Stop Suffocating In The Bubble Of Struggle: Break Free!

Stop Suffocating In The Bubble Of Struggle: Break Free! 

Betrayal: Are you stabbing your loved ones in the back? 

Don’t “talk” love, live and show love.

Stop isolating in your time of need. 

In your isolation the thief is coming to steal, kill, and destroy something you love. 

Isolation is selfish. 

Why are you afraid to ask for help?

Who and what are you trying to hide from?

The a difference between the trying of your faith and judgement. 

Break free!

Transcript

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Shalom, shalom, shalom. Welcome to the Lyricism of Life. I am your host, Apostle Pastor Patha, aka the Lyrical Apostle. Welcome, welcome, welcome. Get somebody to join us tonight. Come on in, come on in. Shalom, everyone. Shalom, shalom. Come on in.

SPEAKER_01 0:18

Tell someone to tell. Welcome everyone.

SPEAKER_00 0:28

Welcome, welcome, welcome.

SPEAKER_05 0:37

What's behind you? Hey, how's it going, big girls? Welcome to another show. Let's go.

SPEAKER_00 0:49

Oh, this is Jessica.

SPEAKER_06 0:51

Let's go. Let's go. Welcome. Yeah, where's uh where I don't see your father behind you? Where'd he go?

SPEAKER_00 0:59

No, not today.

SPEAKER_05 1:01

Oh no, what happened to him? He walked, Larry left.

SPEAKER_00 1:04

Yeah, he over there sitting down.

SPEAKER_05 1:06

Larry not supporting the show today?

SPEAKER_00 1:10

Why do you have to always come on here and be a jokester?

SPEAKER_05 1:13

Come on here and be the life. Be uh the Zill, the energy. Amen. There you go. You need to come on a different way then. Well, yeah. Used to love this way. But how you how you doing today, huh?

SPEAKER_00 1:29

Tired.

SPEAKER_05 1:29

But I'm looking. Looking lost.

SPEAKER_00 1:31

Somebody looking lost. Looking lost. You need to iron that poster behind you. You could roll her out a little better.

SPEAKER_05 1:39

Yeah. Well, I didn't know where um Kai is with her friends Abby and Ariella. You know? So what's the subject tonight?

SPEAKER_00 1:48

Tonight's subject is stop suffocating in the bubble of struggle.

SPEAKER_05 1:52

Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. That's deep. Because let me say what I was right now.

SPEAKER_06 1:56

Mm-hmm.

SPEAKER_05 2:00

You listen? Betrayal. You gotta stick with this. Betrayal, because you gotta tie this into it. Betrayal. Are you stabbing your loved ones in the back? Betrayal. Are you stabbing your loved ones in the back? Don't talk love. Live and show it. And I think you have to set out. You know, you have to set out wanting to be successful. And when you set out wanting to be successful, then you have to ask yourself, are you fighting against your own success? Are you fighting against your own story? Are you betraying you? Betrayal. Now what's the subject again?

SPEAKER_00 2:50

Stop suffocating in the bubble of struggle.

SPEAKER_05 2:53

Break free. Suffocating in the struggle in the bubble of struggle.

SPEAKER_01 3:01

Break free.

SPEAKER_05 3:04

See, I believe people have to be addicted to progress. And I believe what the scripture says, if Yahweh be for you, who can be against you? So if Yahweh is for you, the only one who can truly be against you is you. Right. And then you have to ask yourself, are you stabbing yourself in the back?

SPEAKER_06 3:30

And that's the second part. Wow. You versus you.

SPEAKER_05 3:35

All right. Well, tell me what you think about you versus you. Come on, let me let me hear what you think.

SPEAKER_00 3:39

Well, you are elaborating.

SPEAKER_05 3:40

What you were saying is if you I elaborate on everything because elaborate meanings that's like bowling. And when you bowl, you get the steam. When you get the steam, it go outside and it touch other people, you know? I'm elaborating. You versus you. Yeah, you versus you. And what's so deep is you can stab you in the back. Right. You can hinder you, and you can betray you. You could betray your dreams. You could betray your hopes. You could betray all of that, you know?

SPEAKER_00 4:08

Right. You could become a thief to yourself. And that's one of the bullets I had, a thief in sheep's clothing. Because if you are supposed to be Yahweh's sheep, and his sheep knows his voice, when you become a thief, then you're projecting as if you are Yahweh's sheep, but you are you're stealing from the children.

SPEAKER_05 4:39

Have you stolen a moment? Have you stolen a love moment? Have you stolen a passion moment? Have you stolen a joy moment? Have you stolen a moment from your family? A moment from yourself? Have you stolen it because you want to just revel in your anger? Revel in the fact that you're mad now, that you're not getting your way, you know? And so forth. But uh tying that into what you said, stuck in a bubble, you know? And listen, you said not only stuck in the bubble, but you said suffocating. Yes. So it means this person is so full of pride, they refuse to come outside their bubble for air. Come out their bubble for air. People gotta come out their bubble for air. But in order to come out for your bubble for air, once again, you can't destroy your own path. You can't destroy your own journey. You can't destroy your own love story. You know how many people destroy their own love story because they're mad? They come against their very own love story because they're mad, frustrated.

SPEAKER_03 5:41

Hmm.

SPEAKER_05 5:43

Now that's more than a come on, let me have some feedback. Not just mm-hmm. It's feedback. Hey, you want to roll. Keep going. Well, you want to roll too. You keep going because this bubble, you know? And the thing is, but suffocating in a bubble. A bubble that you created. And eventually, that whatever bubble a person creates, you're gonna run out of air. Eventually. And also recognize what the bubble does. The bubble doesn't allow other people in. It doesn't allow other people in.

