, but I liked it because it just shows like there's no one way to do something. There's not just one way to solve a puzzle, there's not one way to run a city or to parent. There's not one way to teach, you know, there's not one way to learn. And it's amazing to me because I just love that it shows that you can get the job done in different ways. And they all got the job done. They all still got to where they were going. And some might argue going around it was the best way, and some may say going over it's the best and moving it's the best, and some may decide that one way is better than the other, but they all got the job done, you know, and I love that. I love it when you can again use photography and you can have someone take a picture of something, and they're like, Wow, I never looked at a corn on the cob that way as a cool way. No one else would, you know. There was I was taking pictures that day of just things on the ground and trash and half-eaten food, and I don't know, and the angle I took it at, people were like, Okay, that's interesting, that's cool. And you know, maybe some people thought it was horrible, and that's okay. But I just like I was like, you know, hey, I I don't know. I just thought it was cool. I liked the texture, I liked the the contrast. I kind of just I don't know. I liked it, it was something different, and so we need, I feel like, you know, more of that. People that that's what I love about America is that we are a melting pot. We have people from all races and all backgrounds, and we all have something to contribute. And if we are a Democrat, if we are an independent, if we are Republican or communist or whatever, um we're still, whether we're even a communist, even a socialist, even a Nazi or whatever, at least they have something to contribute, maybe going, Oh, I don't want to do things like that. That was the wrong way. I mean, unless you agree with those things, then you're gonna be like, okay, I want to do things like Hitler. Hitler is my man, you know, if you like that kind of thing. There is a daddy long leg who is being paparazzi with me, and he will not leave me alone. Um, by the way, you guys, did you know people used to say, Oh, did you know daddy long legs are actually the most venomous spider, but they just don't have a way of their their um teeth or their um fangs aren't big enough. Nope, I look it up. That is a big false um misinformation. Not true, actually. Um, they are not harmless, they have no nothing, they've got nothing. So if you've heard that rumor, it is a rumor. I looked it up because I believed in that rumor. I used to tell that rumor before I knew what the hell I was talking about. So don't spread that. Daddy long legs are actually not venomous, they don't have a way of injecting, it's not because they don't have a way of injecting venom that makes them, you know, where they wouldn't be able to kill you or whatever. They just don't have that. They're not venomous. But I still don't like them. They're spindly and they're weird, and I'd rather have a tarantula on me than a daddy long leg, if I'm being honest. Anyway, anywho. So America is a melting pot. We have people from all walks of life. And I don't know why a group of people would want there to be just one type of person, just them. Like if all Muslims just want people to be Muslim. And I do know why. I mean, I know the theory behind it. Obviously, I know why people want that, because they want to dominate, they want to take over, they want their religion or their party to take over. But why do you want things to be one way? You know, I feel like we are America and we are a melting pot, and that's what makes us so unique, is we have so many cultures that live here, and you can learn from so many different people, you can learn different styles of dress, of food, of parenting, of religions, of just so many different things. You can learn so much from different people. So why wouldn't you want that in your life? Why wouldn't you want to surround yourself? Are you scared? You know, do you are you scared of maybe that you get proven wrong? Do you not want to surround yourself with other people because you don't want to look like the dumbest person in the room? You don't want to look dumb. Maybe you don't want to be proved wrong. Maybe you want to be the prettiest person. Maybe you want to be the smartest person, maybe you want to be the richest person. I don't know. But, you know, there's that saying if you're the smartest person in the room, you're in the wrong room. I like to surround myself by people that are smarter than me so I can learn from them, from people that are different from me so that I can learn. Of course, it's more comfortable. It is far more comfortable to surround yourself by like-minded people, and that's why we become friends with people, because usually we have partners or friends because they are we have things in common. And I'm not saying you should surround yourself by people you have nothing in common with, because of course that's silly. You know, you your friends become your friends because you have the majority of things in common, and sure you may disagree about other stuff, but you have some things in common, you have some shared interests, you know, so you became friends. But you're also probably gonna have some differences, maybe, you know. I had a friend that totally, totally