THE TRUTH ABOUT IT ALL WITH KEN JOHNSON
This podcast was created to help people find real love, by using studies I call HUMAN BEHAVIOR. Season one of my journey is based on true events that happened in my life, and I truly believe it helped me achieve the right to help others find true love.
THE TRUTH ABOUT IT ALL WITH KEN JOHNSON
WHEN ONE JOURNEY ENDS, ANOTHER BEGINS.
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Looking back at Season 1 of The Journey, I reflect on how my teenage experiences in the South shaped my approach to relationships and the valuable lessons I learned along the way.
• Offering a sincere apology to an old friend whose girlfriend I developed feelings for while he was incarcerated
• Revealing my strategic befriending of Alexa's younger brother through video games to get closer to her
• Experiencing culture shock at the way white families interacted with each other compared to my upbringing
• Orchestrating my breakup with Tori by setting up a situation where another guy would kiss her
• Discovering years later that Tori and I were actually using each other for different reasons all along
• Explaining why I couldn't graduate with my class despite breaking up with Tori
Thank you all for sticking with me throughout Season 1. Season 2 will be coming soon with more stories and experiences. Spread the word, hit that notification bell, and I'll see you next season.
Reflecting on Season 1 and Feedback
Speaker 1Thank you everyone for coming back to my last episode of Season 1 , the Journey . Well , I know for some of you it's been a wild ride . I hope you've been liking it . I know some by the comments . Most of you you know maybe y'all pimps and y'all some true players . I guess the stuff that I was doing was pretty simple , but the only thing I want to say about that is remember you're talking about a teenage and a teenage time going after things that didn't happen in the South during my time . Ok , so where things get more complex as my stories continue , yes , but remember my stories coming from a mind of a 16 year old child . But my game start to pick up even more after high school and then further on . So for those that you know in my comments oh man , that ain't nothing . I mean what you did , man . Man , I had three or four women at one time , you know , tossing around . I mean kudos to you . I mean you sound like you older , you sound like you're not 15 and 16 years old and I mean I just want you guys to just think about it . I'm a teenager . Okay , anyway , for those that is listening and stay listening , thank you , I really appreciate that and look even for the ones that don't like it , and but to keep listening . I appreciate you too . I really do .
Speaker 1Ok , this episode is going to wrap up all the things with Alexa and Tori and me finishing school and so on . I'm just going to use this time just to go ahead and just try to settle some stuff up , but before then I need to do something . I would like to do an apology to a friend of mine that I haven't saw in a long time , but this shit been staying on my mind for a
Apologizing to an Old Friend
Speaker 1while . Just let me explain , okay , see through my neighborhood , which you heard a lot of . There was rules in our neighborhood . If someone went to jail , we didn't play on their girlfriends , wives . If something happened , we took care of them . We didn't prey on them , meaning that we didn't run over there saying , well , at least I'm helping you out , I need some pussy . That was against the fucking rules , bro , and we took that shit serious . Even if we knew someone in our neighborhood that separated with a girl , we still that fucking girl is off limits . You get what I'm saying Fucking off limits . You get what I'm saying Fucking off limits . Okay , during the hype of my club time that was after high school , me and the get along gang had finally found our first club . I don't know , was it a teenage club , I don't know , but they sold alcohol there . So right after high school we found this club and it was called Scandal and me and the get along gang used to go to this motherfucker every Saturday . And man , we didn't . I don't think we ever missed a Saturday .
Speaker 1Ok , but there's one particular time a friend of mine he was older than me but he was from my neighborhood . He ran with my uncle , dan , and his brothers . He still was from our neighborhood . So I'm saying well , he came up to me and asked to talk to me outside . So me and him walked outside .
Speaker 1Now I'm like what's up , man ? What's going on ? Well , he went on to say to me man , look , in the morning I got to turn myself into jail and I remember saying man for what ? But he really didn't explain to me , like I guess he didn't want me to know . So I didn't , I didn't ask anymore . He said man , I need a favor for you . I say anything , what can I do for you ? He said man , I need you to hang with my girl while I'm locked up . I'm like what are you talking about ? Man , I never met his girl . I didn't even know who he was fucking with at the time , I didn't know . Okay , he was like bro , I just need you to look out for while I'm locked up , man , he said , I don't trust many people , I trust you and I don't trust nobody else . I just need you to keep her busy , you know , go out with her , do stuff with her , whatever you know . Yada , yada , yada . And I say , man , shit , dog , that's a lot to ask Now at this time . I really wasn't fucking with nobody . I wasn't , I was a single dude , ok , so I was like man , well , I give you my number . Man , you give it a hug . Yada , yada , yada . But this nigga did way better than that . I have to give the nigga my number .
Speaker 1When we went back into the club he introduced me to his girl and pushed us together and me and her started like dancing , and I guess he must have told her already about me or what his plan was , because she didn't pull away . She danced with me , okay . Next thing , you know , he was gone . When I mean gone , he was gone , me and her didn't even notice at first what I mean like she fit inside of me like a glove . What I mean is like I didn't know who this female was . I never met her a day in my life , but we fit it together for some way somehow . I mean it was weird , but we fit it . It's like a hand in a glove , is what I'm trying to say , type of fit . Well , by the time we and her got finished dancing it might've been hours later he was nowhere to be found and we haven't . We didn't see him until maybe after about a year , or maybe longer than a year , maybe a little after a year . Ok , we didn't see him to them .
Speaker 1But let me tell you what happened in between that year and a half . Ok , me and her was inseparable . When I'm telling you that , we did everything together , y'all everything . Ok , I purposely didn't find no girlfriend during this time . Me and her hung so much ain't . No girl would ever accept our relationship , man , we just hung , we went out together , we went to eat together , if you could think it . We did it . Okay , she also had a sister and a brother . Okay , I think she was the youngest . But , man , I even fell in love with her sister and brother , cause they accepted me and they didn't even know who I was . But me and her hung so much that they accepted me Like I was part of the fucking family . I never been loved so much I haven't . I had loved the whole situation .
Speaker 1When me and her went places , we held hands . We held hands . Now I could say it was because I was protecting her . When we would go to the clubs she would lean on me Like my back would be against the wall . She would lean on me so nobody else wouldn't think that she was single . I would tell you I was protecting her . I would tell you that . But you know I could say it .
Speaker 1I remember this one time I had this Ford Escort . I was going to her house . I saw this fine ass girl . I'm a booty watcher y'all . If some girl pass me up with an ass , I'm gonna find a way to look at it , okay . So I put my head over my shoulder to look at this fine girl walking across the street . Now in my vision I could still see the car in front of me and I thought that car had pulled off because I saw it move . But in all reality the car never went nowhere , it didn't fully get out of the way . So by the time I got finished looking at her ass , I rammed that car in the back . Yeah Well , during that time , me and a couple of buddies we had went out that night and a couple of my friends was like you know , man , this girl looking at you , won't you go and talk to you ?
