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I'm just always curious."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1500.0,"endTime":1503.84,"body":"As I was turning to leave and"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1500.0,"endTime":1503.84,"body":"resume the benefit which felt a"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1503.84,"endTime":1508.22,"body":"world away in your case, I"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1503.84,"endTime":1508.22,"body":"turned back to him fearing some"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1508.22,"endTime":1512.09,"body":"judgment but still hungry for an"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1508.22,"endTime":1512.09,"body":"answer. In your case, I'll say"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1512.09,"endTime":1516.98,"body":"this. You do do a lot of"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1512.09,"endTime":1516.98,"body":"watching, but life. Life's not"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1516.98,"endTime":1522.11,"body":"meant to be watched. It's meant"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1516.98,"endTime":1522.11,"body":"to be lived. 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But he"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1580.16,"endTime":1583.91,"body":"answered before I could. The"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1583.91,"endTime":1586.4,"body":"words. They just spilled from"},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1583.91,"endTime":1586.4,"body":"me."},{"speaker":"Unknown","startTime":1587.69,"endTime":1588.32,"body":"I miss you"}]}