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I, you"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":557.04,"endTime":559.02,"body":"know, if you listen to Therapy"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":557.04,"endTime":559.02,"body":"Roulette, you know, these"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":559.02,"endTime":562.68,"body":"episodes usually run about an"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":559.02,"endTime":562.68,"body":"hour, maybe an hour and a half."},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":563.01,"endTime":567.42,"body":"And I told her for me to edit an"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":563.01,"endTime":567.42,"body":"episode that running time is one"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":567.45,"endTime":571.95,"body":"hour, I spent six to eight hours"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":567.45,"endTime":571.95,"body":"editing that episode. 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So she said, cut"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":602.46,"endTime":608.46,"body":"down your editing time to one"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":602.46,"endTime":608.46,"body":"hour, and finds good use out of"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":608.46,"endTime":611.79,"body":"the rest of the time you would"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":608.46,"endTime":611.79,"body":"spend editing those other five"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":612.27,"endTime":614.97,"body":"plus hours, what are you going"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":612.27,"endTime":614.97,"body":"to do? And I said, I would"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":614.97,"endTime":619.26,"body":"write, I would read, I would"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":614.97,"endTime":619.26,"body":"exercise, I would take a bath, I"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":619.26,"endTime":622.68,"body":"would do something for me,"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":619.26,"endTime":622.68,"body":"right? 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Those"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":640.62,"endTime":646.23,"body":"are like, the circle I run. I"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":646.23,"endTime":651.18,"body":"run that circle all week, and I"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":646.23,"endTime":651.18,"body":"don't have any time for me. And"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":651.18,"endTime":654.54,"body":"so that's why I've been feeling"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":651.18,"endTime":654.54,"body":"so burnt out. And I told her"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":654.54,"endTime":659.22,"body":"like I have to relax after take"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":654.54,"endTime":659.22,"body":"a vacation. I don't know how to"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":659.22,"endTime":662.97,"body":"do it. But I'm going to book a"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":659.22,"endTime":662.97,"body":"vacation. I'm gonna take a"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":662.97,"endTime":665.82,"body":"little bit of time off work, I'm"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":662.97,"endTime":665.82,"body":"gonna take some time off from"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":665.82,"endTime":672.81,"body":"the podcast, too. And I'm just"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":665.82,"endTime":672.81,"body":"gonna focus on me. I'm going to"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":672.81,"endTime":679.53,"body":"go back to my roots. And we'll"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":672.81,"endTime":679.53,"body":"see what happens. And she said,"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":679.53,"endTime":684.87,"body":"Good. She said, Yeah, you're"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":679.53,"endTime":684.87,"body":"tired. You have to recharge and"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":684.87,"endTime":691.08,"body":"you have to sleep. And you have"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":684.87,"endTime":691.08,"body":"to do what's good for you. And"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":691.08,"endTime":696.81,"body":"for that my therapist was, was"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":691.08,"endTime":696.81,"body":"just what I needed to hear, you"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":696.81,"endTime":700.86,"body":"know, she validated me, she let"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":696.81,"endTime":700.86,"body":"me complain, but she didn't over"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":700.86,"endTime":705.03,"body":"indulge me. And she straight up"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":700.86,"endTime":705.03,"body":"was like, Michelle, you are"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":705.03,"endTime":710.43,"body":"driving yourself, you know, down"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":705.03,"endTime":710.43,"body":"to the bone. You got to fix this"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":710.43,"endTime":714.27,"body":"stuff. And so that's what I'm"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":710.43,"endTime":714.27,"body":"doing. I'm taking a break, I'm"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":714.27,"endTime":718.2,"body":"going on vacation, home to New"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":714.27,"endTime":718.2,"body":"York to see my family, my"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":718.2,"endTime":724.8,"body":"people. You know, the city I"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":718.2,"endTime":724.8,"body":"love. And Therapy Roulette will"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":724.8,"endTime":729.93,"body":"be off the air for the month of"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":724.8,"endTime":729.93,"body":"June. But we'll be back. I'll be"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":729.93,"endTime":735.3,"body":"coming back with new episodes."},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":729.93,"endTime":735.3,"body":"Thursday, July 1. So book it"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":735.3,"endTime":740.85,"body":"will be back then. And I hope"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":735.3,"endTime":740.85,"body":"you understand that I'm I'm"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":740.85,"endTime":744.87,"body":"taking a break from my mental"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":740.85,"endTime":744.87,"body":"health and for me, and I've seen"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":744.87,"endTime":749.94,"body":"that a lot in following other"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":744.87,"endTime":749.94,"body":"podcasters and other creative"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":749.94,"endTime":755.16,"body":"people like who have Etsy shops"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":749.94,"endTime":755.16,"body":"or who have independent websites"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":755.16,"endTime":759.03,"body":"and businesses. Some of them"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":755.16,"endTime":759.03,"body":"straight up, like tell you hey,"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":759.03,"endTime":761.34,"body":"I'm taking a break for my mental"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":759.03,"endTime":761.34,"body":"health. I'll be back on this"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":761.34,"endTime":766.5,"body":"day. And my instinct when I see"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":761.34,"endTime":766.5,"body":"those, those mental health"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":766.5,"endTime":770.7,"body":"breaks is like How dare she take"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":766.5,"endTime":770.7,"body":"a break? I don't get a break."},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":770.91,"endTime":775.83,"body":"And obviously that is a cause"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":770.91,"endTime":775.83,"body":"for concern. So I do commend the"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":775.83,"endTime":778.32,"body":"people who take mental health"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":775.83,"endTime":778.32,"body":"breaks. I'm working on my"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":778.32,"endTime":782.55,"body":"instinctive anger reaction, and"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":778.32,"endTime":782.55,"body":"I am taking a mental health"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":782.55,"endTime":787.23,"body":"break myself. So I'll see you"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":782.55,"endTime":787.23,"body":"again Thursday, July 1st. In t"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":787.23,"endTime":791.94,"body":"e meantime, shoot me an ema"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":787.23,"endTime":791.94,"body":"l Therapy roulette @gmail.com or"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":791.94,"endTime":796.29,"body":"DM me on Insta or Twitter,"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":791.94,"endTime":796.29,"body":"on Instagram. 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I'll see you again i"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":801.45,"endTime":803.88,"body":"July"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":807.21,"endTime":811.912,"body":"Therapy Roulette Consent to Vent"},{"speaker":"Theme Song","startTime":807.21,"endTime":811.912,"body":"/ Trauma disguised as comedy /"},{"speaker":"Therapy Roulette","startTime":811.987,"endTime":815.943,"body":"Consent to"},{"speaker":"Therapy Roulette","startTime":811.987,"endTime":815.943,"body":"Vent / If you dont have"},{"speaker":"Therapy Roulette","startTime":816.018,"endTime":820.422,"body":"problems, then youre likely"},{"speaker":"Therapy Roulette","startTime":816.018,"endTime":820.422,"body":"repressing sh*t and you should"},{"speaker":"Therapy Roulette","startTime":820.496,"endTime":822.96,"body":"find a therapist / (Whos not me)"}]}