Breakdowns, Breakthroughs & the Privilege of Pursuing Your Dreams

After pressing pause, I’m back — with a raw and real recap of the season that tested me, stretched me, and gave me clarity. From becoming a grandmother at 38, to navigating a dark night of the soul, to finally owning my niche as a coach for spiritual entrepreneurs and creatives — this episode is about the breakdowns that lead to breakthroughs.

I share what I’ve learned about rest, resistance, listening to your body, and remembering that pursuing a dream is a privilege, even when it feels messy and hard.

If you’re in the middle of your own “hard season,” this is the reminder that you’re not behind, you’re not broken — and your dream is still waiting for you to keep going.

Transcript

Well, hello, it has been a hot minute. Welcome back. I say that… I'm welcoming you and I'm welcoming myself back into this space because I made a decision to put a pin in the whole podcast sitcheroo because life was just wild. I think I definitely underestimated what would be required of me in launching a restaurant and raising a family and pursuing my other goals and dreams. It's very like me to have ambitious goals and just be like, "Me, that's fine, I can manage it all. 
And it's been great. It's been an incredible ride and I feel so, I feel so lucky and I feel so blessed and I'm in a really great space in my life right now and feeling the fruits of the hard work. But I couldn't let go of this. 
I couldn't let go of this whole podcast thing. To me, it feels like such a wonderful way to be able to connect with you. And I myself have been, you know, I've benefitted so greatly from other people who've shared their own words and their own work and have connected with other people on their own shows and to be able to still hold that as a dream for myself, I'm I'm still here. 
I'm still going. I'm So this is like, take, I don't know how many times. I think I've done like 12 episodes, 12 people, 12, 12 whole episodes. 
I'd be shocked if it's if it's, you know, any more than that. And, but I've come back. And who knows, who knows what holds? 
Who knows? But I'm here, and I'm very grateful to be here. And if you're listening, I'm very grateful that you're here too. 
If you've been following me over on Instagram, I took a little step back this year because life did get wild. And I think that's actually been the case for a lot of people in 2025. I don't think that I have crossed paths with many people this year, actually, who have been like, "Oh, yeah, no, this year has been a breeze." 
And I I have heard a lot of people talk about the fact that we're in year nine, which is like the end of the cycle. So we begin a new year next year, as a year one. And what has been really interesting is that for so many people, I've heard the same thing, it's been a almost like a burning down of things, you know, there's been, I said to my partner yesterday, I feel so good. 
I feel like I've really had a lot of breakthroughs, but, you know, it did come off the back of a breakdown. Not in a not in a very dark or serious way, but it has been a really hard year. And I have spoken about it fairly honestly over on my blog, which you can find over at Hayscottsommers.com and I have shared some on social media as well because I I am very much, I wear my heart and my sleeve kind of girl, and I just, I believe that when we share these things, it helps create a space for other people to not only not feel like they're alone, but they can take something away from it too. 
You know, it's like a different perspective. And I always really appreciate it when people share things with me and on a vulnerable enough to say, actually, this has been really shit. And I think, especially in the world that we live in with social media, is so easy to see the highlights real, the glossy, the shiny, the the oh so wonderful, you know, the end of month photo dump, where it's just all vacation pictures and dinners out and it's so easy to think that you're the only one that maybe isn't doing those things because you're navigating stuff. 
And that would certainly my circumstance issue is that I very unexpectedly found myself in the midst of a dark night of the soul. And I hadn't been through anything like that for quite a while. And it's it's unsurprising me, looking unsurprising to me, looking back on reflection, that I would find myself in that situation this year. 
So some big things straight off the bat, I found out that I was gonna be a grandma, which is wild. So my beautiful daughter, my beautiful, beautiful Phoebe, she found out at the was the first week in January. So straight away, January, boom. 
Like big changes. and it was it was literally like that. I think it was two days after the new year. There was some stuff that was unfolding and you know, within life and business and I said to my partner, holy fucking shit, we're like two days in. 
