Tired of Being Sick and Tired | Batrice Cordova

Batrice Cordova, is a passionate advocate for women's empowerment and recovery. Batrice shares her courageous journey from a troubled past marked by addiction and abusive relationships to a life of sobriety and self-love. She opens up about the pivotal moment that led her to seek help and the importance of recognizing one’s worth. Through heartfelt anecdotes, Beatrice discusses the struggles she faced growing up in an environment filled with alcohol, the impact of her relationships, and the profound loss of her daughter in a tragic accident.

 This episode highlights the road to recovery and emphasizes the significance of self-forgiveness and the power of a supportive partner. Batrice's story is a testament to resilience and the belief that it’s never too late to reclaim your life and pursue your dreams. Join us as we explore healing, identity, and finding true love.

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Batrice Cordova says getting sober changed her life forever

>> Tiffanie: Are you ready to pursue your dreams and build the life that you're proud of? No matter where your starting point was, if you're ready to take that, then you are in the right spot. My name is Tiffanie and I am the host at True Crime Connections. And joining me this week is Beatrice Cordova.

>> Batrice Cordova: Hello.

>> Tiffanie: And I want to welcome you. Thank you so much for joining me.

>> Batrice Cordova: Hi, how are you?

>> Tiffanie: I am doing well, thank you. What I love about you is you are wanting to empower women and encourage them to find their voice and embrace their worth so they can take back their lives. That is such an important thing to do. When did you realize that you needed to take this journey yourself?

>> Batrice Cordova: Probably once I decided to get sober, it was really about, there was a lot of stuff in like that had to do with it. But I think the last straw was I am tired of being sick and tired. And so I just wanted to feel better. And at the time it was like, it was like I had two options. I could either try and not drink anymore or I could not be here anymore type of thing. And it, that's the path I was going in. And I really wanted to make for sure that I am here. I, you know, it was just like that turning point to where it was like, you know what? I. I want to be here. I don't want to not be here anymore. So that's where I decided to kind of take that turning point and get a little bit of help and decide, you know what, this is really something that I need to do for me.


You've been sober for 400 days, which is amazing

>> Tiffanie: Well, I want to congratulate you over 400 days of sobriety. That is amazing. So congratulations.

>> Batrice Cordova: And you know, I've never been. I had to really think about it. I've never really been sober for that long of a period. Even be like. Cuz I started drinking probably when I was 12. My grandma would always started drinking when I was a baby because they used to put like a nipple on top of a beer bottle and give it to me.

>> Tiffanie: Well, right. I mean when you're in that kind of a situation, it's kind of hard for you not to follow in that, in those steps, if you know what I mean. Like, if you're that young and they're like, here you go, like, how are you not supposed to go down that road?

>> Batrice Cordova: Right, Right. So it's, it was definitely different, you know, it's definitely different. So.

>> Tiffanie: Right. So you grew up with a single mom and I'm sure it was a struggle for her and that's probably why they were feeding you, just for her to maybe have some adult time or, you know, whatever it may be. But do you think maybe that's kind of when it started to, like, kind of set in for you, if that makes any sense? Like, when we're young, we pick up on like, little vibes and little things, and your mom maybe not being as attentive as, you know, you would have liked, Maybe that's where like self worth issues started coming from.

>> Batrice Cordova: I would say definitely. I would say definitely now that I have been like, sober for a while and definitely thinking about just like my past and like, how I have been around alcohol my whole life. And then seeing my mom struggle because she was a teen mom too. And then like, my mom was a waitress, bartender her whole life. My grandparents were in a, they owned a restaurant, they owned a couple of restaurants. So it was always around all the time. And my mom being a single mom and I'm mixed. So my mom is, is white. And I don't mean that in a, in a bad way, but I've always grown up just saying, yeah, my mom's white type of thing. So I definitely think growing up not knowing, like, my own identity and then having my mom still be young herself and not knowing what to do kind of with a mixed race baby and then kind of going into like. I don't think she really felt comfortable for a long time, now that I look back at it. You know, you think about memories or look at pictures, and I definitely think, that's why I gravitated towards my grandparents a little bit more when I was younger. and I think a lot of single, like, young single moms, you know, they, they have their parents around to help them. I mean, I had my mom, but I haven't had my son yet. So I think that's why I kind of gravitated towards my grandparents. And my mom still was kind of figuring it out until she had my, my brother.

