rekallabrate: the podcast
Welcome to rekallabrate: the podcast. I’m Kalla, and this is a space where we explore how shifting the way you think can shift the way you live.
Through unfiltered solo episodes and raw conversations with guests, I share stories about grief, love, blended family life, government corruption, natural living, and everything in between. The mission is simple: to be real on the internet and spark dialogue through authentic storytelling.
This podcast is recorded in one take with minimal (if any) editing—because life is messy, and that’s what makes it beautiful.
A quick note: this show was previously called Lightin’ Up. Episodes 1–25 still carry that name, and I’m proud of them. Those conversations—on everything from birth to the music industry to farming—are still some of my favorites, so I’ve kept them here. But starting with episode 26, the podcast is officially rekallabrate: the podcast.
Find me on Instagram and Facebook: @rekallabrate
Watch on YouTube: @rekallabrate
Buy my shit: rekallabrate.com
Let’s dive in and rekallabrate together.
rekallabrate: the podcast
36 | I Am a Mother: Pregnancy Loss & Grief with Hayden Curry
Use Left/Right to seek, Home/End to jump to start or end. Hold shift to jump forward or backward.
In this episode of Rekallabrate: The Podcast, I sit down with Hayden for a deeply vulnerable conversation about grief, pregnancy loss, motherhood, & what it means to continue living after your world has been cracked open.
Hayden shares her experience with pregnancy loss and the complicated, layered grief that followed—not only the loss of her baby, but the way that loss reshaped how she sees herself, her body, motherhood, & future pregnancies.
We also talk about the loss of Hayden’s father & how that grief cracked something open in her life in a completely different way. Grief has a way of doing that—breaking us open, rearranging things, forcing us to look at life, death, & love in ways we never expected.
Throughout this conversation we talk about something that doesn’t get said enough: grief needs to be witnessed. Not rushed. Not fixed. Not explained away. Witnessed.
We talk about the anger that can come with loss, the fear that can follow pregnancy loss into future pregnancies, & the isolation so many women feel when they experience something that is actually far more common than we talk about.
We also talk about claiming the identity of M O T H E R after pregnancy loss. & how grief can evolve into something that eventually becomes part of your story, your purpose, & the way you show up for others.
This conversation is raw, emotional, & deeply human.
Hayden shares parts of her story with incredible honesty, & that kind of vulnerability deserves to be held with care. I ask that you come to this episode with reverence and deep respect for Hayden’s willingness to be seen in her grief. My prayer is that all of us can be moved by it & perhaps learn to move through this world with a little more compassion & understanding for one another.
If you have experienced loss yourself—or if you love someone who has—I hope this conversation reminds you that you are not alone.
Grief is something every human will encounter in this life.
& sometimes the most powerful thing we can do is simply witness it.
🔻 CONNECT WITH US 🔻
HAYDEN CURRY / THE COPPER SPIRAL:
Instagram @haydenn_curryy: https://www.instagram.com/haydenn_curryy
Instagram @thecopperspiral: https://www.instagram.com/thecopperspiral
Website: https://www.thecopperspiralcreative.com/
KALLA:
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/rekallabrate
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/rekallabrate
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/rekallabrate
Website: https://www.rekallabrate.com
Thank you for listening, subscribing, and leaving a 5 star review on this episode! Your comments & feedback are always welcome & appreciated, too! I love y'all!