disowned me because I voted for Trump in 2016, and because I didn't feel that um men should be in locker rooms and bathrooms. And she's, you know, I think she's under the impression that her kids are trans, all three of them, whether gay and or trans. And yet, again, I have a problem with that because everybody likes to tell you, oh my gosh, transgender people are only like two percent of the population, only two percent of the population. And and I agree that real, true, genuine transgender people are two percent of the population. But what's funny about that is everybody in Hollywood and everybody nowadays, every Joe Blow in Oregon, Washington, and California seems to have not one but all of their kids are transgender or gay or something. They're in the LGBTQIA um category, and so if it's so darn um uncommon, if it's so rare, then why does every celebrity seem to have all of their children that are in that community? Why does my friend have three kids and all three of her kids are part of the LGBTQIA community then? That's strange. So I feel like you need to stop saying that it's uncommon or stop saying that your kids have something that they have no business deeming themselves of because their brains aren't even developed yet. I'm not gonna get into that because I've done too many podcasts on common sense and um how people lack it, and we keep producing kids that are entitled um violent kids that can't read and have no common sense. And I have a huge problem with that because I uh I don't want to keep being around your crappy kids, you know? And I don't want to keep being around humans that think that anybody with a different point of view needs to be assassinated or fired or have the crap beat out of them. We can have different points of view and actually just talk. Or again, like I always say, swipe left, swipe right, my friend. Anyway, that is something that has been keeping me up. And you know what else is keeping me up? Spencer Pratt. Spencer Pratt, my friend, if you are in California, if you live in LA, I don't live in LA, so I can't speak for you guys, but if I lived in LA, I would vote for Spencer Pratt. And if you live in LA and you are undecided, because again, apparently like 40% of California is undecided. I mean 40% of LA is undecided. What is there to what are you undecided about? What on earth are you mulling over? Why would you even consider Karen Bass again? Why would that even be someone that you would consider voting for after everything she has done? Are you kidding me? I have to tell you this. If you live in LA and you vote, Gwen! My healer went over to say hi to the horses. Get over here, good girl. But if there's even a question in your mind on if you should vote for Karen Bass again or not, then whatever happens to your city, Gwen, get over here. Come, come, come, leave it. Good, leave it, come here. Whatever happens to your city is your fault. You have decided to make your bed and lie comfortably in it. You've decided that you are all about having torture and having we're coming up on fire season. It's coming up on fire season, and you honest to God think that you're gonna vote for Karen Bass again. What is wrong with you that you have to be undecided? What is there to decide? I I honestly please help me understand what you're mulling over. If you haven't seen Spencer Pratt, if you haven't been watching him on um Joe Rogan, if you haven't seen him on CBS, come on, go in and get over here. He has been all over everywhere, and he's had amazing advertisement and um amazing debates, and he is just common sense, common sense, and he's been there. He is a true person who is a human person who is not a politician, that is not jaded by, I mean, excuse me, that isn't um corrupt and just saying a script and is like a robot up there just saying recycled, regurgitated crap that they've just heard over and over. No, he's someone who actually cares because his house was burnt down, his family's house was burnt down. He's a citizen of LA, he has been for a long time, born and raised, and he has seen what Karen Bass has done, and he is tired of it and he's sick of it. And because of that, he's super authentic. He is himself. And again, if you live in LA and you are sitting there contemplating if you're gonna vote, some people are like, oh, well, I just can't stand um Spencer Pratt because he might be a Republican. No, he's flat out said over and over again he's a Democrat, but he's actually running as an independent, and actually, technically, the mayor is um non nonpart nonpartisan. They're nonpartisan, so but he did say he was independent, so um, and actually, I mean that he's running as independent uh if he, you know, had to pick what he was going to run as, but that he used to be a Democrat. And so he's just running on common sense. But I do not know what to tell California if they decide to vote for a person who has shown very clearly how flagrant she has been, how absolutely um fraudulent, well, not fraudulent, but how she has not filled up the reservoirs, she was not prepared, knowing that everybody warned her in advance. Hey, this is gonna be a hell of a season, you need to prepare. She didn't. But I just I just don't get so anybody out there that's thinking of it, I don't live in LA, it shouldn't be my business. I'm just intrigued by people that are making that are like, hmm, let me think. Let