If David Bowie was in a toxic relationship and was also really bad at making music, here's some lyrics and stuff. Is it cringy? Yep. But I don't really care.
You phantom, you lie
You runaway fire
You spin around our words into nothing, rehearsing your lines
Love isn’t weakness
Loyalty is not control
You can’t attack every ounce of empathy and then just move on alone
All the things you lack inside are not your fault
You’re only doing exactly what you were taught
It’ll never change
With someone “better”
You build up a wall
So you can never evolve
Convince yourself of what you think I think to justify it all
You’ll never have anything
You didn’t steal
The songs you sing, the books you read, opinions, none of this is real
All the things you’ve done were never your fault
Every time I tried to get away safe, I was caught
I’ll never be the same
I will be better
There were boundaries for me but never for you and the others. I only had one goal and that was to help you feel better. To make you okay.
Every lost eye lash, every birthday wish, held a hope that you would be okay. We both know I failed, and now I know exactly how that happened. I know what ails you. I didn’t understand why I couldn’t fix it. Your sickness.
I wanted you to join in making us better. You made an effort and it meant everything to me, but there was always this force pulling you away. You saw me as that force pushing, but it was never me. It will never be me. It will never be him. It’s in you. It is you.