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Don-sessions: A Beautiful Mess: Navigating Life's Twists & Turns feat. Brittney, Karissa, & Mo
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This one is quite the ride! Along the way, we cover a wide range of topics such as peanut butter preferences, the significance of English classes in school, and demystify life’s complexities and confront the pressures of achievement and timelines. Join us as we discuss coping strategies, trusting people, learning to let go, and the hilarity of a vegan corn dog... You don't want to miss this!
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The Importance of Reminders and Self-Awareness
Speaker 1I'm just, I don't think that's naive. I just see the best in people, yeah, and I don't think that's about quality. I just I trust people too much and I'm like, no, they don't. They don't mean it like that or no, that's not what they're thinking, but then it like screws you over in the end.
Speaker 2Good morning, good afternoon and good evening. Everybody Welcome back.
Speaker 3I'm your host, donovan, and whether you find yourself facing the sun today and sailing through the waves with ease, or whether you find yourself searching for the moon, trudging your way through the mud, trust that you're exactly where you're meant to be and there's a reason for all of it. I want to give a quick shout out to every single person sitting in my dugout. You all know who you are and my ability to play this game of life would not be what it is without each of you. That will make a little more sense in a second, but today I'm joined by Brittany Sorensen-Vella, carissa Herrera and Modesta Sorensen-Vella. We realize many times throughout our conversation just how important English classes really are and, honestly, we're just shooting the shit, but in true donations style, we find ourselves digging a little deeper into the meaning of life. This conversation, as always, was enlightening and just the right amount of lightheartedness that I needed. I hope any bit of it can resonate with you and I hope you enjoy.
Speaker 3You all know how sports movies are. You've ever seen any sports movies Movies about baseball or Every sports movie? When it's that slow motion shot, it's like the whole movie has culminated up until this point and then they're going to shoot the shot or hit the ball or whatever. But picture that moment right. I'm not sure if I can hit it or not, I'm not sure what I can do with this moment. And then I look to the right and in the dugout are the three of y'all reminding me who I am yelling at me, why I'm at the plate in the first place and then it's time to swing.
Speaker 4I'm not crying, you're crying.
Speaker 3I think I get a lot of pivotal moments in my life when I've needed reminders the most. I have looked in my dugout and seen y'all, and y'all have reminded me of who I am and what I'm capable of, and then kind of turned the mirror on me and said look at yourself like this is everything that you are. And then I remember why I'm playing the game in the first place, why I'm qualified to play the game in the first place. I mean, you know, I like to think that we're all self-sufficient and we're adults and we know what we're doing with our lives and we know where we're trying to go and we know what situations we get ourselves in and how to nurture those things or how to get out of them. And you know, I see that in all of us. But at the same time I feel like sometimes we just need reminders, and you guys have always been that for me at very pivotal moments in my life.
Speaker 1You're that for us too, especially me I'll speak for myself like definitely you've been my biggest cheerleader.
Speaker 3I try to be for each of y'all as the way that y'all are for me.
Speaker 3Sometimes we can get caught up at like points in life where, like we kind of say, whenever I have this, I'll be good, or when I finish this and I accomplish this, then everything will be set right, or when it's like a point in the future, everything will be okay. I think sometimes we forget to look at how special now is and how aware we have to be to be where we are now and how sometimes people go their whole lives not being aware, not being as self-aware and, you know, find themselves repeating cycles in their life and sometimes we feel like I've got this goal in the future and when I get there, everything will be okay. But I think sometimes, just looking at just that, what we've gotten through the cycles that we've broken, how aware we are of how we've nurtured and not nurtured our own lives, and why does it feel like there's like a time limit, or not a time limit, but like a certain point of time where we're supposed to do something in our lives?
Speaker 2because right now I feel like I'm having a midnight midlife crisis at a midnight, but I really do. I just feel like I'm not as advanced as I probably should be for a 32 year old.
Speaker 4I don't feel like that's true.
Speaker 3Yeah, it's gonna.
Speaker 4Good relationship. You got a good group of friends. You got a good head on your shoulder. You know what I mean.
Speaker 3Yeah, yeah, I was gonna say that too. I think it's. I think we all do that right, like we look at where we are through our lens and then you saying, that first response from us looking at you from the outside in is like no way, like there, there is no way that you should feel that way, like your way accomplished, where you're exactly where you should be if not ahead.
Speaker 1Yeah, I agree, I feel like you're doing great. Thank you, thank you all of us in this room right here. I feel like we've been pretty far. I don't think we should put a time limit on, or what we should have done by this age.
Speaker 3Yeah, I think it's good to always be growing and pursuing more and you know, pushing ourselves, challenging ourselves, putting ourselves in front of challenges and seeing like, okay, I need to get through this because I want something more for my life. I think that's always good to always want something more, but we shouldn't let that, let us think that it means we're behind, because we don't have it yet. Easier said than done, because I feel the same way. I feel like I should be a little bit more ahead than where I am at this age, and I get that. It feels like there's a timeline or there's like a clock ticking.
Speaker 2I don't know how, though, like you're one of the first people I know who got a house, everybody was like running through apartments.
Speaker 1Just buying a house, like where are you going to Donovan's?
Speaker 2He had his own house.
Speaker 3You know, I guess sometimes you like put your head down because you want to do something right, you put your head down and do it and you forget to look up, and it was kind of just one of those things on the path that was like.
Speaker 2Were you not scared.
Speaker 3No.
Speaker 2That is like such a like a major thing to just be like, yeah, talk to these people, sign these papers, put this money down.
Speaker 3It was. I guess I just kind of went through it it was. It was more looking at the end goal. I guess sometimes, when we look at like we think about going to school for something or you know, to get a degree or certification or something, we think about all the steps we have to take to get there because we've already been through school right, and we know what a diploma takes. And then we go. We've been to college so we know what a degree takes, so we have that experience. I had no experience buying a house or buying anything of that magnitude before, so it was more I'll always focused on was the house, getting keys and stepping through the front door. I didn't think like this is what it means for your finances, this is what it means for All of these adult Terms like credit, mortgage, escrow, all those things that I probably still don't have a full grasp on.
