Episode #57

On this Episode of The MJ38 Show (Podcast):

Matthew and Justin talk about The Seasons, Doing “Too Much”, and The Vibes

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Okay, now I think I can record a podcast. Hello? Jesus, Louise's so great. That was great. Yeah, it sounds fine. Goodness gracious, y'all, we just jumped through some hoops. Those are just the hoops that we choose to jump through. I'll choose to jump through those hoops over any other hoops in the world. Hoop, jump jump a hula hoop. Big. Yeah, they hidden jumpers. It reminds me every time I remember being a kid with my dad. Just. We did that, like, three times a week. Just like YouTube in tutorials, wasn't you? Yeah. Like Google. Oh, yeah. But YouTube wasn't, like, super prevalent when I was in high school. I think that's when you realized you could YouTube anything and like, how to do anything in your car was on YouTube. I feel like when I was in elementary school, I was a little more like we wasn't. Quite. There yet. Yeah, we're trying to figure to figure it out, you know, looking at instruction manuals and shit. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Home was a chatrooms and forums and shit. Yeah, yeah yeah yeah. That's where the truth is sometimes, bro, go to Reddit, you'll find some truth in Reddit. Real talk. That's like the the voice of the people live on Reddit. That's like the brand, right? Kind of. At least that's what I associate Reddit with. Yeah, it is, because everything's upvoted. So it's like to have. Yeah. It's like monitored. Yeah. It's truly. Policed. There's no like Google works because people pay money and it's a combination of like money and traffic that creates a top search result. But a top search result in Reddit is strictly based on positive upvotes, which are supposed merit typically. Yeah, merit. Yeah yeah yeah. And then if you just Google my problem, Reddit like, my thing won't work. Reddit and you go through the Reddit results because you'll see like the post question. Then you'll see like several people trying to answer the question. Or sometimes you'll just say like someone at the top. Top comment, like. The actual solution. Yeah. And then everybody underneath that is like, thank you, Big Stu. Thank you. Excuse me. Excuse the best. Yeah. And I think it's good for press. Right. But some people would maybe misunderstand the question, have the wrong answer, all sorts of shit that. Would something irrelevant. Yeah. Or yes. Like outdated. I have this problem too. You don't wanna have to scroll through a bunch of those, you know? Yeah, yeah, we're just. Problem solving creatures. But it's stressful. That's what I was going to say. Yes it is. Feels nice now. It's like super relieved. It's like super. Chilling. It's like Holly that took so long. I was such I was such a trek. Such a trek. We always figure it out. We made it happen. We made it happen. The thing we made happen is we got Joe Rogan ask up in this motherfucker. We got. We did. We got the wireless HDMI into the TV. We got the ability to capture the capturing the TV currently. So we got the video to overlay within this video, whenever we're bringing stuff up or watching videos or looking up things on Google, whatever that happens to be. And then we also have that audio routed to the headphones and also an audio track routed to the, audio Da. Yeah, yeah, the audio captures all the audio. So now it's its own audio track. And then we had to jump through some hoops to make sure that wasn't capturing all the audio at the same time, and playing back everything over each other and making it sound like robots. Hell in a handbasket. It's nitty gritty, it's nitty gritty, and it gets way complicated. If you get too far and it gets crazy. That's what we. Were trying to download a thing, and it was like I had to like, download like the fucking script or like typing the damn code. Myself. From one of these things. Like, I'll think that's it. GitHub. That's probably not. It ended up being something we already had access to, to, you know what I'm saying? It was like you had you had the treasure right there. You're already good. Preach it. Hey, man. I'm a witness. The people without focus, right, have to. Do some other shit. But we jump through a different set of hoops. Sally their own individual, uniquely tailored set of hoops. Oh my gosh. Because, yeah, if someone if two people have the same exact problem, they're going to go about it. Two completely individual. They might be similar, but they're going to be completely individualistic routes forward of how to handle that problem, even if the problem is exactly the same thing. Sure, just based on how you interpret the world, exactly how you view things, what's your viewpoint? And then that how you view the world is going to imply, like intra intricately work itself into how you act out problem solving or passage of time to a better time. It's like, oh, we're in now time. Oh, now time has problems. Okay, we need to get over these problems times. And then you overcome the problems and. You're okay now we're in better times. Yeah. And we have the information, the knowledge and the wisdom of how to overcome that problem or a similar problem in the future. So yes, much better. Subconscious problem solving, better strategy. Yeah. How do you go about it? We all have our own gears working on how to figure out our problems. Yes. You know, so even if we have the same exact problem, someone has the same exact equipment and setup. They might have gone through a different route instead of whoops and Google searches. That led them to a different a different outcome or whatever. But we found that the shit works for us right now. So it's rewarding. Praise God. It's nice when. You get this thing back on. It's just like, yeah. Yeah. That wasn't our problem. But it's kind of the same feeling. Yeah. Oh that's nice. Yeah, man, I. Only I don't want to get to too many on this little. I want to keep it a little more tangible. Let's go a. Little more here. We're right here with it present. We're in clothing and a clothes are here on a couch in a in an apartment in Texas. Yeah. Here we go. Live that. Live. Boom. But might as well be live. Yeah, man, what's going on in life? Football's happening. That's a big thing that's going on right now for show. School is happening. Yeah. Summer is. August time. Summer is coming to a close. Semesters are starting. Back up. Back to school. Yeah. I love this time of year. Also, I was talking to you about this before, but I was like like this time of year. The same way that some people love the holidays or some people love whatever, like summertime, July 4th or Valentine's, whatever, whatever time of the seasons appeal to you and your story. But this time. In life, I like this time in life a lot. It just hits because our birthdays are right around this time. It's like right before the holiday season truly starts to pick up and ramp up around Halloween. It's like we this is our own little pockets. Like summer's coming to a close, new beginnings are truly starting to emerge. It's like all the work that you put it in. The summer is like, now you're in the reaping season. We're about to hit into some reaping season as far as it's kind of like the seasonality. Of spirituality or whatever. However, you want to say that, it's like. Spring, summer. Fall winter. It's like spring's new beginnings in the summer, you're working during the summer and then you reap in the fall, and then you take what you reaped in the new, withstand the winter, and then you get to another cycle again. Do it again. I like this jumping into the or out of the summer into the fall time, or like right into that transition. This is like August mid, mid to late August into September is like September where like it's fall vibes. Some places it's like starting to get orange and yellow, you know, not here, not in Texas. That's okay, that's okay. The sound beauty. You feel it's own beauty. It's acquired taste. What's there's more grass for sure. Yeah, it's a little less hot. Yeah, it's a little less humid. We got a lot of rain this summer. Yeah, it was right. It rained a lot. I remember it raining like every third day or so. Every three days. It was 100. Yeah. Why was that? Yeah, that was nice. Yeah. It's hurricane season. You're saying did those seasons. The seasons like we. Reap in the fall. So in the spring are you talking about like in the past we did that. Yeah. I think that that might be like the method or like, I guess kind of how we survived or I guess is like farming maybe. Yeah. You know, it's like planting in the spring, working in the summer, reaping in the fall. Then hopefully you have enough food to last you through the winter when you can't plan anything. Do you think it's. I think that's metaphysically true as well. Oh, that's going to matter. I go to the farmers. It's all hands in the dirt. Yeah, feet on the ground. Earth. Literally feet on the ground as. I talk about something. A million miles in there. Yeah, metaphysical abstract concepts. But yeah, that's what I was going to say is, do you think that the idea of fall is prevalent in your life? Is it do we always. So in the spring I think we everybody work hard in the summer. Kids are working hard in the summer. Not. That maybe that follows water just like a truly like farmer's schedule back in the day. Yeah, that was the. Purpose of Daylight Savings time. I guess during that summer portion, like in the springtime, we increased the length of day that we get to work with. We can talk about something tangible right here. Yeah, here we go. They were the backbone of the damn country. Yeah, that's why. They've changed the whole time system, right? Because it was important. We need to have a time. There's also like wealth in our country. We grew a ton of agriculture. Yeah, we could feed our own country at a time when other countries had, like, struggled with that. But now we're in a weird place where we're like the real estate economy and big corporate, I guess, like agriculture or food, aggregators. Yeah, they like farmers, like going out of business. True. American farmers are going out of business, like left and right all over the place. I don't know any like the stats on that, but I'm sure they're appalling. They're appalling for sure. I'm sure I don't have them either. I just seen enough TikTok in documentaries to like, know that that's true. And it's just like crazy, man. It's just why do they why would we do that? Why would we get rid of? Why would we not bolster up the fuckin people making our food here in this country. Might just be as simple as profit, you know, trying to turn a buck song as much money as possible out of anything and everything. And trying to make cheaper food. it's like. For fuck's sake, man. Yeah, right. What are we talking about here? We owe them money, or we're just printing money and paying them back money. We owe them with money we print. It's all pretty fucked, dude. Politics is fucked right now. The money. Is crazy. Yeah, because, Yeah, I don't know. I don't know how the. All those companies, agricultural companies, farmers, are they companies, are they businesses? If you're a farmer or if you're a I guess if you're like a distributor of Wagyu beef like you, you're definitely selling that shit. Yeah. But like or how many farmers out. There, farmers get their own kind of tax coding. And they have their own their own, their. Own thing. Yeah. It's a different kind of person. Yeah. And they used to give tax breaks to people that were making food and they would get like. You can't get tax breaks if you have a certain amount of land with livestock on it or like animals on it, like goats and chickens. So I think it turned into that. At first we were boosting the farmer community up and like, I think we were trying to not overtax them and like allow them to create food for America. Us. Yeah. To keep life going. I was like, if I die yesterday, I was like, man, I have to eat like I have to eat. If I'm not careful, I won't eat like I have to put it into the schedule, you know. Saying, dude. Make a sandwich. Like eat that sandwich like, yeah. Excuse command. You cannot, but you're too disciplined. But also life just gets terrible. Like your condition, your perception, your experience gets shitty. Yeah. Experience sucks if you're hungry for, like, super hungry. Yeah. So it. Yeah. We're sorry. We're talking about farmers to bolster them up. Yeah. Because it's. Important. And then we start taxing the crap out of farms and like having death taxes and like. Yeah, like. I think we talked