Inner Green Light: When Your Soul Says “It’s Time” (Part 2 – Surrendering to the Signal)

Inner Green Light: When Your Soul Says “It’s Time” (Part 2 – Surrendering to the Signal)

Trusting your inner compass, leaving toxic places, and stepping into alignment—even when you’re unsure how it will all work out.

In this episode of Lesley’s Lessons, Lesley shares a raw continuation of “The Inner Green Light” — reflecting on the quiet but urgent call we often ignore: the moment when your soul says, “It’s time.”

She opens up about navigating toxic workplaces, honoring intuition over ego, and choosing peace over performing. This is for the dreamers juggling 9–5s, the artists dimming their light, and anyone who’s ready to stop explaining and start moving.

If you’ve been waiting for a sign—this is it.
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Transcript

Lesley's Lessons. So this is a continuation of my other podcast that, um, I really felt called to share with someone. And you're, you're never thinking about, oh, this is a podcast moment when you're going through things. But, um, I just wanted to add more to it. Unfortunately, you know, sometimes the, the biggest lessons come through adversity.

In fact, I think that's how they, it's set up. And, uh, my previous podcast, the Inner Green Light, when Your Soul Says, so, I felt like I still had more to share and I didn't wanna hold back. I didn't wanna set, set this up where I'm villainizing people because I feel like even people with bad intentions, um, they are not the main source.

They're not the, the main thing I believe you take away from obstacles or things that happen in your life. In my previous podcast, I was telling you how I got this bartender job and it was quite toxic and um, it was very disrespectful. And the person that I worked with, we had the same name and, um, she made it abundantly clear after exchanging small pleasantries that you are not welcome here.

We don't need to go into her reasons why or everything like that, or how bad it really got, but it got really bad and it never got better. And if I was a different type of person, that would've just made my ego just go, ha ha, look at what I can do to you. But for where I am in life and the new chapters I'm entering.

Without my mom in the flesh, it's like, and so many new things happening. I don't have time for that energy, you know?

I don't have time for that energy. I don't have time to play up into people's insecurities and stuff like that. And it just came to me today. You know, at first, I. Oh, watch out for these booby traps, you know, and these jobs and everything. But I think the bigger lesson that, that I got, it was, it was so many lessons because what happened was she started a smear campaign because I could tell, and I wasn't even there that long, but it definitely made an impact.

Um, the guests loved me. I got along great with the managers. There was no compromise with the people that I would have to work with daily. And it just was uncomfortable. It wasn't something that at this point in my life, um, I was ready to compromise. I, I, I don't compromise peace. I just don't. And, um, I started seeing the signs.

I am the type of person where I. I will observe and you can tell me all day, you're a great person. You could tell me all day or position yourself as a fun loving person who doesn't like drama, and it's all about teamwork, but I'll watch the way you move. Now, granted, people make mistakes and they have things going on.

I'm just not at that place to nurture wounds that were there before me. I'm no longer at the space where, you know, you know, we, let's just make room for this. And no, because there are people who live this life that they're highly criticized for. You know, they call them selfish, they say they're self-absorbed and all these things, but guess what?

They go to bed at night not thinking about other people's problems. You know they are at peace and focus on what they want, what they desire, and they are locked into that. And while they may get a bad rap for, oh, you could have been nicer to this person, who are we living for? I literally have nothing to lose.

I have nothing to lose. And neither do you. What are we gonna lose someone's approval? Who? Likes you about 80%. Someone who tolerates you, someone who's friends with you or needs you for pure convenience. You, you, you never know the true motives. And I'm not saying to be paranoid and, you know, scope everyone out.

I'm just saying it's just exhausting living that way. It's just exhausting trying to carry this load. Focusing on you, and then you're thinking about this scenario and that scenario and how it will affect all these moving parts, and you are not designed to do that. Society would like you to think that you need to do that in order to be accepted, but when you are not.

Signing up or subscribing to pleasing people, you will know that that does nothing for you. That's how I feel about that, and it just came to me today and you could have been making some good tips. Granted, you know this, this pays some bills and everything, but you know, you an artist.

