Welcome to the Transform Your Mind Radio Hour and Podcast, the number one self-improvement podcast for women in the world. This is Life Coach Rennie Young. And in my book, Out of the Snares, a story of hope and encouragement, I share my journey from being born in poverty in Guyana to having abundance in America. And I did it by being committed to Kennai, which is constant and never-ending improvement every day. Looking for personal growth? Let's do it. Each week, I bring you guests and one-on-one coaching sessions to help you transform your mind so that you can transform your life. Welcome back to the Transform Your Mind and Transform Your Life Radio, Podcast, and Television Show. I'm your host, Life Coach Rennie Young, and sitting in the guest here today is Beck Mylennis. She's a priestess, channel, and spiritual guide. And today we are going to be talking on the topic how to process past life and its ancestral karma, trauma, and energetic blocks to activate your unique gifts. Wow, that is a mouthful. Little topic. So welcome back.
SPEAKER_00Thank you for having me.
SPEAKER_02You're very welcome. All right. Well, with that tantalizing topic, let me give you guys a little bit short background and Beck. Beck is a priestess, energetic alchemist. Love the word. Channel, spiritual guide, speaker, and writer who is passionate about helping people navigate their spiritual awakening process in order to step into their fullest, highest, most aligned version of soul self. That's greatest gift and deepest honor is the ability to activate and initiate others into their soul gifts and mission. Her core purpose is encouraging and awakening the gifts of others to facilitate the most profound transformation and reconnection with her soul. Through Beck's own process of healing and the girl initiations she has experienced to awaken and master her energy, she has witnessed firsthand the profound transformation that can occur when one is willing and ready to begin the journey back to love. Awesome, awesome, awesome. Well, your story is very interesting. So I can't wait to dive in. The first question I have here, by the way, Beck is calling from Australia. Dung on her. Let's give her a welcome.
SPEAKER_00We're not going to do that.
SPEAKER_02Welcome. Australia. Awesome. All right. So, Beth, tell us your journey from being on antidepressants and wanting to end your own life to becoming a healer.
SPEAKER_00Yeah. Yeah, it's quite a process. Um, quite a long journey. I think most people they see my story or they see kind of my transformation and they think that it was over the process of a few years. And for me, this journey actually started when I was like 18, 17, 16, something like that. When I was very young, they tried to put me on antidepressants. Um, have a long history of kind of like mental illness in my family. And I fought that at a young age. I was like, I don't want to go on antidepressants, I'm not interested. And I was very like stubborn, and I still am very stubborn, very rebellious, very independent, free-spirited. So I fought that at a young age. And when I kind of got to 20, 22, um, I was dealing with some pretty crippling, debilitating depression where I did, I wanted to check out and I didn't want to be here. So I did actually go on some um, I think they were like SSRIs, they were serotonin syndrome re-uptake inhibitors, I think that's what they're called. So what they do is they basically um they stop the re-uptake of serotonin. So what happens is we release serotonin, and then once it's gone, it's like had to be produced again. And so the assumption with those um meds is that your brain's not producing the serotonin. So what it does is when it releases it, it kind of holds it in the chamber. So it's building on itself, basically. So that's what it was doing. And essentially all that really did for me was create a flat line. So instead of um really wanting to check out and not want to be here, I was just kind of like zombified. So I was just, I was okay. I was cruising. So it, you know, it helped at the time and it was necessary for me. Um, but at the same time, I kind of started going on this healing journey. And for my younger life, from the age of about 17, I had this deep burning, like knowing that I was here to do something. And the lack of having that in my life was crippling and it was debilitating. And it was part of what you know was causing me to be so depressed because I was like, if I don't find what this is, like there's no purpose to be here. So my dark night of the soul, which I'm sure many of you kind of know what that is, it's this process of unfolding or questioning, happened um from around 20 years old, 18 years old. I left home and went to Melbourne, um, trying to get a job out of uni, all of that sort of, you know, that that pivotal point in your life, in your career. And I was having to look at myself and be like, if I keep going down this path that I'm on and this purposeless life, this meaningless life, I'm gonna not want to be here. I'm gonna check out, I'm gonna leave. Um, and that means, you know, taking my life. So I was like, I need to do something about this. And so started the process of my own healing. So I started um, you know, taking care of my body more, exercising more, reading more on and mental health and development and all sorts of things like that, self-help, spirituality. And that kind of gradually um got weirder and weirder over the years, started seeing shamans and healers and psychics. And um, at about 24, 25, it really started to come through more of the spiritual stuff. And um I think everyone kind of starts this journey with like Abraham Hicks and law of attraction, and that's the entry point. And for me, I remember believing this is not even possible. Like this is just such a load of shit. Like, I don't believe this, but if there's any chance in the world that it's real, I'm gonna try, right? So I did, and that was my first. Um, I was like, you know what? If this is real, let's try. And I tried to start to create or manifest this life. And I'd written down on this piece of paper, I want to work wherever, you know, wherever I want to, I want to work remotely, be able to work by a beach, which I did by the way. I lived in Bali for five years. I still kind of technically lived there. Um, yeah. Doing something where I just get to be myself and show up, and that's it. I literally just get to be myself and I get paid for it. Having not known that the coaching industry or self-development was a thing at the time when I wrote all of this down, didn't even know it was possible to just get paid to be me. Um, I want to help people, I want to be my own boss, I want to be flexible, rah-rah, rah. So I had this like list of things that I wanted to create, and I had no idea what that even was. Like I had no idea what a healer was, I had no idea what a shaman was. I had no idea that my soul was kind of guiding me there anyway. Anyway, so I wrote this list and I forgot about it and I was like, whatever. Um, and through the process of my healing journey, I started to ask, you know, what am I here for? What's my purpose? And that kind of got me into the trajectory of being a coach. So I started out as a coach in I think it was 2018 or 19. And when I kind of said yes to coaching, my whole mission or my purpose really opened up to me. And it was this fast track of like a year of being a coach, I kept meeting all these healers and shamans while I was doing my own healing work who were telling me, you're this healer, you're this shaman, you're