Spread The Fun…

In this episode I discuss being an eternal Debbie downer. While people are laughing and appreciating life, America, the rain… others are out to bring everyone else down. Misery loves company. Somehow rain is now racist? 

I talk about accountability and karma. I dive in to actions and oppression. I discuss day drinking and rules regarding drinking I feel are stupid? 
But mostly I discuss life! Living life and having fun. 

What’s keeping me up? LIFE! 

Transcript

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Hello and welcome to another episode of the Ramblings of an Insomniac. I am Courtney. Good morning. Good afternoon, and good evening to everybody. Everybody. Everybody in the club getting tipsy. Everybody in this podcast getting tipsy. Well, I hope not. I mean, we don't need a bunch of drunks, right? Well, I mean, at the same time, if you want to drink, get your drink on. On that note, why does time matter? I've never understood why somehow, if you drink in the morning, it's bad. Or you drink in the afternoon, it's bad. But yet evening somehow magically makes drinking okay. Doesn't it depend on your schedule? Doesn't it depend on like what if someone works the graveyard shift? So to them, getting off early in the morning and having a drink is the equivalent to getting off. Okay, sorry, I got a phone call. I hope this works. But anyways, what if you are like a graveyard person and you get off at like nine in the morning? To you to that's the equivalent of someone that say gets off at six in the evening and wants to go have a drink? I think time of day doesn't matter. I think what matters is what you're doing. Like you shouldn't get sloppy drunk if you have to operate machinery, if you have to go to work, if you have to care for children, you know, like if you're responsible for others, you know, that's probably not good. But otherwise, why does time of day and how come if you put juice like as in if you put champagne and then you put juice in it, it's a mimosa, therefore you can drink it in the morning? Or like if you put V8 juice in vodka, that suddenly makes it a bloody merry, and you can apparently have those in the morning. That's what kills me. Why can't you have a scotch in the morning? Why can't you have a beer in the morning? Again, why does the alcohol type is there a time frame on which you can have it? Again, I feel like it's whatever you feel want to have if you want to drink. Um, and time of day should only matter again if you're operating machinery or responsible for for human life, you know, you probably shouldn't be drinking, right? But otherwise, I say get your drink on if you want to. I'm not promoting drinking, I'm just saying if that's what you do. I would make I always think I'd make such a fun bartender, like I would have a really good time, but then I'm like, um, actually, what am I talking about? I don't like being around drunk people, and I'm a bitch about it because I come from a long, long line of really, really big-time drunks and alcoholics and addicts. And so unfortunately, and they weren't nice. Like I was never around, like it was violent and stuff. So for me, I associate, you know, drunk or buzzed with uh-oh, shit's gonna hit the fan. Uh-oh, I have to defend myself, uh-oh, I have to be scared, I have to find safety or the cops are gonna come or whatever. Even when someone's buzzed, even when they're happy, I get annoyed. I'm just like, I get annoyed with people, and it's not their fault, it's my fault. It's a total me issue because when someone's just having a good time, it's not like I'm annoyed as in when people are going around and they're having a good time drunk. It's not like I'm like, uh, fun, boo. I don't want fun. Oh, by the way, I didn't even say anything. All I said is, hello, welcome to Ramblings of a Nomniac. Good morning, good afternoon, good evening. And then I just launched into all of this. Holy fork and shirt balls. Well, to those of you who have never heard my podcast before, you're gonna be like, What in the hell is this chick on meth or what is going on? And she didn't even, she just went right into it. No foreplay, nothing, just went right into it. But those of you who have been listening to me more than once, you know that this is just what I do. I am very um, I I get sidetracked, but I come back around. So hello, welcome, welcome, welcome. You are listening to Ramblings of an insomniac. And when I say ramblings, see, I didn't lie to you, did I? You got exactly what the title said. So if you are like, whoa, this chick is just rambling on and on, well, it I did warn you in the title, right? Okay, so to continue. Um, I just don't understand what was I gonna say? Shoot, I usually come right back around, but it was about drinking and timing, and then um, oh, dang it. This might be a time when I don't come back around. I hope I didn't leave me on some cliffhanger. I'll get back to it. I I will. I will. Um, it's just weird because oh yeah, bartender. See, there we go. Bartenders. I always want to be one because I always think, okay, if someone's being lippy, whoa, Pucky, good job. Um, my dog just made the both badass flip catch. But if I were a bartender and people were starting to fight, I would just take like the water gun, the, you know, like the the little dispenser that you use to put water into drinks and shit or whatever, and I would use that and spray it at people that were starting to fight. And I'd be like, hey, cool off. And I would make an awesome bartender as an I think I would make good conversation and have a good time. My problem would be again, I'm not against people having a good time. It's not like I'm like, boo, people are having a good time. I must stop it, see. Again, it's not like I'm like, boo, I want to take the fun. I want