Pekko: ‘In the beginning there was nothing…well not nothing like…I was there… obviously… and I was alone…well not alone…not alone alone anyway…coz like…everything was in one place…in a sense but like… I was me as opposed to everything else…pffft…this is actually really hard to explain to a mortal…
Gnil: and here we go again… the same cycle every time… this pathetic creature…with all his power…capable of almost anything… and he just sits here so starved of attention he’s lost his mind… I don’t know how many times I’ve heard this story…you’d think he’d get his story straight by the 100th time…
Pekko: I guess you had to be there… my earliest memories were it’s thoughts…not thoughts exactly…it’s will…and all it said was…or or it willed was that ‘it was time’… now I hadn’t given it a name at this point but when I talk about it now… I call it Kairos…but that’s neither here nor there…anyway… after I heard Kairos’ will…it wasn’t long i wasn’t alone anymore… she was there too… My Ilkea…so there we were the two of us…the two of and Kairos’ will…all one but also like alone… what came next was bit hazy like …I didn’t have a sense of…well…anything yet…just a feeling up until then…a presence…I didn’t even know she completed me…like I said it was all a bit funky… but soon there gaps in the presence…a separation between me and her…but never a separation from Kairos…. It was always hanging about kind of like a fart but your own brand so you don’t mind it much…anyway uh soon the gaps between me and Ilkea grew…it grew larger and larger until it was absolute…painful…unbearable…
Gnil: ughhh! This bit is the worst…listening to this pitiful thing pine after her- she told me her version… her exhilaration, her joy of emancipation from him… so…pathetically self indulgent… so eugh… wet
Pekko: in that space came longing a longing for her and soon the will again…the will… but this time it willed meto close the gap…but I couldn’t…not on my Todd …there was nothing but separation…nothing which could bridge the gap…I don’t know how I knew it…but I knew she wasn’t a builder…she was something else…something different…I was the builder…the first thing I thought to create was a bridge but it took so much time… and as the time passed my frustration grew my frustration and my longing… I pushed those feelings down… and I pushed them away and from those grew the first of the others my children I guess … first…the one you know as Ai the lady of light …followed by Dicter who quite frankly was a bit of a dick-
Gnil: Dicter was one of the better ones… well…for a deity … always much more fun than that saccharine cow, Ai. She’s the one who locked me away…kept me from enjoying myself for soooo long. You don’t see me falling apart… Tsk. I refuse to accept that fate.
Pekko: they did not know the will, the didn’t feel Kairos…not as I felt it… they did not feel it’s presence or it’s insistence that ‘it was time’- but they did know my will- my longing…my rage… and they acted on that will- it fuelled them…at least for a time… and it built our bridge- in time came the others… the rest of my children… many children and as their numbers grew unsurprisingly…so did the discord…soon the bickering became such that bridge to Ilkea was neglected, interrupted…damaged…. But again…the wildest thing happened.. this discord gave birth to others…the uhh next generation I guess… the ones you might know as Adel, Rohkuetta, Eheys…and with them again the bridge continued… again these new forms began to multiply…and in their multiplicity again grew discord
Gnil: Rohukuetta…Adel… hmmm I remember when they died…[laugh] I bet this fool doesn’t even realise they are gone… those arrogant bafoons really thought they could turn the tide… it was exhilarating to watch… the only thing more intoxicating than power- is watching it extinguished as it burns so brightly….hmmmm… it’s been too long since I’ve enjoyed something like that… but this….this is pathetic…watching this raw power whimper and fade…poisoned against its own potential.
Pekko: soon again the bridge suffered… but now pieces of my beautiful bridge would start to go missing the little bastards chipped them away and secreted them here and there… each one in competition… well the bridge began to collapse … further away… from the source of my longing…now…now I was bloody tired…now all I wanted… all I longed for was order…harmony… and once more some pretty crazy things started to happen… from my resignation and my desire for accord…came the newer forms…another generation of children… the ones you know as Ygryfraith, Cytgord, Trefn…
Gnil: Ygryfraith, Cytgord, Trefn…the buzzkills pffft… it was no surprise they went willingly…the only thing worse than this wretch’s pathetic atrophy…self-immolation…better to burn the world…just knowing the universe is this piteous thing’s love note to her… all the more reason to watch it burn.
Pekko: these new forms…well… they achieved more than any of those who came before- they organised the others- distracted those who would interfere, deconflicted with those whose interests had erred…integrated those who could add value and soon the bridge was closing the gap faster than ever and I was less than hairs breadth from my love….
It no longer mattered when the material was stolen or squandered it no longer mattered when discord amongst the others flared- it was well managed… it was ordered and nothing could stop the Construction of the bridge or the closing of the gap… my focus…my focus had only ever been the bridge…reaching Ilkea becoming one with her again… and so without my notice many other things had come into being….. stretching across the entire gap were uncountable new creations…new planes of existence…countless worlds and new creatures… creatures so small, so perishing and insignificant…that they could barely be said to exist at all… at least when compared with us…but somehow these forms, despite their fleeting lives spread across the separation, making home in the planes and worlds which they could… Ai…first of my children came to love these creatures more than anything else and it was through her love that they had come to grow so plentiful… and in their plenty again came discord…not that I cared…but this bit probably matters to you lot, right? This…this is when you…fleeting creatures…this is when you came to give my children their names…you called them your gods…
Gnil: [disgust] Eugh! Don’t lump me in with the mortals… I feel dirty just thinking that I am related to them. Come on…I’m getting bored… lose focus….I need to feed!