this priestess. And I was like, I'm just a coach. I don't know what you guys are talking about. That's insane. Um yeah, and then started having these experiences um in these realms, like crazy stuff happening, speaking to spirits, um, having wild things happening. And I remember it was a year of trying to make it as a coach, and I just kind of quit everything. Like in 2018, I heard this call within me, and I was still on antidepressants at the time. And it was like, you need to go off antidepressants so you can heal properly. You need to leave your boyfriend, quit your job. I was working in film and television at the time, quit your job, leave everything behind, and move to Bali. And I was like, that is the craziest thing that I had ever heard in my life. Yeah, like I don't even like Bali, so that's wild. And I have to do it. Um, so when I was in Bali trying to make my business work, I was like, because I'd also gone off the meds, I was purging so much trauma. Like it was like lifetimes of trauma, like extreme amounts of sadness and trauma. I was crying every day, didn't know why. And um, towards the end of the year, after a year of trying to make my business work and it wasn't, I was like, okay, I keep getting this message that I'm this healer, and I keep saying that I will go down this road once my coaching business is successful. But obviously, God has other plans for me. So if I'm this healer that everyone keeps telling me I am, then show me. And literally, like the next day, I started having these completely crazy experiences where I was remembering all my past lives. I had a spontaneous Kundalini awakening, which I can explain what that is in a moment, um, where I was having these physical things happening to me and speaking other languages and wild emotions. And I ended up kind of on the sewing room floor, which is probably the story that you know you asked, you asked about in the in our briefing together of my parents' apartment, um, going through this wild spiritual emergency, remembering all these past lives, completely broke, $300 in my account, rock bottom, um, having all these things kind of awoke, awaken in me and having to deal with that. And it from that moment, it was like three or four months from going to bed, a normal kind of person, like no concept or idea about any of this spiritual stuff, to suddenly remembering past lives, moving energy, um, doing healing work, helping other people to like remember their past lives and activating healers. And it was very, very quick for me. And then since then, it's been a four years since that moment, three or four years, and more healing and more unpacking. And so it's a constant journey. And it's not like after that moment when I kind of everything came online, I was healed. It was like that was the door to my healing. Um, and it just gets more intense, kind of like as you go along. Definitely does, but I've learned to deal with it differently and I've had more tools and resources to be able to move through that process. Um, because I believe that that process that I was moving through to heal myself enables me to help others to heal themselves. So when I was going through that, it was very clear to me of like, I don't need to see someone, I don't need to get support, I don't need to um enlist the help of a mentor or something like that. I just needed to self-initiate through that process because that was giving me the strength that I needed to then be able to help others. So that's kind of the brief version of the past wild six, seven, eight years of my life, but um quite a journey to get here. Yeah.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, wow, there's so much to unpack there. And you know, it's interesting. You know, the one of my favorite um uh sayings is once the brain is expanded with knowledge, it's you can't put it back, right? And just last week I had the most interesting interview that I've never heard before. But it was, you know, a gentleman that was flat broke, depressed, went to a retreat and started his journey almost similar to yours, where he had the energy of the kundalini, and now he became a mystic and and he became a um a mystic and a healer and a you know, a Reiki healer and all that. And I'm thinking, oh my gosh, I've never heard that. And now actually, this is my very last interview. There you go. I don't have to explain it. Right. Yeah, I mean, it is it is absolutely amazing. So so what I'm gonna do now is try to see if there's some similarities because now my brain has been expanded. So you talked about the fact that um you had mental illness in your family and they were giving you these serotonin blockers and you and um you flatlined, and then a voice told you to get off of that. So let's start there. Um, what why do you what was the connection? Why is it that you needed not to be on the meds in order to in order to um to connect with the spiritual world? That was my that's my first circle back.
SPEAKER_00Okay. Beautiful question. I love this question. And it I think it speaks so deeply into like in our Western society, we don't really have a framework for someone who is being initiated into a spiritual path, right? Um, we see people as insane or they're crazy and we want to give them meds and tell them that they're unwell and they need to go into an institution the moment they start seeing things that aren't there or feeling intense emotions, right? We think that there is this version of normal that everyone has to kind of uphold and at least present, right? You need to present to be normal. Um, and I studied psychology too, right? So I have a pretty good understanding of these illnesses and the brain chemistry and the neuroscience and all of this stuff because it really interests me. Um, for a lot of people who have, and there's a very fine line, and I want to say this, it's really important for people to know there's a very fine line between psychosis and spiritual awakening. Like it's very fine. And some of the situations that I found myself in having these moments, I literally thought I was going fucking crazy. Like I was like, someone needs to lock me up, excuse my French, um, because I I this is psychosis. Like I was on the phone to my parents when I was in Bali and I was having these things, and I was like, I think the Kundalini awakening stuff, I think I I'm I'm not coming back from this. Like I this, I don't know, right? And I this man might not have said this, and this is kind of going on a tangent, but I need to say this, it's really important. Kundalini, when it's awakened and you're not being helped or assisted, or you're not ready for it, right? Can be very damaging because you can go into psychosis, right? It can literally fry your circuits and you can go crazy. And a lot of people get God complex because of this. They think that they're God, um, they lose their minds, all sorts of things happen really because those gifts, those faculties come online so quickly that you're like, oh my God, I must be God, right? And I spoke about I've spoken about this before. So it's really important, like in that process, to be working with someone or have someone helping you who can bring you back down to earth and help you understand that process because it's crippling at times. But I think what I was trying to say at the start is like, there's this fine line between like mental health stuff and spiritual stuff. And as you go on this journey, the more you realize we've been taught to suppress and numb our emotions and repress everything and shut it all down.