>> Tiffanie: I can't even identify with that. I wasn't as young as you. You had your first at 15. I was 24, but I still didn't know what the hell I was doing. But I mean, you learn as you go along. But by 19, you had three. I can only imagine.

>> Batrice Cordova: girl three, right? Yes. So I had my son at, 15, and then my middle child, I had her at 17, and then my youngest I had at 19. Very. Just wham, bam, thank you, ma'am. Get them all done. Enough with.

>> Tiffanie: And then you're like, shop's closed.

>> Batrice Cordova: Yeah, yes, completely.

>> Tiffanie: your child's father was abusive, correct?

>> Batrice Cordova: Yes, yes. My son's father was never in the picture, but my daughter, the one I had at 17, her father and my youngest daughter. So my two youngest have the same dad and he was the one I was married to. So he was very abusive. Like, he was abusive before we even got married. it was in one of those eras, I think, that it was cool to be like, with the gangster guy. I didn't cope. Anybody had to. To go through that era, but it was like 90s 97. Yeah, like in the, in 90s, early 2000s. And it was like, cool to be with the gangsters. Well, it. Yeah, that's not a way to grow up. Definitely not. It's not cool to, be hit and stuff like that. It's definitely not good. And I think just growing up, not having a positive male role model, like, besides my grandfather, like just anybody else, and not knowing what a man should do, I. I just thought it was normal. Right.

>> Tiffanie: And that also goes back to childhood. That's why I feel like we do find ourselves in these relationships because that's what normal was to us. Same with me. I found myself in abusive relationships because that's what I thought was love. And that, is not love. Name crawling and hitting and just so many different things that, that's not what love is. And it's hard to see at those young ages that it's an abusive relationship until you're really in it and then you're like, how'd I get here?

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly, exactly. And I think that's kind of where I found myself, not knowing kind of that I was really in a super abusive relationship until my daughter passed away and it got worse. So my, my first child with my ex husband, she passed away at the age of two and she, she passed away in a fire in our home, which my son started. So it's, taking me a very long time to really talk about it. But my son was five when it happened, so he was still very young. I mean, I was only 19 and everybody was still very young. My ex was, I think, 21, 22. So he was young too. We were all young. But after my daughter passed is when I really got the abuse from him. of course it was my fault. it was my son's fault. and I accepted that. I. I accepted, yeah, it was my fault. I was the only one home. It was my fault, you know, even though it wasn't. It was a complete accident, but I had to live with that for a long time. And I still live with it. I still live with those memories of waking up in a fire and I have a child missing.


It took me, um, till I got sober to forgive myself

You know, it's not something that you would wish upon any of your worst enemies. So it's a lot for me, a lot for my son. It's a lot for everybody. It's taken. It took me, till I got sober to forgive myself and that's been 23 years, so.

>> Tiffanie: Well, I'm very happy to hear that you did forgive yourself because you are not to blame for that. Nor is he. He's a five year old kid. He didn't mean to do that. This is what m. He didn't mean to. Yeah, it's paralyzing. When you have somebody in your face telling you that everything is your fault and you do, you start to believe it.

>> Batrice Cordova: Yeah, you do, you do. You start to believe it. And then you know all of those mean and hateful things that they're saying about you and your child. It was hard. I mean, my son, he wind up living with my mom until I was not with my ex anymore. But he lived with my mom for a long time because I was afraid for my son's life. I didn't know what my ex. I knew what he would do to me and I didn't know what he might do to him.

>> Tiffanie: What was your final straw with your ex?

