{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":8.61,"endTime":12.27,"body":"Hi, everyone, this is Grant and"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":8.61,"endTime":12.27,"body":"we want to welcome you back to part two of a"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":12.27,"endTime":15.96,"body":"continuing conversation with Emily Jamison and"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":12.27,"endTime":15.96,"body":"her prayer partner, Becca."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":15.96,"endTime":20.76,"body":"Really, the first half of this conversation"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":15.96,"endTime":20.76,"body":"about listening to God was so powerful. So if"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":20.76,"endTime":26.04,"body":"you missed it, please go back and listen, you"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":20.76,"endTime":26.04,"body":"will not be disappointed. In part two, we dive"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":26.04,"endTime":30.63,"body":"into prayer, prayer languages and their role in"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":26.04,"endTime":30.63,"body":"listening to God. Let's head back into the"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":30.63,"endTime":34.44,"body":"studio with Laurel, Emily and Becca and pick up"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":30.63,"endTime":34.44,"body":"where we left off."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":35.4,"endTime":41.34,"body":"When you start declaring and taking territory,"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":35.4,"endTime":41.34,"body":"right from the beginning of the day, that just"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":41.34,"endTime":47.22,"body":"seems to open up this  this conduit where it"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":41.34,"endTime":47.22,"body":"flows all day long. And you get to the end of"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":47.22,"endTime":53.31,"body":"the day, and you say I believe I lived to my"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":47.22,"endTime":53.31,"body":"identity today. How beautiful is that?"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":54.06,"endTime":58.02,"body":"Yeah, that is so practical  so"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":54.06,"endTime":58.02,"body":"it's one of the things that our mentor had to"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":58.02,"endTime":62.01,"body":"say, like in my Google Keep every time the Lord"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":58.02,"endTime":62.01,"body":"reveals something new, I have a space where I"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":62.01,"endTime":65.67,"body":"keep writing and now in there is things that"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":62.01,"endTime":65.67,"body":"God has revealed to me about my identity, my"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":65.67,"endTime":70.32,"body":"husband and my children, and I regularly read"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":65.67,"endTime":70.32,"body":"that. So to have a place that you can see"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":70.32,"endTime":72.99,"body":"regularly to remind you because we are so"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":70.32,"endTime":72.99,"body":"forgetful."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":73.05,"endTime":73.38,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":73.41,"endTime":76.2,"body":"We need to hear it over and"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":73.41,"endTime":76.2,"body":"over again  yeah."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":76.0,"endTime":79.72,"body":"That was a big part of my"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":76.0,"endTime":79.72,"body":"journey too  just a couple, probably three"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":79.72,"endTime":83.98,"body":"years ago, I kept saying \"Write it down, write"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":79.72,"endTime":83.98,"body":"it down.\". I ignored it for a long time,"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":83.98,"endTime":89.29,"body":"because for me physically, because of my visual"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":83.98,"endTime":89.29,"body":"impairment, writing down is not easy, we have"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":89.29,"endTime":95.38,"body":"technology. So I've learned to just voice text"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":89.29,"endTime":95.38,"body":"into my phone. It's not pretty, it's raw, but"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":95.38,"endTime":101.74,"body":"it's just this is what I learned today, and,"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":95.38,"endTime":101.74,"body":"boy, it has been so amazing to go back and put"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":101.74,"endTime":108.37,"body":"pieces together and see how God's plan is so"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":101.74,"endTime":108.37,"body":"intricate. Of course, things don't always make"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":108.37,"endTime":113.17,"body":"sense in a moment, because it's part of this"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":108.37,"endTime":113.17,"body":"grand, incredible plan, though."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":113.2,"endTime":119.62,"body":"Another thing too, for me this year that I"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":113.2,"endTime":119.62,"body":"touched on earlier, when we introduced you at"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":119.62,"endTime":127.09,"body":"the beginning was the Holy Spirit and the role"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":119.62,"endTime":127.09,"body":"that he has played in this journey throughout"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":127.09,"endTime":132.49,"body":"2020. We do the same thing where we ask God"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":127.09,"endTime":132.49,"body":"for, you know, \"Give us a phrase or a verse or"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":132.49,"endTime":137.29,"body":"whatever.\", and, ironically, 2020 was \"Year of"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":132.49,"endTime":137.29,"body":"the Lord's favor\"."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":139.13,"endTime":145.07,"body":"We claim that over and over again, and it was"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":139.13,"endTime":145.07,"body":"it was a really beautiful thing for us and it"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":145.07,"endTime":150.05,"body":"was. We would say it was probably the most"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":145.07,"endTime":150.05,"body":"difficult year for us and the most,, the best"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":150.05,"endTime":154.46,"body":"year for us.  