SPEAKER_00 6:11

What I was gonna say is people create bubbles when they don't feel safe. And so whenever someone feels as if they're not safe, and that's a trick, because who told you you're not safe? The first person you should feel safe with is Yahweh. And so to go inside a bubble. Well, I think the first person you should feel safe with is yourself, too.

SPEAKER_06 6:31

Well, yeah, not everybody is safe for themselves. They don't.

SPEAKER_05 6:35

Let me ask you something. What was the last bubble you created? And when?

SPEAKER_00 6:40

Uh I don't know. I don't know when the last bubble I created. When was the last bubble you think I created?

SPEAKER_05 6:53

I'm just, I think it's a really good subject. So I'm gonna ask you, what's the last bubble you created? That you can think of. You know? When is the last bubble you created? Well, I'll say this, okay? I can't say when's the last bubble I created, but I can say this. The the last time I was tempted to stab myself in the bat concerning things that are going financially that I don't have control over, and it's so easy to just fall into, don't take the wrong way, Yahweh, why did this happen to me? And you can't you can't be in the mindset, Yahweh, why did this happen to me? You have to be in the mindset of what did Yahweh promise? You know, what did he promise? What is faith speaking? Because every interruption in your life is not of Christ. And every emergency hasn't been ordained of Christ. But we tend to we tend to say because he is the Adonai of our lives, this is had permission to to to test or prove me. But you can't get caught up in the test or to prove it. You you it because with with with within that, there's a temptation, there's a temptation to judge yourself and to accept the judgment. Or accept this is the judgment. When Abraham uh sacrificed in Yitzhak, it wasn't a judgment, you know, but you're tempted to believe this is a judgment, you know. There's a difference between a trying of your faith and judgment. A trying of your faith is something that is taking place where the judgment is the end of a matter. Where judgment is the end of a matter. So the whole thing is make sure you're not sabotaging. And then what I have to, I'm reminded of, I reminded, why did Yahweh bring this into my life? Why did Yahweh bless me with this in my life? So if Yahweh blessed me with something in my life, I'm convinced whatever he blessed me with has to have a good ending. Because the scripture says the end of a thing is better than his beginning. The word says with Yob, Yob, the end of Yob was better than his beginning. So the end has to be better. But within that, there's a temptation to stab yourself in the back and to beat yourself up, even when it comes to uh Yahweh. To stab yourself in the back. Well, maybe he really didn't want this for for me. Maybe he really didn't intend this for me. No, the blessings of Yahweh makes rich and he adds no sorrow to it. So wherever there's sorrow, he didn't add that. But a lot of times that sorrow will come in and you'll be tempted to stab yourself in the back, and so forth and so on. See, I had an example for my title.

SPEAKER_00 9:50

That's good. Why why why can't you just keep it where you're ministering something?

SPEAKER_05 9:55

Don't go left. You can have a title. We're a team. We're a team. Don't be left. Only thing I asked you was when the last time you created a bubble. That's all I asked. Or another way of creating a bubble is this. When was the last time you were paranoid? Not you, but asking people because you know, the last time you were paranoid, and because you were paranoid, you created a safe space. But in creating a safe space, you cut everyone else off. That's powerful. Right, right. Because a lot a lot of times, let's be for real, a lot of times people don't want to admit guilt. They don't want to admit where they're they're wrong. But there are things that have paranoia.

SPEAKER_00 10:38

That's deep though. What you said because spiritual paranoia, yeah. Yeah, well because it can't work without spirit of fear. Because I'm just I'm really meditating on that because when you're paranoid, do you see what a blessing I am to your life?

SPEAKER_05 10:54

Not just your show. Now, why are you getting upset that I'm a blessing to your life? Why are you getting upset? You got a good thing going on. I would hate for you to mess it up. I really would. I would hate for you to mess it up. Furthermore, I don't think you would treat me all that good today.

SPEAKER_00 11:11

What? I oh my god. I don't think you treat me all that good. No. It's looking 9-11, and you've already started with that. You need to stop coming on here like you advertising, like you looking for a new wife. Keep saying treatment bad. Keep saying you in for the love. Stop lying. Don't do that.

SPEAKER_05 11:30

But anyway, going back.

SPEAKER_00 11:31

We had a very long day. Would you admit that?

SPEAKER_05 11:34

Yeah, but I don't ever take out the day on nobody. I don't take out the long day on nobody.

SPEAKER_00 11:40

Who said you got something taken out on you? I'm just saying, you know. You think you know what you think? You think downtime is against you. You just like you just like high on life. Like all the time, which is cool, but I can say I am high.

SPEAKER_06 11:57

You you have high on life. No problem. I'm high on life. But getting back to what I was saying before.

SPEAKER_00 12:01

Okay, but I was saying. Okay. Don't forget. What I was saying is you act like somebody just taking a moment to relax and breathe. It's like it's like a fight against you. It's like, I'm not gonna jump off the table right now, but just sit here. Is that all right?

SPEAKER_05 12:22

Well, I don't want you jumping off the table because I don't want to break the table or the floor.

SPEAKER_00 12:26

Well, fix the chair downstairs. You can start there.

SPEAKER_05 12:30

Hey, what broke the chair? You sitting in it.

SPEAKER_00 12:32

No, what broke the chair is you should have bought a better chair.

SPEAKER_05 12:36

Hey, what's it called? It's what's that place called? Bed, Bath and Beyond. It's not around anymore. But we always see why. Yeah, because you keep breaking chairs.

SPEAKER_00 12:45

No, because they keep selling broken chairs.

SPEAKER_05 12:47

They ain't selling no broken chair. That chair wasn't broke when I bought it.

SPEAKER_00 12:51

That chair was broke when I put it in the kitchen. You're not gonna blame me for that.

