Cartels, Witchcraft and Meth Psychosis | Kaylee’s Recovery Story

Kaylee shares how addiction pulled her into a world of cartel violence, ritualistic environments, and severe meth-induced psychosis. What started as early substance use turned into trauma, survival, and losing touch with reality. 

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Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Like if all the evil is real, if I really saw all this witchcraft, if all this dark stuff really happened to me, the good has to be real too.

SPEAKER_00 0:12

This is Hard Knox Talks. Kaylee, welcome to the podcast.

SPEAKER_01 0:16

Thanks for inviting me.

SPEAKER_00 0:18

Yeah, of course. And uh thanks for taking the time. And uh yeah, I just want to acknowledge the the freaking tech nightmare that we just tried to get through. And this is how it goes. As creators, man, sometimes it just be like that. So yeah, we're I bet you we're both kind of like still trying to regulate from that. And like, okay, now it's time to focus into telling our story or telling Kaylee's story. So so yeah, having said all that, um, let's jump into it then. Um, where where did substances get started in your life?

SPEAKER_01 0:48

So, from the time of about 11 years old is where it got started. I was born in Massachusetts, raised there until I was about 11 or 12. Um, I was kind of a miracle baby. My mom had cancer when she was pregnant with me. They told my mom that if she did not um basically like abort the baby, that either she was gonna die or I was gonna die. And my mom was like, Nope, I'm having my baby. And so um, I actually was stuck in her womb for like three days. Uh, my head was like purple completely around when I came out. They had to call the doctor to do an emergency C-section. And it's crazy because the doctor that delivered me, my dad said he could smell alcohol on the doctor's breath. Like he reeked of alcohol. Yeah, after that, my mom couldn't have any more kids. She had to have a full hysterectomy at like the age of 22. So I was an only child. Um, she dealt with severe sickness, like she was always in bed. And then at the age of like nine or 10, my dad used to be a robotics engineer, and he broke his back at work. Like he herniated multiple discs in his spine, multiple discs in his neck. Actually, every single disc in his neck was herniated. And so he went from being like the sole person in my life that was able to do physical stuff with me to bed ridden as well. So by the at the age of like 10 or 11, um, I was basically on my own, even though both parents were in the house. Addiction ran rampant in both sides of my bloodline. So it was just like I had an aunt that was my mom's little sister. She was closer to me in age, really, than my mom. And she would come pick me up and just like try to get me out of there. But she was in a really promiscuous lifestyle. You know, she was stripping, and um, she actually introduced me to uh marijuana for the first time at the age of 11. And when I took that first hit and the head change came, I was like, oh my God, this is what I've been looking for. Like, I don't want to go a day without feeling like this, you know? Um, so yep, by the way at the age of 11, I was hooked. Um, and I started doing anything and everything to leave, to be with my aunt, you know, started running around with way older guys, started getting uh messed up with the wrong crowd at school. And one time my mom searched my room, she found like a bunch of liquor bottles and seeds and any kind of contraption you can make, like out of water bottles and tin foil to basically smoke marijuana. They found it. And I was busted red-handed, like anything and everything that could be found, she found it. And they were like, you have an option. You can either go live with your grandparents in Florida, my mom's parents, or you can go live with your dad's parents in Texas. I had already been on vacation with some of my cousins in Texas, like recently over the summer, and it was a lot more fun to me just because of like the gangbanging lifestyle, the rap music. Like, I got to experience inner city Austin the year before. And I was like, I I choose Texas because I already, at that point in time, like I was already on that path of just trying to get high and do whatever I could. And I thought that the drugs would be more easily accessible in Texas, and it just so happened that one of my cousins' husbands was the plug. So they moved me to Texas and she lived next door, so it was just like I could get so much more for way cheaper. And the neighborhood they moved me to was a really like impoverished Hispanic, Latino-Mexican neighborhood, so full of gangs. Everybody was like, I don't know what it is about the I'm half white, half Mexican, but the Latino culture, like when the girls turn 15 years old, the quinceanetas that they have, they're basically considered like a woman, you know, in that culture. So I started getting involved with all the wrong people in that neighborhood. Jake dating, you know, like the plugs, the the drug dealers of the neighborhood, the gangbangers, like they all had guns, they all carried bandanas, like, and my parents and my grandma didn't even want to let me out of the house. So then I started sneaking out, running away. It got to the point where I would just walk out the front door. So at the age of 16, I remember one night I got really barred out on Sanix with one of my boyfriends at the time. He was much older. Um, and he dropped me off at home and I wanted to leave again. And my mom was like, You're not leaving. So it turned into like a big fight. The cops got called, they arrested me, and I guess I had blacked out and I had grabbed like a butcher knife, and I was like saying that like I was gonna hurt myself, or you know, I cut some stuff up, like the wall, her sheets. I didn't hurt anybody. But in the state of Texas, if you have a weapon on you and you make a threat, it's considered aggravated assault with a deadly weapon. So when I woke up the next morning, I um I'm in booking and the sheriff is telling me, Do you remember what you did last night? And I was like, No, he pulls out this evidence bag. It's like a brown paper bag, and it's like two massive butcher knives. And he's like, You're going to jail. This is this is a felony charge. And and I did my first two years in a Texas youth prison at the age of 16. Everybody, I remember the girl in the cell next to me was there for unaliving her mom because the mom would put her in a room with men. She was an immigrant and let the men basically have their way with her for money. This was a 12-year-old little girl. And then the other one was in the cell next to me for like ag robbery, basically, where they held up this store in Houston and a bunch of people got unalived in the process. And I'm I'm here for cutting sheets. But it actually, you know, made me worse because I started to associate with a lot worse people and stuff like that. So by the time I got out, I I wasn't trying to like get right. I was trying to like pick up where every other teenager left leaves off. So yeah, I actually got out and I met a guy. I had my oldest son right at the age of 20. I started doing okay for a little bit, but I was still like popping pills, smoking weed every day, um, and going to college. I got pregnant with my first son, had him. Um, CPS came in the picture because of my addiction, you know, and he went with my aunt. I'm grateful that my two older kids didn't go through the addiction with me. Like, you know, some kids have to go with their parents through it. The Lord really stepped in at a very early age with my oldest son, and he was with my mom and my parents, so he didn't wasn't subjected to that stuff. But I started hanging around with a lot of like heavy-hitting gangbangers at this time. I'm talking about like prison gangs, like, you know, in Texas, we have like Aryan Brotherhood, Aryan Circle, Mexican Mafia, Texas Syndicate, Angoblas. Like, I started really hanging out with a lot of like heavy hitters. Two years later, I had my daughter. Um, and at that point in time, I remember pregnant with my daughter. I had a friend come to visit from Dallas that I met in TYC, and she brought heroin with her. I was doing a little bit of meth on and off in the situation. My parents went to Florida, they left me here in Texas. I was fighting to get my son back. He stayed with my aunt, so it was like I couldn't really leave. So I was dealing with a lot of just like brokenness behind like not having my my parents here anymore. And my aunt had my son, so I couldn't even go live with her, you know, while I was doing the CPS stuff. So I met a guy, got pregnant with my daughter.

