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Talk Dirty To Me
S2E3 (Aura): Sex Surveys and Polyam Adventures
AUDIO NOTE: APOLOGIES FOR THE GUEST TRACK BEING A LITTLE DISTORTED AT TIMES
- No Kacey this ep, but Stephanie is back
- Stephanie regales her European Vacation 2023 ™
- Aura walks us through their relationship situation.
- Married for 7 years.
- Dating a guy.
- Also dating that guy’s best friend.
- Lowkey in love with them.
- Guy’s best friend also dating someone else.
- Autism communication!
- Aura shares their survey for previous partners
- CATS
- Aura tells us some more stories
- Losing their virginity the first time (kind of)
- Losing their virginity fully the 2nd time
- Church camp boner
- Aura’s Socials
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Well, well, well, go ahead and open up your ears, your mind and whatever else you need. You're listening to Talk Dirty To Me. Hello everybody, welcome to Talk Dirty To Me podcast, where three friends with three different perspectives talk about sex, kink and other lifestyle related things. Today we have no Casey, but we do have Stephanie back. We just had our most glorious trip from Europe, which please be, updated.
Speaker 2:But it was amazing.
Speaker 1:Before we do that, I do want to introduce our guest for this episode. This is Aura, or as an old friend of mine. I've known them for years and we've watched each other grow into our kinkier, slutty selves as life has continued, and they have so many interesting stories and interesting perspectives on things.
Speaker 3:Hi guys, I'm Aura. It's really great to be here today, super excited.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yeah, okay. So we are definitely going to get into hearing the stories and just hearing beautiful things about your life and talking about sexy things. Get your profile. But before we do that, stephanie, tell us about your trip please.
Speaker 2:Please, man, it was pretty magical. It was one of those things where Luke and I rented a car, we landed in Italy, like Southern Italy, in Naples, and drove all the way up to Germany, was kind of like we have friends that live in Munich and they had invited us to Oktoberfest. So we basically got the car and just picked Airbnb's out and we got so lucky because we kind of like veered off the beaten path, because I didn't want to do things like roam roam. So we stayed in Teeblee, which was like outside of Rome and in a national park, and we stayed with views that were just out of this world, gorgeous. And then we stayed on like a family farm outside of Florence and it was incredible. And then we traveled to Slovenia and that was actually my favorite country of all of the countries we visited, like near and dear to my heart. We stayed with a family on their farm. There. They made us homemade brandy. We drank homemade brandy with a 97 year old woman. It was pretty incredible.
Speaker 2:Then we moved on to Munich, germany, and had the ultimate, ultimate Oktoberfest experience. Like Luke wore Liederhosen, I wore a dirndl and we went with just a bunch of Germans to Oktoberfest and it was so much for my brain to take in. It is such a I've never seen anything like that in my life. And then we moved on to Switzerland and it was incredible. And then I came home and I'm just I'm. You know there's people who are like, are ready to come home after a vacation, and that is never me. I if, since I was a kid, I just I'm never ready to come home. I was so sad to leave, but I was so grateful for the experience. It was 16, amazing days.
Speaker 3:That sounds amazing yeah. I mean I only really want to come home for vacation with stressful people?
Speaker 2:Yeah, Like yeah, totally.
Speaker 2:I mean I just, I just, I, just, I just, I just, I, just, I, just, I, just, I just, I just really wanted to come home for vacation. For vacation, this was like meeting so many incredible like. Again, we got really lucky because we didn't like have a itinerary and I know that that can sound stressful to a lot of people but we just picked the Airbnb the night before and drove to that next location and it was like we picked places that were hosted by people because we wanted to kind of like meet people from that area and learn the culture and eat the food and, oh, the food and this.
Speaker 3:I want to go back so bad. It was so beautiful there, everyone was so nice and welcoming, it was so nice.
Speaker 2:I like I cried when we left our Airbnb in in Slovenia because they were just so incredibly welcoming and kind and loving and it was just. It was a lot of really good human interaction experience.
Speaker 1:Beautiful, beautiful. Yeah Well, I'm after one of these days when I'm more independently wealthy. I'm just, I'm going to go everywhere. I'm not going backpacking, I will be taking forms of transportation and don't involve me walking, but I will go everywhere.
Speaker 2:Selt. No, you, you really can, you can do it. It's, it's doesn't have to be expensive. Like, especially like Italy was, we were having like a meal with a bottle of wine and you know an appetizer, and it was like coming out to like 27 euros Like it, just because we weren't I wasn't eating in the heart of Rome, because I don't want to be in busy places with busy people. I just that's not my style. The internet is lovely. I can look the Coliseum up online. We drove by it and it was bleeding out people and I was like that looks terrible. Oh, thank you.
Speaker 1:I don't really care to go to like landmarks and stuff that like that. Their only benefit is to see them visually and I'm like I can look at them. Right now I don't want to. I'm like I know I can see what Niagara Falls looks like, unless I'm going to jump into it or anything. I'm just like, yeah, there it is.
Speaker 2:Right, but like Glarus, sued Switzerland is not like on any big maps or like they don't have incredible crowd bringing attractions, but it was like like, visually, my eyes has have never seen beauty like that, ever in my life. And we were on a farm and it was cheap. But it was like how is this cheap? This is like what people pay so much for that you know, like you would think so people would pay so much for it. It doesn't have to be crazy expensive. If you don't care about luxury hotels which I do not or first class seats or anything like that, you can do Europe for a good price.
Speaker 1:All right, I'll save my pocket change.
Speaker 2:We'll get it done. Okay, I'll say this a week in Disneyland is a Disney world is more expensive.
Speaker 1:Okay, well. Well, you know I'm trying to get into that I will not disparage Disney. They'll come for me, all right. So hi, aura.
Speaker 2:Hello Hi Aura.
Speaker 1:So we like to start off by you know, introduce all of your, your. How do you identify in, you know, the kink media time world? What would you call yourself as somebody asked?
Speaker 3:Well, I'd probably just start by saying I'm Aura. I'm polyamorous that's usually my biggest one. I'm demisexual pansexual. Basically, if we vibe and we have a good connection, it's something I'm willing to see through generally, I know right now I'm in a little bit of a different situation. It's a little overwhelming at times, but it's been a really beautiful time I've been having.
Speaker 1:So what's this? What is your situation currently?
Speaker 3:So I'm married to my wonderful husband of seven years. I'm also seeing this wonderful guy, and I'm starting to see his best friend as well, and they're also seeing each other.
Speaker 1:The best friend and the guy.
Speaker 3:Yeah.
Speaker 1:We'll go guy one, best best friend, guy for names.
Speaker 3:Okay.
