Season 4 Update

Ever wondered what happens in the space between podcast seasons? That strange limbo where creators seem to disappear? This candid update pulls back the curtain on the very real human struggle behind creative work.

The journey toward Season Four of Full Cow faces several interconnected challenges that many content creators silently battle. There's the daily energy taxation of existing in our current political climate—that feeling of waking up with a full battery only to spend a significant portion just creating enough psychological space to function. Then there's the recent discovery of old trauma living in the body, demanding healing work through acupuncture and somatic practices that, while necessary, consume precious time and resources. Add to this the paradox of needing to block weekends for rest while those same weekends were previously dedicated to podcast production. All these factors compound in a life without the multiplicative energy boost that partnership provides—what I call "a whole extra battery."

Despite these realities, Season Four is taking shape. I'm developing episodes on chastity's intersection with dominance, creating a new "Makers" segment highlighting craftspeople in our community, exploring the Old Guard traditions, and unpacking insights from the newly republished Leatherman's Handbook. The schedule may become more flexible than previous seasons' bi-monthly releases, but the commitment remains unwavering—this work will continue.

Your messages of appreciation and encouragement make all the difference. When creating feels like "sitting in an empty room talking to no one," hearing that this podcast matters to you provides the fuel to keep going. If Full Cow has touched your life in any way, please reach out. Your voice matters precisely because it reminds us why these conversations about leather culture, kink, and authentic connection must continue—especially in challenging times. Stay subscribed, stay patient, and know that your support is helping build Season Four, one small energy reserve at a time.

Chapters

• 0:00 Season Four Update Introduction
• 2:22 Energy Depletion and Political Climate
• 4:27 Healing from Uncovered Trauma
• 6:32 Time Management and Singlehood Challenges
• 9:35 Future Episode Topics Preview
• 12:12 Request for Listener Engagement

Transcript

Speaker 1: 0:00

Hello everyone. I wanted to give you an update on season four of Full Cow. Let me start by saying that I fully intend on doing another season. The logistical reality of that is a little bit more complicated and I'll start by saying you know, continued to have people contact me in person through DMs to say how much they enjoy the podcast, to ask about a fourth season, to offer thanks, and every one of those moves me closer to a fourth season. Because, you know, from my perspective, this is just me sitting in my office slash playroom with a microphone and headphones and talking to no one, not even my cat. My cat has learned like, when daddy has the microphone out, get out of the playroom because he's going to want quiet. So I'm literally talking to no one. So I don't have any grasp of the say. I really enjoyed your podcast. I really hope there's a season four. Your episode on blah blah blah really moved me in blah blah blah ways. It is invaluable to me. It is invaluable to me because it helps me to know there's a reason to be sitting alone in my office slash playroom talking to no one. So thank you every single one of you who have reached out about the podcast in any way. And if you are on the fence, please, if you've thought about contacting me and you haven't, please do, because the thing that is going to make season four happen is people telling me that they desire season four, that they on some level crave it or need it, I don't know. So please keep reaching out. So what's the delay?

Speaker 1: 2:22

There are a number of interrelated, compounding factors that are keeping me from really moving forward with this season of Full Cow, and they're all related to available time and energy. So, first of all, like so many of us, in the current political climate, I have less energy Because each morning I wake up right and I have a battery. I have a certain pool of available energy. Well, now I have to take a not insignificant portion of that pool of energy and use it to press back against the doom of the world around me, and press back just far enough for me to be able to breathe, so that energy is going into managing anxiety, into generating hope, into keeping myself from checking social media or checking the news. I'm literally spending a limited resource of energy to make enough space for me to be alive. Now I'm not even getting the worst of this political climate. I am fairly protected, I am super privileged, but it still is hitting me enough and has hit me not exactly directly but very closely. It's hit me closely enough to be frightening and chilling. It's been frightening and chilling and there have even been a couple incidents on my social media, a couple of comments that I've quickly hidden from people because I don't need them to see that that have had a very vaguely threatening air and felt a little chilling. So that's the first thing I literally have less energy because I'm using more energy before I even get out of bed to make it through this world.

Speaker 1: 4:13

The second factor that is impacting my available energy I discovered in early January I unearthed some old trauma that I kind of suspected was there. I didn't really know it was there. Now I know it's there and that means I've shifted quite a bit of my available resources into healing and that takes time and money and for me it means I've been doing acupuncture because the trauma I uncovered is really embedded in the very cells of my body. It's something my body remembers. So I've been working on very somatic kind of healing modalities. So I've been doing acupuncture and I've been doing yoga and I've been doing what I call what I tell my friends is trauma yoga. It's really called neurogenic yoga and it's yoga plus a kind of tremor slash, shaking response, a little bit like somatic experiencing.