Speaker 2Still, I have no idea. We owned a house before we even knew what the word escrow meant.
Speaker 4Yeah, we looked at our bake stand and we were like what's escrow? Did we put too much in or too little? I guess we put too much in because we got like a thousand dollar check the first year. We're like woohoo.
Speaker 1It's not even like we get to decide what we put into it, obviously like the company tells us. But we're like what's this mean? Like nobody teaches you these things.
Speaker 2See, nobody does, and like that drives me insane right now, like I feel like that should be something in high school you should learn.
Speaker 1Take out some of the classes that you're in, like you know what I mean. Yeah like finances and nobody taught me about finances. Nobody taught about credit.
Speaker 4My baby had to teach me about credit.
Speaker 1It like what? How old were we at that? Like 27. Mm-hmm, you had to teach me about credit, and that's sad because nobody ever taught me about that.
Speaker 4Recently a credit card.
Speaker 1You know what? I've had it for a couple years now, so I'm like a couple years ago.
Speaker 4Yes but I won't ever own a credit card because I was like I don't have a credit.
Speaker 2I was lucky to have a grandparent in my life who, like, co-signed my car, and let me know like credit is important. My credit and his credit was insane, apparently, because when they ran, his credit for that co-signer like thing. The guy was like this is the highest credit score I've ever seen.
Speaker 1Oh, no, it was.
Speaker 2I don't know, but like perfect score.
Speaker 2My grandpa right. My grandpa was like, do not mess up my credit, but also you need to know how important credit is, like this is what credit does. And, to be fair, like I do have a really good credit score and now I do understand when I do need to apply for something a credit card or if I need something like the amount of credit that they give me my line is so high, so I do know the importance of credit and shit. It's just like shit like that, like mortgage escrow, all of that shit. No fucking clue.
Speaker 4But I'm the first home buyer. Yeah, you got credit down.
Speaker 1If you got credit down, you got this escrow stuff. That it's all just words on a paper to me, as long as my house is paid for we good, not the words.
Speaker 4On a paper Like my house insurance right now.
Speaker 1I haven't touched it since I started it. Apparently, it goes on to my mortgage and I'm okay with that. Okay, I have no idea. Just renews itself. I don't know how much it is, I just know it's too progressive.
Speaker 4Shout out to progressive for the auto renewal. I don't know if I signed up.
Speaker 2They said we are going to keep taking you.
Speaker 4So do y'all believe? This is so off topic, but we were just talking about being self-aware and everything. Do you believe in reincarnation? I just feel like I've met people in my lifetime that I'm like absolutely amazed that they've made it that far in life. And then I met other people that seem wise beyond the years. I'm like they must have done something right in their past life and been reincarnated to be wise like this now.
Reincarnation and Self-Awareness
Speaker 2But if you like, go into it. Some people think you're reincarnated because you didn't learn enough.
Speaker 1Yes, exactly.
Speaker 2So to be wise is probably not a good thing. Do you get what?
Speaker 4I'm saying I was bad at my past life, not disagree.
Speaker 2Or just didn't learn the lesson you were supposed to no.
Speaker 3I feel like this may be my last go around. No, because I feel like I'm finally learning shit. I feel like you're more self-aware. And I've always felt like I had a little bit of knowledge in my back pocket. And now I feel like, damn, this whole time I didn't know shit. This is the real stuff right here. So maybe I've been going in circles and circles through all these lifetimes and finally got it. I don't know.
Speaker 4That's how. I was curious, though, because I feel like maybe this past couple of years, maybe this past year, I've been trying to be more self-aware.
Speaker 2But I don't know. That's a really big subject to get into.
Speaker 4Yeah, not reincarnation itself. I'm always curious because I feel like in order to be self-aware, you have to be open to the idea of being self-aware and realizing the cycles you can put yourself into and trying to break them. And I feel like some people just aren't there sometimes so it's just I don't get it. I don't get people like that. That's why I'm like I wonder if reincarnation is real and they just they didn't get reincarnated very good.
Speaker 2I mean, maybe they're on their first lap. Maybe they're just on their first lap.
Speaker 4Yeah, no, you're right. See, you do believe in reincarnation. I don't.
Speaker 3I mean, yeah, that would be a good point, like maybe you're on a little bit further along for you to recognize that.
Speaker 4I still fuck up a lot, so I'm probably like on lap number two, let's be honest rounding the final, maybe lap three, if I'm getting lucky you know what I like, the number 10 part.
Speaker 1I'll lap two. I really want to just like medium.
Speaker 2It just I want to believe in reincarnation to a point, but then I don't. Yeah, so, but the only reason is because, like, okay, if we do have paranormal spirit, like they just didn't. Why didn't they get reincarnated if they weren't done so like? Why are they stuck in the spirit realm, yeah, and not just like they weren't reincarnated into anything else?
Speaker 2But yeah other people may have been reincarnated because they didn't learn their lesson and they're just. And what is that word? Purgatory? Is it purgatory? It's purgatory, so like. That's why I kind of I'm like, if you on reincarnation.
Speaker 4Why some white others?
Speaker 2Yeah.
Speaker 4So the only reason I think I'm on lab two is because I do have a career kind of, but I don't kind of like my career and I only pick my career based on money and scrubs.
Speaker 3Isn't that what we all do? At the beginning, though, yeah.
Speaker 4That's why I'm like I feel like I could have picked my career a little bit better, but I was poor and so I was like the first one gots to work, I think, but I think they push nursing on.
