Holding Or Withholding THE POWER TO HEAL

The Lyricism Of Life
Season 2 Episode 15

Holding Or Withholding THE POWER TO HEAL 

ARE YOU HIDING YOUR HEART, you loved ones from YHWH. Treating YHWH LIKE HES THE CRAZY UNCLE IN BASEMENT 

It hurts when you are successful at like everything but marriage and relationship. 

People are “functioning” in depression believing this makes them “strong” or appear strong.

Who needs the most love right now?

Recognizing When you hold the power to heal!!!

      1.    Holding The Power To Heal
 2. Witholding The Power To HEAL
 3. WHY - how does it benefit you holding the power to heal, how does it benefit you loosing it
 4. How does it benefit you withholding it and not giving it
 5. Does it make your life better or worse

Are you hiding your heart -
 1. Who are you hiding your heart from
 2. Why are you hiding your heart
 3. How does it benefit yo hiding or revealing your heart

IT HURTS WHEN YOU ARE SUCCESSFUL IN EVERYTHING BUT RELATIONSHIPS, FRIENDSHIPS AND MARRIAGE

THE TEMPTATION IS TO LABEL YOURSELF A FAILURE IN ALL AREAS BECAUSE YOU LACK ONE, OR ARE STILL WORKING ON ONE

DREAM ABOUT JESSICA ANN - JUST TOO QUIET IN THE CAR NOT SAYING ANYTHING.. I TALK TO PEOPLE ALL THE TIME, BUT SOMETIMES I FIND MY WIFE JUST SILENT… I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO PEEL OFF

PS 62:1   TRULY MY SOUL WAITS UPON YHWH, FROM HIM COMES MY SALVATION
                
HE IS MY ROCK AND MY SALVATION; HE IS MY DEFENSE, I SHALL NOT BE GREATLY MOVED

PS 62:5  MY SOUL, WAIT THOU ONLY UPON YHWH, FOR MY EXPECTATION IS FROM HIM.

Asking for help when you’re in need doesn’t make you weak, it makes you honest.

Often times, “my momma didn’t raise no punk or weakling” can keep you from being honest about what state you’re in and how much help you need.

Your momma didn’t raise that but somewhere you’ve embraced that and that’s what you’ve become.

Do you love your loved one enough to keep them from walking into a trap? 

ie: Jealousy, Envy, Hatred, Competition 

Have you turned your children against a parent or sibling? @highlight

Transcript

SPEAKER_04 0:00

Good evening and welcome to the Lyricism of Life. I am your host, Apostle Pastor Pasha, aka the Lyrical Apostle. Welcome, welcome, welcome. Get somebody to come and join us tonight, journey with us, as we prepare to have a great, great, great show tonight. How's everybody doing? Keep my husband up in prayer. He was determined to be on tonight, though he had oral surgery, but Yahweh is great, Yahweh is perfect. He loves being on the show that much and being a blessing to everyone here. So come on in. Welcome, welcome, welcome. We're gonna have a great time tonight. We've had quite a few things going on this past weekend, uh, this past weekend, this past week, and you know, we're just moving forward. But we have some great things. I'd like to show you some things tonight, too. But come on in, please share, tell someone to tell someone to tell someone else to join us. Come on in. Uh, it's been pretty nice these last couple of days. Spring is showing up. I almost feel like the tip of summer. So, and also the bees are out there too. My kids were running from the bees recently. Bees out there. But I'm in. Thank you all for keeping us up in prayer today. Just keeping us up in prayer for the procedures that were scheduled. My procedure got rescheduled, actually canceled, so we'll talk about that another time. But thank you for the prayers. So let's see where the bishop of hip hop is. If he's prepared to come on.

SPEAKER_01 1:50

There he is. Welcome, welcome, welcome.

SPEAKER_03 2:09

Hey. How you doing? Good. How you doing? Hey, I'm walking by faith. Excited. This is gonna be the greatest show ever. Oral surgery today. Want to thank and everybody who was keeping me up in prayer. That was a blessing. You know? Yes. First time I've ever had laughing gas, but they gave me laughing gas and the other stuff for the colonoscopy.

SPEAKER_04 2:33

Not you know for the oral surgery. Because if you had a colonoscopy today, I want I got a question.

SPEAKER_03 2:42

I told them don't play around. Don't play around. Do not play around. Yep.

SPEAKER_04 2:51

How's your day going? Good, good. I'm going, I'm doing good. Just, you know, checking in on you, making sure you're good.

SPEAKER_03 3:00

Well, I'm excited because once again, victory is a choice, and victory is something we have to choose each and every day, you know? So I'm beyond excited about that. You know, totally beyond excited about that. Yes. So what's the subject tonight?

SPEAKER_04 3:18

Come on, I'm ready. With that being said, the subject tonight is holding or withholding the power to heal. Wow. Holding or withholding.

SPEAKER_03 3:31

Holding or withholding the power to heal.

SPEAKER_00 3:33

Yes.

SPEAKER_03 3:33

It means you you hold power. It means each person holds power. And how are they going how are they going to use that power? And I think people have to, to be honest, they have the power to make themselves feel a certain way. And in other areas, they have the power to make their loved ones feel a certain way. Right. If you know someone needs a healing, if you know someone needs a breakthrough, why would you heal it? Why would you hold it? You know? Why would you hold it back? Very, very, very important.

SPEAKER_04 4:25

Now that is very important. And and the question has to be asked because if you think about it, if you withhold healing from someone, then you you can't love them. And to withhold healing and you know you have the power to heal, that's evil.