SPEAKER_05 12:56

I'm not blaming you, I'm blaming your butt. There's a difference.

SPEAKER_00 12:59

Oh my gosh. What were you gonna say?

SPEAKER_05 13:02

What I was gonna say was selling some my fighting sticks. This is the first time that I have suffered loss and I'm not in sin. I'm not in sexual sin. Whenever you would go be in sexual sin, I would suffer loss. I'm not in sexual sin. I'm not, of course, I've never been a thief. My my thing was sexual sin. I've never been a thief. I've never been a liar, I can't lie. But anyway, and what do I mean by suffering loss? Okay, I'm believing Yahweh. I'm not just believing Yahweh to go to Oxford. You know that, I'm sure. I'm believing Yahweh to start an assembly in Oxford. I'm believing Yahweh to EVG. I'm believing Yahweh to pray over someone. I've never I've never gone anywhere and not evangelized, ever. You know? So it's it's it's it's very difficult when you are confessing something and you don't know the how. So I'm confessing something, I don't know the how. And of course, the how is the finances, the how is the money. I'm I'm I'm confessing this, and then out of nowhere, uh other bills tried to spring up. And everything in my life, my dad told me that his father, everything Yahweh blessed him with, he offered it back up to Yahweh. So everything I have from Yahweh offered up, everything house, car, computer, you name it, I offered back up to Yahweh. So then when Yahweh gives you something and you lose it, or it's something happens you didn't you didn't plan on happening. The first thing is why? But then where I am right now, I'm being humbled by Yahweh because Yahweh's proving me. The scripture says that Yahweh proved the children of Yisrael walking around 40 years in the desert. The word says that Yahweh proved Abraham. And proving of Yahweh is never a negative thing, it's always a positive thing. Him being the silversmith and so forth. Anyway, we're gonna long story short. It's like, for lack of a better word, every time I try to save a little something, a a new bill enters up. So you could use that and then go back to Yahshua in the Garden of Gethsemane. Let not my will be done, but let your will be done. But then you have to be reminded, wait a minute, and don't take this wrong way. Who gets glorified in this?

unknown 15:41

Right.

SPEAKER_05 15:41

And that's that's that's where the fight comes in. I know that Apostle Kingdomark, he prayed for me today. I had a terrible migraine. And I, to be honest with you, I believe what took the migraine away. Caffeine? Yep. Yeah. I I got a uh I just a few minutes ago, I got uh espresso from Starbucks. Oh Starbucks by Wawa. Oh and it immediately took away my migraine. So I think my body is craving uh caffeine. But anyway, Apostle Kingdom, he prayed for me, and I don't know if he's aware, but there's three significant things he said in the prayer that I knew was Yahweh. You know, I'm not gonna say it here. I'm not gonna say it here because I'm not gonna say it here because not everybody's on the same path, on the same plane. Nothing grieves me more. Nothing, nothing grieves me more than me believing Yahweh to go to Oxford to minister and to go to Oxford for my family and other people fighting homelessness. I just I I just can't I can't understand that on the same spectrum. That on the on the on the same spectrum. In other words, we're not praying to go to Oxford to get away from anything. We're praying to go to Oxford for a confirmation increase, and we wouldn't even be going to Oxford, we wouldn't have even thought about this if Yahweh did not bless our daughter, our firstborn. So we see where Yahweh blessing our daughter, our firstborn, it has opened up a whole new vision, a whole new eyesight, a whole new faith, a whole new authorship, and maybe even a whole new assembly. Where we see, and that's the way life should be. That your family members should open up new doors, new, new new new new new uh uh pieces of uh creativity. So what I've been having about to say Apostle Timmy Chris, or it's having Timmy Chris pray, now I'm praying. I'm praying who who I run into, who I meet, who I come across, so forth and so on. But anyway, that being said, when things don't go as you thought they would go, you're tempted to stab yourself in the back. And of course, you're not gonna call it stabbing yourself in the back. You're gonna call it I'm submitting to Yahweh's plan and will. And you call this I'm gonna fall on the sword. But still, you you have to go back to what did Yahweh promise, and not to digress or go off. And that's why I was telling Q, Apostle Kwame, what took place with him on the school board. Those are all the words for Dr. Apostle Chris. All those words of North Norfolk, I remember all those words, and those words are now in effect in him, you know, and so forth. But anyway, that means you can build a bubble, and then you begin to suffocate with with with within the bubble. You begin to to to suffocate, you begin to perish. And I refuse to put myself in a bubble. Another thing is I refuse to stab my marriage in the back. I refuse to I refuse to stab my testimony in the back. Apostle Paul told Timothy, that which you've confessed before many witnesses, be faithful to. So when you basically get married and you say publicly that you love someone, you know, you have to remember that confession. And that's a confession you you you have to you have to be reminded of and keep. And the girls are always making fun of you saying you spending time with your man, blah, blah, blah, blah, you know, but you know, you you taking time away from their father because you you you monopolizing their father to be your man, you know. But within it, why are you laughing? Because that's them. Okay, well, you expound on it.

SPEAKER_00 19:42

Oh, well, if they see us walk, going out the door, if they see us going upstairs, if they see us in the kitchen, they're like, oh, mommy, you want to watch this movie with us? Oh no, my bad. You going with your man, you going upstairs with your man, or you're going out with your man.

SPEAKER_05 19:55

But the good thing, it it teaches them positive relationships. And I pray you never come up against that positive relationship.

SPEAKER_00 20:01

Why would I come up against the positive relationships? Everybody knows I am a negative East in this marriage. Stop doing that.

SPEAKER_04 20:08

Energy. Energy.

SPEAKER_00 20:09

What?