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SPEAKER_00And to me, a shaman or a priestess or a psychic is someone who is incredibly sensitive, right? And they are picking up frequencies beyond what humans pick up, right? And yeah, no, no. No, and in indigenous communities, they have this framework where they see someone who is seeing things or hearing voices, and they take that person away and they recognize them as special and they then train them in the right way so they get the support that they need. But in our society, someone who is extremely experiencing extreme emotion or um intensity or hearing things or whatever that is, they're labeled as insane. There's something bad and wrong with them, right? And so for me, some of the states that I'm in, they definitely like if a psychic psychologist would be like, oh, you're just bipolar, you're manic, because I have these elated states of bliss and joy and ecstasy and oneness where I feel completely like transcendental states of feeling God, right? Um, and then the next day I am feeling the grief and trauma and pain of all of humanity that's ever ever existed. And I'm meant to go to those extremes as a healer to help people overcome and master their emotions, right? Because emotions aren't bad and wrong. They're actually our compass to what's going on internally, to our trauma, to what we need to release, to what's holding us in separation. So I feel like when we're numbing our emotions by taking something, it's very helpful to people who can't deal with their trauma because it's too painful or perhaps there's an imbalance of chemicals. But I also believe that we are very powerful. Our brains are powerful, our emotions are powerful, our spirit is powerful, and there's nothing that we can't heal by addressing at a metaphysical level what is that core wound, what is that trauma? So for instance, when I was, when I opened up to all this stuff and went off the meds, I was not only feeling stuff from this lifetime, but I was feeling like extreme trauma of like horrible things that I don't even want to talk about that have happened to me in other lifetimes that I was carrying because these are imprints on our soul that are like so deeply embedded within us that then affect and um you know they inhibit us in other lifetimes because we're carrying that baggage around. And we just need to, it just needs to be released, literally. You just need to scream and shout and fucking release it and you start feeling better. And so for me, the healing came when I started allowing myself to like I wouldn't even allow myself to cry in public. There was a point where I was so tough and hard and strong I wouldn't let myself be, you know, crying in public. I cry every day now.
SPEAKER_02That's how we try as children to um yeah, to go with the someone was saying to go in the bedroom when you want to cry or you want to feel an emotion, not do it in public. So I got that. All right. So I that was my first circle back. The second one was um, did you go to you keep mentioning? Yeah, and I know what that is because, like I said, I learned so much by being on this, you know, on this show and interviewing people. And I've interviewed, I mean, a one or two shamans, so I know what it is. So um the gentleman I was talking about went to one of these retreats, and that's how he opened himself up. Did you go to any of these things, or you just you just laid in bed and it started coming to you?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, so to me, so there's there's like some stuff around the word shaman, and I used to say I was a shamanic healer, and people would always call me a shaman, like people would call me a shaman. The word shaman actually has cultural roots in specific places of the world. So I try not to use that word anymore because uh, like there's like a lot of charge around it, and I just don't want to negate anyone's experience, and I'm just not priestess is better anyway, because I'm a woman of God, like that's what I do, I'm a vessel and priestess, but like let's call a spade a spade. I am a shaman, basically, because to me, a shaman is someone who traverses the realms between spirit and this physical realm, and they take place people to the darkest places within them and they help them navigate those spaces. They talk to spirit, they talk to plants, they talk to animals, they talk to all sorts of various um, you know, things, non-physical beings. So essentially, I that's what I do, and that's what I am. Um, and I had seen a few healers, so I had seen I was seeing a shaman in uh Melbourne a couple of times. I saw him, and he didn't use plant medicine. He was like me, he was just a healer. Um, so I maybe had two sessions with him, and basically it was a self-initiation process for me. So I didn't have the assistance of someone else. It was like because uh my soul was so ready to come and embody my purpose in this lifetime, the moment I was like, show me, then it was like, okay, now it's time for you to remember. And it's like I woke up. It's like I just, you know, we all had these purposes and these things that we've done in these past lifetimes. Like I was, this is not my first lifetime, my first rodeo as doing this, which is why I just remembered. It wasn't like I needed to learn anything that I've been doing. It's like it all just came online, and I was like, oh my God, I have all this wisdom that I don't know where it came from, this knowledge. I can move energy, I remember this stuff, I remember how to do exorcisms and wild stuff. Like, I'm gonna tell a story, it's crazy. Um, the this was a couple months after all this stuff came online for me. I went back to Bali and there's this event, uh, like a it's like a holiday in Bali called Njepi. And what they do is it's a very spiritual place and they get rid of all the spirits, basically. They cast out all the spirits, they go on the streets with these big puppets and they cast out all the spirits for a day, and then the next day they make everyone turn the lights off, and you're not allowed to have lights or electricity, so that the spirits can move over and they can. Can pass over Bali and they're not there. Anyway, so I get back to Bali after all this crazy stuff. Um, and I had one other experience like the week prior of my housemate being like, There's this ghost in the room, and I can feel the spirit, and I had to get rid of that energy. Anyway, so this story is like more intense. So I'm gonna tell this story. And um, and I had a friend call me, and she was like, Beck, I because she knew that I was a healer, and she was like, I need you to come over now. And she'd sent me videos of her friend speaking in these weird voices, and she looked a bit like like you'd see in those movies, like the possession movies, and I was like, That's freaky. And she was like, You need to come over. We were out drinking and smoking, and yepie, we had the lights on, and now my friend's acting really weird. And I was like, Oh no, oh my god, I'm not ready for this, I'm not ready for this. And