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Have an"},{"speaker":"Maryann Samreth","startTime":1070.79,"endTime":1074.21,"body":"amazing summer dear friends and"},{"speaker":"Maryann Samreth","startTime":1070.79,"endTime":1074.21,"body":"I look forward to releasing"},{"speaker":"Maryann Samreth","startTime":1074.24,"endTime":1076.31,"body":"Season Two in a couple months."}]}