SPEAKER_00 8:03

And what was your plan? Like, did you have a plan to like straighten your life out when you got your son back, or was your intention just to bring your son into the life you were living?

SPEAKER_01 8:12

So deep down in my heart, like I wanted my son, but I also wanted drugs. You know what I mean? Like it was a hole within me and honestly a demonic spirit attached to me where like I couldn't go without it. So yes, I wanted to at the same time, but I believe that it didn't happen because like things would keep happening. I went to like inpatient treatment, I mean outpatient treatment while I was going through the CPS stuff to get him back, but I was seeing a psychiatrist at the same time, and the psychiatrist was prescribing me like Ritalin, uh colanopin, and I was like in and out of the hospital with a pancreatic disorder. So they were giving me pain pills. So I was looking for a way to be able to use legally and still get him back because if you have a prescription, you know, like they it's it's technically not illegal drugs because there's a prescription for it, but that just kind of backfired in my face, you know. It was just like not having a vehicle, all these things. And it was really the Lord protecting my son because I would have brought him with me, probably through some sketchy stuff, you know. Um, and so my daughter ends up being born at this point in time. My friend comes right before I'm about to have my daughter, she brings heroin and like I'm hooked, right? Because this is like way better than pain pills. She goes back to Dallas a couple weeks later, and I'm strung out, and uh now I'm about to go through withdrawals. So I'm at a friend's house one day. I heard that meth would help with the withdrawals. I'm at a friend's house one day, we're doing meth, and I can smell something in the house. And I'm like, what is that smell, dude? And he was like, That's my mom. Um, you know, she does chiva. Like, so she was cooking the heroin. And I was like, Oh, can I talk to her? She introduced me to that, and at the same time, she was like, Yep, here you go. I want to make sure you can stay clean. So she gives me a pack of rigs, and I'm like, I don't use these. We were just snorting it. Like, truthfully, I wasn't. And she's like, You don't have to lie. And so she actually ends up doing it to me while I'm pregnant with my daughter, and it was like instant hook line sinker. Like, I'm hooked. Um, so my daughter ends up being born, and I have a really bad heroin addiction, and I'm doing meth kind of at the same time. It's by the grace of God, like um, she didn't have like she stayed in the NICU for about a month, like a week. The doctor was like, Nope, she's good. Um, like I ended up getting locked up for a warrant that I had when I was three, like she was about three months old. And I was just so anxious to get out of jail. I took five years probation. And um I knew that I had to stay clean. I went through horrible heroin withdrawals. And when I finally kicked it, I was like, I'm done. I'm not going back to that for now. Um, but I need to find something I can do that's gonna come out of my system in a couple days. I remember I had met a girl in jail years back that did um ice, and so I I see her at a gas station like a week after being out, and she's like, Yeah, come over here. I had no idea what I was getting myself into, and here's where it's about to start to get really dark. So I go to this um trap house, and this is essentially like a cartel trap house where they are. There's like prison gangs, a couple guys from different prison gangs, and they're selling like a lot of cartel dope out of this big trap house. And at the same time, they're also um like worshipping idols. Like in one room, there was an altar to the Santa Muerte, which is in Spanish, it means the saint of death. Um, and they believe like it's it's big in narco culture. They believe, like, if you pray to this, if you give offerings to this, that it'll basically protect you or help you to get away with bad stuff. But then in another room, there was another guy, he had an altar to this like African horned god, where there's a lot of African witchcraft that has been, you know, passed down and perverted. And um, there's like, you know, Santeria, Santa Muerte, Palomayombe. There's a lot of really dark witchcraft out there. A couple days before that, these guys were robbed by um some white guys for a lot of dope, like a lot of cartel dope. They asked me if I knew the guys that did that to them. I knew a friend that knew one of the guys, but it wasn't like I was friends with him. Like, and so they start thinking that I'm working for those white guys, and that so here I am in this little quia sol with these like four, six-foot Mexican guys on every side of me, and I'm in the little bump seat in the middle of this Key of Sol, like driving around trying to find these guys, like this wild goose chase. We don't find them. We get back to the house. Um, and as soon as we walk in the door, they grab me, they tie me up. Um, and that room I had told you before that had that African horn god in it, everything was removed out of that room. From floor to ceiling were the painter's cloths, like the plastic cloths taped from the floor to the ceiling. The carpet was covered, and there was just one chair in the middle of the room, a table set up, um, you know, with weapons on it, a computer, like a laptop, um, and some guys in there. And so they tie me up, um, they zip tape me to the zip tie me to the chair, they duct tape my mouth, um, and they cut all my clothes off. And then um they call the girl in um that I had known before, and