Self-Aware Millennial

S3:E1// What is Human Design? with Aycee Brown

October 01, 2019 Season 3 Episode 2
Self-Aware Millennial
S3:E1// What is Human Design? with Aycee Brown
Chapters
Self-Aware Millennial
S3:E1// What is Human Design? with Aycee Brown
Oct 01, 2019 Season 3 Episode 2
Liv Hadden
I talk to Human Design expert, Aycee Brown, about what Human Design is and how you can use it to follow your life's purpose and know yourself better.
Show Notes Transcript

I talk to Human Design expert, Aycee Brown, about what Human Design is and how you can use it to follow your life's purpose and know yourself better.

What is Human Design? It's a powerful tool that combines the I Ching, astrology, Kabbalah, Hindu-Brahmin chakra system, and quantum physics. By learning about your Human Design aura type, you can unlock your full potential and take the guesswork out of who you are, why you're here, and how to make it happen!

Aycee helps Thought Leaders and Entrepreneurs tap into their magic and unleash their desires by becoming who they truly are through the power of Human Design. Her insight, perspective, and advice are hands-down the most practical and helpful I've seen out there. Human Design is such a robust tool, it can be overwhelming. Aycee makes it digestible and useful in a style that's unique to her.

Follow Aycee on Instagram @ayceebrown, listen to her podcast Is My Aura on Straight? wherever you listen to this show, and work with her by visiting her website, ayceebrown.com.



Speaker 1:
0:02
[inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible] [inaudible]
Speaker 2:
0:23
hello and welcome to self-aware millennial, the podcast for people who want to get their shit together and stop being so serious while they're at it. I'm your host live Hadden and I am as per usual, so stoked about today's episode and particularly our guest. We're going to be speaking with AC Brown who is a human design expert. Um, as I've mentioned, I wanted this season to really focus on tools, actual practical things that you could go run off and do once you listened to an episode checkout, feel into, see, see if you like it and then apply it to your life instead of just thinking about your life. And human design is a tool that I absolutely love. Um, I talk a little bit more about my experience with it in the interview with AC, but the, the short of it is just, I was at a women's, um, kind of like warrior workshop weekend with Heather Ash Amara and she had an entire table of these different books and on, it was a human design book and it just caught my eye immediately.
Speaker 2:
1:23
It was one of those things that called to me like it came to me. I didn't go to it, so I picked it up. I bought it and uh, it was Karen Curry Parker's understanding human design book. There's many human design books. That's just the one that I happen to pick up first and I loved it. The general idea is that you, each of us when we are born has a specific archetype and that archetype can tell you a lot about how you can manifest, what some of your obstacles in life are going to be, how to manage your energy, how to treat your body well, how to interact with people in a way that feels nourishing to you. It's just one more layer of getting to know yourself that can be so, so powerful. And of all the practitioners I've read or listened to, AC by far has given me the most impactful, powerful and important tips, advice and perspective on how to be in my human design, how to utilize my archetype and really get in my own flow and stop trying to do things the way everybody else is doing them.
Speaker 2:
2:25
Because it's not necessarily going to work well for me. I am not everybody else. Um, another thing that I want to say that it feels important to me that I'm going to start being more vocal about is my support of black women owned businesses. A lot of people wouldn't know this, especially from looking at me because I am very pale skinned, but I am mixed and how I'm half black, half white, and I feel very disconnected from the black side of my ancestry and my family and mostly the, the female line. Um, they're really, I don't have any close connections on that side of my family who are female from my aunt Deedee. And so one of the ways that I've been figuring out how to reconnect with that part of myself and to start integrating that, that is part of my identity is to look for and find, um, black women who are out creating products, providing services, what have you, that are excellent, that aligned with my value system.
Speaker 2:
3:20
Um, and that I feel actually could be beneficial for all of humanity. And so far I have not been disappointed. Every single black woman owned business I come across is just so well done. The amount of care, the amount of passion, the amount of knowledge these women have just across the board. I don't even feel bad generalizing right now because I haven't met one who didn't operate this way. Um, they are so powerful just in their presence alone and I feel extraordinarily blessed to be able to work with a lot of them, to be able to interview some of them like ACU, to learn from them. Um, and I would highly encourage you if you think that that kind of stuff doesn't matter or you think you're color blind, you're contributing to the problem. These are underserved businesses. These are women who have to fight 10 times as hard to have their voice heard.
Speaker 2:
4:11
It's fucking bullshit. I'm not supporting it. And so, um, I'm going to start being more vocal about those kinds of things that mattered to me. And guess what? You don't have to agree with it to get something out of this episode. You don't have to agree with it to really enjoy AAC and all of the things that she has to say by far the most unique human design expert I've ever heard. And, um, I highly, highly recommend you find her at the end. She's going to share her where you can find her on social and online. Highly recommend checking her out and following her. So without further ado, here is the magnificent, magnanimous and utterly irreplaceable AC brow. I AC, thank you so much for joining us on self-aware millennial. I'm really excited to talk to you about human design, which is a tool that I got introduced to like three or four years ago and just started really getting into and some of your insights were just so fucking helpful to me. Um, so if you wouldn't mind, just please introduce yourself and let us know a little bit about you and what you do.
Speaker 3:
5:12
Okay. Hi everyone. I am Acey Brown. I am a spiritual doula and intuitive strategist and I'm a human design expert and I'm also a serial entrepreneur. I've had many, many businesses as a projective, which we can talk about that. Um, and I have been publicly doing human design for almost two and a half, three years, but I've been studying human design for over eight years. Um, just learning about my own self and other people and I think it's a great tool, especially for millennials and people with in our age range who are trying to figure out and navigate the world in this Trump administration
Speaker 2:
5:56
pretty much. Okay. So that's, that's a lot of things that you do and are, and um, I can say you did a, you're, you came in where I guess mentor for the mastermind group that I'm in and everybody will know the name Nisha Moodley because I say her name so often. So AC came in and did, um, just pretty much on the spot readings for everyone in the group and she was just puking fire. She was saying stuff that I was like, has she been in this group the whole time? Um, and a lot of the things that you were saying to me landed, um, really beautifully. And actually I'll share a couple stories, probably later, like the week after that I started practicing the things you were, you were sharing. So, um, just for people who haven't heard of this and are like, what the hell is human design? What's like a really easy way to explain what the tool is?