Speaker 2So many people Like or at least not so many people as much as like girls. That's one of the first things you looked up In high school. Like so many people come to talk to you to recruit you for nursing and like I mean it was what I thought I wouldn't have to do right out of high school because I didn't know what I wanted to do. And I was like, well, I got to go to college and if I'm going to go to college, I might as well pick a major. If I'm going to pick a major, fuck it, I'm gonna pick nursing, because why not? And then I got to A&P and I was like, no, fuck you.
Speaker 4Like kidding, not kidding. I was like scrubs are cute. What career where scrubs? So Google careers that were scrubs. Then Googled how are you paying careers that were scrubs? And found nursing?
Speaker 2I was like oh, you should have become a son of a bitch.
Speaker 4I wish I go back. I probably could still go back to school and do that, but yeah.
Speaker 3You know. So the other day I was talking to a friend of mine and we were talking about our jobs. So for mine, for example, it's every day is different. There's a different issue every day for the kind of work that I do. But it suits me because I'm a problem solver when there's a really hard problem to solve and I go through that day in and day out, from the start of the day to the end of the day, throughout the week, and I figure out that I solve that problem. It's fulfilling to me and I feel good about the job that I'm doing. I feel like I did my part on this team right To complete this mission, whatever. And it feels good and it's fulfilling and I can go home at night, lay my head down and say we did a good job today and we'll wake up tomorrow and try the next problem that pops up. But I'm not passionate about it. Like there's just a lack of passion there, like it feels like the hamster wheel kind of thing.
Speaker 4Do you like your team?
Speaker 3I do, okay, I really do, and in the very simplest form. I like working on a team.
Speaker 4Yeah, so remember how you were saying we feel like sometimes we're not accomplishing things at a certain age or we feel like we should be. I say screw all that and just do whatever the fuck you want. So you could be 60 and if you wanna go back and go back to college, which that might be extreme, but start a new career path or a new hobby, do it. Some people do it.
Speaker 4Yeah, so not gonna put his age out there, but even where you're out in here in life right now, if you want to pick up a new career or hobby cause you don't even have to go to school for certain trades just do it. Do it fulfills your life.
Speaker 3Yeah, sometimes it takes like going through life right and experiencing different things to find like, oh, this really makes me feel good, this, I'm really passionate about this, and there's a lot of pressure coming out of high school. It's like what are you gonna do?
Speaker 4Yeah.
Speaker 3What's your plan? You need to have a plan.
Speaker 1I hate that. Like you go to college and you take basics but you're like for what, like what am. I going for you know.
Speaker 2Honestly, I feel like college is just trash. I'm not even gonna lie to you.
Speaker 3I think more and more, it's not holding its weight as much.
Speaker 2Yeah, I just think, like the, it's just for fucking money, dude. Like we took English and math and all of that bullshit our whole lives. Every year we had a different math class, a different English class and then when we got out of high school, we went into college and they said you have to take an English class.
Speaker 2You have to take a math class, whether it had anything to do with nursing, whether it had anything to do with cosmetology, whether it had anything to do with IT, radiology, didn't fucking matter. Take an English class, write a fucking essay. Take a music class, take a PE class.
Speaker 4Yeah, like I can imagine kind of English, cause some people like I'm bad with my words and I could probably choose them better. But taking, I started taking, starting doing classes for my BSN History. For what? Oh my gosh Christopher Columbus.
Speaker 1Zelda Ultra Blue and my team. I was like what are you thinking that?
Speaker 4I just remember those dates that passed the test, Like why do I need to know history for nursing?
Speaker 2That's what I'm saying. Did you just take history for cosmetology? I had to take history. I had to take a speech. Oh no, then For cosmetology Bitch, I had to take my basics.
Speaker 1I had to take history as well and it was the worst class and I don't barely pass it. I don't even know how I passed it.
Speaker 2I honestly had to take my basics for culinary.
Speaker 4Why did I have to take English? I forgot you did culinary.
Speaker 2Yes, I had my associates in culinary arts, why did I have to take an English class? Well, that's why. That's why that is why. But anyways, like why did I? Have to take all of these fucking classes, a PE class To bake a cake, to make a maca home.
Speaker 1You gotta make sure your arms are strong enough, girl, you gotta lift them cakes. No, no, I'm like, let me just fucking run, let me jog these labs so I can fucking get out of here.
Speaker 2Get a grade, that's it. Yeah, get a grade. I had to sign in, walk out Like what the fuck? Fun fact.
Speaker 4When I did my research, I was like fun fact, when I did my history class I don't know why I did this to myself I signed up for an early class, it was like a seven-something class and that's how I got my coffee addiction. Cause I drank coffee, cause I was like I don't know why I did this to myself. It was back then when classes were full, what 16 weeks or whatever. So, yeah, that's how my coffee addiction became about.
Speaker 3I don't know when I had my first coffee.
Speaker 4I remember it distinctly because I was like she said vividly I was like I got a jinking energy drinks, then I got burnt out on those and I was like I gotta do something to wake me up. Maybe should you get coffee. You know a little routine go to a cafe, get a little coffee. Coffee, I have a serious question.
Speaker 1I don't know anybody else no, this ain't a serious question. I don't know anybody else that I've ever met at my age right now or older, that doesn't like coffee, like me, and I don't quite understand how y'all got to liking coffee.
Speaker 4You like chicken strips in price? You don't like coffee.
Speaker 1I hate coffee. I have tried everything under the sun Like she's made me try all kinds of stuff with sweeteners, flavors, all kinds of stuff. I just cannot do the aftertaste. But everybody, especially being in the health field, everybody drinks coffee. It's the first thing they do. They go in, they make coffee, they start their day and I smell it and it makes me nauseous. I'm like mm-mm. But, nobody else I've ever met doesn't like coffee. I know people.
Speaker 2Yeah, I know a couple people too.
Speaker 1Okay, I'm not talking to the right people. You do know people, though.
Speaker 2Yeah, I don't know, I think you just don't bring it up.
Speaker 1No, I do, it's a daily conversation.
Speaker 2Well, yeah, but you're bringing it up in the health like health care field.