SPEAKER_03 4:41

Whoa, especially if the person is in need of it. Once again, it's better to give than to receive. So if you know someone's in need of that love, you with withhold it. You're you're not loosening a healing. Especially if that person is a family member. But once again, it's it's it's understanding the power, you know. You you're saying that it makes me ask this question. Once again, I always say this: who needs the most love right now? Who who needs the most love right now? And then it's being able to lose that love, you know, it's being able to lose that love and to give that love. I mean, and recognizing, recognizing withholding the power is power, losing the power is power, and then asking yourself, how does it make you feel? How does it make you feel withholding the healing? Or how does it make you feel losing the healing? And loosing the healing, once again, you have more input into your into your life, into your surrounding. Right. That's that's you know, that that's that's that's that's paramount, you know, and it's needed. Yes. It's keyed. Yes. For instance, when we were on our way to the uh to the to do the surgery, I was asking what was on your mind. And the reason that I was asking you because, you know, I understand your day is you got a lot, but sometimes I feel around me that you're super quiet. And I feel that, you know, I mean, I talk all day long. So in talking, I'm asking you things. And that's when I asked you, did you dream anything? And that's where you say, Yeah, I dreamt that Jessica died. Right. And then that just my alarm bells went off because I knew that was Yahweh, because that's where we are in ministry right now. Protecting our children from death. Right protecting Christina from death, protect protecting our children from daily choices. But I would have never, I would have never got that if I didn't ask you. You you see? I would have never because y'all would use me to bring that to your attention. Right. Mm-hmm. Go ahead, tell people about the dream.

SPEAKER_04 7:28

Oh wow. The dream was uh, the dream was was very real, number one. Uh it was very real. I actually felt the experience. And and while I was sleeping, you know, in the dream, Jessica N, she had died, and this was like after the fact, meaning after the funeral, after everything. And we were just, you know, moving along in life or trying to move along with what life had become. And I just remember that I stopped at one moment. We were downstairs, and I just was like, I need, I need to, I need a break. And so I went upstairs, and I remember being in the bathroom and I just started crying. Like I just broke down and started crying. And I was like, Yahweh, how could this be? Like this is this is my baby. She's she's too young to die. She's she's just now coming into her own, she's just now, you know, building her confidence up. Everything's going the right direction for her. How is she dead? I was like, I can't handle this. This is this is crazy to me. And I just begged Yahweh, please, please. I I just would want one more day with her alive. If you give me that, please just wake me up out of this nightmare. This has to be a nightmare.

SPEAKER_03 8:39

And what's so powerful is I've prayed prayers like that before. And I've never forgotten them. But that's where my sister Kim is with Christina. That's where so many parents are. Battling against death is a reality. Yes. And it's a reality that as you're battling, you're also having heartbreak. What's so powerful? Are you sitting around allowing a family member to die in front of you due to a lack of love? Wow. And are you choosing to be Yahweh and discipline this person because you feel they're unworthy? But what if that person only had one more day to live? And that love is needed. Right. I just see love is so so powerful. And I I'm not gonna brag of both, but I am gonna brag on both. I have not put out anyone in my life, excuse me, that Yahweh's put in my life to love. Right. If they leave, I don't have power. But I refuse to be assault. Because you having that dream reminded me of the dream that I had when Jessica was like three, she ran into the street, car hit her, and she died. And I just cried and prayed, Yahweh, please. Please, Yahweh, let this be a dream. But in being reminded of that, that's where I am with the fight with Christina. That's where I am with the fight with Kim. Because when you withhold love, you withhold hope. You withhold a miracle, you withhold a healing. And that healing needs to be loose. In the same token, you need to be firm when someone's calling something love that isn't love. Right. Yeah. And that's powerful. But but what but once again, and as we're doing that, we're meditating how your mother chooses not to be a part of our family. How your how your mother chooses not to be a grandmother. That's a choice, and we respect her for that. Right. But she's not missed. So it's not like we're withholding love from your mom. Your mom's withholding love from us, but when Yahweh's first, you don't miss love that is under hostage. And you you you you you have that freedom. But once again, I couldn't imagine myself seeing Tatiana in need of love, Jessica Ann in need of love, Timmy Chris or Kaya. Because a healing is love. Right. A healing is love. And and and and and and to totally empower yourself. That's that's key. You know? When I was a teenager, I used to always quote this scripture. Psalms 62. I'm just looking over here because I refuse to pay Apple what they want me to pay. So I have to hide stuff everywhere. I do. I don't see it. So let me just read it. Psalm 62. It says, Truly, my soul waits upon Yahweh. From him is my salvation. He only is my rock and my salvation. He is my defense. I shall not be greatly moved. Then five, my soul, wait you only upon Yahweh, for my expectation is of them. So I have an expectation. So I have I have an expectation of a healing. But what I know, don't take it the wrong way. Wherever Yahweh is, there is energy. That's his spirit. There's healing, there's deliverance. And there are too many people who treat Yahweh like he's the crazy uncle in the basement. So the same way that you could withhold a healing is the same way that some people hide their loved ones from Yahweh. They hide their loved ones from Yahweh's presence, they hide their loved ones from Yahweh's correction. Wow. Yes. Because they're like, no, Yahweh, I don't want you to, I don't want you to hurt them. But listen, choose today who you will serve. I believe everything outside of Christ is death. Yes. Everything outside of Christ is death. You know, and that's I couldn't live, I couldn't live with myself. Well, that's what David did. David withheld healing from Absalom. David withheld loving from Absalom, and he ended up with a dead son. And that's what you can't do. Hey, you'll have people end up with a dead marriage because they withhold healing. They withhold love. Right. You end up with children who don't believe that you love them, withholding the healing, withholding love. Yes. That's very, very important. And it's very important for people not to treat Yahweh like the crazy uncle.