Like, what is happening? And it was like that for about four months. And then it sort of like took us to the spring and in the summer, then I found myself in a dark night of the soul. 
So it's, again, it's kind of unsurprising. The news of my daughter having becoming a mother herself, it has been a wild journey and it has been deeply transformative and actually very, very healing. I had a quite a powerful conversation with one of my team members from the restaurant, which, by the way, Chubby Frog still going strong so fucking proud of this place. 
It's really, really cool. Anyway, so I was having a really powerful conversation with one of my team members about how healing it has been to be a mother myself because I had a very absent mother and yeah, so it's been very, very healing to show up for my daughter, the way in which I wish I had been shown up for, basically. And that's not throwing shade at anybody or, you know, or family. 
You know, I feel very at peace with my journey and my healing and I genuinely believe that everybody's doing the best they can with the tools they've got. And I believe that we are so blessed to live in a time where there is so much access to information. So from a personal development point of view, this whole idea of like when you know better, you can do better, but we have so much access to information now. 
So many resources, podcasts, books, social media accounts, people sharing their own experiences and their wisdom and their growth and their healing. That just didn't exist for previous generations, to the extent that it does now. And I think that's something that people forget. 
So if I, when I do ever talk about being able to show up for my own daughter in a way that I wish someone had shown up for me, that is with the full knowledge that I have had access to so many more resources and tools than previous generations. So it's certainly not a slight or a dig. But it has been healing. 
It's been really healing, and to be able to show up for her in those ways. And going into a season of about to become a grandmother, which I still, I'm like, I'm so, I'm so ready for that role. A lot earlier than I thought I would be for the record, I'm 38 So this was quite a shock. 
In fact, when she told me, my first reaction was like, I can't be a grandmother. I'm 38. And then I had to remember that it wasn't actually about me. 
This is not my, this is not my story. So, and I'm now, I'm so excited. I'm so excited. 
My daughter and I have grown closer and closer, and we spend so much time together now and we're very, very excited to welcome into the world Baby Devon. A little boy, and he's going to be as I talk, he's due tomorrow for the record. Like this is what I'm saying like, I'm going to be a grandmother. 
This is not like some in the future. I'm taking my daughter to hospital in the morning and she's going to be induced because she's already, she's 39 weeks and she's had a couple of minor complications, but enough to sort of say, okay, let's, let's get this baby into the world. So I'm very excited and Devon, the name Devon, I'm obsessed. 
Honestly, I do think it was quite clever on her part. So I grew up in Devon and she was born in Devon. So I think naming him Devon, well, I've always said that that's my home and where where I hope to one day return was quite clever on her part. 
I think it's going to ensure the fact that he is very doted on for the rest of his days. So I'm excited. As you can probably tell, I'm kind of giddy, I'm very, very excited. 
So, big changes happening in our family and in our world. So, let me see, I've made some notes, not gonna lie. I'm sitting here with a notepadc I didn't want to just like come in and wing it. 
So, yeah, navigating Dark Knight of the Soul was wild, really, really wild. And I came out the other side of it with so many lessons and so many gifts. And I think one of the difficult things about when you're going through something like that is that life feels so heavy, so heavy. 
For me, I think it happened because there was some things that I had to learn. There were some things that I wanted, but I didn't yet have the tools in which to bring them to life. And I honestly, I was fucking exhausted. 
I was so tired. I had I had overworked myself, like, ridiculously so. And I'm someone who really greatly enjoys working and being productive, not just being busy for the sake of being busy, but genuinely being able to produce and create. 
And I love what we've created with the restaurant and I love raising our beautiful blended family and I was really enjoying the coaching and the writing and things that I was doing, and obviously I'm still working away my book and things. But I was not taking enough rest. So, you know, in the midst of a huge transitionary period, overworking, a lot of stressful things cropping up in life as it has been apparently so for so many people in 2025. 