Speaker 1True, all they do is drink coffee. Everybody is just addicted to it. They eat peanut butter. Oh, I love coffee so much.
Speaker 4I love coffee and peanut butter you don't like peanut butter.
Speaker 1I do, but in moderation, Like I can eat it on like a rice cake.
Speaker 2but Well yeah, I don't crave peanut butter too much. What? I'm not a huge peanut butter person, what I love peanut butter.
Speaker 4I don't like peanuts. Either Question crunchy or smooth Smooth.
Speaker 1Smooth.
Speaker 2Oh, I knew it was a cookie, something wrong with me, I'm a crunchy gal. Honestly, I'm not gonna lie to you. I might be okay with Crunchy now, but when I was little, absolutely not immediately.
Speaker 4no, yeah, I.
Speaker 3Think I mean I've tasted crunchy, not extra crunchy. I can't do extra crunchy, but just regular crunchy. I can have it every now and then, but I prefer smooth.
Speaker 2I guess it would kind of be like a granola bar, but I think it's because, like it just throws me off in my soft sandwich with jelly, that's so weird.
Speaker 4I grew up poor Avi, shut the fuck up Avi, and so I like extra crunchy.
Speaker 2Fucking see the house that we're sitting in. To be like.
Speaker 4I grew up poor Avi, but I like extra crunchy peanut butter because I think I'm getting more bang for my book.
Speaker 2And Don't think you're getting more bangry, but I think you're getting cheated because they worked harder to make that fucking smooth peanut butter, smooth bitch.
Speaker 4I.
Speaker 2You're getting the bare minimum. They were like you know what, don't mix that one so much because we're lazy. So you think you've been banged for your buck and you've been. No fucking now and up.
Speaker 1What do you think peanut butter is made out of?
Speaker 2No, she knew what it was made out of, but she thought she was getting an extra surprise. It was peanut butter plus peanuts, peanuts.
Speaker 4Okay, you're right.
Speaker 1You.
Speaker 2Know if we're on any labs. I hope that we always meet each other in every life. Yes, yes. Amen to that. I don't care what lap you're on, you're on, you're on, you're on Every life. I hope I run into you.
Speaker 3I'd be like no, no, no, we're not all on the same lap. I can't go yet. I.
Speaker 4Know when you're at the lap and Mario crying, someone passes you. Like Me running with Donovan. I was on lap two and he's a lot like lap four, literally running a mile.
Speaker 3I was like I'm confused and then what happens to me? Here comes a blue shell. Wow, what's the biggest lesson you feel you've learned in your story so far?
Speaker 4Oh, Not to take life too serious.
Speaker 3Okay. Literally elaborate on that a little bit.
Speaker 4I feel like I could be sitting here right now and a climate coming, strike this whole house down and I die when I took my life too serious, like down by a comment or what you know. I a shooting start, not me, I'm not.
Speaker 2Not me, immediately know, immediately know.
Speaker 3I.
Speaker 1She said I have fun going out.
Perspectives on Life, Happiness, and Goals
Speaker 4Yes, I've learned that. And my other biggest life lesson that I know you can. We see all the time you can't take money to the grave but, baby, you could take a little bit of debt. We already in debt. I'm gonna spend that money. I'm gonna have some laughs and giggles along the way and I will see y'all on lap three.
Speaker 2I Like how you say that, but yet you are frugal bitch, so thrifty.
Speaker 4So I will say I am frugal, so I can save my money where it counts, like for trip.
Speaker 2I guess, okay so, yeah, yeah, okay, I got it.
Speaker 4I'm not gonna spend $10 on a t-shirt, but I will. We will drop a bill on a restaurant. That is insane, you're absolutely right.
Speaker 2I know god damn, and that is life. It's insane to me because like you have the cutest shit and I'm like where the fuck does this bitch find this shit?
Speaker 4Austin outlets, the rich part of down.
Speaker 2It's good you spend money to get there, yes, and then you don't spend so much money rich white Strike that go to the rich neighborhood.
Speaker 4Well, in general, and you go to those little good wills over there, mm-hmm Girl, some fines. A Nike jacket three dollars. I think. I found that like what in the outskirts of. Dallas oh my god, you have the cutest shit too, you think? Yeah, thank you.
Speaker 1Yes, I'd say that life is short and you never know what's gonna happen, like in any moment. So Just do what makes you happy every day. Yeah agreed Because it could all change in a second.
Speaker 4It's such a Not a cliche, but you hear it all the time. But you hear it all the time because it's true. Yeah, you know, classic in yours.
Speaker 3The world meets you where you're at, not the other way around. Nobody dictates your happiness, your sadness, your success, your failures. Nobody can say anything about those things, nobody has a say in those things. Wherever you are and however, like the relationship that you have with yourself and the awareness you have within yourself, that's where the world meets you, not the other way around.
Speaker 1Yeah, it's beautiful. I've never heard that every before in my life. I really like that.
Speaker 4Thank you, I want to take my comment.
Speaker 3Truly believe that I feel like I'm at a place in life where I'm like I. I, for the first time in a long time, it's like it's gonna meet me where I'm at.
Speaker 4We're all sitting here shaking our heads. No, that makes perfect sense, and I think that's why I'm starting to get out at life to let's take away from your moment, but no, no.
Speaker 4That's what I I feel like when I was going through nursing school is going through steps. We bought the house. I was super excited about the house, but we were just going through the steps. You know what I mean. And kind of back to what Carissa said, trying to fulfill these milestones in our life that we felt like we had to do by a certain age to feel.
Speaker 4Successful, or have these achievements Mm-hmm. And now that I'm a little bit older and more more just aware of everything that's going on in my life, because at the other Day it's your, your life for you, doing everything for yourself.
Speaker 3Yeah.