First, in a perfect world, it'll be right now, forget this balance and trying to do things, but you do the best. But I do believe that energetically, you know, the universe needs to know where you want to put your attention. So as much as it would seem like a smart plan to do both, you know, have a regular job.

And, um, pursue your dreams on the side. At some point you have to say, you know what, this is what I desire. Whatever it is, this is what I desire. This is what makes me happy. And I feel that because we have so many responsibilities, um, because we might feel like we're on the other side of life, or we're just tied, you know, to commitments that just cannot be broken.

Um, or are hard to break. We don't allow ourselves just to say out loud what we really want, what we really deserve, what we really desire. I know because I wasn't giving myself permission. I did everything I wanted to do. Oh, let me do this. Let me write this book. Let do that. You know, and let me just, you know, keep this union job, but I did not give myself permission as I'm giving myself permission in this current season.

I want that. I deserve it. I'm not making apologies for it if I have it, if I had it up to me right now, I wouldn't do this. I would just do that and be happy. And sometimes you just have to say that. And be at peace with it and let the universe get to work. I know society teaches us that we must, you know, we must say a prayer, we must focus, we must write it down.

I, I just encourage people that we also have to do things that might not make sense to other people. We have to do things that might not make sense to ourselves. We have to take a leap, you know, and understand that everything is not designed to be perfect. When you take that leap, it may look like you have now gone down the wrong road, but in fact, it's setting you up for something that when you look back weeks, months later, you're gonna be like, oh my gosh, I didn't see that.

I knew this was gonna work out, and that's the best part. And you know, not a lot of people could say, I knew it was gonna work out because the road is hard, you know? Um, it's not for the week. It, it is not. For someone who thinks that life is just gonna say, okay, here's the playbook. Just do this and just do that and you're gonna be fine.

Set up for success, and that's just not how it always works there. The, the, the falls, the fails, the rejections, but I like to call redirection the pause, the weight, the stall. They almost chose you, but not yet. They, it looks promising, but they didn't give you the contract. It's just you, you just wonder where is your green light?

And then meanwhile, while you're just doing the best you can, you have all of these negative distractions. That's what I like to call them. Just trying to take you down, trying to take your, your, your joy, your confidence, your smile, your. Trying to take you down some notches so you can match their low frequency.

And it just had me thinking like, wow, what? What? I'm just so spiritually confused. Here I am showing up, doing what I have to do quietly celebrating the life of my mother. Doing this new job. I don't live around here, you know, travel a little ways to get here. I get home extremely late. I have to work in an environment where the person that's supposed to be training me does not speak to me, isolates herself for me, and because I'm a self, a self-starter, you know, I'm talking and telling you this, but you, you better believe I still did my thing, but it would've been easier.

If someone welcomed me and showed me the way, instead, luckily for me, I know how to find my way out. I will figure it out kind of person. Needless to say, it was very uncomfortable, and then when I had to work with someone else, I could see, oh, this person has changed. I could tell they were already influenced.

Now it was starting to be little like hater recruiters, um, making it very difficult, you know, testing me instead of showing me the way, standing, standing, um, to the sidelines waiting for me to get too flustered or want to wanna quit or run to the bathroom and cry. I gave them nothing. And in fact, the day that I.

The, um, the person that I worked with that day who told me, oh, you know, he was hiding behind the Thin Veil of the Union and his duties. I just let him be. And I made sure that even though he tried to shortchange me with tips because we pull, I made sure, because he was really not even a bar bartender. He, they were short staffed.

He was a barback and he picked up a shift. I still gave him what he was due. I looked him in the eye and you could tell he was shocked. And little did he know, that was my last day. I walked away. You know, like I just felt like, I don't know how this is gonna work out, but my soul is demanding that I take elite.

My soul is demanding. This environment has expired. Lesson learned. Time to go. And, um, it could affect you.

You could think that, you know, and it's, it's just not a good, just not a good way to be. You don't wanna put yourself in a situation that life just says, we gave you an out. You decided that it was money over your peace. You decided that wild commute you had to take late at night was worth your peace. And I ask you what right now, have you outgrown or it is just urging you to make a choice, take the initiative in your life.

