{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":0.0,"endTime":8.4,"body":"Music."},{"startTime":8.348,"endTime":11.114,"body":"This is belonging"},{"startTime":10.994,"endTime":18.658,"body":"a podcast that explores being alive in the age of loneliness I'm your host Becca piastrelli,"},{"startTime":18.736,"endTime":29.308,"body":"a writer mother and Community tender currently living on the ancestral lands of the Coast Miwok people in present-day Marin County California."},{"startTime":30.592,"endTime":36.564,"body":"In this show we explore topics like Rites of Passage cultivating meaningful community."},{"startTime":36.768,"endTime":42.109,"body":"Seasonal and cyclical living and what it means to be a good ancestor in these times."},{"startTime":42.79,"endTime":53.776,"body":"I have thought-provoking conversations with friends teachers elders and ancestral medicine Keepers to help support you in bringing more meaning and connection to your life."},{"startTime":54.52,"endTime":64.363,"body":"I also pop in here and there to share updates and learnings from my own story because we were meant to do this together cosmically holding hands as we walk the spiral of life."},{"startTime":65.143,"endTime":71.979,"body":"You can expect to be challenged by New or Old ideas face your beliefs and what systems informed them."},{"startTime":72.255,"endTime":79.261,"body":"Curious and brave to tell the truth about the deeper harder things and feel comforted in the knowing that you don't."},{"startTime":79.12,"endTime":86.96,"body":"Music."},{"startTime":87.207,"endTime":95.087,"body":"Hello and welcome back to belonging the podcast it's Becca piastrelli here your host."},{"startTime":95.319,"endTime":105.017,"body":"Recording this intro in the dark of night on a Cool October evening in my little office Temple she shed"},{"startTime":104.933,"endTime":118.673,"body":"because I'm working at night right now just trying to be real life is so full I really feel Autumn's Harvest I really feel the energy of the squirrel Gathering it's nuts and bringing in."},{"startTime":118.985,"endTime":124.066,"body":"All the crops before the frost comes and just generally like."},{"startTime":124.216,"endTime":129.755,"body":"Wow I my life is full and I'm busy and I'm like"},{"startTime":129.716,"endTime":144.636,"body":"this is a little too busy for me and also trying to ride the wave call upon my ancestors who had these Seasons these moments of a lot happening I'm trusting my capacity"},{"startTime":144.525,"endTime":148.435,"body":"and remembering that I can say no and reschedule"},{"startTime":148.432,"endTime":156.402,"body":"okay literally I don't know if this is going to be relatable moment for you or not but this feels like kind of a big deal for me."},{"startTime":156.93,"endTime":169.311,"body":"I've had these series of experiences of realizing I'm overcommitted on my schedule on my calendar I said yes to something a long time ago I scheduled it for October thinking October"},{"startTime":169.29,"endTime":175.019,"body":"it's there it's so far from now it's going to be fine and then opening my calendar and being like whoa."},{"startTime":175.403,"endTime":185.38,"body":"Mama's got too much on her plate and less time than she used to have so realizing my my initial instinct is often to push through."},{"startTime":185.728,"endTime":197.371,"body":"Which is so not what I'm telling you to do in your life right so I've had these series of moments like true aha lightbulb going off"},{"startTime":197.35,"endTime":200.855,"body":"I can reschedule I can cancel."},{"startTime":200.978,"endTime":214.737,"body":"With love the gracious no the thank you so much for this opportunity I'm unable to do it right now and to tell the truth because Becca long time ago was really into White Lies."},{"startTime":214.95,"endTime":221.299,"body":"I mean that's a whole thing right there the temptation to give a little white lie."},{"startTime":221.8,"endTime":227.52,"body":"And to just it's so liberating to say I'm over committed I can no longer."},{"startTime":227.697,"endTime":237.386,"body":"Do this or I need to choose rest today what permission that gives the person on the other end of that email or text or phone call to cancel."},{"startTime":237.887,"endTime":246.992,"body":"The medicine of canceling plans you heard it here so that is where I'm at right now bustling and full and opportunity and harvest and"},{"startTime":246.935,"endTime":252.897,"body":"so many very exciting things and noticing my nervous system would like it too."},{"startTime":253.569,"endTime":262.935,"body":"Flow a little slower and so I am in the place of orienting to capacity building."},{"startTime":263.283,"endTime":272.783,"body":"Self tending in every little moment responding to what is truly a priority and remembering I."},{"startTime":273.077,"endTime":277.527,"body":"I am the liver of my life I am the boss of my business."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":277.776,"endTime":286.566,"body":"21 p.m."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":286.473,"endTime":300.519,"body":"On a Tuesday night okay today's episode is rad I just listened to it again because we recorded a while ago this is another book launch episode all these awesome people are,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":300.534,"endTime":308.621,"body":"coming out with their incredible books and I feel so like what pinch me they want to come on my podcast and share their book with the world."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":308.987,"endTime":314.248,"body":"Wow what an honor so this is Carmen span Yola"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":314.146,"endTime":325.554,"body":"who wrote the book The spirited Kitchen recipes and rituals for the wheel of the Year everyday animism folk magic and Witchcraft you know you love it"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":325.498,"endTime":330.776,"body":"because I love it and I talk about this stuff so her book comes out"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":330.638,"endTime":339.292,"body":"October 31st so if you're listening to this the weakness comes out it comes out next week and if you preorder it which US authors"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":339.163,"endTime":350.41,"body":"really truly benefit from the pre-orders more than the post Pub sales let me just tell you that it's a game we got to play if you pre-order at she's got some pretty sweet pre-order bonuses for you."