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Ya girl kept this episode pretty simple, I just wanted to have a little chat about this year was for me! I go over things that I have learned, some challenges I faced, and some good moments I encountered. I cant wait for yall to hear it!

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Transcript

Hey guys welcome back to another week or talking all day with Tae. It's your girl Tae and I'm here with another episode for you guys. I'm actually going to let this be the last episode of 2024. Guys oh my gosh, this year has been crazy. It's been a lot and I' thought that it would be nice for me to recap the year so you guys can know a little bit about how my year has been, how I have been and all of that. I know that my episodes are not every week, but I still want you guys to be you know, a part of my world, part of my life um and I really do love podcasting and I'm never wanting to stop. So it's like y'all are stuck with me, you know? I will say sometimes it is hard for me to record a podcast just because of my allergies, you guys. Oh my gosh, the weather here has been like rainy. I work with kids right now so it's like really busy with like kids getting sick. They're coughing and all of that so it's just like hello, you know, um but yeah, I was going to start like from the beginning of the year just to kind of give you guys a little riy cap on my 2024 and honestly has been a lot. um a lot of things that are going to be mentioned have not been mentioned in previous episodes of this year, so it's going to be it's going to be a lot, you know, without saying to too much, but I did want you guys to know kind of like how this year has been and my hopes for the next year and um, also just kind of like my thought process of like what I'm thinking about um about like the future, my future, um, and all of that. So, yeah, without further ado, let's get started on this week's episode. So I was going to go like by a month, but I just was like, no, that's a little too detailed. Like just remembering every little thing, because also that's my memory is like a goldfish sometimes. So please bear with me, but at the beginning of the year, you know, it was, um, I was starting to do more podcasts, like a little bit more, like just getting it ready for the year. It was pretty nice. Um like the first, like couple of months, it was pretty chill. I was hanging out with friends that we were coming back from school. I was like catching up on um different assignments, um Well, I was really like finished, you know, I graduated. So I finished with like graduating. That past year in 2023. So this year was like, okay, she's graduated. This was her first fall as she had without um taking classes. So now it's like winter time. So it's like yeah, she's just catching up with friends and um, you know, you know, getting that grind on, you know, I was at a different job than I'm at at that time. I was working with kids as well. I would working as a full full-time teacher. Yeah. So it was it was interesting. We no longer working there anymore, but it was definitely a time and I did um meet a couple of friendships that I will carry on for the rest of my life hopefully, um but yeah, as we go on you guys know like I would always like every now and then post on my Instagram. So I remember posting about it like when it was my birthday and I did do a lot. I got my hair done a lot this year you guys. I did. um braids. I did locks. I did um different colors, all of those things. And of course, I'm going to go into the later um you part of the year in a little bit tell you about more about my hair, but how it is now currently, because little guys there might be a surprise in the near future, not really, but just like the color that I did I dyed my hair, so the color that I did dye my hair, I'm doing more of and we'll just leave it at that. If you follow the Instagram which is talking all day would t t a e you will know what I'm talking about of my recent hair change, this fall so yeah, just keep on, you know, checking it onto the socials. But yeah. Anyhoo, I um did I had like a party, like a birthday party with my friends. um It was cute. It was fun. I feel like this year definitely reflected a lot of growth um for me. It's like in some instances I felt like I wasn't growing in other instances. I felt like I was. It's it's been like crazy. I'm not going to lie this year. um was pretty crazy as we were getting not in summer, but it was like more so of spring. When we were in spring, that's when it was like crazy city. Everything was just turning left, not only with me, but with my family, um like just outside, like life. It was just going Craig cray. So yeah, we'll get into that. So there was like kind of a break on school just because I was waiting to get into a certain program. so it was more so like working working working full-time. So I was working as a teacher, there was different things at that job that I was at before that just was bad, you guys. um I was working at a new location where it was pretty fresh and it was a startup. So it was like just a lot of different things that weren't like, well with the organization, of course, I'm not naming any names. um at all, but just letting you guys know, I was working on a job at a time where it was pretty stressful. and that did impact the way I would carry on about my days and all of