Speaker 1No , we're going to need a ride home , since your ass wrecked the car . Well , that girl had became my little boy's mama . Look , that's . That's another story for another time . Ok , let's get back on the subject .
Speaker 1Anyway , like I said , we was hanging a lot . Ok , sometimes from going out we're getting in pretty late . So we'll go back by her apartment Once again . Her brother and her sister and her share the apartment together . Ok , so we will go back to this apartment and it'd be pretty late , I mean in the morning man five , six in the morning and I used to go sleep on the sofa night , maybe . After some time she was like you know , you could sleep in the bed with me , and I'm like , oh , I'm good on the sofa . That went on for a little bit . All right , cool .
Speaker 1Now , after so long , she was once again would say hey , you know , you could sleep in the bed with me and I'm like all right , cool , you know , you know shit like sister and brother , right , you know shit like sister and brother , right . So when I got upstairs and went in her room and went to sleep she used to , you know . She said to me not the first time , but it happened quite a few times that we slept in the same bed together . Nothing , ever happened , nothing , nothing happened , okay . But she tells me well , if you're uncomfortable , you could take your pants off and your shirts off , it's okay .
Speaker 1And I'm like , huh now , I ain't never took my motherfucking pants off , shirt off , for no woman , unless I'm about to get some . I ain't never , never did that a day in my motherfucking life . If my pants came off and my shirt came off , the pussy was next . That's , that's , that's how it went . It went in that fucking order pants , shirt , pussy . That's what always went . But this time it never happened . I stayed on the edge of the bed because , man , I'll root . Man , I'm not , I'm not , I'm not doing nothing with this girl . This is my boy , old lady , I'm not doing a goddamn thing with her . Okay , that was , that was all in my mind , okay . So we kept doing the same thing over and over and over . I mean , man , we would go to the mall together .
Speaker 1I cannot address how much me and this girl spent so much time together . We had got so comfortable with each other . It was just like , I mean shit , like we could complete each other's sentences . I mean , man , it's like every day we was together , okay , and I remember this one particular time that we came into the house and I don't think we was out drinking or nothing , I just think we went out to eat . We was hanging out during the day and we went back to her apartment and there was a guy sitting in there talking to her sister . Right , I'm going to say his name because I know he wouldn't mind and he's no longer with us . His name was Craig , ok , but me and Craig did not talk that time . It was like what's up , what's up ? You know how brothers do what's up . And I went straight up the stairs and went to bed with her . So I never knew how much this guy was going to play in my life . Later on he taught me a lot , but it's not about him at this point in time , but y'all will hear about this guy , craig , okay , he started me on a whole nother journey blew my fucking mind , okay .
Speaker 1Anyway , there was one particular day that me and her had went out and , man , it felt like a different day . It really did . It felt different . I remember this day . It just felt gloomy , depressive , rainy . It was just a fucked up day , right , but we still went and we did stuff together and , man , it's hard for me not to keep saying that all her family stuff that she did with her family , I was right there , right , there , right .
Speaker 1But this one gloomy day , we went up the stairs and went to go to bed . I took my pants off , took my shirt off , okay , I kept getting tugged on , right , and I'm like man , fuck , I'm sleeping . And I got tugged on again and I opened my eyes . Well , it was him , it was my boy . I had about what I'm saying . I got no shirt , no pants , no , nothing . I stood up and we hugged each other . He hugged me and I'm like man , I'm glad you're out , man , I'm telling you , man , I miss you . Man , whatever could have been said to let him know , man , I'm glad you're out , whatever . But I didn't realize , once he got out , I was no more needed .
Speaker 1Now , like I said , me and this girl never slept together . So I'm not apologizing for me sleeping with her . I know what you dirty motherfuckers were thinking . I know what y'all were thinking you fuck your boy or lady . No , I didn't . That's not why I'm apologizing . What I am going to apologize is is that I think I fell in love with her . I really did , and I know y'all , like nigga , you don't love nobody , not at this time . Right , I get it . I get it , but it was a forbidden person that I shouldn't . I don't know , man , it's hard for me to explain A lot of it was , but , bro , I spent a lot of time with him .
Speaker 1I loved everything about him . I just thought this dude was the luckiest motherfucker in the world , bro . I mean , man , I loved the feet , I loved the hair , I loved the smell , everything you could say about this girl . Man , I think I loved her and I didn't know that until we stopped hanging . We all of a sudden , just imagine just hanging with a person for a year and a half , every day , every hour , on the hour . You wake up with each other and then all of a sudden , boom , she's gone . Just think about that for a second To spend that much time with a person and then , all of a sudden , from every day to no day , and so when time went on , I mean a couple of days after he got out of jail , I didn't see her . I didn't talk to her . I didn't do nothing . Now was talk to her , I didn't do nothing . Now was it to a point that I loved her or I loved being around her . I just can't explain Any which way I could say is that it hurted me in a way .
Speaker 1Yeah , I would see him and her together , like we would go to this other club . Step Brothers and them two would be together . And man , remember what I'm saying . This dude trust me so much . He saw me in the bed huddle up with his girlfriend with no pants and no shirt , and he's still in the club . Pick me up and say man , I appreciate what the shit you did for me . Man , good , looking out . Not one time he asked me did I sleep with her ? Because I had to realize that he's such an OG . He knew who he was fucking with . He knew he was fucking with a real one . Okay , because they got some fake motherfuckers out there , but he know he was fucking with a real one . Now , once again motherfuckers out there , but he know he was fucking with a real one .
Speaker 1Now , once again , I can't help the way I feel , because I spent all that time with her , that when I saw her she hugged me and shit , come to find out anyway . She kept like she'll call me every time she couldn't find him . I don't know exactly everything that was going on with him , but the only time I would hear from her after that is like he stole her car . He was in the neighborhood or he . You know it was some bullshit that he was doing to her and I can still remember from that time I was like this dude don't know how lucky he really is and I imagine myself in his shoes and man , and I smile and I laugh and I'm like shit , I wish I could have been there and I ain't never wish that . I could have never been another nigga . I ain't never , never wished it , but I was jealous of him . I'm not going to lie , and I don't think he ever knew it . I don't think , see , it was bigger than just her . It was her .
Speaker 1But it was also what came with her , and that means her family , her sister , her brother . Her brother had friends and they had girlfriends and I knew all of them and , man , we hung around playing games and all kinds of activities that we did together . I mean , I just , and all of a sudden , poof that shit gone . So I'm going to end that right now and I'm going to go ahead and still go on and say I apologize , because I know we didn't sleep together , but me catching Philo for it , I felt like that shit was wrong too , because he was my nigga , he was my dog , okay , so right now , now I'm not gonna say your name or her name , but I must you know who I'm saying . If you hear you know who I'm speaking of . I apologize , bro . I couldn't help but to feel the way I felt , even though you know . All right , let's get back to this journey .