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":350.587,"endTime":362.932,"body":"It's an incredible beautiful book which we talked about in our such a fun Lively hilarious life-giving nourishing conversation so if you never heard of Carmen Spagnola"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":362.866,"endTime":370.044,"body":"highly recommend a follow she is a Wilderness guide podcast host Le Cordon Bleu trained chef."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":370.212,"endTime":385.041,"body":"Rose and vegetable Gardener collapse aware coach and which have no particular affiliation in this episode we just kick it off with thing I'm most jazzed about which is the ongoing saga of her 300-plus pounds."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":385.435,"endTime":394.809,"body":"Tick-Tock or if you're like me just watch the Tik toks and Instagram because you're not going to do another thing famous pumpkin and explore the term collapse"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":394.68,"endTime":409.465,"body":"as it relates to being collapse aware as an individual as and as a collective I don't know about you but I find the term collapsed to feel a little confusing or scary and you know it's sort of bandied about in the culture"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":409.246,"endTime":412.273,"body":"and I think sometimes another word is like"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":412.198,"endTime":421.339,"body":"when people talk about capital is being anti-capitalist like I think people sometimes get that confused with consumerism I think with collapse sometimes people get that confused with like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":421.75,"endTime":431.169,"body":"The zombie apocalypse and so after we just go super nerd out on the amazing pumpkin she's growing we talk more"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":431.076,"endTime":444.564,"body":"about this concept of collapse and I just found it to be so so helpful so we wind through her journey from being a latchkey kid to attending Le Cordon Bleu and France to working on Mega Yachts I was like wait what"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":444.471,"endTime":450.02,"body":"learning the depths of hospitality and then writing her new cookbook the spirited kitchen"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":449.981,"endTime":460.183,"body":"we also explore the practice of feeding memory as a way to connect with an honor our ancestors even if they weren't always the most honorable you know I love talking about that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":460.333,"endTime":467.124,"body":"And then together we take a look at the large societal problems that inevitably cause grief"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":466.905,"endTime":485.894,"body":"and Carmen shares ways to soothe ourselves and move out of a free state in the face of such big issues and feelings and I find that Carmen really takes a perspective that doesn't feel sort of like what everyone sort of saying over and over again there's a way Carmen breaks it down and teaches it that feels very like okay I got it."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":486.017,"endTime":488.613,"body":"Thank you this is going to be very very helpful"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":488.502,"endTime":502.62,"body":"to my nervous system to my life and Carmen is all about beauty you will definitely tell from the interview and I am a super fan"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":488.502,"endTime":502.62,"body":"I'm Carmen has her own podcast that I love called the numinous podcast"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":502.5,"endTime":515.178,"body":"so settle in for this really informative delightful hilarious enlightening conversation with Carmen Spaniel."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":515.44,"endTime":521.36,"body":"Music."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":521.27,"endTime":530.671,"body":"Carmen Spann Yola the one and only I feel like you're famous I feel like you're real deal famous not just."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":530.857,"endTime":537.846,"body":"Because I've been following you for years and have been very excited about this book but also because you are Tik Tok star in my life."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":538.662,"endTime":547.685,"body":"Yeah who Woulda thunk I would love to talk so much I was like Tick-Tock was like another platform and then."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":547.881,"endTime":551.178,"body":"I got into it and I think I'm pretty good about"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":550.986,"endTime":565.627,"body":"spending the time in the places that are going to feed me good algorithm I'm like pretty much the same on Instagram too it's like I follow enough goats to Graham and cheap of the Day hashtags that I get a really good feed and now on Tick Tock my for you is just like"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":565.48,"endTime":570.866,"body":"like I was into corn kid the first day you know and was like oh my gosh"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":570.755,"endTime":581.354,"body":"yeah it's basically a vehicle for me to watch my own videos about me loving my pumpkin but I do love it I do love Tick-Tock it the the stream I'm in is a really good stream,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":581.405,"endTime":588.214,"body":"if you get into the right stream yeah for a while I was just like somehow in like a Korean boy band,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":588.229,"endTime":594.515,"body":"stream that I could not get out of because I think one night late at night I just happened to"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":594.449,"endTime":605.858,"body":"Dead Eye on these K-Pop Stars dancing and I honestly I was like oh look at them dance to drop it like she loves it she loves it give it to her."