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The Truth About Addiction
Dr. Samantha Harte is a speaker, best selling author, coach and sober mom of two. She is here to tell the truth about her life, which requires telling the truth about her addiction: how it presents, how it manifests, and how it shows up again and again in her recovery. This podcast is one giant deep dive into the truth about ALL TYPES OF addiction (and living sober) to dispel the myths, expose the truths, and create a community experience of worthiness, understanding and compassion.
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The Truth About Addiction
What If Coincidences Are Actually Miracles in Disguise?
What if those moments we dismiss as "coincidences" are actually glimpses into something more profound? After spending most of my life as a determined atheist who believed spiritual people were simply not intelligent enough to rely on themselves, I've undergone a remarkable transformation.
Sixteen years into sobriety and eleven years into an unexpected spiritual journey, I've completely reimagined what "God" means to me. No longer the rigid cultural construct I was taught to reject, I've discovered what I call "the whisper of God"—that intelligent, intuitive knowing within that guides us toward clarity, peace, and compassion when we're willing to listen.
But recently, I've been drawn toward something even more intriguing: the realm of miracles. Those moments when you think of someone and they immediately call. When you feel compelled to reach out to a friend who, unbeknownst to you, is in crisis. Are these really just random coincidences, or could they be something more?
After reading a book called "Signs," I decided to conduct a personal experiment, asking my departed father and sister to send me specific signs—butterflies for my dad and hearts for my sister. What followed defies logical explanation: a monarch butterfly appearing outside my window during a coaching call, and later, a profound experience in Texas involving a hotel clerk named Jessica (my sister's name) who assigned me to the 13th floor (the date of my sister's passing was March 13th). When I shared this synchronicity with her, she broke down crying, confiding her struggle with alcoholism and believing our meeting was divinely arranged.
Whether you're a spiritual seeker or a confirmed skeptic, I invite you to join me on this experiment into the unknown. What might we discover if we remain open to possibilities beyond our understanding? Share your own experiences with signs or synchronicities—I'd love to hear your story as we navigate this mysterious terrain together.
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Welcome back everybody to the truth about addiction. Today I have a solo episode for you. I just got back from a really awesome business slash networking trip in San Antonio, and that doesn't really have to do with this episode except it kind of does, because you're going to hear not just where I'm at in my spiritual journey in terms of trying to enter what I call the realm of miracles you know, going from a diehard atheist who was taught that there's no such thing as God and the only person you can count on is yourself to now really looking for the signs that the universe is potentially sending me. And there's a really cool Texas story at the end of the podcast. It's not a long one, but it's really fun if you're on a spiritual journey and you're trying to understand this big idea of God and what it could mean to you to create a different sense of depth, meaning and purpose in your life. This is a really cool experimental episode, so just try to keep your mind open and understand that. If you are in full disgust when you hear the word God, I literally was you for many, many, many years of my life, and so think outside the culturally conditioned box, think outside of the framework of your upbringing, and any man-made framework, for that matter, of what we can call God in our society. Stay curious, enjoy this episode and leave a comment. Share it with a friend like. Subscribe. I love to hear from you guys. You can also book a free discovery call with the link in the show notes. I'll see you next time.
Speaker 1:Welcome back you guys to the truth about addiction. It is just me. Today I have this calling to do a solo episode. It's not going really new and interesting part of my spiritual journey, and I want to take you guys with me as I travel down this very foreign road. And here's what I mean by that. If you've followed my story at all, you know that my idea of God was that there was no such thing. My idea of God was that if you believed in it, you're an idiot. You literally were not intelligent enough to rely solely on self. Intelligent enough to rely solely on self, and you had to believe in some made up construct to make you feel safe in the world. Okay, and so, being 16 years sober, being on a spiritual journey for the last 11, really, I've now completely dismantled the childhood belief of God which was my mother's and created a version for myself and I would say definitely still in present day.