Speaker 1:So I wanted best friend guy together and you just started dating best friend guy.
Speaker 3:Well, actually the best friend is non binary.
Speaker 1:Best best friend, not best friend and be.
Speaker 3:Yeah, and be fem presenting Absolutely Drop dead gorgeous. I'm low key in love with them, but we haven't gone there yet.
Speaker 1:Well, they know now. They know now. This is, this is how, this is how you tell people.
Speaker 3:Oh yeah, no, I'm just going to send this to them and that's how I'm going to tell them that's going to be my big gesture.
Speaker 1:I did a whole podcast just to tell you that I love you. How do you feel?
Speaker 3:I mean, I'm actually, if you want to know, the whole plan. I don't know whether I want to do it at a pumpkin patch or I'm going to take them to spirit Halloween and under their big display of their little haunted house thing, I was going to give them a little little speech, maybe hold their hands.
Speaker 1:Yes, do that.
Speaker 3:And then I'll show them the podcast.
Speaker 1:Well then they'll know that it was premeditated and you thought it through because it had this wall happened. They actually do that. That's going to be cute.
Speaker 3:They actually have a long term boyfriend as well, and I've been talking to him about this for a while.
Speaker 1:Yes See, you have just described my favorite thing about polyamory. You get a group of compersive people and you get to like, you know, like gang love people, like from all different directions and being like what better resources there? Being like I want to do something special for this person than I really love.
Speaker 3:Hello, that person's husband Teach me yeah, no, seriously, he hit up he hit up me and then I guess we'll just say the guy partner is partner number one. He had me in partner number one and was like hey, their birthday is coming up, what do we want to do? And so we just all three sat there and planned out their birthday party, and it was such a good time.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I'm currently seeing someone who has two other partners and I know one of them really well and I've worked with it, worked with the third one and we have a running bit that we call ourselves the council.
Speaker 3:I love that so much.
Speaker 1:Like, there's like we've been in the council group chapter like handle particular things and make birthday special and do any support things that we need to do.
Speaker 1:And so and it's like it's great. It's great. That is a lovely new type of connection with a person, like I'm not in a relationship with their other partners, but I know them, we're cool, and that's like another cool way to connect with people, especially as one of them's been a friend of mine for a really long time. Yeah, and so I was like I think it's great. So you mentioned that it was stressful, complicated, difficult sometimes, or what's going on there Sometimes.
Speaker 3:So partner number one has never really been Polly the only experience he ever had was a negative one but almost everyone around him is Polly and so he has seen it work and knows that it can, and we're just absolutely head over heels in love with each other. So he's been willing to make this work and he's been going to therapy working on his, his own stuff. The problem is sometimes we have minor communication issues which lead me and me being whoo, I have thought he has broken up with me like twice, which was not the case. It was just the words he used which made me read into it a different way. And I mean, granted, valid, like the things that he said. None of them were horrible. Like he was totally valid in his expression of emotions. It was just it wasn't what he meant.
Speaker 3:It's like his words and actions were not matching in, like the opposite way, cause most of the time when people say that you know, it's like their words are all these big grand ideas and like things that they'll do but they never do them. His was the opposite of like. His words were like, oh, this can't happen, but what he meant was he needed space and time to process his emotions, to not project them onto me, cause he knows that he tends to do that. So we have this like agreement of like this is what we need to communicate. But yeah, we recently had that happen again and so I was like, listen, I need you to specifically say we are okay, you did nothing wrong. I just need my processing time for a little bit. We'll work through this like we always do. Just just something cause my brain. If you tell me anything else and you tell me you're feeling bad, I will immediately assume it's my fault and that everything's done. It's like one thing goes wrong. You're over it.
Speaker 1:Yep, I you know I'm autistic. I got two autistic children fairly certain. My partner is autistic. I am all for script cheat sheets.
Speaker 3:Yes.
Speaker 1:And I'm like, listen, cause, like one of the ways that I've described, like how my language processing works with autism, is like there is the thing that's right in front of my brain to say like what I would say automatically, without doing any processing whatsoever, and my understanding of what you're saying, that's what I would read as the very first thing. If it isn't that, then it's everything, yep, all at the same time. And now I'm 35 and I've been doing this my whole life and I've built trees and systems to be like, okay, it's probably not all of these things, by taking in these clues and these clues, maybe this and maybe that, and so I'm going to proceed with the information system being this and hopefully that's right and that's exhausting. So I love it when it's just like hey, if situation A happens, say these words and we'll be good. I'm like great, memorized, I will do that. Yeah, exactly.
Speaker 3:Exactly, exactly that. Yeah, I basically just gave him a script because little little background on that last one. So their birthday party it was me, partner number one, partner number two, which is them, and then their partner was there. Partner number one decides to leave and I had way too much to drink that night and he was joking around with me and said something about along the lines of oh, are you going to get with a partner number two's partner? And I was like, absolutely I am. If anything, I'm going to do them both. Like I'm totally staying here, we're going to be in the same bed, it's fine. And like him not used to like hearing these things and we don't generally talk about like the intimate stuff just out of comfort, he knows it's happening and like the communication is there on that, but no details need to be shared. Yeah, I'm going to similar thing with Sophia Right.
Speaker 3:And her. Their partner was never on my mind, necessarily. We're definitely attracted to each other, but I always ignored. It was just like no, I want to focus on partner number two for now. Let this relationship blossom before I even think about it, cause I've been so overwhelmed with partner number one. My emotions are just very intense over there, and so it's hard to navigate as it is, and I just don't want to accidentally add more to my plate. Hey, I understand. Well, that's poly saturated.
Speaker 1:It's a real thing, exactly. I very much enjoy that word.
Speaker 3:By the way, I'm just like poly saturated, poly saturated, but yeah, so anyway, I hadn't been thinking that the entire night, like even before I got to that point of drinking, I was constantly thinking about keeping both of my partners happy. Yet in that moment, like making sure nobody was feeling any type of way, no one was getting more attention than the other, I was just very focused on keeping everything going smoothly, which I tend to put on myself when I don't need to.
Speaker 3:But I was about to bring up, but yeah, I'm very aware I don't need to do that, but just with the fact that they've been best friends for so long, I already felt like I was getting in between that when I got involved with partner number one in the first place, which I've expressed to both of them and we're like still kind of working through these emotions because partner number two feels the same way and it's like everything you know was going smoothly until I came back in the picture romantically. They expressed that to me one time and it's obviously not true. We're all separate, there's separate things going on, but you know, when there's previous relationships to be had, it kind of all just intertwined but anyway. So he's not used to hearing that stuff. So it kind of set him on a little spiral a little bit, but I had no intentions. That night, however, drinky and I ended up in bed with both of partner number two and her, their partner, and they fell asleep and he confessed his attraction to me.