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":606.971,"endTime":615.157,"body":"Yeah that can happen and I'm not I'm not totally sure how to get out of it when that happens but yeah yes yeah thanks for watching my Tic Tacs,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":615.209,"endTime":627.779,"body":"okay so we're recording this episode early so we're putting this recording this in early September which is like late summer early fall in the northern hemisphere you are."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":628.127,"endTime":630.695,"body":"North of me in Victoria."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":631.602,"endTime":639.932,"body":"Mmm-hmm frightened and I am on tender hooks waiting for my pumpkin to fully."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":640.19,"endTime":651.923,"body":"Develop and become who my pumpkin wants to be and and yes right now we're just shy of 200 pounds and Becca I've had multiple dreams about the pumpkin"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":651.785,"endTime":656.811,"body":"multiple names about pumpkin and I had a dream that Bruce Springsteen"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":656.682,"endTime":667.848,"body":"he was giving me advice about like work and other things which I Facebook has told me in past years that I dream about Bruce Springsteen Every Spring so I don't know what's going on with that exactly but I welcome it,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":667.908,"endTime":678.686,"body":"yeah I know Facebook memory that's like the one good thing it's therefore it's like I posted a number of years ago I had a dream about Bruce Springsteen and so now I know oh it's my annual fall or spring dream about"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":678.53,"endTime":683.179,"body":"Bruce Springsteen so it's like I guess around Equinox I have"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":683.041,"endTime":693.018,"body":"dreams about him anyway he was giving me like business of Life advice and we were actually sitting at his place and in the distance he's not he's got like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":693.132,"endTime":702.659,"body":"Horsey Farm kind of thing is got like land and horses but there was a pumpkin patch right there and so I was like a Bruce Springsteen's house"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":702.657,"endTime":714.452,"body":"at his pumpkin patch we weren't directly talking about the pumpkin but I felt like it was a pumpkin it was a blessing on my pumpkin and a blessing upon the house of Carmen's been Yola by Bruce Springsteen."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":714.54,"endTime":721.006,"body":"I feel that I feel that deeply and as a fan as a full-on follower fan of yours"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":720.832,"endTime":734.14,"body":"and more particularly invested deeply in this as I call it the telenovela of the pumpkin I mean every day you post"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":720.832,"endTime":734.14,"body":"this is Real Deal everyday you post like,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":734.155,"endTime":743.071,"body":"you do the measuring way that you cuz you can't pick up the pumpkin so you show us how you're measuring to know according to the Great Pumpkin."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":743.248,"endTime":751.344,"body":"Commonwealth's there their system I'm dialed here we're doing this as profession as we can I'm very serious about it,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":751.368,"endTime":760.067,"body":"and you know when you're like marketing team is like well if you want the algorithm to like you you're going to have to post three to five times a day and people are like this impossible and I'm like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":760.775,"endTime":768.709,"body":"Would it be weird if I posted three times about the pumpkin and I want to I want to sometimes I post more than once a day about the pumpkin."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":769.354,"endTime":780.493,"body":"Well we love it and when this comes out we there was so much we don't know about the future of this pumpkin ahead and when this comes out we will post in the show notes."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":780.832,"endTime":787.776,"body":"You're Tick-Tock channels that we all like right now all of you listening know what happened but we don't know what happened."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":787.908,"endTime":792.889,"body":"And what's your what's your goal with the pumpkin is there a weight is water."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":793.534,"endTime":800.172,"body":"No so it started with date I really want the pumpkin I want the pumpkin too"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":800.079,"endTime":804.547,"body":"be alive and fresh and looking great at sewing"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":804.517,"endTime":815.134,"body":"right October 31st November first I would like the pumpkin to be there to spread joy and cheer to all of the children and families coming by for trick-or-treating but"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":815.059,"endTime":818.708,"body":"we had a very early injury"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":818.561,"endTime":832.742,"body":"to the stem early in the season which has slowed significantly and now the powdery mildew is coming it's very stressful back at and so now I'm just this close to 200 pounds and this is my kind of"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":832.622,"endTime":846.084,"body":"a secondary goal is if it's not going to last until Samhain then I would like for it to at least hit 200 pounds after if I can hit 200 pounds after that it's just going to be euphoric like I just don't know."