Speaker 3:
6:46
So human design is a combination of astrology, Kabbalah, the I Ching metaphysics. Um, the shocker system, it was downloaded by someone in the late eighties, and um, they created this whole system. So it's literally, I like to say that human design, if you want to think about astrology versus human design, um, I like to use my new analogy of New York city. I'm from New York. So if, um, astrology are the burrows, are each of the barrels, human design is the subway system, how to get there. So, or if, you know, astrology is a finished Ikea bookcase or piece of furniture cause everyone's built something from Ikea, um, human design or the instructions on how to build it. So it's the step by steps on how to get to the ultimate goal because astrology is very helpful. It's a great tool. We all read our, you know, our horoscopes, we all follow tons of these great astrologists and all of that stuff.
Speaker 3:
7:49
It's just astrology isn't incompetent. This is what you should end up doing or being or acting in your lifetime. Human design is the how you do that, how you, um, how you birth those things, how you've, um, make those things manifest. And so human design, that's what I say is instructions on fulfilling your whole natal chart because your natal chart is like, okay, you have this in the seven house, this is what you should be, or this is what you're going to struggle with or that, but it doesn't tell you about the day to day on how to get there. And that's what human designed is,
Speaker 2:
8:26
which I love. That is something that I know a lot of millennials crave because we've kind of taken this whole concept of being an adult and turned it into a task list. You know, adulting. And I feel like human design gives you a way to actually adult, if you will.
Speaker 3:
8:41
Yes, it does. And it's not necessarily adulting, it's human design. What really comes down to about helping you make the best decisions to move forward towards your purpose and your destiny. That's really what it does. So you're not confused about the interim of, well, should I do this shit and I do that. It's like this is what you're supposed to do based off of your chart, your strategy, your aura type, and this is how you should execute those things. Okay. Yeah. Um, I, I love that so much. Um, before we get too deep into specifics, maybe you can kind of just go over the aura types cause that's kind of like the first thing that someone would want to understand. Yes. So there are five or a types, so I'll just start from the most popular to the least. The biggest population are manifesting generators in generators.
Speaker 3:
9:33
So generators, um, are 35% of the population manifesting generators are number 35. They make up 70%. And both of those or types are here to build something. Generators, our mastery over time and manifesting generators are shortcuts to mastery. So they're the builders, the workers of our society. So, um, Beyonce is a generator. Oprah Winfrey is a generator. Celine Dion, I use those women just in general, just because they have built something over time. Um, those, they are pure generators. Um, Jennifer Lopez, she's a manifesting generator. Um, well this is a manifesting generator. So many people who are manifesting generators. Um, okay. Rihanna is in manifesting generator, so they are finding shortcuts to mastery. Then you have us projectors. We make up of 22% of the population and we are here to guide and direct other people's energies and guide and direct creation. So Barack Obama, he's a projector. Um, then you have Cardi B as a projector.
Speaker 3:
10:42
Serena Williams is a projector. Um, so just thinking about those people in their careers and also Jeff Bezos of Amazon, he's rules our life now. He has guided and directed our whole entire lives. He's a projector. Um, and then you have the next, which are manifesters and manifesters make up 8% of the population and they are here to inform and, um, to inform us and to initiate. They're the only ones in human design that can just do it. Um, and some manifestors are Iyanla Vanzant. Um, J K Rowling is a manifestor. Amanda seals, they are manifesters. So if you look at their life and they're, they're talkers, they're readers there, you know, writers who just have vast, huge opinions and points of views. So that's what they're here to do. And then you have reflectors and reflectors are very small, only 2% of the population. And um, some reflectors are um, who's a reflector.
Speaker 3:
11:43
Oh, also my Angelo, she is a manifestor as well. And look at her being a writer and just an informer of the things. Um, reflectors are very small populations, only 2% of them. Sandra Bullock. That's probably one of the most famous reflectors that I know of. Um, and who else is a reflect? I think, let me just double check cause I always get reflected cause I had no actually a few reflectors in my life. Um, but there's not that many, um, in general. But there also, who else is reflector besides uh, Scott Hamill, the ice skating and figure skating. He's a reflector. Um, so those are the reflectors and so they're here too. They're strategy is a little interesting cause they really need to follow the moon cycle, but they're here to wait 20 days or to mirror. Um, they, they actually are probably the luckiest ones. They have the least energy, but
Speaker 2:
12:45
they can mirror anybody they want to and be successful. Oh, so that's why Sandra is such a great actress. Correct. Well there you go. That's, that's so interesting. I actually, um, I knew about all the archetypes except I knew reflector was one, I just didn't know anything about it. Yes. So I mean, well if you listen to the podcast, like I tell everybody listen to other art types.
Speaker 3:
13:08
So you know, reflectors are really amazing because they can mirror, they make wonderful, and I'm not saying that reflectors have to work for people, but they make a phenomenal employees. Um, they are like the company person. Like you know how like you work at a job and it's like that one person who is always like at the barbecues, like really involves or like in school, who's like that person who's a part of all the clubs. Every, those are reflected because they're allowed to mirror people and so they can mirror anything they want to. It's based off of their environment.
Speaker 2:
13:43
Oh, interesting. Very interesting. Okay. So if somebody, um, before we get it, cause there's so much more to this chart then you're more a type a, but if somebody were kind of curious about what their art type was and how to figure that out, uh, what would you recommend they do? Well, they can either come to my instagram@acbrown.com. Well that's not my Instagram as whole website, but go to my Instagram and click the link in the bio and they can click your or like find out your aura type and I'll send you like your type and so other resources to get you started. Okay. And I'll put just so everybody's not like scrambling to do that on your phone now. I will put that in the show notes and on the YouTube show notes as well so that that's available. Okay. So I want to share, I'm a projector just for everybody who knows ACS also a projector.