Speaker 1: 5:16

All of these things cost money and, more critically, for the podcast. All of these things cost money and, more critically, for the podcast, they take up time. I am spending one to four hours out of my week simply trying to heal trauma that I've been carrying around, didn't even notice, but I know it's there now and I would like to get rid of it. That leaves less energy for everything else in my world. So there's the political climate, there's the recently uncovered trauma, and then there's the simple fact that with the leather coaching and with the rest of my regular life and with a social life, I have been so busy that I've learned how to block out weekends to do nothing, utterly nothing, because at one point there was a point where I looked at my schedule and I don't think I had a free night for two weeks and that just felt. Just thinking about it was exhausting. So I've been blocking out weekends more to do nothing. Well, you know what Weekends are the time I have to get the podcast done, because they're the time I really have to work on a project of this magnitude. So that's been another impediment to moving forward with the podcast. Finally, it's not. It's something I don't know. Do I talk about it a lot? I feel like I don't talk about it a lot, but I also feel like I do talk about it a lot.

Speaker 1: 6:49

The fact that I do not have a boyfriend is another factor here, because when I'm in a relationship, it's like I get a whole extra battery. I receive so much love, love, support, energy from a partner, and it's so nice to be around a person who's not constantly draining my battery as an introvert If you're an introvert, you might understand what I mean by that. I can be around someone and not feel drained. When I have a partner, I feel like my resources are doubled, and that is literally time gets doubled in some ways. So if I had a boyfriend, I would hope he'd be the kind of boyfriend that would be like hey, baby, go work on the podcast and I'll go get groceries. Oh, thanks, baby, oh, and then we can go to the gym after. Right, like I don't have a body double out there running the errands on the weekends, that I can sit here and do that, that I can sit here and do that. The other thing is just the available energy, hope, joy, those things I get. My well gets refilled quickly and more often when I have a partner and therefore I have more available stuff to spend on things like the podcast. So I'm still single. I still have.

Speaker 1: 8:11

In fact, I'm getting to a point where I am making this pivot, where I just assume I'm not going to have a boyfriend. Looking for one has been too painful because I need someone local. I'm not going to do long distance anymore, blah, blah, blah, blah. I'm not going to get into all this. The point is that I'm moving through that issue and leaning into the beautiful men who are already in my life and just finding contentment with what I have, which is really more than sufficient. So those are the things keeping the podcast from happening the higher cost of living energetically, the higher cost of living from an energetic standpoint that it takes to exist in the world today, the new expenditures of energy required for healing uncovered trauma. The need to find spaces to do nothing and to recharge in a very busy life. And the lack of a loving, supportive local here with me, building a life with me partner.

Speaker 1: 9:18

That being said, I do intend to do a fourth season. I can tell you I already know some of the episodes. There will be another episode on chastity. We're going to return to chastity with a specific focus on the intersection of chastity and dominance. I don't mean using chastity to dominate someone, I mean practicing chastity as a dominant person. I'm excited for that. I'm hoping to do a whole new segment called Makers, which really features the stories of leather and kink craftspeople and really helps us understand where our kink products are coming from and provides a sort of human backstory to them.

Speaker 1: 10:09

Be an episode on the Old Guard. This is again kind of a return. The episode on origins talked about the Old Guard. This will be a whole episode on the Old Guard. There will be an episode on the Leatherman's Handbook, which was just recently republished and is an incredibly important historical document but also really richly resonant for the current state of the community. Really richly resonant for the current state of the community.

Speaker 1: 10:33

Oh, maybe I'll do. I don't know. Do I already have an episode on titles? I mean, we're coming up on IML and I have a lot of people in my orbit who are competing and so I've been thinking a lot about contests and getting ready for contests and all of that. So there might be a whole episode on running for a title. I have lots of ideas. What I don't have at the moment is an abundance of time and energy. I can tell you, if you look at my to-do list, it's a very complicated, very anal, retentive document, but every Saturday it says podcast. So it is very much on my radar. It is very much on my radar and I just wanted an opportunity to tell all of you it's coming, it's coming. I can't tell you when. I suspect it's going to be on a whole new schedule where I'm not bound to produce two episodes a month. That was really, I think, ambitious and exhausting. It might just be an episode comes out when an episode comes out, but it is coming.

Speaker 1: 11:35

The thing you can do besides, please continue to stay subscribed, please continue to be patient, please continue to be so loving and understanding as so many of you have shown yourselves to be to me. The only other thing you could do is, if there's something, if you really are supporting the podcast, if you would love, if you've loved the first three seasons, if you would love to see a fourth season, drop me a line. I have any number of channels of communication available to you that just says hey, I'm another one of those people who likes the podcast and I want you just to know that I would love to hear a fourth season whenever you can get around to it. Those little messages are critical, critical reminders that this matters in some way and in fact, in a world that is hostile, in a world that is super busy, in a world where we're all healing from trauma, in a world where so many of us don't have the loving, supportive relationships we want, that this podcast is important In part because of those things, in part to provide us a place of understanding and a place of mutual meeting and a place of hope. Yeah, that's my update.

Speaker 1: 12:56

I am slowly getting back to also posting videos on the socials and that's been interesting. I literally feel like I lost my voice in the political climate, but I'm getting it back and I think that's all I have for now. I'm just always so blown away that people pay attention to the podcast again sitting in an empty room talking to no one, empty room talking to no one. So to know that there are listeners out there really blows me away and I do not take you for granted and I am very grateful for all of you and I hope you have a really just effing amazing Saturday. It's Saturday, may 10th, by the way.