That actually had nothing to do"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":150.05,"endTime":154.46,"body":"with COVID, really. It was just personal issues"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":154.46,"endTime":156.62,"body":"that we were that we were dealing with."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":158.06,"endTime":162.8,"body":"So getting really personal, Grant is that a"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":158.06,"endTime":162.8,"body":"prayer language for years and years and years"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":163.31,"endTime":167.78,"body":"and he was very private about it. He didn't"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":163.31,"endTime":167.78,"body":"speak much of it, but it was something that I"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":167.78,"endTime":173.0,"body":"was kind of jealous of.  I thought, \"I don't"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":167.78,"endTime":173.0,"body":"understand why something that is supposed to"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":173.0,"endTime":177.5,"body":"create intimacy with you Why? Why would you"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":173.0,"endTime":177.5,"body":"withhold it from me?"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":177.51,"endTime":182.49,"body":"So I prayed so earnestly for this prayer"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":177.51,"endTime":182.49,"body":"language. \"Like, I want this  I want"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":182.49,"endTime":188.16,"body":"everything. I want to know you, I want like"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":182.49,"endTime":188.16,"body":"every barrier to be taken down and and so I"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":188.16,"endTime":193.65,"body":"want a prayer language.  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Maybe you don't"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":204.9,"endTime":209.79,"body":"need it. That was my nice tidy pastor answer,"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":204.9,"endTime":209.79,"body":"cause I didn't know what else to say."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":210.9,"endTime":216.81,"body":"Grant had a wonderful older"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":210.9,"endTime":216.81,"body":"gentleman who listened just to the Holy Spirit"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":216.81,"endTime":222.06,"body":"and he tapped him on the shoulder and said,"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":216.81,"endTime":222.06,"body":"\"You need to you go talk to Grant \u0026 Laurel and"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":222.06,"endTime":229.68,"body":"he showed up at our place, and it was it was"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":222.06,"endTime":229.68,"body":"amazing, because he sat down in our living room"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":229.68,"endTime":235.11,"body":"\"Zo I know that Grant has a prayer"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":229.68,"endTime":235.11,"body":"language.\", and this is not from a conversation"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":235.14,"endTime":238.56,"body":"that we've had, but he said \"I know that Grant"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":235.14,"endTime":238.56,"body":"has a prayer language and Laurel, I know that"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":238.56,"endTime":244.62,"body":"you desire one\", and we're going to talk"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":238.56,"endTime":244.62,"body":"through today how you can actually develop that"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":244.62,"endTime":246.0,"body":"and receive that gift."},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":246.99,"endTime":256.62,"body":"It was the most awkward conversation ever, I"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":246.99,"endTime":256.62,"body":"mean, talk about letting go, right? 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So there is"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":372.42,"endTime":378.21,"body":"something so powerful about that, but the"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":372.42,"endTime":378.21,"body":"interesting thing about all of that, here I am,"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":378.21,"endTime":383.1,"body":"in my excitement that \"Yes, I have a prayer"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":378.21,"endTime":383.1,"body":"language!\", wanting to share it with people. 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I'm not even"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":405.66,"endTime":411.57,"body":"sure if this was gonna make it on the podcast,"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":412.23,"endTime":417.48,"body":"but just because we have you in the room, I"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":412.23,"endTime":417.48,"body":"really curious about your experiences in this"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":417.69,"endTime":425.28,"body":"with the Holy Spirit. Just, you know the"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":417.69,"endTime":425.28,"body":"difference actually allowing him God. He's here"},{"speaker":"and said","startTime":425.28,"endTime":429.87,"body":"for a reason, right? 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So I don't necessarily"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":639.69,"endTime":645.81,"body":"believe that you need to have tongues to have"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":639.69,"endTime":645.81,"body":"the representation of the spirit in your life,"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":645.81,"endTime":649.62,"body":"the moment that you have put faith in Jesus, it"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":645.81,"endTime":649.62,"body":"says in Scripture that it has been revealed to"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":649.62,"endTime":652.29,"body":"you not by flesh and blood, but by the Spirit"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":649.62,"endTime":652.29,"body":"of God."