um, she's all masked up, and she just starts like hitting me and hitting me and hitting me while I'm taped to this chair, so I can't even really defend myself because I'm tied to a chair. They want answers. They're basically trying to get out of me that I know these guys, and they're wanting me to reveal my whole like diabolical agenda, but there was none, you know. It was really like one of those situations like your life flashing before your eyes. They're showing me pictures of my kids. They went through my phone, they were like, I know where your daughter's at, I know where your son's at. If you don't tell us, like we're gonna unalive your children, and they they kept me up, they kept me in there tied up with the music blasting for like another day. And then they came back in and they were like, dang, like we're sorry, but we're gonna let you go, but you can't leave. Like my face was entirely black and blue. So if I left, somebody was gonna know what they did to me, you know. But it was really also like the demonic stuff involved with it. This, those demonic spirits having access to that home, like I was literally about to become the sacrifice in that place that night, knowingly or unbeknowingly to them. Like the blood of an innocent is so powerful in the demonic realm. Yeah, they ended up letting me go, and there's like saucing me up, like trying to make me feel like one of them and a friend, and apologizing and like really bringing me into just some stuff. And I would like to say that was the turning point for me that really scared me to get my life together, but it wasn't. Like, my I I became like so traumatized by all that that my mantra kind of became like if you fear the boogeyman, you become the boogeyman. Like I wanted to become harder, tougher, more violent. Like, you know, I was starting to become like them. And I've demons love trauma, so I really feel like that deep root of trauma being opened up in my life just caused so many more open doors for these different spirits to enter me and attack me. Um, like my qualifications of a person I wanted to date or be in a relationship with was somebody that had, you know, H sidal tendencies because at least they can protect me if something comes for me again. You know what I mean? Like things started to get really weird. Like I would go home to my parents' house and I would hear voices. And because of what I went through, like I thought that they were following me and messing with me. At the time, I really didn't contribute contribute it to like supernatural stuff. I thought it was the people messing with me, but it was really like void demonic voices I was hearing. And also, like my dad, he found Jesus and he became a pastor. And my dad would try to warn me, like, it's spiritual warfare. You've opened up the door to the demonic, like there's all this stuff going on around you. Um, I remember one night at my mom's house, I had the window open because I believed there was a bunch of voices I was hearing, and I believed that those some of those people had come to my house and they were trying to get me to go into the woods to meet with the cartel boss. Um, and I was just like, she comes in my room, she's like, Who you talking to? And I'm like, oh nobody, just talking to myself. But I have my window open and I'm talking to nobody outside the window, and they're telling me to meet them in the woods, and there was this like old dilapidated trailer that had fallen apart. And I literally get all dressed up like I'm going to the club, like heels, a tiny shirt, shorts. And I live in Texas. I'm talking about scorpions, poisonous spiders, poisonous snakes, all A, B, C, D, all of it. I walk into the woods like nobody's business, no fear on this like ice-induced um like trip, and I'm out there having a conversation with demons in the middle of this, a dilapidated house in the middle of the woods. I literally was thinking I had a full-blown conversation with these people. Um, I came home and I was just like covered in bites from head to toe from walking out there and doing all this. Um, that was just one of the things. So, you know, later on, I dealt with a lot of gang stalking after that, like because of all the people I was mixed up with. Word travels quick in the meth world. You know what I mean? Um, and so I actually I remember one night I was on this hotel, like probably the dirtiest, little cheapest hotel in the south side of Austin. Um, it's called Motel 71. And I call my friend to come get me. Um, he comes in, he comes, and he was also a big plug at the time, and he passes out on the bed in the hotel room. He falls asleep, and he's like, um, he he he falls asleep, but I can hear something talking. And I'm like, what the heck is this? Like, is this dude trying to set me up? Like, I'm thinking he's either trying to set me up with the laws, trying to set me up with these people, something sketchy. So I wake him up and I'm like, dude, you gotta get gotta go. Like, there's something sketchy going on, like you gotta get out of here. And we go to his truck for something to talk. He was giving me something and whenever, and I had everything in my backpack, right? Like, nice and neat in my backpack. When I go back upstairs to the room, nobody's in this room, but everything is taken out of my backpack, thrown all over the room. And I'm like, what the heck? It couldn't have been him. He was there with me the entire time. I was gone. You know what I mean? So I'm thinking maybe the cartel has this place, this hotel on the payroll, and he's paying, they're paying them to mess with me. And I booked it out of that hotel room, down a main highway in Austin, like 