Speaker 3:We ended up kissing, and so the next morning when partner number one confronted me about what I said, he was like has anything been going on? Cause, if it is, that's something like, because it's someone I know. I feel like we should talk about that and I was like to be honest, I had no intentions of it, but yes, and so that's when partner number one said that he was unsure about polyamory and, like his, he was just like having a hard time dealing with jealousy in the moment and that's all he was saying was like I don't know what to do because I'm feeling this way, but I just don't know how to handle these emotions at the moment. But I took it as like I just read the first line of like I don't know if I can do polyamory. This is really hard. I took that and ran with it and I just with with him.
Speaker 3:I have a problem of just accepting things and you know, in order to save the friendship, because he means so much to me, and like the last thing I want is for anything to end nasty and for him not to be in my life anymore. So if he's, if he starts feeling a type of way or needs to take a step back or end things, I am fully supportive, like, even if it hurts me, I'm like, no, like, take it, like, do your thing. So I gave him space and then he came over the following Wednesday, came in, act in all cute hold in my hand, just being like I missed you so much, I'm so glad to see you. And I just started breaking down crying like wait, it's not over. And he was like what are you talking about? I had been in such a deep spiral for days and like my husband was sitting there, being the supportive, loving man that he is, and it's just.
Speaker 1:I love that man, yeah, he's, he's a champion.
Speaker 3:He's a champion.
Speaker 1:Also known him for a long time. He's the youth. Yeah, Stephanie, you look at your say something.
Speaker 2:Yeah, no, I was just thinking that's the sweetest thing. Like the support system you have is amazing.
Speaker 3:I'm so very grateful for my support system. I know years ago I wouldn't have been able to see it, but I don't know what changed to me. But I'm really glad that I have oh, what's the word for it? I have the awareness. Now, as much as I'm comforted by my depression and sadness that I go through, I'm very aware that I'm not alone and I'm. I have wonderful people to support me. I may have trouble reaching out when I'm feeling that way, but I never worry about going too far off the deep end because these people are here for me.
Speaker 1:Yeah, we'll come get you. Yeah, we all know how to swim, that's amazing, thank you, amazing.
Speaker 2:Amazing, yeah, no.
Speaker 1:And I think that's another really beautiful thing about poly. And when people like asked me about it and like what you do and how do you do things, I was like look, there's basically three ground rules is you don't lie to yourself. Ever I was like in a monogamous relationship. Not being self aware can cause so many problems. It is multiplied by 10,000s if you're lying to yourself, Cause you know if you, if you don't let emotions out, they're going to come out sideways. When they come out sideways and it affects two, three, five, 10 people, it gets worse and worse. So just don't lie to yourself. Right, you can decide what you are and aren't going to say, but just be honest with yourself. To be like I feel jealous, I'm mad about this, this doesn't feel good. Just, it is true. Don't lie to yourself.
Speaker 3:Yeah.
Speaker 1:Number two. The number two is say do all the talking, Say all the words, communicate those feelings that you're not lying to yourself about, because everybody has to have as much information as they can to make good choices. And then rule number three is get a shared Google calendar.
Speaker 3:Oh, my God.
Speaker 1:Just because it's that's the thing that'll get you, because this might be the autistic part, but, like I have many things, I have things color coded in such a way. So I have like a visual color signal of like neglect. And so, because I'm enjoying my life, I'm like Stephanie, I'm going to go out to Europe and go what feels good and what leads good and I will easily be like super jamming the experience I'm having with a person and not have looked up and text someone for three weeks.
Speaker 3:Absolutely.
Speaker 1:That feels bad.
Speaker 3:I am. I am the same way I've come. I haven't felt the need for a Google Calendar as of recently, as I'm only really seeing my husband and my two partners, but back in the day I used to actually carry around with me a physical. I called it my Dick appointment calendar. It was just this little planner. I was also in my K-pop phase, so it was BTS, of course, which is hilarious because, like you know, BTS is like the. I guess they really popped off with the kids in the US, so they were seen as like a kid boy band and I mean I I knew it wasn't necessarily that, but in the US it was, and so I thought it was funny that that was my Dick appointment calendar and I use that so often in the times when I would forget to use it, I would find myself double booking myself.
Speaker 1:Yeah, oh man.
Speaker 2:Laura, have you and your husband been Polly from the beginning?
Speaker 3:No, we met when I was 15. He had no interest in me, of course he was. He was 19 when we met and he completely brushed me off, as he should. But we were friends because we worked together. So we got close. He kind of tutored me through high school and then I graduated and by that point we had kind of acknowledged that we felt romantically towards each other just because it had been so long and we just clicked so well. He took me to Austin. We just never left for my graduation trip.
Speaker 3:But no, it was probably about four years, almost four years into it. It was a couple months before we got married, where he sat me down and he wanted to make a Tinder account to boost his self confidence is what he said and first thought, first reaction was absolutely not. It's not that I don't trust you, but I don't trust other people on there, you know. And he's like I don't want to chat with anybody. I just, you know, want to see if I get matches and I was like nope. But then that made me think about it and for about a week I couldn't stop thinking about how, what if he did meet someone on Tinder? What if they were really cool?
Speaker 3:What if he had a really good date? What if they had sex after? And I realized I didn't really care about those things. I was, I would have just been happy that he was going out there and socializing. And so I went up and then I thought about how I got with him when I was so young.
Speaker 3:I never really got to experience dating as an adult and or at least having sex with other people. You know, I mean, I was kind of it's kind of wild as a teenager. But you know, at the time I was like did I really experience anything, though I was a teenager? So I sat down with him again and I brought it up and I was like you know what, if you want to make a Tinder account, that's fine, but I would like the ability to do so as well. And then that kind of opened up the conversation of well, what if? And then we just kept asking each other these questions and it turned out he was on the exact same page I was. We weren't in a place to do any kind of romantic relationships, so we were probably considered more E&M back then. But sorry.
Speaker 2:Ethical non-monogamy.
Speaker 4:So which is which it falls under the umbrella of polyamory.
Speaker 3:But it's kind of like yeah. Just no romantic feelings, just friends with benefits or yeah.
Speaker 2:That's interesting to me that that is considered like that. The word ethical like does it even have a problem with that? Because, like what makes something ethical and then the other thing not ethical, like just because there's romantic feelings that all of a sudden makes it not?
Speaker 3:ethical anymore. It doesn't have to do the romantic aspect, it's basically ethical. Non-monogamy is where there's communication involved. Well, non ethical non-monogamy would be like cheating or hiding things, things outside of the boundaries.
