Integrity

Dharmacosm's first episode! Join Jaya and ashe as they explore whether there's enough room for everything, even things we don't like.

We're talkin' about spiritual integrity, and we hope you enjoy. 

Integrity is the first of six parts in a series called First Fire.

Each episode in this series is a small part of one longer conversation.  

Music from this episode is by Auxjack.

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Dharmacosm is produced by Jaya Julienne Ashmore and ashe d. phoenix. 

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in·teg·ri·ty

/inˈteɡrədē/. noun

1. the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness.

"they are known to be a person of integrity"

2. the state of being whole and undivided.

"upholding territorial integrity and national sovereignty"

3. the condition of being unified, unimpaired, or sound in construction.

"the structural integrity of the building"

4. internal consistency or lack of corruption in electronic data.

"integrity checking"

Origin;

late Middle English (in integrity (sense 2)): from French intégrité or Latin integritas, from integer ‘intact’ (see integer).

Integer 
early 16th century (as an adjective meaning ‘entire, whole’): from Latin, ‘intact, whole’, from in- (expressing negation) + the root of tangere ‘to touch’. Compare with entire, also with integral, integrate, and integrity.

(Definitions from Oxford Languages).

Transcript

ashe: 0:00

I think I'm learning about all the time that we have around how we experience those things. Like, is it a blemish? Is it a, oh my gosh. Speaking of blemishes. So my camera angle changed and it really highlights this lovely blemish on my face, which I was happy about actually eventually, because I was like, I was trying to cover it, like, but with my angle, you know, and then I left, I was led down this path of was I trying to cover it. And what is a blemish. Reminded me of talking to you last saying that I was very fearful of money. I couldn't really understand what you meant because I was like, it's against the rules to just say something, you know, just be like, I'm fearless with money

Jaya: 0:45

to make a leap yeah.

ashe: 0:46

Say it again?

Jaya: 0:47

To make a leap.

ashe: 0:48

Yeah, I guess. But I'm like, what's the line between that and being disingenuous or like, lying that's what I've been- so since you said, I've just been really thinking about that a lot and knowing that my resistance comes from this question of having integrity, and I know there's something there.

Jaya: 1:05

Yeah.

ashe: 1:05

I want to ask you more about that.

Jaya: 1:07

Yeah.

ashe: 1:08

Yeah.

Jaya: 1:08

Well, one way would just be to inquire into integrity. What is integrity, which is it's really weird that that's not the first time that particular word has come up today, which I love the synchronicities that happen. Um, That would be one way, like, what is integrity and what, what is in the way for you about integrity around money? You know? So that would be a whole way fruitful way. And maybe, yeah.

ashe: 1:35

So integrity is wholeness, right?

Jaya: 1:38

Yeah. Yeah. Not dividedness not fractured. And so we can hear how money could be accommodated in wholeness. And fear of money can be accommodated and wholeness.

ashe: 1:58

What do you mean accommodated?

Jaya: 2:00

That there's room? Um, and I think that's the main thing is like noticing what it's like to be against something and how that's just plugging into that. Something that we're not feeling as life-giving. what?

ashe: 2:19

I'm having this emotional block. I keep being like, um, there's something, I dunno, there's something there. It just feels like there's this piece of money and wholeness just not being- like, being antithetical or something that there's not room for, like the fear of it, or even acknowledging, accepting the fear of it.

Jaya: 2:44

Right.

ashe: 2:44

And that being, um, wholeness I don't know. And then to say, I do accept the fear of it when I don't feels like

Jaya: 2:52

yeah,

ashe: 2:52

yeah,

Jaya: 2:53

no. Um, yeah. So it's, I'm not asking you to say something that feels, um, disingenuous. It's more being interested in what feels fishy to you to be curious about."Wow. I'm feeling emotional about even talking about the fear of money, much less money itself." And so of course, then it would be one way to go is like, okay, even the resistance to the fear of the money, feeling that in your body briefly, you know, briefly? Letting it pass- that briefly, I feel like as a choice. And sometimes for me, or it feels eventually it feels like it does. It feels like it's not a choice. And then it feels like it's a choice. Yeah. Briefly. Yeah.