Speaker 2:
14:33
And so, um, it was really interesting and cool for me when we were on this call because, um, each archetype has a strategy and that strategy is kind of the way that they can operate in the world with the elite, the least amount of friction, a lot more ease. It's kind of, um, the way that it's been manifesting me is it's kind of like where my center is. The more attached to my strategy as the more like myself I feel on the more certain I feel of my decision making. Um, maybe you have better terms to put that in as the expert.
Speaker 3:
15:05
Well, I would say when you are in alignment and you're following a strategy, things just seem to go a lot better. Especially for someone like us projectors. We find ourselves until you find out you're a projector, you spend your time forcing things, trying to make things happen because we're around a lot of generators and I always have a belief that, um, most projectors have at least one generator parent. Um, but B, we get that those bad things that, you know, Oh, you're lazy and you're this, you're that. And all of this stuff in our childhood based off of our parents. So it's kind of like we've been conditioned to do and just do and make things happen and get things done. So when you find out that you are a projector, you're like, Oh, I've been doing this all wrong. And so it's more about once you find out your strategy, it's, I think it's more of a internal confidence to be able to move forward in the right direction so you're not forcing things so you're not like, you know, over-analyzing stuff. So you're just like, you know, for us it was an invitation or not, you know, what that looks like. And if it's not, then it probably isn't right for you. And invitations for us, they need to make us happy and if they don't, we don't have to accept them. So that's, you know, it's, that's a lot of power in T that's a lot of, you know, just empowerment in yourself to be able to have that and to not, um, okay. To not feel insecure about your decision making, if that makes any sense.
Speaker 2:
16:44
Yeah. That. That makes a lot of sense to me. And I think a lot of people kind of spin out on what's the best thing to do, what's the right thing to do? And everybody will, um, you know, asks their mother, their brother, their cousin, their best friend, their coworker, their asking everybody else what they should do. And the problem with that is, is if you're not aware of your archetype in their architype, the advice they're giving you could be so wrong for you. So that head shake,
Speaker 3:
17:12
I don't take advice from my mother, like I don't like, I just, I just don't like she's, he's the last, I love her to death. She's the last person I'm going to take advice from.
Speaker 2:
17:25
Yeah. Well, I, I think that this is a good thing to talk about, especially like if you're someone who struggles in a relationship with your parents or your parents and you're kind of struggling to understand your kid. Um, this was, that was a huge thing for me between my mom and I cause my mom's a generator
Speaker 3:
17:40
and
Speaker 2:
17:40
her version of getting things done in the way you get things done, works for her. And I was trying so hard to do it her way and to make it work and just wasn't working. And the, the, the loop that I was getting stuck in was, well, if it's working for her and not for me, it must be, there's something wrong with being wrong with you and that's not the case. Right? Yeah. So I just remember reading, um, my first human design book and just sobbing over it because there was just all this permission to just like be myself and stop trying to be something else. I was just like falling. I was like, this book gets me. Oh, right. Yeah. Right.
Speaker 3:
18:18
And that's well ho ho with me. Hopefully when my book is done, you don't give a little bit more. I'm working on a book as well and it's just like, ah, it's, it's a lot because a lot of the human design books and as you listen to my podcast and what you see, a lot of the information out there is, so, I don't want to say outdated, but it's not relatable at all because you have a particular generation, um, giving you the information. It's not wrong or right, but it's just a different time. You know, someone who is, you know, a lot of the human design people who are prominent now, they're in between the ages of 50 and 70. So for someone such as ourselves stumbling upon human Zion, even in the last five years, the climate in the world is totally different. So you can't tell me to, you know, just wait for invitation for a job or something like that when they come from an era where you can actually start in the mail room and then work your way up in five years and be the CEO of the company.
Speaker 3:
19:24
That doesn't work anymore. So that's my goal, to make human design more relatable and to fill in the gaps for a generation that is being exposed to it and having to deal with it. In this day and age where things are vastly different, we're not staying at jobs for over two years. Like there's so many things that we're not doing that and we're, we're starting businesses were saying, Oh, I'm talented in this. I'm just going to make it happen and try and do this on my own. I don't need to go to college. Or if I do go to college, I'm not going to go for the reasons that you know, my, you know, my parents would've wanted me to go for, I'm going to go to network like, so we're just thinking a little bit differently. And that's where human design, kind of what you see right now in the books and things are, it's just a little bit skewed because it's coming from a generation where, um, they just come from a different era.
Speaker 2:
20:16
Yeah. And one of the things I really appreciated about your advice was one, it was insanely practical and then two, um, you, you are in touch with what it means to be in a digital age and to be building businesses digitally, to be building community and connections digitally. And I think that's, I mean, even the fact that we're here talking on a podcast is so different from, you know, human design predecessors, they, you know, what is an invitation to a podcast look like? What does an invitation to create a podcast look like if you're a project, right? Those kinds of stacks and all of that. So that's
Speaker 3:
20:48
where the missing info missing pieces are because it's a great tool. Just like astrology is a great tool. These are great tools that I think the biggest thing is that people really overlook because a lot of us, um, regardless of, you know, nationality, gender, a lot of us come from religious backgrounds. Um, you know, or whether it's, you know, a little bit of religious or a lot of religious and so, but having it drilled in your head that stuff like this is wrong or all of these things and it's just like these tools actually can help you to navigate your life and give you more personal power. That's really what it's about. It's not like, Oh, I'm not going to do something because such and such astrologist said this or because you know, a C human design person said this, it's more about, okay, I have all of the facts now. So it's not just like this crazy like, you know, imaginary thing about my life. I have the facts. So this is what I'm working with. This is, these are actually the cards that I have and now it's my goal on how to play them the best way that I can. And so a lot of our parents and people who are not into the spiritual modalities, they don't have the facts. And so you're playing a hand based off of the instruction manual that you are given when that might not be how you need to play.