>> Batrice Cordova: My final straw with him was I wasn't going to be hit again, but I had been hit like numerous, numerous, numerous, numerous times. Then I was in and out of the hospital of course always been excused for it. I mean, of course he would give me an excuse of why it happened, I would make him back another excuse of why it happened. And you just start believing all of these excuses of everything. And that isn't, that is not okay. But what finally did it for me was at the time I was, I was working at a military base and when I was working there I started finally at I guess like not reaching out but like just like feeling like I could open up to people more and they were more people that I really didn't know. And they're like, you know, you don't, you don't need to be around that anymore. Like you. Like there was one time I, I had to come to work and of course he had to take me and you know, I'm getting out of the car crying and just tears. Makeup had to go in and redo my makeup and all this other stuff and, and one of the girls who I worked very closely with. She had told me, like, you don't deserve that. you don't. And it was just like, I thought I did. Like, I really thought I deserved it. And I let that rule me for a long time. But there was, like, I told myself, okay, you know what? I don't deserve this. And it was one time in the middle of the night, and he had, Leading up to this, there was quite a few incidences where he had went crazy. He destroyed everything in our little apartment condo type thing to where he broke the top of the toilet off. And, it takes a lot of. Of power to break the top of the toilet off. And so when I got home, I could not believe that that had happened. And when I got home at that time, like, I don't know where he was, it was. He was gone. But it was in. Within like a day and a half or two days, he decided that he was going to take that anger because he had broke that toilet out on me. and it was kind of like it was my last straw, because it was probably one of the. One of the worst beatings I had gotten. But it was. It was because he was mad at himself for breaking the toilet, because he was pissed off, because he, you know, everything was his narcissist self. Now that I found out. I never knew the meaning of that until now. but it was all because of him that I got what I got. And of course he, you know, it was my fault. And it was probably one of the worst that I'd had. And I was done. And in the middle of the night, I just called my mom and I was like, mom, can you just come and get me? Right? I was like, mom, I am. I am done. I took a laundry basket with my daughter's clothes in my clothes. And that was. I was. And I never will.

>> Tiffanie: Good for you. Not that it's an excuse or anything, but was he on drugs or drinking? Or was this just his personality?

>> Batrice Cordova: He was on drugs, he was drinking. He had been doing coke that I know of, but I don't know how far he went with it, but definitely coke and a large.

>> Tiffanie: I just like to paint that because so many people be like, well, it was because of this, it was because of that. And first of all, that's not an M excuse. And second of all, that doesn't mean it's never going to happen again. So we need to stop giving these people excuses on why we allow the abuse that happens.

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly. Looking back at it now, I had to, like, really think, like, it would be all the time whether he was inebriated or not. He would be abusive. So I think for him, that was his nature. Even though you didn't see it as much when he was sober, but you did. And I. I had to, like, think back. Yeah, I did see it when he was sober, but it was definitely a lot more when he was not or when somebody or something angered him. So if, anything, like, anything could anger him, it wouldn't even be me. And it was, like, all broke loose at the same. So it was definitely something that now I could have probably picked up on, but I never saw before because at that time, he was a gangster guy. So he had that rough exterior. He was, you know, he was more rough around the edges. You know, he was always mean. You. That's what I thought of at that time. And so I just. Well, that's just his Persona. Because he's in a gang, he's a gangster. You know, that's just how they have to be in it.


The love I get from my husband is something I never felt before

You could still be a good person.

>> Tiffanie: Absolutely. Absolutely. Well, I am so happy to hear that you got out of that. And you're now happily married to an actual great guy.

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly. An actual. And he, will probably tell you, like, it took him a long time to win me over because of that reason, But I was not used to getting loved in actual love. And when I say that, I truly mean, like, from growing up as a child. Like, the love I get from my husband is something I never felt before. And it took me a long time to. To realize it. I guess you could say, like, this is what love feels like, because he. He protects me. Like, I've never had somebody be like, oh, I. I think of my wife, or, you know, before him, I never had anybody open a door like you. You are open it is. You know, besides your grandfather, of course, my grandpa did, but he was an older gentleman. Of course he's gonna do it. But I never had anybody else do that ever in my life. So it would be like, okay, you're good. You don't have to do that. You're good. But he never stopped. And I think that's where it. It was just like, other people would just stop. Like, oh, okay, she doesn't want me to open the door. I won't open the door. He still opens the door for me to this day. So it's just like, whoa, this is what a man is supposed to do for you. Open the door. Like, it's the little Things, but those little things that you've never seen before, like, oh, this is. This is awesome. M.

>> Tiffanie: Isn't it crazy, though, like, at first how uncomfortable it makes you? Like, oh, my gosh, when you get, like, compliments and stuff like that, you're like, why do I feel dirty and so weird?