about this on a pod, like a year and. A half ago. We did talk about. The farmers because you have farmer roots in Indiana. Yeah. You're family. So then like, well, my grandfather passed away to like, have the farm go down like, for someone else to inherit the farm, you have to pay like a tax on, like a fifth of the farm. Just like it's like a death, like an inheritance tax, just to take it over. So that means, like, a lot of farmers was just going lame. End up selling like if you were just, like, broke or like, don't even know how, like, let's just say your dad was just doing everything and you just get the farm and you're like, not really, like, ready to handle all that, but you have to inherit. It and have your own financial burdens that you've accrued through your own life story. And then just like, here's an additional whatever the farm is worth, like 20% of that. Yeah. Fuck yeah. That's a. Lot. So a lot of people just sell 20% of the land and then pay the inheritance tax with that, and then keep whatever's left over. but then you lose 20% of your land. Yeah. And that's just like happened over the last 50 or 60 years. And so there's like, no, not enough room. Yeah. They all got smaller. And then once they get smaller, the profits go down, the taxes went up, and then it's like, shit's fucked. Yeah. That's fucked. Yeah. That's fucked. I don't know what we're doing. I don't know what we're doing, to be honest with you. What are we talking about here? Y'all? This thing is tight. Like it's sick, right? Yeah, we're leveling up. We got some extra blue lights in the back. Come on, y'all, it's fucking. It's next. This is the new chapter, bro. So talking about bringing it back to what I was talking about. Thank you. It's a new season. I love this time of year. It's like the the new school year is always such a hitter for everyone. You know I like that. That's our. That's your life. Whenever you're 5 to 18, they go to college 5 to 22 whatever. It's like. You're doing that for a long time. Like a long time. This means a lot to a lot of people this time of year. We call it August. But what the fuck's happening? You know, there we go. I'm talking. It's a I think there's. Something going on there. Because I think because we were talking about, you know, like the seasonality is there like a true maybe like a spiritual aspect to that. But I think maybe you do kind of reap. And so every day maybe, you know what I'm saying, moment by moment you're reaping and sowing. Maybe it happens on every, every scaleable, increment of time, you know, say like millisecond, second hour, day, whatever. You know, I'm saying we expand it all the way over the course of your life. They were experiencing all those karmic action reactions. With, like, the maturation cycle of the karmic action. So sometimes it's like it happened yesterday. So it's hitting today, something that happened a week ago. It's hitting a week from now. I don't know how long things take to rubber band back into reality. Yeah. But that's also happening at some rate from all of your past that you've lived. And then you're sending some into the future with all the ones you're doing right now creating this big loop that you're walking in all the time. The cyclone of. Crazy shit. So I think you are on, on on that aspect. You're definitely reaping in someone all the time. But I think there maybe there is a maybe there's some truth to the, to the idea that maybe there's a spiritual seasonality of things in your life, I guess. Yeah, we're talking about spring time being the planting, the summertime being the, I guess, the work and the fall time being the reaping and the reap what you sow. What's going on there. Yeah. So I think there is truth to that though. I don't know. I just feel that in my like I think I think that's right. I think there's something true to it. I'm not sure the degree to which but or how exactly it works, but it makes sense in my mind. I accept it's true. I think my own book of philosophy belief. Give it to me. Right there where you're talking about there's a spirit of summer that does exist with us, and maybe it's just an echo of our ancestors memory, that we had to work all summer so that we could survive through the winter. And like that, that song plays in the background of our life now, too. So if you can lean into working really hard all summer, there's a song that's already playing at that melody and at that beat and at that frequency. And so when you do work all summer because like, you know, for me, like I remember in high school, I was working out really hard all summer because football was in the fall. So the only time you could really get like you could do like a full bulk or you could really like focus and change your body was over the summer. And then there's just something about the dog days of summer working hard when it's hot and you're sweaty and you just kind of get over. You're like, I don't give a I don't care. Dump the water over my face is for. Yeah, it's hot. I know in the muck. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And there's something real nice and beautiful. And you feel like you almost overcome the spirit of that. That it's too hot or it's too much or adversity almost in that sense. Yeah. It's like we have to. Get this done. We have to plant these. We have to attend the field. We have to. And you could spend all summer inside avoiding the heat, not wanting to work. Maybe you're like a college student and you don't. You don't mind working when campus is open, but you try not to work during the summer so you can just relax and have fun. And like, you know, I could see that too, but you're just missing an opportunity that's out there. There's a dance to be. You have this time off or like, yeah, you had this, you've been given this. I guess you go to summer school, but maybe even going to summer school is like fucking working hard in the summer. Like, you know what I'm saying? Because you're like, you're doing extra, you know, like, this. School is not right now. Like I'm going. Anyway, bitch. Like a fucking getting this shit done, right? Yeah. I was just thinking in my mind, like, going a little deeper is like, maybe there is something true to it because it does line up more so with, like, the, the farming agricultural side of seasonality and the importance of it is like, the truth is we need fucking food. We need that like it's important. And I think we are like mentally, spiritually planting seeds all the. Time, all the. Time. And like that same thing is happening, you know, and I think maybe like, all right. It just struck me that maybe it is like that, the thing that I'm identifying within it as true is a calling to me as true because of the link to the like. It's like food. It's like you need it's that important to you. It's like this planting of seeds and reaping of what you're sowing and tending the field of your mental garden and your spiritual garden. It's like that is as important, if not more important, than the actual food that you're eating that goes through this seasonality as well. In your physical world, you know what I'm saying? I say, oh, that might be true. I might be deep and I'm saying it and it sounds right. That's right. Feels right. That's right. It's beautiful. You know, your spiritual garden, your mental garden. What thoughts are you thinking? What are you trying to grow like? We've been trying to bloom MJ 38 for fucking ever, bro. You know what I'm saying. Dude, I'm tripping right now because I was like caught in a daydream of thought. And I came back and you talk about the same thing. Whew. That was trippy. Because. Yeah, because you can't help but like, We're always planting something. Yeah, exactly. That's the thing. So like. And watering, tending something, giving it your energy, giving it. And you get to that next moment. And then there's what you had watered and fostered and grown behind that kind of like bolstering it up and supporting it and then leaking through in its influence. Now we go, okay, go busari on. We'll, we'll revamp to back to that thought, but what we, Are you saying sorry? Are you great? Always playing something. Oh, you were talking. And then I was thinking in my own mind about how. Like, I think that that's that's kind of like how you can feel good about something is because if you were trying to do it the right way and really trying to have, like a positive outcome and you're like, almost grooming this thought of like trying to do it the right way and then adversity comes up and then you choose to do it the right way. It feels really good because you kind of like already had that mental pathway for it. And I think that there's something about like when you get into the moment and then there's like the moment where you could cut the corner since you had that influence in those thoughts of like, I want to not cut the corner. I want to not get the corner. Then you just like, are able to achieve the thing that you wanted. Yeah. Execute the action that you would say that. Deems. Desirable. Yeah, it meets that demand. But it would take some of that like or if you had the, the opposite going like you're going negative self belief or self doubt. Yeah. Then you get to that moment and you're like oh I'm just cut this corner. Fuck this. I could see that like. Yeah yeah. Yeah. And that moment that you take the, the fork in the road moment where you present you with the opportunity to do one of the other. I feel that sometimes, you know I'm saying and sometimes you feel the severity of it. Yeah. I just like that one was easy. You know what I'm saying. Yeah. It's like in my mind I've always mentioned this before, but, like, walking on the ground, pick up some trash. Yeah, I'm saying pick up some trash. And then like, I just sometimes it's easier than others. You know, sometimes I just like, real quick and easy. It's like right on the way to the to the path. I'm already walking does a trash can right there a to be easy. But then there's like, I don't know, like that mental battle that the force will come up where it's the, the opportunity to like, cut the corner and do the thing or to not do the thing. And then like I will sometimes I'll like, turn around and walk back to go, you know, I'm saying I'll be on my way this way. And I was like, no, no, no, I'll cut it off. And then like sometimes I also go back and pick it up and there's like a limit to it, you know, and there's like practicality and I'm living life, I have shit I got, I do, I got places I got to be, obligations I got to meet. But there's, there's something there. You know sometimes the opportunity gets harder and a little bit more nuance and a little bit deeper, a little bit more intricate. Yeah. It's like how now? Like faith test or not your faith, but whatever, you know. It's asking you how far are you willing to go to uphold this ideal? Sometimes. Yeah. How much do you believe in this? It's like, oh, that comes kind of dirty. Oh, there's ants on that. Oh, I'm going to pick it up anyways. Yeah. Yeah. Like I felt that or it's like, all right, get to the trash can. Attraction is just like overflowing with trash. And it's like trying to make it so difficult on me. You know? Right. Okay. But I want to get back to that ethereal feel that we were talking about. for seeds. Of just of the spring, summer, fall, winter. Okay. Yeah. How you can, like, kind of, like, almost feel those because, like, here's another thing. What are you supposed to do in the winter time by this theory that we're examining, your perspective. Yeah. It's the reap in the fall. And then you. Like, withstand the winter or like, you know what I'm saying? Cuddle up. It's going to get cold outside, get cozy and eat the food. Have enough food to last you and so you can start planting food again. Right? I guess that's the idea. In our industry, though. It's like slower in the summer and busy. The restaurant industry is a little different because yeah, winter time, everybody's coming through. Yeah. Now October, November, December, those that last quarter restaurants be hitting it in that last quarter y'all I'm telling you right. Yes it depends on where you're at. Whatever whatever industry you're in, location you're at. Right. But typically, it seems to me that end of year parties, Christmas parties, holiday parties, all that, an end of year business are not business. But yeah, like business. Yeah. For business town. Yeah, yeah. Families are in town. You want to take them out. You're in town. You're going to go out somewhere. There's a lot of reasons why I pops off at that time for those people. That's