that, so it was just like Lord, what is going on? and then after um yeah, it was just like a lot of drama, a lot of tea for no reason at all. And if you guys know me, you know that I don't do drama. Like I really don't like being in drama, especially now that I am getting older. When I was younger, I thought it was cool to like just be in the know about different things like oh, she said that what why did she say that and now I'm literally guys I'm going to be 23 next year. 23 That sounds serious, like what? So, no, I just come to the point where I just don't want to act like I'm in high school anymore, you know, and it's crazy because like that job it was a lot of high school people. I'm talking about high school minded people. um even when it came to management that just wasn't thinking or um was an orchestrated and wasn't communicating and all of that. It just was a hot mess. So, yeah, um I'm glad to have been, thank God, like the Lord has removed me from that situation. Um If you guys know we' working with kids, when you work with kids, Esel, you'll realize that there's there's a lot of places that just don't prioritize the kids in general. And that was the job where I was at. I've worked in past jobs, past that where it was like daycares, where it just seemed like the kids were not being taken as a priority and that did cause for me to leave um, you know, like the jobs in the past. So for this job I actually worked there for a good time, like I I just left there in like September, you guys. Like it was very, very different. But I was working there for probably about nine to ten months, almost. um I would say like nine months. I was working there and um it just seemed like it was one thing after another and an honestly felt like a spiral where it was hard to feel like you could come out. like oh, I can definitely quit, but also I need have plant A, BCD EFG, you know, um so it just it it seemed like it was more complicated than what it really was. Honestly it was just me. I felt like I still have no regrets from working there because I was able to grow as a person um definitely was um glad that I was in a strong state of mind to the point where I could leave, um because in the past, I probably wouldn't have passed. Taylor would have been like, oh, everything's fine. It's totally fine if I'm not getting what I deserve. and now Taylor now is like no, I do know what I deserve, so when I was working there, it was more so like I was staying there for the kids. I was really caring about the kids. I love kids so much so when I left, it definitely was like a big thing and it seems like it is all the time when I leave jobs that are working with kids. I have to say goodbye to those kids that are there and it's sad to say that it's usually management that causes the leaving. So but yeah, that job definitely was for a lot during most of this year, so especially in the beginning stages, it wasn't that close by where I live currently, so travel was a lot. um and then it could get expensive out time to schedules like it just was a whole thing. So I um definitely was like going through it um and not only that, but I had family members who are like not even family members, but like my parents, they got in a car accident and then my mom got in a car accident so it just was like one thing after the next and honestly I felt like God was really testing my faith during that time because it was not too far from my birthday when this happened. um and it was just more so like Lord, why is this happening to us? Why is this happening to my parents, my mom, who is so devoted to you and so um just like, you know, they put you before anything and then there, like just wonderful people of God and they are just going through it. Like what is happening with our family? um And so it was a lot of that um but it was like during the storm God was showing me like his plan like what like his plan for like removal of different things. So, of course me being the child and my parents being like my parents are not the child being of the kid, their child. um seeing everything, of course I'm just seeing how they're handling the situations, put their handling it with such class and I'm just like wow, you know, um during this year, my dad also had like a major surgery and I'm only saying it because he like to say like it's a praise report thing, like, you know, like he likes to be that example for others, but my dad, he had a kidney transplant So it was like one thing after the next, like, oh, we have to rush we had to do this, we have to do this. It was like this year I was on go. It was like work come home study for like a stateboard test that I was taking a work, come home study work, come home study. and then it just got to the point where I just got tired and I just started getting lazy, you guys like I just stopped caring about a lot of things and it was like I was prioritizing the wrong things like work was actually trumping the Lord, like it just got that bad. So I was like, oh my God, and still to this day I'm still trying to like grasp that balance, you know, where you're not making work your idol relationship your idol family your idol or you know, anything that your phone, your idol, a social media, you're idol, and I feel like with social media this year I did pretty good. I'm actually proud of myself for how like I've been on social media, but it's definitely been less time