SPEAKER_04 14:06

No, that's that's very important. While subjecting your kids to people who can really hurt them. If you treat Yahweh like the person that's going to hurt them. Now, what do you mean by subjecting children to people who can help them? Expound on that. In other words, you will withhold your kids from people of Yahweh or Yahweh himself, but then you will allow your kids around people who you know are living a life that's not pleasing to Yahweh. Or they're not living a life that is, you know, safe. They're not living a life that is prosperous, but you will you will see that as okay and not have your children around the people of Yahweh who can stare them in the right direction. Because it's like if you don't put your kids in the right places, then your kids can end up at the wrong destination. Your kids can end up at the right at the wrong destination. And I often say, I often tell you that I believe that my brother would have had a different outcome if he would have grew up in a different house.

SPEAKER_03 15:18

Yeah. If she would have been in Abraham, recognize this is not healthy. Right. Right now, praise be to Yahweh Elohim and to everyone he's surrounded with, our children don't have any negative influences that have power over them. Right. And because we constantly command them to love one another, to communicate with one another, and to be open with one another, because what good is it to have a friend if you can't trust? What good is it to have a so-called mate and you can't trust? Right. That's very true. Because what hurts within Bet Hashim Yahweh? What hurts within Beth Hashim Yahweh is when you are successful in every area of your life except relationship. Or you're successful in every area in your life except marriage. That hurts. And then Satan tries to use that to paint you as a failure. But marriage needs agreement. Right. When you make up your mind to do something, it can't be done in marriage without agreement. Right. You need agreement. So there comes a time when you have to recognize, hey, the word's very explicit that Yahweh, Yahweh doesn't marry people, he marries land. That Yahweh is a husband to Yisrael. Excuse me. But Yisrael has always cheated on him. To the point he had he had to separate himself from Yisrael. If you are successful in every area of your life in Christ except for one area, just allow Christ to work it out. Because that other area probably needs, well, it needs agreement somewhere. And I'm not agreeing, I'm not agreeing to someone killing me. I'm not agreeing to someone cutting me off. I think, first of all, like I said for, I make my life real simple. I love what I do. I have Yahweh, my wife, and my family and my ministry, which is one. So I don't have a conflict. You know, I don't have a conflict. The blessing about me, don't say it the wrong way, we're not using social media trying to convince people we have a good marriage. We're not using social media trying to convince people with good parents. Right, right. Social media to me, well, first of all, you have to understand you you are the social media what you do with social media.

unknown 18:12

Right.

SPEAKER_03 18:12

Me with social media right now. You get more news and more honesty on social media than on CNN, then Fox, MS, MBC, MS Now, ABC, CBS. You get more honest news from Facebook and Instagram than this lying American public and a lot of the NATO countries. So what I do, I confess that my social media is about coming to get truth. Whatever that truth is. So I do that. The same way that Q is really head over heels about politics, that's the way I am about ministry, my strategy. Everything I do with strategy. Because I know that what I put out, I'm going to get back in. There's a word I think we received yesterday. Make sure you're not using souls. The number one thing about souls, the number one thing about souls is them having an encounter with Christ Yahshua. But in order for that to take place, you believe you have the power to heal. Right. Yep. You you you you you you have the power to heal and you lose that. What I can't do, I can't allow you to have a dream about Jessica Ann dying and our family being turmoil. Right. You telling me to dream, immediately I begin to war for other families because I know that we don't have turmoil in our family. I know that we have answered prayer, and of course I'm not, I'm not bragging and boasting that. It's just that I I I care, I just don't, I just don't choose frustration. Right. And then what the scripture says, don't frustrate the spirit. And then I love what I do too much to war against what I do. I love what I do too much to war against what I do. Right. I can't do that, you know. And the thing is, Satan is always there to tempt you to be a failure. But when Satan comes to tempt you to be a failure, he's bringing in, he's bringing in an argument. You've got to make sure you haven't co-signed any things that's gonna make you feel like a failure. I I introduce into your life. I introject into the girl's life. You know, even today when I was acting like I couldn't talk, I was going on with the thing on my witch call. And when you said, you said, we're not gonna have the podcast. We have to have the podcast because when I went in for the operation, my blood pressure was too high. I think with what was it? Something crazy. And so I understand that I was battling a lot of nervous nervousness, battling every time somebody went to the dentist and came home dead, you know. I didn't know they were gonna drug me twice with the laughing gas and the anesthesia, you know, and just and of course Satan's saying, what if happens if you wake up in heaven? What makes your family different than other families? Your girl's grown up without a father. So all that's warfare. But within the warfare, I have to I have to glory in it and so forth. And I refuse to allow Satan to label me a failure in anything when I'm walking in the will of Christ. So I confess I have the power to heal, I have I have the power to. Hill every love relationship that Yahshua has given me authority over.

SPEAKER_02 22:08

Right.

SPEAKER_03 22:13

Come on. Let me feel some of that energy. Come on. I think that was powerful.

SPEAKER_04 22:20

It is powerful.

SPEAKER_03 22:21

I didn't know you still. Or you're still working on one. You know?

SPEAKER_04 22:29

Say it again.

SPEAKER_03 22:30

The temptation is to label yourself a failure in all areas because you lack one area. Wow. Or an area you're still working on. You know? No, that's deep. That being true, are you hiding your heart? Who are you hiding your heart from? Why are you hiding your heart? How does it benefit you hiding your heart? And these are these are see, but all these things, once again, it empowers. It empowers. It empowers. And that's what has to be has to be the empowering. I I believe that Christ Yashua is a healer. Yes. Ali. I know he is because he healed me of prostatis. I know he healed me. I know the whole discussion we had, the doctor you had, we don't like that doctor. Getting a new doctor. But it's hearing and moving. But you saying I'm going to get a new doctor, that's you believing I have the power to bring healing. Right. I have the power of choice.

