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Because"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":548.28,"endTime":551.82,"body":"he did not know that I was had"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":551.82,"endTime":555.66,"body":"been married before on one of my"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":551.82,"endTime":555.66,"body":"very first episodes. I had"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":555.66,"endTime":558.66,"body":"talked about you know, I did a"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":555.66,"endTime":558.66,"body":"little introduction about myself"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":558.66,"endTime":563.82,"body":"and I talked about my previous"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":558.66,"endTime":563.82,"body":"marriage. And who texted me? I"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":563.82,"endTime":567.33,"body":"didn't know you'd been married"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":563.82,"endTime":567.33,"body":"before daddy. Oh, it's like"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":567.36,"endTime":570.99,"body":"oops. I just tried. I had kept"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":567.36,"endTime":570.99,"body":"that from them for the longest"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":570.99,"endTime":576.09,"body":"time. I just didn't think they"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":570.99,"endTime":576.09,"body":"needed to know. Anyway, yeah."},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":576.45,"endTime":583.17,"body":"Yeah. Lots of stuff in the past."},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":576.45,"endTime":583.17,"body":"Lots of decisions. I could have"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":583.17,"endTime":587.28,"body":"made differently, and I'm glad I"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":583.17,"endTime":587.28,"body":"did not. Because I love my life"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":587.28,"endTime":593.61,"body":"today. Yeah, it's all good. It's"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":587.28,"endTime":593.61,"body":"all it's all good. And I have to"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":593.61,"endTime":597.0,"body":"thank God every day for doing"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":593.61,"endTime":597.0,"body":"for me what I could not do for"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":597.0,"endTime":601.62,"body":"myself and for unanswered"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":597.0,"endTime":601.62,"body":"prayers. I think that's what I'm"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":601.62,"endTime":605.61,"body":"going to be grateful for today."},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":601.62,"endTime":605.61,"body":"And with that, I'm going to end"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":605.64,"endTime":608.49,"body":"because we're just going to keep"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":605.64,"endTime":608.49,"body":"this nice and short since I'm"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":608.49,"endTime":612.54,"body":"already late and getting this"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":608.49,"endTime":612.54,"body":"out. I hope you guys have a good"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":612.57,"endTime":618.42,"body":"rest of your week. And Hopefully"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":612.57,"endTime":618.42,"body":"I can be back on Friday with"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":618.6,"endTime":622.98,"body":"another episode of remarkables."},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":618.6,"endTime":622.98,"body":"We shall see. I don't know. I"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":622.98,"endTime":624.84,"body":"don't know if I have enough"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":622.98,"endTime":624.84,"body":"material to talk about that or"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":624.84,"endTime":630.93,"body":"not. If not, then I'll be back"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":624.84,"endTime":630.93,"body":"on Monday. For sure. Okay. Have"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":630.93,"endTime":633.21,"body":"a good rest of your week. Thanks"},{"speaker":"Carol Marks","startTime":630.93,"endTime":633.21,"body":"for listening. Bye"}]}