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":652.8,"endTime":657.57,"body":"So I think just the mere fact that you can say"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":652.8,"endTime":657.57,"body":"\"I believe in Jesus, he's the son of the living"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":657.57,"endTime":663.93,"body":"God, he died, resurrected\" you know, \"He is for"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":657.57,"endTime":663.93,"body":"me\", you have the spirit of a living God"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":663.93,"endTime":668.22,"body":"taking up residence in you to give you the"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":663.93,"endTime":668.22,"body":"confidence and the boldness to be able to say"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":668.22,"endTime":670.74,"body":"such things that the world is absolutely"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":668.22,"endTime":670.74,"body":"against, right?"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":670.87,"endTime":675.97,"body":"So, so I think, first and foremost, like, I"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":670.87,"endTime":675.97,"body":"mean, even in 1st Corinthians, it talks about,"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":675.97,"endTime":680.05,"body":"you know, \"You can speak in the tongues of"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":675.97,"endTime":680.05,"body":"angels, but if you have not love you are a"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":680.05,"endTime":685.18,"body":"clanging gong or symbol.\" So the goal at the"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":680.05,"endTime":685.18,"body":"end of the day is that we would have love, and"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":685.18,"endTime":689.86,"body":"yet there's this beautiful gift that God has"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":685.18,"endTime":689.86,"body":"offered to us by way of the Spirit."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":690.7,"endTime":696.49,"body":"So, Romans 8 is interesting. 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We have a person that's taken up"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":729.16,"endTime":733.33,"body":"residence in us with feelings and emotions"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":729.16,"endTime":733.33,"body":"you can grieve the spirit, we can sense the"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":733.33,"endTime":737.02,"body":"spirit we're meant to have the spirit lead us"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":733.33,"endTime":737.02,"body":"we're not meant to be led by our emotions, but"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":737.02,"endTime":738.82,"body":"to be led by the Spirit."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":738.82,"endTime":742.54,"body":"So there's that sense of constantly"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":738.82,"endTime":742.54,"body":"surrendering my heart and mind. \"God, give me"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":742.54,"endTime":747.28,"body":"the the mind of Christ, give me the emotions of"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":742.54,"endTime":747.28,"body":"Christ. Help me feel how you feel, help me see"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":747.28,"endTime":748.09,"body":"how you see\""},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":748.75,"endTime":752.41,"body":"Then there's this beautiful gift of tongues.We"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":748.75,"endTime":752.41,"body":"look at it Pentecost, right? Where all of a"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":752.41,"endTime":756.58,"body":"sudden here's all the all the men who are"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":752.41,"endTime":756.58,"body":"just like waiting, waiting, like their best"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":756.58,"endTime":760.78,"body":"friend is left, they're terrified. Then"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":756.58,"endTime":760.78,"body":"Pentecost breaks out. 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My dad said \"Let me tell you a"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":811.38,"endTime":814.89,"body":"story.\" and he told me his faith journey, and"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":811.38,"endTime":814.89,"body":"he gets through the whole thing   He tells me"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":814.89,"endTime":817.35,"body":"this whole story, and all I can say is \"Wait,"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":814.89,"endTime":817.35,"body":"what? You speak in tongues?"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":817.44,"endTime":821.1,"body":"ike I'm 15 years old, I don't know this, it was"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":817.44,"endTime":821.1,"body":"very private, he was taught that this is a"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":821.1,"endTime":824.85,"body":"private thing. 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I"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":848.72,"endTime":854.03,"body":"felt like I was constipated in the spirit, you"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":848.72,"endTime":854.03,"body":"know, it was like, \"Ahh\"  I don't even know"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":854.03,"endTime":859.25,"body":"how to express my adoration and desire and hope"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":854.03,"endTime":859.25,"body":"and like I want more, there's more."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":859.34,"endTime":862.94,"body":"There'd be these moments that would that would"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":859.34,"endTime":862.94,"body":"cause me to pray like \"God give me this other"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":862.94,"endTime":867.17,"body":"thing, like there's got to be more  there's"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":862.94,"endTime":867.17,"body":"got to be something more I can do or say to"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":867.17,"endTime":873.77,"body":"express like how I feel about you. 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So he had showed up that day to witness"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1402.48,"endTime":1406.32,"body":"and both of us are, you know, years older than"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1402.48,"endTime":1406.32,"body":"these high school students. And he's standing"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1406.32,"endTime":1411.48,"body":"in the back with his hands raised, his eyes"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1406.32,"endTime":1411.48,"body":"wide open. And it is like, \"Yeah, do you have"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1411.48,"endTime":1414.27,"body":"something to say? Like, do you know what she"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1411.48,"endTime":1414.27,"body":"said?