35 and 71, connect to each other, and it's three o'clock in the morning, pitch black outside. And I was trying to get anywhere where there was lights and people rather than going back there, right? I didn't even have a phone on me at that time, and I end up spending like almost like three hours walking around um Austin, and this little red truck keeps following me around and following me around, and this is some of the gang stalking stuff I'm dealing with. Finally, this guy, after like the fifth time of like following me around, like he stops and he's like, Hey, you need a ride, blah, blah, blah. And I'm like, Yeah, sure. Um, and he's this old school like biker dude, right? And in Austin, like the Texas area, like there's bikers are a big and there's a certain biker gang that's really prominent in the area. Um, and I I could just tell that this was what that dude was, and they're known for being like ruthless. So I was sketched out, like, but he ends up like taking me and like to where I need to go, and he's like, Yeah, we can meet up another time, but I ended up blocking his number, and so I go to another hotel on the south side to go meet up with a friend. And so while I'm standing outside waiting for his ride to come, here comes that guy in that little red truck, and he pulls up and he's like, Hey, yeah, I told you um I was gonna because he was telling me, like, I'm gonna cook a big batch, I'm gonna have a huge batch, we can party, we can chill, but he was also trying to like psych me out at the same time. And he's like, Yeah, I told you I wanted to party. He has this briefcase, like this old school looking brown business briefcase. He pops that sucker open, and I'm talking about there was more shards there than I've ever seen in my entire life. And I and I've seen a lot of dope before, and I'm like super sketched out. Like, number one, how did you find me? How did you know that I'm here? And you're showing all this to a complete stranger when you've really only met me one time before. So it's like, I was like, yeah, thanks, but I gotta go. But that kind of gang stalking stuff where you go into a restaurant, and in the restaurant, all the people in the restaurant are sitting there, like kind of like talking, laughing when you walk in, and they're making sure that in their conversation, they're referencing the person you wronged. Um, I went through crazy stuff like that to the point where I was always so sketched out, I would turn my GPS off. My phones were always hacked. People were hacking my phone. Like, I still to this day, I never use Android again because of how bad of experiences I had back then in Android, you know. So a little bit after that, end up catching a charge. I was with an ex of mine, and it was only supposed to be like test driving this car. So um, we were gonna meet this guy to test drive his vehicle. If they give you the keys, it's just a very low felony if you ever get caught with it. Um, and so I told my ex, he ends up getting in a fight with the guy, pushing the guy, like telling the guy get out the car, fighting the guy, wrestling the guy under the ground. And drives away with me in the car. We run out of gas like we run out of gas like three miles down the road. And sure enough, like we're swarmed by cops. And so now this is the Lord catching the cunning and their craftiness, because here I am, like trying to be smart and not get this huge felony. We both get arrested, and I'm looking at five to 99 years in the penitentiary. And um, I am immediately from being in jail, I come up with enough money to bond out just from calling in favors, people that owed me money. Um, there was another cartel boss from a different cartel that I had gotten involved with, and he also was into the Santa Muerte stuff, and he would brag about the women and the children he unalived in Mexico. It was just really sick. So I he actually you would think I would steer far clear from that guy, but I knew that he would give me what I wanted and I needed some money to get out. And so we paid for a lawyer, him and some other people. And part of my stipulations of being out was having to be on an ankle monitor. I knew that I was not going to be able to be successful on an ankle monitor at my parents' house because of my addiction. I would eventually leave to go get something, you know, or get so tripped out one night. I used to like see shadows in the room, and I used to like I remember taking a shower. And um, like I was telling Shannon about this. You also had Shannon on the show, and we called like the meth game like the like the demonic circus. I remember one night I was taking a shower, and in the stainless steel of the faucet, I was seeing like demonic acrobats, like in all black, no eye holes, no mouth holes, um, like claws on their fingers, like doing all these like contorted flips and stuff like that. And I would tell my parents, I would freak out, and they're like, Oh God, you're on it again and you're paranoid again, or you used a whole bottle of soap to wash all the bugs off you because I was always picking and scratching, you know what I mean? One thing that I did find out later is like brujeria witchcraft, um, like Hispanic witchcraft for witchcraft in general, it feels like like the demonic frequencies that are attached to that witchcraft feels like something's crawling all over you. It feels like little things are biting you. It's a horrible feeling. And later on, when I fully started to walk into the witchcraft stuff, and I'm I'm about to get to that point. Um, and and if you've ever heard of people picking before and like they call it methmites, have you ever heard of that before?