all. That was like almost my summer a couple years ago. Was like working really hard from October through January 1st. Yeah that was where make hay while the sun shining you know. Backs. So yeah that. That definitely applies to that industry. So in that sense that is counterintuitive to our belief that maybe the grind would be over the summer. but I don't think that I guess that's what I'm saying is where. Yeah. What's your summer. Right. It's like your Friday isn't necessarily Friday if you you're off. Days are Wednesday and Thursday. Friday would be. Tuesday. And maybe it's just like, it just goes in that order of like spring, summer, fall, winter. But like it's just one, two, three, four. And like, sometimes you're in phase two, but it's December. You know, I'm saying. Yeah. So maybe there's something like that. Boom. Yeah. Outside of the months because yeah, that that makes more sense. Because you can't you can't. It gets weird. It gets weird. Because if you're working hard because it's summer or phase three or whatever, that the sun is shining. So let's make hay then. Like the only way you're making hay is if there's like an average. You're doing more then. Yeah. Right. Right. Yeah. And we for whatever reason, I mean should we just do summer year round should just be working at the more than all the time. I don't think it's possible. Yeah. Maybe I guess we we literally couldn't whenever we're like in the farming analogy, you know, cause like the land's not ready or like, it's not time, it's the, the, the, the whole orchestra of the matrix is not going to allow that to happen. It's like the law of gravity or like the laws of physics. Whatever. Yeah, it's it's not going to happen. So that's it's not time. You can't play it in the and I guess you could maybe we, we probably find out the hard way. It's like trying to play in the, in the fall or playing in the. December in the winter. Time and we're like, oh. Shit, this and and growing. This is impossible. We've, I tried to maintain summer throughout the entirety of the year and found out the hard. We lost all of our seeds. We lost generations because of that shit. Our greediness. Son of a bitch. This is beautiful. We're touching it. This is. Beautiful. Touching it. You're trying to keep our feet on the ground. So, yeah, clothing on earth is where we're at. Bring us back. Don't talk about. Farms. Talk about spirituality, seasonality, the idea of summer, the idea of summer. Working on. We can't. Yeah, but you're a great point. You can't, I guess. Yes. Makes make hay while the sun is shining. More more work output during this time whenever more work output because you make like to be more more than the average because yeah, there's maybe throughout the rest of the year you can't do it. It's just not you can't do it. So that's sustainable. It's not sustainable. But maybe we need to have a season in your life span of time where you just fucking hit it hard. Whatever you're doing, whatever you're hitting in your life, if you're going to the gym, if you're going to school, if you're going to work, whatever your profession, whatever you're studying, you could hit it hard. Everyone knows what the fuck it means. They hit it hard. You wake up early and you cut the bullshit like that's it. Plug away. You wake. Up early, cut the bullshit, get shit. Done. All the coffee. Yeah. Smell the fucking roses and the coffee. Coffee, roses. Roses. Coffee, roses. Coffee. You soon. Come on. Chocolate roses in your coffee. It's far. I'm. Everyone knows that means. Or like the feeling I was like, all right, I'm gonna fucking go. Yeah. Put your boots on. Fucking go. Big boy panties. Yeah. You. You're real non-binary with that one. Yeah. No, but yeah, it's. Like cliche, you know? We all know. Yeah. So there has to be maybe, an average that you're maintaining throughout the course of the year, but then there should be give yourself a couple months here or there, or maybe you might not even be like that. Just like the true seasonality of, like, the fucking rotation around the sun, how that creates our seasonality for real, for real life has something like that where you need to step it up for a little bit or like a fucking put it in, put in some work right here. Yeah, get the shit done. Whatever the thing is you're trying to get done, it's. Hard to find an internal clock for me because I'm always trying to fucking step it up. Step it up. And it's like, what's happening next? Step it up. Yeah. We step it up. Like, God damn. It's how I feel sometimes. But the thing that makes a marathon possible is that it's going to end. That something like that is a crucial part of this whole thing. And, you. Got to know that it's going to end, have the motivation and the willpower to do extra or to do something that's outlandish, you know, to take on extra stuff. Where to keep going. At. All right. I'm saying, yeah, if. You're just running a race but you don't even know you're running a race. I don't know how you maintain pace. Where it's like, oh, I'm fucking tripping. Or like, you know. I'm getting thrown. It's like the idea of the marathon you just brought up, like, opened up a door of idea that say, life is, are like a bridge. That gap of or connected to like life is like a marathon kind of analogy. But then like, you know, like we we know we're running a race to a degree. Maybe we know subconsciously and only subconsciously at first. And then we become consciously aware, like, oh, we're going to die. Like, for real. Like this race is going to end. Yeah, it's actually going to end. But if you're not like, like to keep going, it's like to know that it's going to end is what keeps you going, to keep that motivate you to do more, to fucking go as hard as you can. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. To dread trying to run a good race. Yeah. Do it tastefully. Run a good race. At the end of it, it's going to end and you're going to have to look back on it as like, how was that race? How did you do? It's like I ran my fucking ass off. I left it all out there. Nothing else. I could have done more right? In the training and the prep and the pre-work and everything I put into it, and then the race itself, like I did it, I left it all out there. Right? So hopefully you can do that with your life. You know, that's that'd be nice. Be awesome. That's I think what we're all aiming for hopefully subconsciously. You don't want to be like about halfway through. I just fucking mentally gave up. Oh I was done. I walked the rest of it. It's like, fuck dude. Yeah, because I guess no one for the life. Like you're not going to you're in a DQ. I guess. You you you do get you. Killed even if you're not. Move it. That joke is dark. I didn't want. Halfway through, I called the taxi. Yeah, dude. But it's going to end, man. Fuck, yeah. So that was a little tangent. That little tangent that about marathon life? Marathon. Work hard, keep pushing. But how am I that. I can't keep pushing because you're talking about the, the idea of knowing. That the marathon is going to end is part of what gives you the relief. And the the will to keep. Going to. Yeah. Maybe I'm just a weak person, but the life to tap into infinite willpower. There has to be some kind of like, how long am I doing it for? Because it's like it is. It's own place for a reason. Like you can't have the infinite willpower all the time. I mean, like, I can I can tap into it all the time, but part of the access into it is the longevity that I'll be in there for. That's what like, grants me the access to do it. You know, it's something about, I don't I don't want to get too biblical, but it just reminds me of, like, the crucifixion or like, suffering in general. And it's like, could you suffer forever if it was never going to end? What? Don't you freak out. You know what I'm saying? Or give up. They're like, yeah. That sounds terrible. I think, you can suffer for you can suffer intensely if you know how long it's going to be for and find that bargain, like, negotiable within your own spirit. and then suffering can just look like working overtime for a month. Like I just one month. I'm going to do the month. I'm going to get in and get out. But if all of a sudden you were working overtime every day and you, like, weren't down for it, and they're like, that's just the shift now. You're like, fuck what? Yeah, reevaluate what you're doing there. You know what I'm saying? Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. And I think to not reevaluate what you're doing there in your own conscious coding, for it to truly be acceptable, you'd have to know, like, this isn't a forever thing. I got I got to that point with, just, you know. Sometimes, like, lifting weights if I'm just, like, lifting really heavy for, like, a long period of time, I guess, to a point where it's like, is this just normal? Am I still lifting heavy or is this it feels heavy, feels heavy as fuck, but is normal, just like light weight or my trip. And there is like a more normal regular pace of lifting and then I can step it back up to like, okay, I'm going heavy for a little bit and bring it back down to normal. And then I'm just like getting beat the fuck up. I got tired all the time and I'm just like, not your bitch, like hungry all the time. But it's just like, I kind of had to remember, like, oh yeah, this is like there's a there's a pace and a level that's like enough for me to like, get better. Like, it's hard, it's difficult, but I'm not killing myself for it. And then there's the extra ideal pace. Yeah, right. But this is to some degree unsustainable. I wrote a bar about it. It's like, motherfucker, maintain the unsustainable. Make it look easy. You know what I'm saying? Like that. That's that's a gift and a curse to make it unsustainable. Look easy. It's like, well, this is not easy for you. Like, no, it's unsustainable dog. It's unsustainable. It's cracked. Yeah. It's cracked. Shit. But I can do that. Yes, I can do that. And I can do it for a marathon pace. I can give you 26 miles, but at some point, at some point it's gotta stop. That's the only way this whole function works is if I know the marathon is going to end. And I got that way with like, you know, working in a restaurant doing customer service, it's just like, I love it. I love doing it. But like part of the being overly stressed for so long is knowing that we were going to find a way out of that mechanic, out of that system. Yeah, that was always, always known. Yeah, right. What the hell are we? What is anyone choosing to do? You know. You have to really want to do it. Right? Yeah. Fuck. That's it. That's the thing. Because what makes the other thing why was unsustainable for you to work a job. You selfish, lazy fuck are you talking about, you lazy bitch? Yeah, it's unsustainable to. Work hard, To work a difficult job that's taxing and requires a lot of you. Almost all of you. Sometimes it's like that. You don't really want to do it. Got to really want to do it. Like doctors, lawyers. Fucking people who are putting in 70, 80 hours a week and whatever they're doing, you got to really want to fucking do that. Like who's out here doing 70 hours of anything a week? Because I tell you what, if you're being a lawyer 70 hours a week for 40 years and you're just telling yourself one day it's going to end, 40 years from now, I'd be rich. But I hate this law shit. That's a that's harder than running a marathon, bro. That's that's a long ass race to suffer through. Yeah, that's a long one. No one would see that there's a thing going on. I feel it in my own heart. And it's hard for me to say it out loud. but there's a there's a thing we won't agree with for it to be agreeable. Truly agreeable. You have to want to do it. And if it's not truly agreeable, the force of nature of you will start to wreak havoc on yourself. I don't think it'll necessarily be self-destruction, but your matrix will become chaotic because you're living in chaos internally because you don't really want to do it. Yeah, yeah, you're. You're suffering will manifest outside and the you inside of you, the subconscious that knows you have unlimited potential to do anything in the world will say, why. Are we doing this? Yeah. Why the fuck are we doing this? This sucks. Yeah. This sucks. Get me out. And like that. So. But because it's like, why? Why not? Why not just be okay doing too much? Why? Why don't we just raise the standard on everybody so that the too much is normal? And the reason is there's too much. I simply what? But the thing that tells you that. The thing. That. Okay, okay. You know