people to have a good time. I'm loving that people are here from all over Europe, loving America, having a good time, and just living life. Like that is amazing. I'm not against Drew Barrymore being out laughing in the rain, which apparently is now racist, by the way. According to some black influencer, Drew Barrymore coming out and loving the rain and being happy and having a good time and enjoying the rain, especially in California when they never ever get the rain. I think people missed that part. There's been fires, there's been all kinds of you know, drought going on in California. So she's going to be extra happy about the rain, and who cares? Only miserable people would turn that into a negative, and only crazy black people would turn that into a racist thing. But point being, I'm not gonna suck the fun out of anybody. I'm just saying that unfortunately I would as a bartender in a way. Because if you get too lovey dovey, that annoys me. If you turn into an asshole, obviously, that annoys me. I don't want assholes, and then oh gosh, there are people who get so lovey-dovey, they're like, I love you. Have I ever told you how much I love you? Oh my gosh, and they'll go on and on and on, and they want you to like they want to hug, and it's just a lot. And again, I'm not I'm not dissing on. Are you okay, babe? God, my dog's sneezing like crazy. You good? Um, shake it off. All right. Oh, no, okay, bless you, gazoo tight. Oh, let the demons out. Okay, girl. Anyway, um, you know, I think people should get their freak on and have a good time. I'm all about it. So I'd be okay at a bartender in a lot of ways, but I couldn't handle the what people oh my goodness, your schnitzel. Oh, schnitzels. Are you alright? Mo, come on. Um, sorry you guys, I've got my dogs as usual. Again, for people that don't listen to my podcast, my dogs are usually in the background or someone's dogs. I'll have somebody's dogs or animals, chickens, goats, um, cats, whatever, will be in the background usually. Um, I do my podcast at night, and there'll be crickets and coyotes and owls and all kinds of stuff. And sometimes I'm out here talking to my dogs and you can hear them sneezing. Um, that's why this is unedited. So get the word out. This is an actual for-real unedited getting it live podcast. But uh, I should start doing them live. I really need to start doing them live. And I would love, love, love nothing more than if you guys would join my YouTube channel, if you guys would get on my Facebook, TikTok, Instagram, clapper, um, and just check me out and like and subscribe. I'm not telling you what to do. You don't have to do it. I don't boss people around. I don't. I believe in freedom. I won't let you down. I will not give it up. Okay, sorry. Gotta have some faith in the sound. It's the one good thing that I've got. Okay, sorry. Now I gotta listen to some George, some George Mikkel. Um, as you can tell, I did not have a rhyme or reason to this podcast. I have actually a lot of stuff in my brain. I have a lot going on, a lot to to contemplate, a lot that I want to say, but I'm trying to be a bigger person and not say things shitty in the nature I want to, so I'm trying to like calm down a little, but I do have to say, it's funny. Um I've had places that I've worked, and I've had um some places that I've I've worked at that really um, you know, when people will take over things that have no idea what they're talking about, and then you'll get someone else who thinks they know what they're talking about because they've had like two years of experience and therefore they know everything there is to know about everything, and they're also narcissistic. Um, and then those people make really poor choices and they forget about the people who have taken care of them and got them through. And I know I understand that this is petty, I understand it's shitty, I understand it's childish. I'm aware of all of it, and I own that. I own all of the above. Should I be a better person? Should this be should I be petty? No, I should not be petty. Yes, I should be a bigger person. Gwendolyn, get over here. Come, come, come, come. Come, come, come. Good, come, good girl. Yes. Should I get over it? Yeah. Um, and I am. I'm totally over it because my life is um much better now that I've made the choices that I've made. And in some ways, my life has sucked because I've made really poor choices. I am certainly not going to lie to you and say that every decision in my life has been blessed and wonderful and is worked out. Hell no, I've made some stupid, dumb fuck decisions. I have paid the consequences. Holy cow, but I recently have made some good ones. And I'm noticing that since I've made those good choices, they are not what they thought they were, and they like to um praise themselves and give credit to people that didn't do anything, don't deserve it, didn't put in that time, energy, and um build the clientele and stuff and develop relationships and stuff. And so it's interesting when now that I just love karma, I guess is what I'm saying, which is terrible. Um, it is awful to say that because I never am wishing bad upon people. I'm not wishing that people aren't successful. I will always vote success. I want people to succeed. I'm not wishing harm at all. Um, I am not wishing Mosby. I'm not wishing harm. I'm not wishing any of that. But when life takes its course and people pay the consequences for their poor choices, it makes me happy. And I don't think that's wrong. I don't think it's wrong because it's like saying when a killer um unalives somebody, then the person, the victim, and the victim's family, I think deserves to be happy when they get sentenced. Because they're like, oh, this is relief. They're paying the consequences. That's accountability. And so I feel that way now. I