I had to sit there and I was like, Okay, God, like spirit, soul, is this something that I'm here for? Like, can I am I capable of helping this woman? I really don't want to go. My human is like, I'm fucking not, this is scary. Oh my god. And it was very clear you need to go. So my little human beck was shitting herself, got on my scooter, drove there. I was like shaking. I was like, I can't deal with this. But it was literally like the moment I walked in that door and I felt the energy in that house. There was like four or five spirits. Something took me over, like internally, something shifted. And there was this part of me who's like, right, I know exactly what I need to do. And I got down, I dropped in a trance, I started speaking my hymns or whatever it was. I got my sage out, which burst into flames, which was really intense. Because I'm like, sage is not meant to burst into flames, oh my god, and felt, you know, the energies, the spirits, um, brought them into my body because that's how I used to process out spirits. I would bring things into my own body to transmute it through my body. And I could feel like while my human, by the way, is like, oh my god, what the fuck is happening? Am I possessed now? I don't, you know, this is so crazy. I could feel that these spirits were just like human, like they were just angry, right? Like they were just angry because these people were in their house and they were like, they just didn't want to be there. So I was listening to them and I was like, Oh, you're angry. And I was screaming out all the anger. And then from there, and it would have looked like I was possessed, by the way, to the women watching this because I was screaming and shouting and you know, I was just letting it all out. And then from that anger, it moved up the vibrant, the frequency scale, and it became sadness. And I was like, Oh, they're just really sad, there's grief here. And I could feel compassion for them, and I was like, oh my God, I'm so sorry. And I was crying for them and I felt it. And I was like, oh my God, I'm so sorry. And then from there, it kind of became more neutral. And I was like, oh, it's time for you to move on. Like, you need to let this go and move on. And I could feel them through my heart space, they just left. And it was like this peace. And I recognized in that moment that spiritual entities or energy or whatever it is, it's just emotion, it's just frequency. And if you can sit with that anger, that hate, that rage, that whatever that is, usually there's something beneath that and it's grief and it's sadness. And that's, I think, why so many people are angry because they're not willing to feel that grief or that sadness or that loss because they think that it would break them. But you like for me, um, in these places that I was going and when I've worked with spirits or whatever it is, underneath that emotion, if you sit with it and sit with it and just be with it, like it always passes, and you're able to deal with worse things or more heavy emotion or whatever it is, it becomes easier because you're like, well, I know that this is gonna pass. And so some of the things, as part of my initiation, has been being initiated over extreme levels of grief and pain and trauma that's not just mine, but feeling the pain of the world, right? So really horrible things that are happening in our humanity and having to sit with and experience the things that most people turn away from and they don't want to experience and they don't want to feel. Um, so kind of why I was saying that move away from pain and move towards pleasure.
SPEAKER_02So yeah, that's how we build. All right, so that's awesome. So my last circle back was this past lives stuff. So we don't remember anything of our past lives, 99.99% of us, but I know a few people do. One of the one of the people that I that I um follow is Sat Guru, and he's able to talk about all his past lives, and you know, he just became a mystic. You're right. Almost similar to how you happened, it just it just happened for him. You know, one day he sat down and and um uh you know, I think he said he sat there for 14 days or something, and then when he came out, then he was able to see and do and all these different things. So if I if someone is listening and and you know, maybe you have this question of curiosity why is it that we don't remember our past lives, or how is it that you could?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, absolutely. We come in so Earth or this plane, this physical reality is a learning school, right? So we come here as souls to learn lessons because there is no other place in the universe that is as dense. And when I say dense, I mean it's heavy, um, physically, like it's heavy. When we move past the third dimension, which is the fourth dimension onwards, we lose the physicality. So fourth dimension above, it's a lighter frequency, right? So emotions, for instance, like anger is dense, it's a lower frequency, and then joy is very high. Um, just like that physical reality has different density to it. Frequency vibration has different density. So this realm of reality is very dense and it's also the lifespans are very short. So souls choose and agree before they um kind of reincarnate here to come here because it's it's very good for learning lessons, right? It's very good for learning through pain, through contrast, through whatever it is. Um, it's like a matrix, right? It's like a game to come here and learn lessons. And so we choose to come here to learn these lessons, but a lot of the time we need to forget everything that we know, everything that we've been, everything that we are, so then we can have this experience. Because if we came, if I came into this lifetime remembering I was this priestess, I was this alien, I was this this, I was that, whatever, like highly dimensional being of love, I wouldn't have gone through all the things that I went through that enabled me to get to that point to then become the leader that I am, right? So it's like we need to forget all of that so then we can consciously make a choice. We like test ourselves on like, am I gonna choose love in this lifetime? Am I gonna consciously choose um, you know, or so say, for instance, you had uh illness or a chronic some some sort of chronic illness, if you knew that it was all the game and you could very quickly just go like that and heal yourself because you had that capacity, would you learn through that illness how to like so for instance, that illness can be seen as a gift because you chose to have that illness so you could learn to love your body, or you could learn to develop another faculty or whatever. But if you had that knowing of I chose this illness because I know I know I'm gonna heal it at some point, or I know that the reason I have this illness is because XYZ is gonna happen and that's the experience that I want to have as a soul to learn, um, then it would negate the purpose, right? So it's almost like if we know the end, the story, the journey is it's pointless.
