Episode 200: Ask Me Anything

I answer your burning questions in our milestone 200th episode!

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We made it. This is Bad Attitudes. Hello, friends and strangers. Welcome to another episode of Bad Attitudes, an uninspiring podcast about disability. I'm your host, Laura. Our 200th supporter shout out goes to Jennifer Kellogg. Thank you for your continuing support. If you'd like to hear your name on a future episode, consider becoming a member on Coffee. Visit KO-Fi.com slash Bad Attitudes Pod for more information. You can also support the pod by visiting our merch store at badattitudeshop.etsy.com where you'll find podcast merch and satisfyingly sarcastic designs, especially for the disabled and chronically ill communities. For questions, comments, or ideas, visit the website at badattitudespod.com. Email badattitudespod at gmail.com or reach out on social media. Follow at BadAttitudes Pod on Instagram, Facebook, Threads, and Blue Sky. As always, I want to remind you that disability is not a monolith. My experience as a disabled person is going to be different from the experiences of other disabled people. I am one voice for the disabled community, but I am not the only voice. 200 episodes. Wow. Just wow. I really truly never imagined getting this far. I've said this many, many times over the years, but I thought I had maybe 30 episodes in me, and I would give up and move on. Yet here we are, 200 episodes and a little over five years later. Thank you for your ongoing support, for sharing the podcast, for interacting on social media, and and for listening to me rant over all these episodes. This week we're doing something a little different. A few months ago, I put out calls for questions you wanted me to answer. They could be about anything, not just disability. I even threw in a few questions I sourced from other places that I thought would be fun to answer. I guess we'll see. Here's how it's gonna work. I have the list of questions here in front of me and a number picker pulled up. I wanted this to be as spontaneous as possible, so I didn't pre-write answers to any of the questions. I foresee this episode requiring more editing than usual. Without further ado, let's get on with the questions. We'll start with an easy one and then move on to the randomizing. Question. What's your star sign? Okay, so this isn't that easy. Uh as you know, I was born on June 21st, which is also the birthday for the podcast. Depending on which zodiac thing you look at, June 21st is either the last day of the Gemini Star sign or the first day of the Cancer Star sign. And I relate to both. I have characteristics of both signs, so I consider myself a cuss baby and will identify as either Gemini or Cancer. How do you come up with new ideas each week? Well, uh honestly, it's luck. I get a lot of ideas from social media, as I'm usually mentioned in the episode. Uh, news stories, general just things I see online, or things I experience, or things I've experienced in the past. A lot of past episodes are based on my own life, and I just share my opinions on stuff that relates to disability. It's really not very exciting. What's your favorite dinosaur, and has it been the same your whole life? I never really got into dinosaurs. Like I know some people as kids they are obsessed. That was never really my thing. If I had to pick, I would pick the triceratops simply because of the Doctor Who episode, Dinosaurs on a Spaceship. There's a Triceratops. Matt Smith rides it and calls it Tricy, and it's super funny and cute. So, Triceratops. Who was your celebrity crush growing up? Okay, so when I was very, very young, like four years old, I was obsessed with John Schneider from The Dukes of Hazard. You know, he played Beau Duke and jumped across the hood of the General Lee and wore those really t really tight jeans. Um, so uh and I don't even remember really I don't know. I started early, what can I say? Um when I got a little bit older, it was John Stamos from Full House. Everybody loves Uncle Jesse, and honestly, I would totally fangirl over him even today. Oh, this is this is a deep one. What is one thing you want most everyone to be on the same page about politically, about life in general, and about disability? Okay, so let's start with the disability part first. Because I think it's really important that people need to understand that if you're not disabled, you're simply not disabled yet. It is literally the only marginalized group you can join at any moment. There is nothing that prevents you from c becoming disabled. You know, it doesn't matter how healthy you are or how rich you are or how famous you are. I mean Christopher Reeve. The man was literally Superman and a freak accident, he became disabled in a second. If it could happen to him, it can happen to you. And I think more people need to understand that. This idea of it's never gonna happen to me is bullshit. Um what I want people to be on the same page about politically that's really hard because there's a lot of things that I wish people were more on the same page about politically. I guess I think just this idea that just because a candidate is not absolutely perfect doesn't mean they're not a good candidate. Um, there's this meme that goes around during election times where it's like a candidate or voting for a candidate is like taking the bus. It may not get you exactly to your destination, but it gets you closer. And so I think we need to understand that d just you