than like in the past years. And I'm honestly proud of that. um my TikTok recently, you guys, I got logged out of like are not logged out, but just like I can't get back into it. So I really haven't been on TikTok. I created another TikTok just so I could see videos of my friends and me, but I literally can't get into TikTok so that part is still kind of frustrating, but it's weird because it's like the time that I wanted to get on TikTok was after I've had like months of a break of TikTok where I wasn't really just on there. um I think I've been on Instagram the most this year, but just literally looking at the reels and stuff. um on my podcast, Instagram, I feel like I've taken a nice, uh breaks over that time, but like regular Instagram. I've been on it, but it's not like how it has been in the past, honestly, like I've been on it, but it's been more chiller, like I have realized that I am starting to not care about being aesthetically correct. I'm more so just taking like the gift that God has given me and making my own kind of artsy way of like sharing photos, um talking about my fun times with my friends and my family. Like it's more authentic rather than just being perfect and even like in the past, I used to want to have to like I will Google what time is the best time to post to get the most likes like now I'm just posting and it's not even perfect. photos are barely edited, maybe not even edited at all. Like it's like I'm appreciating the lighting of the photo, the simplicity of the photo rather than just making it look cute, you know. and it's like our editing it. Like I never really in the past, when I edited my skin, like as you could tell, it was like my skin was extra smooth. um I never edited to the point where I changed my body size, but I definitely did edit to where I would smooth my skin or if I had a pimp eye, which I'd make it disappear, I would remove the background of different things so it's like this um not even like it's for the past couple of years, I haven't really um taken it too seriously, but I feel like this year I've just been doing whatever. I've just been doing random Instagram dumps or I've been um just not as particular on what I'm posting. um I have three different businesses. I have my podcast page. I have my um baking business. I've been baking this year as well. um I don't post my baking business that much just because of location purposes, like I don't want um it to get into my podcast, you know, realm only because of safety. Like if I posted it you would have had all my information and shipping and all that stuff. It's more so like in my family kind of connected family mutual friends, coworkers, is usually that way. So, yeah, but I've been I have my business. It's definitely blooming. A lot of people of loving my treats. I've been growing like crazy with the treats, so it's been nice. but like earlier this year, it just seemed like it was one thing after the next. Like I had I was like kind of going too fast. Like I had too many things on my plate. I said I had three businesses. I really have two. I have my podcast page and then I have my baking page and then I would say I think I said three just because I'm teaching. It's like a whole nother thing. um and teaching isn't even the final and goal of what I want to do you guys, what I want to do is um work in as a sonographer. So like I said in previous episodes before, you know, but um, yeah, it's just seems like I'm always wearing many hats and then adding in a relationship, I just hit two years with my boyfriend. This December and has definitely been so like just nice, like definitely having him really helped this year too just for keeping me sane and just reminding me about how much like how important I am and how like much the Lord loves me and cares for me and how much he loves me and cares for me. So it's definitely been nice. It's definitely like crazy to be like oh my gosh, two years in um but it's like I know that that relationship was just God just brought together. Like he knew I needed. My boyfriend. So, yeah, but like in the beginning of the year, it was really crazy. It just seemed like it was one thing after the next and I was going on overboard. I felt like it was hard to squeeze in time with friends and I would prioritize that over prioritizing a lot of things and it just seemed to really like kind of just add to it. And I feel like that's why I feel like this year was like a lot of growth just because I got to see myself in a whole different light. I got to see a little bit of what things make me frustrated, what things I tolerate, what things I don't tolerate, what things I need to tolerate and not tolerate, and then just an overall view on what do I want to do, you know, like in life? What how do I want to impact someone? How do I want to make someone feel good and feel a validated? How do I want to feel validated? Like I was just doing a lot of self- aware questions. I'm not going to be I'm I was going to tell you I'm going to be honest. It seemed to be like where I was dissecting myself without using God to help me dissect myself. And that was the issue because I feel like if I added God into the equation, it would have been so much clearer. I would have probably haven't been through a lot of different things. Um so I'm going to talk about what I want to do going into this year or like, you know, in 2025, but um it definitely