{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":1.543,"endTime":3.253,"body":"This is Kathryn Goetzke,"},{"startTime":3.253,"endTime":6.339,"body":"host of The Hope Matrix Podcast."},{"startTime":7.09,"endTime":10.01,"body":"We are here to share science, stories"},{"startTime":10.01,"endTime":13.346,"body":"and strategies for how to hope."},{"startTime":13.68,"endTime":16.766,"body":"I'm the Chief Hope officer of the Shine"},{"startTime":13.68,"endTime":16.766,"body":"Hope Company."},{"startTime":17.267,"endTime":20.77,"body":"And SHINE is the mnemonic"},{"startTime":17.267,"endTime":20.77,"body":"for how we teach hope."},{"startTime":20.77,"endTime":22.814,"body":"So when we talk about hope,"},{"startTime":22.814,"endTime":27.527,"body":"we talk about how we use Stress Skills,"},{"startTime":22.814,"endTime":27.527,"body":"Happiness habits, Inspired Actions,"},{"startTime":27.527,"endTime":31.322,"body":"Nourishing Networks"},{"startTime":27.527,"endTime":31.322,"body":"and Eliminating 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That's so kind."},{"startTime":2879.501,"endTime":2880.794,"body":"I really appreciate that."},{"startTime":2880.794,"endTime":2882.838,"body":"Yeah, there's a famous business book."},{"startTime":2882.838,"endTime":2886.3,"body":"Hope is not a strategy,"},{"startTime":2882.838,"endTime":2886.3,"body":"which works against me"},{"startTime":2886.3,"endTime":2888.218,"body":"doing work in the business world."},{"startTime":2888.218,"endTime":2890.095,"body":"And yet I have an MBA as well."},{"startTime":2890.095,"endTime":2894.474,"body":"And I'm a very,"},{"startTime":2890.095,"endTime":2894.474,"body":"you know, I'm a strategist by nature,"},{"startTime":2894.474,"endTime":2898.103,"body":"and I think hope is the most important,"},{"startTime":2894.474,"endTime":2898.103,"body":"important strategy"},{"startTime":2898.103,"endTime":2901.982,"body":"in the workplace when you look at"},{"startTime":2898.103,"endTime":2901.982,"body":"and it's a top four need of employees."},{"startTime":2901.982,"endTime":2903.775,"body":"So it's super important."},{"startTime":2903.775,"endTime":2906.987,"body":"So I'm glad to hear that"},{"startTime":2903.775,"endTime":2906.987,"body":"you're spread the message."},{"startTime":2906.987,"endTime":2908.363,"body":"Yeah, it is measurable."},{"startTime":2908.363,"endTime":2910.824,"body":"And you know,"},{"startTime":2908.363,"endTime":2910.824,"body":"if you measure your hope in the workplace,"},{"startTime":2910.824,"endTime":2913.827,"body":"it's going to tell you so much"},{"startTime":2910.824,"endTime":2913.827,"body":"about your workplace outcomes."},{"startTime":2913.869,"endTime":2916.371,"body":"And when you think about hope, it's"},{"startTime":2913.869,"endTime":2916.371,"body":"all about goals."},{"startTime":2916.371,"endTime":2919.374,"body":"So and workplaces are really built"},{"startTime":2919.374,"endTime":2923.42,"body":"on goals and attaining goals"},{"startTime":2919.374,"endTime":2923.42,"body":"and overcoming obstacles to goals."},{"startTime":2923.42,"endTime":2924.63,"body":"So yeah."},{"startTime":2924.63,"endTime":2926.757,"body":"Different than a vision. 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