Week 12

Find out what  have sent out on X this week and what I am up to with Merlin and what I will be releasing on YouTube this weekend.  I also ask the question has James Blunt been stalking me for the last 20 years and if so why? Find out why I have to wear sunglasses when I am in the same room as him.

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Hi everyone and welcome to this week's edition of Catherine Lomer's Guides Love um podcast, which is week 12. Guys, we're on week 12. Right, exciting news. Okay, right. So um I was I was listening, I was listening to Virgin Radio on the way home tonight from work, and they were like saying, Do you know if if you kind of like if you've got some like secret about you know one of the guys in traitors, then now's the time to do it because it might go viral. So I thought, do you know what? I'm gonna do it. So I quickly set up a little X account and uh and uh I tweeted, I tweeted off the link to my uh my James Blunt uh Muse podcast, um, along with uh Diddy Follow Me Home from the Subway question mark and slash tag celebrity traitors. So do you know what? It's out there. It's we'll see what happens. But I am gonna I thought to myself, well, do you know what? Rather than waiting to do the thing that I've been trying to do, the recording that I'm thinking that I'm gonna be doing, um, which as you might have guessed is all about stalking, um, then I am going to do that. I'm laughing, but it's it's a laugh because you know when you laugh when it's so serious, because that's the only way you can kind of get through it. Yeah, that's that's it. Uh so I'm gonna record that on Saturday night and I'm gonna waz that out as well on social media on Saturday night and ask the question has James Blunt been stalking me for about 20 years? Um I suspect the well, I know the answer is yes, okay. There isn't any evidence of it. Well, not much that I can find, but I'll I'll just give it my best shot anyway. Um, because I just want to I need to get to the truth, okay? I need to know what's been going on, really. Um there's one thing, you know, if you don't know something, then it just drives you absolutely crazy. How's my social media absence been? Um rubbish. When I first started doing this, I just tweeted one thing and then I just end up ranting on him again on social media, and it's not achieving anything at all at the end of the day, is it? No. Um, so I thought, right, do you know what? And it was actually my uh manager's idea. She said uh shove it on, shove it on X, because it'll it all might go then. I thought, right, okay, no, I need to, and she did say you need to do it now, and I was like, right, do you know what I need to do it now, so I'm doing it now. Um so what else? So I'll keep you posted. So if I'm on TV in two weeks' time, you'll know why. Right, okay, so uh bath Merlin, okay. Um, and I've and uh so bathed him because I wanted to clip him, right? And um I've so if you bath him, it's it just makes clipping uh much, much easier. Uh the um and why do I clip a pony? Well, um because it's really, really unusually and seasonally warm and he's a fell pony and he's got quite he has had quite a thick um winter coat. And then I found I was riding him and I've got a few things planned with him, so I kind of I don't want him to sweat up because the reason we clip them is because horses will sweat up like people do when they do exercise, and more so in the winter time, obviously, but then they can't come home and have a shower and get changed, they kind of stay in their wet coat, um, which means that they can then become ill if you know you don't kind of you know it's and it's heating them up again, but you you can't really heat them up, stables aren't heated, and if they're outside, so that's where you clip them so that there isn't really any fur, um, so they don't sweat up, so you don't really have that issue, and that's why you clip them. Uh so what have I been doing? So I had a bit of a quiet week on the mill in front. Uh I did jump a treble on him, which is three jumps in a row. I think that's the first ever treble I've jumped on, definitely on him. I probably have did do it on my old horse, but he was great. We I put the poles quite small and it was quite good, but he was absolutely fantastic, he was great. We did it sort of like about eight, eight or nine times. Um, and and then I just did a hack um uh one uh one day this week. Uh and the reason I'm not doing much is because I'm I'm entering, okay, I've entered a hunter trials, which is like a mini cross-country type thing. Um it's uh so yeah, so usually you get like a three-day event when you have like dress arch and stuff like that. This is like or a mini event. Um, this is without those two bits, you just do the cross country section, so only 50 centimetres, so it's a reduced course. Um, so I'm off to walk the course tomorrow, which I'm I'm a little bit nervous about, maybe you'll be absolutely fine. But at the end of the day, it's I'm taking him for the experience of going there, um, and you can kind of get used to the whole kind of buzzy atmosphere and everything like that. And then um, you know, if it kind of like um if he if it's a couple of jumps he, you know, he maybe doesn't want to go over, I'm expecting him to refuse several of them, but that's fine. I'm I'm predicting we get eliminated. Um, but as long as I can get him over a few of the jumps, do you know what? I'll be quite happy with that experience. I'm not I'm not aiming to sort of do well in it or anything like that, so don't get too sort of excited. So that's happening first thing Saturday morning. So when you listen to this, it'll just be about to happen. Um, I haven't told my mum