My dad was one of the greatest people I've had in my life and continues to leave his imprint on me. I was devastated losing him and had to do a lot of growing while figuring what life without him looked like. I stayed stuck and in denial for a long time refusing to move forward when it came to starting to take the steps to get professional and even asking others for help like car trouble when I ran exhausted from feeling defeated on my own. Healing hasn't been easy and continues to require me to adapt, ask for help and tap into some of the most vulnerable parts of me. I'm sharing what I know so far in my grief journey with a huge focus on realities, fears what's been helpful for me when coping, friendships strengthening and others falling a part and what grief looks like for me today, 11 years later.