And on top of that, I had these, you know, big or have these rather big, lofty dreams and goals and ambitions. And I think that I just, I didn't necessarily have the tools or the skills to yet bring them to life. And I think that's something interesting that I really wanted to go into a little bit because I think that is so true for so many of us is that we will have these big goals and dreams and they maybe don't come to life. 
You could be working away on something and you just don't see any results. And a lot of people give up. That's that's usually when a lot of people quit when it gets really, really hard. 
And the reality is, and I think and this is the thing that I do want to talk about, because I do feel like a little bit within the sort of personal development and spiritual sort of space online. There is this kind of narrative that if something is difficult, if something, if you're always having to like push and it's quite hard, it's not meant for you. It'll just flow to you. 
It will just come to you and it's really not meant for you and, you know, that's a sign. And I do you know what? I'm actually really fucking disagree. 
I think if there's like something that you're constantly tripping up on, then there's potentially some information in there to go, look, is this for you? Is this what you actually want? But I think what people forget in this desire to ditch the hustle culture, which I'm all fucking for, by the way, is someone who has suffered burnout multiple occasions and is on the back end of, you know, or has come out of the other side or something like that. 
I don't believe that it should all be hustle. In order to make big dreams come true, it takes big effort. It just does. 
Like if you want an extraordinary life, if you wanted to create something that is extraordinary, think about the word extraordinary, so it's outside of standard normal. You're going to have to take extraordinary action consistently. And you don't know for how long you're going to have to do that until you see the results. 
And don't get me wrong. Again, I'm not advocating burnout, okay? You absolutely, in the pursuit of that, should really try and remember to look after yourself and get enough sleep and connect with fellow beings who are on that journey so that you're not disconnected and living in your own little bubble, and that you look after yourself, but it is it can be fucking hard work. 
That's the truth. And I believe that, I believe that because if it wasn't, anybody and everybody who had a dream, oh, it would just come true. It would just be easy, wouldn't it? 
It would just come to you. But it doesn't. And this is the thing that I see and and it's the cut it is kind of like my little bugbear a little bit is when you see, because I am someone who's a bit woo and a bit airy fairy and I do believe in, you know, I'm I'm a very spiritual person and I have crystals and I've got all of the books that I read and manifesting and journalling and meditating and all these things. 
But when I hear someone talk about the fact that like, oh, well, you know, if it's that hard, it shouldn't be that difficult and, you know, it's not for you then. I think that is such a bullshit way out. I don't think that's true. 
And I think that if you have a dream and you have a desire and a goal and a passion for something, if you have that in your heart, you have everything that you need to make it come true. And it doesn't mean that you have access to it yet, which is why, when I came out of, you know, the sort of the dark night of soul that I had, it was, it was like all these things were in me, but I hadn't accessed them yet. I hadn't stepped back and I hadn't gone through some things that were going to be we' going to help me overcome what I needed to overcome in order to be able to create what I wanted to create, if that makes sense. 
And if you have it in your heart to do something, I absolutely 100% believe that you have it in you to make it come to life. So that is my, that's one of my key takeaways that I'd love for you to take away with you if you are someone who is currently in the pursuit of a dream and you're not seeing the results, take a step back, take a break, take a breather, put an Airbnb, go away for a weekend, walk on the beach, go and sit in a fucking forest and just lie there and just be, you know, do all of these things. But if it's hard and you still want it and is a passion, it's something that you desire and you believe that you can do, keep fucking going. 
Just keep going. Here's the other thing that people don't talk about. The time's going to pass anyway. 
So, you could be in the pursuit of it or you could not, but the time was going to pass and in two years, three years, four years, five years, where do you want to be? Because if you keep up with the pursuit of that, you will eventually get there. You will. 
And maybe it'll take longer than you want. Most things do. That's what I's what I've found is that most things do do take longer. 
You know, we live in this world where everything is kind of instantaneous and, oh, you know, you want something today, you can be here tomorrow. I do it all the time, supporting Jeff Bezos's bloody business, like he needs any more money. You see sick on Amazon, you'll all right, right, that'll be here in the morning. 