SPEAKER_02It's not, it's not right, it's not exciting anyway, right? Because you know the end, you're right. Life is a journey, it's interesting, and um, you're right. If it was if you know, if we didn't have choices or we didn't have willpower, or we're just uh robots, then it wouldn't be interesting at all. So I love that. All right, so that was that was a great introduction. Um, so thank you so much for sharing. So um, so how can we surrender and work with the divine? You just said that we are here and we have a purpose. We chose this body, our soul chose this body, and I and I know that. Um, you know, I listened to um, you know, Deepak Tropra and Wayne Dyer and even, yeah, Abraham Hipes and all those people that I listened to, and and they said we chose our parents, we chose the womb, we chose everything, just like you're saying, because we want to experience certain things in order to, you know, to learn, as you're saying. So it's nothing that I didn't know, but so how do we learn to surrender and work with the divine?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, yeah. So part of part of that is as much as we chose this uh human or this like vessel or this identity, like that version of you who's Myrna or me, who is Beck, like we chose these personalities. And ironically, we spend most of our life building up these personalities of I am separate, I am Beck, I am this is who I think I am, and I have this identity as a priestess or a woman or a daughter or whatever it is, stories of who we are. In order to surrender and allow the divine to work through us, we almost need to let go of identification with us as this limited small being and start seeing ourselves as a fractal of source or creator. So, like, for instance, there's this saying of if you take a bucket of water out of the ocean, is it still the ocean? And of course it is, it's still the ocean. And just like that, we are fractals of the one, the one source of all energy. Some people call it God, the universe, different frameworks of understanding for the same thing, but we are literally a fractal fractal of source. So, in order to allow that part of ourselves to um take more responsibility in our life or um work through us, it's almost like we need to relinquish our identities. We need to relinquish our attachments, we need to relinquish our stories of what we think we know, because nine times out of ten, it's the complete inverse to what the truth is, right? We're in this reality where we've been taught so much that is a lie and it's tactical to keep us small and asleep, but when we can let go of and decondition and strip ourselves back and strip ourselves back and strip ourselves back, and then we become this empty vessel for source to work through. So that's literally people want to know how I do what I do, and it's not me doing it, it's God doing it. Like I'm not responsible, I'm not gifted, I'm not amazing, it's not me. My only gift is like the courage, having the courage to have everything torn every minute I try and get attached to something, um, it's torn. So it's like that's my gift is being able to die and be reborn a million times. Um because I couldn't do this stuff without without spirit, without God flowing through me, working through me. And so if people want to learn how to be that channel, be that, you know, to surrender, it's understanding that like God's plan for you and vision for you is so much bigger and more amazing than you could possibly even fathom from your humid, limited mind. And every time I've been clinging to something, I've been shown that on the other side of when I let go of that, what God had in mind for me was so much more incredible.
SPEAKER_02Right. Yeah. I'm reading this book right now from Dr. Jose Spencer's called Supernatural. I love him. And he's teaching, and he's teaching us to to connect with the universal, the unified energy field. So is that how you're doing it? You are letting go of your physical body and your mind and connecting through energy.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, so one of my kind of gifts in this life is to be this transmitter for frequency, and it's not it's very unique. Like um, shamans do a lot of different things and speak to spirits and all of this stuff. But literally, one of my gifts in this life is to be essentially a very big radio transmitter, um, which is why I do activations through spoken word and all sorts of things, because it's like source frequency comes through me and that's amplified. So that's through my own twindulene.
SPEAKER_02You are actually able to elevate your your frequency to match that.
SPEAKER_00That is awesome. Yeah, and and channel, channel energy through my body from different places, so from other galaxies and planets and from the earth. So the earth has her own um like ley lines or grid of energy, right? So, like we have our chakra system, the earth has her own, and there's different chakra points of different places in the earth. And what people like myself or people who've learnt to use this energy can do is they can place themselves in specific points and call that energy through their body to like magnify magnify what they're doing. Um, so yeah, essentially that is what I'm doing. I'm I'm using this energy from the field, I'm using energy from other beings who are here to support us from angels, spirits, whatever, um, God, um, to channel that energy through me. Yeah, to help. But everyone can do it. That's the thing. Like there's different levels of like the variations. Oh, I know.
SPEAKER_02That's basically what Dr. Joe Dispense is doing. He has these um meditation retreats and he's teaching people how to do it, and you can, and and and people heal themselves and they do all these different things by by connecting with this energy. But obviously, you know, you're at a much higher level. Um, and um uh and you were born for this stuff, so it's it comes naturally. But but he that's why he called the book supernatural because we can all we can all become it.
SPEAKER_00Well, becoming a supernatural, he starts to get a little bit more esoteric. I I he was one of the first people I started following, and I think his the reason why my kundalini awoke, and actually I was really like pissed at the time um after learning about kundalini because I was like, he's not really teaching how dangerous this can be, like when it awakens spontaneously. I love him. I love him. I've been to his events, I think he's amazing, he's incredible. Oh my gosh!
SPEAKER_02But yeah, he's gonna want it.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, or not his like retreats, but I went to a live event of him speaking. I would love to do one of his retreats, but um his breathing technique of that he teaches in his books of the squeezing and pulling, yes, that's literally kundalini, his awakening kundalini within you. Yes, and so your kundalini is this energy that's connected, it's life force, it's connected to the earth, it's connected to source, it's shakti, which is feminine, and Shiva, which is the masculine. And when you can get Shakti, which is a feminine, to go up to the masculine, which is in your crown, Shiva consciousness, then it's divine union, which is union with everything within self, within the world, within the universe. Um, so he's teaching basically how to activate your kundalini because kundalini is healing energy, it's life force energy. It's in Christian or Pentecostal churches when you see people having a full-on um reaction. It's the same thing, it's the same thing, which is why I'm like when people get angry, like there's fighting going on between religions and stuff, I'm like, guys, it's the same thing. Chi and Easter.