was like a reflecting year to say the least, not only just for myself, but just to see the people who I surround myself with um I'm the type of person who likes to continue to make relationships, friendships. um I like enjoying I enjoy meeting with people, but I also have learned that it's good to be private or it's good to um know your boundaries. Like I feel like I've used my boundaries more this year. If there's something that I felt like I didn't want to do them much towards like later on in the year, I started just saying no, and and it honestly felt good like I'm always usually really busy like where I go and hang out with friends and stuff but if it was generally something where I was like I'm really tired or I just don't feel like going like I need a rest or I need a reschedule. I would say that. if it was something where I felt hesitant about or unsafe sorry if you guys can hear that motorcycle. Okay. Sorry if you guys could hear that motorcycle. But if it was something where I literally just felt unsafe about, um, not comfortable in um, there's been a lot of inst situations like with a couple of, well, yeah, like a couple of past friends that I've had at the beginning of the year that I don't have anymore where different things will pop up. Like, um they would it was more so like they were talking about my character, like, and it's not even just to like be gossiping right now, you guys, but like I literally have been putting myself first. I'm really proud of how like I did put myself first this year. I think it just got to the point where I did it a little too much, not in friendships, but just did it too much where I forgot God in that and it just kind of made like me more stressed out if that makes sense. Like if God wanted me, I know he wanted me to realize myself worth, but what am I to do to realize myself worth of God's not there? You know, and honestly that year or this year that we had I did that. It was more so like I was like okay, I'm going to figure out me and I just kind of put God on the side again. um which I know that' normal that's what a lot of people do subconsciously or like knowing what they're doing, you know, but I generally was like um it just got to the point where I just wasn't like looking, you know, I wasn't looking for God when I should have. um but like I was saying back with friendships it was more so like when I put myself first every now and then I would like be like God protect me like this this feels weird, this feels unsafe. I actually feel like if I say yes to this it could be bad, and it was like he would show me still, even when I'm not going to him that much. He was show me like the light in different things and different friendships and different situations when I was looking for other jobs, he like made it clear where he wanted me to go. It's like even in the midst of me just being not so good of a servant, he still served me. He never not served me but like he still came to my needs and like helped me like, you know, get through it and that is just something that I well of always be grateful for, you know, um but yeah, like honestly I felt like if I really added a lot of like the podcasting it to the mix and the mix of me growing cause how am I going to talk about something when I need help? Like like I have so many like um podcast plans would scare you guys. I was going to talk about this that and the third. And then I also did have a little bit of comparison. Other people they're able to do episodes every week, other people are able to do episodes every month. Me, I'm doing once every blue moon, once every five months, like once every four months, like what is going on, do I even care? how am I expecting to grow? You know? And it's just like, girl, you can still grow, but it's like I always have that concert reminder that you're moving at your own pace, you know? So when I remember that it wasn't as bad. Now, I'm not going to go into this next year saying yeah, oh my gosh, it's going to be so many more episodes because I honestly don't know, you know, like all I know for a fact is that I love podcasting, all I know for a fact is I love teaching, all I know for a fact is I love school, all I know for the fact is I love baking, like I love different things. I love I love going out with friends. I love going to church. I love spending time with family. I love spending time with my boyfriend. I know there's different things that I love. Do I know how many of them are going to show up in a year? No, I'm not God you know so yeah, it's just been more so like me just trying to figure out um where I want to go um with God rather than by myself and that's what we're going to bring into the next year for sure. But yeah, back to the year. It was it was a lot. And there's a lot of things that I just am not going to say just because of privacy reasons, um, but it was very it seemed like it was one thing after another. It felt like if you were able to rest for a second, something else will pop up, and then adding holidays into the mix, adding birthdays it just got busy, honestly guys, it's like no other way to say it, you know. um but I as the year went on, like in summertime, it was it was busy. It was hot. oh my gosh y' all hot in Texas. um and I also did go to concerts. I did go to concerts like towards the end of the year, like in like around fall time. um I was trying to save up for these concerts. um