Speaker 1Okay , I know a lot of time went by that I spoke of Alexa . Alexa was my unicorn , my new unicorn after Tori . So I was trying to figure out the way to get Alexa at the time , but she was in an upper grade than mine , so she graduated way before I did . I ain't going to
The Strategy to Get Close to Alexa
Speaker 1say way , but a year before I did . Okay , but at this time my narrative with Alexa have changed because she at first I wanted to just fuck her because she was that white girl . She had thick legs , nice ass , you know . But time done passed , you know I done been fucking y'all . I'm the man . I mean , I hate to say it like that , but I'm the man . So fucking alexa , you know it was a whole different thing now . It's not just I want to fuck her because she's a white girl . I wanted to fuck her now because I just wanted to . A lot of things changed , so I've been spending time with Alexa at her house .
Speaker 1Okay , okay , let me explain . I got to take you back some , okay , okay , back in school I searched high and low to find a way to get closer to Alexa , and the more and more I searched I kept coming up empty . Closer to Alexa , and the more and more I searched I kept coming up empty , until one day I found out that she had a brother , a younger brother , under me . Like if I was in 11 , he was in the 10 . Okay , so me and her brother , even till today , is still friends . Remember what I said in my last podcast not to hurt anyone is that if you my friend today , you might have been a part of a plan for me to get some pussy . And if we are still friends today , that says a lot because I feel a whole lot different . If you my friend till today , that means I love you . I mean , if you got my number and I call you , we go out , we go drinking you . I mean , if you got my number and I call you , we go out , we go drinking . Shit done change because my life , done change . Okay . Anyway , I talked to her brother the other day and he said it was okay for me to use his real name . So I am . His name is Brian , okay .
Speaker 1So I found out that her younger brother , brian , was in a lower class than mine and I had to find a way to get close to him . So as I kept going throughout the day to find out what classes he was in and point out who he is , I put my private eyes on point . I told my private eyes hey look , man , alexa Wright don't have a smaller brother . I need to find out who he is . Well , man , my little private eyes , they started asking around , asking questions you know what I mean and they came back to me and they pointed him out . Oh , there he go , okay . So they pointed Brian out to me and I say , oh , okay , okay , thank y'all . Brian out to me and I say , oh , ok , ok , thank you , man , I appreciate that .
Speaker 1So now it was up to me to figure how to get close to Brian , right ? So I looked at him . I saw him come out for lunch every once in a while and I would just pay attention to him . You know he had to look . You know what the hell cut with when white people put that bowl on your head and you and you snip around Bowl cut , the bowl cut . Oh shit , I almost forgot the bowl cut . Okay , he had one of them . Little bowl cuts and stuff , like you know , always carry little books in his hands and shit sitting on benches and tables eating his food . So I'm doing my research and I'm like , hmm , how can I get closer ? How can I get closer ? He already know the story , okay . So I noticed that he got these little stickers on his folder and I'm like shit , okay , okay . And I got to . You know , I'm so far away .
Speaker 1I remember taking steps closer to him just to pass him up to see what those stickers was about , because stickers don't work for me . See , stickers back in those days show the person personality . If you went in a person room and they got posters of Pamela Anderson on their wall and all women , it says a lot about a motherfucker . You know what I mean . So that's the same thing with stickers . If stickers is on people book or on their book covers because we had to use book covers back in our days , you know we couldn't fuck the books up , so people used to love to decorate those things or their lockers . Right , have things hanging out their locker . You could tell a lot by a person's locker , ok . So if somebody got stickers and decoration all over their stuff , you could figure out some shit , right . So the one sticker that I saw on brian folder was a mario brother sticker . So that , let me know , right then . And now he's a gamer . Right now he has some more stickers that I had to look up .
Speaker 1I had to go and search , you know this little symbol with a knife and all this . Come to find out there was Legend of Zelda . Oh yeah , see , in the 90s , you know , let me pause for a second In the 90s we had the best fucking games . I'm going to tell you like that , we had fucking the best games . Ok , if you play in a game today . That's like a great , great game . I bet you it might have started in the 90s . I mean , we had shit like Super Mario Brothers , donkey Kong . I mean , bro , there's one game that me and him played so much was called Contra , where it was two shooting games . And man , when I tell you , man , we would go to war together . We started to go to war together . I guess I'm jumping . But anyway , yeah , we became close because I figured a way to get in on him doing video games .
Speaker 1And see , at this fucking time , there was no sharing , meaning we couldn't play at home . There wasn't no Internet that we could share the Internet to play at home . See , before , back in our days , back in our days , we would have to go , walk to people's houses to play the game . We used to bring our own joystick . I remember I used to have this case that I carried my Nintendo joystick in and bring it by people's houses because I needed my special one , because you couldn't just play with anybody's joystick , because the shit could be loose . You know it might not have that right feeling . So we used to carry our own joystick and a case around not to mess it up and then plug our shit into their game or they'll come to my house with their shit . So we was real serious when it came to that fucking gaming . Gaming was the shit .
Speaker 1But me and Brian , man , I remember that's how we connected . So next thing , you know , you know , got to remember , I still got that image , god damn it . I still got that image . I am who , I am okay , and by me talking to brian , brian , you know , to me like , oh shit , he want to be my friend but we connecting with this game and shit that he , you know , it wasn't even about that . I was actually having fun with this dude because , bruh , I couldn't go in the hood talking about some super mario brother . I couldn't go in the hood talking about some super mario brother . I couldn't go in the fucking hood talking about donkey kong and shit like that . You know , them niggas were thugs . So I really had fun with brian and anyway , okay , let me get back on track .
Speaker 1Anyway , I used to meet up at brian house and used to play the game with him , but we used to sit up until his mama would come in the room and , man , let me just tell you , this is the first time y'all I got to go here with you and Brian . I'm sorry if I'm going to embarrass you right now , but this was the first time that I actually saw or heard a white dude damn near curse this mama out . When I say this shit was wild , this shit was wild . His mama came in there and to tell him he got to eat . He screamed back at his mama Like mama , we ain't hungry yet . And I'm like , oh shit . I mean he said it in a tone like he was going to fuck his mama up and I didn't know what was going on . I'm like , dude , you can't do that . Oh man , come on , man , she's a cunt . I'm like , huh , bro , it fucked me up when I heard this shit .