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly. It's like, I don't. I don't know how to. To feel. And, you know, now that I've been sober the past year, like, I was with my husband when I wasn't sober, so he's seen me in both ways, but he's always told me how beautiful I am. And the fact that now that he tells me, like, you've always been beautiful, but now you're even more beautiful, your glow is different. It's, just like, wow. Like, he's seen the change in me and he's like. He sticks behind me and he's like, you're doing great. You're amazing. And that. That, for me is just awesome. Like, love. Actual, love. It feels completely different, and you deserve it.

>> Tiffanie: Absolutely. And that's another thing, like, I really try to tell the listeners, like, listen, by you sitting here shacking up with Mr. Wrong. You are missing Mr. Right because he can't find you when you're hiding.

>> Batrice Cordova: Like, right.

>> Tiffanie: You got.

>> Batrice Cordova: You.

>> Tiffanie: You've got to be available.

>> Batrice Cordova: They're out there. They are. You have to be open to it. But you also can't be desperate and think that any man gonna do it for you, because, none of that.

>> Tiffanie: No, no, no.

>> Tiffanie: And you have to put in the work as well, even if it's working on yourself. You know, like, we are all damaged, especially by some point in life. We got something. We got some kind of baggage going on. So it's not fair to hold somebody to higher levels when we all have work that we need to do and we can meet each other halfway. Other hole. That's what it's about, sadly.

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly. Exactly. And I definitely feel that, you know, when I got sober, my m. Main thing was I have to do this for me, because I can't change anybody but me. So when I got sober and I. Because I did go to a, treatment facility and that, like I said, when I hit my breaking point, I hit my breaking point. Like, there's two ways I'm going to go. Like, I'm going to the hospital, but, I'm either going to go to the hospital and get better, or I'm going to go to the hospital and not be here. So I went to the hospital to get better. And I, didn't go to a hospital, per se. I knew I needed treatment. I knew I needed help because I knew I couldn't do it on my own. M. And when I found out that there was a place that you could go and just. It was 30 days. So I went for 30 days, but it was a peaceful time to where I had to pay attention to myself. I had to. I had to do the work that the place made me do. I had to put in that work. And the one thing I knew that I did not want to do was go back. And I got horror stories in a way, when I first walked in.


For me, making it a year without drinking was like, whoa

Like, you know, there's so many people that have been here two, three, four or five times, like, numerous times. And when I was there, like, I'd seen people that had been there numerous times, and it was just like, you know, what, if I'm going to do this, I'm going to do it right, and I'm going to take everything that they're giving me, and I'm going to use this, and if I can't use this outside of here, then maybe it wasn't for me type of thing, you know? But, I really had to put myself first. And that is so hard when everybody's like, why do you do that? Or, why do you say that? And it. If you don't take care of you, I. I would not be good for my husband. I wouldn't be good for my granddaughter. It wouldn't be good for my dogs. Like, now that I am actually putting myself first and taking care of me and setting boundaries within myself, I mean, I made it. For me, making it a year without drinking was like, whoa. But the first step was making it. The 30 days that I was in there, that was huge. I hadn't made it a week. Like, so each step I take now is a humongous step for me that I can't wait to get to. And it's just like, I had to. I had to do something for me. I had to. I had to start thinking of me. And if I have to think of me to be better for everybody else, I am. And I'm gonna say, me. I. I did it. I'm the only one that can do it for me. You can't do it for me. My husband can't do it for me. I'm the only one that can keep that drink out of my hand. I'm, the only one that can keep that drink out of my mouth. Like, Nobody else can do it for me.

>> Tiffanie: Right. I like that. That rehab place, like, had you look at yourself. I feel like a lot of these treatment centers, all they do is try to mask the drink, but they don't try to uncover why you pick up the drink in the first place. And that's really where the healing begins.