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":846.756,"endTime":861.396,"body":"Anything could happen and I am open to all possibilities but I would like for the pumpkin to be around to be on display for October 31st that's the big dream and that's how it all started and we had a very late start I'm not going to replay the whole telenovela but"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":861.294,"endTime":871.182,"body":"people go back to Late July early August you'll see I didn't even think there was going to be a pumpkin this year and then a miracle happened."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":871.476,"endTime":880.454,"body":"I know those spring rains I know I was following and the powdery mildew the powdery mildew took out all my pumpkins,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":880.514,"endTime":886.774,"body":"and my cucumbers and so I feel you so deeply and so yeah we are like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":887.248,"endTime":900.196,"body":"Laughing here and also there's something there's a kinship work tapping into and I think something deeper which you talk about work with and write about in your book which is coming out next week when this"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":900.13,"endTime":905.355,"body":"comes out the spirit of kitchen is your connection to ancestral ways and this"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":905.28,"endTime":915.275,"body":"the Great Pumpkin watch like yes we're talking about it on the internet but like this is what our ancestors did and there's a way you touch upon it."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":916.127,"endTime":919.299,"body":"Resonates deeply for me and I think a lot of other people."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":919.755,"endTime":931.794,"body":"Thank you I you know I laugh and I'm facetious but I have genuine tears and I have genuine concerns because it really does tap into that sense of like oh my God what if this was a life-giving harvest."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":932.007,"endTime":932.838,"body":"And."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":933.025,"endTime":944.568,"body":"You know it was like oh no I'm seeing mildew in the wheat I fucking freaking out it was be all I can think about and the whole family would like down tools and all the community would just you'd be like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":944.809,"endTime":953.319,"body":"This is like watching the farm Channel you'd be like oh talking over fences oh the powdery mildew came over to the McLaren's or whatever you know you feel like you would"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":953.208,"endTime":965.04,"body":"you would definitely all be gathering to be like what are we going to do and when should we Harvest and should we wait another day is it going to be a really dewy night and will wake up tomorrow and everything's wilted I mean"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":964.947,"endTime":974.906,"body":"this is you know it back in the day this was life or death stuff so you can also then see why you would celebrate so much I mean oh my God after the"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":974.849,"endTime":982.216,"body":"exhilarating highs in the terrifying lows of the growing season by the time you get to harvest home by the time you get to Samhain"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":982.024,"endTime":995.575,"body":"of course you're like elevating your Harvest this like sacred like life-giving grain or vegetable or whatever it was and of course you'd have to have a party to like let her rip am I allowed to swear."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":995.671,"endTime":997.412,"body":"Yeah oh for sure yeah"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and 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and the stress of that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1117.121,"endTime":1125.037,"body":"Yeah I don't know that's a good turn but that's that's what that's what I that's what I feel is like wow this is actually super stressful."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1125.241,"endTime":1138.864,"body":"But it's a healthy stress I think it's like really growing my edges in terms of some resilience and also how quickly your problem solving and getting smart me like own extra I'm going to do it like this or you know it."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1139.032,"endTime":1152.728,"body":"It really is developing different parts of my brain and my body and kind of that felt sense intuition of like oh what is 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it's it's takes a long time to turn a ship."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1334.229,"endTime":1343.657,"body":"But I'm not doing nothing in the meantime right I am learning how to be a better grower how to be more attuned how to process the emotions."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1343.987,"endTime":1352.254,"body":"You know and you got to do a quick you got to recover in motion if you are actually relying on food to sustain you you know it's like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1352.602,"endTime":1356.422,"body":"With the grains that I've grown in the past I've been like,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 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like okay"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1393.428,"endTime":1396.824,"body":"all right you and me we're in relationship now what's your,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1396.884,"endTime":1404.179,"body":"seasonal habit where do you live like how do I protect from you because you know at some point."