me think this over. Hmm, this is a very difficult decision. Really? Is it a difficult decision? Is it? I want to know why. I'm just so intrigued by your brain and what goes on in there that you think that Karen Bassett, because again, if you guys have the majority votes for California, then you know what? Shut the fuck up. Don't you dare, don't you dare get on social media and bitch at all. If your city ends up burning to the ground, goodbye, good riddance, honestly. Good fucking riddance, because you did this to yourself over and over. You keep doing it, you keep doing it. And frankly, I've had enough. These cities that continue to do this over and over and over. And then cry later really are just annoying. And the cities that do it over and over, and then people move out of those cities and move into red states and then try to turn those red states into their shitty blue states that they left in the first place that they know didn't work in the first place. Very annoying. Keep your shitty politics and your uneducated, illogical crap to yourself. You decided you wanted to be violent. You wanted corruption. You wanted fraud. You're pissed off that Nick Shirley and Doge exposed fraud. You want fraud. You want your tax dollars to be completely abused. Gwen, come. You are like, oh man, I really just want my tax dollars wasted. I want to pay exorbitants, exorbit amount of money in taxes. I want to pay a huge amount of money for a house. And I want to pay a boatload in permits. I want drugs, drugs, drugs. I want human feces all over. I want homeless everywhere. I want no cops. I am gonna defund the police. If that's all the stuff you guys want, great. But keep that shit to yourself and then don't complain about it because you're voting for it over and over and over again. Because you want to cut off your nose to spite your face. I'm just confused. I would love someone to explain to me why they would vote for Karen Bass again. Because again, Spencer's not Trump. Spencer Pratt is not Trump. Bonnie, uh-uh. You're not cool. Get over here. You know, you're just you're it's just so infuriating to me when people will ruin their own cities and then they or ruin they want to leave a country, and now all these people that have moved to Canada are like, oh bo, I can't find a doctor. I can't find a house. I'm broke. I'm begging for money. I'm begging for money. I'm broke. I can't find a house. I can't find a doctor. I'm realizing I can't get free care because I'm not a Canadian citizen. All of these things I thought were going to be great, and now I don't want to admit that I have to come back to the United States, but I am admitting it, but I'm not admitting that the United States is better, even though I'm saying it without saying it, because when you're admitting that you're moving back because you can't afford to live there, oh my dogs are harassing the horses. Um, but uh what was I saying? If if you are, gosh, now I don't know what I was saying. Basically, I'm saying if you're gonna sit there and um go to a different city or go to a different state and then try to change it into the crowd. Oh, yeah, I was saying the Canadian. Okay. If you are not a Canadian citizen, you're not gonna get free health care. And even if you do, again, it's not free. I wish people would stop saying free. It isn't free. It may be free to you because maybe you hardly have to pay taxes, or maybe you don't have a job, so you're not paying taxes at all. But to everybody else, it's not free. In fact, they pay 60% in taxes, so they're barely bringing home a paycheck, and then they're trying to find a home, which are very scarce. There's hardly any houses, and then the houses they have are crazy expensive. No one can afford this. And I know this for a fact because I've talked to many, many, many Canadians when I was in Las Vegas and we were on this very long um tram ride thing. Met a bunch of them. Plus, I know personally Canadians that live here in the States that have spouses that are American and they live here. They don't live in Canada. You know why? Because it's better here. Canada looks beautiful. Canada looks like a beautiful country. And I'm sure it's perfectly safe and people are perfectly lovely. I'm not knocking the people again. When I talk about people's countries, I'm talking about how the countries are ran, who is running their countries, and I'm talking about the people that support those shitty, shitty ran countries. So if you support how Kim Jong-un runs his country, if you support how Xi Jinping, Xi Jinping, and uh Putin run their countries, if you support the Iranian regime, well then I am talking to you. Then I don't think that you are a very good person, and I think you need to reflect a little bit. But um, I don't understand why people think that things are free. I mean, again, I do, because if you're not paying for it, then you're like, it's free, but everybody else has to pay for it. And when you go to get these other countries, I don't get why people think that they're going to get the same treatment because you're not a citizen. And it takes a lot to become a citizen in another country. It is not easy. It is very difficult to become a citizen in another country. And yet people want America to just let I mean, even Canada and other countries are like, boo, America, how dare you protect your borders? How dare you, America, protect