SPEAKER_00 24:30

Oh, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 24:31

Yep. So, like I would literally use a whole bottle of soap. I would get to my parents' house from whatever trap house I was at. I would take all my clothes, my shoes off, and throw them all in the dryer and turn the dryer on, thinking the heat would chill anything on me. My mom's like, what is that? Is that shoes in my dryer? You know, like it was like I was so extra with that because I didn't want to bring any of that into my parents' house. But like, little did I know it was really like the witchcraft that was attached to me as well. And also when they make this dope, like they put witchcraft on it. They, you know, the people that that make it, they call like alchemists and sorcerers in with the cartel. Like a lot of it is occult stuff that happens while they're they're doing this. I forget the guy, but there was an a story exposed um in Mexico of um a cartel occultist who was basically involved in like 20 unalivings through like rituals. Um, and he was like, he had a lot of the police and everything on his payroll, and they were getting away with it. And it's like a lot of the drugs that were coming up from this guy, you know, they were doing all this witchcraft and brujeria on the drugs that were coming up. Um, but so I end up, you know, knowing I need to be on an ankle, I need to find an address where I'm able to, you know, do drugs at this address. And that guy, the one I told you about, the boss that essay'd me, he was like, Yeah, you can stay here, sure. Yeah, I'm like, no freaking way. Um, and then like I had some other people, but I remember I had a homeboy that owned a lot of property. And in the back in the day, like I had gone out there and stuff before, and I had heard rumors, um, you know, that the cartel lived on that property and stuff like that. Um, but you know, people talk and there's always rumors and stuff like that. And I'm like, at this time I'm decent, I'm desensitized to that kind of stuff because of how much I've been through. I'm like, whatever. And little did I know, I was about to go down probably one of the darkest paths that I've ever been on my life and get involved in some of the scariest, creepiest, evilest, most disgusting witchcraft known to men. There was actually like underground tunnels there on this property. There was, um, they owned not just that one house, but all the properties on that side of the street. Um, meth labs under the ground, like cameras everywhere. And um, like I'm still hearing all the voices at this time, too. It was almost like a commentary of my life. Like you're watching a movie and you hear a commentary of the movie, I'm hearing a commentary of my life, like my day-to-day life. And it's just like horrible stuff that I'm hearing, multiple different voices. The people that were there and that I would encounter there, I would actually hear their voices in my head and when nobody else was around. And so I start like cutting holes in the walls and in the windowsills and looking for speakers because like I'm hearing these voices and nobody is really there. They would do um rituals over this property, like they had this building where it was like this long ladder that would go up like way over the house, which is kind of crazy when you think about it. And they would stand up on that top ladder and they would do like rituals to keep the property shrouded, you know, because there's like different spells and stuff that you can do to like make it shrouded, to make to where people don't pay any attention to it, because this house was like the literally the first house, the first stop that the cartel would make to like the first drop point from Mexico in the US, um, as they're getting ready to do their drops all over the country. That was the first major stop. There was so many exit, like exits in that home, like there were different escape routes in the closets and the restrooms where you could just drop down under the house and go into a tunnel and just like even the whole attic was gutted out. So many hidden places. Like you would go look on the cameras outside, and you would see like a person here, a person here, a person here. If you start to see hear a car coming on the camera, you go back, look, everybody's disappeared. Like, where the heck is everybody going? Like, so the guy I started dating, I knew he participated in black magic, but I didn't know how deep he was into it. So one night he calls me and he tells me that just got pulled over by the cops. He was actually running from some murder charges at the time. And I'm like, you know, how does everybody else get away with like making money, not going to jail? It seems like I'm always going into jail, not realizing that it was the Lord really trying to save my life, and who knows how many times he saved me. But um, you know, I'm thinking maybe I need to try this. Maybe that's why they're getting away with this kind of stuff because I'm praying to the wrong thing. Maybe since I'm trying to do dark things, like I need to try praying to this dark stuff. And so I remember I said a prayer to the Santa Muerte that I told you about, and I was like, um, if you protect him, like I'll pray to you. Like if he doesn't go to jail, I'll pray to you. And I told him that night, I was like, I prayed to the Santa Muerte and I asked if it protected you that you know you wouldn't go to jail. And I didn't really know much about this thing at all. And he was like, Okay, well, you know what you got to do now, you have to get a statue. Like, that's part of that that religion, or that that um, you know, yeah, like it's a religion, it's part of that religion. Like, if you ask it for something, you have to get a statue. Like, I've seen six, seven, eight foot tall statues of that thing, a whole entire room covered in statues of that thing, candles. You have to light a candle for everything, for protection, for money, whatever you want. For, you know, like there's you're constantly lighting candles in that religion, and there's witchcraft on the candles and stuff like that. So he brings a statue over to that house, and I like am starting to light some other candles. Um, my uncle ends up coming over one night, and he's like, Kaylee, what the heck are you doing? There was a candle, and it's like a candle to the holy death or whatever, like that. He's like, What are you doing? He gives me these binoculars, and it was weird because like he sits on the end of my bed and he flips the binoculars around backwards. And I look at the altar that has the statues and stuff to the Santa Muerte and the candles, and one of the candles um actually had like a little demon hugging the candle. I do understand like the veil gets lifted when you're involved in meth and you invoke all these different things. Never mind the witchcraft I was participating in. Um, but just like you come in through the back door, like an illegal door. I don't know if the backwards way of seeing symbolized something or if there was actually witchcraft on the binoculars. But I saw this little demon, he looked like all cartilage, I didn't see any bones in him. He had little tiny horns, but they were not like skinny and pointy, they were kind of like solid, and the big bulging eyes, a little tail, it was almost like an imp. That's probably