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1404.374,"endTime":1411.093,"body":"We aren't going to be able to just walk to the grocery store and get what we want is easy so we want I don't know about you but,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1411.135,"endTime":1423.192,"body":"here where I live your three of pandemic you're starting to kind of well I still don't actually get used to it I don't really go to the grocery store luckily all that often but when I do I sure notice a lot of empty shelves"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1423.045,"endTime":1427.801,"body":"so you know I we're tracking that that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1428.185,"endTime":1433.662,"body":"Getting a little bit more fluent and skillful and patient with"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1433.542,"endTime":1445.239,"body":"with growing food and being attuned to the ecosystem you're in is more than just kind of a hipster thing to do you know all right collapse after all yeah so I'd love to dive into that,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my 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just feels so beautiful and I know that is like the antidote to this like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1506.865,"endTime":1518.157,"body":"Collapse induced fries and panic and so I and I also love watching when you share on social media like your life your like urban homesteading life and."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1518.424,"endTime":1527.447,"body":"And so whatever feels true to share about how you live your life with collapse awareness I would love to hear oh for sure well I mean first of all let me."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1527.786,"endTime":1538.799,"body":"Frame out collapse a little bit like everybody it is what the word sounds like right we all have them at different scales so in the spirit of kitchen I share about like a personal collapse that led to,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1538.805,"endTime":1548.801,"body":"more awareness about societal collapse my personal collapse with a failure of a business and fighting myself as a very privileged able-bodied white woman who"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1548.726,"endTime":1551.888,"body":"you know previously been successful too"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1551.795,"endTime":1561.575,"body":"being at the welfare office and realizing like oh wow there isn't the safety net particularly the class that I come from as like working"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your 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not everybody has personal collapses that we go through we can think of them as initiations The Long Dark Night of the Soul you know however you want to frame it but."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1598.067,"endTime":1612.681,"body":"I talked about in general is like okay so go from the personal to what's happening at the collective and so when I'm talking about collapse awareness and talking about tracking those converging emergencies of large-scale cooperation dilemmas so like,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1612.741,"endTime":1623.483,"body":"climate change pop the political spectrum is like to party systems capitalism these are large-scale cooperation dilemmas for which there is no solution."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom 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personal and Collective free states what I know as a cinematic practitioner is that when you're in freeze."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1661.524,"endTime":1668.0,"body":"Rapid embodiment doesn't help that just sleds you you need like a little bit at a time at the right time."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1668.186,"endTime":1677.155,"body":"And so it our house my husband and I have been you know that that was like kind of a thing that attracted us to each other as we both had this worldview our very first,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1677.233,"endTime":1686.337,"body":"date we'd known each other prior but we weren't romantic so our first like romantic date we were sharing this world view of like what am or collapse"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1686.217,"endTime":1695.376,"body":"he was talking about it the city scale he's working for the City Vancouver I was talking about a personal scale and a business scale because I'm kind of a natural born entrepreneur and."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1695.517,"endTime":1702.919,"body":"We were just like oh wow this person speaking my language like that the future isn't going to be the same as the past only brighter and shinier."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1703.313,"endTime":1705.539,"body":"We both found ourselves."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 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learn new ways of being you can learn new ways of doing"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1740.573,"endTime":1748.768,"body":"so we just kept exploring stuff that felt grounding for us and some of them were ancestral skills like canning for me it was."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1749.125,"endTime":1760.93,"body":"Learning how to use guns and stuff like that in case I wanted to go hunting I became a Wilderness guide you know we have the tons of different things we do one of them was I also did like"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1760.864,"endTime":1762.199,"body":"facilitation,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1762.241,"endTime":1774.235,"body":"training like how to be a facilitator Mental Health First Aid those kinds of things are also collapse kills and you learn that like okay I can acquire these new skills and they can fit into my world view which is that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1774.323,"endTime":1781.671,"body":"Whether it's me or my neighbor whether it's my close friend or somebody in a different country or Nation."