Speaker 1:I see, okay, yeah, and a lot of people in, like the polyamorous community are working to change that phrase to consensual non-monogamy. Oh, okay, because they have the same, they have the same quam that you do that it's like. It's like well, it's not like we call monogamy ethical monogamy, and it further makes the case that, like one is good and one is bad. But you know, I am exhausted with certain forms of like tone, policing and virtually signaling about stuff from just especially being autistic. I'm like can we just just just give me a list of what the words I'm supposed to say are, please?
Speaker 3:That's what I want.
Speaker 2:Give me a list.
Speaker 1:I know, I was like y'all aren't saying what you mean and I was like what do you mean? What do you want? I was like, just look at the people in front of you, yeah, ask them what they need and want and do that. That's the rule. What do we want to call that? We'll pick three random letters, we'll call it that and everybody knows it. We got it Good. Okay, I'm getting it. Sure.
Speaker 2:Okay, Gotcha, I was like I was thinking you were meaning like before you involved romantic relationships. That's what made it ethically non-monogamy.
Speaker 3:Yeah, it's just communication, but I, I see I said, I totally understand.
Speaker 1:I've definitely heard people who have that boundary for sure that it's just like you can't have romantic feelings about other people, and I flinched when I hear that. I'm just like well, good luck. Yeah, I hope that worked out.
Speaker 3:Looking back, I kind of was like, wow, you're literally like that, you're still cutting yourself off at a point, Like, say, you make a really great connection and then it's just cut off like, oh well, now I have romantic feelings. So this doesn't feel right anymore because I know when I'm with that person I'm going to be expressing that and that's technically breaking that boundary within my relationship with my husband. But over time, you know, I met up, I went on a lot of dates, I slept with a lot of people. It didn't really change until I met up with an old friend's partner. She happened to be visiting Austin and she was going through a breakup and invited me over to her hotel room. And that's how I found out that they were Polly too. Because she was like I broke up with my girlfriend and I was like aren't you with him? Like what did y'all break up? And she was like no, we're Polly. And I was like someone else. It's not just me doing this shit. You can have, like you do, romantic relationships. How does that work?
Speaker 3:Like I, because I was still dealing with a lot of jealousy stemming stemming from insecurities. I think it was more internal insecurities and insecurities in my relationship, because I've always felt pretty solid with my husband. But I definitely wasn't in a place. But I had realized shortly after that. I was like, oh what if I have feelings for her? And so I talked to him about it. I talked to my husband about it and at first he had the same reaction. When he asked me about the tender, he was like I'm not comfortable with that. That's not something I really see happening. We can talk about this a little bit later, and so we gave it a little bit more time.
Speaker 3:Nothing ever happened with her. I still love her. We're still great friends, but it was kind of more like a. This is an idea in my head and I don't really know how I'm feeling yet. It was just also new to me.
Speaker 2:Wow, y'all's communication is, like, so beautiful and it's so incredible that you, like you said you got together so young, but that you've allowed each other to grow. You've grown together, like it, and it doesn't it's not necessarily meant that you've had to grow apart. You know, like and I think that that is something that there's a lot of people out there that fear holds them back from allowing themselves to even grow, let alone their partner, and so it's really cool that y'all have given each other the space and the like permissions the wrong word, because we don't need permission from other people, but just just the freedom being on each other's team is really rad. Right, that's the right word.
Speaker 1:Yeah and like. And for people who like, don't know the like cause, again, I've known. I've known Nora since forever. Like me and their older sibling have been friends since I was in college, coming up on 20 years. So when I heard about her I was it to begin with and I was like I definitely was just like relative that I know I'm watching you send the text and now come kick people. But I literally I watched very carefully because you know that that set up could have, could lead to bad things, but he was nothing but a gentleman. He did everything right. He's still doing everything right. I've known him for years and years and years and full vouch, he's solid.
Speaker 3:Definitely oh that's amazing.
Speaker 3:It's kind of funny. So we ended up gearing into it Like I was going towards a romantic relationship when this guy I met on Tinder totally manipulated me into a relationship, but this is kind of how our conversations kind of started Well, not started, but we started seriously considering, like fully being open and free and just trusting each other and letting those connections grow and not holding back from anything like that Cause there was a couple of dudes I met that were really cool and I kind of thought about pursuing more. Never worked out, but it would have been nice to like maybe explore that back then. I'm kind of glad it didn't, though, because other things have come out since then.
Speaker 2:Like.
Speaker 3:I was not making the best choices back then of the people I was seeing was I just? I think I was just too excited to be out and about again.
Speaker 1:if I'm honest, oh yeah, we've all. We've all done it and I got, I had a. I've had a couple of people on my pile list and I'm like, oh, I should have done that.
Speaker 3:I learned a lot from that first relationship since being married and I learned a lot of signs to look out for which I promptly ignored. In the second relationship I had, I was like, oh, these are some great things to look out for. And then it happened again 10 folds. I dated somebody for like over a year and a half recently Well, I guess it was almost a year ago now, it's not that recent. He moved.
Speaker 1:Yeah, mr, I don't eat pussy. Yeah, mr oh yeah, I guess that's who I've been for. Oh, I mean actually he's not he's not going to listen? No, no, he's not. I actually don't care if he listens.
Speaker 3:I really don't. He can listen to it all he wants.
Speaker 2:But I would. I would imagine there's more than one Mr. I don't eat pussy.
Speaker 1:You know what I mean. You're, you're, you have lots of company.
Speaker 3:Yeah, probably. Let's see, I I actually I keep track of everyone I've ever slept with. I have a list on my phone. I have all the names in order when they happened and the teenage ones I did. I thought he kept when you said kept keep track.
Speaker 2:I was like, like you like check in with them Like, like, you like keep up.
Speaker 3:Oh, my God.
Speaker 1:That was one of my favorite segments of your life.
Speaker 3:It was when the pandemic happened and, like I was kind of freshly, so we opened up in December of 2019 and we got married the day everything shut down due to COVID in March. So I had four months of hooking up with people before you know, we just all stayed home and it was illegal.
Speaker 3:And so I was bored one day and I was like, man, it would be really funny if I just sent a survey to all of these people I've ever slept with, including the teenage years, the ones that didn't traumatize me. So I did that and for a while after things opened up again and I started seeing people again. Sometimes, if they were really cool, I would be like hey, do you want to take my survey real quick?
Speaker 2:Can I can I know the?
Speaker 3:question Hold on.