the way that I would categorize it. And it was just looking at me through the binoculars. And you'd think that that would have kind of freaked me out enough to get away with it, but again, I was so desensitized to it. I was like, okay. So the guy that owned the property really started to not like me. And the the guy that I'm dating, I know he's a maid man, I know he's a hit man, I know he's a warlock. One day he comes in and he tells me, Um, the the boss wants me to take you out. He thinks you know too much, you're a liability. He was like, I told him that I would, I took the drugs, but I'm not gonna do it. He shows me this big old bag of drugs. So they hook, they put a hit out on me. And so basically he's playing both sides. He's sleeping with me and he's taking the drugs from them, doing the drugs with me, but really at the same time, he's plotting of how to take me out. The next day he comes with all of this stuff to add to the altar, and he's like, Yeah, this is for good luck, this is for prosperity, this is for this, this, and that. Like, I need you to get A, B, and C, like an article, like uh a necklace of yours, all these miscellaneous items. So here I am laying my own articles on an altar for a death curse to be done on me. But he has misled me because I really don't know much about it to believe that um, you know, it's going to bring prosperity and success and good luck and all this stuff to my life. So I'm willingly laying my own articles on this own altar. I wake up, we so we go to bed that night. I wake up because I've been up for multiple days, and when I wake up, I feel this like cloud, this shroud over the place. It feels like there's a fog in there, and it was this like this weird kind of calming, relaxing, foggy vibe. All around me, there's little bags of dope everywhere, all over the room. The there's the statue, is it's actually on the bed right at my feet. There was a light bulb on a fixture in the room, like the pole, no lampshade or anything on it. And the lampshade um fell down and it almost caught my bed on fire. When I woke up, it was had to be God that saved me because there was this huge burn hole in the mattress um that could have, you know, killed me, you know. But anyways, the next day I needed to go to the hospital, needed to get a doctor's note because I left. I was on an ankle monitor. Um, they give me a bunch of medication in the hospital that knocks me out because I told you about that pancreatic problem I had. I had to give them an excuse for why I needed to be there. The guy, the warlock, comes to pick me up. He's like, here, babe, I got you a brownie. Um, I know you're probably hungry. I wolf down that whole brownie because I'm starving. I've been up for three days. It's chocolate. Um, and I think this tastes kind of weird, but maybe it's just because it's a gas station brownie. Next day I wake up, my toes are locking up, my fingers are locking up, and I'm like, well, what is going on? Because it's hurting really bad. I don't remember what they gave me in the hospital. So I started to think that it was an allergic reaction to the medication that they gave me. But I get up, I go to the restroom, and then I start asphyxiating. Like, and all I can think is to like call on Jesus, like, Jesus, help me. And he's kind of like smiling in the background. And he's like, Are you okay? Do I need to take you back to the hospital? But kind of like low-key smiling at the same time. I was crying out to Jesus inside me, and then my air would come back. And then five minutes later, it would happen again. I finally like again cried out to Jesus within me, and then I would get my air back again. I had to go report that day. So he's taking me to go report. He shows up in this stolen car, it's all beat up and everything because he's planning on me unaliving and then dropping my body off in this stolen car or somewhere, and you know, nobody knowing what happened to me. But by the grace of God, after asphyxiating like three or four times, um, I didn't end up, you know, being unalived. And at that point in time, they told me, like, you just gotta get out of here. You know too much. So I end up going to my grandma's house. My dad comes and picks me up. The guy tells me, you gotta take all these statues with you, all these candles, all this stuff with you, or something bad's gonna happen. My pastor dad gets there to pick me up. He's like, Come on, let's go. I'm like, Dad, I just need you to know I believe in some different stuff now. I respect you, but I don't want to disrespect your house by bringing this stuff with me. And he's like, What are you talking about? You sound crazy. Show me. And I take him to the backyard, I show him all the demonic paraphernalia, and he was like, Oh, the Lord showed me a vision of this a couple years ago. Hold on, I'll be right back. My dad goes, pops trunk to the car, gets a hammer, and he's just like, boom, boom, boom, boom. He just starts destroying all that demonic paraphernalia. A couple days later, the marshals run up out of me on me out of nowhere, right? Like, I don't know how that they know where I am, but they they find me. I go to jail. And um it's like an eye-opening moment because even after that, like I'm sitting in the courtroom. Um, and I the glasses that I had with me, the guys from that house are watching me in the reflection of the sunglasses. Like I'm hearing their voices while I'm in the courtroom. Like I was to the point where I was just done, you know, like everybody had turned on me, everybody that I thought was my friend, everybody that I thought that I could run, and you know, that I would have probably given my life for loyalty-wise, because of the family ties and stuff that I didn't have. I was really loyal to these people that were really utterly against me. And God really had to let me hit rock bottom in a way that like I didn't want anything to do with these people anymore. I thought when I sobered up in County that my the voices would go away, but they didn't. They actually started to get louder and worse, and I was so afraid. Like my cell sober was like a construction zone. My bed would shake up underneath me all night. I'm hearing voices, my toilet all night boom, boom, boom from the inside of my cell. Even the girl next to me, she's like, Okay, what the heck is going on in there? It feels like it sounds like they're doing construction in your cell. And I'm like, it's spiritual warfare. So I start to get into my Bible. Um, I start to call my dad and talk to him about the stuff that I'm going through. And the darkness really opened up my heart to believe, like, if all the evil is real, if I really saw all this witchcraft, if all this dark stuff really happened to me, the good has to be real too. Because how can all the stuff about the devil be real, but not all the stuff about Jesus and God? And so I just got hungry and thirsty for truth. And the Bible says, like, blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they'll be filled. And I just before when I was in jail, I would call some of my old friends from the world, and you know, I still kept some contacts. This time I was like, I'm done. I'm giving it all up. I surrender it all. Like I haven't been able to be there for my kids, I haven't been able to like, you know, be successful, like I've wasted so much of my life.