I feel like these concerts were something that I could look forward to like in April to I release that she was going on tour and she was going to be here in November and out it's like oh my gosh, well I have to go see her so it's just was like a it was like Tori Kelly and then Conan was wearing on concert. And then Colon was going on concert. So I went to all three of those concerts, all three were different experiences, but I was still really thankful for them, like those were the first concerts that I't forb been to. I've never been to a concert. Like and I'm not counting like concerts where it's just like a casual thing like some Christian concert bands, not like not like a big blown out, you know, band or anything, but like, you know how you may have concerts that are at parks and stuff. I'm not counting that. I'm counting like actually full-blown out concert and I'm not going to lie you guys. Tori Kelly one was so surreal. It was beautiful. It was I got to meet her. I literally got to meet Tori Kelly. I got to hug her and take a photo with her and say hi and literally when I got in front of her I forgot what I was saying. I just looked like hi oh my gosh, it's so nice to meet you. And then a click was the photo and then we were gone. I was like dang, I thought I was going to be able to talk to her like no, they said I'm you and everyone else did. like oh my gosh, but it's just the fact that God was God knew that I desperately wanted to meet Tori Kelly. I have been a fan of hers for 10 years now literally 10 years so I thought it was perfect to go now I if you ask me, how come I haven't been in the past well I haven't been in the past because I either just couldn't afford it or when she did come here, she was coming here and then one time her concert got canceled and then another time I think she was going to come COVID just kind of took a whole toll on it and it kind of delayed her to going on a world tour world tour in 2024. um So it just was like a whole spiral, you know, but it was so so fun. Like I went with my boyfriend and my uh two besties and it was just great. And it I just loved that they were able to be a part of that special moment because it really was special. I even FaceTime my mom at the concert because Tori was like FaceTime people who are you're missing and it was so cute. So it was very, um that was my favorite card, like concert this year by far, but I really loved Conan Conan would be second. It was so good. I've been seeing that Conan for years when he was on his YouTube just singing you guys that long and now to see him and just like listen him, singing, it was so cool. Killani was good. I'm not going to lie. I didn't like the weed smell. I didn't it was like a whole weed smell there y'all. It was bad. um The people there weren't really the nicest, just kind of rude. And everyone just wanted to get drunk and I was just like well I mean it is Kaw. But when I'm thinking of colon, I'm thinking of kani that I grew up listening to and um yeah, it was just like everyone who liked Kani now, they like to get into that stuff. So, which makes sense, you know, but it was like definitely it was good hearing her voice, but there was even a fight that broke out you guys. I was like, this is so ghetto oh my what? So yeah, um but yeah, this year was like pretty busy for me. I like to say the least. It was very busy. um I did get to do fun things this year. um I hop to do fun things next year so I guess I'll just go on into the next year because really I kind of just talked about how this year was for me. um and I think I did pretty good a summarizing it. It was stressful. It was a lot. It got better at the end basically. It it got better in the end so I'm just so thankful for that. um but going into next year next year I have plans of traveling next year I have plans of um just more school, like more school, more travel, more talking to God and more connecting with God, more growing a relationship with God. um and I really mean that like, I feel like with this world it like guys, everything from presidency to um, like just life, like uh everyone who is dying, getting old, dying or accidents, dying, just different things that are happening. I like nothing is literally promised, you guys. And I've just seen like also a lot of my thought process has changed with the industry too. The industry is like pretty evil and I've been seeing a lot of that the God showed me a lot of that too. uh my face. So I could see it's not all that it needs to be. So I haven't been like I will say that I feel like the only thing that I've been crazy about this year where I'm just like oh my God they're amazing or not they're amazing, but the movie or play is amazing as wicked. I just saw wicked not too long ago for like twice I saw it twice and I'm hopefully going to be singing next week for a third time. Oh my God, it was so good, you guys. um I literally loved wicked and like for Christmas, my boyfriend got me a wicked bag and a wicked shirt. and I was like, oh my God, I love wicked in the name of Jesus. But um, yeah, because you know it's just the name, okay? It's not we don't like we don't condone wickedness, okay? It's we don't condone that at all. um but guess um I hope next year I really do hope that I'm able to do collabse you guys um I really love podcasting and I would love to do collabse with like um coorker or not coorkers Well, that could be