Speaker 1:Let me figure out which account that was one of my, one of the funniest days of my life. I actually might be able to find it too. I think when you were first sending it, you sent it to me for like reviewing or you were talking about it and I was like I have to see the survey. No, yeah, you asked me to like review and be like what is it? Should I send this? And I'm like well, live your life, don't send it to the scary one.
Speaker 3:Yeah, okay, man, I wish I could screen Actually, if you guys want to see it.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yes, please.
Speaker 3:Okay, okay, so it's. Can you see it Cool?
Speaker 1:Yep, I remember the school before.
Speaker 3:So you slept with me?
Speaker 3:I would love to hear your thoughts or feedback from my own personal entertainment. I'm bored Call it a personal social experiment. So I'd ask for their name and if they would like to remain anonymous. If I decided to make a TikTok which I never did, where. How we met. What was your favorite thing about me? What made you know first impressions, what made you want to have sex with me? And then I have these like, numbered one to 10, how attracted were you to me at the time? One I was desperate. 10. Wow, goddess Head. Game One never got it, or it was awful, oh Jesus. Or 10. Gluck gluck 9000, you know, cootie game One, what game? 10. Gorilla Grip, how good do you think? I thought it was fun to ask how they think they did, and that one really interested me. I'll show you the responses Overall. How was it? One I regret everything. 10, please call me again Areas for improvement. Anything else you want me to know? We'll just let's see.
Speaker 1:Yeah, nobody else will see me. Yeah, like you really.
Speaker 3:Cool, let's see, let's get some favorites. Favorite thing about me a lot of ass, respectfully, that figure was pristine and you looked mad, fuckable. Okay, dude, here we go. How attracted were you to me at the time? The only one who answered one was my husband.
Speaker 1:And that's because, when we met I was 15. So we love him for that. That literally was like I love that I know Like. I'd none at, zero, none at all.
Speaker 3:I remember because at first when I saw it was like why the fuck did you give me a one? He was like you were 15. I had, I didn't want anything to do with you, you know what I respect it I actually. I really respect that Head game generally 10.
Speaker 1:So you said you identify relationship wise, Polly and demisexual and pansexual. How do you identify kink and BDSM wise?
Speaker 3:So I definitely identify as a switch. I feel like I'm like a picky switch because it really depends. I generally lean more sub for sure. I really just like someone taking control of me because I tend to be a control freak in my life. That's totally where that comes from, but I love it when someone takes control. However, if they have a problem, someone takes control. However, if they have a specific personality type, I will easily go into like soft dom mommy mode.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, now there's, there's, there's a particular type of surrender that can't be ignored.
Speaker 3:Cannot. I remember my first experience doing that and uh ah, oh, please Please.
Speaker 3:Okay, so I met this wonderful man off tender Wonderful, actually. I think they recently changed their pronouns to they them. So they are this beautiful person. I haven't talked to them in so long, but we call ourselves like twins because we just had the same personality through and through. I can't remember where we went for our first date. All I know is that our second date was at a sex shop and they cross dressed for the first time in public to do this, that's so beautiful, and it was just part of the experience, because we planned, it was my
Speaker 3:first pegging and we planned for it. So I picked them up. They were wearing their cute little outfit and I was just like, oh my God, you look so great. We drove all the way down south to the big, the big sex shop down there and we picked out a strap and a dildo and then we went back to their place and we just started making out and I was feeling very nervous because I had never like domed before. Like I, I could get kind of like not intense, but I can take aggressive. Yeah, I can get a little aggressive sometimes, but never in like full dom mode, which is what they wanted. So but something clicked in me when they did their first little whimper.
Speaker 1:That's every. This is a story every time, every switch I know, especially if they've like started their lives up is. I was just like you know, I didn't think and then someone just the whimpered at me or, puppy, a dog eye looked me and I found it. I found it deep in my soul, yep.
Speaker 3:Yep, it's that whimper every time and it was just beautiful. I had them laying down and we just slowly ease into it and then I realized how great it was. Just the view, the feeling of like being inside someone, like that. I know it's. I know it's not me, necessarily it's the toy, but I felt it. I felt every inch of them and it was just so beautiful. It's the first and only time I've done it. I can't wait to do it again. I was years ago. I hope I can do it again one day.
Speaker 1:Oh man, just you, just you know, wave a strap on in the middle of the street, somewhere, you'll have it, you'll have a deep audience. It's a highly in demand activity.
Speaker 3:I know it makes me wish I was still in my whole phase a bit.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I currently have a regular getting pegged from person now, and God bless the USA, we love pegging, we love pegging. Okay, it's great, everybody do it. All the lube, all of it.
Speaker 3:So important. I don't have as much experience with anal. I've been trying to practice more on myself because I have recently kind of ignited that spark of need in myself. I had a little accident in one of my recent sexual encounters with partner number one. He was just going very hard and I angled myself a little too high and we had a little triple surprise because he didn't stop.
Speaker 3:He didn't realize what he was doing at first. So he didn't stop. So I got a full three pumps of in the asshole no lube, no prep. But the entire week I was recovering after that I just kept thinking about how good that could feel.
Speaker 1:I literally was about to be like. I want Stephanie take it from here.
Speaker 2:I love it, but it took me so. But the thing is I will say this I don't care how many times on the podcast, because maybe someone's first time hearing it took me so long to get to that point and I refuse to let it be painful ever. I'm a late bloomer in life, I'm in the slow lane, but with that comes like nope, we're going to do this. My way, and my way is, is not to be painful ever. As soon as it's painful, we're going to stop, we're going to pull back and then we'll push a little and then we'll pull back.
Speaker 2:And I was still able to like climax through all of the like trying like all of the small. You don't have to go big or go home in that area, people just go at your own speed. And then when you do, I just feel like, for females in general, we've been missing out like that. They've been hoarding this secret from us yeah, it's actually from humans just all in general, like we just don't talk about anal enough and anal stimulation in my personal opinion, and that's all I mean literally.
Speaker 3:Monday night, like we me and partner number one I mean, granted, none of my partners really do anal my husband's not a fan, which totally cool. Like we don't really have, like I've never really had the drive for it before Partner number two we kind of just are a little shy right now, so intimacy is few and far between, which is totally okay.
Speaker 1:Still holding hands.
Speaker 3:Still holding hands. I'm just very nervous. It's my first like queer relationship and so I'm still like learning to navigate that. But yeah, so partner number one and I we were getting freaky on Monday and whole on 69 in which we hadn't done in a while and he just he just started tickling and went in and I was like this is the best 69 I've ever had. Please don't stop.
Speaker 1:People give, people give 69 such a bad rap and I was like, listen, I understand the complaint. Right, the geometry requires some mapping, right, the body math has to happen, yeah, but it's, it's worth the effort. It's worth the effort. You know, like most of the 69s are going to put the work, effort into work. Totally worth my time. It's just such good access to all the different places and so I've never, I've never been the top person in the 69. That's not true. I have one and champion. Champion and young woman.