Speaker 2:
22:11
You see what I'm saying? So yeah, I love that. I actually love that you brought up the bit about religion because I think people, um, they might hear someone bring up a tool like this and they think that there is like a commune and like a ritual sacrifice attached to it. And like you have to all of a sudden now believe that there is no God or whatever and it's not, it's not denominational at all. It is just information. It's not a belief system at all. And the funny thing is that where I find is super hilarious, um, is because, sorry, my dog is like, she's like, hello, I want to talk. Um, so if you hear anything, I apologize. People, um,
Speaker 3:
22:51
be sleeping. Um, uh, what I find funny is that there's, the Enneagram is very popular now, especially in the church. It's very, very popular. And it cracks me up to no ends of the earth. That people trust a personality tests where you answer questions versus you actually giving your birthday in your time and where you were born. They trust a personality test more than something that's actually saying no, this is actually how you are based off of the day that you were born, where you were born in the time that you were born. And so that just like trips me out all the time. It's just like you don't want to talk about human design or get into it, but you're like, Oh, I love the Enneagram. And that's just like, Hmm, that's interesting. And so it's, we have to like start learning how to, um, to use these tools for what they are. They're tools. It's not, I'm not asking you to join the church of human design, you know what I mean? Like, cause I believe in God. Like I believe in God. I'm not religious, but I believe in God. I pray like all of that stuff. I just utilize astrology, other tools, metaphysics, human design to help me navigate my life better. So, you know, it's just, it's just, it's just interesting the way some people think, especially those who come from a religious background.
Speaker 2:
24:19
Yeah. Yeah. The other, the other thing that I, that I always like laugh at besides just like the personality test, which you can go and depending on your mood answer completely differently on a second day you can't change your birth date and time and place like that happened. ELO written in the stars, you get it. The other thing is like people are like, what could your birth date and time possibly have to do with anything? But then they're over here. Like God has does everything for a reason and no, no, no, no. And I'm like, well if God did everything for a reason that you were born at this day on this time with this name to these parents for a reason and he's, and also what kind of vindictive God is going to like withhold the keys to like your joy doesn't make any sense. No, no. But again, there's, there's a little bit of a, and, and this is part of the whole self awareness thing and why I'm like really trying to get people on this train is if you are not willing to look at yourself and to be skeptical of the things that you think you know about yourself ever, you're not going to question those things. You're not going to step back and think about the things that you and I are thinking about, which is, wow, this is, there's a lot of hypocrisy in this. Like nobody's
Speaker 3:
25:26
stepping outside of their own. And then when I read people's charts and just like, Oh wow, wow, you just, it sounds just like me. Wow, this is amazing. How did you know all this information? I'm like, because it's right here. Like, what did you think? Because you know, of course my other, you know, spiritual gifts of me, you know, being psychic and all of that stuff that comes into play, but it's just like, it's right here. This is how you were made. It's here, this is what it is. So there's no way around it. You know, I've had people who I've read four and they get sort of mad because it's like, not that I'm calling them out, but like I can see these things and they're just like, but
Speaker 3:
26:10
I don't believe you. And I'm just like, okay, but is this really happening? I feel like, yeah, but you know, I'm like, Oh okay. All right girl. You know like okay well there's no, there's nothing I can do for you because like I'm not trying to convince yourself to convince you of who you are. Like it's right here and apparently your, you know, you know, searching for answers or looking for things to where you're, you know, trying to just figure out like how to take the next steps. And people are people surprisingly in my line of work, cause I'm also a certified life coach. People are
Speaker 2:
26:48
okay,
Speaker 3:
26:48
we are more comfortable with staying the same cause I'm, I'm guilty of it too than changing. Change is scary. And even when you find, like when you get introduced to human design or astrology or any spiritual reality, people are afraid because they're like, [inaudible]
Speaker 3:
27:05
we get so caught up and we get so comfortable with the stories that we've told ourselves and the pain and the hurt that our inner child has, you know, dealt with. And so we'd like to stay in that place. We like to be subconsciously victims in a way, but like, no, but these people hurt me and this is why I'm like this. And when you figure out like, okay, well, but you can change this. They're like, yeah, but I just can't. And I'm just like, yeah, you can, you can make a diff, totally change your life. And was just like, well, you know, I'm not sure if I can, you know, and it's like, no, you can do it. And so that's why my, I know that that's my part of my purpose. Um, and I've heard it several times from so many people, um, that I'm here to help people get to the bottom of why they are here. And, and that's what I do with human design, what I do with other things that I do intuitively and spiritually. And it's really important for me to not have people go through life not getting what they want.
Speaker 2:
28:05
Yeah, yeah. Hell yeah. My, my whole thing, um, this whole year has just been about what's all the bullshit in your way of being joyful. Like why are, why are you here if not to experience joy and the fullness of yourself, whatever that looks like. And I think that's a huge part of why I like human design because it gives you such a beautiful place to explore some of those shadow things without there being judgment placed on it. Um, and maybe this is a, we can introduce like the concept of Gates and the conscious and unconscious because that's, those are the first places I dig in for shadows, especially where it's unconscious. I'm like, Oh, there's something there.
Speaker 3:
28:48
Yeah. So in human design we have, there's um, these issue, you have your centers, your centers, which I feel they're either open or closed or are defined or undefined that either white or colored in. And from me how w the way I've studied it and the way I've broken it down, you deal with a lot of inner child stuff in your centers and I'm working on some developing some tools and products to help people with their centers. Um, you deal with a lot of inner child stuff because your centers are the most susceptible to outside influence. Um, especially growing up, especially if you have something open. Um, even if you have the closed or defined, you can still get a lot of outside influence on how you are, who you are, what you think you are, um, how you operate, how you folk, you know, under peer pressure, all of those things.
Speaker 3:
29:38
And so those are your centers. And then you have the, which are the lines that are connecting your centers and some Gates are either white, which they theirs. That means that they're not active. Then you have that either black, white, or checkered. Um, and your Gates are part of your design and part of your personality. And it is my belief that any red gate, which is an unconscious Gates or unconscious theme of that personality is something that you are here to master in this lifetime. People will struggle the most, especially in their twenties and thirties with their unconscious Gates. Those are particular personality traits that you don't necessarily know how to tap into. And so when it comes to the Gates and working with that shadow side, a lot of people do experience what I call the depressed side or the low side of that particular gate that makes you depressed or makes you not believe in spirit or makes you like non adventures.
