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Meet Your Host, Lori Hoover. An interview with Courtney Van

Lori Hoover Season 1 Episode 5

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Returning to the podcast nearly four years later... here's an introductory interview done in March of 2022.  It aired as S1:E5.  I hope it gives you some insight into who I am and what my intention with the podcast is.

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SPEAKER_01

Hello, everybody, and welcome to the podcast. My name is Lori Hoover. Together, let's wake the fuck up. So, for today's episode, I actually had a medium that I was going to be interviewing, and for whatever reason, we tried three different times and it just didn't happen. So I know I haven't really given you any information about who I am, so I'm going to tell you. Um, obviously, I'm a podcast host, but I'm also a published author. I'm an intuitive guide and psychic medium, a Reiki master, I'm an energy healer, I'm also an ordained minister. I totally love crystals. I have a shit ton of them. I really do feel that each one has a special purpose, and I really enjoy connecting with their unique energy. Sometimes I will bust out my torch and make some lamp work glass beads. I do make jewelry, wire wrapped, stuff like that. Um, I play around and make magic wands, just different shit to express my creative side. Now, being passionate about life and all who I share it with, warts and all, I research, write, record, edit, and produce this podcast, Wake the Fuck Up, in order to change the lives of millions of people. That really is my goal. I'm trying to get everybody to wake the fuck up so that we can move forward in a much better way. My awesome musician son Alex, he's only 16, but he is the primary reason for this, for my passion. My cats, too, of course. Oh, and my plants, because we can't forget the plants. But basically, I just want a better life for everybody, flora and fauna included. I am just honored and grateful to be alive in this extraordinary time in history. And so I want this podcast and the guests that I have on here to show you all the reasons why. So, what we're going to do today is I am going to switch it up a bit. And I'm going to have my friend Courtney come in and she is going to interview me. So please join me in welcoming my good friend Courtney. Hi, Lori. I'm so excited to talk for you. I'm stoked too. This is gonna be fun.

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Okay.

SPEAKER_00

Okay, well, let's get right into it. Um, the first thing I want to have you do is I know you just kind of, you know, gave everybody your your bio, but I'd like to talk a little bit more about your background and and the kind of focus on your mediumship. So let's let's talk about that a little bit and and tell me what one of your first experiences with connecting to the other side was.

SPEAKER_01

Um, well, huh. Do you want the before I knew I was a medium, or do you want when I found out I was a medium? Because I don't know if you remember, but we had a non-friendly here in the house, and we had to have an entire team of people come in and they did all this bullshit to try and get rid of him. But do you want that part of it, or do you want me to tell you about when I first found out I was an actual medium?

SPEAKER_00

I I think, you know, just like what was your first experience, you know, where it was where you got that kind of, hey, this isn't like just life on earth. There's something more out there.

SPEAKER_01

Well, I mean, I had um before I had this experience with this woman, Mary, um, I was getting, I would have these feelings, like I just had this sense. I knew that somebody was there. I would get this warm, almost hot sometimes, tingling, tingly sensation in the middle of my back. Um, and I would see things out of the corner of my eye and and stuff like that. And I mean, it was kind of a progressive thing, but it was really lunch with Mary that really told me, holy shit, I'm I am actually a medium, like I'm really connecting with people. And that was just a strange thing. I mean, I had gone to this class that she hosted at a library, and it was to meet your spirit guides, which I did not, I didn't, nothing happened in the class, but um, we connected through Facebook, so it was like about a year later, I think, that I don't know, I just had this feeling I was supposed to reach out to her. Well, she had the exact same feeling, and we ended up connecting through Facebook and set up to um get together for lunch, and this ended up being like the longest lunch ever because we we met at like one or two o'clock, and then we ended up like talking and talking and talking about all this spiritual stuff and shit like that for like the whole day, and we literally closed a second restaurant at 11 o'clock at night. They had to kick us out, but so do you remember that? Yeah, so but after dinner, because we had lunch and then we moved to this other place and we had dinner, and after dinner, she says to me, Okay, you know, I it's time to I'm you know, I'm being told that I'm supposed to work with you, and her guides, like she said, they had like a whole row of spirits for me to talk to, and I was like, I you know, I don't do that, like basically you've got the wrong girl. I don't, I don't know anything about that, and she was kind of just really nonchalant, like, yeah, just you know, clear your mind, you can do this, and so she basically instructed me what to do, which was just to clear my mind and ask, Who are you? Um, are you friend or family? And then I kind of added in if if it was family, are you maternal or paternal side? And then what's your message? So I did that, and I actually started hearing shit in response, and I was like, What the hell? So I would tell her what I got, what popped into my mind, and I swear everything I said, she's like, I can confirm that, I can confirm that, I can confirm that. And I'm like, oh my god, this is fucking crazy. And it was oh my god, it was it was probably one of the most amazing experiences I've ever had, to be honest.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah, well, and and you know, that's the energy that you feel from something like that had to really be wonderful. Um, how did you get from that first connection to where you are now, where you're, you know, you're reading people on a regular basis, you know, you're doing a lot. There's there's a lot more that you're doing now than than what you were doing when you first started out. How did you, you know, how did you kind of evolve through that?