Speaker 1:Round of applause 400 pounds, 400 pounds of African furia. She just just scuba dived her way through that Plus. That's amazing. What Well done oh my gosh.
Speaker 3:I love that.
Speaker 1:Hold on real quick, stephanie, did we lose you or is this just a private thing that's happening? Come on Taking my phone. Ok, hoi, everything OK.
Speaker 2:So I'm sorry. My cat had a, like a, jumped up on my thing where all my candles were and they were lit and the handle is. Just just thought my house is going to get through.
Speaker 3:I was like come on, keenan.
Speaker 2:And my cat. I swear on my life. He did it on purpose, like that's. The other thing about this cat is I've been muting this because he's meowing, because I'm not paying attention to him, and when you don't, he gets your attention in the most like way, diabolical ways.
Speaker 3:I just like way and she's a kid, you, she's a kid, so sorry, we're discovering a lot of things as we go. She is slowly. She gets cuter, but also more demonic as the days go by. She is now started face attacking Sure. Oh yeah, that's been fun.
Speaker 2:Yeah, when you're asleep. Yeah, oh yeah, mm. Hmm, the best I'm 100 percent.
Speaker 1:I believe everybody who has a cat is a mask. Yes, because everybody I know has a cat says a phrase to some form or fashion that is like oh, you know, be careful. She'll, like, scratch you a little bit in the face or the arm, but you don't get cut that deep. And I'm like I want you to say that about a human being, Right? Just say I was like, oh, here's my, here's my friend George. You know, every once in a while he'll scratch you a little bit on the arm or face. He's only cut me, like my cat's name is George Bro.
Speaker 1:That's just cuts you in the face and arm and we're just like, yeah, that's great, I love it.
Speaker 2:And bites my cat bites If they're playful bites, but they draw blood every time. I just like look you, that's.
Speaker 3:That's partner number two. They love to bite me. I don't know if you can still see no, I guess not but there is like a oh yeah, this.
Speaker 2:Yeah yeah.
Speaker 1:Right here. Oh, I see it.
Speaker 3:Yeah, oh yeah.
Speaker 2:I could see it.
Speaker 3:Party, like two weeks ago. They, they bit me hard and they just love to do that. They'll like grab my arm or like just lean into my shoulder or something and just bite me hard and I'm like you know, I don't hate this, I really don't like. Can you, can you show me a little more? Keep going.
Speaker 1:Oh, man, I mean, I just had to get used to getting bit, knowing your sibling for so long.
Speaker 3:Oh, yeah, she, she loves to bite.
Speaker 1:It's you know so bite. I guess I do accept love bites from human beings. But like we said, every I think everybody's got a little mask. It's tendencies in them, at least everybody with a cat.
Speaker 3:Yeah, a little bit. I definitely want to interrogate my cat anyway.
Speaker 1:OK, so we got. We got the heck pecking to the old friend. We other prison have. We've had 69 that went well with partner number two. Just you have any other sexy stories on your heart and soul?
Speaker 2:that you want to share.
Speaker 1:Because I've heard I've heard plenty of your stories there, which is why I'm glad you're in my life, because it was just like I love having somebody to be like. Here's this wild, horny thing that happened to me, hi.
Speaker 3:So I've got two on my mind. I can try to make them OK cool. So the first one was when I lost my virginity. I kind of I don't know how to word it because like when I said it originally I kind of I realized that the wordings kind of off. But I had two sexual experiences, two consensual sexual experiences, with losing my virginity. The first one just didn't go all the way in and I didn't know me and this guy he was the first guy who ever called me cute and I had a lot of self-esteem issues. He was also really cute, but self-esteem issues. My friends were already having sex. I was 13 and I was like, oh my God, it's going down, let's go. So we broke into a building. I mean, it's a building we consistently broke into. It was like an old, abandoned, like office, strip mall center.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, that makes it better.
Speaker 3:We used to call it FA, because forever alone was the meme at the time and the funny thing about calling it forever alone is that's where we as groups would go to smoke, have sex, drink, do all of the teenager things, but it was called forever alone, anyway. So I go there to hook up with him and it was a lot of foreplay and I thought I felt like I felt him go in, like he definitely went in but he had trouble staying hard also. So but I felt so good, I felt so confident. He ended up. He told me he didn't want to date because he wasn't ready to be in a relationship, ended up dating my best friend the next day.
Speaker 3:He had slept with her the night before, like me and her had an agreement to both sleep with him at separate times, but he ended up dating her. So that kind of sucked. But I went to school the next day with basically Hickeys in the form of like autopsy markings, like I had the Y on my chest going all the way down, and then I had Hickeys all up and down my legs, like he loved giving Hickeys. So I was covered in bruises. I had a gym teacher pull me aside the next day asking if I was OK at home, and that was.
Speaker 1:I most definitely.
Speaker 3:I wish I could remember what my exclamation like, what my explanation was for that. I think I had something to do with me saying I was rough housing with my sibling who I didn't live with, and everyone knew I lived in a single household, so I don't know, and I would imagine any adult at that age knows what a Hickey looks like.
Speaker 2:So they probably were like, ok, this is not Arkansas, so I doubt.
Speaker 3:That's Obviously kids and kids and kids saw it and I was like oh yeah, I had sex, and so that went through the whole school, I was.
Speaker 3:I was the first one in my grade to have sex. So like at the school everyone was pretty, like, pretty conservative, so it was like taboo that someone in the seventh grade had sex. Anyway, this got around to one of my longtime friends who I actually just saw a couple days ago. He was in Austin and he stopped by and visited me and we just had a really good time, not rekindling but reminiscing, so anyway, you're of your breaking and entering and somewhat entering.
Speaker 3:He approached me after hearing this news and was like so I heard that you did this thing and I really want to experience that, so that when I get a girlfriend, I know what I'm doing. Would you be OK with something like that? And I was like oh, I got you, I had sex, I know what I'm doing.
Speaker 2:When and where baby.
Speaker 3:So this is literally two weeks after I had lost my like lost my virginity. So we go to the park behind the school and we there's a basketball court and about 20 feet away were two thin trees, and then behind that was like a fence to a parking lot and we thought that behind these two trees was the best spot to go. And so we get there, we make out for a little bit and then he's like hey, do you think you could maybe like go down on me? And I'm like, absolutely, I got this. I wasn't used to that size. He was yeah, and so I was getting nervous. I didn't actually know what I was doing and I looked up and he was looking down at me with no reaction and I legit stopped and said stop looking at me. And then I kept going.