SPEAKER_02You're right. Yeah, they just name it differently, but it's exactly the same thing, or just it's just one God. But you call it Allah, you call it, you know, universe. Yeah, you're supreme being. Okay, but yeah, so that's basically what he's teaching now. Now, let's talk about your Kundalini experience. So you're calling it the rising of the dark night of the soul experience. So let me share with you what um uh the gentleman that I just interviewed talked about. He said that he would have this orgasmic energy every single night, right? And it would just not leave him alone. And it was, but yeah, that's different from what Dr. Joe De Spencer is calling about filling energy up like a straw from your your first chakra all the way to your seventh chakra. Yeah, he was talking about energy that I thought I felt, but his was on a much more grander scale. But I've lain in bed and felt, I call it aliveness, energy in my belly, and it was just amazing. I don't I haven't felt it in a long time, and it didn't come very often, but that's basically what started him onto his mystical healing path. So yeah, let's talk about yours.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, I'd love to. It's and it's like a topic that like I think I'm also needing to inform people of all of the aspects of it, right? Because it can be so magical and mystical, and it can also be fucking terrifying. So, what he's describing, this man, that's like well, firstly, I want to say not everyone has um these kundalini experiences, even though they might have awakened kundalini. I have a friend, she's a super like psychic, gifted healer, super evolved being, and she's never felt her kundalini in the ways that I do. We all have different kinds of um experiences with it. Mine was particularly intense, and I think it's because I'm here to help people with this and because of the volume of it that's moving through my body. So you can have different volumes of it or strengths of it moving through your body, and it can manifest as a tickle, like a slight um energy pulse or sensation of tingling in your body or heat. Um, or for me, it's like full body orgasms, like this man described, orgasmic energy. Like I feel like I'm getting literally, I don't know how to say this. There's no way for me to say it without sounding crass, like getting penetrated by spirit, like literally feels like I'm having sex with someone and there's no one there. Um, and it's incredible. It's incredible, but that's not the purpose of it. Um, because sexual energy is just healing energy. It is just um, it's just life force energy, like it's pure creation energy, right? So of course it's going to feel orgasmic because the orgasm is how we are birthing things, right? That's how we're creating. So you can channel that energy into creativity, you can channel it into healing, you can channel it into mystic um purposes. So like opening your third eye, channeling, healing, all sorts of things. It can be used for pretty much anything. Um, but people were like, oh, I feel this is sexual energy, so therefore I'm arousing it's sexual energy. And it's like, well, no, just because it's arousing doesn't necessarily mean it needs to be manifested sexually, right? So that was a big thing for me at the start of my journey was reclaiming my sexual energy and understanding that I was always I had such potent sexual energy from such a young age because um, and lots of distortions within that of things that I had to go through with that to realize that it was just healing energy and it was just my life force energy. And I was misinterpreting it because of society as sexual energy. But lots of things can happen with these, um, with the Kundalini Awakening. You can spontaneously start moving your body into all sorts of like weird, kind of like yoga poses, almost contorting. Like I found myself on the floor with like my my my chest kind of like going like that, like like kind of like an exorcism. Like, you know, you see the exorcisms and they're like doing their crazy stuff.
SPEAKER_01Wow.
SPEAKER_00Um, many times, speaking tongues, like speaking, you know, like like what Christians would call tongues or other languages spontaneously, remembering things, feeling these mystical experiences. And now for me, because my kundalini is always so active and and awakened because of who I am, I have mystical experiences of profound oneness and love and bliss and ecstasy, and literally speaking to God on a random Tuesday, like as a throwaway thing, that seriously, if someone was to have one of these experiences once in their entire lifetime, it would change their life. And for me, it's a constant, right? But because of this, people can get very um, they can think of themselves as God or better than people, or they can get very egotistical when this stuff is happening, which is then spiritual ego, right? So there's this trap of like when people start opening up all this stuff, they think, oh my god, I'm so gifted and special, and I'm better than everyone because you're not having these experiences. And ironically, it takes them further away from love and compassion and unity because um, you know, these experiences aren't for everyone. Some people didn't sign up to have these experiences because it's not where they are in the reincarnation cycle. They came here to experience something else. For me, I've come here to experience it's not even spiritual mastery because I've experienced that in so many lifetimes. It's like I've come here to embody humanity with the spiritual mastery, right? So, like some people are here to experience spiritual mastery and have these wild experiences, but maybe they're not ready to bring that with the humanity. But I'm I'm ready to like come back down to earth with all the spiritual mastery so I can help people to, you know, yeah. Um, so it very, very crazy things can happen.
SPEAKER_02All of this happened to you for a purpose. So what do you yeah? How do you um how do you help people right now with this energy and being so you were a priestess? I love the energetic alchemist that I started off with because you know, I read the book The Alchemist, and um, I love that word, you know what I mean? So you're you're you know, you you're saying you're a priestess, you're an energetic alchemist, you're a spiritual guide. So um what do you what what is your purpose? Um what was God's purpose for what was your learning experience and what are you supposed to do with this?
SPEAKER_00Yeah, so I mean, on a personal level, I'm like I have so many like karmic things to kind of tie up around in past lives where I've had extreme power and I've used it to enslave people or hurt people or thought I was better than people. So definitely one of my learnings in this lifetime is compassion and using this power with love and service. Like that they're my biggest personal level um kind of missions to feel and experience and how much more love can I be. But it's also from a from a like what my mission is here is to activate people to remember who they are. So because my energy is so powerful and big, um, and I say that with complete humility because it's not my energy at all, like it's something moving through me, but because I can hold listen, you're gifted.