SPEAKER_04 20:10

Energy. Energy. Energy. Energy, energy, energy.

SPEAKER_00 20:15

Why don't you do my energy then?

SPEAKER_04 20:17

Energy. Energy. Energy.

SPEAKER_05 20:20

Yeah. So since you don't remember the last time you were in a bubble, let's talk about what some bubbles that people create. And within this bubble, they suffocate because another way of saying it is taking a plastic bag over your face. That's a form of suicide.

SPEAKER_00 20:33

Or losing hope. Like you said, it's a form of suicide, because losing hope is a form of suicide too. When was the last time you lost hope in something?

SPEAKER_05 20:46

Um, don't act like you weren't saved at one time, okay?

SPEAKER_00 20:50

Yeah, but see, that's that's the thing.

SPEAKER_05 20:52

Like, I I stay away from that mind frame because it's I mean, because that's good, because when we were talking the other day about Minister Andrew, you said I can't imagine him. I no longer see him, can't imagine him as an addict.

SPEAKER_06 21:04

Right, yeah.

SPEAKER_05 21:05

And that's when your testimony is fierce.

SPEAKER_06 21:07

Yeah.

SPEAKER_05 21:08

Beyond fierce. Where he is right now, him being an addict, an ODN, does not fit with the new Christmas.

SPEAKER_00 21:16

Doesn't fit, yeah.

SPEAKER_05 21:17

That Yahweh made. But that's why we have to be strong and make sure that we're not walking in betrayal. Right. And for for me, don't take this the wrong way, please don't. But that terrible person who murdered those eight kids, seven of them were his kids. Yes. That's betrayal of parenthood. That's total betrayal. These these you're you're the father, and you you went from being the father to the predator.

SPEAKER_06 21:47

Yes.

SPEAKER_05 21:48

You you you went from being the father to to to to murder. That's that's that's betrayal.

SPEAKER_00 21:54

You know, betrayal is right. And that's a thief. That's a thief. That's another form of Of a thief in sheep's clothing because the the family they didn't see that coming because it's like this person we know, but the person that murdered them they didn't know that person. He became somebody else. And he betrayed himself, he betrayed his children, he betrayed the mothers of his children, he betrayed his his in-laws because I think one of the kids he murdered was a cousin to the kids. And so it's like in betraying yourself, you become someone else. And then you project that onto other people. And it's like, who is that? You don't you can't recognize that person because somewhere they changed garments. Somewhere. Then it's like, no, this is not who I knew. This is not who I know. You like me to say something.

SPEAKER_05 22:50

Well, no, well, okay, I I I internalize things and I always have a movie. So when you said they become someone else, I'm I'm imagining you putting on this costume. I'm imagining you. Here you go. Here you go. Just say it. You become vilified. No, but no, no. Living out what you're saying. I do that when I when I minister. I'm living out what's going on. Well, it's like that.

SPEAKER_00 23:11

It's what's that movie we always talk about? Fallen.

SPEAKER_05 23:15

Yeah, but also the one with uh was it Primal Fear?

SPEAKER_00 23:18

Primal Fear.

SPEAKER_05 23:20

Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 23:20

Oh, yeah, all of those things, it makes you Yeah, he was he was uh someone totally different.

SPEAKER_05 23:26

He was playing all innocent, yeah.

SPEAKER_00 23:28

I hope nobody wanted to look at that.

SPEAKER_05 23:31

Well, they might find themselves in there.

SPEAKER_00 23:33

Spoiler. Spoiler alert. But no, it's it's it's very, very dangerous to believe that someone is a certain person or trust that someone is the person that you know or knew, especially in Christ. And then they present and they become someone different. Now it's like, you know, wait a minute, now you're hesitant, and now you're cautious because it's like this person is not walking in the characteristics I knew them to walk in, or they're not the person I knew them to be. And so now you're like you're kind of cautious, but if they can't, if they come as a thief in the night, it's different because now they're creeping up on you. Like it's like a thief is coming to steal, kill, and destroy something. So it's it's you know, thieves are they they're very cunning, it's very well what's so powerful about that, and and we couldn't do this.

SPEAKER_05 24:34

Of course not. No one can list their blessings, but with every significant emotional event of blessings that came into your life, comes a story. So I'm determined not to lose those blessings. Of course, you are daughters, family, ministry. So I keep these things, I keep these things before me. I keep I keep I keep watch over them. And what what do I mean by that? To make sure, excuse me, I'm not destroying a testimony. I'm not coming up against that. You know, that's uh that's very, very, uh, very, very key. Just like today when we went to see Chris Durkin. When we went to see Chris Durkin, the first thing that I reminded him of was when we did the video by Best Buy, and because I remember him commenting on it, and you, you and the girls walking up, and you were pregnant with Kaya. And then to hear today that he has a 19-year-old, what a 19-year-old, a 17-year-old, and a 14-year-old.

SPEAKER_00 25:57

And a 14-year-old, yeah.

SPEAKER_05 25:58

So you were pregnant while his wife was pregnant. That was a significant emotional event. But remembering that blessing, you know, the consistently, and once again, don't take the wrong way, that goes back to 2011. That goes back to to A11, you know. The first would be last, but so you remember all of these, you, you, you remember all these blessings. I don't know if you can see that.

SPEAKER_00 26:26

Yeah, I can see it.

SPEAKER_05 26:28

Yeah, but but it all of that, all of that should count for something. And it it should cause you to fight even more so. Because now where I am, don't take the wrong way. I'm I am determined to I'm determined to to be healthy at a hundred and a hundred and five. I'm determined, you know. But remembering the blessings and and the and the role that I'm called to play. But once again, you can't put yourself in a bubble and you can't betray, you cannot betray who you're called to be, especially when you find yourself in a detour or or dead end. You can't you can't betray who you are. You know, you you gotta be reminded of that. Right. And so forth.

