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The Leftover Pieces: Suicide Loss Conversations
Suicide loss changes everything. The Leftover Pieces® Podcast explores life after suicide through honest conversations with survivors, experts, and grieving parents learning to live forward after unimaginable loss. Parents, partners, siblings, and friends share what it means to keep living when the world has been forever changed.
Hosted by Melissa Bottorff-Arey, whose 21-year-old son Alex died by suicide in 2016, the show blends intimate conversations with survivors, healers, and mental health professionals with short solo reflections you can actually use. Together we explore child loss, trauma and nervous-system care, anniversaries and seasons, stigma, faith and meaning, legacy, and the everyday practices that help make life livable again.
At its heart, this podcast is about learning to live forward after loss. We never move on from the people we love, but we can learn to carry the grief differently. This road can feel incredibly lonely—but you are not alone here.
For supporters, educators, and professionals, these conversations also offer insight into the realities of suicide grief and what genuine, non-fixing support can look like.
If you’d like to share your story or expertise, you can request to be a guest through Melissa’s website.
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Content Note
This podcast speaks candidly about grief and suicide loss and may feel activating for some listeners. We avoid graphic descriptions and discussion of suicide methods. Please care for yourself as needed. Melissa is not a doctor or licensed therapist, and nothing shared here should be considered medical or mental-health advice.
The Leftover Pieces: Suicide Loss Conversations
Grief Truth #5; August Daily Nuggets
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“Guilt and love often feel the same.” August 5 Daily Nugget
Take a breath. Let yourself arrive.
Sometimes we don’t need answers — just something true to hold.
Here’s today’s grief truth.
Guilt and love often feel the same.
Guilt is one of grief’s heaviest companions.
It creeps in through the cracks of “what if” and “why didn’t I.”
But here’s something I’ve come to learn: guilt often masquerades as love.
It’s not always about wrongdoing — it’s about a love so deep, so fierce, that you would have done anything to change the ending.
Guilt says: “I failed.”
Love says: “I would’ve done anything for you.”
When guilt shows up, try to ask it what it’s trying to protect.
Sometimes, it just wants to be seen.
And sometimes, love just needs a place to rest.
Take a breath.
Let the truth settle where it needs to.
You don’t have to carry everything — just what feels true today.
You’re not lost — you’re walking with your truth.
I’ll be here again tomorrow.
Talk soon.
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