Speaker 4It's not like I Might not be here next month. I might not be here tomorrow knock on wood. I hope I am and I hope I'm blessed to live a long and fulfilled life. Yeah but I want to do Everything I can in these moments and fulfill my life, even if it's just for now, but also still be aware of the bigger picture. And I want to. Basically, what I'm saying is I want to have short-term girls, short-term goals and long-term girls.
Speaker 2I need to fucking get some self-discipline.
Speaker 4Girl cuz. I used to try to do these long-term girls and be like I'm gonna be this skinny bar this month and then ball off the wagon. So then I was like you know what bitch realistic do it for three days, eat right for three days. Now, let's do that another three days. And I realize Broken up into short goals works better for me. Mm-hmm, because then I feel like the more I think about it long term I just fall off the fucking bandwagon. Now the hill. Okay next thing, I know, I mean.
Speaker 2I just can't.
Speaker 3Can we talk about that for a second though?
Speaker 3Yeah, you said you said you feel like you should have more discipline. I feel like sometimes, with all the information that we're fed on a daily basis, right Like we see, we get so much information from TV, we get so much information from social media of all these people doing these things and the routines that they have, or you know, they accomplish this and this is how they did it, and sometimes we can get caught up in that and say if and feel like if we're not doing that too, we're not as accomplished or we're not as disciplined.
Speaker 3Yeah but like watching you go through your week and your your work schedule. Mm-hmm like that. Is that that is so commendable? If you ask me, like just putting your head down, getting hard work done because you have goals and You're trying to reach these goals and that's a step towards them? Right, that's you letting the world meet you meet you where you're at, rather than saying I need to be doing this because I saw this on TV. Yeah.
Speaker 3I mean, if you see something like See something that connects to your life path, then yeah, for sure that take those steps right, but if it's not, then don't let it influence you in a negative way and take them out down the wrong path.
Keto Diets, Corn Dogs, and Names
Speaker 4Absolutely Like the whole keto. When everybody was doing keto diet which, if you want to do that path and that works for you, absolutely fucking do it but I was like, oh, maybe I should try keto cuz I want to be skinny like that, right? Mm-hmm, yeah, anyways, I'm just saying, if it works for you, awesome, but what works for you, what works for other people isn't. I was gonna work for you and that's where I'm finding out in life too. Yeah, and that's why it's one of my biggest pet peeves when someone's like, oh, my name being that bitch, it works for me. Shut the fuck up, mind your business. Find out what works for you.
Speaker 1Just stop comparing yourself to others.
Speaker 4Yes, because I might be built like a Doritos chip, but a delicious nacho baby, you think you just did read a chip off ever seen, thank you.
Speaker 2Wow, that's gay. That's the thing right now.
Speaker 1I don't like the way I feel like a corn dog and I ain't mad at it, okay skinny legs, straight body her. She can use a little curves in there like a bit out corn dog, but you know.
Speaker 2Okay, what's up? I love corn dogs.
Speaker 1Have you tried vegan corn dogs?
Speaker 2Mm-hmm, speaking of vegan, the fuck is a vegan corn dog.
Speaker 4Judgmental. I got one in my freezer, if you want.
Speaker 2I mean, I would try one. I just want to know what the fuck it is.
Speaker 4I will be right be, I'm gonna go to my freezer and see what this is, this vegan corn dog.
Speaker 1It's made out of sunflowers and tulips.
Speaker 4Yes, you do not have to be vegan to eat vegan food. Yeah, yeah yeah, ever. However, what you do, my first I go.
Speaker 2You don't have to be vegan to eat. You do have to like do have to be like it's vegan's can't eat me, but you do, so you cannot eat me Vegans know the rules.
Speaker 1You're telling me eaters can eat vegan stuff, but vegans can't eat me. Thank you, yes they choose not.
Speaker 3They choose not yes.
Speaker 2I can't be like Europe. I'm gonna be like I'm a vegan while I'm eating a fucking corn dog. Yeah, that's ridiculous.
Speaker 4Yeah, I was just trying to make a pun and I got lost. Okay, again meteorites.
Speaker 3You know there's a lot of benefits to a plant-based diet. I like Learning about the benefits of a plant-based diet. I started trying out more plant-based things Falafel.
Speaker 4What's that?
Speaker 3It's like a.
Speaker 4Falafel.
Speaker 3I don't even know how to explain it. It's in the freezer section at HB. I like these little brown nuggets, but it's not me, it's falafel.
Speaker 1Because I said no, I feel awful, literally didn't, didn't hear it. That's what it sounds like you're saying. Is it like Quinn O'Rourke.
Speaker 2I am walking off. Is it Quinn Noah?
Speaker 1Reason number 503 why we should take English. I Tell you what I called the patient back today and his name was Joaquin and I said Joe Quinn.
Speaker 3Wow, what did he say?
Speaker 1He said I said I'm so sorry, did I pronounce that right? And he said no, ma'am, it's Joaquin. Okay, well now I know well, tell me how that spells that. You know a spell it a bitch already know.
Speaker 3Joa Q you I yeah, yeah.
Speaker 4Alright, I miss me English language. What you miss pronounce what no other say, that one name that's like a big basic name. I forgot what it was. I already know what say it. She said Barbera. Barbara, barbara, and I was trying to use my English class I took in nursing school and say let me spell this out bar Barra, I open that door. So coffee said Barbera, barbera, barbera, it's me. Like the other people said that's Barbara, I'm closing this damn door.
Speaker 3Close as the door comes back. I gotta go, barbara.
Speaker 4All quiet, barbara, listen. The English taught you to sound out words, so that's what I do.
Speaker 3Barbera.
Speaker 2Barbera aka Joaquin Joaquin Joaquin.
Learning From Mistakes, Letting Go
Speaker 2When I can't say a guy's name at work, like none of us can write, so like all of us Just be kind of looking at, looking at the computer, and we're like you say, you say, and then finally we just be like what's your name, sir? And they'll say it what's your name, what's your name, what's your name? I'll go through the whole fucking list of them and I'm like you they're chair to the right. No, she don't want to be barbara point. At some point I think I have like mispronounced names and I'm like just to the right. They're like I'm like third chair to the right. Keep it moving, bro.