SPEAKER_04 23:30

And the first person that I have power to bring healing to is myself. And that's that's empowering because once you're confident in the fact that Yahweh has given you that right, that power to bring healing by you being honest and saying, I need healing, and taking that into your to your hands and saying, I'm not going to be powerless and I'm not going to just lay down and take this. I'm going to empower myself and go do what I need to do in order to get what I need done. And and that's when you said one of the words we received yesterday was to make sure we're not using souls. I was meditating on that because it's it's really powerful when you think about it. If you're using souls, you're mishandling them. You can't mishandle Yahweh's souls. Like because each person.

SPEAKER_03 24:28

I would be afraid to be using souls. And then when I stand before the judgment seat of Christ, he'll tell me your motive was wrong. You were using that person. Right. And you didn't mention mean that one time. Go on, shoot it back at you. Shoot it back.

SPEAKER_04 24:45

That goes into when you're mishandling the soul, that means that you're manipulating the soul. That means that you're you're programming the soul to do what you want that soul to do. And the thing is, whenever we're in the midst of someone, our job is to make sure that they are, because Yahweh, only Yahweh could put us in the midst of people, especially when you're an ambassador, you know? You're an ambassador for Christ. So we are, we work for Yahweh. So when He puts us in the midst of people, it is our job to give them Yahweh. If we are withholding Yahweh to push our agenda to them, then we're mishandling them. We're misinforming them. We have a false identification by doing that. So if I'm going somewhere and I'm only presenting myself as someone who sells books as an author, but not present myself as an apostle, then I'm mishandling the soul because I only want to sell a book to them. But that's not what I'm called to do. As a sent one, I'm not just sent to be an author. I'm sent to be an author, one who also deposits into a soul through what I'm doing. So as an author, I have to make sure Yahweh is the center of me being an author. And I'm don't take it the wrong way. But at the same time, in the children's book, I talk about how Yahweh allowed me to come up with an idea to help my daughter. You know what I'm saying? So it's always going back to how is Yahweh involved in what you're doing, especially when it comes to souls. Because if not, then you're gonna be held accountable for what that soul didn't become because you didn't give them what they were supposed to receive while you were in their midst.

SPEAKER_03 26:39

Now, you saying that it resonates two things in me. Recognize when you had the power to heal, and please nobody take this the wrong way or get it be offended. I'm always saying, what does my ministry lack? And if I'm aware of that my ministry lacks it, why can't I apply it through Yahweh, through love, through faith, and hope? If people, professionals, see a lack in Beth Hashim Yahweh, they should meet the lack. If people in Beth Hashem Yahweh, in other words, I believe Beth Hashem Yahweh is called to be a house of experts. Right. If we're called to be in house of experts, we shouldn't have to need to call experts in. No, I I fully believe that. Because it it begins and what goes back to recognizing when you have the power to heal. Because in order to be an effective healer, an effective physician, you have to be able to see the symptoms, and seeing the symptoms come up with uh a remedy of treatment, a remedy of treatment when the people of Yahweh will give the blessed, the best, to Yahweh's people, greater doors will open in their careers, right? And greater doors will open in the world. When you give Yahweh the best, right, the best of the best. And the scripture we're teaching on, Yahshua said, Why call me Adonai, Adonai, and you don't do what I say to do? Let me tell you how that how that blessed me. I'm just gonna be blunt. How it blessed me. Why do you call me bishop, bishop, but yet you want counseling, but don't do what is said to be done in counseling? Right. Because I know that there's victory. If Yahweh gave me victory in my marriage, Yahweh gave me victory in my children. We don't serve a different Yahweh, we only serve one Yahweh. Right. I'm not I'm uh my children haven't been raised, that someone in the in the ministry is against you. Right. They haven't been raised in that. So it free it frees up my time. It frees up my time for those who are serious about victory. Those who are who are who are serious about victory, don't take the wrong way. I I studied to show myself approved, and now this Sunday, I'm really praying to have a handout. Because it's it's time to start putting our leaders once again on college, master's degree, and doctorate level. Right. We have to be on this level. But anybody can become a minister. If you want to become a minister, anybody become a minister, anybody can become a reverend. All you have to do is go to school. But not everybody can be anointed. Right. And anointing, a true anointing, comes from Yahweh or an underanointed person. Yes. But that should be priceless. But we have people who have withheld the anointing from their children. And one of the ways you can withhold the anointing from your children is for them to never see it in the home.

SPEAKER_01 30:29

Whoa!

SPEAKER_03 30:30

Whoa. When your children don't see the anointing in the home, then it becomes a play. If your children can only see the anointing in the assembly or the anointing in the pulpit, it's not a reality. When you love somebody, as the scripture says you bear one another's burdens. So us loving Minister Kim, meaning that we've already lost the son. We've already lost Keith. But now I've got to learn, I don't want to lose another Keefe. But are we having people in our ministry that are now raising Keefs? Because they're withholding healing, they're withholding love, and they're treating Yahweh like he's the crazy uncle from the basement. And all taps in together. Yes. It all taps in together.

SPEAKER_04 31:22

No, it's true. But it's also selfishness, too, when you withhold healing. If you withhold healing. What have you been withholding from me, babe? Nothing. Not one thing. Not one thing.

SPEAKER_03 31:37

So how come sometimes I feel like I have to really pry to get you to talk?

SPEAKER_04 31:42

Because sometimes, I mean, you you like on the thousand all the time. Yeah. Go on breaking. I'm not I'm not on the thousand all the time. Sometimes I just like to watch. And you know, when you're driving, sometimes I just like to watch. And it's peaceful, you know? It's peaceful. I drive all day. So to get to sit back and get driven somewhere is is good, you know. So don't take it personal. Don't take it personal.

