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In what ways can I bring my"},{"startTime":356.474,"endTime":359.412,"body":"giving nature into balance with receiving?"},{"startTime":360.712,"endTime":363.142,"body":"And these are the things that came up for me."},{"startTime":363.912,"endTime":366.816,"body":"I wanted so badly to be chosen by the great"},{"startTime":366.87399999999997,"endTime":369.67199999999997,"body":"guy for a date, a skate or promotion."},{"startTime":370.412,"endTime":372.83599999999996,"body":"Yes, I'm making a reference to the skating rink"},{"startTime":372.88399999999996,"endTime":375.864,"body":"and couple skating, sitting there"},{"startTime":375.918,"endTime":378.724,"body":"looking, hoping somebody would come and ask"},{"startTime":378.798,"endTime":381.638,"body":"me to skate. that didn't"},{"startTime":381.66999999999996,"endTime":384.58599999999996,"body":"feel good. Here are some more things"},{"startTime":384.62399999999997,"endTime":385.852,"body":"that came to my mind."},{"startTime":387.342,"endTime":389.95799999999997,"body":"I wanted so badly to be chosen for that prize"},{"startTime":389.99,"endTime":392.462,"body":"promotion and corner office with windows."},{"startTime":395.202,"endTime":398.014,"body":"And then I realized how many times I had said no"},{"startTime":398.068,"endTime":401.006,"body":"to some of that. No to the one guy that"},{"startTime":401.044,"endTime":403.88599999999997,"body":"asked me to skate who"},{"startTime":404.084,"endTime":407.026,"body":"saying no to that one guy that asked"},{"startTime":407.06399999999996,"endTime":409.82599999999996,"body":"me to skate at the skating rink. Was"},{"startTime":409.864,"endTime":412.80199999999996,"body":"I really sending the message out that, no, I really"},{"startTime":412.87199999999996,"endTime":415.042,"body":"don't want to be asked to skate?"},{"startTime":416.442,"endTime":418.072,"body":"Didn't think of that. Then"},{"startTime":421.082,"endTime":423.846,"body":"I thought, gosh, all of this feels materialistic and"},{"startTime":423.88399999999996,"endTime":426.37399999999997,"body":"shallow. But darn it, I did deserve some"},{"startTime":426.508,"endTime":429.09799999999996,"body":"breaks, invitations, kudos, and"},{"startTime":429.12,"endTime":431.132,"body":"recognition in material form."},{"startTime":433.18199999999996,"endTime":436.074,"body":"Then this came up for me. My"},{"startTime":436.128,"endTime":438.282,"body":"ingratitude about receiving"},{"startTime":440.722,"endTime":443.70599999999996,"body":"the number of times I dishonored and disrespected,"},{"startTime":443.75399999999996,"endTime":446.734,"body":"being given something which was"},{"startTime":446.788,"endTime":449.406,"body":"receiving something. Here are some"},{"startTime":449.44399999999996,"endTime":452.238,"body":"examples. Family members come to"},{"startTime":452.26,"endTime":454.574,"body":"visit and try to hand me cash as they"},{"startTime":454.628,"endTime":457.186,"body":"leave, and me saying, no, I"},{"startTime":457.224,"endTime":459.986,"body":"appreciate it. It's great that you came to see me,"},{"startTime":460.024,"endTime":463.012,"body":"and that's really the greatest gift you can give me."},{"startTime":464.342,"endTime":467.252,"body":"When I did get a gift, I would think to myself,"},{"startTime":467.222,"endTime":470.056,"body":"I thought, she or he knew me better than"},{"startTime":470.094,"endTime":472.904,"body":"that. In what universe would they think I would like"},{"startTime":472.95799999999997,"endTime":475.864,"body":"this? It's hideous. Or, oh, I can't stand"},{"startTime":475.918,"endTime":478.604,"body":"that color. Or, oh, my gosh, it's not"},{"startTime":478.65799999999996,"endTime":481.00399999999996,"body":"me. 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No one ever picks me to be in their"},{"startTime":537.308,"endTime":539.912,"body":"group or class or project."},{"startTime":541.342,"endTime":544.122,"body":"And then I again remembered the skating rink."