SPEAKER_02I am I am absolutely sure of it. Yeah, thank you. And I'm talking to you from Florida and you in Australia, and I'm absolutely um assured of it. So you're gifted, you have a purpose. You know, everything that you've said, I'm able to collaborate it. You know what I mean? Because this is basically what I do. Yeah, amazing. You're not blown smoke.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, thank you. Um, I'm here with because of this energy. Um, basically, people come into contact with me, and it's like they're feel their memory, their cellular memory, their past life memory, their soul codes from other places come online. Like it's like there's a remembering that happens internally for them, um, which means that. That their purpose activates and their memory of I came here to do this spontaneously activates for them. So on the deepest level, I'm here to wake people up and help them to remember that they're an infinite soul and that they've done this many, many times and they're here for a purpose. And then more specifically, activating their gifts. So helping them to bring these things online, helping them to clear the trauma that they're carrying from past lifetimes or whatever it is that's blocking them from um stepping into their gifts. So for instance, a lot a lot of the stuff that I was dealing with at the start, which is karma for me, it's karmic stuff I was clearing, was not wanting to show up and use my gifts because I've been burnt at the stake for being a witch, because I've been hung, I've been murdered, I've been raped, I've been abused, I've been belittled, all these things that I had to you know. I'm watching this documentary at the end.
SPEAKER_02Let me stop here for a minute. So let's say that you come into this body, or let's say me, I came into this body with a purpose, but unconsciously, I don't want to do it because I know if I get there, really how that that's interesting.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, it's it's a witch wound, is it's called the witch wound. But even if you look like so, as I was saying, I'm watching this, I'm showing Jesus at the moment, and I love Jesus, and I work really closely with Jesus as an energy, and I'm not Christian or anything like that. I grew up Christian, but I just love his energy. And um I was thinking about, you know, he was just here wanting to help and be loving and kind and what they did to him. And it happens to so many of us who come here um and want to share our gifts because the world's not ready for it, or because our dogma, our patriarchy is in opposition to that, and they want to keep us small in silence because they don't want people to be awake. And so we've had to endure a lot of stuff, and then that that almost like fragments our soul in a way. So, what I was doing on this lifetime work of myself and also with other people is like pulling back those fragments of my soul which had gotten trapped in those lifetimes or experiences where that shit had happened, and then I've decided to not like I've that there's this resistance in me of like, it's not even like if I share a post about this stuff on social media, someone's gonna try and cancel me or um someone's gonna call me woo roo. It's so much deeper than that of like I will literally get killed for saying this stuff. And some of the stuff that I say, I know that there's people out there who would want to kill me because it's so against their agenda. Um, and so the more I step up in my prep. I've experienced I have experienced a high volume of energetic attacks, um, which is never fun. So receiving that from an energetic level, and I've gotten very good at defending myself, so very good. I've I've experienced a lot of, particularly from religious people, um, you're going to hell, you don't know what you're doing, you're the devil. And the irony is, and they're like, you need to find Jesus. And I'm like, but I actually love Jesus and I work with him a lot. So like that's the irony, guys. Um a lot of that, a lot of um, like just I know I'm here to trigger people, right? Because when you are a vessel for love and God, like you're shining a mirror. I'm just a mirror to people, right? So you're gonna see in me whatever you need to see to heal and evolve, and that's not comfortable. And some people are not willing to own their triggers and their stuff. So then they blame the person who's triggering them, right? So I know I'm here to trigger the fuck out of a lot of people, and sometimes people are just children not owning their stuff and projecting that onto me. Um, so I've had to really like learn how to love myself, and it's a constant journey of the the more people I'm reaching, the more I'm evolving, the more my my purpose is reaching more people. The initiations of like, how much can you release that fear of judgment? How much can you trust that the only judgment that really matters is God's judgment and no one else's, like, not even your own judgment matters, it's God's judgment, and that's it. Um, that's been a constant like lesson for me of like, even if everyone hates me and rejects me, and whatever, like I believe in what I'm here to share because I'm a vessel and it's not my my it's not my message.
SPEAKER_02Once they're not physically hurting you, you just said one of the things Christianity Christians say is all weapons formed against me will not prosper. So you just said that you've had energetic attacks, but you can handle it. So the weapons that are forming against you energetically, yeah, just you can just get rid of it. They're a gift.
SPEAKER_00I say they're a gift, yeah. Every attack that I've ever had has only made me stronger and has made me be like less, so I it doesn't affect me because I'm like, well, thank you for the lesson.
SPEAKER_02Once they're not physically hurting you, then yeah, bring them on, right? Wow, that's amazing. All right, well, listen, this has been huh, like I said, I mean, I'm just being introduced to this new way, and it's I'm I'm I'm I don't even know what to say because it's absolutely amazing. You know, I'm a Christian and I believe in all that, but you know, I I know about the energy, I know about the fact that we came here for a purpose. You know, I follow the Indian mystics who talk about karma and past lives, and and they believe that we're here with a purpose. And if we don't, we don't, if they don't, if the soul doesn't um uh do its purpose, then it's gonna reincarnate. So I've heard all that, so which is basically what I said. Nothing that you're saying to me is is is is um new to me, but what is new to me is that an ordinary person can just have just be transformed. You know, uh my last, you know, the last guy who talked about this awakening and and what it turned him into ordinary, ordinary man, just just a father with two kids, and you know what I mean, and and then he became a mystic and and and and you, I mean, you've obviously gone deeper. Um uh, you know, where yeah, you're obviously much more gifted, but but it's amazing. I um I I love opening up my mind uh to these possibilities and and this energy and all that. So, like I said, I'm just working on meditation here.