because she'll be like, oh my god, it's dangerous, you know, people get killed doing that. But you know, you've got to kind of live your life, haven't you? I can't really listen to her all the time. Um so that's what I'm doing. Uh though, what else do we do? So last weekend we did a caravan weekend. You know, we go off to the caravan um and we spend sort of like um four days or three long days and one short one at the caravan. Just kind of it's a chance for us to both spend time together without any distractions, and we just go and do things like um we've got like a nice little routine actually, you know, we'll go and walk the dogs and we'll go to the beach and then we'll maybe go to the supermarket and get some food uh and then we'll um we're going to the cinema again. What did we see? Oh, do you know what? What an absolute legend uh my bloke is, John. Well, because we went to see, okay, we went to see, um, and he was okay with this sense and sensibility, the Jane Austen novin. He's like, I don't mind going to see that. He's like, I'm quite happy to go and see that. And I was like, what? Seriously? Is this guy for real? Really? What an absolute legend. Um, yeah, so we and it was really good actually, and he really enjoyed it because he said, I've never seen any of these things before. And I think that's what I really like about him is that he's kind of open up to kind of like experiencing new sort of things and stuff like that, which is great. Um, and then we go and play golf. So we went off to play golf, and I haven't played for about a week. Um, the first time I was terrible. I haven't logged that score. Okay. The second time I was even worse. I mean, I was really, really, really terrible. And then the next time it was uh it was howling a um and it was raining, and uh, you know, I actually played much better and I got 14 points better than the worst day. So, you know, it's just one of those things, golf. Uh, you know, you just have to kind of like um, you know, you just have to kind of go with it, don't you? And keep on going with it. Yeah, so really happy about the golf. So I'm gonna go and probably hopefully do a bit more golf this weekend, but we'll see how it goes. Um, yeah, so nothing about amazing Mr. B. Uh, so he actually, um, you know, we were kind of looking, you know, at what we're doing, and he's like, oh yeah, yeah. I was like, oh Bridget Jones, love Bridget Jones. It's like, oh yeah, I quite like Bridget Jones. I've seen it loads of times, and I'm like, yeah, oh my god, he likes he likes Bridget Jones. He likes like rom com, so it's like his favourite film. You know, did you actually know that such a man existed? No, I know it's great, isn't it? Anyway, so I was like, well, okay, right. Um, so we what we watched um, yeah, we watched Bridget Jones. We watched, we watched watched all three of them over the kind of course of the weekend because they were leaving, I think it was Prime we were watching. And uh, but the thing that I took away from it, okay, is that it still sends out the message, right, that you should marry well and a man's career is important, you know? Is that true? I'm thinking to myself, but then she's sitting here thinking, well, your ex-husband was a HR manager. And I won't tell you what uh Mr. B does, but it's actually even more important than that. So it's just like uh yeah, so you know, and yeah, so I it's I'm a bit hypocritical, really, sitting here just making that observation. Maybe it's like a you know, upper middle class thing. I don't know, I it I wouldn't say we're upper, but maybe I'm middle class, I think. I know I sound a bit northern and I don't know, I don't know, I'm not sure. Um anyway. But um, you know, because actually, is it not most more important that he kind of like looks after you and is kind to you and appreciates you and knows how lucky he is to have you in his life? Because like I know like loads of people that are in relationships with lovely guys and they're all kind of like that, and they're not necessarily they don't necessarily have like a good career and lots of money, because at the end of the day, that's actually not what's really important. Um, is it? You know, you've got to be kind of happy, yeah, okay, money's really nice and it gets you by, and you know, and I I've been in a situation where I've been struggling, we've we've struggled for quite some time. Um, and I'm I'm not you know, it's nice to have I've got support now, which is great. Um, and it and I really, really appreciate that. Um, I'm they I'm not great at accepting help and support, but I am doing it and I do really appreciate it. Um anyway, so what else do we do? So we bath the dogs, okay? That's the caravan thing. There's like a uh hose there. So uh Flash Pants hates being bathed. Bibba's not too bad. She kind of she's the dog that if you're doing it in the garden at home, she'll just stand there. You won't need to tie her up, and she just, you know, oh yeah, hose down, water, fantastic, you know. Uh flash pants like stands there shivering, going, but to be fair, a bit like the pony, right? Bear in mind I've got like a supposed to be hardly fell pony. Um, and I I bathed him, right? And he behaved the same way. Flash did. He wasn't shivering, but he was trying to kick me, he's trying to kind of kick me. Front feet and back feet came all out at me. I had to be really careful. I'm like, you're supposed to be a hardy fell pony, you know, you're not supposed to be moaning about being bathed. It's a nightmare. That's another reason why I can't really ever see me showing him. I would like to, but he hates being bathed. And you know, if you've got like a show pony, then they need to get used to being bathed