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1781.866,"endTime":1789.107,"body":"Everybody is going to be going through collapse and that means there's going to be more things like death injury poverty"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1789.104,"endTime":1799.109,"body":"there's going to be more lost there's going to be more trauma so I want to live my life in the most trauma-informed way that I can what I know is that trying to learn everything"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1799.097,"endTime":1803.727,"body":"and trying to get a grasp at the large-scale often overwhelms"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1803.715,"endTime":1815.88,"body":"so I don't have to know everything I also don't have to do everything in fact if I tried that would be that rapid embodiment thing if I throw myself into the deep end and be like learn how to swim I'm just going to drown,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1815.886,"endTime":1825.701,"body":"so it's way better to just kind of start clothes in start at the thing that feels the most appealing to you and for me it was like a lot of ancestral."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1825.969,"endTime":1839.664,"body":"Yearnings you know gardening like my grandma did canning like my great grandma did Growing the same things that my ancestors would have learning about the agricultural wheel of the year,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1839.724,"endTime":1840.861,"body":"those things"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":1840.831,"endTime":1854.463,"body":"helped me feel like I could see the pattern not only right now in society the pattern of collapse but that this has been going on for generations and generations and generations centuries my great 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or."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2024.297,"endTime":2033.303,"body":"Or grief or loss or those things could be overwhelming I'm like well I'll prime the pump my tears usually come pretty easily or like I could talk about this forever."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2033.543,"endTime":2041.504,"body":"And over time hopefully you'll see that there's a lot of beauty and connection and love to be had when you,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2041.555,"endTime":2046.212,"body":"are framing all of your relationships in the context of like really hard time."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 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mental level I'm just gonna like consume as much information as I could ever possibly do and like never actually put it into,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2203.623,"endTime":2209.27,"body":"um into action and so again like well how do we get out of fries well first of all."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2209.528,"endTime":2217.912,"body":"We don't really get out of freeze by ourselves if we do it's because enough time has passed that we feel safe enough usually but like you know in a"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2217.801,"endTime":2229.201,"body":"world that's like this so fast so fast that does really happened we get out of fries because someone comes in and is like checking in on us by somebody like provide some contact nutrition"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2229.135,"endTime":2239.905,"body":"and so maybe it's that you find the video of the person whose canning and their vocal prosody is just so sweet it's like banana that you wish you had or something like that it's the contact nutrition,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2239.965,"endTime":2244.919,"body":"I've like somebody providing some kind eyes and a reassuring presence and,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2244.952,"endTime":2256.901,"body":"and so that's what I'm trying to do in my Instagram feed my Tick-Tock it's like I'm going to give you contact nutrition I'm going to let you hear in my voice how much I love my pumpkin gonna let you see in my eyes that I am like,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2256.979,"endTime":2270.53,"body":"tracking this going to let you like seeing my body what it's like when I'm trying to get my arms around it like it we're getting contact nutrition and that's what thaws of Frozen nervous system."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2270.618,"endTime":2277.246,"body":"So you know it may not look like collapse kills but it is."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2277.423,"endTime":2289.372,"body":"Thank you I feel soothed you can probably see it by your words and yeah like fortified to keep going."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for 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child to my partner to my loved ones I really I love the experience of Hosting workshops in my home with my husband especially I love the experience of cooking for the questers when they come up with me into the Wilderness that's a huge part of what I do"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2505.388,"endTime":2514.672,"body":"I know now again because of my cymatics training and and Trauma recovery work that ingestion behaviors like eating and drinking."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2514.912,"endTime":2526.897,"body":"And our experience or lack of them as an infant or young child shapes how our autonomic nervous system responds to that form of connection as an adult and so."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 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is just dose the field with more safeness that you know that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2642.042,"endTime":2653.433,"body":"We're going to come we're going to have like good eye contact we're going to have good conversation or if you don't like aren't eye contact we're going to eat quietly but like with love and pleasure and I'm."