Speaker 1Okay , and it just wouldn't stop there . It's like Alexa would come in there and slam the door and the mom like Alexa , can I help you with anything ? I mean , if there was a problem , alexa would be like Ma , stay out of my damn business and slam her door . I mean , bro , it was some wild shit that I saw kids talk to their parents and it was quite okay that the parent didn't even . I mean , I would have got some goddamn fist down my damn throat if I did some shit like that . But to me , brian's mom and dad were some cool people , you know . See , back then , if white people let you in their house as a black man and treat you good , I mean shit , man , they some good people they is . Now it could have been back in those days that little white boys that was always shut up in a room playing video game was considered weird , right ? So maybe they , as was just happy that Brian had a friend . Yeah , maybe they were just happy because that little weird motherfucker didn't have no friends . That little weird motherfucker didn't have no friends . Okay , anyway , all right . So , yeah , that's how I started hanging around Alexa . It was because of Brian , okay .
Speaker 1So some times went on , right time just kept going , and there was time I would try to speak to Alexa like hey , how you doing , man ? Alexa would just look at me like I was like ugh and just walk away . I mean , man , I just imagine that she would be this evil . I mean , bro , the more and more time I spent by Brian House , the more and more I felt like this is an evil bitch man . Like what's going on that she can't even say hey to a motherfucker ? Right , I'm like man . So I just know that this shit was going to be difficult . This shit is going to be really hard . So was I going to give up ? Nah , not me . The bitch damn near got to fucking smack the shit out of me and tell me to get my black ass out , the fucker out of her house before I stopped . So I'm going to figure this shit out . That was just how my mind clicked right .
Speaker 1While me and Brian would be playing the video game , I used to say man , I got to go use the restroom . Now , alexa room was right next to the goddamn restroom and you could hear her talking on the phone . She had her own landline and I don't know , like sometimes she's talking to a friend or it'll be her boyfriend , and I started to distinguish the two , like if she was talking to a friend or a boyfriend . I did that much research on her and analyzed her voice . So I knew that if she was on there with a high pitched voice , she was talking to her boyfriend . If she was being calm and like why is he doing it ? He's , she's really letting her voice travel . She was talking to a friend , okay , but her boyfriend wouldn't . Always on the up and up , some shit was going on . I needed to find out what that was , because that's my key in .
Speaker 1As time went on , I started to learn Alexis very well . I started understanding the mood that she was always being . It's like if she was in a happy mood , a sad mood , an okay mood . All that I learned . And there was only one person that was controlling her mood for that day , and that's with her boyfriend . So I started waiting on that bad mood . When she go around the house slamming doors , cursing out her brother , hollering at her mom , just all in rage , right . And there's one particular time I was there when she was doing it she just kept giving that like aggravation noise , right , and y'all just don't understand . I don't know who is y'all , but everybody just wouldn't understand in her situation , which we would not understand , because only one person got you pissed and that's him . Okay . And but this one particular time she sat on the sofa . I know I couldn't say much to her because she was already fucking mad , so I wasn't going to stray it too much on her . So I fixed a bowl of ice cream and put it on the table next to her and she looked at me and I just left . I left that day . All I did was gave her the bowl of ice cream , looked at her and then I left .
Speaker 1As the week kept going on , I had called Juan just to have some of the stuff over that , what I've been going through and what's my next challenge was I wasn't talking to Juan every day , but we was keeping in touch , you know . So I was just letting him know my next challenge and we had came up with a conclusion like what was really happening with her boyfriend . And this is what we came up with . Ok , he's about two years old . That means he'd been in college two years before her , meaning that he got his own social life . He done built a whole nother life without Alexa , and Alexa is still earning for that attention . And but he's not giving her all that attention because he probably done met somebody or his friends . They don't match with each other , meaning that the girls that he's with or the guys that he with , well , alexa is still too immature for that crowd . She's an embarrassment to him and especially if I had to guess which I really don't know because I really didn't know the guy he had his eyes on someone else . That was more intellect in his mind that's more intellect than her . And so he didn't know .
Speaker 1Because you know , us guys , we don't know how to end shit . We don't know how to end shit . We'll text your ass and say , hey , it's over with . So we don't know how to end shit . We don't know how to end shit . We'll text your ass and say , hey , it's over with . You know , so we don't know how to end shit . And so he just kept on hanging on . And every time she's begging for that more attention and he's saying , yes , I'm going to give you more attention Really he's not and she's getting more frustrated and mad . So that never stopped . Every day she walked around mad . If it wasn't every day , it was every other day .
Speaker 1Ok , she would just go around the house and you could tell when she in that bad mood , because she would just be screaming Like she would just open the door with me and her brother and just started yelling . I mean , y'all two are just wasting y'all life away with that video game .
Playing Video Games and White Family Dynamics
Speaker 1I mean she would just be off the chain . I guess that the thing that me and Juan came up with . I think we hit it right on the nail . We were just guessing and we just came up with that and it was an educated guess . We was right . Okay , her old man just didn't give her the time that she wanted . So now all I gotta do is put my plan in order , right ? So this is what I did , y'all knowing that she was in her room and I noticed when she get up and go to the bathroom or leave out the room Well , this time I left her brother door halfway cracked .
Speaker 1So when I noticed that she was about to leave because the first thing you do she's laying in her bed and you hear footsteps walking towards the door so I know , okay , she's about to leave out of her room . So as soon as she leave out of her room and I hear that door open , I just started talking real loudly to her brother about Tori , and what I said was man , I think Tori might be seeing someone else . See , that's what the attention grabber . I knew she wasn't going to walk past that door . Once she heard that , I know she was going to stop to listen that door . Once she heard that , I knew she was going to stop to listen . Well , I was hoping so right Now .
Speaker 1Remember what I say she's older than me , so I don't think my popularity means shit . But I do know one thing If she don't know about my popularity , that she knew about my interracial relationship with Tory . I mean , come on , man , that shit was all around the school . I mean , we was like practically at the time , the only one . They got more . You know at the end , but you know in the beginning it was just me and her . So I was just spread like wildfire . So I know she knows that .
Speaker 1Ok , I went on to say I do believe Tori is spending time with somebody else because she's not showing me no attention . Well , y'all know why I say that because basically she's not getting no attention for her whole man . So she need to . We need to be in the same boat . Ok , and her brother was like what make you think that Tori loves you ? And her brother was like what make you think that Tori loves you ? And I'm like I thought so . But I think at this point in time I've been earning for her attention and it seems like I'm not getting it . Like she'll tell me that we can spend some time together . Now , this whole time I'm lying . But I just needed the sister to hear that , and so that put a bug in her ear and she went back to her room because I heard her slam the door and , man , I gave a little evil grin because now I got her wheels a turning .