SPEAKER_01

Uh I literally just started. I mean, I I started reading for um friends and family and myself. I I I started out with two Oracle decks. Um and I just start, I don't know, I just started. I just started playing around with them. And then the more I got familiar with the decks, um, it was it didn't even end up being about the decks because I can read anybody without any cards. That's just it's more of a jumping off point. Yeah. Um, but I mean, it literally just started with that. I started reading people that I knew, and I felt like that connection and the the information was coming through more, you know, just more readily, and it was much clearer. And so I just it just evolved like that, and it was very quick. I set up a page for myself on Facebook, and you know, I've been I've been doing this, I don't know, seven years or something now. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Do you do you believe that everyone is capable of psychic ability or are there like varying degrees with some people more being more gifted than others? How do you how do you perceive that as working?

SPEAKER_01

I believe that we all have access to the exact same information. I just don't think that we're all necessarily meant to tap into that in this lifetime. We all have the capacity, I just don't believe that we're all meant to necessarily. Now, intuition, yes. You know, trust your gut a thousand percent. But as far as you know, the rest of it being able to connect with spirit and stuff like that, yes, we all can, but no, I don't believe we're all meant to.

SPEAKER_00

Okay. So, okay, so all of that being said, it it sounds like there's different types of psychic abilities where individuals can be like stronger in certain things and weaker in other things. Can you discuss maybe the different types of and you know, and explain a little bit about them?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah, and you know what? I was gonna make myself a cheat sheet to talk about the clairs because that's what they're commonly referred to. And I forgot to do it because I don't I don't actually remember what they all are. But when I say the clairs, it's clairvoyance, claire audience, clairsentience, there's clairgustance, there's you know, these different it, they're just different names for our senses. So, like clairvoyancy, uh, you it's like you've got clear seeing, um, clairsentience, um, clair audiences, clear, clear hearing. So that just means that you can see spirit or you can hear spirit, you can feel spirit. Um, I've experienced all of them except for the clear gustance. I've never had um something come through that was a taste. Now I've I've experienced the sight, the sound, the feeling, um, just the the knowing that somebody was there. I've even had this the smells. Um my my mom's boyfriend. This was, you know, he passed away when I was 13 years old, but she had this boyfriend, and they had this. Well, they had this lotion, let's just say that. And I it smelled a really specific way. It was like kind of fruity. And um, I just every time he comes through, I smell that lotion, and it's really funny. And and but I love it. I love knowing that you know that's just him, and that's his smart ass way of letting me know that he's there with this emotion lotion or whatever.

SPEAKER_00

That's really cool.

SPEAKER_01

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Well, it's funny. What um what advice do you have for someone who wants to develop their own intuition? And and actually likewise for someone who wants to maybe advance to your level, maybe they've had, you know, some things going on that that they feel that, you know, they've they've had some experiences where people have kind of come through to them and and things like that, and and they want to develop to your level. Do you, you know, I mean, obviously there's a difference, you know, between you know, developing your intuition and developing to the mediumship level. What what advice do you have for people like that?

