I used to be on auto-pilot.
I'd wake up in the morning already feeling tired or still tired from the previous night's mindless social media scrolling or tv binge- watching.
I would go out and smoke to calm my nerves. Smoking was also my way to make my brain shut up so I am not surprised if I was able to finish a pack of cigarettes a day or even more.
I would shower and head to work and put the smiling and clown mask I'd wear for everyone to see. But inside, I was slowly dying, well, wished to actually vanish. I actually did when I decided to leave my job, my life and everything familiar behind.
This all changed when I started taking ownership of my life by designing a morning routine and sticking to it every single day.