SPEAKER_00 27:21

Well, remembering what a bubble is is suffocation, because you can't breathe in there. And it can make you okay, let me say this. Whenever a person goes into a bubble, it can be. That's what I was asking.

SPEAKER_06 27:35

When's the last time you went into a bubble? I think that's something real good. It is.

SPEAKER_00 27:40

Well, let me say this because if you're tired, you can put yourself in a bubble. Oh, okay. Because if you're tired, you put yourself in a bubble. You are tired of it. You put yourself in a bubble because you're winding down, you need peace, you want space, and so it's not necessarily a negative. It's just necessarily let me ask you something.

SPEAKER_05 28:06

Since you're saying that, be honest. Sometimes do you need space for me? What? Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 28:14

What do you mean, be honest?

SPEAKER_05 28:16

Like, like well, but what do you mean you need space for me? I want to hear this.

SPEAKER_00 28:25

Like I said, I represent the calm in your life. Sometimes you just you like to just wow out, and and then I'm just like, I got nothing left right now. You just like you the person who come who, if I'm laying down, you just come here, jump on the bed, and just be like, you ain't got no energy, like, bro. I'm dead tired. Like, so yeah, but I mean, if you're honest, you need you need a break from me too. You take breaks.

SPEAKER_05 29:00

No, only only when you're being nasty and standoff that you don't want to show and walk in love. You know what I'm saying? That's what I'm telling me.

SPEAKER_00 29:07

Okay, give give an example of that. How am I nasty and standoff is? What am I doing to you? Please.

SPEAKER_05 29:16

Today when we went to do the the um the uh the passports, you didn't hold my hand. Oh my gosh. Kaya held my hand. Kai's always there to hold my hand. You don't even walk fast. You're walking all ahead of us. Okay, here we're in public. Don't know who's looking at us.

SPEAKER_00 29:34

See, this this is where people go into the bubble for the wrong reasons because they start thinking stuff that's not true. First of all, you don't know, you never know where you're going. You never know where you're going. No, I don't know where I'm going. Okay, so you just automatically assume like I got the whole roadmap in the world, so I have to take the lead. So now I have to figure out if this is the building that we're supposed to go to.

SPEAKER_05 29:58

So I'm like Robert sent the building.

SPEAKER_00 30:02

Yeah, he sent a lot of information that was inaccurate today. So, so again, I have to walk ahead and make sure we're going in the right place. So if not, before you be like, This ain't the building, I thought you knew where you were going, I go and see. And then if it's not the building, I turn around and say, hey, baby, we're going the wrong way. But that didn't happen. I led us to the right place. So you shouldn't take it as I was being mean to you. And you had you had Kai. We were like a whole big parking lot with like 10 kids.

SPEAKER_01 30:36

What's that? Oh you cut that out?

SPEAKER_02 30:43

No, I didn't cut that out.

SPEAKER_01 30:46

Look like a cutout.

SPEAKER_00 30:50

Never mind you them pop-up books.

SPEAKER_05 30:53

Yeah, right. No, Allison cut these out.

SPEAKER_00 31:00

But it's a cutout, is what I was saying. And not necessarily you. You should make it into a pop-up book.

SPEAKER_05 31:08

Maybe she did make it into a pop-up book.

SPEAKER_00 31:11

So what happened?

SPEAKER_05 31:12

You ripped it out? No, it's in the book with her all her boyfriends. Oh my gosh. I guess you were like, get this out of my house. Get this out of my house. And this is what she took to college. No, but it's it's very important for people not to betray their own dreams and what Yahweh called them to do. Very, very, very important. You know, and that's what we're passing on to the girls. And right now, Allison said lies. What's she saying lies about? These are no lies. You want me you want me to open the book up, Al? Oh my god.

SPEAKER_00 31:50

No, no, no, no.

SPEAKER_05 31:52

She got like three books here. Three books. Three books a picture.

SPEAKER_00 32:01

Three books. Don't open a whole book.

SPEAKER_05 32:06

But um, but it's constantly not betraying yourself. And then, you know, I've been uh posting because you know y'all tell them to post stuff, and I'm always confessing stuff. But I was I'm gonna peach on this. Someone on Facebook said, if you have real faith, you don't have any evidence. I'm like, what? They said if you have real faith, you have no evidence. Like that's when the scripture clearly says now faith is a substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. You do have evidence. It's just that people can't see it. You can't see it, but it's still evidence. We do have evidence, and so I'm gonna do a whole study on evidence. So I have evidence. So but it comes a time because right now, don't take the wrong way, but we should never lose bet y'all. Right to to and if we're on the verge of of losing bet y'all, we're supposed to fight for because of how the testimony began. You you know what I'm saying? So you have you you have to uh uh understand the testimony, then it would be easy to s stab yourself in the back. And of course, don't take the wrong way. I'm not talking about judgment, I'm not talking about sin. I'm talking about living life and in the process of life, thing things, things happening, things taking place. You've got you've got to know when to fight and what and what to fight for. Like right now, I'm commanded to fight for for Oxford. Every time I say Oxford, I think about Oxford, North Carolina. When we used to leave Granny's house and go to Walmart and Oxford, we take the girls there. And there's nothing that's gonna there's nothing gonna stop us from going to Oxford. That's one reason I'm praying for this idiotic Trump to just take an L and let this loss be a loss. But also when you look listen to Timmy, I don't know if you've been listening to Timmy and Jess, they've had these dreams of going certain places in England. Did you hear them talk about that? No. Yeah. And when Timmy first got the the thing for Oxford, Jess was like, oh, I wish I could go because now you can go places that we talked about.