That is taking precedence over your peace because I'm telling you, you're going the wrong way, absolutely going the wrong way, and it's not coming from a judgment. It's just coming from a place of love. I don't want you to go the wrong way. I want you to follow your inner green light and say, wait a minute.

This feels like a red light. I need to take a pause. I need to take a pause. I need to take a pause from this, figure this out. And sometimes you have to do that. Sometimes you have to take time for yourself, even if it sounds weird to other people. And sometimes it's not that it sounds weird, it's just that.

Other people haven't given themselves permission to do that. No one told them they can do it, and that's a problem right there. It's no one tells you you have to put your pants on, you know you have to put your pants on before you leave the house. It's just certain things that we, we believe we have power to do for ourselves.

But when we look at the bigger picture, we don't give ourselves permission to see, wow, there's an even bigger world out there. There's an even bigger way of living, way of thinking, way of just celebrating our life, and that's something that you have an opportunity to do every day. And today when I was just, you know, I wasn't thinking about the place that I worked, um, in a bitter sense.

And some might say, well, you have every right to, if it just kept getting dark, dark and you know, they were disrespectful to you, there probably were racist too. Who knows? But I, I don't carry myself with a magnet to that mentality. I just like good people working with people who are like, Hey, I. I see you, I recognize you.

Let's win together. That's the type of person I am. And one of the things that I thought about today was, you know, people, people with darkness, people who could only see the darkness, you can never convince them. Authentically cooperative, you have to force them, coerce them, um, in some way to see the bigger picture.

And those people are dangerous because they have no limits, especially when all you see is someone coming in your space as a threat. If you view someone like, this person is going to get more attention than me, or this person is going to get chosen over me, and even worse, this person doesn't even care about me.

They don't care what I think. They don't care.

You just have to be prepared that some people, they'll double down on the evil. I don't know how spiritual you guys are. I didn't like the visions I was starting to have, and I don't know if I was getting those visions in my mind because someone was doing, trying to do something to me, or it was a warning of what was being done.

And I believe if you, as they say, stay prayed up. You're protected from evil. And I never got those type of visions before. And then I said to myself, man, she wants you outta here badly. And it, it just, it was just beyond the point of this thing is starting to affect my health. I'm going home feeling horrible, coming back, you know, I'm still managing this new life without the presence of my mother.

And I'm also at this peak of, you know, my artistry, my books and all these things, but just trying to balance life with an everyday job. And it was hard because, you know, for yourself, if things haven't taken off to the point where you cannot work, you have to be in the workforce. You know, you just have to, unless you have a successful Etsy shop or whatever, you, you strike it, you have to do something, and you just have to be mindful of how long you could really stay.

Because when you are more of an entrepreneur and you're showing up in these spaces and you constantly evolve, you know, it's just a matter of time. For me, it's just always worked. Until now when it's not working anymore to, uh, work a regular job, you, you, especially one that you could kind of flip it and make extra money because it saves you time.

You know, you're not doing something like a career job where you would definitely have to pay attention. I. To that job, it's, it's really difficult to be able to focus on your creative side or your entrepreneur side if you have a very demanding job. So I've just been balancing that kind of life and back to this job, it was never about ever being bitter.

It just came to me today, like, why don't you just let them? I was just like, wait a minute, let them, what do you mean

give it to them? If someone wants your energy, someone wants your aura, spiritually, give it to them. And I mean by, because they won't stop. And when you, you know, they're, they're gonna do anything to just try to copy you, take you down. Just give it to them. And what I mean by that, like energetically, um, give them what they want, give them the smile.

Give them, you know, make sure you don't give them anything less because that's what they really want. They want to see you frown. They want to see you. The energy sucked out of you. Even if you feel that way, you give them the good stuff. That's the stuff they wish they had, and they don't have it for themselves.

And you know what's gonna happen. They're not gonna know what to do with it. They're not gonna know what to do with it. It's, it's. It's like you're giving them, like, they see a teddy bear. It's like, oh, give me that teddy bear. And then all of a sudden the the teddy bear is bigger than them and then it's like they fall back because it's so humongous, you know?