SPEAKER_00 38:35

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SPEAKER_01 40:25

I start doing prayers, uh prayer circles and Bible studies, and the Lord starts to change my heart. And um, this book came to me by Katie Sousa, The Key to the Expected End. I don't know if you know who she is, but she's big on YouTube. Um, she's a minister, but she found the Lord in prison, and the Lord actually helped her write a book for prisoners because a lot of the people in the Bible were captives too. Like they had their own form of captivity, but back then it would be other nations that took God's children into captivity. Nowadays, he uses the judicial system to really sit us down, you know, to help us get it. But her her story was crazy. Like she was a dope cook, big biker chick, like not afraid of any of these guys. They tried to hotshot her, they get cut her master chain chain on her bike and all this stuff. Um, but she it took the Lord sitting her down for her to find it. But when I read that testimony, that's why I say that like a testimony in a story is so powerful because me reading her story opened up my heart to believe, wow, this girl's like me. And if God can do it for her, he can do it for me. And so it was like a six-month uh process of deliverance for the voices to finally stop, you know, because the Lord didn't take them away from me right away. Um He didn't take them away from me right away, like it was a process that kept me humble. Sometimes I would go in my room and just pull the covers over my head and cry. If it wasn't for my, we had like the portable radios that you could buy on commissary that I could listen to Christian, like the Christian station, that was like the only thing that helped me to drown out the voices. You know what I mean? Um, but I just got so hungry for the Lord and I went on like a year and a half long mountaintop journey of this holy cocoon that he had me in. And I was actually afraid when it was time to get out that the Lord would like that I would go back to the same home with my mom and my dad and be tempted to take some of their medication or the same people from the same environment. I wanted nothing to do with it. I wanted to go to an entirely new city, but it just so happened that my plans for that other city fell through and I had to go home. But little did I know when I got out, the desire was gone. I mean, gone. Like I had no desire to use anymore. I had no desire to rob, steal, cheat, lie. Like it was gone. Like I finally wanted to get my life on track, and God blessed me with my children back in my life. My oldest son is 14 now and an amazing athlete. He's also blessed me with two new children. I have a five-year-old and a three-year-old that's really helped me like get those baby years back with my little ones that I've missed. Like, I'm a licensed, ordained minister, prophet. Like, I do um Christian mentoring and coaching, you know, addiction counseling, whatever it is that the person needs when I meet with them, I can relate because I've been through so much of it. Um, and my mom ended up passing a year later after I got out, but she really got to see me um turn my life around for the good and show up and be able to help take care of her and stuff like that. And still to this day, like my dad, he even lives with us. Like after my mom passed, I'm an only child. They were married my whole life, but I'm able to give back now. The Lord blessed me with an amazing position in a corporate sales company that literally shouldn't have hired me because of everything or what man would say would disqualify me, it actually didn't apply to me because the Lord just gave me so much favor and I've excelled in this. This realm of business in a way that I never knew that I could before. And I'm just a new person. The Bible says that that the old is gone and the new has come. Like the old me died, like literally. But it took everything going wrong around me and the darkest witchcraft coming on me for me to really believe and open up my heart. Right.

SPEAKER_00 44:25

So do you do you still have eyes for for that?

SPEAKER_01 44:29

Like, do you see it in the world around you when you're when you're walking down the street or you're you you you pick up a sales call and like so things like that when people carry demonic spirits, like I can tell, you know, the Lord is and I really sense that the enemy was trying to pervert the prophetic gifting on my life now, like to be able to see into the spirit realm and stuff like that for darkness. Um, because I absolutely can now. I just am not afraid anymore because I know I carry the authority. Like I immediately went into prayer and started using my authority, but it's just not the same anymore because before I was so afraid because I didn't know how to fight what I couldn't see. Now I do. And I really believe that the Lord allows the enemy to train us for his own essential demise in the end. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_00 45:19

I've said that um recently I was in meditation and thinking, and and it came to me that like you know what it it it took the devil to lead me to God. You know, and I straight up and I and I don't I don't proclaim to be Christian, uh, I don't proclaim to I I I'm still figuring that out, you know. Like I walk in a good way, I know that much, you know, and I do my best there. So but but yeah, to to to bring me to creator, to bring me to source, to bring me to to to to the amount of pain that it took to force my hand in that decision, you know, like it got easier to change than it did to stay the same. You know? Yes. And and and it you hear what I'm saying, and and you just you just said it to me, and I just wanted to articulate back to you like like that and and to the audience, like that that is for real, you know, and and I don't recommend don't go seeking out the devil to be trained to be in front of God. I I wouldn't do that, but I I believe that you are right. I believe that that um God puts people on that path, and I uh God allows them to go on that path. I've heard too many stories of jailhouse genesis about things turning at the last possible moment, you know, to believe that there isn't some truth to what you're saying.