feel like when you make poor choices and people pay the price for that, um, why would I be upset? I mean, unless of course it's I feel they don't deserve that because they made great choices and they're still suffering. That's no good. I don't want people to suffer when they've made good choices. That's no fun. It's starting to rain. So I'm not gonna lie. It's pretty great, I'm not gonna lie, when you just kind of smile and go, haha, you thought you were something, didn't you? You thought you were something, and it turns out you're not. I'm sorry, it's it's satisfying. Don't kids, if you're listening, do as I say, not as I do. On that note, though, we shouldn't do as we say and not as we do, but that's gonna happen sometimes because again, we are not perfect. I say it pretty much every single podcast, every podcast, and yet people like to say, oh my gosh, you're Republican, therefore you think every single thing Trump or Republicans do and say is correct and true, and you don't want them accountable, you don't want them to be um accountable for their actions. That's not true at all. I believe in two wrongs don't make a right. I believe that if you are a Republican or white or um straight or Swedish of Swedish heritage or a woman, I'm claim I'm saying things about myself, these are things about me. I think anybody should be held accountable, no matter if they, you know, are of the same beliefs as I am, no matter if they have the same, you know, religion or race or gender or political point of view or sexual orientation as I do. I believe in an accountability. I believe in accountability for all, genuinely, even if that means someone I love, someone I like, someone I respect. If they've been proven, proven, proven wrong, then I think they absolutely should be held accountable. None of this Carmelo Anthony crap. What is that about? None of this Drew Barrymore is racist because she loves the rain. How on earth are we making rain racist? My God, can we not have anything? Can you not just take accountability for the fact that you have a miserable life and you're so hateful and you love being a victim and you relish in being a victim and you want to be oppressed that you make a video about Drew Barrymore loving life? Because you don't want to be held accountable and you don't want consequences for your poor decisions, for your lack of good choices. You don't want to be held accountable for the fact that you are where you are because you made choices, not because Drew Barrymore danced in the rain, not because your um grandparents' grandparents were slaves. That has zero to do with anything. By the way, black people owned slaves, and by the way, white people were slaves, and by the way, black people owned white slaves, and by the way, white people were slaves, black people were slaves, black people owned black slaves. Like I said, I said that twice, but to just make sure we know. And that has nothing to do with 2026 at all. Because if we're gonna do that, then we can go back and start saying that black people owe white people reparations, and we can keep just going on and on about who owes, and that goes back to who deserves. And I talk about deserving on my podcast all the time. Who defines deserving? Who defines who's deserving? Deserving is quite literally an opinion. You can't measure who is deserving. You can't, that's not something that's an opinion. Why don't we just all be happy? Like FIFA Cup, the World Cup being in America has been so uplifting and so amazing. And there are people still that are like, meh, meh, I can't. I must have an eternal stick up my ass. I must constantly walk around being pissed off and looking for reasons to be angry instead of looking within and taking accountability. Be happy for the love of God, dance in the rain. I agree with Drew Merrymore, especially if you're in California or a place that doesn't get rain, or doesn't get rain often. If you're in a dry place and it rains, I think you absolutely should go out and dance in the rain. I do not live in a dry place, and I live where it does rain, and I still used to go out and put on rubber boots with my kids. My kids and I would put on rubber boots, not raincoats, not get umbrellas, and we would go out and we would quite literally stomp around in mud puddles, stomp around in puddles. We would go for hikes and walks in the rain all the time. It smelled good. There's different animals out, it's a different life. Things just look so green and lush. It's amazing. I highly recommend people dance in the rain and value the rain because water is important. Rain is life and it's important. And when you're in California and you don't get it, it's beautiful. And if you don't like it, you don't have to celebrate. If you don't like it, you don't have to dance in the rain. But why is it that the mentality lately is if I don't like it, it's gonna be my mission in life? I'm going on a quest. Are you going on a quest to better yourself? No. Are you going on a quest to help others? No. Are you going on a quest to help animals? No. Are you going on a quest to change legislation, change policy, change bills? No. Well, what are you going on a quest to do? To make everybody miserable. Miserable like I feel on the inside. To match my face on the outside. Well, why would you do that? Because I'm miserable. I want everybody else to be miserable because life is miserable. Okay. Um that's interesting. That's just such a bizarre take on life, man. I can't do it. Everybody has bad days, like I say all the time. You go ahead and get your bad day on. We all have them. You have to. You have to get that shit out. Again, I sound like a broken record. I know I do. But every podcast I say, emotions are there for a reason. That's why we have that awesome movie that I can never remember