SPEAKER_03 32:12

It it it's it's I I have because I was nervous and I really didn't want to go to the dentist, and because it was$2,000, you know, I um I did push-ups. And of course I was fasting. And it's amazing the silent and invisible warfare you go through when you battle the wrong thoughts. That is true, yes. And it didn't make a difference how much faith I had, I was battling. I did not want to go here. I prayed there, I confess everything's fixed. You know, I didn't want to, but you just can't sit there and keep saying, I don't want to go here. Right, right, yes. You can't keep saying, This is not what I want to do. That's just gonna make you sicker. Right, you know. So the power in my healing was to just be quiet, you know, and allow Yahweh to drive the process, you know. Allow him to drive the process.

SPEAKER_04 33:24

That was you taking power and and like you said, and being quiet. Yes, you stop thinking that. Then that's you taking power, and you stop withholding healing for yourself. In other words, you got healed of just thinking the wrong thoughts, all within that moment of submitting and saying, you know what, I'm I'm not gonna just keep tormenting myself. I'm gonna stop thinking the wrong thoughts.

SPEAKER_03 33:48

What I do in situations like that, I tell Yahweh, I thank and praise you. We don't have any member in the hospital. We don't have any member in the emergency room. None of right now, none of my aunts and uncles. They're not in nursing homes. And I just keep going over and over again of all the blessings that we are surrounded in ministry-wise. We're about to have Mia and Mira be a year old. I remember we're praying for the pregnancy. I remember we're we're warned to get pregnant in the name of Yeshua. I remember all that. Right. I also remember, and I'm constantly telling the young fathers, I'm telling, and the young mothers, don't mess this up. I've seen people pray for kids and just stop coming to service. I've seen people abdicate from being a father. I see people, excuse me, see, the podcast is more than the podcast to me. Right. It's ministry. So to me, the podcast is Wednesday night ministry. That's what you mean. But it's sad how many people will miss a Wednesday night, but they got all hell going crazy. All hell going for it. All hell. That's true. And come on, babe, let's be for real. There's some things we haven't experienced only because we obeyed Christ. Right. No, right, prophecy is our compass. There's some things we have not experienced only because we obeyed him. That's right. And because we obeyed him, hallelujah. See, when when you obey Yahweh, he puts his name on it. So, oh, I said he said, mm-hmm. I felt that. He said, mm-hmm. He said, mm-hmm. No, but I I I I I feel it. And that's what come people have missed opportunities when they they have a complete mess up in their life, and Christ gives them a fix through prayer and prophecy, but they don't move on it. Wow, yes. But but they don't move on it.

unknown 36:08

No.

SPEAKER_03 36:09

Gary. They refuse to move on. This past Shabbat, where Reverend Dr. Green honored me. He just he just didn't honor me. He honored Dr. Apostle Chris. He honored you. He honored all of Bet Hashem Yahweh. Yes, this is what happens when you have one diligent person that represents a whole organization and there's a spirit of excellence upon it. Everyone associated receives the same excellence. And that's what we're missing at Elmwood. Not everyone in Beth Hashem Yahweh is walking in a spirit of excellence. Because when you walk in a spirit of excellence, it makes you that Daniel. It makes you that Yosef. It makes you that Ruth. It makes you that Deborah. It makes you that Hasa. You know, it makes you all of that. And the reason I'm saying that, babe, because it's wrong to keep going through the same cycle. Yes. And what do I mean that? Okay, I'm just gonna say it. For a toning and ASCII to leave, there still shouldn't be a tone and ASCII in our midst. Right. Right. Somebody's holding back killing, somebody's holding back love, and somebody's holding back commitment.

SPEAKER_04 37:39

Somebody's holding back change. Because that shouldn't be. How do you take upon the identity of someone who left?

SPEAKER_03 37:47

Negative.

SPEAKER_04 37:49

Right. Well, they're there. It's like it's like you said that movie Fallen. Like they tap people on their way out, and then it's like you take this over. It's on my side. Oh, yes, it is. Look, you brought up the the uh the fact that you got honored, and now it's gonna bring it up because I have the oh look at that.

SPEAKER_03 38:16

My whole name backwards. But this was powerful. This was very powerful. What makes it powerful to me? What makes it powerful to me? Yahweh said he was making us the number one power broker. What it makes makes it powerful to me, Yahweh told me to buy a jacket and to prepare. I moved in faith. That's the whole thing about Christina. That's the whole thing about Timmy Chris. Right now, we have no idea how Timmy Chris is going to Oxford. And when I was telling the neighbor, and the neighbor was like, oh, we have uh friends there, you know, you know, blah, blah. And said, which college is she going to? And I was like, ooh, I don't know. And she looked like she ain't going. I said, Timmy, go tell her. And Timmy, I think it's Pennington. Say again?

unknown 39:09

Pembroke.