a thought, like doing a coworker though too, but just like I meant like collabring with other podcasters um listening to more podcasts because sometimes I feel like I go through aut where I just want to listen to music and then I want to listen to podcasts that are not new and I'd rather stick to what I know. um and then other times when I do listen to new ones I get hooked so it's just kind of like the math isn't mathing, you know. But um yeah like I'm excited to see what God has in store for my podcast what wisdom he's going to give me so I can give to others. It's it's going to be exciting. Now, also with my hair, I am currently. I just took my locks down if you guys have seen my Instagram I have had copper red locks for three months now they've last for a while and they' fox foox foloxs, I believe is how you say it I've had them for three months. I took them down and now I am going to be dyeying my hair again and that I'm just going to do like a cub little twist um twist up, I think. Yeah. I think that's what we're going to do. So today is Saturday. um I have off today and I'm spending I spent yesterday taking it down after work and then yeah now I'm just going to diet again. um I want it to be more red. um I wanted to be more like a darker red, I think and more ombre. With a hint of copper, so we' going to see how we're going to get to that. But I'm so excited to you guys want to look at it. Please follow the Instagram at talking all day with Tay t a e okay, because, yeah, it's going to be great. I am so excited. Oh, I also forgot to say I'm like thinking of random things this year has also been crazy because my body has literally hated me like when I say my teeth has been hard to eat like fur all of this year. My um I've been constantly going in and out of the dentist. I'm so for real, you guys. um and I I don't know what it is. Like I had a wisdom I had a root canal. um I had wisdom to take it out in the past, but I had a root canal and I had gotten fillings because I had a lot of cavities and now I don't know what's going on with my teeth. I think knew I wasn't too out again. I haven't gotten like last time when I got him, it was two and I think I had to get the other two out. So my mouth has hated me where it hurts to literally eat sometimes like excruciating pain, keep in mind, so when I would go out, when I would do the side and the third, the constant pain constant I'm just now getting a hold of it like towards the end of the year where we're trying to figure out something, but honestly, I think these dentists just want my money, you know so I so my body is hated me. I think we finally figured out what's going on, but I'm not going to disclose it but just now we I think we're figuring it out because I've went to doctors on doctors for a lot of the issues that I've been having um um I've been trying to figure out. I already have PCOS, as you guys know, but I've been trying to figure out if it's like an irritable bowel syndrome my BS or if it's something else, but this gear my body literally has hated me to the point where at the beginning to the middle of this gear kind of towards the end, but not really I const well, yeah, yeah, to the end. I don't know what I'm talking about but to this whole year it's been where if I eat a lot of it's not even eat a lot of stuff. If I eat food, I throw up. I got to that point where it was like, okay, I already cut out pork and I also going me cut out beef because my body hates it. I eat chicken, I eat all the other stuff. I still throw up. I eat vegetarian food still throw up sweets throw up like I'm like, am I do I need to not have gluten? Do I need to not have dairy, like what is it? But it's like my throw up was really acidic so tea am I, but like it was very bad um to the point where I felt weak and not too long ago. It was super bad. So it was like, um not only managing work and like all of the things I said before, but also managing my health, like, and I keep in mind, I constantly go to the gym. I work out all the time. I really am the type of person that tries to find healthier or alternatives for food. I cut out a lot of protein. But I also am eating protein, so it's weird. Like I'm eating chicken, I'm eating like regular protein things that are good, but they're healthy grains, all of that. No, they said no. My stomach said no, so that was another part of the year where it was like oh, every time I wake up, I threw up every time I ate, I threw up medication helped oh, and then I did it so it just was like kind of going crazy with that as well. so I did have to learn how to operate and it was and it so like goddess is amazing because like I never had both at the same time. It was either my tooth was hurting when my tooth got better, my stomach hurt. stomach hurt throwing up like crazy. It started getting better, and then my tooth hurts again. It never had been for both of them. is just hurt, so that's just like a blessing honestly. um like the Lord knew he knows I cannot take that much like I really can't. and I'm thinking if I'm struggling now, how am I going to do pregnancy like in the future like that's crazy, but um yeah, right now we're getting a grasp of what it what's causing this and um all of that. And once I get like all specifics and stuff, I'll try to figure it out, you know, but yeah, definitely is not the funnest or not fun at all. And lastly, I think I'll just talk about