Speaker 4Yeah, just stop all the back.
Speaker 3I'm like, keep it moving, bro, let's go exactly like like that, just address it real quick, be like was that right? No, okay, now I know, cool, let's go.
Speaker 4Yeah. So I will say this to you, to any listeners out there If you have a word name, we ain't judging you, but if you hear us up in that door and say, barbara, you better get your ass off that is probably not the first time you ever heard that, so you better get your ass up, you know you know, we're calling you go on, get up on, get it, get it barbarian.
Speaker 2Third chair to your right, the chair to your right. Let's go. What is your weight?
Speaker 1queen with you. Okay, get up.
Speaker 4Okay, I'm like it up I.
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Speaker 3Okay, okay, let's jump right back in. So this brings up a question for me. Whether big or small, what's some, what's the most recent mistake you've made?
Speaker 2and yeah, we'll go from there my biggest mistake is Trying to control somebody.
Speaker 4I'll elaborate for you. I mean, I like that Yep, just so anybody, before seeing long story grab up.
Speaker 2It's just the way that I think, isn't the way that other people think, and if I'm like, well, don't do this or stop doing that, because that's how I think.
Speaker 1That's wrong.
Speaker 2I can't tell people that that is their choice. It is not for me to tell anybody what to do, and I need to quit trying to control people, whether it be for the best or not for the best, because Assuming only makes an ass out of you and me.
Speaker 3I like that.
Speaker 4So you never heard that? I have, but I haven't heard it in a very long time I will say I Think it's good to recognize that, but I also I think it's. I Think you don't come from a place from ill intent. Mm-hmm and I will say I Think it's good some time to give people when asked. You're when asked and when your opinion is wanted. Constructive criticism Because it might help somebody grow.
Speaker 2Yeah, I think it's, it's definitely. I mean, it's a process for me to grow Mm-hmm. Obviously I'm not correcting a lot, not a lot, but like it's just, I'm not always right.
Speaker 4Yeah, and that's good to recognize, like just because you want something that One way, it doesn't mean it's the right way right.
Speaker 2It doesn't mean it's the right way. It doesn't mean it's the right way for that person, like yeah, it's just a whole thing. So I that is my biggest mistake lately I'm learning from it. Yeah doesn't mean that like I realized it right off the back, like I also need somebody to tell me, like when I'm fucking up, and you know, I gotta learn from it, gotta learn from that mistake. Hopefully I don't make that mistake again. But I'm human and I'm stubborn and I'm an Aquarius.
Speaker 1So that's alright, I get it mm-hmm, I can like super relate to that, because you want to think that people think like you mm-hmm and you'll be like Well, if you were to do that like this is how I would think you know, and you think that other person should think like that. And I've been there before, mm-hmm, and I had to learn like that, the same way that you're learning right now. You'll get through it. It's gonna be like oh, like well, you gotta expect people to mess up. You gotta expect people to Not have the outcome that you're gonna predict, because it's just not the same. You can't expect everybody to think the same way, right?
Speaker 2or react the same way? No, exactly, yeah, all of those things so it's just like you know what like, even if what I thought Would happen, that I didn't want to like. Whatever, we'll just work through it.
Speaker 1Yeah, so you know. Yeah, he's gonna meet in the middle, Mm-hmm next.
Speaker 4Calling somebody Barbara no, I'm kidding, I think on a serious note. So I just started my fitness journey up again. Right, it's only been a couple weeks, but I think my what was it the mistake? Yeah, that a mistake. Mm-hmm realizing when I'm actually tired Versus lack of motivation, and that's what's working out and just in life in general.
Speaker 3Oh yeah.
Speaker 4Yeah, yeah. So I'm trying to find a fine line of Am I actually tired and do I need a rest and recover? And you know, feel good.
Speaker 3Yeah.
Speaker 4Or am I just lacking motivation to get up and get the job done? So I think I'm trying to figure out that fine line Because, like I said, I just started working out again. My job is still fairly new, so I think I'm just trying to Balance that out. And I think sometimes you make mistakes, like we did a workout today and I didn't want to work out and I was like I'm tired, I'm not feeling the best. But then we started the workout and I realized, you know, that was just a more of a lack of motivation, because once I started the workout I felt good. After I felt good, I feel good right now. So Trying to figure out those little hiccups in life, yeah.
Speaker 2Podcast on that Do you really? Yeah, I heard. Yeah, he was like he was trying to. He was talking about.
Speaker 4Give me some tips and tricks, girl, cuz I'm trying to figure this shit out. I'm like, am I lazy or am I tired?
Speaker 2He was talking about like different ways to talk to yourself. So like you might be tired, but that doesn't change the fact that like you can still get up and do something. Okay, you could be tired, I Don't know, honestly, I heard it, but like I don't want.
Speaker 4I feel like I'm like, am I lacking motivation? And then I try to go for a run. I said nope, just I'm just tired bitch. I'm tired. I got shins plans. Team I, mother nature is here. Yeah, I'm like up, nope, no working out. I gotta go, gotta go back. I go back home.
Speaker 2I don't want to like quote him wrong, but it was basically just like you need to like change the way that. Is it a dude? Yeah, I can't stand man. Sometimes I like just get up and do it.
Speaker 4You lazy, and get up and do it.
Speaker 1I'm like I need a female podcast.
Speaker 4Excuse me, lazy and dumb, get up.
Speaker 3I identify with that too, though sometimes because there's a lot of, like you said, there's podcasts out there, there's videos out there saying like you're tired no, you're not get up and do it and like, yes, sometimes you need that push right, stop being lazy, get up and do it. But the times that your body really needs to rest, sometimes we're the hardest person on ourselves. Like, oh, this means I'm gonna be five steps back. Like this means I'm a complete failure. I didn't do anything productive today.
