Blushing Phoenix
From The Ashes is where vulnerability meets power — and shame becomes your turning point.
Hosted by April Poynter, this podcast and YouTube channel exists at the intersection of deep sensitivity and unshakable strength.
It was born from April’s own journey with chronic blushing and erythrophobia (the fear of turning red in front of others), a physical response that once felt like a curse, but became the gateway to healing, growth, and radical self-trust.
The blush symbolizes the quiet pain of self-betrayal - the years spent hiding, people-pleasing, and shrinking in relationships, work, and identity.
The phoenix represents what happens when you stop running from yourself and begin to rise - bolder, freer, louder, and more aligned.
Blushing Phoenix is for the person who feels everything deeply, who has silenced themselves to fit in, and who is now ready to live louder without abandoning their softness.
Through raw stories, spiritual insights, and real conversations, April guides you to reclaim your voice, reconnect with your body, and rise from the ashes of who you were told to be.
Alchemize fear into fire.
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Blushing Phoenix
Everything I Think I'm Missing
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Everything I think I'm Missing
I am struggling. There's who I
believe I ought to be, and who
I really am. It's humbling, isn't
it? This being, this mystery, this
me sits here radiating energy, yet
I'm gripped by a nameless fear
that I'm missing exactly what
I came to experience.
I am suffering, telling myself
stories of what life should look
like. And then I get the message
like a meteor, like the power
coming back on after hours
in a storm.
This life, this extraordinary
imperfection, this moment
just as it is, this is all I'm
here to receive. The infuriating,
limitless simplicity of day-to-
day living holds everything
I think I'm missing.
One Soul: More poems from the heart of yoga, Danna Faulds, pg 33