SPEAKER_03 39:10

Pimbro. Pembroke? Pembroke. It sounds like Harry Potter, whatever it is. Uh but I knew Timmy was going to have Pembroke. I knew Timmy was going to have a more powerful presence than me because I didn't know what I was talking about. But I also, no, babe, this is big. Excuse me. Because our neighbors are millionaires. And they own a bagel shop and they do a lot of investing. I knew that was going to minister. And where our faith is, because, babe, where our faith is, you know, I mean, don't take it the wrong way. We got to get passports, you know. And I just didn't have time for a$2,000 tooth, and even there, because some other dentists, the other dentist cost$2,000, and that dentist messed up. And the other dentist messed up over here, which is like$3,000. One wisdom tooth and another tooth that got a cap on it. But it can get frustrating. But that's when it's like, no, Yahweh's doing something greater. Yahweh's doing something awesome. And I'm going to empower myself. So it's another, it is another public anointing. If people would just submit to Yahweh right now, I believe within the next 48 hours, Yahweh give them a public anointing. A public. Excuse me. Because once again, Yahweh has to show you off. So my daughter going to Oxford. Some people can handle this. My daughter going to Oxford is rebuking everybody saying Jesus Lord and God. No, no. My daughter going to Oxford, how is a rebuke to everybody who came up against me being a biblical scholar. Right. It's a rebuke to everybody. It's a repudiation to those who refuse to submit to the truth of the word in Hebrew or in Greek. It's a rebuke. It's a Yahweh bless me. Yahweh favored me. In the same token, those who are leaders in the house, who have mingled with Satan, those who are leaders in the house, who have conspired with Satan against your own family, against your own answered prayer. You need to cut that Judas off in you. Cut it off. Cut it off. Wow. Take pride in it. Cut it off. Very, very, very important. You know? I mean, we're not just believing for, let's be for real, we're not just believing for Timmy to go. We're crazy to believe to get a credit card or something for at least to send her off. You know? Right. And so forth. And hey, that's where Apostle Steve. Apostle Steve took my faith to a whole new level. When he's going to confess$80,000 from an art show, I'm going to take it up to$100,000 in the name of Yahshua. I plan on buying something. We're going to buy something from his art show. I'm praying on something totally be different. But in the same token, I also need him to be that mother green. I need Apostle Steve to take back the mantle of being the Mikelzedeck and warring and praying, you know, and so forth.

SPEAKER_01 42:40

We communicate. Everyone doesn't communicate.

SPEAKER_03 42:43

Right.

unknown 42:44

Right.

SPEAKER_03 42:44

I mean, seriously, hey, what we communicate. The doctor's giving my niece three to four months to live. You can't communicate more than that. Right. That's communication. But in the same token, I mean, I I see when Christina comes in, she she she has no strength. But then I see when she's with the girls, babe. She she always comes back with from the girls stronger. Yes. Always. She always comes back stronger with the girls. In the name of Yeshua. And that propels me. Once again, my soul wait upon Yahweh because my expectation. I have an expectation. I have an expectation. What you call it? In the name of Yeshua. I have an expectation. And that's the expectation we we we have to move on. And so forth. But once again, it's having that power of love. Why you look at you falling asleep on me?

SPEAKER_04 43:39

I'm not falling asleep.

SPEAKER_03 43:41

You look, I said you look like you're falling asleep. I'm up here all energetic. You need some needs some superheroes or something. You know? I'll come prepared. I'll come prepared. You talk the most. Well, I told you, babe.

unknown 43:59

I want.

SPEAKER_03 44:00

Step out on faith and take this cotton out of my mouth.

SPEAKER_00 44:02

No, uh-uh, uh-uh.

SPEAKER_03 44:04

I don't think I should do that. Please don't. Please don't, please don't. At least I don't have the ice back on, you know. But I I just I just have this great sense of something big happening. I'm warned for this war to end. I don't want anything hindering niggas traveling or us traveling. And then we got the we got uh Nal and Kingdom Ark about to travel too. But when you when you look, I'll I tell Apostle Kingdom Ark, now is the time to confess that mirror's on the praise and worship team. Now's the time to confess she's a Yahwistic, now is the time to get her a mic, put a mic in her hand, and just watch Yahweh unfold all these miracles before us. I saw this video, and it said, What would you do to have your child back at 20 months again? Well what and but it's it's it's like yo, if yes, you could cuddle them, squeeze them, hug them, you know, and always deposit. And it's it's loosening that. But that being true, I feel led to say this a lot of people don't believe in what they truly do. Because whatever they're doing, Yahweh has something similar taking place in his house, but they do nothing. Wow. Wow. I think anyone who's confessing to be an artist, but not moving on the artistry that Yahweh gave in your house, I think you don't really believe it. You don't you don't believe in in the Yahweh economy. Speaking of Q, and Q said that Mayor Raz was basically saying, don't boycott target, build one. And we all know where that came from. But the thing is, no one has the power to take your vision when your vision is from Yahweh. Right. But I do believe there's some powerful people who are going to try to move on that and leave me out. But you can't leave me out of what Yahweh birthed in me.

SPEAKER_04 46:18

It's not possible. Right. Not possible. Not possible. You know, when you talk about healing, a lot of times people have signed up to quote unquote function and dysfunction.

SPEAKER_01 46:35

I thought you said funk, but go ahead. You said function. Come on, trying to make you laugh.

SPEAKER_03 46:46

Go ahead.

SPEAKER_04 46:47

Because you always cut my thought off, and then I'll be forgetting what I'm gonna say. You said function, babe.

SPEAKER_03 46:53

And what else between function and funk.

SPEAKER_04 46:55

A lot of people see you don't even know.

SPEAKER_03 46:58

That's because you didn't say it yet. I don't know if you said it. You said a lot of people function. You said a lot of people. That's not what I said. Yes, it is. No, it's not. Function and dysfunction.

SPEAKER_04 47:10

Yeah, you cheating now.

SPEAKER_03 47:12

Wow. Thank you, Jackie. Jackie!

SPEAKER_04 47:19

No, but but Jackie. Some people, some people, okay, it's my turn. Because you don't like to listen when it's my turn. You be a bit playing. I see here listen for 30 minutes. I said a lot of times people have learned to function and dysfunction. And what that means is it's almost like a functioning. Some people are addicted to bad behavior or just bad feeling, projecting, projecting just a bad feeling. And then when you're addicted to that, then it's like you believe that's your norm. And so you project it onto others. This is this is me. This is this is how I am. This is who I am. This is this is normal. And dysfunction is never normal. Regardless of what people believe, you cannot function in dysfunction. It's going to crumble at some point. You know, it's like, no, to believe your function and dysfunction is mental illness. Like to believe that that's a way of life. Dysfunction is not a way of life. It can't be. Because it's like, and some people have built whole families through dysfunction. It's like that's a scary thing because that comes back on you. You know, you you can't raise kids in dysfunction and think that you won't be affected by dysfunction.