Speaker 1Now , on those days where it was just a normal day and I'm not going to say normal , like she was just bright , happy , but one of those so-so days when she in that so-so mood , you know what I mean . So she was watching a program on tv and I got tired of playing the game , wouldn't interest in no damn game . Anyway , I went set on the sofa next to like with my hands both of my hands holding my face , watching the program she was watching and she was laughing and I was laughing at this program . Can't remember the goddamn program , but we both were laughing at it . We both , at this time , was in the same situation , meaning that I was sitting there taking up a little time with her and I was enjoying the time . So as I get up to leave , I mentioned it I'm like man , I really enjoyed myself watching the program with you . Thank you for watching it . And she didn't say nothing . I left , okay , so time and time kept rolling Y'all I'm trying to get it over with , to get to other things , but time and time was going on , me and her started talking a little more . Nothing crazy , just , hey . You know she ain't treating me like a goddamn peasant . That she she was doing before . She wasn't doing it . She was actually raising conversations up with me and just talking to me On those bad days , on the moody days , like you know .
Speaker 1I remember one time I was outside smoking a cigarette . Yeah , I was smoking . She must have had one of them bad moods , he must have really set her off right . And she comes and say , can I have one of those ? I was like , oh sure , and I gave her a cigarette . She's caught . She wasn't no damn smoker , she was an athletic girl in school , she didn't , you know anyway . So she started choking and I patted her on the back and she was saying what's wrong with you ? And I already knew the mood she was in and she thinking I was clueless , so I would just come up before she say anything about Tori and how I felt . And she was really sentimental to it and she was like you know what , we'll be . Ok , like that . Even though she never explained to me shit about her boyfriend , I knew what she meant . Ok , all right , let's get off of that boyfriend . I knew what she meant . Okay , all right , let's get off of that and let's go into something else . Right , quick , me and Tori , how we actually deported from each other . It's about time to let this go , okay ? So remember when I told you that Mr Collins told me that I would not graduate if I was still dating Tori , and I couldn't do that because my mom went out and she spent a lot of money on a class ring and time was coming close and I had to get rid of Tori in a way .
Speaker 1Ok , there was a guy that was very interesting in Tori . He was a black guy too . You know , I ain't going to say he was my arch enemy , but I didn't like the motherfucker . He ain't like me . Okay , so we never competed . I don't think it was that type of thing , but he was . I can say it now . He was a good looking guy , well built , and you know , any girl probably would have liked him , you know . So I done saw him and Tory talk plenty of times I have .
Speaker 1But I don't know . I don't think shit ever happened . I don't know . That's just in my mind . I didn't think shit ever happened . But I put all that shit aside , y'all , I did . You , you gotta hear me out . I put all that shit To side to talk to this man . And it was at lunch One day and I was sitting right next to him and I said , hey , dawg , I need to holler at you . And he , looking at me like nigga , what the fuck you want with me ? Nigga . Like saying , like nigga , you know , I don't even like your fucking ass . And that was cool . That was cool . I was like , look , just hear me out . And he was like what you got , bro ? What the fuck do you want ? Right ?
Speaker 1I went on to say that tomorrow is Kinsa Senior Day , right ? Let me explain . Maybe some of y'all didn't go through this . Well , grace King had this thing called Kiss a Senior . You'll wear a badge just saying that , hey , I'm a senior and people writing under you not a freshman , maybe juniors , you know will come up to you and give you a kiss on the jaw , right ? It was no freaky-dicky shit , just on the jaw little peck and kiss the senior day . Okay , let me go back , all right .
Speaker 1So I say , look , man , tomorrow is kiss the senior day . I need you to kiss Tori for me , but when she goes to hand you her cheek , I need you to hit the lips . And so this motherfucker looked at me and say dude , what I say , dog , I need you to kiss her on her lips and I want to be there to see it . He said wait , wait , let me get this right , dog , you want me to kiss your girl on the motherfucking lips ? I say yeah . He said dude , do you want me to get suspended from school from kissing this girl ? Man , who the fuck you think I am ? Yeah , he say dude , do you want me to get suspended from school From kissing this girl ? Man who the fuck you think I am ? Man , you trying to set me the fuck up ? And I went on to tell him Wait , hold on , dog , hold on , chill out , chill out . Nigga , I'm not trying to set you up . This is what I need you to do . You're not going to get suspended , man , don't worry about it . Just let me handle it . You know , I said but this is what I need for you to do Now , remember , I don't want to keep bringing up popularity , but Tory had it too , okay . So this dude in his mind started clicking , clicking , clicking , like yeah , yeah , yeah , you know what , you know what ? Yeah , yeah , yeah , motherfucker , I'd do it . I mean , he wanted to try to crush me as much as he wanted . I know he was going to go for it , right , let me set the scene up for you . See , I had to set this shit up , perfect , right Now .
Speaker 1I knew Alexa was coming to the school to check her brother out so he could go by his dad for the weekend . You know , I don't know if I mentioned the mama and the daddy was not together , they were divorced , okay . But I knew Alexa , at a certain time , was going to come pick up her little brother and I had to make sure Alexa see the shit that was going to go down with my archenemy and Tori . So Alexa was coming out of 30D . What 30D does was the office . Okay , I know everybody with the Grace King , they know what 30D is . That's the office , okay .
Speaker 1So when she came out of the office and she turned my way , I started talking to her little brother , like you know , maybe about the game or something . But she came like 10 minutes early , the bell haven't even rung yet . So I had to bullshit her little brother by talking to him and she sat there peacefully just waiting for him to finish and then bing , bing , bing , bing . 10 minutes later the bell rung . So here come my arch enemy and here come tori coming towards each other . Now I'm stopped talking to her brother and she noticed by in my eyes that something was wrong . So at the time alexa turned around and she looked back and that when it all happened , my archenemy sat there and kissed Tori on the lips . So I turned around and started walking away from them , right ? So I started going down the stairs , heading to my car . You know , pretty upset and I'm acting like I'm mad , angry and shit bother me . And Alexa actually came after me , right . So once she got to the car and say , look , look , are you OK ? I'm like , I'm fine , I'm fine , just let me go , just let me go . And I left , I just left , man .
Speaker 1I remember driving home that day too . It didn't look like Lori even pulled away . It didn't even
Setting Up Tori for the Breakup
Speaker 1look like that . You know , she didn't mind , like you know , I kind of sat there like it lasted a little bit . It didn't like she didn't push him away and smack the shit out of him and none of that shit . So I remember thinking about that shit , man . It kind of hurted me a little bit that she didn't even try to even pull away . I mean , I tried to talk to myself , say maybe I left too fast , maybe I turned around too fast , and maybe she did . But you know , she had to know that people saw it happen and they was going to get back to me .
Speaker 1Man , when I remember , if I can remember this shit correctly , I remember talking to her and I don't even think she even mentioned it , you know , but it was . You know , I had to mention it because it was time for us to separate , it was time for us to break up , so I had to bring it up . I remember y'all , I had to bring that shit up . Ok , I remember being in my room trying to rehearse the shit , like what the fuck I'm going to say ? I mean , I had to play the shit off real good , you know . So I mean , after about 15 minutes I'm like got to buck myself up . You know I'm flexing in the mirror , all right , all right . So here we go . So what's up , man ?
