{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":0.66,"endTime":1.74,"body":"[Music]"},{"startTime":35.78,"endTime":36.78,"body":"[Music]"},{"startTime":36.78,"endTime":41.58,"body":"Thank you for joining us for this part two "},{"startTime":36.78,"endTime":41.58,"body":"discussion with Dr. Cynda Rushton talking  "},{"startTime":41.58,"endTime":47.22,"body":"about wellness and well-being in nurses and "},{"startTime":41.58,"endTime":47.22,"body":"nurse educators. Thank you for joining us again."},{"startTime":49.14,"endTime":56.22,"body":"So this area this topic of a psychologically "},{"startTime":49.14,"endTime":56.22,"body":"safe environment I know I'll speak for you  "},{"startTime":56.22,"endTime":62.34,"body":"Rachel that because I know you so well that "},{"startTime":56.22,"endTime":62.34,"body":"it resonates deeply with us and we've  "},{"startTime":62.34,"endTime":67.56,"body":"always talked about how it's not a one "},{"startTime":62.34,"endTime":67.56,"body":"and done kind of situation. It has to be  "},{"startTime":68.64,"endTime":72.84,"body":"kind of almost have to create it for "},{"startTime":68.64,"endTime":72.84,"body":"yourself internally first right. What do I  "},{"startTime":72.84,"endTime":80.4,"body":"believe, what what is my philosophy of teaching, of "},{"startTime":72.84,"endTime":80.4,"body":"professional practice. Cynda you did a beautiful  "},{"startTime":80.4,"endTime":88.32,"body":"job in the R3 program of talking about identifying "},{"startTime":80.4,"endTime":88.32,"body":"our core values. What are the one or two or three  "},{"startTime":88.32,"endTime":95.7,"body":"things that really create your structure in "},{"startTime":88.32,"endTime":95.7,"body":"which you operate morally, ethically, emotionally  "},{"startTime":96.78,"endTime":103.74,"body":"and you can lead with that. So this idea "},{"startTime":96.78,"endTime":103.74,"body":"of exploring our ourselves as teachers  "},{"startTime":104.52,"endTime":112.26,"body":"or mentors are psychologically safe"},{"startTime":104.52,"endTime":112.26,"body":"kind of landscape and then creating it  "},{"startTime":112.26,"endTime":118.68,"body":"and then checking in and maintaining it "},{"startTime":112.26,"endTime":118.68,"body":"and evaluating it. Is this still feeling  "},{"startTime":118.68,"endTime":125.4,"body":"like a container that we're learning "},{"startTime":118.68,"endTime":125.4,"body":"and risk can happen and vulnerability  "},{"startTime":126.66,"endTime":129.96,"body":"and then re-establishing it."},{"startTime":126.66,"endTime":129.96,"body":"Sometimes it starts falling, the  "},{"startTime":129.96,"endTime":137.28,"body":"wheels start falling off and you're like, uh oh, you "},{"startTime":129.96,"endTime":137.28,"body":"know particularly after an exam, perhaps the wheels  "},{"startTime":137.28,"endTime":143.88,"body":"start falling off and our learners "},{"startTime":137.28,"endTime":143.88,"body":"get upset, they activate emotionally because of all  "},{"startTime":143.88,"endTime":151.14,"body":"kinds of really important emotions -disappointment, "},{"startTime":143.88,"endTime":151.14,"body":"fear, anxiety, do I belong here, so all of  "},{"startTime":151.14,"endTime":157.26,"body":"this comes up in the classroom and if we don't "},{"startTime":151.14,"endTime":157.26,"body":"know what to do with that or how to respond or  "},{"startTime":158.52,"endTime":163.32,"body":"and then we don't know sometimes unconsciously "},{"startTime":158.52,"endTime":163.32,"body":"again we're absorbing all of this and we may not  "},{"startTime":163.32,"endTime":170.64,"body":"know how to respond in that moment and we may shut "},{"startTime":163.32,"endTime":170.64,"body":"down and a lack of just not knowing what to do so  "},{"startTime":170.64,"endTime":175.02,"body":"I think about that I mean I think that experience "},{"startTime":170.64,"endTime":175.02,"body":"happened in the classroom that I just described  "},{"startTime":175.02,"endTime":181.5,"body":"but it happened in the the nursing unit,"},{"startTime":175.02,"endTime":181.5,"body":"the nurses unit and the hospital. It happens in  "},{"startTime":181.5,"endTime":189.3,"body":"community practice. It happens everywhere and I "},{"startTime":181.5,"endTime":189.3,"body":"feel like I just commend you for creating these  "},{"startTime":189.3,"endTime":195.06,"body":"modules and awareness and skills and knowledge "},{"startTime":189.3,"endTime":195.06,"body":"and content where people can just  "},{"startTime":195.72,"endTime":203.58,"body":"learn how to do this and have more awareness "},{"startTime":195.72,"endTime":203.58,"body":"about it. You know, it's not like we got a playbook  "},{"startTime":204.48,"endTime":209.1,"body":"you know, and you know I "},{"startTime":204.48,"endTime":209.1,"body":"think back on my own career.  "},{"startTime":212.4,"endTime":220.56,"body":"Part of the reason I got involved in these "},{"startTime":212.4,"endTime":220.56,"body":"ethical issues is as a pediatric ICU nurse  "},{"startTime":221.34,"endTime":227.16,"body":"I was involved in hard decisions at "},{"startTime":221.34,"endTime":227.16,"body":"a time when technology was advancing,  "},{"startTime":229.02,"endTime":237.12,"body":"hopefully to benefit children and youth, but "},{"startTime":229.02,"endTime":237.12,"body":"there was also a downside of that and we didn't  "},{"startTime":237.12,"endTime":244.62,"body":"know what those limits were but the distress "},{"startTime":237.12,"endTime":244.62,"body":"that I experienced I didn't have a name for. "},{"startTime":245.34,"endTime":252.78,"body":"I didn't know what to even call it. So I think we're in a similar situation now where  "},{"startTime":252.78,"endTime":259.2,"body":"everybody's sort of attached themselves "},{"startTime":252.78,"endTime":259.2,"body":"to the burnout narrative but I don't think it's  "},{"startTime":259.2,"endTime":267.18,"body":"actually precise enough for us to locate what the "},{"startTime":259.2,"endTime":267.18,"body":"source of this distress actually is because if we  "},{"startTime":267.18,"endTime":274.5,"body":"can't make an accurate diagnosis we cannot decide "},{"startTime":267.18,"endTime":274.5,"body":"what the solution is. We can't figure that out  "},{"startTime":275.46,"endTime":287.76,"body":"so I think it's creating spaces where we can "},{"startTime":275.46,"endTime":287.76,"body":"unpack what's really at stake  "},{"startTime":287.76,"endTime":298.38,"body":"here, what's going on and we have a pretty "},{"startTime":287.76,"endTime":298.38,"body":"impoverished vocabulary about how we're feeling."},{"startTime":300.84,"endTime":309.48,"body":"We say, you know, Michelle I'm "},{"startTime":300.84,"endTime":309.48,"body":"fine. Well I'm not fine. Actually I'm feeling  "},{"startTime":309.48,"endTime":319.8,"body":"sad or I'm feeling afraid or I'm feeling, I am "},{"startTime":309.48,"endTime":319.8,"body":"feeling anxious so some of it is also expanding  "},{"startTime":319.8,"endTime":328.68,"body":"the vocabulary so that when we are asked how are you instead of creating a mask  "},{"startTime":329.7,"endTime":340.08,"body":"that is really not an honest response, I'm not "},{"startTime":329.7,"endTime":340.08,"body":"actually okay and being able to have a norm and a  "},{"startTime":340.08,"endTime":346.14,"body":"culture where we can be honest with each other. You know what, I'm kind of struggling today. I'm having  "},{"startTime":346.14,"endTime":352.8,"body":"a hard time focusing. I'm distracted because of "},{"startTime":346.14,"endTime":352.8,"body":"something that happened at home before I came here  "},{"startTime":353.46,"endTime":362.46,"body":"that would be a different kind of environment "},{"startTime":353.46,"endTime":362.46,"body":"than everybody just soldiering on.  "},{"startTime":363.36,"endTime":369.84,"body":"I'm hoping that maybe this pandemic will "},{"startTime":363.36,"endTime":369.84,"body":"open up that possibility for us that we can  "},{"startTime":370.62,"endTime":375.9,"body":"turn toward our limitations with a little "},{"startTime":370.62,"endTime":375.9,"body":"more compassion in the way that we are  "},{"startTime":375.9,"endTime":387.18,"body":"compassionate to the people we're trying to "},{"startTime":375.9,"endTime":387.18,"body":"serve. We also need that toward ourselves and"},{"startTime":387.84,"endTime":393.96,"body":"I think this idea of changing the how are you "},{"startTime":387.84,"endTime":393.96,"body":"from a rhetorical question to a genuine curious  "},{"startTime":393.96,"endTime":399.18,"body":"question and holding space for that response "},{"startTime":393.96,"endTime":399.18,"body":"is so important. When I think about that  "},{"startTime":399.18,"endTime":405.54,"body":"it takes me back to this quote that at first may "},{"startTime":399.18,"endTime":405.54,"body":"not seem applicable here but I read it on social  "},{"startTime":405.54,"endTime":410.58,"body":"media the other day. It talks about as a parent the "},{"startTime":405.54,"endTime":410.58,"body":"more I become skilled at being a parent I realize  "},{"startTime":410.58,"endTime":415.68,"body":"it's not about managing my child's emotions and "},{"startTime":410.58,"endTime":415.68,"body":"behaviors it's about managing my parent emotions  "},{"startTime":415.68,"endTime":420.36,"body":"and parent behaviors and I think there's a nod "},{"startTime":415.68,"endTime":420.36,"body":"from that that can apply here in that if we're  "},{"startTime":420.36,"endTime":426.06,"body":"going to hold this space if we're going to model "},{"startTime":420.36,"endTime":426.06,"body":"this for our students it really becomes first and  "},{"startTime":426.06,"endTime":431.76,"body":"foremost a priority of learning the language and "},{"startTime":426.06,"endTime":431.76,"body":"the noticing skills and the management skills for  "},{"startTime":431.76,"endTime":439.38,"body":"ourselves before we can start really genuinely "},{"startTime":431.76,"endTime":439.38,"body":"holding space for others. We often say,  "},{"startTime":439.38,"endTime":447.9,"body":"\"you can't give what you don't have yourself,\" and "},{"startTime":439.38,"endTime":447.9,"body":"what I see happening a lot with I mean all of  "},{"startTime":447.9,"endTime":456.78,"body":"us nurses but also faculty members is we're "},{"startTime":447.9,"endTime":456.78,"body":"so quick to focus on our students to focus on  "},{"speaker":"the patients as if we ourselves don't matter. Our code of ethics is really clear","startTime":467.52,"endTime":472.98,"body":"nurses have the same duties to self as to "},{"speaker":"the patients as if we ourselves don't matter. Our code of ethics is really clear","startTime":467.52,"endTime":472.98,"body":"others including preserving their well-being  "},{"speaker":"the patients as if we ourselves don't matter. Our code of ethics is really clear","startTime":472.98,"endTime":481.5,"body":"and integrity. 