SPEAKER_01

Well, some of the things that worked really well for me um was just excuse me, just trying to, first of all, I had to make sure that I felt comfortable. That is such a huge, huge piece of it because especially because I had that experience previously that was, you know, just not so great connecting with the other side. Um, and because of that, I needed to make sure that I felt protected. And so I wrote a little prayer of protection for myself. And I mean, I typically will reference what I consider our creator um as the universe more generally, but this in this prayer protection that I wrote for myself, I just I called it God. You can call it whatever works for you, but I just would say that I encircle myself in the white light of God's love and divine protection, that I am always safe and secure, and that only those energies with the purest, most loving intent can even come within a five-mile radius of me. So that was like my first thing. I put this, you know, I put I put that shit way out there, you know. So no non-friendlies could come through ever again. So that was this the first step. But then I I did these little things where I would just do like yes and no questions to try to play around with my intuition. And so what I did was I visualized the word yes, and for me, I made it kind of like you know, feminine and swirly. Um, and then I envisioned the word no, which was just a really thick, bold N-O, you know, and then I just would mentally ask questions that I already knew the answers to because you want to calibrate it, and so you just mentally ask these questions, you know, is my name Jack? Obviously, I got the big NO. And so you do that a few times, and then from there, once you've got it calibrated and and you know that it's working, then you just start asking questions that you don't know the answer to. They have to be yes and no, but or you can get an Oracle deck and just start playing around with the cards and get a feel for the cards.

SPEAKER_00

Um I think I would have quite a few Oracle decks, don't you?

SPEAKER_01

That's funny. You're you're a smart ass. Yeah, I think I I'm I think I'm close to 90 now.

SPEAKER_00

I think kind of like a little maybe a fetish or something. It's kind of like my habit with shoes.

SPEAKER_01

Oh god, you know, but but the cool thing about it is uh for the most part, there are some that are they're just not really good for using for the card of day because there's not enough information on the individual cards to support that. You have to look through the book, and then each thing is like another fucking book in itself, you know. So there I do have one shelf of those that I don't even bother with for the card of the day, but all the rest of them, I mean, I'm you know, my guides will choose. I use all of them in some capacity, I do use them all. So that's but yeah, yeah. But I mean, I would start with you know that with an Oracle deck. You can also do um a pendulum for, but again with the yes and no thing just to start, yeah.

SPEAKER_00

And when you use a pendulum, you can you can also kind of like maybe put down a sheet of paper where you've got your yes and no, and then just you know hold it up and let it swing, you know.

SPEAKER_01

Absolutely, I absolutely and I think that that's a really good point to make because if you have a clear direction where the yes is and the no is, it's a lot easier to tell, okay, it's going in that direction. So, you know, because sometimes you're like, okay, is this actually swinging in a circle or you know, what the hell is it doing? And you have to hold your hand really, really still, you know. One of the decks that I think everybody should have, like everybody, whether you read for somebody or not, is the Angel Answers deck. It was originally by Doreen Virtue and Radley Valentine, but it's just Radley Valentine now. But I would say for everybody to get that deck because it's it's got yes and no, and it's got um time frames and and stuff like that. So it's a really good one too to play around with.

SPEAKER_00

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SPEAKER_01

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SPEAKER_00

Okay, welcome back, everybody. So, okay, so now let's talk a little bit about an actual reading. Um, I've personally had readings before, tarot, intuitive, runes, mediums, you've read from me before, and I've even had a past life regression. You know, there's a lot out there. Tell tell your listeners a little bit about the process you go about in a reading, and what can someone expect if they've never had a reading before, but they're you know, they they're curious.

SPEAKER_01

Well, what I would typically do is I have this little caddy thing, and I to I will generally have about 14 decks with me. If this is something, if I'm doing it in person, uh I still use the same decks if I'm at home, but I'll get out my decks and um I will just tell the person, the sitter, that they can ask me anything that they want to ask me. There is nothing that's off limits. And um, if they don't have questions, which a lot of times people don't, especially if they've never had one before, they don't really know what to expect. And so I will just tell them if they don't have anything specific they're wanting to know, that I'll just let my guides choose a deck and I will use that as a jumping off point. And then I'll just give them whatever comes through on the cards. And um, it's you know, it's usually pretty good because then with the cards and what's coming up, that will often generate questions for them, like okay, can we clarify this or you know, things of that nature? But I mean, they can literally ask about anything, it's more often than not about love or relationships, but um, you know, oftentimes career comes up and and different things. Um yeah, health, yeah. And they often ask about other people as well, their children, their parents, things like that. Yeah, like how many grandchildren I'm going to have. Yeah, that comes up too. But I will say that I don't necessarily trust numbers like that or timelines, and that's just because, especially with the timelines, because of free will. So I could see something that is looking like it's potentially going to happen in say June, but you know, the person or people that we're talking about, they choose something different, and boom, the whole timeline shifts. Sure. So yeah.