all the time. And he just doesn't like it at all. Um, anyway, so he's a little bit cleaner. So I do need to um I kind of I need to kind of touch up his clip tomorrow if I get time. But it's it's actually looking pretty smart. Usually last year it was a rubbish effort, and this year I've got some uh some new clippers, and they're cordless and they were fantastic. And I did it, and I was really pleased with them actually. And they're a great set of clippers, so that's quite good. So it does he does actually look pretty smart to be fair. Um, a lot of my friends were going, Well, it looks really smart, it looks really good. It's a good job to that. So I was like, that's great, that's okay. Um, not sure what Jane would think of that, but there we go. Um, so what else do we do? Yeah, so sense and sensibility, you went off to see that. And it was like Willoughby ditches Marianne, who is allegedly in love for with her for a rich heiress. Um, and now your Marianne is heartbreaking, and he finds much better man in the form of Captain Brandon, which is no, so again, it's like showing you that although, you know, people, you know, not necessarily, you shouldn't necessarily marry like for money, because at the end of the day, people aren't always necessarily happy when they've done that. You kind of think that you have to, you think you have to marry for money and status, or you did in those days anyway. But is that not true of the upper class society now? Do not they not that have to marry from that one particular circle, and just because it's a pretty small circle, so the chances of you actually finding somebody that you're really happy with, you know, are quite slim, really, aren't they? Yeah, just putting that out there. Okay, so uh so I will kind of we'll do a bit of a bit of blunty, right? Um, so um, so I haven't seen all of it, I've only seen a couple of social marler clips. And you may have seen uh James joking that he and Joe Marler um could be brothers separated at birth, which is actually quite funny, uh because it's highly unlikely. Or is it, you know, do we actually know because we don't know these things, do we? It's a bit kind of like it's an unknown kind of entity. Um, and like because I always thought that I was a twin, okay? Um, this is a true story. My granddad was a twin, um, and like, and usually it skips a generation, and I always thought I was a twin, but I wasn't, it was just me. Um, and ever since I was kind of young, I always thought I've got to find my twin, although I knew I hadn't got one, and it was and it was just a bit weird. I remember even like scrabbling around through old family records going, did he die at birth? Did was that the case? You know, did it did I actually have a twin at some point? Um, but there are lots of different types of twins, okay. Um, and I've done a bit more research that uh on on this quite recently. And I am going to talk a little bit about something called twin flames. And I don't know if you have heard about twin flames, you know what they are. So they're basically the legends of them, um, they can be traced back to Greek times, okay. Um and or did you mention that my Catherine is Greek, is it Greek name, Greek for pure, or something like that? I can't remember anyway. That might not be right. I think it might be. I'm gonna have to go and check now, aren't I? Fact check. But yeah, it has got Greek rates, okay. Um it's you it's linked to the word cath catharos meaning pure. Okay, anyway, that's interesting bit of trivia there. Love is pure. Yeah, anyway, we'll just we'll carry on with that. Um and uh so I kind of uh I just uh yeah, so I just wanted to hear a little bit about twin flames. So um so I'd never heard of them before. Um so apparently they say the the legend is the Greek mythology legend is that um everybody had like four legs and four arms, and at some point the gods and the the Greek cut people in two, which isn't really realistic, is it? I mean it's highly unlikely, and then therefore the two souls were the one soul was separated in two, and they were deemed to kind of um come back from each individual different lifetime, okay, until um they reunited at some point. Um, however, um there is an instance where sometimes they will maybe meet up, and when they see each other, okay, it's an instant recognition. And anybody who has listened to my James Blunt um um podcast about me being the muse and seeing him on the subway for the first time and that there was a flash of light, so was is gonna kind of understand where I'm going with this, but uh it's an instant recognition that you know that person, okay, um, instantly, that there's you have a connection to them, you know it instantly, and and this is something about twin flames, they'll instantly know each other, um, and they'll know there's a connection to each other um as soon as they meet. But one thing that legend says, okay, um, and I don't think there's any documented evidence of this happening happened, but they communicate with each other by their eyes, hence the flash of light when our eyes met. And what can happen is if they've met at not the right time, when maybe there isn't enough growth um between the two of them, or maybe it's the wrong lifetime, maybe they haven't re met in the right lifetime, um then they can kind of blind, one will blind the other one. And they'll get such one one of them will have such a mad rush, adrenaline rush, okay, from the other one that they can't they struggle to breathe and their kind of heart is like pounding in the chest and they can't do anything about it. This is the the legend, okay. Um, because it twin flames are the two souls, okay, um, coming back together to reunite. Um, and it's