Speaker 1:Did he stop looking at you?
Speaker 3:Yes, he did. He was like he was looking down and then just snapped his head back and looked straight to the sky.
Speaker 2:Your dumb clicked in for just two seconds.
Speaker 1:You know what, when I was, when I was like teenager, I remember like my first blow jobs when I was like 17,. It's actually really nerve, it's a really awkward time because you're mostly like nervous, anxious and like panicking, but also it's the best thing that has ever happened to you in your entire fucking life. So you're just like I was like oh my God, don't fuck it up, what do I do?
Speaker 3:I think that's part of the reason I find it or I know I used to. It's less now because I'm so like romantically feelings involved now, but when we first opened up and I was like just meeting new people and sleeping around, that was one of my favorite parts of the experience. Was like that newness that you don't know what they like, you don't know what they want, you're just going into it blind and it's not as magical as when you're a teenager, but it still has its own magic to it. That reminds you of that, or at least for me.
Speaker 1:Yeah, oh, I mean, like to this day I'm never. One of the things I've maintained fascination with my whole life is like the oral orgasm puzzle will never get tired or never get tired. I was like if I had, if I had my way and the time and the resources, I would figure out the Rubik's cube of oral sexing everyone to their greatest pleasure. That's what I would spend the rest of my life doing easily. But no, so yeah, I feel you and it's it's because my like my first blow job giving was like, it was special, it was a magical time there's I know I've talked about on a podcast before I tell you remember what episode where I blew my neighbor's that we'll put it in the show notes and I've told that whole story, but it's, yeah, been been second to ever since.
Speaker 3:It's, it's one of orals, one of my favorite things. I just I feel like it's. It's a really good way to figure somebody out and what they like, and because you can, that's how you find out, like the speed, the roughness or the softness that they're into, and then you can translate that into you know, other sex positions or whatever else you're doing, but also the satisfaction of making someone finish with your mouth unmatched, yep it feels great every time, yeah, and it's like and yeah, that's why I like to say I was like there are things I can only learn about you with my mouth in between your leg.
Speaker 1:There's lots of information there that's only translatable through the back of my throat and I also ignore me. I haven't had sex in a month. I'm going to touch another human being in a month, but I'm out of jail on Friday, and so yeah, I got syphilis. You listen to the first episode. I talked about it, and so my antibiotics finish on Friday, which they messed up. It should have been done two weeks ago, but we're almost out of time.
Speaker 3:I had that happen to me once.
Speaker 3:I had. I had chlamydia. I went in for like routine testing came up with chlamydia, took the antibiotics, did the thing. I happened to have a gynecologist appointment pretty soon after treatment and of course it still came back positive for chlamydia and I told them I was like I just finished treatment, I haven't been intimate. They're like, well, you're still showing up positive, so we're going to give you another round of antibiotics. I found out recently at the kind clinics. They were like why would they do that to you? You can, you can test positive for like two weeks after, but you're clean, like they're doctors, they should know that. And I was like man, that was like the hardest time of my life because I was like deep in hofaze and I was like seeing a new person every other day and like I had a routine, I had schedules, I had pre-planned stuff. And then they did that to me and I just went with it because I didn't know. I was like, oh shit, I guess the antibiotics didn't work.
Speaker 1:Yeah, mine was like you know, I test every six months all the time. Like the system it works. The way that I have set up my sexual safety system did its job. I found out pretty much right after it happened. None, I informed everybody, nobody got it. But literally, I found out the day before I was going to a sex party that I was auditioning my like orgasm sounds to. You know how many people approached me at that party? Oh man, I'm like no, I'm in jail, I gotta wait.
Speaker 2:At least it's 2023 and not 1800s, like you would be dead.
Speaker 1:We're not. I'm not Johnny Depp in the Libertine. My nose is falling off. Yeah, it's pretty much like. As far as like medically it's a non-event. It's just like I take antibiotics for a few days If I forget to eat, then I feel nauseous and then I'm done Like. The hardest part was just like the conversations with the people affected. But you know, it's 2023. Everybody has everybody that I interact with has pretty solid sexual health, like knowledge and stuff. So everybody was just like cool. You know, can we make some updates to your extracurricular sexual practices? And I'm like it's already done. You know that rule if something in the system didn't work anymore. So I've changed a couple of things which we get.
Speaker 1:But man if ever gets that out of jail blowjob, I'm happy for him.
Speaker 3:Yeah, man, do you want to hear the second story?
Speaker 1:Yeah, yeah, but we'll call it. We'll call it.
Speaker 3:OK, ok, I'll make this one quick. I feel like this is my craziest, so like that was my virginity. This is my craziest experience to date as far as how it went. So met this guy off atender. We met at one of those bar arcade places and we we hit it off immediately. We were like great friends, but I was getting worried because he hadn't kissed me yet and we were there for a few hours and he's a photographer. So we went to this little pier that was behind the place and it overlooks the city. So we're on that pier. It's like midnight, no one's out except for this guy that kept following us around, which I hooked up with him later, but not the same night, but I had gotten his number previously, and so I admit that was a horrible experience, but anyway.
Speaker 3:So we're on this pier and we're talking, and he asked me about my serendipity tattoo and I told him that it was like it's one of my favorite songs, but also it's a homage to like Bob Ross, and the second Bob Ross left my mouth. His demeanor completely changed and he grabbed me by the chin and kissed me right there and said why did you have to talk about Bob Ross? And I was like oh, bob Ross, look at the bitch up, let's go. Anyway, I ended up blowing him right then and there, like the make out got so hot and heavy, I blew him right there on the pier and I I'm not one for public anymore. I got into quite a bit of trouble when I was a teenager and so I'm not really comfortable with super public stuff. I love the idea of it, I love being watched. I'm definitely in that category of like voyeurism, but I don't like it when it's like non consensual.
Speaker 2:Is it?
Speaker 3:it's illegal when you say you got, when you say you got in trouble, like it's, it's illegal, yeah, they've been caught by police before, but because we were teenagers, they kind of just let us go and was like here's a warning, but I'm an adult now, and so I have what I'm asking is it illegal to get caught giving a low job in public?
Speaker 1:Technically you can get an indecent exposure. Technically for a blow job, oh, I see. Ok, the guy could get an indecent exposure charge. It's not technically illegal to give a blow job in public spaces, unless it's like a school or private property. But if you're butt naked, fucking, yes, both of you are going to get an indecent exposure.
Speaker 3:Yeah, but yeah, ok, so we did that, and then I had told him I never been to like sixth street and so he took me there and we had a drink right before they closed, because it was like a Tuesday night, so it closed kind of early and this is after the peer.