SPEAKER_00 34:35

I heard that, yeah. I heard something about that.

SPEAKER_05 34:37

And I never knew that. So they they already had a vision of officer.

SPEAKER_00 34:42

Way before this, they used to talk about all the England.

SPEAKER_05 34:45

Yeah. Yeah, way before this. So that's even more so what to what what what to what to fight for, you know, what to fight for. I spoke to Elder Lane today, he called me, and he was basically they're having a marathon in in East Orange Sunday, and Reverend Dr. Pastor Maria was very upset because it's not funny. I'm just because they're cl they're cut closing off Elmwood Avenue and Rhode Island, you know, for five miles. They're closing it off to like 10:30 a.m., you know. But anyway, I was blessed because in the conversation, to keep it short, in the conversation, I felt Yahweh. And in filling Yahweh, I felt everything that Yahweh promised. And in filling every in filling everything that Yahweh promised, don't allow someone else to come in and hinder what Yahweh promised. Because sometimes when you give over to the hindrance, you're tempted to make a sacrifice. And sometimes that sacrifice is you. Never sacrifice your faith or your promise, especially because of someone else's error or lack of diligence and so forth. But that's that's key. And also, how many people you say that how many people put themselves in a bubble, you know, because quote unquote, they didn't want to hurt anybody else, offend someone else, or didn't want to ask someone else for help. They still suffocate. Yeah.

SPEAKER_00 36:23

And the bubble is see-through. So it's like you didn't want somebody to know something, so you went into a bubble, but everybody could see what you're doing with in the bubble. It's like you're clearly suffocating. You're not telling anyone, you act like people can't see you, and it's really sad because it's like, what have you learned from Yahweh? Like, what have you gotten from Yahweh? What have you done to change the things Yahweh commanded you to change in order for you not to have to be in this bubble? And so it's always like a constant reminder. You were called out of the bubble. Yahweh even popped it for you a few times. And then what? You created a whole new bubble and went and said, No, this is where I'm comfortable. This is where I feel safe. And it's like safe from who?

SPEAKER_06 37:13

And safe from who and safe from what?

SPEAKER_00 37:15

Safe from what? While you're while you're dying inside of the bubble, it's like you're safe from who and safe from what?

SPEAKER_05 37:23

I don't know. But see, that's the common. I believe if you truly believe in love, you have to look for opportunities to confirm your love. Especially when things are trying to go left or right. That's the opportunity. I'm always about how to interject to bring about a positive reaction, you know, a a a positive end that that is that's that's mandatory, that's that's very much, very much needed. And that should be in every area of our lives. Now I was thinking about what I was gonna say before, because you know, I get into these deep conversations with Yahweh, and where I am now is you know, Yahweh, why do you hide so much? Why do you why do you hide so much? And then when you when you look at the word and the history of man has always pushed Yahweh away. Man has always pushed Yahweh away. Man has always wanted to be independent of Yahweh. So, of course, I study on the greatest story ever told, meaning that Yahushua Hamashach is not the first story of Creator coming down, dying, being resurrected, and so forth. Because that story was given first to Adam and Eve. And they carried that story all throughout. But man has always pushed Yahweh away. And it's even proof of that in the last dispensation when Yahshua comes and reigns for a thousand years. The word says that Yahshua's coming back, he's gonna reign for a thousand years, and Satan's gonna be locked up a thousand years, and then Satan's gonna be loose to deceive the world again, and even though Yahshua has lived on earth for a thousand years, nations are gonna rise up against him. So it doesn't make a difference if Yahweh is hidden or Yahweh is seen. Men don't want to submit under his authority. Men birthed and born of Adam and Eve. And that's that's very, very deep. So within everything, Yahweh is always building true love relationship, you know. And I think what people don't want to hear is that Yahweh can be hurt in relationship, which is powerful. Yahweh does not save himself from the pain of being hurt from disappointment or relationship. Look, don't take away. The Hebrews made a complete liar out of him. They never made it to the promised land. They walked in the desert for 40 years. What he promised them did not happen, did not take place. And once again, they put themselves in a bubble. They put themselves in a bubble, and every time he delivered them out of the bubble and they returned back to the bubble, he's like, okay, you're gonna have exactly what you what you say, you know, and people don't like to hear it, but Yahweh can give up on you.

SPEAKER_00 40:42

That's deep. Oh, that's scary. But listen to what you said, they put themselves in the bubble in disobedience. People not only put themselves in the bubble, but they take other people with them. So then now you create this whole home in a bubble for you and other people. And clearly you're all suffocating in that bubble. And so it's like now you not only have you put yourself in danger, you have taken a whole lot of people and put them in danger too. Why? Because you decided to disconnect from a truth, you decided to disconnect from reality, and you think you can hide in plain sight. And it's like, no, you can't hide in plain sight. We can see this. Why won't you communicate? Why won't you say I need help? Why won't you say that I'm I'm I'm struggling? I need help. I need direction. I need someone to point me in the right direction, someone give me some sort of connection, some, some, you know, connect me with people who can help. It's like, I don't know why people refuse to ask for help when help is everywhere. It's like all you have to do is be able to connect to it. But if you don't say I need help, you can't get connected to it because you won't say I need help. So people think, okay, they okay then.