SPEAKER_00

Well, you know, okay, and I I know, you know, that for some of us there's no fear. You know, we jump right in there, we love the anticipation, and we get excited when a medium or a reader hits on the things only we would know. But now I also know that for some others, there is a lot of fear. We, you know, we talked about this before. You know, I had um a girl that worked for me that she knows she really she talked about her dead father a lot, and you know, it's were there were she was she was she was a daddy's girl and she her life really revolved around him when she was younger and there yet there were so many unresolved issues and she really was afraid that when if she would have a reading that she she was just so afraid of what she would hear you know um how how do you dress someone's fears when they're afraid of that they you know it's it's that push pull of I really want to but I don't know I'm afraid how do you address that well for me the the one thing that I can tell everybody is that before I even start a reading I will set the intention that only what is not not necessarily that what the person wants to hear comes through but what they need to hear will come through.

SPEAKER_01

And I also don't allow any kind of any kind of freaky shit nothing you know really negative I mean unless there's some sort of a warning that would potentially save somebody's life or something like that. Nothing like that comes through. It's almost always designed to bring peace and closure to the person.

SPEAKER_00

Okay.

SPEAKER_01

How have you ever had anything negative come up in a reading I I have yes I've had um we're you know seeing somebody's passing um I have also seen um some negative health issues and that um I was given steps for the person to take in order to to correct them and that if they did not that they were going to have some pretty serious problems further down the road okay and I was guided to deliver that information so I did.

SPEAKER_00

So you really you look for a a way to kind of turn it around and relay to the person in a more positive way but but that you know hey it's a warning it's for you to know that you know part of the reason that you're getting the warning is to circumvent problems and you know continue on with your life in a positive way.

SPEAKER_01

Absolutely and I'm actually really good at that I I don't know I'm I'm just I do I do pretty well with that with changing it around to put it you know the positive spin on it try try to look for the silver lining in in the whole message.

SPEAKER_00

So yeah um well and you already kind of talked to me one of my questions for you was really about you know what you did to protect yourself and I I know that you have your prayer and I I know that that is a big thing for you because I know you you do that whenever you're going to be reading for someone but um can you tell me like one of tell me about one of your most dramatic readings. I I kind of would like I I know and I I know the one that I am thinking that I would like you to tell me about um but I also I also would kind of like to hear about what happened when you had the really negative energy where you're living and you know when Alex was the little boy I would I I think your readers would like to hear actually about both of those instances if you um the first one is is about you know when you got the really bad headache. So can you talk about both of those?