Speaker 3:
30:39
All of these things and working on those in this lifetime is going to get you to that ultimate place of, you know, destiny, purpose, all of those things. You're going to be in the highest fulfillment of who you're supposed to be. And why wouldn't you want that information? Yeah, like that information. A lot of people don't. Oh, I w I, I, I truly believe that people are afraid of becoming the best versions of themselves because they have that you have to leave behind the old stuff. You have to believe leave behind the stories. You have to leave behind all of the things that have pain becomes a part of you. Like that's just reality. All the, all the bad things that have happened to you as a child, as a teenager, that's part of your identity. That in a way makes you who you are.
Speaker 3:
31:37
Those stories become whether they're good or bad, they become a comfort to you. It's like, you know, it's like, you know, you're on your cycle and you're eating an ice cream. That's what those stories become. So when you have to release them in your life, cause you, you don't know who you're going to be without that story. You don't know you who you're going to be without those memories of bad or things that happen that you have overcame. You don't know who you're going to be. So that's a scary place to be where you're like, wait a minute, I'm not defined by my story or my childhood or the things that people did to me growing up. Whoa. Then what does that mean? Who am I without those things? Because they become a part of you. Yeah. That's, that is so fair. And it feels, as you're saying that I'm just feeling the uphill battle of like people like you and me reaching those people who just, they're so attached to their comfort and even if their comfort is painful as hell, they're just attached to it.
Speaker 3:
32:38
Yeah. And that's what I'm, part of my work is, um, you know, want to help people with healing the inner child because there's stuff that I overcame and I, that I've healed, um, that were hard because it's just like, well, wait a minute. Like, what am I going to do that now that I don't have to identify with this or this doesn't have to be who I am. It's like, woo, what does that mean? And you have to work through that and you have to go through that and experience those things. And some that's why people stay stuck and it's not because they want to be stuck. It's just comfortable. It is very comfortable just to be in the same place because you're safe there, you know at this level you're safe here. And so moving to the next level or an enhanced in your life that is so much unfulfilled, unfamiliar territory that it's like, wait a minute, what am I going to do now if I actually have to like, you know, do this.
Speaker 3:
33:35
I'm actually going to, you know, I work with a lot of entrepreneurs and they're just like me starting a business. What happens if it fails? And I'm just like, it probably like, you know, like I've started so many businesses that aye almost when it's successful I'm like, Whoa, Hey, this is interesting, this stuff because I'm so used to like either me not following through with them or me changing my mind or just not working out. I'm comfortable there. So when it's successful, I'm just like, hold on. What's happening? And so, and a lot of people, they don't even want to start. They'll just like because of the, well, what happens is if I wasted money and I'm just like, you will, that's a guarantee. I said, you know, when I, when I coach people in business and do strategy for them, I'm always telling them two things are going to happen.
Speaker 3:
34:27
You're either going to fail or you're going to succeed. One of the other doesn't it? You know, you, some you can control a little bit of it, but sometimes you can't. So and then just like, but I'm like, yeah, those are the two things that are guaranteed. Either you're going to be successful or you're going to fail. That's it. There's no one between. Once you get your mind around that you become comfortable in just moving forward and taking the leap. There's so many people who have so many great ideas who want to do stuff and who want to do things and they just won't take the leap because they're afraid of failing or succeeding.
Speaker 3:
35:04
Yeah. Let's all, let's all say that it's okay to be afraid. Yeah. It's okay to be a friend and that that might be a sign you are headed in the right direction, the absolute right direction, the absolute right direction or you can be miserable in five years from, because one thing is guaranteed time does not wait for anybody. [inaudible] it's already like the, it's we have six months left in the year. That's blowing my mind actually. Yeah, we have six months not to that. It's March, it's going to be July and then it's going to be 2020 like and then we have to deal with another election in a ho. Like I lie, your life is in jeopardy. Like you have to live it or it's, you have to figure it out. You got to figure this shit out really quick. And so that's why when I see people who have ideas, I'm like, well, just start small.
Speaker 3:
36:01
I'm not saying quit your job, but you know, a lot of people also don't want to put in the work. They don't want to not hang out on the weekends and save money and you know, do stuff towards their dreams or towards their goals because they want to, you know, be outliving their life. But the party's not going anywhere. The barbecues are not going anywhere. The girls trips are not going anywhere. But what is going to go somewhere as you making a change in your life now? So in two years you can say, Hey, well look what I did in two years. Like I started my own business. Now I work for myself. You know, there's so many, you know, so many things can happen and people just don't want to do the work.
Speaker 2:
36:41
Well, I think the thing is, is what you're saying, these people are like out there at these barbecues on these girls' trips hanging out on the weekend, chasing joy. That's what they're trying to experience. But it's so fleeting. And so then you have to just constantly be repeating it. And this is a really great segue into I, I just want you to have this testimonial for your advice because it was so dope. I was so stoked on it. Um, and a lot of these activities center around, um, substances that numb you out or pull you further from being present, um, which is just another way to stay asleep. Right. And so, um, I have been really struggling internally with my relationship to alcohol when it runs in on, um, my father's side of the family. Okay. Um, two I have a history of abusing it. Not I, I would say I was a functioning alcoholic, um, very early in my twenties, but I didn't, I didn't go so deep as to like lose my whole family and like end up homeless or right. Like I, I caught it, I was aware enough to catch it. Um, and then, you know, it's mostly just been recreational use, but I'm having a lot of like this internal struggle and frustration around, um, that being the case around my, my connection with people centering around imbibing. That's been tough for me. And so actually earlier this year, I just, I committed to 90 days, um, dry
Speaker 2:
38:09
and I, I felt amazing. I felt so good. It was, I was able to work through inner child stuff without numbing it out. And all of those things like I use the time very productively. Well let's fast forward to the 90 days are over and now I can drink and I'm feeling like, Oh well I guess I should because I can. I'd like right back into the uncertainty and the doubt. And so over this last month I've really just been thinking like I really don't enjoy when I drink, it's a lot of sugar. I'm trying to get my hormones like back into, into place. Why am I drinking? Am I actually enjoying it? Like just all of this like conversation in my head. Well let's fast forward to, we're on the call with you. You're talking about strategies for projectors and what and the strategy for projectors waiting for invitation and you're talking about what that even means because that one was like a real head scratcher for me when I read it.