\" and he goes, \"Yes!\""},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1446.982,"endTime":1500.9,"body":"ultimately the goal is that people would know"},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1446.982,"endTime":1500.9,"body":"that they your loved and seen."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1501.42,"endTime":1505.08,"body":"Well, I think just be"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1501.42,"endTime":1505.08,"body":"sensitive to if there's that hunger and you"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1505.83,"endTime":1512.28,"body":"keep seeking after it. I mean for me, you know"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1505.83,"endTime":1512.28,"body":"exactly like you said, we have the Holy Spirit."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1512.7,"endTime":1517.14,"body":"I mean, it's the Trinity, right? We don't just"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1512.7,"endTime":1517.14,"body":"ask Jesus into our heart, it's God, the Father,"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1517.14,"endTime":1521.07,"body":"Jesus the son, \u0026 the Holy Spirit, when you"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1517.14,"endTime":1521.07,"body":"know, we, we accept him."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1521.07,"endTime":1527.52,"body":"So we already get the full package from the"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1521.07,"endTime":1527.52,"body":"beginning, but I think he does, he puts that"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1527.52,"endTime":1532.74,"body":"hunger inside of you for different things."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1527.52,"endTime":1532.74,"body":"Because for me, this has been a really big life"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1532.74,"endTime":1536.07,"body":"changing experience. He knows what we need in"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1532.74,"endTime":1536.07,"body":"our lives."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1536.37,"endTime":1542.7,"body":"So, exactly, just seek after it, trust him, and"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1536.37,"endTime":1542.7,"body":"trust what how he's going to use it, for sure."},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1542.7,"endTime":1550.44,"body":"But thank you both for just sharing so"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1542.7,"endTime":1550.44,"body":"personally and vulnerably. Yeah, I love your"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1550.44,"endTime":1555.87,"body":"hearts and I, I know this will be an incredible"},{"speaker":"Laurel Fishbook","startTime":1550.44,"endTime":1555.87,"body":"message for so many people listening."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1556.41,"endTime":1559.65,"body":"Yeah, I want to say thank you"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1556.41,"endTime":1559.65,"body":"just for what you've deposited in our"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1559.65,"endTime":1567.84,"body":"community. So people that know me, I'm"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1559.65,"endTime":1567.84,"body":"emotional. But what you have deposited and how"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1567.84,"endTime":1572.91,"body":"you've continued the conversation with us, and"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1567.84,"endTime":1572.91,"body":"we're so excited, and the fact that you do this"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1572.91,"endTime":1573.69,"body":"in partnership."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1574.08,"endTime":1578.82,"body":"So Becca, thank you for all of the prayers that"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1574.08,"endTime":1578.82,"body":"you've uttered, not only for our family, but"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1578.82,"endTime":1580.17,"body":"for Emily, she's up speaking."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1580.17,"endTime":1584.43,"body":"Emily, thank you for using your gift. Thank you"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1580.17,"endTime":1584.43,"body":"for using both of your gifts to make our"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1584.43,"endTime":1585.51,"body":"community richer."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1586.17,"endTime":1592.59,"body":"You know, as we always said, everything's an"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1586.17,"endTime":1592.59,"body":"invitation with God. I'm inviting you into"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1592.62,"endTime":1597.06,"body":"another conversation. So if any part of this,"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1592.62,"endTime":1597.06,"body":"you know, created any fear, that's a great"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1597.06,"endTime":1601.23,"body":"opportunity to turn towards him and not away."},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1597.06,"endTime":1601.23,"body":"So we're just so unbelievably grateful. Thank"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1601.23,"endTime":1605.37,"body":"you for being a part of our family. Thank you"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1601.23,"endTime":1605.37,"body":"for spending this time with us, and we so look"},{"speaker":"Grant Fishbook","startTime":1605.37,"endTime":1607.11,"body":"forward to continuing the conversation."},{"speaker":"Emily Jamieson","startTime":1607.14,"endTime":1608.37,"body":"Indeed, a gift to be here."},{"speaker":"Becca Renaker","startTime":1609.39,"endTime":1611.4,"body":"Thank you. Thank you for hosting"},{"speaker":"Becca Renaker","startTime":1609.39,"endTime":1611.4,"body":"us."},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1614.76,"endTime":1619.62,"body":"Thanks again for joining us on this"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1614.76,"endTime":1619.62,"body":"episode of Continuing the Conversation. This"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1619.62,"endTime":1625.8,"body":"podcast is produced by Christ the King"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1619.62,"endTime":1625.8,"body":"Community Church. For more info about CTK or"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1625.8,"endTime":1632.43,"body":"message content from Pastor Grant, please visit"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1625.8,"endTime":1632.43,"body":"ctk.church. Join us again next time as we"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1632.43,"endTime":1635.1,"body":"continue the conversation with Grant and Laurel"},{"speaker":"Ryan Ervin","startTime":1632.43,"endTime":1635.1,"body":"Fishbook."}]}