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly, exactly. And I think that's how I have made it this far without drinking, because I wanted to heal that inside of me. Like, why? What. I mean, because they make you see a therapist, and I still be seeing therapists and different things. But it was like, that was her first question. Like, what? Like, why did. Why do you pick up that drink? It wasn't anymore. It wasn't to, well, I have a good time or I. I want to have fun. You know, it was. I picked up the drink to mass what I was feeling inside. And once it gets to that point, there's an issue, I think. and if you don't work on those little things, and now that I'm starting to work on things and it's going to take, like, I'm only a year, a little over a year being sober, it's going to take a long time. But now that I know that, it's like, I want to help people before they get to the point where you have two choices, you know, And I want people to know, like, there is a spot before you get there to where you can be like, oh, I'm doing. I'm picking up this drink not for an enjoyment reason. I'm picking this drink up for something else. And that's where. That's where I would like to help others. I would like, you know, people to know that's not. That's not the only reason when we have unhealed or unresolved, issues, and it can be to the tide the furthest I need to remember. But that's where you have to start healing yourself. And it's not going to be overnight. But the first thing I had to do was forgive myself for my. Because it was not much. It was not my son's fault. It was a complete m. Accident and. Accident.

>> Tiffanie: Absolutely. Absolutely. I mean, sometimes people start drinking because it's fun, and then it becomes a mess, but then it becomes survival mode. You don't want to get sick. And, that's when you're really.

>> Batrice Cordova: You're.

>> Tiffanie: You're dipping your toes in the deep end. Because if you can't not have it, that. That only leaves you the two choices.

>> Batrice Cordova: Exactly, exactly. So you definitely have to I don't want you to get to that point, you know, that point to where you're like, you know, I'm going to drink myself to death. It's that I've had people in my family, I mean, very close people that have done that. And, and it's just like, what can I have done? What could I have changed? Could I have been there when they called that one time? Maybe that one time when they were just quiet. Maybe I should have talked a little bit longer or just being there sometimes for somebody just to talk. I've. I've called people sometimes just to talk because that has stopped me from picking up a drink. And it's just like sometimes all that frustration that I never let out before, I would just get in the car and go to the liquor store and buy a shot or two or three or a bottle or a six pack or whatever at the time. You know, who knows, whatever I had the money for at the time type of thing. But now it's like, where is that coming from? Like, what inside me is hurting that I need to think about and maybe, change my. Change my thinking of that is making me want to have a drink to. Whereas before it's okay, I need to drink because I'm feeling this way. And let me hurry up and have a drink because I'm feeling this way. And then it got to, I need to have this drink because if I don't have this drink I'm going to get sick. And then it got to, I want to hurry up and go to work and come home and drink again. And you know, the cycle just got worse and worse and worse and worse and all, because I did it.

>> Tiffanie: And it's exhausting. It really is. I actually lost my stepfather three years ago to alcohol. He tried to detox by himself at home and he did not fight that.


It's very important to take addiction seriously and to do it the right way

So it's very important to take it seriously and to do it the right way. If somebody wants to get help, more power to you. Yes. But please do it the safe way because it could fail you.

>> Batrice Cordova: It can, it can. And you know, the good thing about the, if you decide to go and get help is they do have. I mean, and everybody's like, oh, you went to a, treatment place and all they do is medicate you. I mean, everybody have all of these crazy things of what they do. And for me it was like, you know, what if it's gonna hope me not pick up her drink today, I think that's a little bit of help because I didn't know yesterday how not to do that. So it. I mean, for me, I take it literally day by day, minute by minute, because you never know. It is a lot easier now, but you never know. One. I mean, I. I hear tears here, error stories, horror stories all the time. I was just like, one little thing makes. Can make you go back, and that could be with any substance. So I really wanted to. To make for sure in myself. I knew my triggers and what would help me and not help me and just kind of figure out ways to just know. To do better myself, because that's all I can do. And I can, like, I can't say, oh, you have to do it this way. And I think that was my. My horror too, of wanting or. Because everybody that I knew that was sober was like. And I only figured this out in the. In the treatment place, but they were like. You mean sober people? It was like, they're sober and now they're mean and nasty because you're not sober with them. And all they want to do is give you a hard time because you drink. And they're just going to be mean and nasty to you because you drink. But, they're sober, but they're still mean and nasty people, you know? So I, I was like, I didn't know. That's why I never wanted to get sober. He turned nasty and mean, like, so now it's like, oh, you can actually turn sober and be nice. Imagine that.

>> Tiffanie: Get your life.

