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And it can be a great"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1434.27,"endTime":1437.75,"body":"way to kind of get over any sort"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1437.75,"endTime":1441.32,"body":"of shyness or social anxiety you"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1437.75,"endTime":1441.32,"body":"have by simply being in a"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1441.32,"endTime":1444.86,"body":"position where your work is to"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1441.32,"endTime":1444.86,"body":"meet people. I think it's a good"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1444.86,"endTime":1450.05,"body":"strategy. That was my IMM"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1444.86,"endTime":1450.05,"body":"experience. And this, this, my"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1450.05,"endTime":1453.8,"body":"friends is the end of my first"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1450.05,"endTime":1453.8,"body":"interlude. I don't know how"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1453.8,"endTime":1456.92,"body":"these are gonna go. I don't know"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1453.8,"endTime":1456.92,"body":"how often they're going to drop."},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1457.43,"endTime":1461.48,"body":"My plan is to have them in"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1457.43,"endTime":1461.48,"body":"between episodes. So episodes"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1461.48,"endTime":1466.22,"body":"come out every four weeks. And"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1461.48,"endTime":1466.22,"body":"then between the second week"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1466.22,"endTime":1468.32,"body":"between each episode, hopefully"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1466.22,"endTime":1468.32,"body":"there will be an interlude."},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1469.4,"endTime":1471.35,"body":"It's easy to do right now"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1469.4,"endTime":1471.35,"body":"because I have a lot of space in"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1471.35,"endTime":1475.46,"body":"my life. I don't have much else"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1471.35,"endTime":1475.46,"body":"to do at the moment. And so this"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1475.46,"endTime":1478.85,"body":"is really fulfilling for me. And"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1475.46,"endTime":1478.85,"body":"we'll see how long I can keep it"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1478.85,"endTime":1479.06,"body":"up."},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1480.2,"endTime":1484.31,"body":"I also need to know whether or"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1480.2,"endTime":1484.31,"body":"not you like interludes, and I"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1484.31,"endTime":1488.06,"body":"can tell that a little bit from"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1484.31,"endTime":1488.06,"body":"the pure statistics of how many"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1488.06,"endTime":1490.91,"body":"times and episodes been listened"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1488.06,"endTime":1490.91,"body":"to. But if you want to send me"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1490.91,"endTime":1495.41,"body":"feedback, on the interludes or"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1490.91,"endTime":1495.41,"body":"on any episode, there is an"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1495.41,"endTime":1499.97,"body":"email link at full Cal dot show"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1495.41,"endTime":1499.97,"body":"or you can simply email Edie"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1500.0,"endTime":1509.9,"body":"Should at full cow dot show that"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1500.0,"endTime":1509.9,"body":"edge at full cow dot show. So if"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1509.9,"endTime":1512.78,"body":"you have thoughts for future"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1509.9,"endTime":1512.78,"body":"episodes if you have comments if"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1512.78,"endTime":1515.93,"body":"you have questions, I do invite"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1512.78,"endTime":1515.93,"body":"you to reach out to me and I do"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1516.41,"endTime":1520.31,"body":"very much thank you for putting"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1516.41,"endTime":1520.31,"body":"up with me for another 25"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1520.31,"endTime":1524.18,"body":"minutes of your life during this"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1520.31,"endTime":1524.18,"body":"interlude. Have a beautiful,"},{"speaker":"Edge ","startTime":1524.24,"endTime":1525.05,"body":"blessed day."}]}