know, not agreeing with someone on one issue isn't enough of a reason, in my opinion, to not vote for them. I think one issue voting is stupid anyway. I I really think people just need to understand that it's about progress, it's about getting closer to the ultimate goal of what you want, and there is no such thing as a perfect candidate. It's just not, it doesn't exist. What I want them to be on the same page about life in general, huh? People are people. Regardless of how different they are from you. I think that applies when you encounter someone who's disabled, it applies when you encounter someone of a different race or someone of a different gender presentation or sexual orientation. You know, those things aren't that important. People are people, and they deserve your respect. Who are your favorite visual artists? Okay, so I have two, and they're very, very different. One is Vincent Van Gogh, or Vincent Van Gogh, if you pronounce it technically correctly. I just I just love his work. It's so evocative to me. It's it's beautiful, it's and knowing his story of, you know, his struggles with mental illness and uh just uh uh the way he never found success while he was alive. Like it all just it adds up so to be so moving to me. Um also if you've never seen the Doctor Who episode, Vincent and the Doctor, highly recommend. Probably my favorite episode. The other one is MC Escher, who is uh so technically talented. Um he has a lot of optical illusion art. And it's it it it it is amazing to me to just stare at it and be like, I can't believe a person drew this. So yeah, those are my top two. Vincent Van Gogh, MCS shirt. Totally different styles, but two artists I really, really admire and just freaking love. What is the favorite thing you've done that didn't get the response you hoped for? So I know I remember specifically who submitted this question, and I think he knows what I'm gonna say. I wouldn't be surprised if he suspected what I was gonna say, but my TED talk. Like, I gave a frickin' TED talk, and yeah, it was small school, you know, people, it's it's not like it's not like I was doing TEDx at Harvard or something. I had really hoped that would open some more doors for me, and unfortunately, you know, now it's in this sort of weird limbo where TEDx made them take down all the TED Talk videos due to some sort of copyright thing, and I don't know if I'll ever be able to access it again or when. I mean, it's been three, almost three years since I gave that TED Talk. And they took it down, I think, after the first year. So it's it's very frustrating to feel like I put a lot of effort into this thing, and I really stepped outside my comfort zone to do this, and and I've got nothing to show for it. I really wish I had had somebody bootleg record it while I was doing it. So what's a motto you live by? I don't know what's a motto with you. I don't really have like a motto. I think it probably it would be something like if you're not pissing someone off, you're not doing it right. Um because I I really feel that about this podcast specifically, um, but also, you know, my artwork in general being more confrontational politically speaking, anyway. So, yeah, I I really feel like because you can't please everyone, and not everyone is gonna agree with you, and you know, I don't think I say anything that's offensive or way, way, way out of left field in the sense of like I don't really have hot takes. Like all my hot takes make sense anyway to me. Um, so yeah, if you're not pissing someone off, you're not doing it right. Huh. This is an interesting question. What are your most prized stickers? Are they used or are you saving them? I don't know that I have like any stickers that I'm like super protective of or like really just like feel like oh I'm so glad I own this. I mean, for one thing, if I get a sticker that I really, really, really, really, really like, I'll buy another one so that I have at least two, and like I can put one on, you know, my computer or whatever, and then I can save one, and I'll always have an extra. Um one sticker I have is a crow smoking a cigarette with the um with a banner that says with a banner that says my other disability is a bad attitude. And I immediately bought two of those. So yeah, I I don't have any stickers that you know that I couldn't get again at this point. How many washes does your hair color last? And what brand do you use? So my stylist uses the brand called Danger Jones Beauty. Um, you can buy it online, it's on Amazon, it's like 14 bucks a tube. Um, so it's not super expensive. Um, it's conditioner based, so you know you can use it at home. I've done it. Um I've used it once to sort of freshen up, but um I mostly just wait until I go see my stylist again. Um as for how many washes, I don't know because I don't really keep track. Um, but I do take steps to try and prolong it. So like I only wash my hair like every three or four days. Um I try to use I try to use only cold water. You're supposed to wash it with cold or lukewarm water, and some days that's really tough. Some days I just want everything to be hot. I mean, and also like when my hair fades, like like you have to embrace the fade, I think, if you have vivid hair color, because it's gonna fade. It just is. And the thing about having purple hair, um, so the color that fades the fastest always is red. So, and purple is of course like half red, so it's gonna fade more, um, more quickly. So you have to embrace the fade. Um, the other thing is my hair