Speaker 1Don't fucking hate me , man . You know I saw that fucking bullshit that went on . What , come on , man ? He kissed you . Man , look like kissed him , and you sure didn't do nothing about it if he did , it looked like you enjoyed the motherfucking shit , bro , man , fuck that man , I ain't got time for that bullshit . Man , you know who the fuck I am . You don't disrespect me like that . I would never do you no shit like that man . I mean , man , you my heart , I love you and this , the way you do me , do me , man . This is some fucked up shit , man . All the shit that we don't went through and this is what you do me . This is what you do me , right , right , man , you know what man got time for this shit man , fuck , yeah , that was me slamming down the phone . You know like I was damn near angry and mad and and , bro , I do admit that I was a little man . I mean man , that's my girl man , I ain't like that dude man at all , a little bit man . I couldn't stand to see them two kiss . Even though I know I set it up , it still hurt me in a way . So I'm going to get back with Alexa , you know , right now , and I'll get back on Tori . It's some things I will see at the end of this podcast about Tori that I have found out . Ok , but anyway , let's get back to Alexa .
Speaker 1I stayed away around from her house for a couple of days , right ? So at the time I was missing , she was always asking her brother how Ken doing ? He would call me and ask me man , you all right , you okay , you know talking to me . And man , my sister asked about you too . Man , want to know you , okay , are you all right At this time , man , everything's going just as planned . This is something that I needed to happen . I remember I stayed away maybe about a week and then I went back over to play the game with the little brother and I remember that her mom gave me a hug and then she did too , so that let me know they'd been talking about it . You know that what had happened to me ?
Speaker 1As the day was winding down and we getting finished playing the game , I'm picking up my joystick , putting it back in the case . And you know , like I say , I know there was a lot of sympathy for me in that house and people wonder if I was going to be OK and how my feeling of my heart been broken . So I remember leaving out the door and I go , oh shit , and Alexis is like what ? I , what I'm like , man , I had bought these two tickets for this party and man , I forgot that . Yeah , oh man , I ain't gonna be able to go . I'm not going by myself , because you know , me and Tori separated . How about you take these tickets for you to go ? Now , let me break this down . It it could have went either way , right , she could have took her old man or she could have went with me , but it still was going to work out . See , with these tickets here , I already did enough homework to know that her old man was going to be there in the first place . Okay , I had you know what .
Speaker 1I'm'm gonna tell you how I found this out . Well , my boy Juan , we wound up following him one time and , yes , just like I said , there was another girl that was involved in his life . So we went to this place called Uncle Harry's and Uncle Harry's off of Magazine Street in New Orleans . Well , it ain't like y'all care . Anyway , we went in there and it's a college type of bar and we went in there and man , next thing , you know , we was me and Juan bought some shots . I got pretty cool , you know , with old man up in there buying shots , and man next thing , shots , shots , shots , shots , shots , and we taking it to the head . And next thing you know , they started talking about this party . Anyway , the party was costing X amount of dollars to get in . And , man , you should come . Man , both of y'all should come and just hang out . Man , we love you guys . You know , when you're drunk , motherfuckers say anything . So that's how I found out about the party .
Speaker 1Okay , let's get back to it . Like I was saying , the shit could have went either way . She could have went with her boyfriend , but guess what ? He would have destroyed her hopes because he would have said no , because he was going with that other chick that he interested in , or she could go with me . Either way , my plan was going to work out . Yeah , I know , it's some punk shit , it's all good , y'all , you know , pussy over everything . That's how I felt back then . I'm sorry , okay .
Speaker 1Anyway , she did decide to go with me because she had all that sympathy in her heart for me , because what had happened with me and Tori ? So she said , yeah , we could go as friends and have fun . And I'm like , yeah , yeah , okay , all right , yeah , we could just go , have fun , I come back and I scoop you up later on and we could go to this party and she was like , okay , now , remember , she don't know , her old man is going to be there . So , like an evil genius that I thought I was , I was rubbing my finger . You know what ? I didn't even think about the people I was hurting . I only thought about one thing , and that was pussy and man . That was a bad trait I had man once again , I'm sorry .
Speaker 1Now we got there , okay , all I saw were white boys all around with these white sheets around them . I don't know if there was naked underneath that or not , or they had underwear , I wasn't pretty sure . But back then I didn't know what to call that . You know , I know today is called toga party , but back then I didn't know what the fuck was going on . So I wind up just saying , man , what the fuck , what a while . They got these white sheets on , kind of goddamn , look like the KKK without the mask . And I'm like , ok , as I'm supposed to be here , as I'm being pranked . You know I didn't know what was going on . But what the hell , what's the hell ? I still had to run that plan right .
Speaker 1Me and Alexa finally walked in that front door and , man , they had some fucking party going on . When I say you smell weed , you had beer in a tub full of ice , I mean , it was off the chain . Well , all you heard was the loud music . You could barely hear anybody . And we just kept walking around , you know . And she was like okay , you want to chill right here ? And I'm like , no , let's just keep walking . And man , I had to find a whole man . So we just kept on walking and I grabbed her by the arm , sometimes gripped her hand to make sure she was still following me , and ding , ding , ding , ding . I see him . He's over there in the corner . And , just like I said , he was over there hugged up with that girl . Now I paused for a minute because I wanted to kind of make it feel like an accident that we walked over by him . So I had to come up with something else . Like man , I can't just walk over there and talk about some hay , whatever you know . So it took a minute . After about five minutes I saw her old man walk over by the table where they had this punch bowl , and I'm like , let's get some punch . So we walked over there and I say , what's up ? And he looked at me like oh man , man , you the guy . I'm like , yeah , what's up , man , I'm good man .
Speaker 1The next , all of a sudden , alexa walks up and said how y'all two know each other . I say , well , I was at Uncle Harry's the other day and , you know , this guy was here partying with his girlfriend , his girlfriend . And I'm like , yeah , what's her name , bro ? And he goes I don't know what you're talking about . And I'm like you know the girl with the dirty brown hair , you know with the freckles . And he goes man , I don't , I don't know what I'm talking about . And Alexis say , well , that's my boyfriend . And I say , what ? Your boyfriend , this is your boyfriend . He was like , yeah , I'm like , oh shit .
Speaker 1And I paused for a minute right when my eyes are big , like , oh my God , did I just ? Did I just ? I was like , well , maybe not your girlfriend , maybe it was just a friend . I'm sorry , your friend , how your friend doing so ? I could see the girl from a distance , still chilling by herself , waiting on him to come back .