Speaker 2:
39:01
I was like, what does it mean to wait for invitation? Like am I waiting for somebody to literally go, I invite you to blank. Right, right. So it was really beautiful because you were explaining how that can look and, and that it can also be internal, that it's, it's something that you get to say yes to. And so that was a huge shift for me. And that was something that Nisha had also, um, helped me understand cause she's also a projector. I know so many projectors. It's bizarre. Um, all that to say I started playing with that. I was like, Oh, okay, well while I'm not getting external invitations are not unclear on that. I can at least play with what an internal invitation looks like. Cause I'm, I live with me 24, seven, there's gotta be plenty of them popping up for me to start recognizing.
Speaker 2:
39:46
So I, I was literally, I had typed in a circle that I'm in, like how I'm struggling with this whole alcohol thing and I just, I don't know where I stand on it and dah, dah, dah. And uh, I got in the shower and I was like, how do you know about invitations for these kinds of things? Do you get invitations for everything? And I got this like montage flash, which I get a lot of downloads in the shower and I think it's, the water's just so good for you that day. You have an open head in your chart too. I do. Yep. And I have the, the dream Gates as well. Like how many you have all of them, right? All of them. Yeah, that's right. Yeah. So I've been paying more attention to my dreams now too. And they are, they are so spot on and telling.
Speaker 2:
40:26
It's great. So I'm just sitting there like playing with this and I get this like just montage of just images back to back of all these times that the universe had invited me quite explicitly to say yes or no and where the discomfort and the [inaudible] was coming from was not saying yes or no, it was, it was just not, not responding at all, being in the maybe. And so as soon as that clicked and I, I literally looked up and I go, yes, I say yes. And then just, huh. Instant joy, instant bliss. Like I was like, I felt high. You know when you're like really good, joyful and you're just like, I got to let it out. That's like I got to that place in two seconds. So much. So to the point that my partner like ran in, cause he thought there was something wrong.
Speaker 2:
41:13
He was wrong. He was like [inaudible] okay. And I was like, I'll explain later. I just need to be in it right now. And I'm like, do a deep drop it in the shower. It was like, so [inaudible] I was like, I get it. ACI get it. That was an invitation. Uh, it just felt so good to like recognize what that was, how that felt and then to say yes or no, you know, and to just be that year. And so since then I've done that multiple times when I just catch myself spinning out, I'm starting to recognize, Oh, this spin out is uncertainty and I'm uncertainty and in doubt because I haven't said yes or no. The invitation is floating out there somewhere and I'm not eating it. That's so good. Yes. So that came more projectors.
Speaker 2:
41:56
Well that, I mean, that came from like a five minute reading you did for me. So I'm just saying to everybody out there, like one human design works to ACS, a genius and three, three, this is really something that you can use to get to know yourself and to start making decisions that feel heart-centered and rooted. Just really grounded decisions. So it's like I immediately have come up upon friction and not drinking already. Like somebody already was like, well you just make an exception for me. Right? Like, well there's, there literally there is a lot. There's, I dare you to go dry for a month until your friends, you're not drinking. You will
Speaker 3:
42:34
anyway. Oh, so you already know I never started drinking, so yeah, I never started. You know, you already know there's so much weird. I would not, I never started, I missed it through college. Like I'm more of a, I'm, I'm a half of a hard cider and then I'm like, I gotta go. I knew like I am not that girl. Like if I do like maybe I'll do like, um, what is it called? Cupcake Moscato. Like, I'll have a glass of that and then I'm just like, Whoa, my head hurts. Gotta go like I'm in the bed. Like I'm in the bed, everything. I'm like, yeah, it's funny because people are like, Oh, why don't you drink before religious person purposes? I literally don't like the taste of alcohol. That's literally it. I don't like the taste of alcohol at all, you know? Yeah. And I do people accept that when, when you say that or they go, Oh okay no they accepted.
Speaker 3:
43:34
They're just like, that makes sense. Cause it like, even if like I'm going to brunch and like, you know, it's like unlimited mimosas. Like I'll have like that much champagne and like the rest orange juice. Like I just don't like the taste of alcohol at all. It just doesn't taste good to me. Like I just even like the fruity drinks, it's just like, why would you sit and drink that? Like I just don't, it can't, it doesn't correlate. I'm just like this, but the cupcake Moscato is so sweet that it's like, Oh okay, this is not bad. Or the hard cider reminds me of Apple side of just a little bit, you know, a little tinny. So those things that can tolerate, but other than that, I just don't like the taste alcohol. It's just nasty to me. Well that's
Speaker 2:
44:14
great. I'm about to join your train of nothing Hanks. Um, yeah, it's just, it's so interesting. Like literally my mom has also stopped drinking and um, she literally had someone just confirm, confront her and be like, well, you're not going to be any fun anymore.