>> Batrice Cordova: Right. You're not bitter. What was. No, I. I feel like I'm even more happier now that I'm. But I just. I just had that horrible, like, you know, that old man. I'm sober. I made a straight. You know, I've been sober for 25 years. You know, like, scary.

>> Tiffanie: Yeah. I mean, addiction, almost like anything else, is something that you will have to work on for the rest of your life. Just like you're healing. If there's no time next week, I'll be healed. I'm great. Yeah, no, it does not.

>> Batrice Cordova: It's good. Yeah.

>> Tiffanie: It doesn't work that way. It would be great, but it doesn't. So as long as you just keep.

>> Batrice Cordova: Working yourself and journal, do whatever it.

>> Tiffanie: Is that you need to do to keep your mind occupied and in a good place. That's all that you need to do.


I found Pharmacy because I was buying expensive makeup online

And speaking of a good place, tell me about this makeup company. Girlfriend, kids from school.

>> Batrice Cordova: Oh, yeah. So it is pharmacy. and actually it reminds me because I came from the era where my grandma was a Avon Mary Kay. Person, she had Avon or Mary Kay. She ordered from the Avon lady, or the Mary Kay lady. Whichever one had the right whatever that she needed. And, like, it just reminds me of that type of a company, old school. But when it is definitely not like that at all, believe me, it's not like that. But Pharmacy is a company that has completely, like, natural products. So all their products are European, European standards. So I don't know if she's ever noticed, but the people in Europe and like, just anywhere besides America, their skin is always naturally looking good. And I'm just, like, always so mad what that, I have always been a makeup person, personally. So I start. I found Pharmacy because I was buying that expensive makeup online, that it was $40, $50 for a bottle of foundation, and I was faithfully buying it, and I couldn't figure out why. And I'm still breaking out everywhere. And it was just terrible. And since I really wanted to be healthy from the inside out, since I got, sober is I really wanted to be healthy from the inside out. Everything completely from skin, everything. I. I found Pharmacy. And I found Pharmacy mainly because, like I said, the foundation. I was tired of spending so much foundation, so much much money on foundation. That broke me out. And it was like I had with this company, I won't name that company, but, with this company, I had to go send back four bottles of this expensive foundation because they said, oh, we can match you perfectly, and all this crap. Well, it didn't happen. But the very first bottle, and I didn't even know, like, if I was getting the right color. I just got, like, a medium color because I mixed and sometimes my face is really light and then sometimes it's dark. Or if we're on a motorcycle, I get cat eyes. Like, so I have different shades. But the very first time they sent me a bottle of foundation, and I just picked the medium shade because I'm like, I'm not really dark, I'm not really light. I'm just going to go in a medium here. It matched the first time. It hooked me. Freaking hooked me. So ever since then, I have been using their products and the influencer that I want. Like, I found Pharmacy and got their products before I started doing it, like, for a business type of thing. So I was using their products and there was just like, wow, I know you could do this as a business. Let me do this. Like, I, can get on there and do my makeup, right? I do my makeup all the time. It's not as easy as you and ah, yeah, I do my makeup all the time, but there's so much time that you don't do your makeup. But so what has honestly hooked me with pharmacy is there, nutrition line. They have what is called the Nutri plus wellness line. And I have been doing that faithfully every day since July. And that, I believe is what is really my passion is just definitely looking better. Because not only with the makeup, my face looks better, but I feel better. I've lost weight. I started at 2:10 when I got out of bed. The, treatment center last year, I was at 2:10. and then I got, up even more because of the sweet cravings from after you quit drinking. Like I had a ton of sweet cravings. Like I could not get enough Reese's peanut butter cups. And now it's Twizzlers. And it, I don't know, my husband was like, are you serious? You ate a whole bag of Reese's? Yes, I did. I ate a whole bag of Reese's. But you know what? That Reese's peanut butter cup kept that dang beer out of my mouth, didn't it? But so I am now, I'm, now down. And I actually am so happy to say, but I'm now down. I still got a little bit here, but I'm down to 180. So.

>> Tiffanie: Good girl. Looking good.