grows really fast. Like, it's kind of insane. Um, I think it was like two and a half weeks after I got my hair done the last time that I was starting to see my roots. Um, now of course I notice it more than like a rig another person would notice it. So, yeah, that's that that's a thing. Because usually by the time I get back to my stylist, I go every two or three two to three months, um, depending. So by the time I get back to my stylist, I've usually got a good chunk of very visible roots. So yeah, I don't I don't know like how many washes specifically, um, and I don't it usually stays pretty freshly purple for about a month, give or take, um, before it starts to be noticeably fading. But yeah, you've gotta embrace the fade, man. You've gotta embrace it. How do you manage mundane things that require more bending than we might think, such as getting in and out of bed, getting dressed, putting away groceries, doing dishes, folding laundry, etc. I manage them pretty well. You know, I don't so now the one thing to keep in mind is I do have a full spinal fusion, which means I have steel rods in my spine from essentially the base of my neck to my tailbone. I have zero flexibility in my spine. I can only bend at my hips. That being said, it doesn't really affect me for those types of activities. I'm not paralyzed in any way, so I have full use of all of my limbs. Um I have full grip strengths. I'm not super flexible, but I I do have a decent range of motion. I mean, so those things are not that complicated for me. It could also be that I'm so used to it that I'm like I don't really know how to think about it in a different light. Like I don't know how other people might see the way I do things and how they might be does I don't know if that makes sense. Like I I I don't know how to see it from the outside. I can only see it from the way I'm in it. Um The only thing I can really think of is like getting dressed. I tend to like when I'm putting jeans on or something, I rock in my chair, sort of from side to side, like hip to hip, um, while I'm pulling up my jeans. But other than that, I can't really obviously I use the like I use a grabber to get stuff or put stuff in cabinets. You know, I've I've had so I started wearing a back brace when I was seven. So I've spent most of my life with essentially zero flexibility in my spine. So it's very normal for me. Um I don't know how to I don't know how to explain. I just do the things. And I think that's um I think when we I think when you ask disabled people, how do you do this? We're just like, I don't know, I just do it. And that's how I feel. I just do it. What is your idea of a perfect date? I think April twenty fifth. Because it's not too hot and it's not too cold. All you need is a light jacket. So now that I've answered it, as every millennial would answer it, um a real answer, I really like the idea of just wandering around a bookstore for a couple of hours. Um, I feel like that really gives you the opportunity to strike up a number of different conversations. Like you're not just talking about books, like I mean obviously you can talk about this is my favorite book, this is my favorite author, I love this genre, I love this genre. Um but it also it also is conducive to just talking about the different topics, like talking about fantasy, like why do you like vampires so much, you know, and talking about politics or you know, whatever. It just it because there are so many ideas in a bookstore, I I just think it's it's really conducive to opening you up and getting you to talk about a lot of different things. And you know, if the guy I'm with wants to buy me a few hardcovers, who am I to say no to that? Oh, another hair question. If purple is your favorite hair color, what is your second favorite? This is hard. Because once I discovered purple hair, I really didn't feel and don't feel the need to branch out. Um the first time, and I I've said this before, I think, the first time I did have my hair colored. Purple, I looked in the mirror and was like, Oh, there you are. Like it it finally felt like outside Laura matched inside Laura, you know, and it's kind of a struggle for me because I do want to try other colors and other designs of hair color, but also the purple just makes me so happy and it feels so me. So yeah, if if I had to pick when I was a teenager, and I was just doing like the box hair dye, um, I did one time dye it a color called wine brown, and I really thought it was gonna be more brown, but it was like purple, but not like a pretty purple, it was just purple. Um, and at the time, I was still like really not afraid, but like anxious about that, so I freaked out a little bit, and I made my parents go to the store and buy me just regular brown hair dye, and I put that on top, and it turned into this really gorgeous like black cherry color, and it it it was just so pretty, and it didn't last at all, but it was gorgeous, and I loved it, so it that would be my second choice, but I don't know. The purple is just it's just me, it's it feels like me, it when my hair is not purple, I feel weird. Um, even my stylist was like, I think purple is actually your natural hair color, you know, and I do like I said, I do want to branch out and I have some ideas. I might we'll see. Keep stay tuned for the hair journey. We'll see what happens. What skill or trait would I most like to have? Let me start by answering this question in reverse about a trait I wish I did not have. I wish I did not cry when I get