SPEAKER_01

Yeah I I think I already relayed that one um with that one um I was I did I was doing a private party there were only three people there I had never met any of them before but when I went in with this this one particular woman her father came through initially and um the whole time that I was interacting with him and delivering the messages from him there was a gentleman that was standing off to the side and he was just waiting uh for his turn essentially and as soon as the dad wrapped it up and he kind of stepped in and my head just started pounding and I relayed that to the the to the woman I was reading for and I told her I said you know just oh my god this my head is pounding all of a sudden and I asked her if she had lost a man to some sort of a a head trauma and she she knew exactly what I was talking about. She couldn't even say anything she literally just nodded her head and so then um he did you know he put his like put his finger up to his head like you would do if you were mocking a gun and he did that and I said oh my god I said did he actually you know do that and she said yes and it was I mean it was just crazy and there was so much additional information that came through about that that he had this um just he he had this so much guilt around the way that he went out and and the way that he did all of that and I mean he it was an amazing reading there was so much more to it than that but at the end of it I said to him you know that he did not need to do that to make my head hurt like that because I mean it was atrocious. It lasted for two days after that and he told me that yes he did because otherwise she would not have believed me so you know what I what I find the most interesting about that is because not only did she get some assurance and some closure but it sounds like he got healing as well because you know he was able to relay how you know maybe I shouldn't have done it that way but you know I this is where I was at and and things of that nature it was it was almost like you helped both of them for sure and and also he he wanted her to know that he had actually um had a part in connecting her with a new person and yeah and I mean this person was somebody that was um he assured us that this was going to be somebody that was going to love her for the rest of her life like she was she was just set you know not only with the love relationship but also financially and I mean it was just it was amazing truly amazing that is just so cool yes yeah so so your next story talk a little bit about what happened with the negative spirit that came into and just attached itself yeah Zach um I believe that he followed us from my previous home we moved here when Alex was just had he had just turned a year old and when we got here I mean he was just terrified to be in his room um I would go into his closet to hang up his clothes and it was freezing cold in there um he was saying things that as a mother scared the living shit out of me I mean he said something one day um he was acting really weird and I just and I mean he was like three years old at the time and I asked him you know Alex what is going on what's the problem and he said people are upset okay and I was like what people what are you talking about and he said because I didn't kill you but I couldn't kill you not you mommy and I was like what the fuck I mean my blood ran cold and he just was scary yeah and he I mean he talked about things that he never there's no possible way that he would ever have heard the things that came out of his mouth from me or his dad or even the stuff that was on TV we just didn't there was no no exposure but he would say things about putting a penis and a butt and stuff like that and I mean at three years old it was just horrible it was horrible and so it was it got to the point where he could not even you know he couldn't sleep in his room so he started sleeping with uh his dad and I and that went on that went on for a very long time and I had at one point contacted a group of people who were supposedly able to you know take care of the problem for me to get this to get Zach to leave and so they came in they brought in all this equipment they made us leave the house and they set up all their equipment and everything and what happened was while we were gone they were antagonizing him I mean like trying to piss him off or just get him to respond. Well they got the information the data that they wanted they got their you know EVPs or whatever the hell they got audio and video um and him saying something about a fire and and stuff like that but in doing so the way that they did it by pissing him off they made our lives just so much worse and um things just got really bad and then I got a hold of my friend Carrie and I said look you know I I just need your help at the time I didn't know anything about this stuff.

SPEAKER_00

I didn't know about smudging or and I also didn't understand that you have the authority when it comes to spirit you know like you can say hey this isn't cool get the hell out you know but she came in and she smudged the house and and um she just you know she just asked him to leave and up until about I'd say four months ago he he's been gone so for like 13 well maybe 12 years or so about a dozen years or so he's been gone and then I got a little uh I don't know what you'd call it a little calling card from him a few months ago so yeah so tell us about the visit and tell us what you did about it because you know he you when she asked him to leave well okay so he left and you know then that was obviously an incredibly scary experience um but then so he kind of popped back in and then tell your listeners what you did to take care of it because this this time was much less dramatic. It was actually well no well I just I knew it was him I mean I the energy was the same and well and he straight up said you know that it was him when I you know because I asked him what the hell do you want and um and when I asked him that he said you and I said what the hell for you can't have me and it was the response was that uh it was he wanted to like basically use my body uh to channel and and I just I said no I told him no get the hell out I'm you're not doing that I'm not doing that and so I checked in with my guides on that too like if I was supposed to allow some sort of you know to become a channel for something someone um and you know my I got a no that that wasn't supposed to happen at least not at this point in time so yeah I mean I just basically told him to fuck off and it was it and and get the hell out yeah yes and so now now since you told him that have you heard from him since no mm mm well that's no that's reassuring too yes yeah definitely I mean it it was a couple of days though you know before it was a couple of days of playing around with that you know like I could I don't know why it is but he hangs out over back it where the washer and dryer are like past the refrigerator it's like an offshoot past the kitchen where the washer and dryer are and he hangs out over there and every time for like three days I would go you know just walking over to put something in the garbage or whatever and the hair on the back of my neck would stand up and I'd be like oh shit here we go and so then like on the third third or fourth day I you know finally was like okay what the hell is this checked in found out and that's what he said you know when he said that he wanted me I was like oh hell no no not happening well so so now this kind of aside because this is really an interaction thing um you know I I don't think that most people realize that that most psychics have a hard time reading for themselves so even though you can handle things like this on your own because they're a they're an experience that's happening in the moment but you know even like people close to you it's hard to read for those people and and for yourself to have things coming through and and I I know you struggle with this a little bit because there's a lot of times that you're like okay well when is this happening? And even if you know something is going to happen and you feel it's happening you're you're waiting because you you know that timeline just isn't there for you and and it just you know how how do you deal with that um you know do you have any interesting stories to share and you know about trying to get answers for yourself and what I I know that you and I sometimes do that thing where we'll send each other a text and say yes or no without really telling you know what what it is. And then you know it's it's you know we kind of do that. And that that's kind of an interesting thing. And sometimes you know you get the the answer you didn't want and then we tell each other what it was that we were asking about and you know have a conversation about that.