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That is an internal "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":496.68,"endTime":505.5,"body":"personal journey of trying to figure out what that  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":505.5,"endTime":515.28,"body":"looks like. Part of it is I think reframing "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":505.5,"endTime":515.28,"body":"asking for help as an act of weakness and seeing  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":515.28,"endTime":522.36,"body":"it actually is an act of integrity, of being able "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":515.28,"endTime":522.36,"body":"to know myself well enough that I know what I  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":522.36,"endTime":531.9,"body":"need and I know where to find the resources that "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":522.36,"endTime":531.9,"body":"will support me. That is a shift I think  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":531.9,"endTime":542.58,"body":"that could help us engage in integrity preserving "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":531.9,"endTime":542.58,"body":"choices rather than reinforcing a victim narrative  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":542.58,"endTime":548.58,"body":"and one of being disempowered that I have "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":542.58,"endTime":548.58,"body":"no choice. I think we always have choices.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":549.48,"endTime":554.94,"body":"I also think I love what you're saying. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":549.48,"endTime":554.94,"body":"There's this side of asking for help, identifying  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":554.94,"endTime":562.86,"body":"that hope is needed and then having the courage to "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":554.94,"endTime":562.86,"body":"ask for help and then the other side that would be  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":562.86,"endTime":569.64,"body":"really wonderful is if that ask for help could "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":562.86,"endTime":569.64,"body":"be met with what happened to you. I read that  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":569.64,"endTime":576.72,"body":"book by Oprah Winfrey and Dr. Bruce Perry that is "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":569.64,"endTime":576.72,"body":"trying to change the narrative from what is wrong  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":576.72,"endTime":582.9,"body":"with you to what happened to you so if somebody "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":576.72,"endTime":582.9,"body":"has the courage to ask for help that they could  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":582.9,"endTime":588.66,"body":"be met with - share with me what's "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":582.9,"endTime":588.66,"body":"happening for you or what happened to you and  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":588.66,"endTime":593.52,"body":"then it could be this opportunity for the person "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":588.66,"endTime":593.52,"body":"that could be a signal to check in well what did  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":593.52,"endTime":598.44,"body":"happen? Why am I feeling this way? What is bubbling under the surface that I can't quite  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":600.9,"endTime":607.8,"body":"identify and to make a little "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":600.9,"endTime":607.8,"body":"connection to nerdy brain science with  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":607.8,"endTime":613.8,"body":"situational awareness. We as humans are really bad "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":607.8,"endTime":613.8,"body":"at keeping ourselves situationally aware. We need  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":613.8,"endTime":619.56,"body":"another person to tap us on the shoulder and "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":613.8,"endTime":619.56,"body":"say, do you see what's going on? We can't do  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":619.56,"endTime":624.78,"body":"that ourselves. Sometimes we need help. So even "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":619.56,"endTime":624.78,"body":"when we're asking for help the other person  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":624.78,"endTime":630.6,"body":"might need you know that dialogue "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":624.78,"endTime":630.6,"body":"and that connection can really advance the  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":631.2,"endTime":640.08,"body":"the whole situation. The whole thing we need, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":631.2,"endTime":640.08,"body":"we need investments on both sides of the equation.