angry. Like, I mean, I'm talking like valid anger, like righteous anger. I get I cry because it's so much emotion. And I hate it because it it gives the other person or the other people permission, I feel like, to not take me seriously. And that's probably a a big reason why, like, if I have grievances or something, I tend to write them and share them that way, versus face to face or verbally. Um, because I can write them down and I can cry while I'm writing, but no one experiences that but me. So that's a trait I wish I did not have. But I also know I come by it honestly because like I'm pretty sure all the women in my family do that. Um And I know a lot of people have that same trait, but yeah, that would be the one I don't like having. Um I wish I could play guitar. I think that would be really cool. Um, I've tried to learn multiple times, and I just don't have the patience for the required practice. Um, I really admire people who can. I love seeing someone who's so proficient on guitar, like they just wail, and it it's amazing to me. Um, so yeah, that would that would probably be the skill I would really like to have. But I just don't want to do the work. Do you think disability justice's focus on intersectionality is a good thing? Or does the anti-capitalist, anti-white, cis heteromale rhetoric detract from its purpose? Yeah, I think the intersectionality is good. Because disability is really the only marginalized community that intersects with every other marginalized community. You know, anyone can be disabled regardless of other factors. I don't I don't think that the disability justice movement is anti-white, anti-cis, anti-hetero male. Wanting to put more attention on non-white or non-cis or non-hetero or non-male populations is not anti any of those things. It's just an acknowledgement that the white cis heteromale has been consistently historically at the forefront. Like that guy has always been at the top of the food chain. He's always been at the top of the hierarchy, and that's not fair. That's not justice. A white straight man is no better or more important than a queer person of color who is non-binary. They're not more important, but I mean that is the hierarchy, of course. You know, you got the first you got the cis white man, and he's more important than the cis black man. But then you're like, okay, but what about the cis white woman? Is she is she more important than the cis black man? Because he's a man. And he's cis, but he's black. You know, like there there are all these like implied hierarchies in society when realistically none of these people are better than any of the others. Like w we need to make a more concerted effort to leveling the playing field for all people. Um so yeah, I do think the focus on intersectionality is good. I also don't think being anti-capitalist takes away from anything. Um capitalism is a scourge. And you know, I say this as someone who has two businesses f through which I try to make money. Like I have to participate in capitalism. We all have to participate. But capitalism only benefits the upper echelon. It you know, it doesn't benefit me. I'm not rich, I'm not making a ton of money, I am scraping by like most people. No, I think it's very important that we continue in all movements, not just disability disability justice, to focus on intersectionality because it is about creating a united front. And I think that's very important. What is the dumbest way you have ever hurt yourself? Sitting still. That's an osteogenesis imperfecta joke. It's not a joke. I have broken bones sitting still. What are five books we need to read to know you better? Oh jeez. Only five? Um, okay. Uh Book One, Wicked by Gregory McGuire. And no, seeing the movies or seeing the musical is not the same. These these two things are not the same. I don't they really basically only share a name and a green character. Like they are very, very different. And I love the book. I loved the book from the first time I read it. Highly recommend. Second book, Waist High in the World, Life Among the Non-Disabled by Nancy Mayers. It's a collection of her essays. Nancy Myers was an author who had MS, and it's a collection of essays about her experience as a disabled person. I first read it in college after one of my classes we read one of her essays. I did an episode about that. It was one of the first times I really felt like oh, this this other person understands my experience. That has been a very important book in my life. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mendel. It is a post-apocalyptic novel. It's probably my favorite post-apocalyptic novel. It is about how art endures. Um how creativity endures in even the most dire circumstances. Um, because it's it's post-apocalyptic, but there's, you know, some flashbacks before and after kind of vibe. And the one thing that sort of um ties all the characters together, they all have a copy of this graphic novel from before called Station Eleven. And I just it I it it's a great book. They also made a limited series on HBO from it. That is also really great. It was very faithfully adapted, I feel like. Highly recommend both. That's three books. I'm currently staring at all my books, being like, what? Oh, The Circle by Dave Eggers. I have been thinking about this book a lot lately. It's been like 20-ish probably years since the first time I read it. And it's I feel like it's very appropriate um today with the discussion of flock cameras and how our society is becoming more of a