Speaker 1:The thing I consider the whisper of God is really the intelligent, intuitive knowing that is within me, that I often couldn't hear or that was often overridden by the critical part of me, the critical part of me. So in any given 24 hours, whether something big or small is happening small being a traffic jam where I get completely activated and want to fly into a fit of rage or irritability, or something big like I get hit with a wave of grief. Get hit with a wave of grief I know that I could act out from different parts of myself. I could fly into control mode and honk my horn and flip my finger, as if any of that would make the traffic jam go away. I could try to outrun my grief, push it away, focus on food or body, a number of things, okay. Or I could access a different part of self, my intelligent, intuitive, all-knowing self right, this calm wisdom that is within me, so that I can access clarity, peace, compassion, joy. That is very much my understanding of God. However, I am I think, because I'm three years on the other side of losing my sister, where the grief isn't as acute Interested in the realm of miracles.
Speaker 1:Here's what I mean by that. Now, how many times in your life have you felt like this is too weird to be a coincidence? You were thinking of somebody and they called you. You had a bad feeling and you reached out to someone and they, in fact, were in crisis and precisely needed to hear from you when you reached out and precisely needed to hear from you when you reached out. Those moments which, with my logical mind, I would say yeah, whatever. I am now much more interested in thinking beyond, into what type of miraculous, what type of miraculous, divine, serendipitous things are going on that I cannot see, or that I'm unwilling to see, or scared to see, or want to be in too much control of to see, or want to be in too much control of to see that if I were willing, I could actually be exposed to, and would that bring more magnificence into my life? Right? So I was at the hair salon two days ago and my girlfriend was telling me all about this experience with a psychic medium and I've seen a couple mediums in my life and it totally made me want to go see her, so I just might do that.
Speaker 1:It's been a while, since I sat with somebody and she said you got to get this book called signs, and so I literally ordered it while I was in the chair. I ordered the book because I'm about to finish Gabby Bernstein's newest book, self-help, which I love, and so it's time. It's time for a fresh read, and this is a little outside of what I normally read. I mean, I read personal development books and memoirs all the time, but the realm of the beyond the spirit world. I've read a couple of those books, but I ordered it and it showed up, got here yesterday.
Speaker 1:I woke up early this morning. My whole house was sleeping and I have been trying to take at least 20 minutes in the morning, where I don't touch my phone Usually I'm petting my dog or sitting outside drinking my coffee. I decided to start reading and I'm already riveted by this idea. You know that you can look for signs, ask for signs, and and whatever else I'm going to uncover. And so I actually, out loud in the car later in the day to day, spoke directly to my father and sister, who both passed and asked them directly to show me signs, and with my dad I said show me butterflies and anything related to New York City, and with my sister it took a minute, but then I thought show me hearts. And a little later in the day, yet again, all the same day, this is all.
Speaker 1:Today I had a coaching call with a client who literally just lost her father, less than 24 hours ago, and I had no idea how she was going to be doing, and she was so unbelievably beautiful, vulnerable and courageous in regards to how she was leaning into her grief. She felt more connected to her father. She was, of course, heartbroken, but it was like the light that she's been waiting for to enter her spiritual vessel was turned all the way on, and there were a lot of tears on my end too, you know just witnessing the willingness to lean into this experience versus run from it or numb it. And we started talking about science, and she was already experiencing signs Already, and so we made a little vow to each other that we would both read the book I'm going to send it to her and we would make this a spiritual experiment to look for signs. And as we were talking, I could swear I saw a butterfly just flap right across my work window. I sit and face a window in my home office, but then I couldn't see it anymore and I said hold on a second, and I opened the door. Sure enough, there was a monarch butterfly just flapping all around right outside of the office and I took a video of it. It was so cool, and I just took my dog for a walk and I saw butterflies everywhere.
Speaker 1:Now, obviously, the logical part of me, the non-believer in me, wants to go well, duh, you're, you're asking to see them, and so now you're more aware, right, and that's the answer. That's it, maybe that's it, I don't know, but I am working on staying really, really open to what if it's not it? What if I don't know? A butterfly is flying by me right now as I'm talking. Oh, you can't make this up and you know what? Here's how I want to end this episode, okay, with a miraculous story that is recent and it, to me, is undeniable that there is something beyond even our intuitive knowing. Okay, so, for context, my sister's name is Jessica and the date that she passed away was March 13th.