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":640.08,"endTime":649.14,"body":"As faculty members we can be "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":640.08,"endTime":649.14,"body":"part of that in creating the environment but  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":649.14,"endTime":655.74,"body":"we've got to do our own human homework before we "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":649.14,"endTime":655.74,"body":"engage in that. It's not like a transactional..."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":655.74,"endTime":660.84,"body":"let me read the script that's only going "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":655.74,"endTime":660.84,"body":"to get you started, that's not going to actually  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":660.84,"endTime":668.82,"body":"solve the problem. And at the same time then "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":660.84,"endTime":668.82,"body":"how do we create learning opportunities with  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":668.82,"endTime":677.16,"body":"students when things happen? Another module "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":668.82,"endTime":677.16,"body":"we created was around when hard things happen.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":678.06,"endTime":684.6,"body":"Your first code, your first patient "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":678.06,"endTime":684.6,"body":"death, your first mistake the first time somebody,  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":684.6,"endTime":695.76,"body":"some person is yelling at you whether it's a "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":684.6,"endTime":695.76,"body":"patient or somebody else. How do you process that  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":696.84,"endTime":705.6,"body":"personally and in collective relationship "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":696.84,"endTime":705.6,"body":"with your colleagues? It's  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":705.6,"endTime":715.26,"body":"gonna happen so how do we anticipate that?"},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":705.6,"endTime":715.26,"body":"Instead of being surprised by oh this is a reality  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":716.04,"endTime":725.94,"body":"and giving people a chance to to explore that in a "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":716.04,"endTime":725.94,"body":"lower risk kind of circumstance.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":725.94,"endTime":732.42,"body":"Simulation is a great place where that can happen. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":725.94,"endTime":732.42,"body":"You know, it's not only doing the code it's  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":732.42,"endTime":741.66,"body":"having a part of your simulation which is about "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":732.42,"endTime":741.66,"body":"okay how do we honor the life that just ended? How  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":741.66,"endTime":749.28,"body":"do we incorporate a ritual at the end of that "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":741.66,"endTime":749.28,"body":"process that acknowledges our humanity and our  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":750.12,"endTime":757.92,"body":"own experience and then how do we move from "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":750.12,"endTime":757.92,"body":"that into a debriefing of how we process  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":758.58,"endTime":765.36,"body":"the emotional dimension of that? "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":758.58,"endTime":765.36,"body":"Those are are not soft skills.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":765.36,"endTime":772.2,"body":"Those are actually fundamental skills "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":765.36,"endTime":772.2,"body":"that are necessary to sustain us in  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":772.2,"endTime":777.78,"body":"our profession, especially if you're working in an "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":772.2,"endTime":777.78,"body":"environment where those things come up frequently."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":779.22,"endTime":784.74,"body":"So Cynda, someone comes up to you and says, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":779.22,"endTime":784.74,"body":"everything you're saying is resonating  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":784.74,"endTime":788.52,"body":"with me. I want to think more about this, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":784.74,"endTime":788.52,"body":"think deeper about this. Where would you  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":788.52,"endTime":795.36,"body":"direct them to go? Where should they start if "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":788.52,"endTime":795.36,"body":"they really just want to dive into thinking  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":795.36,"endTime":799.62,"body":"in the space and building some of the skills "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":795.36,"endTime":799.62,"body":"necessary to tackle these difficult questions?  