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You have a"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":540.87,"endTime":544.08,"body":"sense of a larger force in the"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":540.87,"endTime":544.08,"body":"universe that has a spiritual"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":544.08,"endTime":550.29,"body":"strength and a loving energy as"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":544.08,"endTime":550.29,"body":"well. You often ask yourself if"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":550.29,"endTime":552.27,"body":"I'm so smart, why am I so"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":556.02,"endTime":561.69,"body":"I read this article and I jived"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":556.02,"endTime":561.69,"body":"with it. I think this is about"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":561.69,"endTime":567.12,"body":"me. I am calling myself smart."},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":561.69,"endTime":567.12,"body":"Because you know I love myself"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":567.12,"endTime":572.1,"body":"and I value my brain. But yeah,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":567.12,"endTime":572.1,"body":"I'm highly sensitive. There are"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":572.1,"endTime":576.66,"body":"times where I just can't take"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":572.1,"endTime":576.66,"body":"people like at least part of my"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":576.66,"endTime":579.72,"body":"day. I can't be around people"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":576.66,"endTime":579.72,"body":"because it's too much. Need a"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":579.72,"endTime":586.53,"body":"little bit of alone time at my"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":579.72,"endTime":586.53,"body":"at my job a few years ago. You"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":586.53,"endTime":590.76,"body":"know I had like a kind of strict"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":586.53,"endTime":590.76,"body":"lunch break like 30 minutes"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":590.76,"endTime":594.99,"body":"that's it you better be back at"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":590.76,"endTime":594.99,"body":"work by the 30 minute mark. And"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":595.02,"endTime":601.02,"body":"I sometimes would try to write"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":595.02,"endTime":601.02,"body":"or get work done. For myself,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":601.05,"endTime":605.07,"body":"you know, like answer emails or"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":601.05,"endTime":605.07,"body":"work on comedy, I would try to"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":605.1,"endTime":609.03,"body":"do something for myself in that"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":605.1,"endTime":609.03,"body":"lunch break. And I know, I must"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":609.03,"endTime":611.73,"body":"have looked like such a weirdo"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":609.03,"endTime":611.73,"body":"to anyone who was on the"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":611.73,"endTime":616.02,"body":"outside, because I would either"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":611.73,"endTime":616.02,"body":"sit alone, like at the ends of"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":616.02,"endTime":621.51,"body":"the cafeteria and not interact"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":616.02,"endTime":621.51,"body":"with my coworkers, or I would"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":621.51,"endTime":627.0,"body":"even go, like steps further into"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":621.51,"endTime":627.0,"body":"crazy territory. And I would"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":627.78,"endTime":631.83,"body":"close myself into like, the"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":627.78,"endTime":631.83,"body":"dressing room and just type on"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":631.83,"endTime":635.82,"body":"my laptop in, in this tiny ass"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":631.83,"endTime":635.82,"body":"dressing room where you're"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":635.82,"endTime":639.21,"body":"supposed to change into your"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":635.82,"endTime":639.21,"body":"uniform. But most of the time,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":639.21,"endTime":643.26,"body":"no one would come in during,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":639.21,"endTime":643.26,"body":"like a lunch hour. So it was"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":643.26,"endTime":647.46,"body":"quiet, and I could write a"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":643.26,"endTime":647.46,"body":"paragraph or edit something or"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":647.46,"endTime":653.94,"body":"send an email. And I felt weird,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":647.46,"endTime":653.94,"body":"cuz, you know, it was a weird"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":653.94,"endTime":659.19,"body":"thing to do. But I also felt"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":653.94,"endTime":659.19,"body":"like myself, you know, carving"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":659.19,"endTime":663.9,"body":"out time to do something that"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":659.19,"endTime":663.9,"body":"mattered to me, in the what was"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":663.9,"endTime":668.28,"body":"supposed to be my rest part of"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":663.9,"endTime":668.28,"body":"the day. 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Like, what are you doing?"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":681.09,"endTime":684.48,"body":"But like always nice about it."},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":684.81,"endTime":689.22,"body":"And I would just say, Oh, just"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":684.81,"endTime":689.22,"body":"writing, you know, I'll leave so"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":689.22,"endTime":695.31,"body":"you can change. I don't know. We"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":689.22,"endTime":695.31,"body":"need to create more space for"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":695.46,"endTime":700.71,"body":"introverts reinforced minds,"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":695.46,"endTime":700.71,"body":"people who just don't want to"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":700.71,"endTime":706.98,"body":"socialize all day, cuz not"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":700.71,"endTime":706.98,"body":"everyone's wired that way. Maybe"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":707.31,"endTime":712.44,"body":"I won't have to hide out in"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":707.31,"endTime":712.44,"body":"dressing rooms and lonely parts"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":712.44,"endTime":717.3,"body":"of the cafeteria in the future."},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":712.44,"endTime":717.3,"body":"But yeah, I kind of look back on"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":717.3,"endTime":721.5,"body":"those times, because right now"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":717.3,"endTime":721.5,"body":"I'm working from home. So I need"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":721.5,"endTime":723.63,"body":"to do something like that. It's"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":721.5,"endTime":723.63,"body":"way easier. Obviously, I could"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":723.63,"endTime":727.05,"body":"just write in the other room or"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":723.63,"endTime":727.05,"body":"on the couch during my lunch"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":727.05,"endTime":734.7,"body":"break. But at my office jobs or"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":727.05,"endTime":734.7,"body":"that TV production job, like I"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":734.76,"endTime":739.59,"body":"I'd have to steal space for"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":734.76,"endTime":739.59,"body":"myself, I'd have to like find"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":739.59,"endTime":745.11,"body":"it, claim it and not let people"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":739.59,"endTime":745.11,"body":"intrude upon it. 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And maybe"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":769.41,"endTime":772.74,"body":"that routine is supposed to be a"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":769.41,"endTime":772.74,"body":"morning routine, or an evening"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":772.74,"endTime":775.32,"body":"routine. Maybe it's supposed to"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":772.74,"endTime":775.32,"body":"be a lunch routine, I don't"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":775.32,"endTime":779.52,"body":"know. But I'm gonna try out a"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":775.32,"endTime":779.52,"body":"bunch of them. And I hope one of"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":779.52,"endTime":785.19,"body":"them sticks because that's what"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":779.52,"endTime":785.19,"body":"I need the most. And then if I"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":785.19,"endTime":789.81,"body":"have a writing routine, I think"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":785.19,"endTime":789.81,"body":"everything else will work out."},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":791.34,"endTime":855.6,"body":"Thanks for listening to Therapy"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":791.34,"endTime":855.6,"body":"Roulette. You know where to find"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":855.6,"endTime":879.09,"body":"me online. And I'll be back with"},{"speaker":"Michele Baci","startTime":855.6,"endTime":879.09,"body":"an interview in 2 weeks. See ya!"}]}