SPEAKER_05 42:00

I was telling Apostle Kingdomark that every good parent positions their children to be better off financially, better off spiritually, better off mentally than they are. Every good parent does that. That being true, every good parent cuts off generational curses so that those curses do not pass on to loved ones. And I was telling uh Apostle Kingdom Ark, there's no way that Mira could ever be homeless because she has loving parents. Loving parents be like, you always got a place to stay. But in the same token, Mira's gonna be in a position to bless them. You know, Mira's gonna be in a position to bless them. So it's very important to remember that Yahweh called us to be progressive. So where I am, where I am right now, I am getting older. I recognize that ministry affects me differently. So I have to create a buffer zone. Because what do I mean by create a buffer zone? It's very difficult to have a progressive okay, it's very difficult to talk about people going to Princeton while other people meditating on dropping out of elementary and high school. It's like, yo, where does that come from? And then you have to understand there's the the the spectrum, and then I'm meditating about Moshe and Yefro Rasul, his father in law. It's that look, you're gonna lose it. You got too many, you can't have.

SPEAKER_00 44:00

all of this you got too many people coming coming coming your way so a buffer zone has to be created don't take the wrong way to keep crazy from me because it comes up against no it does i mean it's to me i i can't i can't let it go i'm believing yaway to go to oxford you don't believe you can't believe that you it's a contradiction believing to go to oxford and we can't feed our kids dinner right or we're believing to go to oxford and we can't provide heat right you know right that's that's a that that's that's a I mean look we plan we talk about winning the championship and we can't even get the first base it's like what how about this oxford being oxford being Oxford being some months away and by the time it comes our heat is shut off lights shut off they're about to lock the door all of that and we still like yeah we're going to Oxford I mean it doesn't make sense it doesn't make sense and it's it's people constantly yes it's dysfunction and people believe that they're functioning in dysfunction which is like just out of this world like how do you do that and then put Yahweh's name on that you can't do that. That's not right.

SPEAKER_05 45:25

I believe everybody in our ministry was called to win their parents and to provide a better life for their parents and I'm very proud that I did that I I I remember when my Uncle Harrison came to the house when he first saw the house and he he he he went he went and bought cement he showed me how to fix certain things but I remember his exact words and his words was Merlin deserves this. I never forget that and what what he was saying is that my mom made a lot of sacrifices but mama deserved to have her own house and I made that happen. And that that is still to this day a badge of honor. Right that through my profession through my career I I provided that and so forth.

SPEAKER_00 46:20

But I believe that's everyone's calling in Bet Hashimiawe I believe that's that's that's everyone's calling and that being the calling once again you have to be determined not to stab yourself in the back you know but also like like you saying about um breaking generational curses in order for that to happen one of the generational curses in my family my father was crazy all right wait hold that thought hold that when you talk about breaking generational curses there's a reason why you become born again in Christ because then you come from underneath whatever you were raised in and whatever traumas that came with it. Once you're born again all of that stuff is supposed to you know shed in Christ you're supposed to shed all of that off. Not saying you forget things you you don't forget your testimony but you're not supposed to you know just continue to carry that once you're born again. And once you're born again then you have to be re raised again. You have to be re raised again in Christ so that you understand that this life that you once lived is not life. And then that's the only way that you can give back in a different manner than what your parents gave you. Because everybody didn't get positive from their parents and you are once you get saved and once Yahweh changes you then you become answer prayer for them so that you can in turn impart something that they never had because they're only giving you what they've received. They don't know like they don't know how to give wealth because they've never been given wealth they've never been taught wealth. And so they pass down all the brokenness and it keeps going until someone cuts it off.

SPEAKER_06 48:04

So when you you get delivered in Christ you're supposed to truly walk in come out of that bubble you're supposed to truly walk in that bubble why are you yelling because it's powerful babe it's powerful huh okay and look it made you smile yeah you yelling over my point no no don't don't don't think I'm coming up against I'm talking and you like come out of that bubble okay finish talking go ahead finish talking no it's powerful i i i look i i think you have the the greatest influence over your children when they're young so that's the time to really be who Yahweh called you to be because teenage years gonna change a lot and then of course adulthood you're dealing with you're doing dealing with a grown up you know you're dealing with a grown up you gotta make sure you have positive influence over your daughter though when they're I think what breaks my heart you have people who are not parenting when the parenting is needed the most yeah and and it's like they refuse to be who Yahweh called them to be you know I forgot to tell you I spoke to Minister Nigas and she was telling me how things are going and you know and so forth and so on.

SPEAKER_05 49:34

She's meeting a lot of people and the business ideas but also she was basically saying how Yahweh's dealing with her with a spirit of discernment basically who to do do business with who not to do business with what to look out for. And I think people lay down their discernment when raising children you know how about this babe if you don't know how to cry out for help if you don't know how to cry out for help how are you gonna cry out when your kids need help because because people who live in a bubble will raise their children in a bubble you know and and so forth. I just think it's it's wrong if you know the ship is sinking and you don't tell nobody and we just hear you drown. And he's like how did they drown? And they were like wait a minute the ship was sinking and you were watching TV? Keep coming to church wet was sinking church wet it's like what what why are your clothes wet oh nah I was just you know no but what really gets me let me say this because this is the other thing the other thing that really gets me it becomes an oxymoron when you have the bishop the first apostle and their family talking about going to Oxford but here you're talking to somebody who's not a part of Bed Hashim Yahweh and it's like what your bishop's going to Oxford and you don't have food on your table? What your bishop's going to Oxford and and you're homeless? What your bishop's going it just it just it just makes the whole ministry look bad you know and and that's something I I would not do. And it goes back to what I said again when you are a part of a team it's it's it's it's the whole it's a whole team effort you know I'd rather deal with a$25 late fee than a$3,000 late fee. Wow there's a difference you know there's a difference. What's so deep though how about how about if you only communicate with other people who are in a bubble right right now I don't know if you caught what I just said yeah now this is just people in bubbles communicating but what it would seem as if the people in the bubbles are being left out but the peoples in the bubbles are not being left out they've already separated themselves by being in a bubble and then you can come to a place where you stab yourself in the back because you feel as if hey Yahweh's not not with this you know and so forth.