},{"startTime":544.702,"endTime":547.466,"body":"Every time couple skates would begin, I'd sit there"},{"startTime":547.504,"endTime":550.0120000000001,"body":"wishing someone would ask me to skate with them."},{"startTime":551.5020000000001,"endTime":554.264,"body":"Then the one or two times I, was asked, I said"},{"startTime":554.318,"endTime":557.128,"body":"no because of something I judged about them when I"},{"startTime":557.15,"endTime":559.764,"body":"didn't even know them, or some inherent"},{"startTime":559.828,"endTime":562.216,"body":"fear in me. But really, what I was"},{"startTime":562.254,"endTime":564.892,"body":"saying and thinking were in"},{"startTime":604.662,"endTime":607.1360000000001,"body":"opposition to each other. 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I'm willing to bet, too, that,"},{"startTime":631.7080000000001,"endTime":634.618,"body":"like me, you don't ask for help because it takes a"},{"startTime":634.6400000000001,"endTime":637.498,"body":"lot of energy to ask for help, and we can just"},{"startTime":637.5200000000001,"endTime":640.3140000000001,"body":"get things done quickly and effectively. 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None of these"},{"startTime":954.378,"endTime":956.8460000000001,"body":"definitions, aligned with the energy energetic"},{"startTime":956.8940000000001,"endTime":959.7320000000001,"body":"partner of the word giving."},{"startTime":960.7420000000001,"endTime":963.5540000000001,"body":"So I wanted to see just how many word variations"},{"startTime":963.618,"endTime":966.498,"body":"and associated definitions existed"},{"startTime":966.5300000000001,"endTime":969.5120000000001,"body":"for this word receive. And here's what I found"},{"startTime":970.522,"endTime":973.1220000000001,"body":"more icky. Feelings"},{"startTime":973.282,"endTime":975.6120000000001,"body":"and thoughts and beliefs and,"},{"startTime":975.7620000000001,"endTime":977.8520000000001,"body":"hidden attitude."},{"startTime":978.8320000000001,"endTime":981.6560000000001,"body":"A receivable. 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The act"},{"startTime":1034.178,"endTime":1037.116,"body":"or state of receiving money or goods. A piece of"},{"startTime":1037.154,"endTime":1040.096,"body":"paper which proves that money or goods have been"},{"startTime":1040.134,"endTime":1043.0720000000001,"body":"received, and a piece of paper that shows the price"},{"startTime":1043.142,"endTime":1046.016,"body":"of something that you have bought and proves that you"},{"startTime":1046.054,"endTime":1048.226,"body":"paid for it. felt"},{"startTime":1048.2740000000001,"endTime":1051.242,"body":"heavy, almost felt"},{"startTime":1051.8220000000001,"endTime":1053.002,"body":"resigned."},{"startTime":1054.3020000000001,"endTime":1056.332,"body":"Proving that I received something"},{"startTime":1057.742,"endTime":1060.534,"body":"that, again, did not feel like the loving partner"},{"startTime":1060.598,"endTime":1062.832,"body":"to the energy of giving,"},{"startTime":1064.162,"endTime":1066.432,"body":"paying attention to the cost and"},{"startTime":1067.122,"endTime":1069.486,"body":"what I paid for what I received. 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And what"},{"startTime":1195.18,"endTime":1198.1779999999999,"body":"if yours and my outer"},{"startTime":1198.21,"endTime":1200.426,"body":"signals consisted of not being open to"},{"startTime":1200.464,"endTime":1203.414,"body":"receiving? Like the times I dismissed compliments"},{"startTime":1203.478,"endTime":1206.314,"body":"or said no to receiving money because"},{"startTime":1206.368,"endTime":1208.812,"body":"I was just glad to be able to give"},{"startTime":1209.902,"endTime":1212.858,"body":"or saying yes to something those would"},{"startTime":1212.8799999999999,"endTime":1215.472,"body":"equate to sounds. Or that would."