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":801.42,"endTime":808.38,"body":"Well, I think there are just many doorways. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":801.42,"endTime":808.38,"body":"There's not just one and I think people have  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":808.38,"endTime":815.4,"body":"to start where you are and one place "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":808.38,"endTime":815.4,"body":"you can start is just taking stock yourself  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":816.36,"endTime":821.58,"body":"of how am I doing right now. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":816.36,"endTime":821.58,"body":"What's working, what's not working,  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":823.38,"endTime":835.32,"body":"and really exploring what's missing. What's "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":823.38,"endTime":835.32,"body":"missing from  my life and my work? Where am I  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":835.32,"endTime":841.8,"body":"getting energy and where is it being depleted "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":835.32,"endTime":841.8,"body":"and how can I get more of those energy producing  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":841.8,"endTime":852.9,"body":"things in my life? So there's, I think, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":841.8,"endTime":852.9,"body":"a discernment part, you know, to start with and"},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":854.28,"endTime":864.06,"body":"it's also exploring our assumptions about "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":854.28,"endTime":864.06,"body":"ourselves. We've had this talk about words,  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":865.2,"endTime":871.14,"body":"self-care you know became this thing. 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In our work we shifted to self-stewardship  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":879.48,"endTime":887.34,"body":"because self-stewardship is about knowing yourself "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":879.48,"endTime":887.34,"body":"well enough to know what nourishes you and what  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":887.34,"endTime":894.3,"body":"depletes you and to know that you are deserving "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":887.34,"endTime":894.3,"body":"of that investment because you are a human being.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":895.5,"endTime":904.5,"body":"Also involves turning toward "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":895.5,"endTime":904.5,"body":"our challenges and our edges with compassion  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":904.5,"endTime":911.94,"body":"rather than judgment and then being willing to "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":904.5,"endTime":911.94,"body":"take the steps to choose how you're going to  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":911.94,"endTime":918.72,"body":"allocate your scarce resources of your "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":911.94,"endTime":918.72,"body":"life your energy, your knowledge, skills  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":918.72,"endTime":925.74,"body":"in a way that really reflects who you are "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":918.72,"endTime":925.74,"body":"and why you're here and so that is a lifelong  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":925.74,"endTime":931.26,"body":"process. I think it's not a one and done. It's "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":925.74,"endTime":931.26,"body":"not like you can go and get the checklist. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":932.04,"endTime":942.66,"body":"It really doesn't invite us to to create space "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":932.04,"endTime":942.66,"body":"for that kind of exploration to be curious  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":943.44,"endTime":951.78,"body":"to remember, you know, I'm a knitter. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":943.44,"endTime":951.78,"body":"I started knitting in the second grade.