SPEAKER_00 52:11

Right right and then and then everybody outside of the bubble the people in the bubble acting like you the strange ones like uh it's like you in the bubble what what yeah but it's it's um it's really sad it's not it's sad because it can be fixed it could be it can be fixed it can be changed if if if the person or people want change because people like they find comfort in dysfunction and that that has to change you can't you can't keep feeling like dysfunction is a safe haven for you. And it that's what that's what puts you in a bubble you want to get away from reality and you want to get away from people who will you know point you in the right the way in the right direction by giving you wisdom and by speaking things that you may not want to sometimes people view wisdom as picking on them.

SPEAKER_05 53:11

And that's why you've got to surround yourself you know you you you you you have to surround yourself and I I'm really caught up in Oxford I'm I'm praying I'm on guard I need this war to end you know one of the next videos I'm gonna do is Trump hates white people right now what's happening in the in the military Trump is firing white racist people in the military who support him who did not have a problem when he was getting rid of black and brown generals now they're on the outskirts. So now they're being forced to recognize what black and brown people have been saying from day one the man is sick the man is crazy. I remember I gotta say this I remember when MAGA and white evangelicals were calling me names because I said Trump is an antichrist. Now you have MAGA and white evangelicals calling Trump an antichrist I said I'll have to say this you need people in your life who are going to speak some hard truths.

SPEAKER_00 54:26

Come on stop wiping your eyes I'm talking you need some people in your life who are going to speak some some some truths even when those truths are hard and then to to to to recognize when you have an unhealthy thought process when you have an unhealthy thought process you need healthy people to come in and help you think well listen to this it goes back to Trump an unhealthy thought process is not isolated and people were treating it like his unhealthy thought process was isolated for a certain group of people it's like a person who is like a Trump who is just all over the place he he he's not stable in any way and because of the way he thinks it's it's not an isolated thing. It's like you think that you can trust his thought process it's like they trusted him so much that they voted him in. It's like are you serious? You can see clearly that the man is not stable but because you thought that it was isolated only for black and brown people then you decided well he he's just like that to them. And now people are getting to understand no no no he's not just like that to them he's like that because he's just really not stable like the man is sick.

SPEAKER_05 55:45

Everything he does is like there's the is there's no explanation the supreme court is sick too yes and it's it's it's happening fast and that's what come I believe there's gonna be a a motivation for people to come out and vote just to get rid of Trump and his administration in the midterms that is going to put into play New America there's so much we spoke into existence that now is now the time to fulfill that you know there's so much we we we we spoke into existence. But then again going back to Apostle Kingdom praying over me having people who can pray and speak things into your life that only you know only Yahweh could have spoken that you know only Yahweh could have spoken that only Yahweh could have said that. But that'll never happen if you don't communicate if you don't reach out if you don't give people access so when I was speaking to Apostle King Mark I think somewhere in the conversation he asked me how I was doing and I said well you know I was talking about Christina you know the miracles with what the doctors were saying of course we're praying for Dr. George and of course I'm crazy now so I'm confessing Christina's gonna be totally healed by Sunday you know cancer. But then he asked me how I was doing I said well actually I'm fighting the migraine to the point the tears are coming out my down my eyes because I was fighting the the migraine and I haven't had I told you I haven't had my migraine since I was a teenager and but that loosed a prayer and what we live by prophecy is compass a compass and there was prophetic words that were loosed you know then I moved on immediately. There were prophetic words that I but see I to me even if you're tempted to be in a bubble a prophetic word will bam right if but but you need you you need friends bold enough to ask you how you're doing and then pray you know and and then upon praying you get a word but a word doesn't mean anything if you don't move on it. Right and I think tonight what's so powerful is how many people are in a worse state because they lived in a bubble and how many people were in a worse state because the thief comes to still kill and destroy but it wasn't the thief that stabbed you in the back it was you wow yes now you put that turtleneck on on purpose I don't know why you got rid of Larry tonight. I'm very upset about that you got rid of Larry you need to be honest why did you get rid of Larry tonight babe? It's just a different background for tonight different background is is is my stuff my books my bookshelf your bookshelf is in there sometimes even with Larry up there.

SPEAKER_00 58:46

Yeah you got rid of Larry yeah Larry missed out on one good show tonight you got rid of Larry Larry my name is Larry float float on my name is Larry you know you got rid of Larry it's amazing how much you smile on this show you need to do that more often we're gonna name this show we're gonna name this show we're gonna come up with a different name because you always got something smart to say well it's 1001 babe it's 1001 okay give out the closing thought well to me the closing thought is it's never too late as long as you hear his voice to me you can hurt Christ you can hurt Yahweh if you love him stop hurting him do not stab your marriage in the back do not stab your children in the back do not stab your dreams in the back do not live in a bubble sometimes keeping information away from loved ones just makes it hurt more especially when it deals with food clothing shelter it it just it just hurts more and want to thank everybody for praying for Apostle Kim praying for Christina let's continue to pray that Dr.

SPEAKER_05 1:00:14

George is one and so forth. But let's continue to pray for all of Elmwood United Presbyterian Church let's continue to pray for the vision that Yahweh gave us with Elmwood United Presbyterian Church the vision Yahweh gave us with East Arnest County and once again a big shout out to Yahweh for remembering all the words that went on Dr. Apostle Chris for being with the school board and Apostle Q walking in it. That's beyond awesome I'm in well thank you all for joining we love you guys see you soon Yahweh bless all right keep smiling babe I don't want to come upstairs you lose that smile you keep that smile good night everybody Yahweh bless shalom shalom