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2653.601,"endTime":2660.364,"body":"We're going to have this experience of calmness and connection while we're eating and that I believe"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2660.317,"endTime":2669.088,"body":"literally reshapes our digestive system our central nervous system and the way that we relate to other people so there's 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course like needed to get an A-Plus so I looked up like Scotch eggs made him for the first time very poorly I had other people who brought roadkill cooked Roadkill"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2876.551,"endTime":2879.57,"body":"it's just a really be in that practice self like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2880.107,"endTime":2888.932,"body":"Uttering the food that comes to their door and we all shared stories another person whose father was stationed overseas in."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":2889.37,"endTime":2894.055,"body":"Okinawa and like she's white European descent and she brought like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw 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different"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3061.143,"endTime":3071.201,"body":"and my idea is that I'm not trying to recreate any tradition right there is no pristine prior tradition as my friend colleague teacher Sophie Macklin says so."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3071.477,"endTime":3085.632,"body":"What I'm hoping people will do is look outside their window and see what's happening outside where they are so they can determine which recipes will they use and if it's not from my book maybe it's from something else because of course I live in my own little bio region"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3085.539,"endTime":3097.992,"body":"my climate is very unique when elder flower is blooming in my 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a charcuterie board on the last night and stuff like that and so I knew I wanted to do a collab with Maura and this summer we did one."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3558.662,"endTime":3565.309,"body":"It was four days it was really beautiful the participants really understood like oh this is a Rite of Passage."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3565.567,"endTime":3573.32,"body":"What I'm doing right now and like the same way that the sheepskin is going to be transformed from something that died to something that's a textile"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3573.264,"endTime":3580.693,"body":"it's going to be able to live like an entire other life I'm going to reanimate the spirit of the Sheep by working the skin."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3580.916,"endTime":3593.792,"body":"And so I was able to like feed them baked goods in the morning give them some like ritual and some folklore and then like bring out lunch and then end the day with charcuterie and Cocktails and then like a little circle of gratitude."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3593.906,"endTime":3598.734,"body":"That was really amazing for me so I think my work is just becoming."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3598.92,"endTime":3605.531,"body":"Light half of the Year dark half of the year so light half of the year the warm half is the gaels with a called it is going to be,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3605.609,"endTime":3609.131,"body":"in person outside things like Quest and stuff like that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3609.282,"endTime":3617.369,"body":"And then the dark half of the year I'm just going to be really focused on kind of cottage industry type stuff teaching online Etc so."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3617.501,"endTime":3627.217,"body":"Um funny how the pandemic really did shunt my business into that direction that it was kind of slowly going,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3627.286,"endTime":3631.961,"body":"anyway but yeah they'll be more online stuff through."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my 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and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3663.655,"endTime":3674.857,"body":"Yuletide stocking stuffer and that was the hashtag I was using and then like it's kind of grown and grown every year this year we're calling it The Spirit of Yuletide a season of Celebration and ritual anyway."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3675.205,"endTime":3682.761,"body":"Spirit of Yuletide kind of starts December first and I and it really is like I am one of those people in July who's like is it getting colder"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3682.596,"endTime":3690.521,"body":"and I'm all excited cuz it's gonna be it's gonna be like holiday time so December 1st we start thinking about."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3690.626,"endTime":3703.97,"body":"You know what Gathering are Greenery what are some of the rituals we want to do are we going to make him Ali's what's the baking I start kind of planning out what what's like two or three like signature rituals I want to do this year or maybe I'm like."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3704.094,"endTime":3708.201,"body":"Gathering stuff to make a winter vermouth out of what's in the"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3708.064,"endTime":3719.049,"body":"in the yard at that time so I'm thinking ahead and then December 21st to New Year's Day is just like it's not elaborate sometimes it's literally just like"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3718.938,"endTime":3732.634,"body":"putting a figurine on my altar you know but I'm like so excited because it's like ooh it's the day to put the rabbit's a third day I'm going to put the rabbit and the boar on the altar excited about it I like you know it's"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3732.469,"endTime":3740.556,"body":"yeah it's really meaningful to me it's been and what I love about that program is how many people have said it's carried throughout the rest of their year,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3740.625,"endTime":3748.208,"body":"is they finally figured out like oh this is what micro ritual is and it's actually like really easy."