Pekko: but like I say…I actually didn’t give a shit…I never really got involved with you lot…not till later really…and even then…only cause I had to… all I cared about was reaching her… but…when I finally did… I learned that my longing.., my pain…. All of my effort to reach her…. Had been in vain… now I dunno if you’ve ever made a big ol’ romantic gesture before… but…as far as they go…building the universe to reach the one you love…Probably…doesn’t quite compare…but… if you’ve ever suffered the pain of unrequited love…well…imagine finding out it’s unrequited after going through all that fuss…I chased her… i courted her… I created and built works which rivalled the bridge to win her heart… but with each new creation and each new attempt…her scorn for me only grew…I had almost surrendered and lost myself in misery when out of nowhere I heard Kairos once more… it’s will had changed…this time it was empty… hollow…it told me simply… ‘my time was through’ and for the first time…since the very beginning…I felt it’s presence abandon me… as you can imagine i was in quite the state…the universe was full of grand creations…new creatures and more ‘gods’ than you could shake a stick at…but for the first time… I was truly alone… now i was already at the end of my tether and just as I was about to pack it all in and started wallowing in abandoned grief… she came to me suddenly… my Illkea… she confessed her love to me… she begged for reunion with me and for us to create children of our own- together…
Gnil: that must have been disgusting…Eugh… I can’t believe she had the stomach for it… well… needs must.
Pekko: Well.., I’m not one to look a gift horse in the mouth..naturally… I obliged… and we spent the next little while in union and we tried…we tried to make children of our own… children of our union… but it wasn’t like before…when I was trying to reach her …well…let’s just say it didn’t work out…what we created was of an entirely different nature…our children were inert, silent, empty…without any of the vitality of the ones you lot called gods…we tried and we tried and soon our silent offspring were as plentiful as the stars… she never seemed to fret or worry about it though …never seemed to shed a tear unlike myself.. I’m a bit of a softy really…her appetite was insatiable and she never wanted to stop trying…but I found myself and my will weakening with every attempt … so as you can imagine…it came as quite the surprise when it was her…who broke off our union and once again broke my heart…I chased her and chased her around the cosmos begging and asking for an explanation…and she met me with only silence…I was insistent though… I was determined… if I was going to resign myself to my isolation from her and from the Kairos’ will … I was going to get an answer…eventually she got sick of my whiny begging…
Gnil: well… I can certainly sympathise with that…come on… lose focus! This is soooo boring it hurts!
Pekko: she rounded on me… looked me right in the eye and said just four words…’your time is through’…well that’s when it all went tits up for everyone else… especially your lot…but we can leave that story for another time, right?
Gnilfeit: [bored] Hmmm sure…
Pekko: [sigh] you know… I’ve never told that story to anyone…
Gnil: [affected sincerity] really?! No one? Ever? That’s amazing…
Pekko: I dunno why I’m telling you… I guess you remind me of her you know… it’s the eyes… I’ve never seen a mortal with…
Gnilfiet: [still bored] you look tired… you should probably rest…
Pekko: rest [chuckle] I can’t rest… I need to ummm…ummm… where am…I’m sorry…I’ve lost my train of thought… what was I…did….did you…I’m sorry who…who are you again?
Gnilfiet: [chuckling satisfied recognizing his vulnerability and confusion- affected sincerity and concern ]- to self: Yes! Now it’s time- Oh Pekko… don’t tell me you don’t recognise me… it’s me… it’s your Ilkea…
Pekko: Illkea… is that… is that really you? Salt the earth…I’ve been here for so long… I’ve been… so alone…
Gnilfiet: shhhh shhh shhh shhh shhh… I’m here now…
Pekko: did they find they… did they find away to stop it? Can I leave now? Please…
Gnilfiet: Poor Pekko… not yet… they just need a little while longer…
Pekko: I can’t… I can’t stay here… I’m losing my…
Gnilfiet: well…I’ve thought of that maybe…maybe I can help them…
Pekko: No! It’s too dangerous…
Gnilfiet: well… maybe… maybe you could lend me your strength again… just a little more and I could…
Pekko: I can’t… there’s not much… wait…again? you’re… who the fuck are you?!
Gnilfiet: [sigh] Eugh! Come to your senses again have you? -To self: such a waste of time- This dance is getting really very boring. Come on Hullus I don’t have time for this.
Pekko: don’t fucking call me that! You! I remember…. Get away from me… or I will banish you again!
Gnilfiet: Really? And what would be the point in that? Hmmm? I’ll just come back. And you’ll be here all lost and alone and confused again. Why not just give me what I-?
Pekko: [clicks his finger cutting her off and banishing her] parasite mortals…wait…what was I doing again? Fuuuuuuck…I really need to find a hobby… this place sucks…
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