that the thing that lights that light up, this is, Do it. You know, I was in the office like I was going to move in with Dwight. Maybe. I'm sure Michael seen it. Michael gets to his condo in the condos. Way more than I thought it was going to be. She's like, well, you feel a sublet out of room or something like that? And he's like, Dwight, I've decided to make you an incredible offer. We'll let you be my roommate. Dwight's like, I want to fucking live with Michael. Live on. A farm. And so he starts being like, oh, man, this is gonna be great for my my jazz band sessions. He's like, what are these? One of these fire alarms like? And he's just being so obnoxious. And Michael just gets to a point where he goes. wrong over no more. And that just lives in my head is like, there's a moment where someone will just. Go over and done. Yeah, yeah. Too much. That's too. Much. Okay, so we were talking about the thing that identifies that or that allows that to be true within you. Like how do we. There's a there's a. Define it. I think it's there's a flow of energy that like okay, it's like almost like a self monitoring system that knows like what what homeostasis is or what's acceptable or what's okay. Where are you really happy. Homeostasis. Harmony. Yeah. Harmony. Right. And if you're going to have me play over then and for true harmony, we'd have to go back under at some point. Yes. And that's the problem with overtraining is because you might relapse and undertrained for the next six weeks, you. Know, or injure yourself. It's not sustainable. You can't go to a fight camp all year round, right? You only go for like six weeks or whatever, however long. Sorry UFC people, but you know what I'm talking about. Yeah. My friend, the fighter, Max Holloway. Talk about it. Yeah. Well, what do you say? He's like, you can't like, we hit it hard, bro. But like, you have to. If you're gonna be hitting it that hard, you need to recover really hard too, because it's damaging. Like it's fuck you. You can beat the fuck up every day, twice a day, for weeks on end with, like, killers. So, like, you need to be like, you can't do that forever. You only need a you only need fight camp, like I. I think maybe that's why he was. I can't remember exactly how in reference or what he was. Context. He was using it in or talking about it with. Yeah, but he was I think he's just like said, you can't maintain fight camp for that long. Maybe because I could be because some of the younger, younger other fighters in this camp or other fighters that he knows, like maybe have that mentality of like do more, do more, do more, raise the standard, do more, do more. Yeah. So you can't do that. Yeah. It's not it's not sustainable and it's not going to help you. It's I guess it's kind of it's counterintuitive. You needed a little bit less like you do. You do need when it's time to go, you need to go. Yeah. Like for for like to the wall. Yeah. But when it's not time to go, you need to also not go like full force to the wall. Recover rest. Take it easy. To fucking account for the harmony and the homeostasis. That's the universe wants that. Homeostasis is what allows all this to be. You know what I'm saying? Like the balance, the fine balance of everything. Like, oh, the distance from the sun. The fucking chemical makeup of the air. Yeah. Everything is so finely tuned in homeostasis. It's like just at the right point to where we can all even exist. Yeah, maybe that's like, something's going on. You have to have your own homeostasis, but it is undulating, ebbs and flows, ups and downs. Yeah. Well, what I'm trying to say is there is room for discomfort within. The harmony in there is like going to work. It all is uncomfortable doing extra while you're at work to make sure that you can maybe get a promotion one day when it's offered. Is taxing. Yeah. It's taxing, you know what I'm saying? But there's a there's a level within our harmony that we can push ourselves that's fair. And then there's maybe summertime where it's like, let me push myself like as much as I can or as much as I can for a longer duration. There's like that extra, extra season. Right. But at some point in that and all of that, there's a baseline that is like what you can hold and what you should hold and what's like fair to you. And you're operating within that homeostasis. Yeah. So sometimes it's easier to identify when someone else is being outside of what your homeostasis would be. Because sometimes we have a hard time externalizing our internal struggle. Like he's working way too many hours. It's like this person feels like maybe there were too many hours. Maybe could be what's going on or whatever it might be the over taxation. because I think we do have, something inside us that tries to bear as much as we can bear. Yeah, right. It's the thing that's like the observer or the identifier, the thing that's watching the movie of your life, I guess, like, or the what we're talking about, like, we have a, like a mental homeostasis. Like, it's like our baseline of what our life looks like or like what we do day to day, or like how we operate in this matrix in 24 hours because we're sitting in 24 hours at a time. So whenever we have the 24 hours, whenever we wake up, what's our movie look like? How do we do? How do we. Operate? But it's I lost myself in that thought. Time a movie observer? Yeah, you're the observer, I guess. Yeah. Well, what you call your homeostasis is just what you think of is your day to day, and it stays about the same. So I guess maybe unless I guess. Yeah. What do you what are you projecting forward in your movie. Like what. What's happening next. What's going to what's developing, what's what's blooming with what's to come. You know. Maybe if you don't have, a blooming plant that you're trying to grow or something that you're trying to aim for or move towards, it's just like the same movie over and over again, right? I mean, you become stuck in that rut or in that homeostasis. And then if anything is like put upon you to increase your whatever you deem to be your homeostasis, and then like there's an increase in whatever it is, physical activity like pressure at work, work hours, financial obligations, whatever is increased, then we got stress. Then we're like, oh no, like I'm trying to maintain this current level of homeostasis that I think my life is like, so then like to have to increase it or to have to adjust and fucking new limitations, new restrictions. I have to operate and move within an existing. It's scary and it's hard. It's demanding. Unless like you fucking prepare your mind for it and like look for it. It's like, all right. Because that's that's going to happen. This is going to fucking happen. Whatever you think is happening. Homeostasis day to day, it's got to the limitations are going to fluctuate. So I can move and change should just happens. So you're like your movie's never really going to be the same regardless. I think we probably want it to be because it's like easy and familiar. I think exploration is part of a truer homeostasis. So yeah. Yeah. I don't think homeostasis necessarily refers to just like our desire to stay like neutral or like to not have my body temperature go up higher and come back down because that's like also homeostasis, but like my proper human experience and that, that proper human experience going forth, I think that that there is a homeostasis like thing that is making sure that we're like, optimistically comfortable and uncomfortable. I mean, ideally, optimally, optimally, there's one optimally comfortable and uncomfortable optimally exploring optimally safe optimally. well, and like, you know, like when you eat, you're eating good. Most of the time, but then you're also taking a little bit of time to like, indulge. That's like a more proper, potentially nutritious plan to not like fuck up. Yeah, too much restriction, too quick. Yeah. Or too much freedom, you know. Yeah. And I think that there's like, also, some kind of life experience homie. It's like matter itself as it's like, just like physics as it's going through whatever we call it life to be just like how summer feels like maybe works just to work harder in the summer. There's like, if something gets too far out of homeostasis for too long, there's that, red light that flares up. That's like, this is wrong. Like, I can't this is I can't do this anymore. And it's not always someone quitting because you know I just can't, you know there's that. But like there's a point where it's just like this is just too, it's too much suffering for too long. I have to know it's going to end if I'm going to suffer this long. It's ending right now. It's ending today. It's done. Yeah. And maybe that's part of it too. It's like. Yeah. Like that's on the people walking out of the restaurant is there like whatever too much discord and their harmony to a point where their homeostasis is begging for a time. Give me some kind of time frame to do this so that I can put it into a box and I can say, okay, yes, I do feel that way, but it's coming to an end at this point so I can manage it better now. But there's no management of that. It's it's just all over the place. I think, I think that spurs evolution. I think that Spurs change. I think that's what made us start like peeing inside. And it was almost like, wait, what? I shouldn't outside. No more dog, no more I am done. Look, I'm putting up a box and a and someone made like an indoor toilet. In our. House. In our house. I think that that's a lot of our ingenuity. Someone just being like, I can't do this anymore. You don't want to shit in the house, so we need to go outside. We don't want to go outside and be this exposed in the elements into the nature, into the animals. You're sitting duck. Bitch of a fucking. The predator's coming up and you're shitting. Caca with your pants down. Yeah. You done it. Done. So now we needed an outhouse. We need some shelter outside so we could shit in peace. Someone got pushed over by. Someone was doing something? Yeah, someone got someone that got fucked up by predators or something. When they're being got. Their house robbed. Something happened. Taking a poop. Ingenuity was born. Outhouses, toilets, plumbing done. I mean, enough is enough. Yeah, dude. But how do you have the discernment to know that, you know, it's time for systematic change? You gotta really be. This is the thing. This is an also a deep thought. Come on. You have to be true, true to your experience. Because if you're not true to your experience, how could you ever know where the responsibility lies for your unfortunate experience. Yeah I say that again. So if you're taking true responsibility in your life, that's the only way that you could know that maybe your unfortunate experience is an internal problem. Yeah. Okay. Because you could, you could gaslight yourself into thinking well maybe that's my fault. Or maybe like I'm just being a bitch or maybe like, I have a biased view of the situation. Yeah, yeah, yeah, but. If you could be true and honest and have discernment and know because you're true to your experience, like, nope, this, this is crossing the line. And no, it's crossing the line because I've been playing a good hand and playing a fair hand. I'm a paying attention of being aware. I've been speaking up. I've been communicating. I've been doing everything I can do to my experience to try to make sure that, you know, good things kept happening. We passed through time and have been a beneficial way. Yeah, yeah. And maybe having the having that ability to see, to see that would also be or because maybe you're able to view it through their lens as well or like through the objective. It's like, I know this is too much because I've been watching the movie very closely and I've been watching movies for a very long time, and I know what it looks like when things get out of hand and when things are, the scales are off balance. Like, I know what it looks like and partially might. You might be able to do that because you're able to put yourself in the position of others. We can empathize with people. We can. We're literally just watching the movie. So it's like, if I were him, I'd be pissed or whatever, you know, saying if I were him, I wouldn't do that. Or it's like, that's unfair. I think it's unfair to him for this reason. Right? Or whatever. Even though it's not happening to you, you can empathize through, like, just like the objective reality of the movie that we're all in. Yeah. You know, so it's too much. We have to have some truth in your own discernment and your own