Fantastic sort of done. And I think because we live like that so frequently, with so much access to stuff with, you know, immediacy, we have an idea of something that we want and then we get frustrated when a week later, a month later, a year later, it's not here but it takes time. It does. it takes time to be patient with yourself, be compassionate and just remember, this is one of the things that I came out of of myai recently, was this kind of a awareness of like, my God, what a fucking privilege it is to be in the pursuit of a goal. 
Like, think about that for a second. Like, what a privilege it is to wake up in the morning and have a dream that you are able to actively pursue? You know, people talk about, like, you know, Maslow's hierarchy of needs and what you are able to give space and energy and thought to, depending on where you are, on that like pyramid triangle diagram thing, right? 
If you if you look it up, you'll know what I mean. You're probably familiar with it anyway. If you wake up and you have capacity to be actively pursuing a dream, you're doing really fucking good. 
You're doing great. Like, that's phenomenal. There are so many people, especially, like, oh my God, I'm not going to get into the news and politics and things at the moment, because it is an absolute shit show out there. 
And it is, yeah, it's savage right now. But all you have to do is go on social media or go and click on the news and see some of the crazy fucking things that are going on in the world right now, like wild, absolutely crazy. And people who are in the midst of all of these things when they're waking up in the morning, they're having to think about food, they're having to think about shelter. 
They're having to think about the safety, the well being, of their children. Like, I can't. Oh, it's gonna make me emotional. 
So. If you're not as close to your dreams as you want to be, like, that's so fucking gay, 'cause you're here and you get to pursue it, you get to wake up. If you're lucky, you get to wake up every day and try again. 
So that's something that I am very much keeping at the forefront of my mind and something that I believe that we should all be a little bit more mindful of is that it is a privilege to be in the pursuit of your dreams. Like, what a gift that is. So if you're not there yet, that's okay, keep going. 
There is the space between where you are and where you're going to be. There's something for you to learn. And I believe that's true for everybody who is in the pursuit of their dreams. 
No matter where they are in their careers or their goals or all their life, there is something in the space between where you are and what you want that is required of you to learn or experience in order to bring you closer to it and for you to be able to hold that dream once it comes to life. So I'm just hitting like all the soft topics today, aren't I? So I think one of the other biggest lessons that I definitely learned is about listening to your body. 
So one of the things that I heard years ago, oh, you need to readjust myself because I'm currently sat on the floor. I have I'm having a little podcast studio built, but it is not ready yet. So, and I didn't want to put off basically recording an episode. 
So I sat on the floor at my butt's gone numb, so let me just have a little.. tickle. So one of the things that I have definitely learned this year is listening to body. And I heard years and years ago, I can't remember where I saw it, but it said that if you do not listen to the whispers of your body, you will be forced to hear it screams. 
And I mean, that's pretty horrifying, isn't it? It sounds quite chilling. And I definitely, you know, as I've put my hands up to and said, I haven't done the best at looking after myself this year, I've worked a huge amount, I've poured so much into my family, into my restaurant, and I was trying to keep going with writing and, you know, coaching and seeing one to one clients and things, but doing like bare minimum when it comes to like marketing and website and blogging and stuff like that. 
I was pouring so much into everything and everyone else. and I just didn't pour back into myself. I was I was kind of like, I think I wrote about it the other day, I was talking about my kind of like my daily mantu be like, are you okay? Have you got what you need? 
Can I do anything for you? And I would never say that to myself. It would always be for everything else, and everyone else. 
And then once everything else and everyone else was sorted, I'd be looking around to see what else I could do for everything else and everyone else. And I just got myself stuck in in a cycle of that, and wasn't fun. And then I got poorly. 
I got properly poorly, and it took me took me a little while to recover from that. So, you know, being someone who genuinely believes in the power of, you know, the mind, body connection, and understanding how powerful it is to look after your body, I just, you know, I let that. I let it go. 