my job. So you guys know that I've been teaching or I have like been teaching like what I said. um I worked at like a monasterory school and then I worked at daycares. I've worked at I volunteer at my church, you know, to work with the kids' ministry, but I've never done this before, so I started doing this in September where I took a job where I am working with kids with autism, so I am I had I was a behavioral therapist at first and then I got registered, so right now I am currently a registered behavioral therapist, so it sounds like like such a big title. Oh my gosh, but um yeah, my job right now it's just to work with kids that have autism, um teaching them social skills, social cues, um it's not I'm not even teaching. It's like I have a patient. They're my patients. So it's a therapy clinic. It's different, you know, than what I'm used to. I even had to work like still kind of close to the holiday. We didn't get them many days off, just because it's like a therapy clinic. and not like, oh, we're out of school for like two weeks or anything. but and it's like all year around, you know. So too. but it's so much fun. I love working with kids like it's just so fun um I definitely like it's different. Like I've worked with kids that have had autism before but it's always been associated with like uh, it may be one or two kids that like you could tell how autism and like a daycarer like in any of the past jobs that I've worked. It's never been a clinic where strictly just only kids with autism or I've never done that. And at the clinic that I work at, it's like you're working with kids one-on-one, like you have sessions. um so you see one kid and then you go see another kid and it's really nice. um it can be busy at times. It's not an easy job like if you love kids, I would say definitely do it. But if you are like a little hesitant or if and I'm not talking about I love kids. I'm talking about if you would literally let a kid like if they're choking or like whatever, you would let them spin in your hand. Love kids like I'm so for real. You would love kids like if there were your own kids. I'm so for real. um because I'm saying this because like a lot of people, they tend to get jobs with kids and they really don't care about the kids' wellbeing. And that's one of like my pet peeves, I think, that I really hate is when kids aren't appreciated or if you are looking at a kid like they're dumb when they're really not, yeah. So I was like, well, this is the perfect job for me because I know these kids are really smart. I know these kids are geniuses and um I know these kids are just trying to learn how to express themselves. And if I can do that and teach a kid how to say hi or to talk to an adult to talk to a fellow peer of his or hers that's just going to make me feel so much better. It's going to make me feel like I'm doing my job right. um I really like my job. I really like working with the people that I work with now. Like there are a lot of fun. They make the job like definitely like worth coming in because some days you know we we be tired but it's really nice to like actually get to know meet more people like I said, I love meeting people, but then it's also like I do love my circle of friends already. So it's just more so like if I meet somebody, if I know you have good energy, I'm not just someone to be like oh, I have enough friends. I don't need you. You know, but I definitely appreciate having a small circle of friends where like friends that I see pretty frequently. I do have um a lot of friends, I will say. A lot of people say that I do. I I'm just like I know this person. I thought yeah, they're they're my friend they're my friend. And then it's like you count on your fingers and you're like hang, I guess I do have a lot. But it I honestly feel like the friends that I have, we're getting older to the point where we're going through different paths in our lives right now to where it's like ew it's like you don't have to talk to them every day to know that how close you are uh whether the friends that grew up with or the friends that I have just met. It's like it's everyone kind of knows that everyone is struggling or everybody's busy right now so you're taking that into account to making friends or, you know, setting up hangout days and stuff and it's pretty nice. um I do have like friends that I do consider my best friends and those are friends that I always see who I really just know I can trust, and I think that's another thing this year. I literally learned it's okay to stay who is your bestie who is your friend and who was an acquaintance? okay that's a boundary too not everyone's your best friend what I've learned um and I feel like with that I'm still just constantly learning. just because I'm such like a a I don't know, I get excited with like any sort of like social interaction. So I'm sometimes I'm like, oh my God, we're besties. Like only met each other for like a month, but, you know, this year I definitely have been doing that more where I'm like, okay, I know it's okay to say that people are your coworkers. You know, it's okay to save people are your friends. your best friends. acquaintances, a friend of a friend, like you can use those titles, okay, you guys. You definitely can. And it no ill will towards you. It's nothing that's just making you pick anyone out of a crowd. No it's just that's what you want to do that's