Speaker 3:
44:29
And you talk. The funny thing is you bring that up in the, I don't know if you're familiar with John Taffer, like a for a restaurant. He did. John Taffer, he's on, he has a show, what is it called? I forgot like where he goes and he goes and makes over like struggling restaurants. It's on the paramount network now or something like that. I don't know. But he has this new show called Oh, marriage and possibly it's called, we have restaurant. Impossible now. Not restaurant impossible. I forgot what it's called, but he does it where he goes and like, Nope, that's what his show's called. Bar rescue. Good list. Oh yes, yes. I know we had marriage rescue now on the same network and one of the couples, so that was watching it the other day. I just stumbled upon it. One of the couples, they were on the brink of divorce because when they met, they met drinking like they was go out all the time, drinking everything, and then he stopped drinking. He literally stopped drinking. She was just like, he's not fun anymore. He doesn't wanna go out. I don't know who this person is. I'm used to him drinking and like they had to like repair their relationship just because he stopped drinking. Like he just, he just doesn't drink. He doesn't go out anymore. He's not at the bar and she's just like, you're not fun. You're not this and all of this. I was just like, okay,
Speaker 2:
45:48
over alcoholic. Well, it's because her identity is attached to alcohol because alcohol is attached to all of these things and all of these experiences for her. She doesn't know how to relate in a way that doesn't involve alcohol. I just found that so, and you know, John even said, he was like, do you love him or do you love like the alcoholic him? Like, which one do you like? And so it was just,
Speaker 3:
46:10
I just found that very interesting. I'm just like, wow, that's
Speaker 2:
46:15
back to your notes. What am I telling your mom? Like you're, you're not going to be any fun anymore. Like how dare you? Yeah. Well, and it's, it just, it says so much more about that other person than it does about, absolutely. Yeah. But in a, in a decision like that where you know, you're going to run up against a lot of opposition and judgment and other, other people are gonna, they're gonna I can't, I've had people like try to process their guilt about drinking. When I say I'm not drinking, it suddenly becomes about them. And it's like, well, you're drinking because you know, and I'm like, Hey. And I'm just saying, I'm like, I don't really care what you choose to do that my decision has absolutely nothing to do with you.
Speaker 2:
46:58
You want to get fucked up tonight? Yeah. Go. Please don't drive. Like, okay, you do do. They're like, I don't care. Yeah. So there's like that. And then there's also just like you can just see in people their discomfort and drinking around someone who's not drinking. Yes. And for me it's because, well there's something out of integrity here for you and that's why you want me to be an AB rated so you can feel okay being at being right. You don't want me to see you, you know? Yeah. Yeah. So because I made the decision from my strategy and it just so rooted in something that felt so good and certain for me, I feel so unwavering able like that. Yeah. You know, like I've gotten the opposition, I'm going to continue to get it as long as I'm not drinking and it just, it's not bothering me. I'm not feeling flappable about it. That's so good. Congratulations. Yes. So thank you so much for your offering. And it's like as soon as that happened, I was like, please be on my podcast. That's good. And that's what
Speaker 3:
48:02
it is about. It is about being comfortable in making those decisions for yourself and just imagine how [inaudible] like in January that how much afraid you probably would have been of that. You know, like I'm a project, I'm not doing this projector crap. Like I'm just gonna, I'm a [inaudible], I'm going to go do stuff, I'm good. But you know, it's just like, okay girl, like have of last the and do what you're gonna do. Because what I'm finding out is, um, and this is the unfortunate thing or the thing that I'm trying to change is that because human design is so new is that you have people like yourself or other people like, Oh yeah, I found that my aura type maybe two years ago or three years ago, but I didn't pay any attention to it. But now I found you, you're making sense to it.
Speaker 3:
48:48
And this is why the last two years were shitty. Like it's like, you know, and it's just like, I wish people just want to pay more attention to it and start utilizing it. Um, cause I like to use a combination of human design and astrology. But as far as your purpose is concerned, I really, I'm working on a course, um, just got a recorded it and put it up, but it's gotta be pathway to purpose and pathway to profits going to be the same about utilizing your human design, um, or a type and your North node. Um, because I love North notice geology. It is like my jam. That's like my favorite cause the Charlotte is my first love of course. But North node astrology is really like where I find the pieces fitting in that puzzle when it comes to human design and helping people fulfill their destiny and find their purpose. So I'm putting something together for that. But I just like, I, it almost pains me when people ignore it because it's like you just missed out two years of, you know, cause I, I have people like who, um, DME all of him like, Oh yeah, I've known about, I was a manifesto or a generator for so long, but I just really didn't pay attention to it. And this makes so much sense now why this is not happening or why that's not happening. So it's like, just listen to me.
Speaker 2:
50:10
I swear I know what I'm talking about. Listen to me. Yeah. That actually brings me to like the final like solid question that I wanted to ask you, which is like, okay, so someone's hearing this, they've heard enough about it that they know they want to go at least check it out. Um, what are some of the like pitfalls you would advise cause they're gonna go do a bunch of reading and
Speaker 3:
50:28
Googling and YouTube being on their own, right? So you're like, we're unleashing the beast, so no supervision. What are some of the things to maybe look for and avoid or be wary of or skeptical of? Well, I'll say this, I'm doing my, my very, very best to launch my new website with all the information so you can find everything on my website. Um, when you Google, you are going to, gosh, and I hate to like do this to, to the people, but you're going to find two things. It's going to be of course a lot of information, but um, it's going to be unrelatable hands down. Um, I am at a point in my life and in my, my psychic abilities, my intuitive abilities, nobody does human design like I do. Um, I can be confident in saying that. Um, if you want someone relatable and who's gonna make it make sense, listen to my podcast, email me whatever you need to do because there's going to be a big, you're going to find a whole bunch of theory.
Speaker 3:
51:33
That's all you're going to find is a lot of theory. And like I said, I'm just hanging there with me people. I'm working on my website to have those relatable tools, those relatable things. Um, my podcast is the most relevant of, you know, that stuff. What you can listen to. You're going to find a bunch of theory. You're going to find a bunch of people just who have, whether they studied it or anything like that. It's just going to be a lot of theory. They're not, it's not going to be relatable information because the people who are well known in the, um, in the human design community, they're either older or they are, um, I like to say privileged people. I'll leave it at that. They're privileged people who really don't have, it's kind of hard to relate to someone or anyone who hasn't gone through or experienced real obstacles in their life.
Speaker 3:
52:37
So you're going to find a lot of that, read it, take it for what it is, but you're going to be like, you know, up of river without, you know, in a boat without a paddle can, you're going to be like lost. Um, so I would say if you can get a reading with me, um, start there so you can have some information. Listen to the podcast. You can even I M I reply to everybody who emails me. It's not like, I'm like, Oh, don't email me. Like email me. Um, if you have questions, um, I'm developing stuff. I'm a projector, so my energy works a little bit different working my way and I also own two businesses. You know, it's different. So try not to get overwhelmed cause you're going to get confused because a lot of the information old, um, it's uh, you're [inaudible], you'll see it's a huge gap.
