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And he turned"},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1164.9,"endTime":1169.73,"body":"water into wine."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1170.3300000000002,"endTime":1176.24,"body":"She broke that down"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1170.3300000000002,"endTime":1176.24,"body":"into an amazing story and that"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1176.24,"endTime":1179.96,"body":"story, what am I an amazing"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1176.24,"endTime":1179.96,"body":"learning lesson learning thing."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1180.98,"endTime":1184.97,"body":"And it's so funny because she"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1180.98,"endTime":1184.97,"body":"and I both a long time ago had"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1185.42,"endTime":1189.98,"body":"this image in our head about"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1185.42,"endTime":1189.98,"body":"this particular miracle that,"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1189.98,"endTime":1193.19,"body":"you know, Jesus was he knew who"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1189.98,"endTime":1193.19,"body":"he was, and he gathered"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1193.19,"endTime":1195.5,"body":"everybody around at the wedding"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1193.19,"endTime":1195.5,"body":"is that watch this, that I'm"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1195.5,"endTime":1199.0700000000002,"body":"going to do this and he, you"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1195.5,"endTime":1199.0700000000002,"body":"know, he just was showing off"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1199.0700000000002,"endTime":1202.46,"body":"not showing up but he was like,"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1199.0700000000002,"endTime":1202.46,"body":"come to me and look what I'm"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1202.46,"endTime":1205.88,"body":"going to do and this miracle I"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1202.46,"endTime":1205.88,"body":"turned water into wine."},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1206.0600000000002,"endTime":1209.9,"body":"Well, that's not how it"},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1206.0600000000002,"endTime":1209.9,"body":"happened at all. She broke it"},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1209.9,"endTime":1212.9,"body":"down really, really good. And"},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1209.9,"endTime":1212.9,"body":"I'm not going to get into it"},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1213.2,"endTime":1217.5500000000002,"body":"because I'll screw it up."},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1213.2,"endTime":1217.5500000000002,"body":"recommend you go listen to it."},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1217.6100000000001,"endTime":1222.0800000000002,"body":"It's the second episode I think."},{"speaker":"Carol","startTime":1217.6100000000001,"endTime":1222.0800000000002,"body":"I think yeah."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1224.0590000000002,"endTime":1227.5690000000002,"body":"I like her podcast and"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1224.0590000000002,"endTime":1227.5690000000002,"body":"I will keep listening. I'm"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1227.5690000000002,"endTime":1231.3790000000001,"body":"excited. I'm excited about all"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1227.5690000000002,"endTime":1231.3790000000001,"body":"of it. I just get I'm excited."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1231.8890000000001,"endTime":1235.159,"body":"I'm excited about it. I love"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1231.8890000000001,"endTime":1235.159,"body":"love it. All right, I think I'm"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1235.159,"endTime":1241.3990000000001,"body":"gonna go for now. I'm just gonna"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1235.159,"endTime":1241.3990000000001,"body":"go for now. You guys have a"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1241.3990000000001,"endTime":1248.269,"body":"great week and I hopefully we'll"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1241.3990000000001,"endTime":1248.269,"body":"be back Friday. We'll see. Have"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1248.269,"endTime":1248.779,"body":"a good one."}]}