what you do. And that's what I've also done as well. um but I have had co- I feel like I'm my job now. I have co-orkers and I have friends. um where I would count somebody as my friends, someone who I know that is like really supportive, really fun, really energetic and funny, and, you know, like I just haven't happy to always see. And then I have coworkers where it's just like we have a good time. We you know, we're just getting through work together, but we tolerate with each other. We're chill and then we may have coworkers that are just like, you don't really talk to. That's that's and that's just that. Everyone does not have to be your friend, you know. But like that this year with like working with the kids and like just me growing with that like I really love kids you guys. I just really feel like even if I wanted to work with kids I feel like a lot of teachers and a lot of people don't get the money that they deserve with working with kids. I feel like in this in this sense, I am teaching still is just more of therapy than teaching, but it's like how are we not giving teachers therapists enough credit for what they're doing when they're really helping grow the new people today that are going to be the new doctors, the new lawyers, the new um, like new teachers themselves, like it's just, you know, like I don't know, but I always know that whatever I do, I do want to associate my job with children. and I can do that in stenography of course. So it's just perfect. I I just love working with kids, so, yeah. But yeah, you guys, I've been talking from like 46 minutes. Oh, like 45, 46 minutes, but I really enjoy talking with Erith not talking. Well, I am talking with you guys. I am. I really hope that you guys have a wonderful 2025 year. I'm praying for a lot of peace, abundance for the Lord to just have his hand on your life and I'm so excited to see what he has in store for me. um if even if he says he needs me to chill out on the podcast and I kind of calm down, or if he wants me to grow in the podcast, you know, it's like whatever he wants to do and we'll do it and that's just a given, you know. um and I'm just so excited. I'm really excited. I love how I feel like how I'm growing as a person. Like I really feel like good now, especially towards the end of this year. I feel like for the last couple of months, I've been feeling more like pumped up and more like ready, but also scared for the next year because it is's a new year. You never know what's going to happen. New Year can bring a lot of trials, to relations, all of that. But I know that I want to be in the right headspace. So if I'm in the right headspace, I know I'm on the right track and then I'm on the right track, I know where I'm going and this side and the third, of course. But think you guys so much for tuning in and listening to my podcast. I if you haven't heard the last one, I hope you did. It was a really good one. It was a little Bible study session because I was like okay I need Jesus. I need Jesus, you know, like I was like I need you. So I started like it was inspired after just kind of like a whole rut I was having and I was like I just need something to make me feel better. I need the word of the Lord and when I was reading Isaiah because we read Isaiah, it just got me pumped up to just talk about God's goodness and that's how that whole episode really started. So I really hope you guys enjoyed it. I hope you guys enjoyed this episode. I know I've been rambling, but I just, you know, wanted to have a episode where it was pretty raw, like not edited that much, pretty chill, something that I could just put out that I knew was good content. Like you guys know I'm all about putting out good content. So if it was good content, which I know that kind of um doesn't make sense when I also said I just been posting whatever. Like but I think what it is is like, if it's my podcast content, I want it to be structured, but like to the point where it's not just random episodes that I felt like I only gave half energy in. I feel like what this episode I'm giving full energy, so I feel confident to post it, of course, if it was an episode where I didn't know where it was going, what I was talking about, um which is most of my episodes honestly, but like if I really felt like it was just not going to benefit a person for listening to, I would definitely not post it. And I'm telling you that right now, because I'm not going to I want to do episodes where I know if I hear myself later, I'm not going to just be like you, you know, like to the point where I'm just like girl, you're annoying. No, I just wanted to be to where I'm like yeah, I talked about this. I talked about that. And I feel confident in what I talked about. If that makes any sense at all, but thank you guys so much for listening to the podcast. I hope that you guys enjoy it. Please pray I get my tick back you guys cause I just like having TikTok so and I have all my same videos and everything on there so I'm like y'all email TikTok and tell them to give t by toos um Tik back on, okay? Because yeah, like what I have so many videos I want to show my parents and family and friends. if I can't, so it is what it is. But anyways, thank you guys so much for listening to talking all day lift day. I hope you guys have a wonderful day and I will talk to you guys next year on talking all they would say I love you guys so much