And that's how your light is, your light, your energy, everything about you. People who want what you have, they envy you. They're never going to be able to. Sustain what they hate about you, they'll never be able to do it. I had this girl I worked with before and uh, you know, at some point I had to call her mini me because it was just abundantly clear how much she was copying everything.

It, it was scary. I'm talking down to the mannerisms. Um, we just looked different. And all of a sudden, little by little, the hairstyles, the frames, you know, just off the cuff. And to me it's always just been kind of sad because you are ignoring the gifts that God, I believe in God gave you, the universe, gave you.

It's like you, you don't think. The values, what makes you special is worth is valuable. And when you don't think your uniqueness is valuable, you can put your own self, your worth, your being, your being, being to the side to try to. Copy and collect what you think the world thinks is amazing, and I'm just here to tell you that this is not the way to go.

Let people be, let them have the energy, let them just be because they will never be you. They'll never know what to do with what you have. They will always fumble. It's only a matter of time and it doesn't mean that you deciding that it's gonna make things better. You might have to walk away from a relationship.

Um, you might have to still do something drastic, but you will know. You will know, and it's up to you to not wait for collective of approvals, but to trust your inner green light. That when it tells you the time is now, you act. Sometimes when we want things in life, well tell society, I want it right now. I just can't do this anymore.

And then all of a sudden you start to see breadcrumbs of what you ask manifest in real time. But then I need more time. This can't be it. I don't think that's the person because I am attracted to them, but they're not quite like this. I like the job, but it's not paying what I thought it was gonna pay. I like the house, but you know, the yard is not pretty or I like the, you know what I'm saying?

It's just we ask, but we don't. Appreciate or have our spiritual antennas up for when the breadcrumbs of our manifestation is taking place.

Sometimes we're just focused on what's going wrong, that we don't have to discernment to notice what is happening right before us. I'm guilty too. Especially when it's so much of negative things happening back to back. It's like, how? How can I be going the right way? Why is my green light telling me to focus on this when I need this to happen?

I just gotta say, sometimes you just have to pause from asking spiritually. And instead saying, you know what? I don't know. I don't have all the answers, but I'm gonna protect my peace and not stress why I'm gonna go forward. Even if I'm afraid I'm gonna take the leap. I'm gonna listen to my inner voice.

If something is off, I'm not doing it. If something is toxic, I'm removing myself from it, and I'm going to have a spiritual commitment and follow my own compass in this life because what matters to me makes me what I care about, what brings a smile to my face? What makes me healthy and show up in this world my best self, have great skin, you know, are the things that I have to keep a priority in my life.

It's a certain way I have to move in my life because that matters to me and it makes me happy. What matters to you? Sometimes we get lost and confused because we have people in our lives trying to dictate or assertively or suggest you should do things this way. Look, it has proven positive results for me.

Do it this way. Sometimes that way works for them.

So I just wanna leave you with this and hope that if there's anything stagnant in your spirit or someone is just trying to dim your light or take something that doesn't belong to you, you just let them because they will never know what to do with it. You have to stay on track. Don't let these tests derail you from your destiny.

Follow your intuition and let your inner green light soar in your life like the volume is on maximum. Like let those speakers burst of telling you which way to go, what to do. Give yourself grace to say, you know what? I don't have to dwell on this. I don't have to see the see this in the way other people see it.

I'm actually okay with forgiving this. I'm actually okay with just letting that go. I'm not okay with that. I'm not gonna explain myself. I'm not gonna sell myself to other people's approval. I'm just gonna be silent. Be respectful when I have to communicate to people I love who might not understand, and I'm just gonna move forward.

This is your time. This is your time today. This moment, let's not put off what we know we can do now, even if we don't know how we're going to do it, if it's right, it's a green light. Okay. And if it's dark, you go and find your spark. You take control of your life. Take control. It is not supposed to look one way.

It is not supposed to be some unanimous way of living. This is for you.

This is for you. Your new

life, even with just one decision of you following your inner green light and change everything. And that can start right now.

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