Speaker 3:This is after the peer blow job and then he took me to some neighborhood like within five minutes of sixth street and we just parked and we were there fucking in his car until like five or six am, like the sun was coming up, and he still had to take me back to my car at the arcade later, jeez, but it was such a magical night. I still talk to him on occasion. I consider him like one of my comment partners because like he'll come around and then he'll go away for a while and then he'll come back.
Speaker 3:Yeah, yeah. I saw it on some poly group before and I was like oh, that's definitely this guy specifically.
Speaker 1:Yeah, I got, I got one of those yeah.
Speaker 3:But yeah, so that's probably the craziest thing I've done since being open teenager. I did all kinds of shit.
Speaker 1:I mean we were. You know, I was having sleepovers with my neighbor and blowing him with his parents and brother like the room away. So we've all been well and we, you know, I went to church camp.
Speaker 2:I've seen some. I have such a boring childhood compared to the majority, vast majority of the world.
Speaker 1:Hey you look, you ran the church whatever, I'm making up for it now.
Speaker 2:I mean the church.
Speaker 1:There's exciting things in there. Maybe not like sexy exciting but no, not for me.
Speaker 2:Oh OK, that's true, Just just wildly.
Speaker 1:Awful. I want to show the poem.
Speaker 3:I fought the church very well, I didn't not necessarily fought, but I disrespected the church hard because, like I went through all of that Also, I was raised in the church and I was forced to go to church. But by the time I hit, like you know, 12 or 13, I kind of started to see truth. Well, maybe not truth, but you know what I mean. Just I started seeing my own, my own path, and it had nothing to do with the church. So I but I was also a disrespectful teenager I ended up having sex with one of my girlfriends in the baptism pool during a church lock in when we were playing hide and seek.
Speaker 3:That that was probably my biggest like fuck this.
Speaker 1:Listen, I guess the first time anyone ever touched my penis that was like not me was at a church camp and like people were playing treat the dare and I was a black guy wearing white shorts, so like it was just like a group of people kept getting there to like take their hands in my pants at church camp. Like 20 minutes later we were on our knees worshiping Jesus Right.
Speaker 3:Thanks, church camp that sounds like church camp.
Speaker 1:Lockings are the exact same as sex parties. It was like the first sex party I went in. I was like, oh, this is a church lock in just without the lies.
Speaker 3:I still haven't been to a sex party.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, I can. I know some, and one every month.
Speaker 3:Oh OK, I'm like not in a current like headspace for that kind of thing at the moment, but definitely down the line. I want to experience it just at least once. Like that was always one of my biggest fantasies is like just a room full of people all fucking or not fucking and I'm getting fucked. Like whatever is going on, like I just want a bunch of people there.
Speaker 1:It's a great time. I've been like five, six times to this particular party. I've only done anything with any other person one and a half times. The rest of the time they're just watching other people and they're having a great time. All right, we'll call it there, stephanie. Any last final note question thought.
Speaker 2:No, I'm taking it all in and I'm thinking maybe this isn't my last life on Earth, because I've thought that for a long time. But I feel again like I've missed out on so much of my teenhood, because it's crickets for my stories compared to all. You're making up for last, I'm so jealous I am, I am. I, it's true, listen, listen, that's true, but I just feel so late.
Speaker 3:There's nothing wrong with being late to the game. I was feeling that way when I first started. I was like man, I could have done so much more. But then you just got to realize that you're doing it now and you're having a good time and focus on that present. That's right. Forget that past.
Speaker 2:Yeah, that's right, that's right, that's right.
Speaker 1:My 30 year old brain doing wild sexy stuff is much preferred. Yeah, your 20 year old brain.
Speaker 2:Yeah, that's, that's true. Yeah, that's true.
Speaker 3:So it's so not a great time. I've hooked up with a couple of people from my past and like I just realized how this wasn't what it had to be.
Speaker 1:Yeah, now, trust me, one of these, one of the days when we have a lot of time, I'll tell about my Craigless encounters, and some of them are just straight up stupid. Just straight up. I was trying to dive.
Speaker 2:Yeah, you're trying to get murdered, you're trying to get murdered.
Speaker 1:Yeah, sure I'll get in your car and drive to a location for by myself. That 19 with no money in a dead phone, his basement looks safe. Honestly, I do put the shit out of me. It was awesome, but I shouldn't have done it. It's good, but yeah, now it's, you're not missing out. It's like lots of them happen, but definitely 30 year old brain is a maybe better time to be having those experiences.
Speaker 3:Yeah, I'm excited to be.
Speaker 1:Well, it's a good time. I highly recommend it. Best, the fucking best. You have anything else you want to add there, if any socials you want people to follow you on anything coming up you want. You want cloud for.
Speaker 3:I mean I'm kind of still on hiatus at the moment, but I do have a not safe for work Twitter Been a minute.
Speaker 3:I've been prepping myself to get back into it. I kind of miss it, but I don't miss some aspects of it. But I'm in a better head headspace to deal with everything. I was just. I was in a very dark place in my last relationship and it kind of caused me to just stop everything. I was isolating myself. It was horrible time. We do not stand. But it's, it's my Twitter, it's underscore, it's just aura, a U R A underscore.
Speaker 1:Gotcha, all right. Yeah, well, throw those show notes, you know, if you think about it, you know want it there, we'll take it back out. Yeah, for sure It'll be cool, all right. Well, that'll wrap it up for today. Thank you everybody for listening.
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Speaker 3:Absolutely. Thank you for having me.
Speaker 1:And let's all blow people on peers if we feel like it.
Speaker 3:Highly recommend. Especially with a city skyline, it was very nice.
Speaker 2:Make sure there's no cops around.
Speaker 3:I just wish there was a camera around, I'm sure it looked beautiful.
Speaker 1:That can be arranged.
Speaker 3:Ayo.
Speaker 1:All right, bye, bye, bye.
Speaker 4:Talk Dirty to Me is a podcast by Little Renegade Films. It stars Sarah Marie Currie, casey, sammie Casey. Why don't you sound real sexy while you do it, do I? No, why don't you? Oh, why don't I? Yeah, like you, remember how you read your synopsis.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 3:You want me to do it like that? Yes, okay, great.
Speaker 4:Okay, genius, okay, talk Dirty to. Me is a podcast by Little Renegade Films. It stars Sarah Marie Currie, Casey Sammie, Tosin Alifaso and Stephanie Spoon, With silent contributions by Taylor Novak. Title and closing themes by Tosin Alifaso. Follow us on the social medias at Talk Dirty to Me pod, and for more of our offerings go to littlerenegadefilmscom.