},{"startTime":1215.922,"endTime":1218.718,"body":"And the pictures could be having an image in our"},{"startTime":1218.74,"endTime":1221.5339999999999,"body":"minds of not receiving. Or it could be having"},{"startTime":1221.588,"endTime":1224.398,"body":"a picture in our minds or on our vision board of pining"},{"startTime":1224.43,"endTime":1227.314,"body":"for something that we wanted to receive but were"},{"startTime":1227.368,"endTime":1228.882,"body":"not yet receiving?"},{"startTime":1229.942,"endTime":1232.766,"body":"Ho. This opened"},{"startTime":1232.814,"endTime":1235.798,"body":"something up in my heart and soul. I bet you"},{"startTime":1235.82,"endTime":1238.4379999999999,"body":"can tell from my voice and the change in the"},{"startTime":1238.46,"endTime":1241.272,"body":"energy in my voice. Already"},{"startTime":1241.642,"endTime":1244.614,"body":"I was getting closer to connecting with"},{"startTime":1244.668,"endTime":1247.414,"body":"the energy of receiving. And"},{"startTime":1247.468,"endTime":1250.122,"body":"then I found the word receivership."},{"startTime":1252.462,"endTime":1255.446,"body":"It means a situation in which a company is controlled"},{"startTime":1255.494,"endTime":1257.932,"body":"by the receiver because it has no money,"},{"startTime":1258.862,"endTime":1261.5819999999999,"body":"or a situation in which a bankrupt company"},{"startTime":1261.652,"endTime":1264.446,"body":"is under the control of a receiver. My"},{"startTime":1264.484,"endTime":1267.358,"body":"heart fell. My shoulders shrugged even more and"},{"startTime":1267.3799999999999,"endTime":1270.254,"body":"got a little more tense. 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I had connected it"},{"startTime":1302.6879999999999,"endTime":1304.854,"body":"energetically to being controlled,"},{"startTime":1304.918,"endTime":1307.802,"body":"manipulated or indebted to"},{"startTime":1307.872,"endTime":1310.826,"body":"or by others, a person, organization or"},{"startTime":1310.944,"endTime":1313.446,"body":"circumstance. I could feel my throat"},{"startTime":1313.494,"endTime":1316.346,"body":"constricting, my chest tightening up. As"},{"startTime":1316.384,"endTime":1319.354,"body":"this truth surfaced from the hallows of my"},{"startTime":1319.408,"endTime":1321.766,"body":"gut. It felt"},{"startTime":1321.814,"endTime":1324.798,"body":"uncomfortable. I just sat"},{"startTime":1324.83,"endTime":1327.7939999999999,"body":"there, allowing the tears and the feels to"},{"startTime":1327.848,"endTime":1330.386,"body":"flow. I did not get"},{"startTime":1330.424,"endTime":1332.658,"body":"distracted so I would not feel the pain and"},{"startTime":1332.68,"endTime":1335.442,"body":"discomfort. I sat"},{"startTime":1337.062,"endTime":1339.862,"body":"one breath in and one breath out,"},{"startTime":1339.932,"endTime":1342.598,"body":"until suddenly I heard a voice say,"},{"startTime":1342.78,"endTime":1345.272,"body":"keep looking. And then"},{"startTime":1345.802,"endTime":1348.586,"body":"bam. I found this word"},{"startTime":1348.7839999999999,"endTime":1351.674,"body":"reception. It means"},{"startTime":1351.728,"endTime":1354.5539999999999,"body":"a formal party at which important people are"},{"startTime":1354.608,"endTime":1357.562,"body":"welcomed. It means a way"},{"startTime":1357.632,"endTime":1360.026,"body":"in which people react to something or"},{"startTime":1360.064,"endTime":1362.618,"body":"someone, and the act of welcoming"},{"startTime":1362.73,"endTime":1365.422,"body":"someone or something. Now"},{"startTime":1365.492,"endTime":1368.394,"body":"I knew I was onto something. My shoulders"},{"startTime":1368.458,"endTime":1371.322,"body":"started falling and relaxing."