view of the world, of what's happening objectively, to be able to trust your discernment and trust your opinion of what's, I guess, right, or what's, in harmony. What's the most harmonic action we could take right now to put us in line with. The fucking cosmos, right? Like a spaceship. Just beam. Damn it, sun, until I being feet on the ground. On the ground pants. Your shoes. But that ultralight beam ship. That's that's that's, I think, as a kid. So how do you how do you develop this discernment that we're talking about? How does one be true to their. First of all, don't. I just literally be true to your. Experience? That's all in the. Light of yourself. Yes. Own damn thoughts. Yeah, yeah. Be skeptical. That's it. That's an easy way to not lie, is you know what I'm saying? It's just just be like, I don't know, maybe. Well, here's another one. What if you, What if what if, like what if you want to blame something outside of yourself, you know, you're like, oh, this boss just hates me. He just has it out for me. I can't, there's nothing I can do to make this boss like me. It's like. But really, you just suck at the job. that. Could happen to. And it's maybe. Maybe your boss would still like you if you suck at the job. Sure, maybe. But at the same time, maybe you're just, like, not a good employee. At that particular. Position, right? So how how would you know that that some of that is your fault and not their fault? it's just, I guess the. I guess what's the evidence that the other party is using to say that you are not good at your job? You know, I'm saying if you could see the same evidence and be like, that's bullshit, because X, Y and Z, or like, maybe that is the standard, or like I know other people who do the same thing or worse and don't get called out for it. That's bullshit. But if it's like you're late this time, you fucked up here. You dropped this. I told you to do this. You didn't do it. You told me you did this thing and you didn't do it. It's like, am I lying in any of these instances? No. Or. Or yes or whatever. You know what I'm saying? The truth. Yeah. Objective reality. Yeah. Are you doing a good job? Yeah. Can you deem that yourself? Yeah. Just by looking. If you were me, if you were me and I was you. Even if. What would you do? Your you. Yeah. Can you deem that you're doing a good job? Well, yeah. If your boss is just like, dude, you suck. It's like, oh. This is what to say. Sticks with you. You cheeks. Would you be able to would you have any inkling beforehand? I think you would. Yeah. Of course. Right. Yes. You know, if you fuck up an order or if you do something at work, that's incorrect. I'm not sure what other analogies I could use a fucking. If you're if you misquote something or if you give misinformation to a guest over customer service or whatever, or of, over a fucking like a phone call center, whatever. Or if you miss put information into a fucking quote that you're writing up for somebody, it's like that shit happens and it's like, look at it. Look at it, yeah, look at. It and tell the. Truth and say, well, what is that? Did you lie really like my address is, we're over here on three, five, six, blue light wall drive Lane. Yeah. The third. That's a lie. So if you didn't know, then you'd be like, I don't know. I have to find that information for you, and then you'd be doing your job. Probably better, because just by not lying. So that's like back to route one for some of that shit is like, would you know if you're good at your job? And then if you're bad at your job, would you know that you're bad at your job? If you're being honest with yourself. If you're being honest with. Yourself? And the other thing is playing the game, you'd have to actually engage with it. You'd have to say, what's my job? Okay, I'm gonna try to do my job. I'm gonna try to do my job. I'm gonna do my job. And then when you're actually doing your job, like, well, how do they do it? Okay, why does it look as good as theirs? I like what I'm doing this really good. But everyone else struggles with this. Am I like cheating? Am I cutting a corner? How come you guys can't do this very fast? And then like if you were to to actually engage with the life, I think then yes, you definitely know whether you're good or bad. And then you could curtail what you were about and try to be good. Yeah. Yeah. Because like the job is just like the restraints that we put on ourselves are like the. The limitations or the. The games we. Play, the. Games that we have to set up. And there's like an objective and there's a, like A to B or it's like, this is what we this is what's going on. And this is what we want to look like whenever it's done. And it's like boo boo boo and like A to B. And then micro steps in between those steps for everything, for every aspect, for an industry, it's we got side work, we got Tinker, I. Guess we got all kind of stuff. And then within taking care of guests like menu. Knowledge and all that stuff, it's like. You could they're all a little mini games and you have to throw all those constraints, whatever constraints that you have. Like you have to be able to identify them and yeah, like play with them. No, no. The games that we're doing and be able to say, what's the objective? What are we doing here? How what looks, what does it look like if it's done well what's perfection look like? You know what I'm saying. What's someone doing a good job look like? I want to, and then we'll be like. If we all mutually agree, that's what a good job looks like. It's okay. And I'm gonna try to get to that. So then if you're able to like, identify it, see it and then try to get to it, or if you're not doing any of that, then it's like, that's kind of a bad job. That's like part a part of doing the job. One is like identifying what a good job is. So you don't even know what it looks like. It's like you're already doing a bad job. You know, I'm saying even though you could maybe use that as an excuse of like, I'm not. I'm not doing a bad job. No one, no one trained me. No one taught me. Responsibility to take. Their. You figure it out. Yeah. You make it happen Papa. Like every day in life you kind of have some responsibility to figure it out on your own. I mean I also have responsibility to lean on other people's understanding of what you're trying to do. You got to try to do it on your own to some degree, wrap your head around it. Yeah, yeah. That's basic. That's not asking a lot. That's not asking a lot. That's basic human shit, bro. Yeah. What are we doing here? That's. That's all I need. You ask with intent and, like, purpose. Until I try to on here to do it. You know what I'm saying? With like a relative reasonable amount of doing something. You don't have to be good at it. But if you know you're not, if you know those people doing better than you and you're like, well it's not necessarily worth putting in all the extra effort that they put in to be so great at it. I'm going to do it at this level. You would know that at least you know. Being honest with yourself. Yeah. So yeah. So I think to bring it back, I think we we're talking about if they would know, I think they would know, think we all know for to sit down and really think about it and look at it, I think we would know if you're not maintaining the standard doing a good job. So like maybe your boss or maybe. Yeah. And so then in your own mental construction, you just think that your boss is out to get you or whatever, or you're just being like, you're victimizing yourself or allowing yourself to be, like, free of responsibility or you know what I'm saying? It's like it's not on me. It's not on me, it's on them. That's the this is the reason. That this is happening. It's out there. It's like in our fuck that, fuck that. As much as you can. Fuck that as much as you can. Yeah, sometimes. Maybe your boss is out to get you or whatever. How would. You know? Yeah, maybe. Yeah. You would know if you were true to yourself in the obligations of what the responsibilities are. What's a good job look like? We're all mutually we all agree. That's what a good job looks like. Okay. I'm going to emulate that. And then if you look back at the film it's like not emulated that pretty much to the best of my ability for as long as I possibly could. I had maybe have some minor hiccups here. Like I missed this like small minor thing, I missed this drink or whatever. But like for the most part, I'm pretty much on there. And you would be able to to determine that through your own like true, true understanding. And then if your boss is like trying to maybe he was trying to fire me, or maybe he does like, just doesn't like me, wants me out of this bitch. I've been I've been to that. I've been down that road. You see, I was like, maybe I'm not that good at the job. And then one of the other GM's is like, you're the best server we have. Like, I was like, okay, I is the job. Here's what. I thought. Nice. I'm not trippin. Because it's hard to do your responsibilities and whatever everyone else is in their responsibilities. probably rather just stick to my own books. Yeah. So it's hard to be like my books are way off. Like, the most accurate. Oh. That's weird. Okay, but. Then you could know. Right? So that's what it takes. Objective answer the objective literally. Like, what are we trying to do? And like the objective reality. You got to keep a real sane fucking mental during this whole life process to not get lost in the sauce, start doing way less than you should or way more than you should. I get lost in the sauce all the time. I'm lost. Right now. Lots of stuff as we speak. Yeah, I get it's as. I guess we were talking about like the marathon and like the pace. I think that's another thing that's been hidden or like it's true. It's. I know that seems to be just like an accurate thing. It's like because you're talking about it like we have our like the homeostasis and the like, how much should we be doing and like our, our output and like our pace, you know, say, how fast are we running year to year? You know, say, how much are we doing. Like really year to year, month to month, week to week. And then like we know what that feels like. And then we're trying to increase that slowly over time. Like do our best. So ideally try to do more good than you were last year. Yeah. Or whatever. Less bad. Whatever. However however you want to measure it. But I don't know the pace. Yeah, it's our base, our weekly pace. What do you want to get done in a week? because all we have is. 24 hours. Well, fuck is. Everybody's working with that. Someone. That one's holding on. That one's. That's something that's been like in my ingrained into my fucking conscious. Now. Say we only have 24 hours, so even Elon Musk has the same. Amount of time that I have to. Deal with. Yeah, he's getting a lot of shit done. He's got crazy amounts of shit going on. So like, it's possible. It's possible. It's fucking possible. Whatever you think you're like, whatever you're trying to accomplish or trying to do, like, you can do it. You can fucking organize your 24 optimally enough to get you where you need to be, and it's not going to be tomorrow. You need to be able to. Maybe it's another thing where it kind of ties into another thought we were talking about originally, but you need to, because I've heard this mentioned do like sports analogies or whatever on Instagram. But the idea that you need to be able to like sprint, not knowing how long it's going to take or, you know, say like when the finish line is, yeah, but like, I guess they need to be able to apply that to something that's like important. Like what would you be able to apply that much passion towards? There is something that you would be able to apply that much passion towards, and you would be happy. To do it. Awesome. Like you'd like a race that's designed for you. There's something out. There for you, but it's fucking. It's hard. It's our time to to maintain that pace forever. Since the burnout is real. But then I'll be able to like because we all have the same 24. We all have 24 hours. So I guess you have to optimize your 24 to not burn yourself out in the grand scheme of your life. You know? But you got to be able to fucking put some work in, bro, because we all have Elon Musk, have Bill gates, everyone fucking Tesla, Einstein. We all had the same building blocks. We all had the same blocks. That comes the craziest like fucking Michael Jackson or whatever. Like the fucking Michelangelo. Da Vinci. We all have the same building blocks, so we're dealing with. So you could fucking do whatever you're