not necessarily a romantic connection, okay. People think that the twin flames is like a romantic connection, it's not actually. Sometimes it can be, but there are quite a lot of twin flame people out there that you know just kind of like they help each other grow and change and become the best version of themselves, and they kind of work through all of the things that are wrong with them, um, and because they're mirrors of each other, okay. Um, and and sometimes in life, what can happen is um, you know, because James is on traitors, okay, and he's renowned for not telling the truth, but sometimes you don't tell the truth because you don't want to face up to it yourself, or maybe you're not ready to face up to it yourself, um, so therefore it's easier just to lie about things because you don't want people to know how you feel, or you can't express yourself, or you don't really feel any emotions, and there's lots of different things like that. And and what um twin flames do with each other is they make each other face things. Um they kind of like, you know, we'll sort of hold them to account maybe um and make them grow in various different ways and say, right, okay, so that's what's wrong with you. Um you know, because at the end of the day, I I wrote to him, I think I told I think I I can't on the podcast, I I sent him a message via Facebook and said, Listen, I know that you think that this it was it was he said it was an ex-girlfriend, but uh I had a strange situation and it was such a memorable event that I kind of was like, I'm sure it was you, you know, it was just so memorable. And then when I worked out it definitely was him, I sent him a really ranting letter saying, right, what is going on, what's happening, what's occurring, um and I you know, other thief things as well. Um I was just like because I just didn't kind of know. Um, but the reason I kind of did write to him was because I'd looked at him and and in recent kind of in that particular time, and I just thought he looks a complete mess. Um, he looks absolutely terrible. I think I've said this before in other podcasts, I I can't really remember, but I just thought there's something really, really very wrong here. Um and I kind of and I kind of I actually said to him, I said, who is the man behind the mask? And of course, the next tour that he did, he went out and went out in a gas mask, didn't he? So I was like, right, okay, it's it's definitely you, I know it is. Um, but I was I just kind of I needed to kind of get to kind of like understand, you know, exactly what is going on, what is happening, but I don't think he's capable of telling everybody what's happening, um, because he's not very good at telling the truth, hence the reason he's probably gonna be a traitor on traitors. Um so it's kind of up to me, okay, to get the get the kind of like message out to people about twin flames, because I think that's probably what we are. Um, but I don't know because it's difficult to kind of speak to somebody when you don't know them that well, they're a complete stranger. It's a really, really strange situation to be in. Plus the fact that he's pop possibly been stalking me for about 20 years, um, trying to get my attention and try and tell us what we are, you know. So it's meanwhile all all the while being extremely angry with me. The chances are he's also broken into my house, um, and has definitely used some of my stuff to make records because he's used sort of a lot of my Instagram messages to make mess records on the previous album. So it's like it's you know, it's just it's it's just uh I find myself in such a bizarre, strange situation. Um, and I have to go out and get some answers. And I haven't even told you all about the stalking stuff yet, okay? Just wait till you hear the 30-minute YouTube video of that, okay? Which I'm gonna record it. I'm going, I'm I'm gonna record it um on Saturday, okay, after I've done my hunter trials. Um, because I've got a bit of time to do stuff myself. So I'm gonna record it then and it's gonna go out. So look out for it on Saturday evening. I'll shove it on Instagravy. Um yeah, I'm not sure I'll put it on Facebook though. I'm not sure what my parents are looking at it at the moment. Um, I'll just stick it, I'll just stick it out. They can watch it on TV at some other point in time. I'm just not ready to tell them, and this is a problem. When you've been through something or you're going through something, it's really difficult to share it with people who are close to you. Um, I mean, my my partner John knows knows everything really. Um, and I found it it was easier to say to speak to like a work colleague about it all because I don't know her that well, and it was easier. But it's it's actually really difficult to say things like this, um, you know, to people and family whom. members who are really really close to you. Um anyway, so you can hear all about that. There's just so many things, you know, in addition to the whole kind of like, you know, how it works, you know so yeah. So I'm kind of I'm I haven't really this podcast is not it's not gonna not the one I was kind of expecting it to do. But you know sometimes these things happen don't they and they become something else. But I'm I'm I'm kind of I what I need to know what's going on okay I've got to have an answer. I need to know whether or not he followed me home. I need to know has he been stalking me for 20 years. I need to know what we are okay are we twin flames? These are questions that I have to have answers to um because it's kind of got to that stage where I just don't want to kind of like you know I just I need to know you know because you need to know what's happened don't