>> Batrice Cordova: I'm like, but I've got a lot to go. But I still have baby weight. Can you believe that? I still have baby weight at 45. So. But that's because I never did anything about it. So there's another thing. Like if you take care of yourself from the beginning, you, you really, you help yourself in the long run. So now that I've been with pharmacy and since July, been using their Nutra plus Blind, I really, really, really feel healthy. I drink this here. What I was drinking is called recharge. It's like almost a natural energy drink. And because I was so heavy, I had high blood pressure, so I can't drink normal energy drinks like the Red Bulls and stuff like that. I've never really been able to, and then I really never liked the taste either. But the recharge is like a natural energy drink. And I mix it with water. I put like a little crystal light pack in it. And I swear it gives me energy. Guys. I get the feeling of having that energy drink and it does not make my heart rate. I am, calm. I have extra energy that I never had before because I never really took energy drinks. And I was Always afraid of the high caffeine. So this has caffeine in it but it's a more natural caffeine. So it's like a more natural energy than the those five hour Energies or the Red Bulls or monsters because it's like they give you that boost of energy and then you come crashing and it's not very good for you either. So this is all good ingredients and I just love it.

>> Tiffanie: Yeah, those are horrible for you. Not to say I don't have one once in a while, but they are not good for you.

>> Batrice Cordova: I know. See I, like I said I, I was a huge drinker and one of my drinks was tawaka and they used to, I used to order like a tawaka and they would give me a tuaca bomb which would have the Red Bull in it and I'd be like, oh, it's good.


You have a link to your website for all your products

like it would make my heart race like crazy. So now it's just like oh no, no, no. I stay away from those. And with this natural one I can drink like two of these a day and I like, I drink one in the morning and maybe one mid afternoon and I, I'm good all day long and I don't have to have an energy drink. And that's great especially when you work at home because it gives you that energy to run up and down the stairs.

>> Tiffanie: Yeah, there you go.

>> Batrice Cordova: Right. Can run up and upstairs really quick and let my dogs in and out.

>> Tiffanie: right, there you go. That's how you do it. I'm going to make sure you have a link for the items that you sell. Correct. So it's. Is it your website?

>> Batrice Cordova: It's my, it's like my link mate, it's called, it's like a link tree link but it's link mate and it has all my different links. So you can get to my pharmacy products. You can get to. Because I also do makeup. So I do makeup for people and then I'm going to be doing some peer recovery coaching here at probably around March. cause there's a class I'm going to be taking in February to do some pure recovery coaching through it's a place that I went through actually that really helped me and it was like somebody I could call that was just a random person in a way but I could go to that person when I needed to have a drink and I couldn't talk to anybody else. Like you know, I'm having a really bad time with a feeling for my daughter right now and I could Tell her the feeling without the biasness of everything. So I'm, I'm going to do that. And hopefully by March I'll be doing that too. So all of those links are on my link me. so there's the one that says contact me. There's like a shopping link for the pharmacy products. There's a consultation link to schedule a makeup consultation. so there's a couple of different things in there. But there's also a link to my website that I will be adding to it once I get my website up.

>> Tiffanie: Awesome.

>> Tiffanie: Look at you, girl. Yes.

>> Batrice Cordova: Yeah.

>> Tiffanie: Your mama tell you. I know she was white, but black don't crack, sweetheart. You.

>> Batrice Cordova: I know, I know. And that's what's crazy because I used to work. Well, I was in the medical field, too. I was in the medical field for a long time, but I worked with this lady and, because my forehead's like, still really pretty good. And they used to do Botox and she would be like, oh, yeah, you know, if you want your forehead to look like hers, but you don't ever have to do anything. I'm like, wow, sorry. My mom gave me good genes.

>> Tiffanie: There you go.


Well, is there anything else that you wanted to add? No. Thank you so much for this opportunity and it was awesome talking with you

Well, is there anything else that you wanted to add?

>> Batrice Cordova: No. Thank you so much for this opportunity and it was awesome talking with you. Really. Was I really.

>> Tiffanie: That was a pleasure.

>> Batrice Cordova: Good.

>> Tiffanie: And I just want you to know I'm very proud of you. I think you are doing amazing things and you should be very proud of yourself.

>> Batrice Cordova: Thank you. Thank you. And I can actually say that with a, ah, heartfelt thank you. Now. I never used to be able to do that. And I can actually say thank you so, so very much. It means a lot to me and I am glad, to say I'm proud of myself.

>> Tiffanie: As you should be. Yes.