Speaker 3Yeah but, like sometimes, the body needs rest and we need to learn how to take care of it and Recognize those signs rather than just be like nope, get up and do it, because sometimes it's more harm to Put more stress on your body when you need rest versus when you just absolutely like.
Speaker 4I literally try to go for that run and it's sort of crappy. Start getting shin splints, everything in the world. I'm about as like girl. What are you doing?
Speaker 2Just no, ma'am, go do some curls in your in your garage which I mean still count, so like yeah even if you didn't get to go to do your run like you still at least Stayed somewhat active. You didn't just say fuck it and sit on the couch.
Speaker 4Yeah.
Speaker 2Because for me, I would have sat on the couch, I'm sure for tonight. I don't have no self-discipline.
Speaker 4So where's this? I talked to myself a lot.
Speaker 2I talked to myself a lot too. I'm like you're fine, like, if I'm like. That was the biggest thing whenever do you get up tree?
Navigating Feelings and Trust in Relationships
Speaker 2No, that was the biggest thing when I run cross country is like uh-uh, I would be like running right, and if I run, my Breathing is fine, I'm like I can breathe, I'm fine. It's the fact that my legs get a tad bit Like this is uncomfortable. And then, from my legs being uncomfortable, my brain is like stop, just walk, slow down, just slow down. And Me I'm talking to myself. I'm like you're fine, cuz I know what's happening. Yeah, I Feel my body, I know what's happening and I'm like no, like I'm talking, I'm like you're fine, bitch, you're fine, you're breathing is fine. Like, look at it, look at your fine. And, and before I know it, I'm walking and I'm like look at you, you're breathing just fine. Like that, this was nonsense. Like if you're gonna stop, you need to be out of breath, you need to be like, yeah, like dying, and I'm not. And myself, disciplined is like Should you get up?
Speaker 4Maybe you get it like a little verb and to step on your wrist like that song, just like snap yourself.
Speaker 2It's hard. That makes you get up.
Speaker 1Come on tape with Craig, or is that unhealthy.
Speaker 3You know, talking about the whole topic of talking to yourself, I I do that so much like I'm, I'm at home. When I'm at home, you know, it's just me, right, I'm at home. I literally pace up and down my house, either the kitchen and the hallway, the living room, whatever and I'm literally talking out loud to myself. And there have been times, especially recently, where I've had uncomfortable feelings and my instinct is to go, do something that'll distract me from that feeling and, you know, keep moving on with my day.
Speaker 3But what I've tried to do is sit with those feelings. And you know, there's this whole awareness right now about, like, how we intellectualize our feelings rather than feel them. So, like when we feel something, we're like, oh, I'm feeling this, and then you're like, because of this happen and because of this happen, it's more in your head rather than in your body where you need to feel it and process it that way, like get through that feeling. And so I'm trying to find a fine. I lately I've been trying to find a fine line between those two things where I'm like, okay, just feel it, sit here and feel that. But also let's find an awareness of what it is, not necessarily Give it a reason or whatnot, but just find an awareness of it so that the mind and the heart can find a connection. But Just, you know processes we take ourselves through to to feel.
Speaker 2Like Verbally, talk to yourself.
Speaker 1Yeah you know, I was gonna say out loud or in your head.
Speaker 2I'm in my head most of the time. It's really rare if I actually speak to myself like out loud. It's very rare.
Speaker 1I speak to myself out loud in your head out loud.
Speaker 3I know a lot of people think I'm a quiet person, but I literally talking to myself non-stop, out loud all day To when I'm alone. Yeah, for real.
Speaker 1Yeah, that's good.
Speaker 3And it probably sounds crazy, but like it's, like it's, I mean, I'm talking to myself.
Speaker 2Anyways, it's just like I just don't verbalize it verbalize it, I just don't I mean, but there's some people that don't have. They don't have a voice like they oh yeah in their head.
Speaker 4Yeah, I feel the whole sit with your feelings Doesn't necessarily have to feel good or bad, you can just feel being sometimes.
Speaker 3Yeah, only way we get through it.
Speaker 4Yes, because I've had moments where it's like Well, why do you feel like that? Well, just cuz I'm doing like that. It's not necessarily a good feeling, bad feeling, it's just a feeling.
Speaker 3Yeah.
Speaker 4I feel like sometimes in life we try to overanalyze things.
Speaker 2Yeah, like there has to be a reason.
Speaker 4Yeah, and it's good just to let something be sometimes, whether it's good, bad or in between.
Speaker 3Yeah, I agree.
Speaker 4So you're gonna tell us something? You know, are you?
Speaker 1perfect. No, I say a generalized, like biggest mistake is thinking that Everybody has good intentions. Because they don't, and I feel like I'm not. I'm not perfect, but I always feel like I try to do things with good intentions, but so then I see other people having good intentions, but then it doesn't always turn out like that and I feel like that has a big part to do with, like your trust with people and when you trust somebody too much, then it gets broken.
Speaker 4I don't like just being naive.
Speaker 1I guess, if that's what you want to call it, I just.
Speaker 4I'm optimistic babe.
Speaker 1I don't think that's naive. I just see the best in people. Yeah, I don't think that's about quality. I just I trust people too much and I'm like, no, they don't. They don't mean it like that or no, that's not what they're thinking, but then it like screws you over the end, you know me.
Speaker 4Yeah Well, I will say PSA. She does have a wife who loves her and will not let you take advantage of her, even though she is very optimistic.
Speaker 2And I will fucking cut you where to use optimistic instead of naive.
Speaker 4Yes, she is extremely optimistic, but she will not be taking advantage of advantage up in front of me.
Speaker 1She's like baby you just been naive this whole time. All right, don't mean, what's up with your mistake?
Speaker 3So mine's exactly the same. In a sense I've been giving. I guess it's not a mistake. I don't know. You tell me what it is. I've been giving too naive.