surveillance society. One of the scariest books I've ever read. It was terrifying. Highly, highly recommend. Um, it's super important in this time. And, you know, they also made a movie about it, which I haven't seen. Um, it starred Emma Watson, Karen Gillian, it was Bill Paxton's last movie before he passed away. I think Tom Hanks is in it too. But yeah, that book I've been thinking I uh like I said, it's been 20 plus years since I've read it, and I think about it still. And so, yeah, I highly recommend that book. You will if you're not terrified, you are not paying attention. Those four books. Okay. The fifth book is going to be a little controversial because I no longer support this author. Um the author has shown themselves to be a very despicable person, and I hate that because their books really opened up a world for me. Um so the book is the fifth book in a seven book series about a boy wizard. I am not going to say it because I am not going to um promote them. But I feel like the whole series really, but the fifth book was my favorite, but the whole series really set me on my journey of really embracing my love of fantasy, um, fantasy literature, fantasy media, just fantasy in general, magic, you know, this was stuff I liked before, but this I don't know, these books really opened me up to that that fantastic world. Um that fantastical world. And it just really tears me up that I can no longer get joy from these books because of who the author has revealed themselves to be. And but yeah, so those five books, I have so many more I love to read. We all know this. What do you do if a non-wheelchair user takes an accessible parking space if it turns out they have a different disability? Uh short answer is nothing. As long as they have a parking placard or the license plate on the back of their car, I don't care. Well, I mean I care, but I don't do anything. Because I know there are people who use the placards of others and take advantage in that way, but you have no way to prove it, and until we have a way to prove it, we can't do anything. As long as they have the placard or the plate, I don't do anything, and you really shouldn't do anything. Because technically they are parked legally. If they don't have a placard or something, you can be like, hey, you forgot your placard, and they'll either be like, oh my god, I'm so sorry I shouldn't park here, or they'll fuck you, you know, whatever. It's it's not my business any yeah, I I rage internally. That's all I do. I rage internally. Do you think any of the Democratic presidential candidates we've seen thus far or are waiting in the wings are actually serious about disability rights? No. No, because none of them have made any stance on disability rights. I hate to say it, but it's true, like that won't get them to vote. Despite the fact that disability touches more than a quarter of the American population. Most people would not care. And and the candidates are not gonna talk about it. Even I think I can't his name is Josh Turek. I can't remember what state he's in. But, you know, he has spin of bifida, I believe, uses a wheelchair, and he's repeatedly been shown that he likes to go door to door, he'll like get out of his chair, climb up the steps, pull the chair up behind him, get in his chair, knock on the door, do it in reverse, and do it again. And even he, as far as I can tell, has not made any statement or stance on disability rights known. It's not, unfortunately, it is not a priority for people in politics. Um, we have to make it their priority. We have to demand that they do something. We have to demand that they speak up, we have to demand that they put this in their platform. So at this point, no, none of them are serious about disability rights. Does that mean I wouldn't vote for them? Also, no. I would vote for pretty much any one of them in a heartbeat. Pete Buttigieg is kind of my that's my guy. That's who I'm hoping for. Um I know a lot of people are excited about AOC. I don't think a woman can win. We are too misogynistic as a society. Kamala Harris's run proved that. I don't want Kamala Harris to run again. I don't think she can win. She had her chance, and we fucked it up. So Pete Buddha J, I would I would super be excited by a Pete Buddha J AOC ticket. That would be my thing, because I think of the candidates I've seen so far, I think we could influence them as the disability community. So that's that's where I'm at. Right now, no, none of them are serious. I think they could be. Where do you think disability advocacy is currently getting it wrong? Mmm. This is such an interesting question, and it's such a hard question because advocacy is different to everyone. I think there are some people who are trying to pit different disabilities against each other, you know, being like, I'm more disabled, I'm, you know, I need this more, I'm because I'm more disabled, my my opinions matter more kind of thing. I think I see that some. I think the biggest issue is that a lot of disabled people are still stuck in this mindset of I have to be nice. If I'm mean or if I'm loud or if I'm forceful, they'll just ignore me. But the reality is, if you're nice, if you're quiet, you make it impossible not to ignore you. So I think we need to be louder. Yeah. And you know, and that's I understand that that's not necessarily possible for some people. Being disabled comes with some unique challenges when it comes to putting yourself in the quote unquote line of fire. You're more likely to have or