you in your life um so and you know so and so and but the the situation where we are at the moment though it's it's so bizarre it's just completely unbelievable and there is another element to this and I actually sent uh I sent I told my I plucked up the courage and told a friend of mine sent her a video link um and I said right go and look at this and she kind of said what what's going on in fact I'm gonna just tell you right so go and have a look okay Barcelona 2022 right go and have a look at the first two minutes during breathe okay and and you'll look you'll see he looks right okay okay look what happens to his eyes right okay I just told her I gave her those instructions right and this is this is where it starts getting extremely crazy but I gave her those instructions and did that and and then I came back and I said do you know what caused that she was like no I said me looking at how at him without a pair of sunglasses on and she just went oh my lord and I kind of went yeah maybe possibly Jesus Christ but there we go that that's it it's all very bizarre so I have to I have to get some answers you know I've got to know I've I've got to I've got to find out what's going on you know why because like and I know we said we've been communicating and one of the messages that I got from him was you blind me okay and you you need to be wearing sunglasses and it was just like seriously what is going on this is just completely ludicrous it's absolutely crazy um but you know what it could be something generally really really important he's incapable of getting this out so it has to be up to me and it's taken me about four years and a lot of help with from media colleagues to get to this point okay because I know I have support um from the media I've I've got that and it's fine and it's okay because there is no way I could go from being so unknown okay to completely ridiculously famous it would just set me completely do lally so you know so we'll see how we go we'll see how we get on okay um with that little piece of information but go and have a look for yourself and you'll see what happens but I need to know a bit more than that okay I have actually stood at the back of the room um I I have told John this and I have flicked up my sunglasses when I've gone to see him in concert and watch his head move to the side right so I've got tickets to three of his concerts right and I'm gonna go out okay um and I'm gonna take my sunglasses and I'm gonna see if I can get him to do it move his head to the side so that people can notice and see what happens because I think that's the only way that I'm ever going to find out what on earth is actually going on okay um and I know it's a bit bizarre um and that's not even the stalking bit but I've just got to get this out there because what if we're so important and the reason I'm saying this is because that I was listening to Chris Evans as an AI expert today on Chris Evans's Virgin Radio Breakfast Show. And the AI expert actually said to me oh sorry he said to me he said well he did say to me because he was in my in my earphones you know he said we need to pause AI because we're about two years away from super intelligence and I'm thinking whoa well what if we are some kind of message you know and we might be need we might be the catalyst that actually makes people go right we need to stop this now because we don't really know what's going on or what's happening with the universe and is this a particular sign to say that actually if we do continue down the AI path then you know something terrible is going to happen you know so you know it's kind of up to me um to get the message out but I'm not famous so it's really really difficult and it's been a bit of an uphill battle um if I'm honest to get myself heard anyway um I'm gonna put that one out there okay uh as I say when you listen to this if you listen to it um whenever you listen to it some people listen to it Saturday some people listen to it later on the week um go and check out the the the stalking thing um but the thing is I haven't seen him you know usually when you have a stalker okay you know don't you right you see them they turn up at your work they write letters to you blah blah blah blah blah you know none of that haven't seen him once so you know it's although it's you know he calls himself a psychopathic stalker and he probably has broken into the house it's more of a kind of watching over you checking you're okay kind of stalking which is a completely different sort of thing altogether really isn't it um you know that's a that's a more kind of like a a brotherly kind of you know are you okay because one thing I've noticed as well in my life whenever I had an issue certainly since I've seen him whenever I had an issue and something cropped up which was causing me you know a is being a complete nightmare what I noticed was it just kind of disappeared the problem. I can't think of any specific examples but they just sort of disappear and I'm kind of now thinking what was that to do with him? I don't know. I'm just putting that out there I haven't got a clue and this is it I don't know um and I probably should have asked all these questions a lot sooner. Um but you know you're busy living your life and you're kind of thinking well did I just imagine that is that no bizarre but anyway I put that one out there now um that might go viral at some point who knows I won't be surprised actually but there we go but I will try and um yeah I'll try and get some more information and get some get some more video footage of it all for you um when I when I go and see him at the concerts anyway uh have a great week everybody and I will catch you for week 13