SPEAKER_03 48:38

Well, you you need one parent that's going to love through and be that traffic cop and say, don't be like that. Right. Right. Don't don't don't do that. Don't don't don't don't don't take that path. But in order to stay in dysfunction, you have to feed dysfunction. You gotta breed dysfunction, you gotta drink dysfunction, you know? So it comes a time when dysfunction becomes a constant choice. When I started to get my healing over suicide, uh the greatest healing came in. The greatest healing came in, like, yo, if y'all is against me, I can't win. I used to believe y'all was against me. I can't win. Once you let go of a lying stronghold belief, it gives you a way of seeing other things. So, okay. That's true. Y'all, y'all is not manning me. And two, what is y'all saying? I didn't want to admit it. Y'all was telling me to put him first.

unknown 50:00

Right.

SPEAKER_03 50:00

Put him before a wife, put him before a marriage, put him before saying, I can't serve you without a wife. He demanded that. He he he he demanded that before I moved forward.

SPEAKER_04 50:12

But look why he did it. Now that you're where you are in life now, think about it. You you aren't ready for a wife. Oh no, you threw you through tantrums because you felt like he wasn't giving you a wife, all the while you were not really ready for a wife. You know, yeah, but also, let's be for real.

SPEAKER_03 50:31

There was no woman. There was no woman capable of being my wife. Because I had made it a wife into an idol. Wow. It that that person didn't exist. Yahweh would not allow that person to exist. That's deep. You know, and that's when people have to be honest. Are you praying for somebody that Yahweh will not allow to exist? Wow. No, that's deep. Wow. Wow. Yeah, that person didn't exist, not gonna allow it.

SPEAKER_04 51:02

No, but that's really deep what you said. Yeah, that's really deep. Because there are some people who are praying for a mate that doesn't exist, and Yahweh will allow to exist.

SPEAKER_03 51:12

He's not y'all is not going to allow you to marry. You can only marry a human being. And even as we let ourselves down, uh human beings let down. That's that's we do and and and and so forth. It's where I am right now. Yahweh is not looking for perfection in the earth, he's looking for obedience, and within obedience, people are gonna make good choices and bad choices, but that's where the power of forgiving comes in and so forth, you know? That's when the power of forgiving comes in. The Bible. The Heavenly Father had holy men write the Bible, but men can't do anything. The Heavenly Father used imperfect men and women to carry out his plan in the earth and so forth, and you begin to to recognize that. And like I said before, it's hobbling with children. Your children love you, but still will make a choice outside of you. Yes, and then this whole system I'm not gonna judge my children based on school or schoolwork. I'm not gonna allow school to define my children, and I'm not gonna allow school to label my child. I'm not gonna allow school to label my child as my child has a learning disability disability. Right. Because there's a whole system, it's a system that Yahweh did not create. Yahweh didn't create the system, you know. That's true. But it's it's it's it's it's it's it I just can't let it go. The power, the power to heal, and it comes so simple just by loving words, saying loving words, um, producing loving words. There's a lot of people who would like to be close to me, but they can't be close to me because of you. Because they know in order to be close to me, they have to have a pure relationship with you, right? And so forth. In other words, there's a price of coming to certain levels of intimacy. There's a price, you know, and so forth. I'm in the way. You're in my way, you're in my way, you mean you're in my way.

SPEAKER_04 53:43

I'm in the way.

SPEAKER_03 53:44

You're in my way.

SPEAKER_04 53:46

In no way, glory, hallelujah.

SPEAKER_03 53:49

I'm in my way.

SPEAKER_04 53:57

Yep, hey. Hey, the same thing goes for for you. I don't have a relationship with anybody who view you as in the way. You know what I'm saying? That's that's that's I'm not in the way. You're not, and anybody who thinks you are they in the way.

SPEAKER_03 54:16

What does that mean? I'm approachable.

SPEAKER_04 54:20

What does that mean?

SPEAKER_03 54:23

I'm just saying I'm friendly. I'm talking about.

SPEAKER_04 54:26

You're not just saying that.

SPEAKER_03 54:27

Babe, babe, I talk to people.

SPEAKER_04 54:30

You know hey, yeah, you talk to people because you look past certain things. When is obvious? We're different people. I mean, you know, I feel like I'm a little bit more direct than you are. You have to be sometimes. Good. Finish saying what you're saying. There's a layer of accountability that you have to have when it comes to everybody. Yeah. You know? And I think not trying to be funny, but you this is good. You you like to see the good in everybody. That's good. You you should want to see the good in everybody, but you also can't ignore the crazy in people. Oh yeah. The user in people, the liar in people, the hate in people, you know what I'm saying? And sometimes people try to mask that in front of you, but I could see a lot of that. I could see those things, you know. So it's always like, like, I'm more, I'm more.