I just, I didn't I was going to the gym, like, maybe three times a week and just eating a lot of crap, to be honest. It's easier to get takeaways when you're trying to juggle all those things, which I know probably sounds wild, like, Haley, you own a restaurant, you literally fucking live above it and I'm ordering a dominino's. like that happens a lot just so you know, full disclosure because you know, I don't believe in in bullshitting on this. So yeah, there was, I think it was one week we' ordered take out like four nights of the week. 
And I said to my partner, I said to Craig, I feel like we need to maybe ask ourselves every time we go to an order a takeaway, do we want to spend this 50 pound at a takeaway, or do we want to spend it on something else? And it was really good in theory. I think we did it like twice and then completely forgot. 
So it did it didn't work out so good in the end. But yeah, coming back to ourselves and coming back to a routine and learning to look after ourselves. So looking after your body, especially if you are in the pursuit of big goals and dreams, and you are having to exert that extraordinary effort in order to achieve them, is look after your body. 
You've got one, you've got one, and like, again, what a fucking gift it is to have it. So, and I'm not like preaching at you. This is me reminding myself as well, like drink your water, try and get your eight hours asleep. 
I did go through a period of time where I did sleep a lot more after I was coming out of this dark night, the soul thing and I got poorly. I just, I had a complete reset. I was like, your body is, as that expression was saying, screaming at you. 
And I just, I overnight, I said to my partner, I cannot make myself ill trying to do all of these things. Like, I have to change what's happening, because, like, I'm I'm dealing with, like, chronic pain and I'm I'm not well, and I've been backwards and forward to the doctors. And and I just, I was like, I can't do it anymore. 
I can't live the way that we have been living. And I have to change it. And I started prioritising sleep. 
Oh, my God, I've never slept so much in my life. I was having like 9, 10 hours and then I was going back to bed in the afternoon for like a mandatory nap, for like 30 30 to 60 minutes and it was fucking glorious. It was so good, so so good. 
So yeah, looking after your body, breakthroughs after breakdowns. And here's the thing. I think that the other thing that I'd like to mention about, you know, we talked about, oh, if it's hard, if it's difficult, then it shouldn't be. 
It's probably not for you, it's not meant to be. And the thing that the other thing I would like to say on that is that change happens through friction. Like, it does, like change doesn't it happen through not anything happening. 
It requires effort, it requires exertion, it requires some a certain amount of friction and don't get me wrong, again, I am not advocating for anyone to like burn themselves out and fuck themselves up in the pursuit of a goal. But if you start feeling some resistance, that is okay, that is normal, because that's what happens when you try and change something. There will be resistance, because you are trying to change the shape of something, whether it's physically or energetically, into something different, and that is going to, you know, the thing that is already there that exists, whether it's your body or a mindset is going to kind of resist a little bit and be like, no, I don't't like this. 
This is this feels different, and I don't like it. So just know that that resistance is purely a part of the evolution that is required for you to change. So, just looking at my notes here, sorry, I'm not gonna edit this, this, that's the other thing I've decided is if I was going to give this podcast a fair shot, I wasn't going to go back and edit shit because that was one of the things that really killed it for me the first time I tried to do this, was this ridiculousness of having to go back and edit out. ums and R's and pauses and things like that, and I just wasn't really here for it. 
So unfortunately, you are going to have to listen to me sipping my tea and trying to figure out where I am. And, hey, stay with me for the journey. Like, I think this is going to get really, really good. 
So if you if you can hang about for this bit, you get to experience what's on the other side. So my passion and purpose after my experience this year, my dark night of the soul, sounds so dramatic, doesn't it? I quite like it. 
My purpose for this podcast and just actually for everything that I'm trying to create with my coaching and my writing and my speaking and things, it's the same. It is like, there's nothing, there have been times where like full disclosure this year there have been times where I thought, I think I'm just going to pack it in. I don't think I can do it. 
I don't think I've got what it takes. And I'm exhausted. And, you know, the family's growing because now there's a grandson on the way and you know, the restaurant's really busy and it requires so much of my time and I can't do it all and, you know, maybe I'm just not, maybe I'll just let it go. 