},{"startTime":1371.402,"endTime":1374.286,"body":"My chest and back straightened"},{"startTime":1374.334,"endTime":1377.086,"body":"up. My head and chin"},{"startTime":1377.134,"endTime":1379.898,"body":"were, up. My chin was parallel to the"},{"startTime":1379.92,"endTime":1382.346,"body":"ground. It still is. As I share this with"},{"startTime":1382.384,"endTime":1384.95,"body":"you. Now I knew I was"},{"startTime":1384.9759999999999,"endTime":1387.886,"body":"onto something. I arrived. The"},{"startTime":1387.924,"endTime":1390.286,"body":"act of welcoming someone or something. A"},{"startTime":1390.324,"endTime":1393.1979999999999,"body":"party receiving as a"},{"startTime":1393.22,"endTime":1395.774,"body":"people pleaser and giver is the act of"},{"startTime":1395.828,"endTime":1398.562,"body":"welcoming something or someone into"},{"startTime":1398.632,"endTime":1401.426,"body":"our lives. Receiving is"},{"startTime":1401.464,"endTime":1404.418,"body":"having a party in our minds, bodies, and"},{"startTime":1404.44,"endTime":1407.2939999999999,"body":"with our feelings in contemplation of receiving"},{"startTime":1407.358,"endTime":1410.348,"body":"something. Oh, this feel felt really"},{"startTime":1410.422,"endTime":1413.3799999999999,"body":"good and continues to feel good, and it's so"},{"startTime":1413.418,"endTime":1416.212,"body":"aligned. I did not have to"},{"startTime":1416.234,"endTime":1419.0919999999999,"body":"do affirmations every day of the ones that I"},{"startTime":1419.114,"endTime":1422.0439999999999,"body":"had been doing. I stopped visualizing"},{"startTime":1422.08,"endTime":1424.68,"body":"about receiving. And my body and mind and"},{"startTime":1424.718,"endTime":1427.396,"body":"soul experienced a deep shift,"},{"startTime":1427.556,"endTime":1430.216,"body":"a profound and simple shift."},{"startTime":1431.276,"endTime":1434.026,"body":"What if I simply welcomed and"},{"startTime":1434.9759999999999,"endTime":1437.676,"body":"celebrated receiving without attachment,"},{"startTime":1438.016,"endTime":1440.446,"body":"without anything to go with it,"},{"startTime":1442.176,"endTime":1443.806,"body":"without anything specific?"},{"startTime":1445.136,"endTime":1447.632,"body":"I said in that moment. Today, going forward, I"},{"startTime":1447.654,"endTime":1450.028,"body":"relish, welcome and celebrate"},{"startTime":1450.0919999999999,"endTime":1452.96,"body":"receiving. Today I"},{"startTime":1452.998,"endTime":1455.788,"body":"invite you to join me and relish,"},{"startTime":1455.8519999999999,"endTime":1458.176,"body":"welcome, and celebrate receiving."},{"startTime":1458.676,"endTime":1461.636,"body":"Don't put any specifics on it or any"},{"startTime":1461.706,"endTime":1464.532,"body":"specific thing you want to receive, because it"},{"startTime":1464.5539999999999,"endTime":1467.2359999999999,"body":"won't work effectively like it didn't for me"},{"startTime":1467.386,"endTime":1470.212,"body":"when I was putting specific things on"},{"startTime":1470.234,"endTime":1472.7459999999999,"body":"it, specific pictures and things."},{"startTime":1473.436,"endTime":1476.312,"body":"It won't work effectively until you embrace in your"},{"startTime":1476.334,"endTime":1479.288,"body":"body this feeling of receiving, this energy"},{"startTime":1479.3419999999999,"endTime":1482.142,"body":"of receiving. And, it is my hope and"},{"startTime":1482.164,"endTime":1485.122,"body":"desire that my process of sharing the definitions and"},{"startTime":1485.144,"endTime":1487.954,"body":"my process of going through this research"},{"startTime":1488.04,"endTime":1491.022,"body":"of the words and the energy of the words helps"},{"startTime":1491.0539999999999,"endTime":1493.646,"body":"you and guides you to arrive at welcoming."},{"startTime":1493.7259999999999,"endTime":1496.6299999999999,"body":"Receiving. Say this"},{"startTime":1496.668,"endTime":1498.87,"body":"with me. I welcome"},{"startTime":1498.988,"endTime":1501.058,"body":"receiving. I celebrate"},{"startTime":1501.122,"endTime":1503.926,"body":"receiving. Now, that's something"},{"startTime":1503.9959999999999,"endTime":1506.856,"body":"my mind can latch onto and believe"},{"startTime":1507.626,"endTime":1510.074,"body":"like I believe I welcome"},{"startTime":1510.16,"endTime":1512.71,"body":"receiving. I believe I celebrate"},{"startTime":1512.758,"endTime":1515.702,"body":"receiving. That I can do. There's no attachment"},{"startTime":1515.734,"endTime":1518.01,"body":"to anything. There's simply the presence of the"},{"startTime":1518.048,"endTime":1520.73,"body":"welcoming and celebrating of"},{"startTime":1520.768,"endTime":1521.626,"body":"receiving."