I Stopped Jogging In Place And Started Moving With Intention

Two years away will either pull you apart or put you back together, and I’m choosing the rebuild. I’m back on “This Is Me With Marilyn” because I hit a point where I couldn’t stand the feeling of jogging in place. I was busy, I was showing up, but I wasn’t building with intention and I was draining myself trying to be everything for everyone. That stops here.

I get real about what changed and why it took time: fear, imposter syndrome, and avoiding the work that requires discipline. I talk through the hard questions I had to ask myself, like whether I’m moving like the woman I want to become, and what kind of example I’m setting as a mother. Because our kids don’t copy our speeches, they copy our patterns. If you’re working on intentional living, self-trust, and protecting your peace, you’ll feel seen.

Then I share what I’m doing differently right now: buying back my time, valuing my energy, raising my standards, and setting boundaries without apology. I’m done being available for what doesn’t align, and I’m done explaining myself. This reboot is bigger than motivation. I’m documenting what it really takes to build discipline, grow income, and protect peace while still being present for the life in front of you, including health, fitness, and the messy middle that social media never shows.

If you’re ready to grow with me, hit play, subscribe, share the show, and leave a review so more people can find this kind of honest reset. What boundary are you setting next?

Transcript

Welcome Back After Two Years

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Hello everyone and welcome back to This Is Me with Marilyn. Alright, y'all. I have not touched this podcast in two years, and honestly, the version of me back then couldn't have taken this where I'm about to take it now. So a lot has changed. Woo! Girl, so much has changed. And I'm not even gonna sit here and give you a long drawn-out explanation, but I will say this.

Busy Without Building

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I really had to get real with myself because for a long time I was busy, but I wasn't building. Like I just felt like I was jogging into place, and I cannot stand that feeling. I don't know about you. I was showing up, but not with intention. I was pouring into everyone and everything else and leaving myself with whatever was left. It just wasn't working anymore. I was draining myself, and that situation right there does not work for long term. So I had to take a step back, not to quit, but just to, you know, realign myself. I had to figure it out what was actually moving, what was moving forward, what actually brings me peace, what actually makes me money, honey, because you know, we need to make the money.

Motherhood And Leading By Action

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And as you all know, it's the other part, it's the motherhood part. So it's just not about me, you know, it's about the kids watching, it's about what am I modeling to them every single day? What example? What's the tone? And I'm always saying, you can tell me everything under the sun, but what is going to speak the loudest is going to be your actions. So I can tell them this and that and the third, but they don't care because the only thing that they're gonna do is watch what I'm saying. So I had to ask myself, am I moving like the woman that I want to become? Am I aligning with myself? Am I living in my future self and that I am every

Fear, Imposter Syndrome, Discipline

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woman? But the truth of the matter is that honestly, I wasn't doing things that didn't require discipline. I was avoiding them, I was making up excuses, I was procrastinating, and a lot of it came from imposter syndrome. You know, I was second-guessing myself instead of trusting my decisions, instead of trusting my worth, everything I've built, everything. Listen, y'all already know. Go back to a few of my podcasts. And if I was able to take a leap of faith on some of the most uncertain moments of my life, why was I not trusting myself? And if you're looking for an answer, I would have to say fear. And honestly, that version of me, she could not build everything that I'm building right now. And I'm letting you know right now that this was not an overnight thing. This took work, crying, purging, shedding, loneliness. I mean, it took so much work, uh, but do know that it was done with intention. Everything I did was with intention, even till this day. Intention, moving intentionally is such a huge staple in my life right now because with anything and everything that you do in your life, it should be set with an intention.

Intention, Time, Standards, Boundaries

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Well, how did you do that, Marilyn? First of all, I started buying back my time, I started valuing my time, I started treating my time differently, my energy differently, my st honey, the standards. Do you hear me? My boundaries. And I did not apologize for it. I stopped being available for things that did not align, that didn't bring me peace. Listen, my tagline is do not allow anyone to disturb your peace. And the number one thing I would have to say, I stopped explaining myself because the moment I felt like I had to explain myself and my decisions to anyone, oh no, I rebuked that. And I started trusting that if something is for me, I didn't force it. That just means that there was a line for me and it was meant for me. I am so happy I'm able to jump back on here and reconnect with everyone.

The New Mission For The Podcast

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So be prepared because this podcast is just not about motivation, it's not just feel-good conversations. This is me documenting what it actually takes to build discipline, income, and most importantly, your peace. As a mother, as a woman, as someone who's actively becoming who her life requires her to be because that's what we all want in life. This life is so beautiful and it's just so much to do. And we are on borrow time, y'all. We are on borrow time, so we don't got no time for chaos, negativity, toxicity. You know, right now in this season, I'm still building, but I'm more focused on growing my income, I'm more focused on being a present mother, I'm more focused on my content, I'm focused on being more disciplined and how I move every day. I'm more focused on being disciplined with my health and my fitness. And honestly, I'm not coming from a place of having it all having it all figured out because who does? I think that as you keep growing, I'm gonna be 42 this year, you guys. And I feel like as I keep growing and getting older, I keep unlocking a new version of myself. And I'm just enjoying each level. You all know I am an open book, so I just want to keep sharing the come up, the ups, the highs, the lows, I mean, the journey.

Social Media Versus Real Life

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Because listen, social media, do not let that fool you because not everyone is what they post to be. All right, let that sink in. So if you're on that journey with me, if you're working on becoming more disciplined, more intentional, more aligned, then you've landed on the right place. I'm not disappearing this time, you guys. I am here to stay. It's so good to tap in, come back, and reboot This Is Me with Marilyn podcast.

Recommitment And How To Support

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So make sure you guys are sharing, liking, and subscribing. As always, I will talk to you soon.