Fix My Heart: What Every Heart Longs For

Have you ever felt like no matter how much you accomplish, it still doesn’t quiet the ache inside? Like something’s missing—something that success, approval, or even time just can’t fix? Do you ever feel unseen, not enough, or weighed down by the past?

Hanaya has sensed something in Hiroto for a while—something unspoken. She knows it’s time to say what’s been on her heart. When she finally does, Hiroto opens up.

Could this be a God moment?

What about you? Are you trying to fix your heart on your own?

If you’re carrying pain, feeling the pressure, or wrestling with life’s deeper questions—maybe it’s time to encounter the love your heart has been longing for all along.

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Transcript

Hanaya 0:01

I think you have a high achiever personality. You're all about aiming for big things, aren't you?

Hiroto 0:06

Uh, yeah, and maybe that's why I feel so frustrated at times. I'm winning in some areas, but I'm struggling in others.

Hanaya 0:13

I feel like you're trying to fix something.

Hiroto 0:15

Trying to fix what?

Hanaya 0:17

I don't know. Uh, maybe you're trying to get yourself out of some kind of deficit in your life. If you don't mind me asking, how's your relationship with your father?

Hiroto 0:26

It's okay. He's at home but never present. He's an arm's length away but never in my life. I don't have a father to have the conversations with me that I need to hear.

Hanaya 0:37

Okay, what do you want to hear him say? And is this why you're pushing yourself to be the best at everything? You're trying to fix your heart?

Hiroto 0:46

I thought enough high fives and pats on the back would make me feel better about myself. I'm thinking, well, if I do enough, I'll become enough. I will feel as if I am enough. But what my heart is actually craving is to hear, "Son, I'm proud of you". My heart aches for that.

Hanaya 1:07

I have never met my father. He left when my mom was pregnant. For a long time it bothered me why in all these years he never came to see me even once. I felt unloved and abandoned. I was so confused. I felt like I was a mistake. I pretended to be okay when I wasn't. I was seeing life through a broken lens. It affected how I saw myself and how I interacted with the world. I felt like I wasn't good enough. I questioned my worth. Was it in my looks, what I achieved or just plain luck? I craved acceptance. I wanted to fit in. I sought validation from people, but the more I tried, the more broken I felt. We can spend our whole life trying to become enough, but it doesn't fix our heart. What we want is for someone to simply see us and say, "Hiroto, I see you. Hanaya, I see you. I see that you're hurting. Can I help you?". For me, it was Jesus who came in and helped me see God as the perfect Father I never had. I realized that no one on this earth can ever love me and value me like He does.

Hiroto 2:17

But uh , I can never measure up to God's standards.

Hanaya 2:21

Hiroto, you're not defined by the worst thing you've ever done or the greatest thing you'll ever accomplish. You don't get to define yourself because there's a God that exists outside of time, space, and matter. He was the catalyst for all those things to come into creation. He's the creator of everything. He's the creator of me and you. So, while the things that happen to you, the sins that you feel guilty about, maybe someone did something to you, maybe someone should have been there and they weren't. I don't wanna minimize all that. Because those feelings are real. But they don't determine who you are. God's affection towards you will never diminish because it never depended on your behavior and actions to start with. It's who He is and what He has done on the cross that provides us with everything we need. This is the place where you'll find healing, purpose and the love and validation you long for. You know what? I think you need to listen to God's heart for you. Here , put on the earphones, and as you listen, just believe the words you're about to hear. Feel them with your heart.

God 3:49

Before your parents ever had a chance to hold you, cuddle, shower their love and kisses on you, I loved you first. You are exactly the person I intended to create. You are my unique masterpiece. You're not replaceable. You're not a random number in the vast sea of the human population. I created you for joy. You are not a product of chance. I determined your time and place of birth. You have the exact skin, color, height, facial features and personality that I meant for you to have. You're beautiful to me. I knew you before you were born. You existed in my imagination. You came from me. You are my idea. You are my painting. I took you out of eternity and placed you in time. Before you began, I wrote your story in my book. I know the exact number of hairs on your head. I know when you sit and when you rise. I know all your thoughts. I have plans for you to give you a hope and a good future. My thoughts towards you outnumber the grains of sand at the seashore. I'm always thinking of you. I have tattooed you in the palm of my hands. I know everything about you. There's nothing you can hide. I see the fears, the joy and the regrets. I see your brokenness. I see the anger, the frustrations. I see the good and the bad. I will never push you away. A mother may forget her child, but I will never forget you. You were lost and I came looking for you. I so loved you that I sacrificed my only son, Jesus, to get you back. I'm not counting your sins. I put it all on Jesus at the cross. Believe what my son Jesus did and I will make you brand new. You may think you're so imperfect to deserve my love, but I'm love and I can't help but love. My love for you is the purest and most unconditional. People are fickle. Their opinions and loyalties change. They'll have conditions, biases, and preferences. But I accept you just as you are. I cherish and celebrate you. This is what you have been looking for all your life. Feel the rush of my perfect love.