your borders? How dare you not let every Tom, Dick, and Harry into your country's boo, you hateful racist, bigoted pieces, shit, garbage Americans, you horrible, bigoted, racist Americans. Meanwhile, ask them if you can be part of their country. Ask Canada if you can just tootle on over and become a citizen. Ask Australia if you can tootle on over and just be a citizen. Ask these other countries if you can become a citizen and how easy it is. Also, ask these countries what it's like because they've had their borders to be so open and when they allow everybody in, ask them what's going on in their countries. Ask them how how grape is going. Ask them how um violent things if if violence is happening. Ask them how the crime is going in their country. Ask them in the countries that want all these Muslim people there. Ask England how it's going out, how it's how it's working out to have a bunch of Muslims there. You know, I'm just saying. I I just I don't understand how people can hate on America when we were right. We were correct. And now these people are making their, you know, making videos talking about how, oh my god, these people are out in the streets and they're beating us up and they're doing this and they're doing that. Yeah, we told you that that was gonna happen. Just like in New York, we told the liberals that if they voted for Mandami, or however you say his name, that the city was going to go to shit, and it is. And then people are like, oh my lord, oh my stars, oh my stars, I am so taken aback. I had no idea. Yes, you did, you were warned, and you called us all horrible, evil, racist pigs. Canada thought that we were just horrible and evil, and now look at them. You can't afford to live in Canada. England thought that we were terrible, horrible people. Look at England. Does anybody want raise your hand if you want to live in England? Does anybody want to live in England? Because I gotta tell you, there are a fuck ton of videos of people that come to the United States from England that want to live here and want desperately to be a part of America, and they talk about how everybody in England is so dang depressing. No one talks to each other, no one makes eye contact, the weather is disgusting, the weather's horrible, no one talks to each other, no one's polite. It is incredibly, incredibly expensive. There's Muslims all over that are causing all kinds of violence. I'm sorry. I don't think that people are sitting there kicking down the doors to live in England right now. I'm sorry, nobody against England, but don't sit there and talk so much. I'm just tired. I've said this on every single podcast. I am sick and tired of other countries talking about how horrible and shitty America is when every single one of them would give their left nut to live here and you fucking know it. You know that if you had a choice to move here, you'd probably would, or at least visit here. Maybe not, maybe you don't want to move here. But you all know that if you were given a ticket to come and visit America, all expenses paid, you would. Those same people that say how much they hate America would be here in a heartbeat. I'm not knocking, there's other countries that I think are amazing. I think there are a lot of other countries that have it going on. And I'm not knocking other countries. I'm just sick and tired of other countries knocking America while asking us for our help all the time and demanding that we allow everybody and their grandma into our country while they don't. And then these other countries tell us how horrible we are while their country right now is currently in the crapper, it's in the toilet. It's and then they're like, well, it's Trump's fault. No, it's it's your fault. Not everything is Trump's fault. You wake up and you make choices. Trump doesn't make choices. And if Trump lives in your brain that much, you genuinely need massive therapy. You need a lot of therapy. You need to be hanging out with your family or your spouse or your friends a lot more. They need to be part of your life. Please substitute Trump with family, with friends, with your job, with so many other things. People are putting Trump before everything else. They just live and breathe making videos like Jimmy Kimmel. Jimmy Kimmel is the biggest example of this. Hollywood, huge example. Don't you guys have a career? Oh no, your careers are in the toilet because no one wants to watch your fucking movies anymore. Because no one gives a shit about your entitledness. We don't want to see your faces anymore. We've had enough of you. We don't even want to see you on the screen because no one's making good videos, no one's making good movies anymore. Recycled, recycled, yawn, yawn, yawn. There's nothing else to write movies about. There's nothing else, and what are you gonna do? Redo something and make George Washington a quadriplegic uh transgender black person? That's what they're gonna do. They're gonna make a historical video that's about George Washington and and um Ben Franklin and about um John Adams and all of these people, and they're gonna make them like transgender, and they're gonna make them black, and they're gonna make them, you know, completely rewrite history. Because that's what they do. Because they're bored. No one wants to watch Hollywood anymore. No one wants to watch those movies anymore. We're tired of it. I like