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":953.58,"endTime":961.38,"body":"I stopped knitting for a period of time and one "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":953.58,"endTime":961.38,"body":"of the things that I realized as I was doing my  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":961.38,"endTime":967.68,"body":"own self-assessment when I pushed and pushed and "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":961.38,"endTime":967.68,"body":"pushed to the point where I was kind of burned out  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":969.48,"endTime":976.8,"body":"and I started thinking about what were the "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":969.48,"endTime":976.8,"body":"things I really loved to do so I went to  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":976.8,"endTime":984.18,"body":"the yarn store and I touched all the yarn and I "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":976.8,"endTime":984.18,"body":"found some really beautiful yarn and a pattern  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":984.18,"endTime":993.72,"body":"and I decided I was going to knit again I haven't "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":984.18,"endTime":993.72,"body":"stopped since but it's that kind of remembering  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":994.74,"endTime":1002.9,"body":"what is it that brings me joy. What is it that "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":994.74,"endTime":1002.9,"body":"nourishes me in my ability to show up every day?  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1002.9,"endTime":1012.5,"body":"What can I start doing to end the day to lighten "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1002.9,"endTime":1012.5,"body":"my load to let go of what's not mine to carry and  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1012.5,"endTime":1020.96,"body":"how I can let go of those self-limiting beliefs so "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1012.5,"endTime":1020.96,"body":"that I can arrive at home with my family without  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1020.96,"endTime":1026.66,"body":"all the stuff in my backpack that's dragging me "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1020.96,"endTime":1026.66,"body":"down. So those are some of the things.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1026.66,"endTime":1035.12,"body":"It's like start where you are and be curious. Take "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1026.66,"endTime":1035.12,"body":"some risks. If it doesn't work, do something else."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1037.28,"endTime":1045.26,"body":"Well I realize, I hope our listeners realize "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1037.28,"endTime":1045.26,"body":"that you all have human homework to do. I love  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1045.26,"endTime":1050.9,"body":"that saying. I'm going to use that if you don't "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1045.26,"endTime":1050.9,"body":"mind, Cynda, with your permission. We all have  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1050.9,"endTime":1056.66,"body":"human homework to do so starting with ourselves "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1050.9,"endTime":1056.66,"body":"and kind of taking inventory can be a wonderful  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1056.66,"endTime":1063.14,"body":"place to start. Thank you and kind of finding "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1056.66,"endTime":1063.14,"body":"what what energizes you, what builds your cup  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1064.28,"endTime":1070.1,"body":"and that then that"},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1064.28,"endTime":1070.1,"body":"gets shared. That resonates and  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1070.1,"endTime":1074.54,"body":"that kind of positive energy is shared with others, so thank you  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1075.26,"endTime":1084.2,"body":"Cynda. I'd like to, if it's okay with you, Rachel, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1075.26,"endTime":1084.2,"body":"I'm gonna see if we can ask Cynda some questions,  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1084.2,"endTime":1090.14,"body":"rapid fire questions. Sounds good. All right "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1084.2,"endTime":1090.14,"body":"just to get to know you a little bit more Cynda.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1090.8,"endTime":1094.16,"body":"If you were to write a memoir "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1090.8,"endTime":1094.16,"body":"what would you title the book?"},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1096.32,"endTime":1104.06,"body":"The Long and Winding Road. I was thinking human "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1096.32,"endTime":1104.06,"body":"homework again. I was like maybe everyone needs  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1104.06,"endTime":1107.48,"body":"to have their human homework and "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1104.06,"endTime":1107.48,"body":"you can have a book called, oh gosh.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1107.48,"endTime":1114.5,"body":"Yeah it's been quite a long and winding "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1107.48,"endTime":1114.5,"body":"road actually life is full of surprises.