And I came out the other side of everything and I was like, absolutely not not alone this go. I've I've held this dream in my heart for a long time and my passion for it and my clarity of vision for my purpose is clearer than ever. It is clearer than ever. 
And I think that's one of the the amazing things about going through something like a dark night, the soul, where you question everything, you question your ability, you question your worth, you question whether or not you've got what it takes to make it come to life. So much questioning it's the worst to go through it is that absolute worst. But what you come out with, the other side, if you can sit with it and listen and be present with it, you come out the other side with clarity. 
And I think that is that is unbelievably invaluable, is to have that clarity, one way or the other, not like clarity of yeah, we're going to keep going, sometimes you'll come out the other side, you'll have clarity and you're go, you know what? This isn't for me anymore. This isn't right. 
This is no longer an alignment with who I am or where I am or where I'm going and that's okay. That's great too. There is no right or wrong. 
There is only alignment with who you are and where you're going and what your values are and what you want to achieve. So the thing for me that was so wonderful was to come out of the craziness and to have this clarity of, no, this is what I want. This is how I want to live my life. 
This is how I want to spend my time. This is how I want to show up in the world. And a bit like we were talking about earlier about how the part of time is going to pass anyway. 
I kind of just let go of timelines. I let go of, well, you know, I'm 14 next year, so I need to, I need to get a literary agent like, by the end of the year so that I can have my book published by the time I'm 40, which,ivers, just so you know, like, I'm still absolutely here for that. But I've let go of the timelines. 
I've no longer going, I have to achieve this at a certain time. I've let it all go. It's all bullshit anyway. 
It's all kind of like induced by societal expectations of all your, this is what you should be achieving at a certain time. So I've come out the other side with more passion, purpose, and clarity than ever before. I've just let go of the timelines, because the time, you know, if I'm blessed enough, I'm going to wake up and have another day, and the time is going to pass anyway. 
So instead of focussing on when I can achieve it, I'm just going to keep showing up. I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing. But with more solar line strategy than ever, that's something I'm going to say for another episode as well. 
So this is really just more of like a, hey, hello, how are you? And I'm back and here's what I've been doing, kind of episode. But I think the next one is definitely going to be about Soul aligned strategy. 
The only other thing that is different for me is that going through this experience has made me realise that I really did have to niche down to a more specific target market and and I made the decision to focus, and I don't know why. Can I just say that it took me so long to figure this out? But, you know, for years, I've gone through two so many amazing events and one of the things that it's always, is like, oh, you know, you should know your niche and I's always like, it's women in business because I'm a woman in business. 
So therefore I can serve women in business and that has been my thing for like, for quite a while. And when before that, it was even more vague. It was like women, women who want to believe in themselves. 
So then so women in business was like a good step, right? It was it was better than what it was. But then I came out the other side and was like, I should be focussed on serving. 
Yes, I'm sure I will predominantly attract more women just because of my branding and my aesthetic and how I show up, I will probably attract more women still, and that's okay, but I realised who I really wants to serve were kind of more spiritual entrepreneurs and creatives. And I realised that the reason for that being was not because if you are not a spiritual entrepreur creative, that I would not work with you or that I wasn't talking to you specifically. But here's the thing. 
I found previously that whenever I was showing up online, I was diluting myself, like, massively. I was like, oh, you can't say that. It's a little bit, oh, it's a bit airy, fairy. 
It's a bit woo. It's a bit crystal manifestation, self-love vibes. And so I was really diluting my message and watering it down and sort of, I started to tell you that a little bit before I left, but as a whole, I was trying to keep it very much aimed towards, you know, women in business in general. 
So that I kind of like didn't put them off with all of the magical woo that is actually me and that I believe in. And I came out the other side and I was like, no, fuck this. I'm so, I'm so tired of overthinking how I'm showing up. and diluting myself and my message because I'm not reaching the people that I really, really want to work with because I'm not really being authentic to who I am because I'm trying to water myself down. 