SPEAKER_01 46:28

Amen. Yeah, yeah, it it actually and I tell people too, like I if I have family that are still in their addiction, or people will reach out to me and they're dealing with a wayward child or something like that, you know. And I tell them, like, sometimes it's part of our story, they have to hit rock bottom. There's no amount of you wanting it for them that's going to make them change. They have to get to a point of desperation. And sometimes what comes with that is all hell breaking loose around them, and for them to finally see what they are participating in is not serving them anymore. And sometimes we can't intervene with that. Like we have to, and we can love our family, we can love them, um, we can pray for them. But sometimes, like, I have to step back and say, like, I can't be an enabler anymore. When my parents finally took their hands off of it, and you know, like, sorry, we this is like I'm not gonna rescue you this time. Like, I am doing this for your son, I'm taking your care of your kid. Your kid needs to be more important than what you've gotten yourself involved in. Like, you figure it out. Like, and I understood too when I first got out that I could not expect people to see the change in me and just trust me right away because of everything I had put them through. I had to be the living example, like I had to, you recognize the tree by their fruit, like I had to walk it like I was talking it. And they were gonna take some time to be able to trust me and see that again, you know. And I say that to anybody that's dealing with somebody coming out of addiction um or you're dealing with a wayward child or something like that, you know, when they do get it, or if you are trying to come out of addiction and you're automatically thinking that you um are going to be owed the respect of the people that you've been done wrong, it takes time, you know, to build those bridges back. And also sometimes like people have their own testimonies, they have their own journeys. I find it that like the the parents that enable their children more by bailing them out of every situation possible, like it also it actually prolongs the addiction in the end, you know. We gotta learn hard ways sometimes.

SPEAKER_00 48:42

Well, and I I feel like you know, we we bail our loved ones out, and I and I haven't experienced that yet, and and and and God willing, you know, our our journey will will lead our children on a different path than than what we went on. Um but but I've seen that and I've come to understand that sometimes when we when we when we do save people, when we do, you know, like you said, bail them out of jail and do this, it's it's in an effort to to quell our own pain. Yes, you know, we we can't bear to watch our loved ones go through their own he their own their own pathway to to healing, their own pathway to to understand themselves. It's it's it's very hard to sit back and watch that. So I I I hope that, you know, like I certainly someday my my children will be going through something that I want to save them from. But but I I hope that I'm preparing them now uh to to walk on their own two feet because I I know very well that that that robbing them of these lived experiences is in fact robbing them from the opportunity to grow.

SPEAKER_01 49:40

Absolutely. Absolutely.

SPEAKER_00 49:43

Yeah. Yeah. And it's even even yesterday, my my son didn't want to clean up the dog poop because it's springing here, right? So and then like you're in Texas, it's different for you, but we get snow like six months of the year, and then the dog poop kind of, you know, we don't get it all, and it gets buried in snow, and then in springtime, you know, yay, all of this stuff. So he's so he's out there and he's trying to get out of from under that responsibility, and he's having these big emotions, and you know, he's like, Can't you help me? I'm like, You would not understand how I am helping you right now by allowing you to to go through this in a safe way, like clean up, clean up this shit, boy, you know, like it's so and and I and it would have been way easier for me to just go out there and do it. But but you know, like I let him walk through that on his own. And and and I know that that's has that does not hold a candle to the experiences that you went through, but I I see that in a way that that I'm preparing him to to walk his own path. And and I hope he does, and I hope he does it in a way that's less painful than mine.

SPEAKER_01 50:39

So I I really believe too that when we stand in the gap and we get freedom for ourselves, like we become the curse breaker for our bloodline. You know, my dad got clean later on, like when I was around 13, 14. Um, but it, you know, like his prayer, it it manifested like years down the road. The Bible says that that it's the word of the Lord that your whole household shall be saved. When you set your heart after the right things and you're doing the right things, like you're really trying to do right by your children in your home. I believe that the blessing attaches to them, just like the curses attached to them as well. When we're not trying to do the right thing, we're doing the opposite. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_00 51:28

Beautiful. Um thank you, Kaylee, for joining me today. Is there anything you want to leave us with?

SPEAKER_01 51:35

Um, not really at the top, other than um, I I think I mentioned my channel in the beginning. I if you're looking for Christian mentoring or anything like that, I do that as well. Um, one-on-one prophetic coaching or Christian mentoring, whatever the Lord really wants to do, we just bring it to him in the call. Um, but I do that as well. And there's more information on that to be found at prophetic power by Kaylee Jimenez, or you can email propheticpower777 at gmail.com.

SPEAKER_00 52:06

There's a uh a quote in the Bible, and and I'm I'm going to add Libbet, but I know you you've probably heard it is like we were saved through the blood of the lamb and the power of our testimony, or something like that. Did I nail it?

SPEAKER_01 52:18

We yeah, we were overcome by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony. Like the t our testimony is like the spirit of prophecy going forth. You're testifying to what has been done in my life, and you're prophesying to what can be done in your life. You know, does that make sense? Is it I like scripture? Yeah, don't get me started, but we nailed it.

SPEAKER_00 52:39

Okay, I'm gonna put links to uh to to Kaylee in in the show notes. Uh, if you want to check out her YouTube channel or if you want to reach out to her, just have a look down there, you'll see them. Uh Kaylee, thank you much so much for joining uh me today. It's been uh quite a ride walking with you through your testimony, and uh and and I suppose that's it for now. Uh take good care, my friend.

SPEAKER_01 52:57

Thank you so much.

SPEAKER_00 52:59

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