SPEAKER_03 55:44

I've never known a nice mean, I've never met a nice mean person. Right, yeah. And I would never want to associate myself with being mean. Right. Under those circumstances. I think mean is bad for business, mean is bad for Christ, mean is bad for friendships. Right. No, agree. I wouldn't. It's and especially when I'm correcting Enoch, when I'm correcting Elisha, you know, I want them to see the righteous anger. I don't want them to see me as mean. It just hurts. Because I remember when their parents were prayerful, hopeful. Yeah. When the parents had power, and it makes it makes a difference. It makes sense. It makes it makes a huge difference. Because if Satan can destroy you, that's Satan, it was the whole go. If Satan can can destroy you in your youth, that's he tried to he tried to get Yahshua in his youth. You know, and so forth. But that's where true parenting comes in. True, true parenting. I have a clean conscience because I won my father before he died. Have a clean conscience. Amen. In the name of Yahshua, have a clean conscience. You have a clean conscience when you obey Yahweh's word, and it's difficult, but you obey it. Have a clean conscience. You know, it makes a difference. There's a lot of people who refuse to be who Yahweh called them to be, and their fathers died. And they never became the sons they were called to be in their fathers' lives. I don't have time for that. That's true. That would that would that would take peace from me. You know, that that that would take peace. Right now, this is gonna be my greatest decade ever, in the name of Yeshua. My 60s in the name of Yeshua. I also confess my healthiest. Um like I said before, keeping everybody out of the hospital, keeping everybody out of the emergency room, binding up car accents, warring for marriages, but for marriages to work, someone's gotta be bold enough to speak Christ. You know, somebody's gonna be bold enough to be speak Christ. I was meditating on this very speedily. How many people are on medicine because they disobeyed Christ? Or how many people are medicine because they went to sin? How many people, I'm just being blunt. How many people have lost who they were in Yahweh because they listened to the serpent and became some somewhere else? You know, make sure your faith is raising your household and not the cheating you. Make sure it's your faith that makes your uh family and not the cheating you that broke you, the cheat the cheating you that that made you incapacitated. No. Wow, I'm not gonna I'm not gonna be a product of my sin. Because of my sin, my children are now broke. Because of my sin, my children don't know what strong is because of my sin. And I'm gonna take responsibility. I'm gonna take responsibility. But we got too many people, they're not honest. Sin broke them. And when sin broke them, they they they stopped being the parent. They stopped being strong. And then they want to blame Yahweh. Sin broke you. I'm not gonna have a testimony that sin broke me. I'm gonna have the testimony, I embrace my healing. I embrace my healing, I embrace my Yahweh. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to cleanse our sins and all unrighteousness. I'm a new creature in Christ. I refuse to allow my brokenness or my sin to raise my children. And I love my Yahweh too much, and I love my children too much to allow them to go down a path of hell that I know will not benefit them, and I know will not help them. I will not do that. I will not do that. That's powerful. Yes, yeah, because people are not honest. Your sin broke you. I mean, I would never have a testimony. Sin took me from the prayer line. Sin took me from the prayer line, and because of sin, because of sexual sin, I'm no longer on the prayer line. No, that keeps the sin alive and eventually it leads to mental illness. I'm not gonna sin that isn't taken care of leads to mental illness. No, I'm a new creature, and I'm gonna do more, not less. I mean, the power to heal, man. The power to the hill, and then be honest. Are you withholding it? No. I ignore Yahweh. I know the authority he said it in. I mean, that's what come people have to be very careful if they have ought against Yahweh. If you have ought against Yahweh, you better be honest how how and when you sinned against him. How and when you sinned against him. Be honest what the serpent did to you. Be honest when the serpent beguiled you. And that's where it comes in. Somebody have the decency to stand up for Yahweh. You take the blame, but don't let Yahweh take the blame. You take the blame, don't let the ministry take the blame. That's become I always defend this house. I defend this house because I know who Yahweh is. Amen. But there's some people they've they've allowed the house to take the hit. No, you take the hit. No. I fear Yahweh. I'm not perfect, but I fear him. Amen. I fear him. And that's what I'm I'm fighting for Christina. I'm fighting for Christina. But fighting for Christina, like I told you. Now on my phone, I run into a bunch of stories of people who just signed up, they had cancer. They've only been given four months to live. It's not just us, it's other people. Yes. What we're praying is to have a different outcome. And that's grace. And that's mercy. Amen. And that's love. All right, I can't sit here all night and cheer you up.

SPEAKER_04 1:01:57

That was good.

SPEAKER_03 1:01:58

That's good. That's good. When you said we weren't gonna have it today, I said, no, we gotta have it. Because I was scared. I was fighting like I was gonna die today. My blood pressure's all high. You know, maybe not sure. And now I'm hungry. I'm really hungry.

SPEAKER_04 1:02:22

You always hungry right after this, too.

SPEAKER_03 1:02:24

Yep. Mm-hmm. In the name of Yeshua.

SPEAKER_04 1:02:28

But I'm in.

SPEAKER_03 1:02:29

That was um okay, three Buffalo girls round the outside, round the outside and go to so your partner. It's been fun. So listen, let me tell you what's so deep. My real ID came today. And in my real ID, I had to take it after get my wosm tooth pulled. So my picture's swollen, and now I'm swollen again.

SPEAKER_04 1:02:54

I know. I saw it when you pulled it out the envelope. I was like, wow.

SPEAKER_03 1:03:02

I got another uh, I got another uh swollen tooth. I mean a swollen cheek, rather, in the name of Yeshua. But no, something big is happening. It is the month of the time. I mean, we got Resurrection Sunday coming up. Amen. I'm really praying to have a handout, and we have to get back to scholar, scholarly work. Yes. And for everybody, everybody, give somebody some hope. Everybody out there, give somebody some hope. Let them know you love them. Let them know you love them. Very, very important. Amen. Like you let me know you love me, babe, before it's too late. Tell people how you were telling me to get a vasectomy. I ain't gonna vasectomy. I ain't gonna no vasectomy. Uh-uh. If you go, I'm Auburn. I've been telling me to get a vasectomy. I'm gonna be she's like, but you can reverse it. All right, babe. I'm signing off. Love you. You just laughing. Bye bye, babe. Love you.