I'm trying to make myself a more, I don't know, what the correct term is here, but I think you probably understand and you can get it from what I'm saying. And I did away with that. So I've come back and I'm like, no, I'm, you know, I'm H Scott Summers and I serve spiritual entrepreneurs and creatives because I fucking speak their language because that is who I am. 
And I have been on a spiritual journey for years and years, and I have been a creative for years and years and years. And my first business was as an artist, and then my second one that I had for 10 years was as a photographer. And, you know, you know, I have a restaurant and I know that some people go, well, that's not very creative, that's more, but there's so much creativity that's involved in it. 
You know, I do, I had a huge hand in the sort of, you know, the interior design and the actual physical, you know, painting of certain things. Like I painted the sign that hangs outside of our building. And interestingly, like little kind of like geek fact here is that I painted them using the same brushes that I used to paint tanks and armies when I used to paint Warhammer for my first business, like 15 years ago. 
And and I I do the marketing and the social media and all the photography and stuff like that. There's a lot of creativity involved in it. And that's just kind of who I am. 
I am just a very creative soul, resourceful, as my n says. She always I've been very resourceful. Which I've always been quite proud of. 
I'm like, my nan says I'm resourceful." So that's what I've decided to do is to focus solely on that, that kind of audience. And I was very aware if I started doing that, you know, people are going to fall away, and some people are going to be like, oh, you know, well, that's what she's doing. 
That's not for me. And I was actually really okay with that. I was like, that's that's okay, that's cool, because it makes more space for the people who are more in alignment with who I am and you know, what I'm trying to achieve, and what I hope to help them achieve, because that's what this is really about. 
All of my goals and all of my dreams and all of my my passions and my desise, my ambitions, they are at the core of them. It's helping you achieve yours. It's it's kind of an interesting kind of concept when you look at it like that, they're not necessarily goals and ambitions for me to have on a mantlepiece to look at and be like, ha, look what I've achieved. 
It's the meeting people and helping them realise who they are and what they have to bring to the world and helping them unpick through the limiting beliefs, the stories that habits, all the things that hold them back. So they can achieve the things that they want to achieve. That's that's my fucking jam. 
That's why I'm here and I don't know if you can hear it, but I'm smiling from, I'm smiling from ear to ear right now. It feels really good to be back. It feels really good to be connecting with you. 
And to have this amount of clarity just really feels quite delicious, actually. I'm very much enjoying it. So I'm very aware as well. 
I've been 34 minutes, I've been waffling on for, and I do actually have a menu to write because it's Sunday and our restaurant opens in about 30 minutes and I haven't done the menus. So I'm very aware at any minute I'm probably going to get like a slip of paper underneath the door but I'm going to have to go and write and sort out. So so on that note, I want to take the opportunity that if you are here and you are listening and it's not just me, sat on the floor in my bedroom right now, and you're with me, thank you so much. 
Thank you for being here. Thank you for following the journey. It means so much to me. 
I have been, like the flakiiest fucking flake when it comes to this podcast. So I'm I've just been waffling away thinking maybe and they will all turn up and that's okay. I'm okay with that because it's all part of the journey. 
But if you are here with me right now on the floor, my bedroom, thank you so much. I appreciate you. I, my love and value for you is overwhelming. 
And I'm so excited for us to go on this journey together. And I genuinely can't wait to see where it takes us. I think next year is going to be a really big year, I can feel it like I've been working on so many things such a long time. 
You know, you just get that feeling, you're like, something's coming, and I can feel it. So I'm very excited for that and to have you with me on the journey means everything, absolutely everything. I my intention, my intention is to, given that the fact that like, again, we're having a baby of arriving tomorrow and I'm like, this is the week to bring back the podcast. 
Nothing, if not ambitious. So my intention is for this to be a weekly thing. And I definitely would like to dive more into Souline strategy for your life and business next week. 
I've got a ton of ideas and I think you're going to love them. So thank you once again for being here with me. I appreciate you. 
I believe in you, and I'm so, so excited to be here with you. Okay. Until next week bye.