SPEAKER_00But that's the thing, like I didn't get into honestly, my night you'd said to me when I was writing down, I just want to do this, and I just I had no freaking idea that this was where it would take me. Like, if someone had said to me when I was writing down the list of what I wanted for my life, I wouldn't have even known to write this because I didn't even know you could feel or experience this level of connection and love and bliss and purpose and spiritual. Like, I didn't even, it wasn't something I was looking for. So it was like it's crazy to me too, how crazy this keeps getting. And it just keeps getting, trust me, it keeps getting crazier. The further down the rabbit hole you go, you're like, holy shit, like this is every sci-fi movie ever. Like, whoa.
SPEAKER_02Well, listen, you're really young, so hopefully you've got like 30 more years of this stuff. Yeah, yeah, you're gonna be like, you know, a sad guru if you're not there already. So that's that's amazing. All right, so tell our listeners how they can connect with you and your website. I'm not sure how you you know how you trigger people or what is it that you do.
SPEAKER_00All the time. Um, well, if this is interesting to you, I have my own podcast, so I talk about all of this stuff all the time, and they are actually activations, so each one is a healing in itself. Um, that's new, so it's like the past month I've released that. It's really exciting. People having amazing experiences called Cracked Open with Beck My Loonis. Otherwise, head to my website, beckmyloonis.com, M-Y-L-O-N-A-S. Um, you can find me on Instagram as Beckmy Loonis, and I kind of facilitate or hold spaces for people to activate their gifts, activate their past life stuff, um, and really activate their purpose. So, check out, you know, on my website. I've always got offerings. I'm start, I'm starting my next three-month kind of process, I guess you want to call it, with people called Rebirth Soon. And that's a complete journey to like decondition and remove and purge and clear all the past life pain and trauma um and activating that mission and and that's all those soul gifts. So, yeah, all that will be on my website or my Instagram. So check those out. Yeah, thank you for having me. I've enjoyed this.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, well, listen, yeah, I love it. Crack open, huh? That's your podcast. Yeah, all right. So that is awesome. Listen, that my mind is being poof. Yes, I love it, I love it, I love it. I love that you know, human beings, you know, can have these wonderful experiences and connect to energy. You know, I do a meditation where um uh you go all the way up to you know the darkest reaches of the universe and um uh and you you connect to the energy there. And yet I was just thinking to myself, you know, I don't even need to go all the way there. I can just go right in front of me, which is I understand my soul is right out here.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, exactly.
SPEAKER_02I don't, yeah, I don't need to, I don't need to um, I don't need to go all the way there. So yes, I am I'm dabbling, I'm learning, and um and you mentioned Abram Hicks. Abram Hicks introduced me to energy, and that's basically what you're talking about. You know, working with your energy, working with the law of attraction, working with your vortex, working, you're just taking it many, many steps above. But the ordinary layman can just start off with you know, um, working with their energy and and connecting to the frequency of um uh quantum. That's basically what uh uh Dr. Jodis Spencer is talking about, getting into the quantum field where things can change in a second, you know what I mean? Because the quantum is you know you you think of a uh a wave and it becomes a particle. I love that stuff.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, it is, we're all creators. That's like the bottom line. If anyone takes anything away from this, it's that we are all powerful creators and that yeah, we're always creating whether or not we realize we're creating. And so why wouldn't you take control of what you're creating? It's pretty basic.
SPEAKER_02Yes, yes, yes. Well, at least I'm there. That's the space that I play in. You know what I mean? It's that's a lot more than most people.
SPEAKER_00Yeah, what was that? Yeah, I said that's a lot more than most people. Like you'd be surprised how few the people are who are consciously creating in this world. Oh, yeah. And one more thing I wanted to say is like the reason why people can have these spontaneous awakenings so fast these days is because of people waking up. People are starting to consciously create, and so the frequency of the whole planet has started to raise, which means that people are remembering their past lives, remembering this stuff very quickly. Whereas back in the 60s, 70s, 80s, whenever, um, it was a lot slower because there was a smaller percentage of awakened beings here, which meant that the overall frequency of Earth was a lot lower. So that's true. That's true. Fun fact.
SPEAKER_02You know, they were only in China and India and those places now. Just come to the West, and you're right. Yeah, the whole world is um getting better, more energetic. Awesome. Beck, this has been uh a dream conversation. Thank you so much for coming on the show and expanding our minds about the possibilities, you know, the possibilities. You're you don't have to be stuck in in trauma, you don't have to be stuck in unhappiness, depression. We didn't get to touch a lot on the you know the mental illness part, but you've just, you know, someone is listening has just been given um new information about what they can do when they stop numbing themselves and allowed themselves to feel. And I remember when you were talking, I remember, and I'm gonna share this now because it was so amazing. I interviewed a psychiatrist on the on the um on the show, and he said that taking meds is like going to the doctor for a mosquito bite on your arm, and the doctor cuts off the arm. He said the mosquito bite is no longer gonna be there because the arm is no longer there, and that's basically what you just said that the meds just flatline you. You feel nothing, right? So I am I always love that. So yeah, feel um see what you know, what your soul is here to do, that your trauma is um maybe opening the door for your purpose and what you need to do in this world. So love it, love it, love it. I'm gonna have a transcript of my conversation with back on the show page, which is blog.myhelps.us. It will link out to her podcast, link out to her website and her Instagram handle. And hey, if you're interested in expansion at all, definitely should follow her because yeah, you know, um you might not get all the way to the top, but you can start the climb, right? Thank you, thank you so much for having me. You're very welcome. All right, guys. Well, listen, thanks for tuning in to Transform Your Mind to Transform Your Life. Boy, I hope your mind was transformed today because mine definitely was. Um, I want to thank Vic for coming on the show. I want to thank you guys for tuning in. If you're listening to this on iTunes, I would love for you to read and review. If you're listening to this on YouTube, would love for you to subscribe. Thanks again, Beck. And until next time, Namaste.