Speaker 3:
53:31
You're going to see a bunch of stuff from people who are older than, you're going to see a little bit of people who are millennials, but they're still not giving you all of it. They're still like sort of spewing the information that the older people have gotten. So that's why I say listen to my podcast, cause that's the most relatable that, that from what people tell me, like I get, you know, all the time like, Oh my gosh, it makes sense now. So that's what I could say. I hope that wasn't too long of a no, no, I think that was really great. Um, and that mirrors my experience as well. Um, and I think that's why it took so long for me to really like dig my heels and I've read two different human design books and I still hadn't quite figured out what waiting for invitation wasn't until five minutes with you.
Speaker 3:
54:11
So that's, that speaks a lot. Yeah. So, and I, yeah. And so I'm finally like stepping into that and like, okay, you know, what the hell you're talking about. And not only that, just all my study and making it relatable. And then like I said, I have this whole like psychic thing with me. And so I just read things differently. I see things differently. I'm literally, I for my podcast, when I recharge sometimes I'll just like, it's so funny cause I'll literally, and I, cause I channel a lot like from my podcast sometimes, like if I'm stuck with words about explaining something, I'll literally just sit and close my eyes and I'll do like the rest of the podcast with my eyes closed and like just talking and the information comes out. So it's just different for me. So I'm, you know, I don't, I'm not Downing anybody else who's super popular or anything like that.
Speaker 3:
55:02
But one thing that I am is relatable and I make it make sense to people and it's not so like over your head airy fairy kind of like, you know, the five D and all of this stuff. Like nobody worried about that. People are trying to figure out, listen, I gotta go to work tomorrow. My boss is getting on my nerves. I think my boss is a generator and you know, I'm a manifester and I want to kill this bitch. Like you know like [inaudible] problems, real problems, not like, well you know, just wait for the invitation and you know you can do, no I cannot wait. Trump is in office. Like I might get it like hello, like what am I supposed to do? Like these are real problems that we're dealing with. So you can't tell someone to wait for the invitation or too, you know, even for generators, yes you're supposed to master something but well, you know Eddy generated, you don't really have 10 years to put him work in something. You got to figure that shit out in four years and how are you supposed to do that? And for manifesting generators, like you got to figure it out in a year and a half on how to master something and like make money from it. So there's this big gap of people who have, you know, started the wave of it who come from a totally different era. And then there's this like information gap and that's what I want to fill is trying to make it just as is relatable possible cause it's really good information.
Speaker 2:
56:27
Yeah. Yeah. And I would say if anyone who would just wants to like even test out what AC and I have been saying about the difference, if you go to one of, um, one of the, if you just Google and click any link on the first page of human design, just go human design, click any link, read the text there. Then I know, I know this is your old, you're, you're building a new website. But if people even just go to your current website, which is just AC brown.com and again, I will put that all and spell it all out at the closing of the show. Um, and then read like the texture of her words. It's so different. You write the, the words of the, the current popular stuff that's really airy and flowing. It's like if you're someone who likes to like chew on things, um, in your mind a lot but not actually do anything with them, that's great. Those sources are going to be perfect, but if you actually want to create change in your life, if you actually want to use the tool to do something, you're going to notice that it's a lot easier to get hooked into your words and the way that you phrase things. Then the other thing, yes. So you could even just do that test to just see the difference. It's very obvious.
Speaker 3:
57:35
Yeah. Even if I have, like if you go to my website, you can download, I have it's passion, purpose, profits, and the missing link is just a little ebook. You know that I talk about just different things in human design and you can even just read that and see that. It's just different. Like, cause I curse like I don't, I'm gonna yell at you like I'm going to like, but that's just part of me and my guides. Like just being like them, like yelling in my, my brain, like no, tell her to do this or tell them to do that. And so it's just, it's just different. So you are, you will see, you can do, you can Google and just see the difference. Just by going to my Instagram, you can see the difference and you can listen to the difference. It's just going to be, um, I think, you know, cause just anything, people are so afraid to make things their own.
Speaker 3:
58:22
Um, and to relate it. And that's mostly because, and this is no shade to anybody, but a lot of people haven't gone through things in their life. And so when you have a bigger population of, um, certain type of people in these spiritual modalities who really haven't struggled or really haven't had to be resilient against societal structures and things like that or those things, they really can't relate to you. And that's not their fault. It's just, that's just the reality. So I'm, you know, even my background is vastly different. Um, you know, I grew up in an upper middle class background, but you know, my, you know, father lost it all due to a cocaine habit. Like that's part of my story. Like, I don't talk about those things, but I have a certain resiliency about myself that, um, other people or other people in this realm cannot relate to.
Speaker 3:
59:23
And I'm not saying everybody's story is not as bad as mine or anything like that, but when you are in an era and in a time where, um, we need people who are going to keep it real with you and not just say, you know what, just just thinking and you know, I'm going to manifest $10,000. Like, you know, all of that bullshit. And it's just like, okay, you can do that, but what are you going to do to manifest that? How are you going to, you know, attract those invitations for the $10,000, you know, what are you going to, what are the steps that you're going to take to assist the universe? Um, instead of just like, I'm just going to say my affirmations and I'm going to write it down a hundred times and it's just gonna work. No, no, I have my, I gotta pay my rent next week. What am I supposed to do? You know? And that's where we are. So
Speaker 2:
60:12
that's, you know, um, I'll let me get off my soap box. I can have my soap. No, I think that, I think that's all really valuable. And I, and, and the listeners of this show are definitely people who are craving, you know, realness, honesty, directness. Um, so all of you, if you're looking for, if you get into human design, if any of this peaks your interest, definitely check ACA out. Um, and maybe you can just share with them where they can find you, what your podcasts called, where they can find your podcasts, all that goodness that my podcast is, I think about all platforms. It's called, is my aura on street. Um, and then my website is AC brown.com it'll be in the show notes. I don't want to spell it out, but [inaudible] yeah. Is AC Brown and that's where I'm at right now. And, um, I also have a Facebook group is my orange street as well. So amazing. Thank you so much, ACA for your time and your wit and all of the amazing information you shared. You're so welcome,
Speaker 4:
61:13
dog dog.
×

Listen to this podcast on