reality shows, I like documentaries. Anyway, gosh, I'm a downer, huh? I gotta gotta pull this up. Pull up, pull up. I'm nosediving here. I had a meeting with someone today, and I am realizing that there are things I need to let go of. Um, I'm so bitter about my previous job letting me go because they were really just in cahoots together. They very much um purposely got me out of there. They wanted me out of there. The three of them teamed up and did everything they can to get me out of there. And um I have been hearing from ex-customers that the place is not doing well. Um, it's stinky, and there's a lot of things that have been going on. And so, and people have been asking about me and asking where I am, and that it just was really, really hurtful to me because again, I didn't get to say goodbye and I didn't get to, you know, let anybody know I was going. And so when you know people for eight years, you become close. But she was right, I need to let go because you know what's done is done, and besides that, it ended up being the best thing in the world. I would have probably never left, and I should have because I can't go up, I can't go anywhere, and I can't be a 52-year-old not making any money, you know. Um, I was doing it because I loved the customers and I loved um the dogs and stuff, and so I um so much happier now. I don't have to work with anybody. I can be my own boss and I still get to see my customers and um and I know that I'm in a better position because if I don't want to work right now, I don't have to. I can actually, you know, um potentially retire if I want to. So I'm in a very, very good place, and me leaving there is probably the best thing that ever happened. I just don't like how it went down. But I have a tendency, I always turn the other cheek and I forgive. I'm not supposed to say always. Um I I usually almost I I have a how do I say this? I usually turn the other cheek. And I forgive easily and I move on easily. But the things that I really have a difficult time moving on from is when someone has just really done me dirty and betrayed me um in the way that these people have. But I was like, you know what though, she's right. I am I'm in a much better position. I'm a lot happier. I still get to see all of my customers, I still get to talk to them, and I get to be my own boss. I don't have to have coworkers, and I can make my own schedule, and I get to be at my own home or in other people's homes, either way. And it it's awesome. And so I'm a lot happier, and I just need to focus on that and be like, you know what, they're not losing any sleep. And um it sounds like the place is, you know, isn't doing too great. So um it sounds like it's it's gone downhill quite a bit and people are complaining. So um, I don't want that. I don't want dot I don't want people to suffer. I don't want things to go downhill because that means that animals are suffering and I don't want that. But I'm just saying, you know, if it is, maybe they'll be like, wow, uh we were wrong, but we screwed up. But regardless, I don't need that because I am a grown-ass adult and I don't want to be spiteful. I was just talking about spite and I don't wish any harm or anything, and I don't talk smack about them ever. Um so and I'm not going to, I'm not going to go around bad mathing them. I just uh don't like the way they did me dirty. But I need to move on. So I'm going to. That is a chapter in my life that is closed. Throwing away the key. Uh locking it and throwing away the key. And that also just makes me go, oh God, I love it. I'm looking at horses right now. I want to go jump on one right now and go running through the fields. Hi, baby. Look at you. You're handsome, Gwen. Uh-uh. Good girl. Come. Gwen. Um anyway, that's enough of that. Basically, what I'm saying is Um to sum up, happy Mother's Day. Shout out to everybody that's getting up when they have struggles, when they have crap going on, and yet they still choose. No. No, Bonnie. Shout out to everybody that gets up even when they're tired, stressed, grieving, have struggles. You rock. That's hard to do. So shout out to everybody out there that is just a superstar. Shout out to everybody that's been listening to my podcast. Um, and if you're still voting for Kate Bass, uh Karen Bass, I mean, Karen Bass, after everything, um, then you've made your bed, and I think that you deserve whatever comes out of that. And I don't want to listen to you complaining. Um also, um, perspective. Remember, everything is about perspective. We all have what, you know, our point of view. You know, perspective is a good thing. Looking at things from all angles, even if you disagree with someone, it's good to, you know, the whole shoe is on the other foot thing, you know, can you walk a mile in someone else's shoes? But um, seeing things from a different angle and trying to see someone else's point of view is always good, you know? Even if you still disagree at the end of the day, just take a step back for a second, take a breath and be like, I wonder what they're going through. I'm gonna try hard to see their point of view. And if you still can't, then don't. That's fine. You don't have to. But at the very least, you know that you tried and you know that you you made that effort. Anyway, thank you so much. Um, I'm gonna go because my dog's being a jerk, but thank you so much. Um, until next time.