That which sees the waves of unknowing and the waves of knowing, the waves of doubt, and the waves of clarity, is beyond both.
That, you are.
Like kneeling over a disturbed lake,
trying to see your reflection through the waves,
you can see something,
you can see a distortion,
but as the waves calm down,
as the lake goes still again,
there you are.
When the mind is still,
like it is right now,
more aware of silence than anything else,
there you are
(t)here, God is.
I love you,
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"When you feel pulled into two different directions,
surrender into the not knowing.
It's okay to not know what direction to go in
when you feel this conflict.
It's your heart teling you to release control,
to make space and allow spirit to lead you through."
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"I entered into unknowing and remained there, knowing nothing.
This place transcends all thought. I had no idea where I was, but when I found myself there (without knowing where there was) I suddenly understood sublime things, ineffable things."
-St John of the Cross
"This is what you are to do: lift your heart up to the Lord, with a gentle stirring of love desiring him for his own sake and not for his gifts. Center all your attention and desire on him and let this be the sole concern of your mind and heart. Do all in your power to forget everything else, keeping your thoughts and desires free from involvement with any of God's creatures or their affairs whether in general or particular. Perhaps this will seem like an irresponsible attitude, but I tell you, let them all be; pay no attention to them.
And so diligently persevere until you feel the joy in it. For in the beginning it is usual to feel nothing but a kind of darkness about your mind, or as it were, a cloud of unknowing. You will seem to know nothing and to feel nothing except a naked intent toward God in the depths of your being. Try as you might, this darkness and this cloud will remain between you and your God. You will feel frustrated, for your mind will be unable to grasp him, and your heart will not relish the delight of his love. But learn to be at home in this darkness. Return to it as often as you can, letting your spirit cry out to him who you love. For if, in this life, you hope to feel and see God as he is in himself it must be within this darkness and this cloud. But if you strive to fix your love on him forgetting all else, which is the work of contemplation I have urged you to begin, I am confident that God in his goodness will bring you to a deep experience of himself."
-Excerpt from 'The Cloud of Unknowing'