trying to do. If you like, cut the bullshit and see what's like, try to align up with what's the most true thing that you would possibly if you could devote your whole life to something, what would it be like? We were talking about earlier as well. So because I know that we're going to be whenever we're in the MJ 38 productions. Like it's not going to it's going to be. A lot of work. It's a lot of work now. Like, you know, like what? We're still working this job. Like I'm still fucking chugging away, chugging away, but it doesn't feel like work or, you know, doesn't feel like. Like what we did before we got on the pod. It's like that. It's like what. It is, but it isn't, you know what I'm saying? Like, it definitely is. Like, we were troubleshooting for like an hour and a half. No cap. Easily. Like, for sure. Trying to figure this shit out, setting up for like at least two hours, plus just setting everything up, getting everything lined up, plugging everything in, unboxing a couple new things, trying to figure out the routing of the audio in the video and everything. Like all that's just like fucking nothing to somebody else but to me, like, I love that. Like I'm fucking here for it. Like, you know what I'm saying? Beautiful, right? It's awesome. Yeah. That's the difference. Yeah. Between I guess, like what you're saying, how much is the work burning you out, or is the thing worth sprinting for? Yeah. Yeah, the toll is different on your body. Yeah. Is it worth putting your 24 on the. You know, I'm them fucking down. For the whole 24 on this. Okay. All right, all right. And then it'll manifest at least so it looks so far. There's a part of life that's like working with you. Like reaching to you, coming from you like. Yeah, it's like, how would I ever find the thing that would make my existence worth existing for? It's like, it's like calling to you all the time. It's out there. Just waiting for you. Yeah, I think I think. It's peeking through the blinds. It's right. It's a Peaky Blinder. Yeah. So should be genuine. Do your experience. Be true to your experience. True self. True. Unbiased. I also think we you know you have like regulatory thoughts. Like I like someone cut me off of traffic like oh you bitch I think you're like. You silly motherfucker. Sometimes I'm like. Silly someone. I know. I don't feel that way about that person, you know what I'm saying? Fucking dumb. Ass man. Yeah, right. Like I know that that's like, not. Just being. There's times where I'm, like. Truly genuine. Yeah. Like I'm, like, offended for something I shouldn't be offended for. And I'm like, that's not even really how I feel. But I still fire those thoughts. I still felt that way about it when it happened. It's like that regulatory process can help you in your life thing. It's like, yeah, I know I was interested in doing that thing, but then like I was doing it, I just like, wasn't that interested, to be honest. And like, to know that. But in the moment you might be like giving it your all and like really trying to be like invested in it. It's all you had going on. It's the only thing there was to do. That's where your social life was. That's where your sense of purpose was. But in reality, just like there's other things that interest me way more than that thing that I was doing with all of my time and all of my focus. Yeah. And like, yeah, you got to be true to yourself. In essence. You know, I think like that genuine like there's like, you know, like you could watch A Yes Man by Jim Carrey and just be like, that thing, that thing is speaking to me. That fuckin say yes to something. I wouldn't say yes to my result in a different outlook on something that I wouldn't have seen coming. So like with that, I could watch the same movie and not feel that thing is like, oh, he's so funny. I go about my life, but then you're watching that movie and you feel that thing and it interacts with you, and that idea starts to envelop you and and you feel inspired by it. And so to be true and genuine to your experience, you would have to follow that inspiration. And then you'd also have to have a moment where, like, maybe it's just like, oh yeah, I was, I was gonna play Frisbee, but I don't know if I'm gonna be friends with that guy. Like, this guy was talking about doing this thing. And it was weird because I could definitely go play Frisbee easily. It's like, yeah, just go for Frisbee. But this guy was kind of like saying, he does this thing over here. They didn't even tell me how to do it, just kind of mentioned it, but it spoke that it flickered. That light of that. Yeah. Feeling of that Jim Carrey feeling I had on that couch when I watch that movie, that. Inspirational feeling. Right there, like stroke the Flame in it. So like that to be true and genuine to your experience. I think you got to like. Explore that. Explore that shit. To you. That's what I'm saying. What it's calling. To the White rabbit. It's peeking through the blinds at you all the time. And even if it's not like that guy introduces you to this thing over here, and that's the thing you wanted to do. It's difficult to know exactly which road is the highway. Sometimes you're taking roads to get to the highway. Yeah. Big time. But you got to still go where the GPS is calling you to go to get to your destination. Right. And yeah you've got that GPS. It's right here. So it's a feeling process. It's a, you feel your heart flutter ever. Yeah. You know. Oh I'm trippin. Like I definitely. I think that thing is like the it can be not every heart flutter. Sometimes something falls and you're like. I should open a pizza shop. Maybe a pizza fell. Yeah, but, But there's different moments where it's like the hits and insights, that feeling of wonder, that excitement or that inspiration. You know, or it feels like coincidence or feels like something we call a coincidence. But whatever, we're identifying that feeling as like whatever that thing is. Or maybe it's like from the same inspirational point or like whatever, you know, I'm saying, like the inspiration might be from, derived from the same type of energy of, oh my, that's kind of weird. Or like the flick or something of like anomaly, like anomaly in your homeostasis of what you think is happening day to day. It's like, oh shit. Like that's that's something that happened outside of my thing. But like, I think it's like perked me up because of it, you know, it was like different enough to be like, whoa, what was that? It could have be some something someone said while you're thinking something or something you saw, or someone was saying something, or someone like a recurring word or a recurring movie or recurring theme that's happening like. Or like an animal, like it's fucking. I remember seeing lizards all the time or seeing like 38 all the time, or like A good Will hunting was like like the timing of watching that movie, like, was coinciding with my life. Crazy. Someone was like just quoting I like them apples and like, oh, it was just some crazy shit. Crazy shit. You know? But that the feeling of inspiration, of Wonderstruck in awe. Yeah. That like anomaly. Yeah, yeah. Like the. Yeah wonder. Like this is different. This is a different a different interaction than the mundane. And everyday interactions that I do like every day. You know, saying. It's a clue from your subconscious. Yes. Pointing to the divine. Yeah. In my opinion. Trying to enlighten you. Yeah. That way, that way, that way, that way, that way. Yeah. Think like this. Be like like be on this frequency. Come to this frequency. now we're talking. This is the science of that harmony. You know what I'm saying? This. Yeah, yeah. There's something to that. First of all, whatever harmony you find yourself in, whatever your homeostasis is, you'll attract a ton of that homeostasis to you. And it won't always necessarily, like, necessarily look like a thousand years in a room. But like this person living that lifestyle, their like their frequency, their on, like the thing that generates like the all the thoughts that they have and their lifestyle. It's culminating into this smell or this, this frequency is what we say. You know what I'm saying? This wavelength. Yeah. Wavelength. Whatever. And you're on that same thing too. And even though it looks different, you might be like, you know, like I think I don't really think age matters. I don't really think gender matters. Yeah. Occupation sometimes. Sometimes it's your job. So it's all the people that came to your job. For whatever reason, you all are on the same frequency. And then there's like times in that job where even though you're all there for relatively the same reason, it's like you're not all thinking the same exact while you're in that spot, and then you find people that you connect with that are on that same frequency, in that same spot, in that same. And it gets like, weird. Yeah. I think that's just like gravity almost, though. Because like you just find yourself who knows why we're around the people who are around. But I think that there's something like a magnet pulling us all. Yeah. What happens. How do we. How do you become a friend to somebody. You know what I'm saying. Like like like you just. We just decide or like, it's just the fucking, like, you know, like you click with someone, like, are you on, like, a wavelength or a similar frequency, a similar thought pattern or a belief structure? Even if you don't talk about it like you might be able to to click with someone just like over like sometimes, like when you're taking care of a table, you can just like tell like, oh, like me and this guy are clicking immediately. Yeah. Like we're like, we're we're chilling. This guy is cool. Like, yeah, whatever. Yeah, whatever it may be or like even. Yeah, in school or in life, whenever you're finding your way socially, making friends, talking to kids, talking to people like, you know, you feel it, you feel like the the match, the vibes. Yeah, it's fucking vibes. It's a fucking. Chill. You smoke a doobie with that. God, that's fucking chill. Okay? This sandwich. Yeah, bro. Yeah. So I think there's something there's definitely something there. I think if you're dude, you're hitting it with a, there's something that called to you now that's like, I don't know, I was like, this is like the being a nurse is what came to my mind. It's like there's a lot of people who are nurses and like, they're all probably called there for a very similar thing or like, whatever is like whatever drives you to want to become a nurse. It's like they're all being pulled by that same force and they're all interacting with it with that, that caring caregiver force, whatever it is, the spirit of taking care of somebody, like physically, like I guess there's people do the same thing, like food or whatever, whatever their outlet is. But like nurses, they all have their there being drawn by something and like or like chefs, you know, I'm saying it's the same kind of thing, like the bridges to thoughts together. It's like to take care of someone physically, like ailments and fucking scratches and booboos and broken bones. It's like they take care of somebody. Like the hospitality you take. Like you make the roof, you shelter them, you feed them, you take care of them like that. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. It's like two different spirits, but like, the same spirit, but two different aspects of the same spirit that call to people differently. It's like, well, why when these chef people be called to be nurses and why wouldn't these nurse people be called to be chefs? So there's something individually, uniquely pulling you specifically. And then like, it pulls you into this domain of other people who are pulled by the same thing. And then within that, there's even hierarchies of like, you're part of I with a lot of those people who literally share the same occupation. So you have things in common, for sure, but even within that there's like structures and hierarchies of how you organize your thoughts and your being and your actions and behavior that make you vibe with people who don't vibe with people like, like that guy's cool. Like there's generals, like, everyone's pretty cool. And then like, everyone being kind of cool whenever they're unknown. And then you see their interactions with you and with each other and then, like, starts to be like, oh, that guy's kind of not cool with a lot of people don't really give a fuck, or it's like, I don't like that guy and everyone likes that guy or whatever, you know what I'm saying? It all just kind of plays out based on our frequencies and our fucking our vibe. Yeah, you know, fucking. Yeah. Yeah. So it's kind of strange. He's like, I'm glad that you and I are fucking homies from forever. Like, it was just like, vibes. The Mortal. Kombat. Bro. And it's like sleeve art. That's our hearts, right? It's like, it's crazy too, because I think about my fiancee and her best friend. It's crazy because she. And they're like, as close as we're close, you know? Like the same thing, like my brother, her sister. Like, they're fucking like, we're not actual brothers and sisters. But it feels like that. Yeah. And it's how, like we treat each other or like the energy we give towards each other and the idea of how we hold our relationship and our mental. It's like, that's like the where we're at with it and like, shit. But she didn't meet her until she was in her mid to late 20s, you know what I'm saying? It's like we met each other when we were eight and seven or like in that ballpark. And they they met in their mid mid 20s, but it was still just like vibes. It's funny because you two have a similar outlook on your best friendship, which makes sense because you two vibe. Vibe and. Then y'all can relate about why you vibe with other. People. Yeah, right. Yeah, because. The frequencies are so in harmony. It's crazy. So this is, this is, this is the driving force of connectivity for people. It's weird. So we're. Talking like Jordan Peterson whenever I get. Connected. I turn on Canadian. So the most common mistake dude that's ever. Yeah man. We got a little abstract dude. I just like it's the vibe. Doesn't matter. Because we talk about anything or it's going to be. Dudes just talking about anything. Yeah, anything. It's like I'm a Game of Thrones. I'm pew. I'm ready. Gone. I'm gone quick. I could talk about. The fucking actual actors and shit, because what's. Really going on is the fucking frequency shit, right? Yeah. I'm like, you said this and I'm taking it straight to what's really going on, you know? There we go. We're. So we're. Trying to do. Here. Yeah, man. Have you been watching anything? Because I know we've been watching got. And we're just locked in. We're fucking five seasons. We're like in the in the fifth season already. It's fucking awesome. Is there anything else that's been floating around in the matrix of the people like Netflix or anything you've been watching? Now we talked about Mr. Mrs. Smith, which is amazing. So highly recommend that for everybody. That's on you. Check that out. where does Clint Barton clean up on movies? So we're watching. I'm not really a movie guy. I don't know. Why I like watching the. Movies. Our show is better. man. Yeah. Show. I'm a show. God, show. I like shows. You're asking me, do I like, Well, I guess it's like one long movie. Yeah, yeah. I want a relationship or A1I stand. Yeah, true. I like a relationship. It's got to be great relationship, though. I gotta be committed. You know what I'm saying? To be worth committing for. Yeah. That's really invested. Yeah. If I don't have a good show to watch, I don't know if any to check out that. I'm probably much more willing to watch a movie that I know is good. Right? Because I've heard is good, at. Least that I'm saying. Yeah, but in lieu of a great TV show. Yeah. Ben, I love the number one movie on Netflix. Like it's always good. Nine times out of ten, it's like, whatever the number one movie on Netflix is on their top ten, it's usually perfect for just like a one night throw something on, like good story. Yeah, I. Recommend entertaining a. Movie called, I think it was called The Killer or Killer. Okay. I recommended it to you. That is the one with the the New Orleans guy. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That was just number one on Netflix. One day I was just like, oh, let's watch this. So I kind of found a lot of shit. So like Jack Reacher, there was a new Jack Reacher movie with Tom cruise. It came out. Jack Reacher, Tommy. On Netflix. Never seen it. Jack Reacher. Yeah, so that's a movie series that got a TV series on Amazon Prime with different actors and a different writing team. Yeah, that's a popular CIA. Oh, wow. He's always getting arrested for some shit that he didn't do. Yeah, yeah. So we watched that. What else? Demolition man, throwback to the 80s Sylvester Stallone movie. Okay, yeah. That movie was about like a dystopian. Here's what the movie was about. And like that it had to come out in the 80s. We chatted about it. It's like United States 2030. Things have gone to shit. There's fires all over Los Angeles. There's like looting. It's like already been looted for many years. There's like starvation. It's like crime is so crazy that the cops are like, you know, wearing, like, bulletproof vests everywhere and shit. It's wild. So in that time, the way that they do jail is they, instead of putting you in jail, they freeze you for your sentence, like, okay, cryogenically. Got. Ice you up frozen. So our protagonist goes after the biggest, baddest guy. They get into a fight, and in that fight, the biggest, baddest guy makes it seem like the protagonist. Like a bus full of people be exploited in a bomb in pursuit of the biggest, baddest guy. So by kind of proving that, it's almost like it's a little weird in the plot, but the cop ends up getting put the prison as well, and that's Sylvester Stallone, but so does the bad guy. So they get frozen for like 60 or 70 years. I think it's the time frame when they thought, oh, they comeback in the future because the bad guy gets let out by bad people to do bad things, and then they say, do anything you can to stop this guy. And then there's like, a 2000 buff that's like a cop and it's Sandra Bullock young Sandra Bullock. She loves everything. In 2000, it's like basically 90s culture because that was like culture. Then you know what I'm saying? Okay, so you're saying so. She's like, keeping it alive, even though they're all living in future times. They got like self-driving cars. They got like. it's supposed to be like in like 2040s or 2060s or some like. That at this point. Yeah, it's like 2080, 2090 or something like that. So they have like AI and shit. They're all like, I find me all the reasons blah blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. And then the AI is like, your suspect is probably doing this and it's they're going down this route right here. And they're all like, see, I said greatest, which is kind of trippy to me now because. That's crazy, right? Super crazy. The, the car is all like you. It could drive itself and the steering wheel will pop out and let you drive it like a robot. Yeah, like a fucking Tesla, bro. It's crazy. And then the other thing is that they're society. They have crime all the way down to like, zero. There's like no crime anymore. So when this big bad guy comes back, he starts first places, he goes for a gun and only places a gun is at the museum because, like, war is like, guns are ancient. Yeah, but he gets all the guns he could need. And then he starts, like, wreaking havoc. And the police are like, they don't even know how to. They don't even have guns. They don't know how to handle it. Not at all. They're not prepared for the malevolence that's just there. None. Like they're all like, oh. My God, malevolence. That they see. Like, you know, when they see. A murder happen and they're like, what does 187 mean? 187 they have to go through like a database and they're like, murder, kill. What the fuck? Fuck. Yeah. The first murder. And like, I don't know how long 67 years. Right. so I just thought that was a crazy take because it was like a lot of stuff that they predicted was true. And then they're also kind of like, you know, there's a big take on America right now that we're over feminizing our culture. The youths, I guess we're not over feminizing and blah we're doing is we're taking what is traditionally masculine energy, masculine energy, and then deeming that to be toxic. Yeah. And then that's creating this rift. Where should a proper use of masculine energy arise? We might not know how to even. Know how to do it. Right. And that's like one of the takes on America right now. Yeah. And then it was their problem. Like they had to get Sylvester Stallone to come back and he's like weeping ass. And then. Rambo. It was like, oh gosh, this is maddening. Yeah. Jesus. That's cool. That's I say 80s movie. Yeah. Let's go. Sylvester. Was that before Rocky or after Rocky? I don't know. When was Demolition Man made? He's a little bit older, for sure. Demolition man. 1993. I'm sorry. Okay. I think anything Sylvester Stallone did, is in the 80s. It's a good year. Damn good year. It's fine. Yeah. The 80s, the 93, 93. Hell, yeah. Great. Yeah. They don't make them like they used to be. Three. Good year. Kylie. Video Jesus. So, yeah, that's a sub. Yeah. movies. I don't know why I don't like movies that much. I guess I. Prefer the show for sure. The movie? Yeah, that's because, like, a one night. Stand was saying. See, I need more than that. I need more than that. I guess a movie is a really good movie if you can watch it multiple times. But the show is a good show. You can watch them all the times for sure. Yeah. Did you finish a good show? This started right back over. From the top. Right back over. What was the, I'm try. Think of the last movie we watch. I fucking know. And sometimes movie just come up randomly as hell because, yeah, we're definitely more show people. We definitely watched King Richard. That's one of the plays. The Williams twins, the tennis tennis twins. That was a great movie. Amazing, fantastic movie. On the edge of crying. The entire movie. Just great. Just great. Just fucking pushing it, bro. Just fucking going wrong. Doing it, doing it to the max. Yeah. That movie, that movie. You in the spirit. I love the spirit of that movie. I don't even know what else we've been watching. Aside from that, I am not that movie person. It's crazy that cop movies I like, I mean. They don't make them like they used. To go. Good Will hunting, bro. You sit down for that movie. Damn, damn. Like that shit shake you up. That's a great movie. The one problem with movies is, like, when I watched John Wick one, it was like. What part of what made it so great is I knew there was a John Wick two. Like, I knew it wasn't over yet. That's a problem with things ending. They have to end. But sometimes it hurts when they do that. And it's a hard thing to end a. Story to end a story. Well, come for the one fucking George to finish them books. Boy. He's living in a fucking paradox right now. They're both written and not written at the same time. Yeah, it must end. It will end. It's never going to end. It hasn't ended. Right? It already did end. Maybe it's over. Yeah, maybe it's over. Oh, it is a scary thought, I hope not. Oh, not in the ending. A series people didn't like the way Jyoti ended game of Thrones. That's okay. How do you. Fuck that up? if I had to. Put it into words, I guess maybe the way that they ended it, it is misaligned grossly with the way that people thought they should have gone with a couple, a couple characters in particular. It's like the tendencies thing. I don't think they would have done that, and I don't think they would have acted in that way, you know. That kind of shit. Yeah. So it's like, I don't know if they. If they took creative liberties a little too far. We took the we took the reins from them. a good story takes me where they're going, and I say, wow, this is what you did to me. Yeah. At some point, we took the reins from Game of Thrones and said, this is what you did with that? Like, what the fuck? I guess that was. A lot of pressure on George to finish it, make it dope. Make it fucking dope. Because that's that's what I'm hoping for. That's the pressure I'm putting on them subconsciously. You want it to be. Perfect, right? Make it dope. Make it fucking dope. That's it. The way it ended. I didn't hate it. I don't hate it, I accepted it. Okay. That's fine. There's a lot of glass back. Yeah. If George. Finishes the same way. I'll be a little upset. Not really though. That's obvious, though. If not, that's fine too. Yeah. Do your own thing, George. I'm not. Yeah, I'm not your maker. No. Sure. I loved. What's. At the office. Bro. I was just thinking about that the other day. I fucking love that show. I was like, well, what's it on Peacock? I need to get that shit. Just watch it. Watch to run it back. I haven't seen it in a long time. Such a good show. It's so fucking funny. So funny. It's just great. It's one of the best shows. There's a line of all time where Andy says. Which