SPEAKER_01

But yeah and and it's kind of funny because I was going to mention that because since I I've told a couple other people that you and I do that. So now I have I have two other people that I do that with one is Stacy Casey you know my my massage therapist friend and my sister Nancy. So we'll do that and you know but Stacy she's she's not good at telling me what the hell it was so I have to you know ask her what what it what was it you know yeah yeah in fact you gotta know right I mean and honestly I will I pull cards like I was guided to pick up this La Normand deck and I had never even heard of La Normand I had no idea what it was um but I'll use that occasionally to pull cards for myself and I it's like okay they all look really pretty and everything sounds good and everything but at the same time I'm still waiting you know and so I will shit I'll go on YouTube. I've got a couple of readers that I just started listening to but it's not it's not really personal.

SPEAKER_00

It's more um I just listen to the Aquarius stuff because well my son and moon are both Aquarius and occasionally I will jump in and listen to a Gemini because that's my rising but yeah I don't know I don't even though that's a general reading you can kind of infer certain things and where that energy is going to how your own energy is flowing in your life things like that.

SPEAKER_01

For sure yeah and I mean honestly the ones that I listen to they they are pretty accurate as far as what is going on in my life so you know it's it is reassuring it but I've had other people read me as well um just to just because sometimes you just need the confirmation because what it is it's not that I can't read for myself it's that I second guess everything.

SPEAKER_00

Yeah yep I I think too even intuitively a lot of us do that you know you you get a gut feeling about something and then you second guess it and you think well okay maybe I'm not being rational about this and you second guess yourself and then you know as hindsight you go oh I should have listened to my gut.

SPEAKER_01

I I know I'm guilty of that you know so yeah I know and that sucks when that happens because it's just like it so does it so does well this has been awesome.

SPEAKER_00

I mean I I this was I've even learned a few new things about you too because I there were little few things in there that you interjected that I was like oh I don't know that I knew that so we'll we'll have a discussion about that later.

SPEAKER_01

But um do you do you have anything else you'd like to add well just that if anybody else is is in the process like this of you know waking up in their own you know on their own path or whatever just to go slow with it you know take it a little bit at a time and don't get too overwhelmed with it and um just just be patient with yourself as well because it's it's a process it really is a process and it does evolve over time.

SPEAKER_00

So just don't you know I like that be patient with yourself.

SPEAKER_01

I think we all need to do that you know we I think as a general rule people are all so hard on themselves trying to you know get this done or do this and make this happen that you know we we're not good to ourselves we we you know I like I like that advice be patient with yourself yeah and often we we aren't you know we really aren't good to ourselves we just we're our worst critics you know yes yes some okay ourselves up yeah one more thing yeah if someone would like to get in touch with you for a reading how would they go about doing that um well they can reach me on Facebook it's um my name on there is uh just intuitive Lori they can call me directly um I'm in the States area code is 586-3392622 or they can check me out on Instagram also intuitive underscore Lori awesome well Courtney thank you so much for taking this on today and you know interviewing me this was really cool my pleasure I I this was cool to put you in the hot seat I I thought this was a idea yeah and it was your idea too so smart ass well thanks again I really appreciate it thanks to everybody who tuned in today as always I'm grateful for your presence and uh this was awesome so I will see everybody back here next Sunday with another episode as we continue to wake the fuck up