Speaker 1So I had to start a little commotion . You know , I had . I had to start a little commotion . Well , I was like man , I'm so sorry , man , I didn't mean to motion . Well , I was like man , I'm so sorry , man , I didn't mean to . You know , I didn't know you and a alexa , I , I apologize what ? And so alexa started to get a little louder why are you here ? Why you didn't tell me you was coming . I mean , the everybody started to make a little circle , right ?
Speaker 1So the girl with the freckles came
The Aftermath with Alexa
Speaker 1over and say what is going on ? And Alexa was like who is you ? Well , I'm such and such and this is my boyfriend . Oh , how he's supposed to be your boyfriend when he's my boyfriend ? And I remember this part real clear .
Speaker 1That girl with the freckles looked at Alexa Boyfriend and say who is this little girl ? Oh , alexa got pissed off , little girl . She say , yeah , how old ? You have to be 18? , 19 ? And right .
Speaker 1And Alexa , well , I say Alexa , let's go , let's go , let's go , don't worry . And she say I don't understand how you called in him your boyfriend when we've been together for three years . She was like , no , well , we've been together for a year and a half , like that . And alexa boyfriend was just sitting there and she , then he goes can we talk ? Can we talk to alexa ? He was saying that to alexa . Look , we need to talk , we need to talk like that . And alexa was like talk , talk about what now ? I don't know what happened after that , because they did went off by themselves . Okay , all I know if I had to make an assumption , he went ahead and let her down easy to let her know that they wasn't together no more , because she was teared up , she was crying and I basically grabbed her and we walked out and I put her in the car .
Speaker 1Once we got to the car , I remember Alexa saying what is wrong with me ? Why is I'm crying ? Why is I care for an asshole ? And I remember her looking at me like what is wrong with me that he left me for her . Look at me and look at her . I mean , is there a problem with me ? And I remember just trying to you know , soothe her saying you're beautiful , alexa . I mean any guy would be lucky to have you . You know he's just an asshole . Like you say , he's an asshole . You know , some guys just don't know what they have until they lose it . I mean I'm sitting here , man giving it to her right .
Speaker 1All I replied was well , just let me get you home to your house . And she was like no , kent , I really don't feel like going home right now because all I'm gonna do is just go in that room and cry I don't want to go home . I'm like , well , I could call my people up and see where they at and you come , hang out a little bit . So that's what I did . Found out where they were at when we went there . So I was trying to make her feel better , which I know I couldn't because you know she just went through this shit .
Speaker 1But we got there and we started to have a little fun . She was dancing , she was trying to , you know , drink her care away and I kept saying , ok , alex , too much drinking , ok . And I kept saying , ok , alex , too much , drinking , ok . So I went ahead and grabbed that last drink . She had put it down on the counter and we left . And I got home and she opened up the door .
Speaker 1I made sure she got up to her room as we was walking up the stairs I think we were making a lot of noise at the time , trying to get her up there by her being intoxicated of noise at the time , trying to get her up there by her being intoxicated . So the way that the house layout was , it was a mama room , her brother room , then her room at the end of the hallway . So her mom heard us and she came out of her room asking if everything is okay . I replied yes , ma'am , just got a little intoxicated . I'm gonna just put her in her room and make sure she's good and I'm going to leave .
Speaker 1And Alexa , in front of her mama goes no , no , no , I don't feel like being alone , I really don't . Can you stay ? Well , I put Alexa in her room and then I came out and explained to her mom what had happened at the party , that her boyfriend broke up with her and he was with another girl . And she went on to say my poor baby . And I'm like , okay , I'm going to just check on her and then I could be gone . She said no , no , ken , if she don't want to be alone , don't leave her alone . And I'm like , okay , all right . She said do you have to go home ? I said no , ma'am , I don't have to go home . So she was like OK , you can stay . I'm like OK . So I went back in the Alexa room .
Speaker 1Now on my mind I'm like oh shit , oh shit , mama , damn near cosign for me to get the pussy . I mean , that's what I'm saying Right . So I went in there and I took her shoes off and I say Alexa , are you comfortable ? Do you need me to , you know , and put your pajamas on or whatever , whatever ? And she was like um , yeah , let's do that .
Speaker 1And as I got her pants off , she felt backwards and she's , you know , like she kind of like passed out and I'm like , well , shit , I mean I should I try to fuck her when she's trying to pass out or whatever . So I just laid next to her . As I laid next to her , she kind of rolled towards me and man , man , man , I'm sorry y'all , the breath was rolling . I can remember that her breath was kicking . I was like , oh no , no , her breath is stinking . So I remember looking at the ceiling and looking up and man , I kept saying man , but the pussy I mean the pussy ain't got no smell though . Huh , I mean , can I get past the stinky breath ? And I was like , you know , like evil side got got on that other side and like , ken , you could fuck her . What are you talking about her breath ? And then the good side of me was like man , she is drunk , ken . I mean , do you really want to fuck somebody that's drunk and I mean her breath funky . And then my bad side was like shut , shut up . Good side , I'm telling you he could get the pussy right now . Fuck the breath , get some of this pussy . You know me , y'all . I went with the bad side , right , I'm like , yeah , yeah , I got to get some of this pussy . But let me tell you what happened next . Okay , as she jumped up and sat up , she threw up in her room y'all , and man I'm talking about she hurled , she was , and man , it was like three of them in a row . Man , I got the fuck out of there . Ain't no fucking way I was going to fuck her , knowing she done fucking threw up . Ain't that kind of pussy in the world , y'all . So I left . Okay , let me try to wrap this up pretty quick .
Speaker 1So me and alexa , we became close . You know two damaged people . I lost mine , she lost hers and we started to go out a little more . You know , just as friends , but that popularity of mine with other women and other friends that she saw me like francknate with everybody , you know . So she would just be sitting around or she'll come and dance with everyone , or one of my go-get-em , you know my go-getter tammy . You know she'll go get her and bring her to the floor and we'll just dance . So she started to see how my you know image was . She started to see that I was loved , like this dude probably could have anybody , right , and we used to always make these little jokes about us , you know , calling us two damaged people . And she goes well , it seemed like you can have anybody you want . And I'm like what make you say that ? She's like these girls be all over you . And I'm like , yeah , but you know I'm not ready for that . And she's like well , you know , like I said , tori , tori was beautiful , y'all . So Tori already set a mark for me that you know what beautiful was . So now , alexa was fine , she wasn't beautiful as Tori , no . So it was some things that Tori might've been like saying , well , maybe I'm not pretty enough for this dude here .
Speaker 1But long story , short things went on . She saw the popularity . One day I was over , you know , playing a game with her brother and she asked me to come here . It was late at night . Okay , mom in the room , brother wrapping things up , I'm getting ready to leave . She say , ken , before you leave , can you come here ? And I'm like what's up ?