me am I going to be today? I've got a closet. Follow me guys. It's like writing a song. Do you have a closet full of you? On a do I try not to. I think you I think. They're kind of this. I think that this happens. There are relationships that you need. We talked last time. There are roles and hats that you need to wear the hat. Have respect for respect too. Well, you should talk to your. Charles like me. The same way you. Talk to your grandpa or whatever. Similar. But ultimately, ultimately, you should be you as. True and genuine as you can fucking be, you know? Hey, there's our answer. That's it. That's the name of the game. Sometimes I sometimes I, you know, I might I might be having a personality split over here. Sometimes I wake up and I'm like, you know. Stressed. There's a stress version of me that's kind of like, I gotta take this shit. And there's the me that has the same things. It's like, all right, let's go. I'm gonna fucking kill this shit. Fucking kill the show. I'm a cold blooded killer. I'm not talking to anybody today. Silence mode. Silence is golden. I'm rich. Do not disturb. That's me. Just not a lot of talking. Just a whole. Lot of action. And there's also the me that's like, if maybe. If I know that I'm going to go celebrate or something like that. I'm like. Pow pow pow pow pow. I got to. Testify a little more loose when I touch the sky. Yeah. I just feel like. I'm just all live. But I also have a dark everywhere, man. You know, I'm somewhere where the shades on that day and when, like, the that that shirt. You know what I'm saying? I'm wearing that shirt like that one a little out there. You know what I'm saying? Those shoes on it. And there's other days where I'm like, I catch me like, super patient today. I love everybody in the world today. I'm just patient, cool, kind. I'm not going to be over reactive, not going to be tripping on anything. I just be cool. There's other days where it's like, I want blood, I want blood today. It's going down. On his head. And that feels like maybe a closet full of means, you know? Yeah. Well, I think that's just, I think because I had the thought that kind of occurred to me is like, I think those are all you, but it's just you with different stressors and that stressors. But, you know, external constraints. Yeah. And different constraints that are forcing you to be this. Way to man I get over but to. To go to go on. To. Conquer, to play, to win with that day. Keep on going. Yeah. Hey, you have to give respect. And respond to, you know, the world. Yeah. Feel the emotional spectrum that we have here. It's like it's nice to some guys and I don't want to cry. I ain't no bitch. Never clap. It's like I like I love crying. Crying gets me off. Get off. Credit. It's terrible. I need. what? I ask these questions with a straight face, but it's so hard sometimes what I'm doing. The bit. Got to. Because it's a habit. Because I want the answer. But I also think it's hilarious. Okay, that's all right. Go on. Oh, nothing against everything. Ask something. No, I. Just I lost my I lost my composure. I think I'd be funnier if I was straight face for some of these. But I think we're gonna focus. Yeah. We're just what is can. Whatever the pressures that life puts on us, the story, whenever the story plays out. You get upset, you get hurt, you get jealous, you get excited, get anxious. Like nervous or fucking filled with joy. Hit a game winning bucket. It's like all of those are just happening to you sometimes, you know? Yeah. You can do your best to like, resist. I guess maybe you should sometimes to be more in harmony with, like, the champion version, who's in like going to conquer. But it's it's just like that being. A human, we're going to get pulled into all those emotional directions through something, something or another. It's okay to feel that way or to be, I guess, like to identify that thought as it crosses but don't like. Hold on to any emotion. 2 to 2 crazy long. Yeah, it's all balance. I want to be ready all the time. Miami marry all the time. What about the cage. Yeah. He's in there. He's in. He's always in. There. He's coming. Out soon. You gotta get the recipe. Yeah. Right. You gotta line up. Yeah right. Line it up. Yeah. Yeah I guess ideally I was trying to be. Some people just want to be happy. We're all we all have different goals here. What? We're trying. Yeah, right. Like what's happier or what's a good life or what's. We all have our own interpretation. Of what would. Justify our own suffering, what would make our own life worth it? We're all thinking about that. We all have it. It's in there. It's in there. It gave me butterfly. It's just the words coming out of your mouth. It's in there. Butterflies. Maybe that's the thing that that white rabbit we were talking about earlier that appears. It's our. Kind of. Stokes, that flame within yourself in the mundane passing of second by second by second by second. It's like, oh, that second was a little different than every other second preceding and following, you know? So maybe that's the spirit of. Your justification. You're stuck in the thing. You would die for your conviction. Yeah. Your passion, your being. That's the note in which frequencies like that. Yeah. Gee, I think that's that's what you are. To constitutes your, your is this, you know, it's this hard thing to say isn't this isn't a word. But isn't this. Your essence, this what makes hydrogen and hydrogen? What makes carbon carbon? What makes you. You can. Properties of your. The properties. How many protons you have. Dude. Right. What the fuck? Your electrons are shit. Who knows? Who knows what makes us us? I don't I don't I don't have a suit in my closet. That's a different amount of protons or electrons in the other suit. They're all the same thing. Yeah. And I think ultimately it's all me. Ultimately, every time I. Every time I ask myself, every time I ask myself, do I have a closet full of means? I get to the same answer at the end of that question, and that's who I am. You know what I'm saying? And the answer is like, what's the answer? Who am I going to be today? Cold blooded winter. Yeah. And that the the me that knows that that defaults there, that gets there, that settles into. That. Be a child of. God and feels good about it and get my frequency goes up and I'm like, man, I got this, you know. Yeah. Like that's the me. I hit me when I was ask myself earlier today, I was just like there's a bunch of different names which means it's like me, the hand of the fucking business boy. Yeah I. Like that. There was, there was a thing that arose out that was like you're talking about all of, all of my different emotions, but it's me. Yes and yes. Yeah. That's kind of when I was getting that. Yeah. And then who are you at your core? That's like you need to find that, create that, identify it and fucking be it honestly to the best of your ability. Because if not, then everything else will be just. I don't even know. Yeah, bro. Fucking child of God, first and foremost. And a fucking winner. Someone's gonna figure it out. You know, if I lose, I'm going to figure it out. Yeah, you know, and but that's it. And then everything else will just kind of fall. Follow. Yeah. Being a child of God has been one. That's the one. That's the. One. That's the why we got the dove, baby. Yeah. We dove. Dove already. You good? We already got the dove. But the work, that's the job. Not finished jobs not finished. We're still. We're in the game. There's time on the clock. Go out there and. Fucking make some hay. Do some damage. Just good, good damage. Holy points. Paladins, Holy knights. It's a holy war, right? Demonic forces in some realities. Oh. We should just sign. Off on that. Oh. Did Kobe Bryant do too much? Too much? Maybe. Maybe. Right. Maybe. Maybe. As much as it pains me to say. Maybe he might have cracked the the human resistance to too much. You might have broken that. David Gordon seems like he's broken it. If I can. Who else? I Kevin Hart is someone who was doing that. And then he was doing too much. Maybe then he got a bad car accident. And then Gordon is another person. Gordon Ramsay, another example I could think of up top that was doing too much, or maybe constituted by some others doing the craziest amounts of shows in the fucking world. And then he got a gun. Bad motorcycle accident. Maybe as a result of doing too much, I don't know. But maybe he's maybe that's that's just like the fucking what we can deem to be too much. It's just their pace now because they've been trying to increase their pace by 1% every year for the last 30 years. This is the. Argument an ambitious psychopath would make. Right? Come on. Right. Yeah. It's an IT man. How do you know? How do you fucking know that they're not right. Yeah. I'd rather it's like they have a Goggins, bro. You know what I'm saying? I'd rather fucking find out I was doing too much than find out I was not doing enough. And what happens when you do that? Too crazy that that's what the thing that I'm kind of trying to point out is like. That's a difficult fucking thing to, like, wrap your own head around to see the full like, I'm going to live on these axioms because I got all I can do is be me. But then to discern, like the actual truth out here, it's so difficult. Like you got gotta. You got to really know and be in tune. You got to be in tune enough to know that when you're in tune, you're right. And to have that feeling like that, that conviction, that like conviction is like, I should do this, but this feeling of like, no, I know. This, I know, I know this is truth. Yeah, yeah. That thing that's like a fucking, like almost like a stare. You have to develop and it's super. The grind for that is different. Like it's the don't tell a lie. That's a grind for that. It's the be responsible. That's a grind for that. show up on time. That's that's a grind for that. Just to help you develop like am I is my judgment good. You know. Yeah. Yeah. Fuck yeah. I wonder if David, for Kobe Bryant to sit down with themself and say, okay, I'm not doing I don't I don't even want to say I'm doing too much. I can't even let those thoughts enter my inner matrix. But perhaps this might be unsustainable. Am I someone who sustains unsustainable things? I think this is the kind of shit that this motherfucker right here. This the thinker. Thinker thinks about. Yeah, yeah. That's gorgeous. So I don't know. I don't know if you were to ask him. What do you think he would say? Kobe Bryant. Yeah. Did you do too much? I used to hang out with him. Whether it was there a moment. Or. The spirit of Kobe Bryant came to me. Yes. The Mamba in a in a midnight one in the morning drive to the gym, and it was sitting in the car with me and I felt him. I felt Kobe Bryant, like, I mean, dude, I'm almost getting watery right now. I don't know how to tell you I knew any more than I'm telling you right now. This weird thing that lets you just know thing sometimes that, like the spirit of Kobe Bryant was with me in that moment and was like fully in a in tracksuit, sweatpants, sweatshirt zipped up to his chin that was just like, oh, I'm rolling with you, bro. You are. This is what I rock with. This is what I'm I'm happy today. I'm about. This. Yeah, I'm up with you to this, bro. Oh, I don't have to say a word. You don't need to give me anything. I'm just like I'm here because this is what I do. And that cracked open the shell of what was possible for me in that moment. It it it cracked. Like I felt like tingles go down my arms like an egg as it cracks in a yolk comes out. And I was able to go to the gym and do heavy squats at one in the morning and just crush it, because I felt animated by the spirit that Kobe Bryant embodies. Yeah, represents. Yeah. And I think that that thing I don't think that he would. It was good. It was good. Good. I needed to get cracked. I was I was drawn to David Goggins and Kobe Bryant in those times. Yeah. So do I think that Kobe Bryant regrets being a representation for proper overexertion? Probably not. Probably not. Probably not. Probably not. Dude. Because I think fucking thing, when you get to the. End of life, you're gonna have. To look back and be like, did I do? I would rather look back and be like, I probably could have cooled jets a little bit here and there, then to look back and be like, man, I really wish I would have fucking tried harder, you know, said or done more or fucking put more of an effort forth. He never thought that that ever. Never. Never. I'd rather die like that's it. That's the death. 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