the name of yet constantly reference and constantly say I love, yet always fucking forget the name of, but it's all about emotions. And it it's correct, they are important. Just don't live in anger. Don't live in fear. Don't live in, you know, trauma. You have to experience anger. You have to experience fear. It's good to go through it, but you don't need to good catch, Pucky, good catch, good boy. But you don't need to live in, you know, being bitter and mad and angry. My goodness. Like if you're depressed once in a while, okay, that's normal. But being depressed all the time, maybe you should get that checked out. I'm not saying that in a bad way. Depression is a big deal. It's sad. You should get it checked out as an I'm not saying it condescending, I'm saying it's serious. But don't take it out on others. Don't bring everybody else down and relish in it and just sit there with a spoon and just eat up everybody else's um shit life that you created. I don't like pot stirrers. I've worked with pot stirrers and they forever used to prank call me because they I wasn't there anymore. And they were so mad that I wasn't there anymore. And they were thinking that their life was so much better now that I wasn't gonna be there anymore. And they were like, Yeah, our life is gonna be amazing now that she's not around. But what's funny is and they were, I hate her, I hate her, I hate her, everything was bad with her, I hate her. Yet they called me incessantly, prank called me incessantly, and I knew ended up knowing it was them because they accidentally called from their actual phone number. Plus, I recognized one of their voices, and I just it everything they said were only I did a podcast about this again. Um, it's called prank call. You should check it out. I did a whole podcast, I've done a couple about this, but they um the things they said only people that I worked with would know. And anyway, they were obsessed with me and they could not get enough of me. They probably still listen to my podcast, they probably still get on all my Instagram stuff, and they're probably ones that are trying to egg me on in the comments. They're probably ones trying to um rage bait me, but it doesn't work, it's hilarious. I don't know why people think that's gonna work. Um, at least with me. I mean, they're the ones that need the safe rooms and are triggered every second of every day over everything, and literally cry in the middle of the streets and scream, quite literally, at the top of their lungs, over everything in the middle of the street. Gwenny, are you okay? Um, and yet they like to say that somehow Republicans are babies. It's hilarious. But anyway, um, so calling names doesn't work to everybody out there who thinks they can call me a bunch of names or put their opinion on what they think of me. I don't give a shit. I don't know why you waste your time. I quite literally do not give a rat's ass what strangers think of me. Never ever ever will. Um, not going to, not gonna happen. I care what my family and friends think of me. Now, does that mean I don't care about strangers? No, that's not what it means. Does that mean that I'm gonna go out being a douchelord every time I'm out in public and just being like ramming into people and shoving people and saying rude shit? No. I'm always gonna be respectful and polite to strangers. I will always start out being respectful and polite to strangers, and I will always be willing to help out a stranger. That's I've done that my whole life. I like doing it. I will. Just because you're a stranger and I don't give a shit what you think about me, doesn't mean that I'm not a kind person that's not gonna help you. You know what I mean? People like to jump to extremes. They do extremes all the time. They're like, oh, if you're the if you're not this way, then you're this way. And they go to like this whole other extreme. And I'm like, or they're somewhere in the middle. Just because someone is a Republican doesn't mean they are a racist, bigot, Nazi. And then just because someone votes for Trump doesn't mean that they think every single thing that comes out of their mouth is true. But people just like to go to the extreme, though. It's like if I don't like hot, well then I must like freezing, freezing cold. It's like, or I like something in the middle. If I don't like chocolate, then I must love vanilla. Or I don't like either, or there's other things in between. It's just you know what I mean. Today my brain's not working and I can't give examples, but you guys know what I'm saying. So don't be those people. Don't be a douche canoe. Don't look for hate. Look for fun. Look for my podcast. Check out my podcast, look for it, share it to people, look for me on social media. Do that. Don't look for hate, don't look to stir the pot. Come on. Come on, son. Oh, you guys are awesome. I really appreciate it. There's people from all over the world, and I just love it. Love it, love it, love it. And I'm loving people from all over the world coming here to America. I'm loving the love. I'm getting caught up in the love. It's quite lovely. I want to spread the love, I don't want to spread the hate. So that's what I'm gonna do. Um, I hope you guys have an excellent rest of your week. Well, I guess that's um depending on when your week starts, like um, I don't know what your work schedule is like. Maybe Sundays are your Fridays, who knows? Um, but I hope you guys have a fantastic day. I hope you guys um remember to take in what you can, control what you can, let go of the rest. Remember to take a deep breath in through your nose, let it out slowly and controlled through your mouth. Let all the shit go that you can't control and focus on the happy. Spread the happy, spread the love. End of the podcast. Anyways, until next time.