experience an injury or illness, and that's gonna, you know, put you down for however long. And so it can be very difficult to be louder. But I d I think we've gotta push back more. We've gotta push back with the people who, you know, who try to say, well, you've got this, that, and the other, you know, why do you need more? Well, because I want my rights. And I think we need to push the media more to cover the stories. Like the uh, you know, the integration mandate story, where the administration is trying to roll back these protections that allow disabled people to live in their homes and live in their communities and instead put them in institutions. So we've got to really make an effort to one, to recruit more non-disabled allies. We've got to because they for whatever it's worth, people listen to them, and also they have, you know, maybe they have more stamina, maybe their health is better, and they're able to take on some of that when we the disabled population can't. So yeah, just be louder, man. Be louder. And cuss. It really freaks people out when someone who's disabled starts throwing fucks around. What is your favorite thing that is only available seasonally? Um, probably the Robin's eggs that are made by Whoppers um that are out around Easter. I love those things. I can get like the giant bag from like Fam's Club or something and just go to town. I love those. I know most people would be like, oh, this Reese shape or that Reese shape, but I freaking love Mesa Robin's X. If you could collaborate with anyone, who would it be? Mmm. To be perfectly honest, I don't have anyone specific in mind. But there are certain things I would really love to do. Like, I would love to be able to design concert merch um for some artists. Like, I'm sorry, like please stop putting your face on your t shirts. That is so old. I mean, having that like one shirt with your face and like the concert dates, that's fine, but like have some like unique march. I would love to design concert merch. I just think that would be so cool. And also like theater merch would be fun, like you know, for like Broadway shows and stuff. I think that would be fun. Basically I want to design merch. Um so yeah, if you're if you're a artist or something and you you need a t-shirt, hit me up. I think that would be really cool. Oh, what would you do with immortality if you became a vampire? Somebody has been listening to my last episode. Or one of my more recent episodes. Uh first thing I would do is learn about investing. Because you're gonna need money for all them lifetimes. Um, but also like read all the books, watch all the media that I want to watch, um, probably learn to play guitar. I would probably learn to play guitar because I would have time to devote and not feel like I should be doing something else. Improve my drawing skills, like really dig in and try to get better. But mostly read all the books and watch all the shows and movies I want to watch. I mean, you're up all night anyway. What else are you gonna do? We're down to our last two questions. What are your favorite guilty pleasures from books, TV shows, or even social media? Interesting. So here's the thing. I don't really believe in guilty pleasures. I I just enjoy what I enjoy. You know, like I know a lot of people would be like, oh, I my guilty pleasure is the Backstreet Boys. I fucking love the Backstreet Boys, okay? I have loved the Backstreet Boys since I was like 15. No, that is not a guilty pleasure. So yeah, I don't really ascribe to this idea of guilty pleasures. I just enjoy what I enjoy. I think the thing that would come closest would be um the MTV show Catfish. I loved that show. Like, I could not believe how many people over the years they did that show. Like, I'm so I'm so bummed they aren't making it anymore. Like, Neve became a real estate agent. I'm like, what the fuck? Um, so yeah, that that would be the closest thing I think would be considered my guilty pleasure. But again, I don't really ascribe to the idea of guilty pleasures. You know, you can make fun of me if you want. I don't I don't really care. And our last question is what are your daydream tattoos? You know, I'm really content right now with the tattoos I have. Um That's not to say I don't want more, because I do. You know, when I got my tattoos for both of them, it felt more like a need than a want. Like I need to have this message or whatever. And like right now, I don't have anything that is that strongly pulling at me. Um there are things I want. Like I I really want to get a Doctor Who themed tattoo. I know, big surprise. I would really like to get I would really like tattoos to represent all the things I love. So, Doctor Who, reading, art, um I think I'm gonna get my fairy nerdy logo as a tattoo at some point. I just I I just really love my logo. Like I mean, I designed it myself. I just think it's really it's very accurate to me. Um If you're not familiar, it's just a pair of fairy wings with some glasses on top. Um so yeah, I think so. Right now I don't have any specific tattoos and I'm just like I have to have this. But I definitely have ideas. So stay tuned for that too. And that's all the questions. Um I hope you had fun. I hope you learned something about me. If you would like me to do this kind of episode again in the future, obviously send me questions. You know, whatever you want to know. It like I said, it doesn't have to be disability related, it can be anything. Thanks for listening, and I'll talk to you in the next one.