Speaker 2Immediate.
Speaker 3I've been giving too many people.
Speaker 4Too many chances.
Speaker 3No um too many pieces of you too much credit I've been defending too many, too many people without letting them Earn that credit themselves or to defend themselves. I've been speaking for people Before allowing someone else to for them to speak.
Speaker 4You think you have. I've never seen pawn shop. Yeah, and it's like you think you have this air loop that's gonna be like a $15,000 air loop and it's like, oh no, this is a a souvenir man it's a $5 and everybody has it.
Speaker 3I got this thing right here, I got this thing and you're like actually no.
Speaker 4Everybody has it. It's a souvenir.
Speaker 2Yeah.
Speaker 4You find it at the bottom of the Corn jack box. What is that box? Crackerjack, popcorn jack? I grew up poor. All these, all of his stores. I never have one in real life. It's corn jack who do.
Speaker 2You put corn nuggets, and you put corn nuggets and fucking crackerjacks together and you said corn jacks. Okay, anyways, back to you.
Speaker 1Um so I'm not even. Your life is like a pawn shop, I guess.
Speaker 3Something like that. But thanks like so. Sometimes you cannot you, sometimes you just have to let people speak for themselves. Yes and Sometimes people end up not speaking, and that's enough said as it is.
Speaker 4So let's go back around how we got to fix these messes we make. Oh, now we're going to solutions. Yes, solutions, there you go. So go ahead figure out a solution, ponder it, swish it around your mouth and spit it out.
Speaker 3Got it. The world's gonna meet me where I'm at period.
Speaker 1Don't trust everybody.
Speaker 4Oh my gosh, now she's cold. What was my? Don't think everybody has good intentions. That's it, period. No, you're right. What was my mistake? I can't even remember.
Speaker 1You're working out or something.
Speaker 3Oh, what do you need to?
Speaker 4rest and when you need to, I guess I'll just decimate maybe two rest days away.
Speaker 3Yes, put in a scheduled rest day.
Speaker 2Okay, carissa if you work out you need rest days. I'm supposed to make up my answer yes, for being more disciplined.
Speaker 4You better go get a rubber band.
Speaker 3No, she said she was trying to no my mistake was to not be controlling so like I just be more self aware.
Speaker 2For me. I just got to let the chips fall where they may. And and and trust that you'll be prepared wherever they fall.
Speaker 4Oh my gosh. He said be prepared, bitch no trust that she will be oh, I thought she said be prepared for where they may fall.
Speaker 3That's for all of us. We have no idea like we get in, like we surround ourselves with so many people and you know we can't control everybody and we, we put ourselves in Count hundreds of situations every day that we do not have control over, and we just have to let that go and trust that whatever the chips may fall Will be prepared, will be okay.
Speaker 4Yes, and talking about the barbarian lesson I have realized life, you gotta fuck up. You're gonna be on the street where nothing's going wrong. You're like, damn, everything's great. It's inevitable. There's gonna be a little hiccup in everybody's life, whether that's a traffic stop or you trip and fall like some people just have more hiccups. Yes.
Speaker 2Others and it's not fair, but like it's also like not fair for you.
Speaker 4It's life. Life is a fair book.
Speaker 3Look at it as, like you know, those things happen to show us maybe things weren't as okay as we thought they were. Maybe we're not where we thought we were, and it's just a simple hiccup.
Speaker 4Sometimes you can be walking and trip and fall or a traffic ticket, or you're already late or the McDonald's app isn't working. I've had hiccups and I think it honestly has these hiccups. It honestly has these hiccups, so you appreciate my eyes closed on sundays.
Speaker 1Jesus, it's a hiccup.
Speaker 4It happens. So I think you appreciate life, like when the McDonald's app is working and then they have a deal for Buy something for a dollar, like a free drink and get a free medium fry, or yeah, you see that cop and you slow your ass down. I think bad happens in life so you can appreciate the good is what I'm trying to say.
Speaker 2I mean, maybe they're just on a different level, different around and the people that have more hiccups than others.
Speaker 4Karma, look around, reflect what you're doing. Okay, okay. I feel like your life is good. You got your place, you got your your relationship, you got your job.
Speaker 2You got a yeah, but I haven't done some shitty shit in my life.
Speaker 3We all have done shitty.
Speaker 4Yes, we have done shitty shit, and I think that's why I have a club.
Finding Beauty in Life's Messiness
Speaker 3The other day I was having. I was going through a little rough past the other day and Modesta sit Well. It could be a lot worse. You could have a club toe Wow.
Speaker 2I started. I mean you and your club toe can get out. Well, uh, this is a jumbled mess. Well, I think life is a mess, I think we are all a mess, but also A beautiful mess period. So you're welcome.
Speaker 4I'm trying to give a slowing statement. You made it. To this end, the promo code for uber eats is your mcdonalds.
Speaker 1Give us the code for your thing that you said free fry.
Speaker 4Oh, this code is a mcdonald's app. It says it's under the deals and you just go down and says free medium fry with the per. Any dollar, any purchase. And you just purchase the soft drink for a dollar and oh, nine.
Speaker 2Now you got something good fries.
Speaker 1Soft drink and the code is club toe. I'm just kidding. I appreciate every moment. You never know when it's your last. Tell me and be kind to others.
Speaker 4Oh, be kind, be wise.
Speaker 1No, that's a real thing, because you don't know what anybody else is going through even if they're smiling or who you encounter an angry person in public, you never know what they're going through. So just give some patience, give some kindness, wow.
Speaker 3Take a good look at who's in your dugout.
Speaker 1Oh.
Speaker 3Take a good look at who's on your team.
Speaker 2You really want to like make us cry in the beginning, and you know.
Speaker 4I'm team us forever, best friends forever. I love you guys.
Speaker 1Love you too, love you too, Love y'all.
Speaker 2Okay, bye.