},{"startTime":1523.506,"endTime":1526.446,"body":"There's no attachment. There's freedom."},{"startTime":1528.306,"endTime":1531.086,"body":"You don't have to physically do anything to celebrate either."},{"startTime":1531.156,"endTime":1534.142,"body":"But you can, if you desire, add a"},{"startTime":1534.164,"endTime":1537.038,"body":"daily ritual. My morning ritual"},{"startTime":1537.1019999999999,"endTime":1539.48,"body":"is to say, I welcome receiving. I celebrate"},{"startTime":1539.528,"endTime":1542.52,"body":"receiving as I drink my morning java"},{"startTime":1542.648,"endTime":1545.272,"body":"and when I lay in bed before I fall asleep, it's"},{"startTime":1545.3039999999999,"endTime":1548.16,"body":"simple. I say the same thing. I"},{"startTime":1548.1979999999999,"endTime":1550.896,"body":"welcome receiving. I celebrate receiving"},{"startTime":1551.956,"endTime":1554.8799999999999,"body":"and I know and trust that it's only for"},{"startTime":1554.918,"endTime":1557.056,"body":"my highest good and benevolence"},{"startTime":1557.396,"endTime":1560.24,"body":"from a place of benevolence. Whatever comes into"},{"startTime":1560.278,"endTime":1563.252,"body":"my life. Sometimes I do light my"},{"startTime":1563.274,"endTime":1566.068,"body":"candle and add it to my meditation time. You can do this"},{"startTime":1566.122,"endTime":1568.98,"body":"when walking or during your yoga practice or"},{"startTime":1569.018,"endTime":1571.5919999999999,"body":"whatever else it is that you do. This is a"},{"startTime":1571.614,"endTime":1574.5,"body":"mental, emotional and spiritual shifting"},{"startTime":1574.548,"endTime":1577.48,"body":"process. I"},{"startTime":1577.518,"endTime":1580.148,"body":"welcome receiving. I celebrate"},{"startTime":1580.212,"endTime":1583.176,"body":"receiving and I want you to know"},{"startTime":1583.2459999999999,"endTime":1585.706,"body":"I have a grin on my face. I have this smile m"},{"startTime":1586.9759999999999,"endTime":1589.932,"body":"this feel good smile on my face."},{"startTime":1590.114,"endTime":1591.886,"body":"Feels good, doesn't it?"},{"startTime":1593.856,"endTime":1596.312,"body":"I experienced a mental, emotional and"},{"startTime":1596.354,"endTime":1598.768,"body":"energetic shift and I'm sensing you are"},{"startTime":1598.822,"endTime":1601.12,"body":"too. So I invite you to"},{"startTime":1601.158,"endTime":1603.186,"body":"take one step."},{"startTime":1604.436,"endTime":1606.912,"body":"Just take this one step and welcome"},{"startTime":1607.094,"endTime":1610.088,"body":"receiving. Celebrate receiving"},{"startTime":1610.252,"endTime":1613.156,"body":"and be in reception of receiving."},{"startTime":1614.296,"endTime":1617.172,"body":"Let me know what happens in your life and what happens as a"},{"startTime":1617.194,"endTime":1619.888,"body":"result of you welcoming and celebrating"},{"startTime":1619.952,"endTime":1622.792,"body":"receiving. I want to hear from you. You"},{"startTime":1622.814,"endTime":1625.5439999999999,"body":"can catch me and find me on Dr. Dar. You"},{"startTime":1625.55,"endTime":1628.326,"body":"can find me on drdar.com m"},{"startTime":1628.556,"endTime":1630.426,"body":"at the contact page."},{"startTime":1631.436,"endTime":1634.072,"body":"You can find me in Facebook or messenger at"},{"startTime":1634.094,"endTime":1637.052,"body":"drdarhawks. You can"},{"startTime":1637.074,"endTime":1638.956,"body":"also find me on Whatsapp"},{"startTime":1640.096,"endTime":1642.716,"body":"through my Facebook page. Dr."},{"startTime":1642.786,"endTime":1645.6399999999999,"body":"Darhawks, I can't"},{"startTime":1645.6879999999999,"endTime":1648.5919999999999,"body":"wait to hear the results you're receiving and what"},{"startTime":1648.614,"endTime":1651.52,"body":"you're experiencing with this simple act of"},{"startTime":1651.558,"endTime":1653.756,"body":"welcoming and celebrating"},{"startTime":1653.916,"endTime":1654.9759999999999,"body":"receiving."}]}