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3748.304,"endTime":3756.31,"body":"And I can it can be self-directed I can make it out of anything it's super family-friendly it's very nourishing if you're a person on your own."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3756.397,"endTime":3764.115,"body":"To have something that like is really meaningful meaningful Traditions you can make yourself but they don't just get"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3764.094,"endTime":3774.161,"body":"kind of sucked in to that one commercialized day or period right it's like you you do this like immersion this 12-day immersion into what it's like to live."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3774.284,"endTime":3775.755,"body":"In Miss."},{"speaker":"And the boss 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and I'm going to do it again this year."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3805.27,"endTime":3819.587,"body":"Yeah because yeah I love that if you do it year after year and I like you guys know it's like the same thing right I mean I do update it a little bit but it's like it's the same thing year after year of it lots of people really enjoyed that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3819.764,"endTime":3828.049,"body":"I think it speaks to the just the need the desire the Deep yearning so many of us have to connect more deeply than just like"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3828.046,"endTime":3835.107,"body":"I don't know consumerist culture does around that time of year it's just really sacred and deep and in sestra land."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3835.248,"endTime":3838.978,"body":"I used to have a program around that time to call the handmade holiday and."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3839.218,"endTime":3847.899,"body":"Which was ultimately a beautiful thing that had to complete for the sake of my sanity but there was something about your Yuletide program that I took right after I closed it."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3848.157,"endTime":3853.804,"body":"That felt like thank you for this so I can still have that."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3854.116,"endTime":3858.233,"body":"Feeling for myself so big plug for that one."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3858.321,"endTime":3866.461,"body":"I will link to that as well we're going to wrap up this has been so wonderful I adore you so much I definitely."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3866.693,"endTime":3874.888,"body":"I'm going to come up to one of your events I told you that on Instagram the other day because I just think what you're doing resonates so deeply for me and for so many in is,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3874.948,"endTime":3881.018,"body":"very important and as I've now shared to the whole internet I am becoming a farmer so"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3880.817,"endTime":3891.74,"body":"it really resonates for me oh you think you're not gonna have time just go back at you're not gonna have time to come up to today and so I'll be so excited to come and see what you're doing on the"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3891.539,"endTime":3897.258,"body":"farm that was gonna say I'll bring you out for having me because yeah yeah."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3898.003,"endTime":3908.169,"body":"It takes a lot to get me over the Border it has to be like a really extraordinary individual to make me cross a border I like or get on a plane that means I'm going to go for like a month right I'm gonna burn that garbage."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3908.256,"endTime":3916.946,"body":"Yeah I'm forever but basically you know all that to say thank you so much for amplifying my work for being a strong supporter and."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3917.294,"endTime":3930.468,"body":"Thank you for modeling the risk-taking this is this is a massive undertaking to step into your values and when I talk about reaching for what you care about there is a moment where you have to seize it."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3930.753,"endTime":3943.35,"body":"And pull it towards you and so good for you for doing that I'm really going to look forward to being with you on that Journey whatever you want to share on Instagram thanks thanks for having me here."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3943.446,"endTime":3947.662,"body":"Hmm well yeah maybe I'll start my own Tik Tok about who knows."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3947.767,"endTime":3961.94,"body":"What the farm drama will be but very much inspired by you and the pumpkins Farm porn on Tik-Tok all the time yeah let's do it I want to see it I want to see it all with like yes I want to see."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3962.081,"endTime":3970.735,"body":"The Good the Bad and the Ugly yes right okay well Carmen thank you so much thank you Beth has been an honor to be here thank you."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3971.146,"endTime":3976.163,"body":"Thank you so much for joining me."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3976.295,"endTime":3987.074,"body":"In a time when our attention is being pulled in so many different directions it means a lot that you took time out of your day to spend it with me and in these important conversations."},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":3987.269,"endTime":4000.55,"body":"For show notes and links and more information about my guests you can head to belonging podcast.com and if you'd like to hear more from me and get access to my free newsletter called slow and seasonal,"},{"speaker":"And the boss of my life and we can reschedule and cancel boom there's your wisdom draw for today at 9","startTime":4000.637,"endTime":4005.69,"body":"you can head to Becca piastrelli.com / subscribe."}]}