Speaker 1:Okay, and when I found out, I was in Austin Texas airport. I had been between Austin and San Antonio with my husband for a few days looking at a potential investment property. Never had been to Texas before or since, until April of this year. In March I met a guy at a networking event who was a New Yorker sober, had an awesome, amazing story and also was part owner in a rehab facility in San Antonio. And he said you should come and facilitate a workshop and do the PT stuff that you do and lead a discussion about your book and this modern 12-step framework. And I thought, man, if trauma is not what happened to us, if it is the meaning we make about what happened to us, then how unbelievable would it be to make new meaning out of Texas by going there and helping other addicts stay sober? And I was like, absolutely, I'm going Okay. And I was like, absolutely I'm going Okay. So I booked my flight and the trip is for mid-April.
Speaker 1:The owners tell me a couple of hotels to stay at and I was sure that I booked my hotel. A friend of mine a few days before says where are you staying? So I try to look it up in my emails for the confirmation and I realized I never book my hotel. I'm like fuck. So I go on Expedia, I'm scrambling, trying to find a hotel. I don't remember the names of what they suggested. But I find something that got really good ratings never heard of it called Canopy and I book it.
Speaker 1:I get there and there are two women at the check-in. One is busy, so I go up to the other one. She's checking me in. She asks me do I want to be on the upper floor lower floors I'm like I don't know. You know I picked upper because I thought maybe there'll be a view, but nobody's really ever asked me that. She gives me the key card and says I'll walk you to the elevator Also a little unusual, right? Maybe something that happens in a five-star hotel like the Four Seasons. But anyway, she walks me to the elevator, I pull out the key card and I'm on the 13th floor and she looks at me and says my name is Jessica, let me know if you need anything. So I go in this elevator, the door is closing and I'm flipping out. Right.
Speaker 1:I'm having a spiritual experience and I'm thinking this is insane. This is unbelievable to me. I haven't even gone to the treatment center yet and this now gets to be a new memory that I can associate Texas with. It's already a miracle. I'm going to tell this woman, even if she thinks I'm crazy. So I said, if I see her again later, I'm going to let her know. And sure enough, she was at the desk.
Speaker 1:A couple hours later I come down and I go up to her and I say can I tell you something spiritual? She's like, yeah, and I explained the whole thing. Right. What happened the only other time I was in Texas my sister's name, the date, why I'm there. Now the floor. She put me on her name and I said I just thought you should know. And her face dropped and she said can we go for a walk? So we did. She took me into a hallway where the door could shut and we could be alone and she started crying and she said I can't stop drinking. I drink in the morning, I drink all day long. I don't know how to stop and I think God sent you here to help me. So, needless to say, we were both crying and hugging. We've stayed in touch.
Speaker 1:I went up to my room, got a copy of my book, wrote her a personal note and gave her my contact information. If that is not the realm of miracles, I don't know what is, and I have lived my whole life calling things like that a coincidence and you know that bores me, because what if it's not? And so as I read the book signs and as I look for these signs from my dad and my sister, and eventually I will figure out what the sign is for my sponsor, who killed himself when I was one year sober, and I'll let you guys know how it's going. And if anybody wants to be on this spiritual experiment with me, I would love that. Leave a comment If you liked this episode, subscribe to the podcast, send it to somebody who you know is struggling or looking for miraculous things to happen.
Speaker 1:We can go on this journey together, because I know it can be a little bit scary, especially when your drug of choice is control. And also get in touch with me. Write to me on Instagram at Dr Samantha Hart, h-a-r-t-e. Let me know you heard this. Connect, tell me the signs that you're seeing, or book a discovery call. The link is going to be in the show notes. It's totally free and we can connect face-to-face, although virtually, if you want to go a little bit deeper. I love you guys and I will see you real soon. No-transcript.