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1116.12,"endTime":1123.38,"body":"I guess that's what I'd say. Wonderful. What is "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1116.12,"endTime":1123.38,"body":"on the top of your reading list right now for fun?  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1124.94,"endTime":1131.42,"body":"The fun reading list is very limited "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1124.94,"endTime":1131.42,"body":"right now because I am working on  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1131.42,"endTime":1136.64,"body":"a second edition of our book so I'm not "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1131.42,"endTime":1136.64,"body":"reading a lot of fun things at the moment.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1138.8,"endTime":1150.56,"body":"but...the things that I'm really drawn to is one book is  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1151.22,"endTime":1161.48,"body":"by Christiana Figueres who was one of the Paris "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1151.22,"endTime":1161.48,"body":"Climate Accord architects about how to be a  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1161.48,"endTime":1168.62,"body":"persistent optimist in the midst of all of this "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1161.48,"endTime":1168.62,"body":"climate catastrophe and how do we  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1168.62,"endTime":1172.76,"body":"meet that moment which is not so different "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1168.62,"endTime":1172.76,"body":"from what we're trying to do in health care."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1175.76,"endTime":1181.34,"body":"And what is your favorite quote? I have so many."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1184.82,"endTime":1191.48,"body":"His Holiness the Dalai Lama says when you "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1184.82,"endTime":1191.48,"body":"meet real tragedy in life you can beat  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1191.48,"endTime":1199.76,"body":"it in one of two ways. Either losing hope "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1191.48,"endTime":1199.76,"body":"and falling into self-destructive habits  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1199.76,"endTime":1203.66,"body":"or using the experience to "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1199.76,"endTime":1203.66,"body":"find your inner strength."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1206.3,"endTime":1208.76,"body":"That is beautiful. That is beautiful."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1211.04,"endTime":1216.56,"body":"And lastly, if you could have dinner "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1211.04,"endTime":1216.56,"body":"with one person dead or alive who  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1216.56,"endTime":1222.44,"body":"would it be? Oh gosh. There's a "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1216.56,"endTime":1222.44,"body":"lot of people. Nelson Mandela."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1225.44,"endTime":1232.1,"body":"I would love to chat with him. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1225.44,"endTime":1232.1,"body":"Absolutely - an inspiration indeed.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1234.56,"endTime":1239.9,"body":"Cynda, thank you so much for giving "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1234.56,"endTime":1239.9,"body":"of yourself and your insight and your  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1239.9,"endTime":1244.16,"body":"wisdom and talking with us. I've learned "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1239.9,"endTime":1244.16,"body":"a lot. I certainly needed to hear a lot  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1244.16,"endTime":1247.82,"body":"of it so I'm sure others did as well. "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1244.16,"endTime":1247.82,"body":"So thank you so much for joining us.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1248.6,"endTime":1256.16,"body":"My pleasure. Thank you for inviting me and thank "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1248.6,"endTime":1256.16,"body":"you for creating the space for this conversation."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1259.4,"endTime":1264.5,"body":"Thank you for joining us on this episode "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1259.4,"endTime":1264.5,"body":"of NLN Nursing EDge Unscripted Surface.  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1264.5,"endTime":1269.66,"body":"We hope you join us next time. Until then, "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1264.5,"endTime":1269.66,"body":"remember, whether your water is calm or choppy,  "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1269.66,"endTime":1273.98,"body":"stay connected, get vulnerable and "},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1269.66,"endTime":1273.98,"body":"dare to go beneath the surface."},{"speaker":"scarce resources","startTime":1273.98,"endTime":1274.485,"body":"[Music]"}]}