Speaker 1I get to her room and she said you like this ? Man , you should have seen what the fuck this girl had on right , this Teddy thing . It must have been from Victoria's Secret . And she had this smell on her , this lotion that she had on that Victoria's Secret lotion or something . And she was like I had bought this from , you know , her boyfriend , but it , you know , he never got to see it . So I mean , do you like this ? And I'm like I couldn't even talk y'all . I was like I love it , I love it , you know . And she saw that and she thought that was pretty funny . She called me cute . Well , she walks over and she closed the door and things happen , y'all Things happen .
Speaker 1We wind up having sex that night . We wind up having sex a few more times after that . We are cool to the day . We are cool with each other . Today we haven't had sex in a long time . They've been , you know . But you know it was sometimes that you know we'll be in and out of relationships and me and her would have sex or just hang out Like if I see her right now , it's cool as a fan , right , she gonna hug me . I mean she's going gonna dab me , whatever it is , we just cool , right . All right , let's just get back to Tori a little bit . Y'all I'm glad y'all hung in this far .
Speaker 1This is a long one , I know , but , tori , you remember this beginning me and tori beginning was about me using her
The Truth About Tori and Moving Forward
Speaker 1to fuck other white girls , but to come to find out she was using me too . Yeah , really , she was . Tori was factual , we were the same people . I actually think that she had a sex addiction too , with black guys Not me , when I'm telling you hardcore black guys like I was her starter kid . Right , I was that starter black dude . That just was the starter . But she wanted thugs . You know she wanted I'm going to nigger with gold teats in their mouth . She wanted nigger with pants hanging off their ass . I mean she wanted thugs y'all . I mean I could tell you what happened after school , okay , oh yeah , let me explain about school , right quick .
Speaker 1Well , I didn't graduate with my class . I had to finish my education at Delgado Community College because Mr Collins got me anyway . Even though we separated me and Tori , he still got me . He just couldn't , you know , let it go . Even though we wasn't together , he could not let it go . He wound up getting me on some bogus shit as an ice cream y'all , like they used to sell these little ice cream bars at school . Well , he going to say I stole one without paying for it and it wasn't true . But he wind up expelling me for that , like you know , expelling me to a point that I couldn't graduate with my class . So he wind up getting me . Okay , I had to finish my education at Delgado Community College . I didn't go back to Grace King after that , I didn't All right Back to Tori .
Speaker 1Well , my phone rung after school , maybe about a year later , and it was Tori and Tori asked meri , asked me , hey , how you doing ? And she kind of felt like she was depressed and I'm like , oh , I'm doing fine , how you doing , tori ? And we talked for a little bit right , nothing , nothing bad , just a good little talk , how you been shoo , shooing , okay , I hung up the phone and maybe about 20 minutes later my phone rung and there was some dude man , some , some , some , some fucking dude on the other end saying hey , bro , what's up with this ? Your number in my girl phone and I say who the fuck is this ? He said , man , this is such and such man . Who the fuck is you ? Why my fucking girl calling you ?
Speaker 1I'm like what fucking girl you talking about , nigga ? Bro , he wind up saying Tori name . I say who ? He say Tori . And I was like man , what are you talking about , dude ? He say why is she calling you or you calling her ? Man ? Two to two . I didn't want her to get in trouble . So I put this shit together fast and I say well , I called her and he said , bro , look , I'm going to tell you , I'm going to say it one time , nigga . I said dog , don't threaten me , my nigga . He said , bro , do I all respect my nigga , don't call my girl . I don't like you fucking with no dudes . Dog . I was like what he was like , yeah , dog . So , look , bro , do respect my nigga . I'm telling you this dog , do not call my girl a fucking again . That's it , bro .
Speaker 1When I tell you , you know , black just wasn't good enough . She had to go all the way out , nigga , she had to leave black alone and go straight to thugging . You know what I'm saying ? So I wasn't good enough , like my dick wasn't big enough . She had to go further , she had to get deeper . No , look , I'm not mad . I respect the shit out of her . You know I worried about her , you know , for a while , and when I saw her one time I was working and she was at this Burger King , she was so afraid to say hey to me because I believe that she was with the boy's sister and and she didn't even like she , looked right at me , wouldn't even talk to me . Okay , all right , that was one episode .
Speaker 1Now another episode that me and her saw later is remember the guy craig I say rest in peace that I walked in um my girl , the girl house , and he was sitting on the sofa talking to her sister . You know , well , I , me and him had became close and he had some people working for him . Well , there's one dude man . This dude was from um shit I forgot . Well , he had goals in his mouth , real thugging nigga man . You could barely understand what this motherfucker was talking about . Having the time , you couldn't even understand him when he spoke . And he walks in man , you know thugging , and guess who he was with tori , I mean , you know tori ran out the house .
Speaker 1I kind of went after her to talk to her and my partner actually explained to him . You know , we had a lot of deal with in high school and , and , and nothing , nothing , nothing after that , and and I ain't seen ever since . I don't see , I ain't seen her ever since . I do remember seeing one of our mutual friends Facebook , and I believe she has a daughter now from somebody . Anyway , that's all I have to say with that . Okay , this is the end . Y'all . Thank y'all for listening to my journey , but this is the end of season one . Woo , feel like a milestone man , Feel like a milestone .
Speaker 1Season two is going to be a whole lot better . Like I said , I was going to try to go to video on season two , but it's some more shit I just have to work out . I think I'm going to just stay audio for right now until I work some shit out . I got to get better , man . I just got to get better . Look , I do have a fan message that y'all can write me at any time . I will get it through y'all podcast . It should have something that say fan mail . And look , I even got a theme song now that I worked on and got it all finished . So season two is going to be going to be good .
Speaker 1Y'all , thank y'all for sticking with me . Spread the word , man , I need for people to get . I need to get more subscribers . You know I'm trying to work on these endorsements to sponsors and stuff like that . I might have to start interrupting my podcast by shooting out a little sponsor . We all know we got to get paid in this in some type of way . Not saying that I have sponsors right now , but I have talked to one or two people . Hope that don't disturb people from coming back . Man , man , this has been a ride .
Speaker 1I hope y'all enjoyed this journey . I mean it's been a pleasure . I hope y'all enjoyed this journey . I mean it's been a pleasure . I hope a lot of people understand that . You know the past me ain't the future me , you know . I hope that I could succeed in this podcast where I could have a hundred million thousand fucking subscribers . You know , if y'all could just spread the word thank you , god bless . And look , I'm going to take a little time out to get this season two going . I might miss a week or two to put anything out . Bear with me . Hit that check mark so y'all could get notification every time I drop something because it might not be on time . I'm going to try to get better , okay , because the podcast season two , it ain't going to be as long as my journey each episode . You know the journey was between 40 minutes to an hour , you know . So thank y'all once again . Come back for season two , okay , y'all . See y'all later .